Yeah Yeah

You won't end up being exactly the Leo your now avatar can observe, you'll never be that Leo, that Leo is a dream you are dreaming right now for this particular avatar

Hope I don't have to reincarnate and I'll wake up as unconditional love and choose to stay in heaven

@Mellowmarsh I actually agree even my own life is completely pointless meaningless enslaved and trapped completely pointless and meaningless

@Mellowmarsh yeah, so you're simply aware. Cool. Simple, I suppose, and interesting too. Although apparently you're still human and therefore limited. So what's the point of escaping into the ‘now’ or trying to become more present in the moment? Why? Is it because you're broken and trying to escape something, or because you're trying to become more loving or productive?

Right, I get what you're saying, but isn't like conciousness beyond space? So you mean a void? But then where or what is that void? You can't give it a now, or a here, or a space - yet as a hypothisies awareness or I am can exist as an experience of those even imaginatively as a possibility to exist if not in physics like time travel or dimensional travel or Lightspeed, so these do and can exist as an experience to the degrees of infinite possibilities, but conciosuenss or awareness is not any of that

@Mellowmarsh okay but is now actually eternal, or like is there an outside of the now, you say there is no outside of now, but isn't now a time construct of conciosuenss, like now and eternity can't be the same thing, because now is a time construct which tries to solidify a changing universe which you must adapt to, whereas I'm sure even eternity is changing as part of conciosuness and existence or there is no being.

But that is the hypothetical of an intelligent infinite god but while finite this would be forgotten and unable to validate in theory

Or you exist as god manifested into this now moment and there was never a past and God can infinitely pretend to be finite in any moment of a lifetime and forget and remember and forget and can instantly materialize into a life at any moment even after death return to a life as if it hadn't died in a parallel reality if it is infinitely intelligent and powerful and there is no death just as there is no birth or history

Imagine you couldn't imagine at all

And as you know there are plenty of survival distortions or madness ideas about god and death and existential reality of love which we humans contradict each other. Being human can easily confuse you about absolute Goodness, we are all limited with amnesia, but that's again your own personal spiritual development and not what others might make you fear or worry about ultimately

Also keep in mind that Gods Goodness after death is zero depression, zero anxiety, zero sadness, zero abandonment, zero confusion, zero pain only Goodness, that is your truest nature, not what you and other people while physical might distort about the reality of god

Actually the more you attune to the spiritual realm and gods infinite love which contains pure all capital G for Goodness you will only have greater clarity, not the opposite effect, it'll be instead connectedness, home, understanding, peace and clarity. Expansion of conciosuenss will be your true self of love not distorted madness which would be more human programming and cultural weariness

Lol okay Matrix Neo

@Toranvor This is too vague

Am I allowed to commit suicide I want to die and never reincarnate as a human never again