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@Consept Simple question, where is there disrespect? That's where there's proportional distance. You have to be the one though who decides how much distance that is emotionally (how much are they in your heart), psychologically (how much time do they take up) and physically though. If they're sometimes 'dragging you into...' that means there are issues when it comes to enforcing your boundaries because in the past you haven't been decisive on the distance and because of that, its eroded your boundaries where now you're no longer sure of where to make clear cut decisions emotionally, psychologically and physically with respect to how they take up your space. The best way to approach this is to CONSCIOUSLY which means denying impulses to the contrary begin to INSTALL BOUNDARIES relative to genuine misbehaviour you're uncomfortable with, something you could even test by simply starting a conversation with them at a genuine authentic level rather than trying to bait them into the boundary as that isn't going to do anything healthy for the way you appraise said guilt you experience, To the level they show disrespect then you've got to be the one that goes inward to decide on those three levels how that practically corresponds to how you will in return as a man respond to the situation while holding your own authority. I deal with things head on, so I don't really like the grey rock thing I like to be straight up with people and literally just tell them "Hey I think you're an x" can we have a discussion about it and if they can't be mature about it then its just the installation of boundaries accordingly in a nuanced stage by stage non-dramatic way in the ideal scenario, because think about it, unless you're doing with kids that you also have authority over towards installing the right maturity in them why are you wasting time trying to speak to them about their own immaturity whatever category of immaturity that is? The more nuance you can approach the situation with, the more in integrity with your self you're going to feel, the situation and the other person / people involved wherever that may be the case. Otherwise you're doing great.

@Emerald God I'm so sorry you went through that. @Princess Arabia Value differentiation = Internal Cultural value / Maturity = positive correlation with measurably real external survival value. In conversation I think that's what we mean when we're on a spirituality forum, if we were on a toxic reddit forum our underlying assumptions about what we deemed mature in this context would probably be different. For me just to broach this conversation more generally a high value woman = Long term marriage & family material (LTMFM) ). That's only in the last 12 months or so though. Many say marriage is over and I completely agree, as most people are too immature for it because of our decaying cultural standards, hence why to get any maturity these days we have to much more strive for an internal culture over an external one. Inside or outside wanting or deciding to/not have children, following this metric is still going to make a woman high value in my eyes. If you're a woman or man and you want marriage and children, don't mess around. 80% plus of the population are no good for it even if on paper it looks like they're passing. Get your shit together, stick to your plan and don't fall in love fall in alignment across several categories of consciousness: health, intelligence, heart, future desires. People believe that we're meant to fall in love through what is clinical delusion when in reality, it meant to be in connection across several areas of sanity. Three simple questions are needed to make the determination, "do you like one another and will this stay the same in 5 years what would change this result and are you both capable of simulating through this intelligently?", "could you raise children genuinely well together in the future?" and "what changes would either of you need to make in order to bring a positive resolve for both question two relative to any weaknesses you noticed?" Most relationships have such fragile ego boundaries that they'd completely collapse in deep discussion of the first question as it brings to surface hidden things they never bothered to face head on together about and for the second question, it really highlights the present dynamics of the relationship and whether that would fit in a family context, for example perhaps one of the spouses is particularly self-absorbed, selfish and just, not in reality but the other one is codependent, so then the codependent starts to either realise they'd be doing most of the work or they imagine a fantasy scenario whereby the selfish one is going to magically change, which won't happen, and that the kids will adapt normally as things progress through the changes the partner makes, which they won't. And lastly for question three, you should never begin a relationship based on how your partner is going to be good/better in the future otherwise, why are you with them in the present? Uncomfortable truths are quickly faced and ideally evolved from there. Most of us will fail in our relationships, statistically, so we need to be mature about how we approach our understandings here and really mould our approach to reflecting who we truly want to be and are deep on the inside. For me, a woman I want to marry has slightly less to a woman I want to have children with, and I'd say right now that's where my transition is. I don't make any of this stuff a priority though, I know I'll easily find the right woman when I'm ready to. Finding a woman to start a successful family with is arguably much easier than finding the right woman to marry, however if I can sort out family, marriage kinda sorts itself out as it means I've already vetted relative to more objective measurements anyway if that's what I'm prioritising. So 'high/low' value can also shift and have nuance to it relative to our personal existential context and changing the mirror upon which we view that, helps our decision making, like staying away from toxic reddit threads.

Magnitude Learning Firstly, let's get this out of the way, I’ll let the video do the talking concerning an update from the previous page. Video Shifting from: (1) Scene of the crime (2) Hospital (3) Back in action, walking first then will slowly building to running. As I said, don’t ask me how it’s possible, I honestly don’t know. I should at least have torn, fractured or properly injured something, however I haven’t, the so called football leg I mentioned seems like it was listening to Kanye West over the 5-6 hour period of my sleep in the hospital because the very next morning after I took off the bandages at little later, everything had calmed down significantly to the point where it only looked like I incurred a slight graze, I was utterly shocked more than I already was that I even survived. Moving on, have changed my schedule now no longer running (when I’m functional again) at night only early in the morning and the afternoon and using the time in between for everything else in my life including meditation. Whatever you’re going through, stay strong, stay smart and stay committed. From the way our heart functions to the way it communicates with our brain to help forge our filters, sense and subsequent interpretations of reality, life is about momentum in the right directions as we experience the effects of our efforts years down the line looking back. —————————————————————————— What is Magnitude Learning? Disclaimer: Bias towards those that can hold visual images in their mind. Simply change the example to one that serves your appropriate learning style. Magnitude Learning is equivalent to the establishment of a hierarchy on the level to which one is deeply learning not only just about an object, phenomenon or perception of any kind, however as a process of making a subject out of magnitude learning, one is learning how to learn from the perspective of the overlap between (1) self-awareness, how they engage with experience and (2) their experience of consciousness, so the relationship between states of consciousness, experience of learning within that consciousness state and in doing so from a practical perspective, learning how to strategically prioritise states of consciousness for the benefit of one’s self-awareness and in doing so, their learning within consciousness and its experiences. Moving forward, instead of going through the ins and outs of a ducks ass on how a zombie-human learns about reality as a function of discussing the lowest ‘magnitudes’ or levels of learning, we’re instead going to get to the brass tax of everything by simply first and foremost focusing on a ground level solution level by level. In short, there are two primary qualities to focus on in deepening one’s magnitude of learning, “Emotional Filter of processing” and “Cognitive Filter of processing”. It is better to think of them as filters because then you can act practically about not only both the incorporation of intuition (i.e. “I’m sensing this”) and logic (i.e. “I clearly (don’t) see this”) on your experience, but also using the very same process of intuition and logic on both intuition (i.e. “where do I sense I may be biased here?) and logic (i.e. “I had x experience earlier today which has clearly impacted my judgement on y”) as the medium of their incremental advancement, which is precisely what this is about with that just being one of the layers of the same broader feedback loop between awareness and consciousness for self-development here. This naturally turns into a continuous feedback loop between “Identity Opening” to “Consciousness Closure” as the ego’s natural competition with awareness to define itself in awarenesses living space of indefinability. Remember, ‘ego’ is not bad, in fact that’s a very healthy function, it’s about where perspective meets relativity in defining absolutism in the balance between flow and solidarity, order and chaos. In this sense, let’s look at ego as your sail in the wind, the “consciousness placement” of your chosen closure in the context of the level of emotional and broader energetic openness you’re able to handle for this present level of your bioelectrical agency, or if you’re not familiar on this terminology as I’ve shared my coining of it before, the “psychological health” of your nervous system like that of your heart and gut, and in return, how this influences those filters that are subsequently forged by consciousness as a consequence of the principle of biopsychological cause and effect. This is why ‘ego’ is defined as a ‘survival function’ because your consciousness is literally closing on a position in the balance between the seemingly infinite and finite in order to give you your sense of ‘reality’, the matrix that sits in the middle of explaining your unique juxtaposition between consciousness bandwidth and capacity. More broadly then, ‘Magnitude Learning’ is not only going to provide the reader with an in depth understanding on the levels of learning its also going to help them understand how the intersection between learning, perception, experience and interpretation informs identity formation and how the medium between awareness (zero point of consciousness), intention (placement of consciousness) and agency (final closure of consciousness) can be leveraged for one’s consciousness evolution via achieving higher states of deeper learning. This is why its called “Magnitude Learning” and not “hierarchical learning”, as magnitude can more generally encompass the breath, scope, spectrum and depth of learning whereas “hierarchical learning” isn’t a category that would normally encompass multiple subject lines in this case, the exploration of the dynamic between ego, identity, consciousness and learning in a hierarchy representative of how a framework representative of their simultaneity can operate as a practical function that also serves progression up the hierarchy. “Spiral Dynamics” actually works in a similar way, so in a sense I could call it something similar to “Spiral Learning” however don’t we all love the Austin Powers film reference to “Liquid Magma” (humour for those unfamiliar)? Level 1 Establishing Ground Communication with Self-Consciousness: Learning how the way we interpret the past informs the present. What is a cup? What is the way I am remembering the cup that comes to mind? What are the emotional impulses that are coming up as I remember a specific cup? As you engage with these three questions pay very close attention to the way that your ego functions in the context of your self-awareness to justify your own experiences relating to the simplicity of this experience. Notice how for example, you might feel: Frustrated by the triviality of the experiences Sad that you’re maybe not able to engage with the task at hand Disappointed as you completely understand the task at hand but you were expecting something of much higher abstraction that was going to test your ability cognitize everything linguistically before you so far Superior as you enjoy the task and you’re interested in learning more however you don’t believe truly that this is going to benefit you as you’re already very intelligent and not many things challenge you Open, ready and curious about what’s ahead without any expectations thereby allowing you to act creatively as opposed to pre-emptively based on assumptive reasoning We can refer to these as “Identity funnels” (as opposed to calling them “Ego funnels” we can refer to them as “Identity funnels” to refer to this process as representative of an aspect of Ego funnels and not necessarily the whole), because they have two components: (1) Emotion or energy (2) Underlying or conscious cognitization that is acting to positively reinforce the emotion thereby positively reinforcing the states of consciousness that create the identity to the point of becoming self-sustained “Identity-self-reinforcement” until we have “Egoic self-imprisonment”. “Egoic self-imprisonment” is basically when the ego now feels too threatened to question its own identity and therefore creates its own prison walls corresponding to the specific ego context. One of the biggest misconceptions in modern psychology is people perceive it as an “ego backlash” however its actually not, its more an “Identity backlash”, and its the identity that has basically taken the ego hostage to the point where its not able to entertain alternative energetic hypotheses, so cognitive or emotional, on “how reality is” whether internally/externally. This is given straightforward “truth-validity” by simply seeing how the ego feels more free after you pretend that the related identity doesn’t even exist after attempting to try something else, it reveals that there’s an “add 1” to ego rather than just merely being a contraction of the ego because the ego wants to serve its purpose, to help you survive and grow in this reality and the more you align with this truth rather than seeing it as a hindrance, your perceived opportunities for emotional and cognitive consciousness learning will open up dramatically. This “Identity-self-reinforcement” is the direct repetitive manipulation on the way the ego computes its final closure on reality, thereby representative of a “funnel” that moulds reality to positively reinforce the ego’s identity so it maintains ‘identity-consistency’ because the ego feels that it needs the temporary to long, partial to significant identity in order to help it survive. Awareness being the only direction to ‘self’, it provides the most organic modulation of that false-consistency where there becomes a natural shift to self-consistency through awareness rather than self-consistency via the illusion of achieving ‘identity-consistency’. The latter being what most sentiences without enough awareness or knowledge of how to employ to shift, change and adapt mathematically have no choice for better or for worse but to concede to its maladaption, like those awesome k-nine specimens attempting to chase me down at night while wanting to make friends with me during the day, there is ‘contextual modulation’, in this case, time of day, on their own ego structure that defines their temporal relationship to me and it of course, explains the to and throw of all other kinds of human relationship dynamics that occur, including too then, why a lion will love their trainer in one instance then as a result of being triggered by something unrelated to their owner, eats their trainer in the next; an example that perfectly explains why I am now devoting myself to spending so many hours in meditation each day so that I can employ as much agency as possible over these dynamics within my own personal egoic structure and its continual ‘fight for survival’ amidst my brief playful detachments when I venture back and forth from it when I visit infinity; not a pun on psychedelics, have not yet had. And after-all, concerning the lion and any other analogous example, what is maladaptive to awareness enhancement is not necessarily of course maladaptive to what is already an identity consciously or unconsciously developed that serves as an environmental adaptation based on its survival pressures, enter stage left “Rainbow Wolf” for humour as a reference to my first post of this journal. Thus, moving back to “Learning how the way we interpret the past informs the present”. To further add, “learning how…”, even up to the way we re-perceive reality opens up the way we can shift awareness and in doing so, shift our identities to break open our consciousness. Inside this opening, like light piercing through a crack inside those noted old egoic prison walls that defined a self-reinforcing identity-structure previously thought unreproachable, new ‘true self space’ is created via this positive reactive formation of the ego. And inside this new space, this self auto-renewal because possible as a positive ego-reaction-formation. Consciousness organically becomes open to higher experiences with the past by the reimagining of phenomenological stimuli through the inspired instinctual curiosity that follows. A positive egoic reaction formation that expands the self and its consciousness learning into the subtlety of their phenomenological depth, thereby opening the gateway of continual re-learning that acts as an ongoing positive identity that renews the ego into the exploration of higher consciousness learning; greater magnitude learning. ‘Positive’ reaction formation here is the natural juxtaposition of the negative egoic reaction formation that you have probably already intuited is the ‘adaptive identity formation’ that was created to serve the ego for the environment at the time in which it served its context either evolutionarily or socially but is now ‘maladaptive’ relative to serving the environment of one’s consciousness and its environmental growth. Returning back to the example of the cup, we can now avoid misinterpreting our responses to how we re-perceive our memories of a cup in this context as either ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ but simply whether they serve the environmental context of our understandings about the world. If our consciousness learning has been trained to the point where its normal for our neurology to positively reinforce a myopic perspective, at any level, then your response is not ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ but instead adaptive for the ego’s environmental context, even if its counter to the ego’s growth and instead benefits its own self-destruction, its because a particular identity-belief matrix is being supported unknowingly or knowingly as ‘good’ that then to the sentience it becomes at least analogously a ‘moral good’ to serve the ego’s self-destruction in preservation of the identity. Moving forward, start thinking of ‘identity’ as a prosthetic and ego as natural to serving our original nature rather than ‘ego’ as the prosthetic to our awareness and you will be able to much more seamlessly add and subtract said prosthetics in the name of serving what your ego truly wants, its growth and survival. Understanding this first level of the dynamic between consciousness self-states (emotion + cognition and broader energy), consciousness perception (awareness + self-interpretative agency) and their subsequent feedback loop into higher growth or regression is the first stage to opening up one’s potential into this first level of magnitude learning. By learning to access the interpretation of emotion and cognition via both intuitive and logical lenses that self-inform their growth via meta-awareness, we can transform the simple achievement of meta-awareness into meta-ascendence via deeper magnitude learning that leverages dual-self-awareness of the feedback loops between how reality and ego self-inform and create one another within consciousness and its making. As a practical exercise into this first level, return to the cup you first imagined and begin to re-experience it following the taking in of this new information. How has your vision of the cup changed? Make that an important note, become self-aware of what underpinned that experience. Continue to identify the relates feelings and consciousness states you’re experiencing while imagining the cup. What are positive one’s, what are negative one’s? How does the fact that you’re learning this from me as the author affect your judgement of the cup and your interaction with the exercise? Can you separate the emotional experiences and synthesise them to a more enlightened one that enhances your perspective and subsequent engagement into the task? Let’s get more into the hidden intuitive processing that’s occurring, imagine a biographical memory that involves a cup, listen to your heart and gut as you engage within this memory, what happens to it? How does the change in context shape the way your heart and gut engages with the learning of the experience of the cup? At this level, we can begin to build an intuitive mental framework for how emotions and thoughts build and are built from nervous system responses like those created by our heart and gut and in return, bicreatively engineer the experience of the ego via the symbiotic interaction between identity along with the beliefs and frameworks that underlay it, using self-questioning and awareness as a symbiotic tool, the triad of awareness, imagination and consciousness begin to open and now we can begin to plant the seeds for identity reformation and subsequent egoic expansion to its higher spiritual limits. Further as we engage deeper and deeper into the simplicity of this task, what’s unfolding is the purity of your understanding of the spectrum of your emotional bandwidth on your phenomenological experiences that in return self-inform the subsequent cognitive exposure that you experience within your consciousness as either positive to negative stimulation to explore the cup further, where as you move down the emotional scale your cognitive spectrum of consciousness possibilities you can imagine for stimuli will weaken whereas as you move up the emotional scale, your subsequent cognitive spectrum will enhance and in return your consciousness bandwidth grow much more closer to the optimal balance between the limits of your cognitive capacities and their growth. As we move deeper into the levels of “Magnitude Learning” we’re opening up our understanding of where the spectrum of our emotional experience informs and is informed by our cognitive experiences via the limits of identity and freedoms of the ego both evolutionarily and more broadly biologically, and although I don’t necessarily agree with the model in its entirety its of course something we see perfectly emulated in the progression of the ego as it moves up the hierarchy of spiral dynamics. Emotion re-informs cognition which re-forms identity formation and ego boundaries relative to its potential. Through “Magnitude Learning” we’re simultaneously exploring those limits while enhancing them as close as possible to our potential in the moment and then deepening them overtime via the creation of a framework that’s self-serving to this path for the ego’s development and subsequent magnitude of its learning from, as and into consciousness. Our goal moving forward is to understand and utilise as many of the cognitive, emotional and broader energetic mechanisms that create consciousnesses perception of any one phenomenon like a ‘cup’ and then be able to genuinely plug into the Matrix’s Simulacrum (Virtual Reality Training Simulator that Neo was plugged into to learn karate really fast) to enhance our phenomenological experience of the phenomenon and our subsequent consciousness learning. In level, we’re only just learning to see how emotion influences our perception and subsequent cognitive and emotional engagement, to finish this level, you’re going to go from the beginnings of previously stated self-questioning, to shifting between cognitive and emotional lenses to entertain how different feelings and thoughts you can self-provoke on a phenomenon in return alter your experience and subsequent learning of the phenomenon thereby influencing the magnitude of your learning relating to the experience. So, in level 1 we’ve just received an intellectual toy that’s teaching us the beginnings of how we can convert a simple intellectual toy into eventually, a radical alteration in identity and subsequent way our ego builds its value hierarchy for what it deems adaptive to its survival vs maladaptive and in return, aligning the way our consciousness learns from our environment to intersect with the existential path that also evolves our consciousness. Magnitude Learning is the answer to the question of how much of the true depth of our own emotional, cognitive and broader energetic experience is being maximised for the benefit of how our consciousness learns from our environment. In level 1, we touch on the feedback loop between emotion and thought where we begin to understand through that lens, how it informs the lens of identity formation and the subsequent limits of the ego and how it defines what positively or negatively informs its adaptation to its environment. In level 1 we’ve begun to imagine the possibility for how we can learn to prune and grow identity in a way in which ego is able to serve not only the immediate external environment as it pertains to survival but also our internal environment where its survival instead is more determined by our commitment to the growth and advancement of our consciousness. We’ve unplugged ourselves from a few untruths and blindspots for how to perceive the dynamic between perception, states of consciousness, ego, identity and how our greater overall energy of consciousness is in direct relationship with the magnitude of our consciousness learning while plugging into the beginnings of how we can plant the seeds to moving up the scale of magnitude learning as as both an indirect and direct pathway to consciousness evolution. By learning the beginnings of how we hold in mind a simple memory of a cup and how the energetic limits of our emotion and cognition are influencing our ego freedom vs identity limits, vice versa, and then learning to leverage awareness within the stability of the rest of our nervous system (i.e. your heart and gut) for self-questioning, we’re getting direct clear insight on the constrainment vs opening of our consciousness and subsequent freedom to experience life all around and within us, and subsequently, live the life of where heightened magnitude learning equals heightened maximum existential meaning. The beginnings of this theoretical framework will serve as the foundation by which I share a deeper example of Magnitude Learning being in this case, my recent accident involving how I was struck by an uncoordinated motorcycle driver at night while running. Yes, while running, so that makes the physics regarding the outcome there even more interesting. Best Light.

@r0ckyreed Pretty damn easy bro. That's why we use probability, "X is repeatedly here therefore....". The likelihood that I am typing this comment right now is 99.99% true. That .1% leaves room for the possibility that I am actually Caesar from Planet of The Apes, at least analogously.

@Basman f no. I've never had therapy but I basically have an advanced+ degree in self-awareness, etc. If you don't have that, do both. I mean, just go and see a very good therapist to help with your journaling it'll only cost you a few hundred bucks and you'll be journaling 10X better than you otherwise would have. Do research and use your intuition on who's likely to help you on your path here. Your path here obviously isn't meant to be go and see a therapist, its obviously to learn from a therapist as well as anything else you can do on how to develop your self-awareness so you don't need them anymore. So do that. Don't mess around with it, get it done. You also have Meta-AI for example, just use that, then feedback loop your learning experience with an ACTUAL therapist and you'll NATURALLY continually grow from there. Don't think you're all crash hot and get overconfident, its so incredibly valuable to have feedback from extremely good insightful people/therapists, even if they're sometimes a little off, you use the feedback to grow regardless.

@Dana1 and then women would complain that 'He can't speak for women as he's NOT a woman!' or perhaps a transexual will come and say 'Well what about US!' But just to add my 2 cents to the whole attraction thing, if a woman likes you she'll just suck your dick right then and there with you barely having to say a thing. I'm being purposefully direct but it's true. Usually I go on about theory but seriously, if any man reading this reverse engineers how that's even possible beyond a man's physical appearance you'll (1) understand how female attraction works (2) understand why your dick isn't being sucked just off on a whim. Your goal should never be to get your dick sucked off the cuff and mine never is, that's utterly absurd and honestly disgraceful intentionality. However I'm at the same time a super open minded guy exploring every consciousness possibility in the moment as much as my hearts content so if it feels right then these things unfold by themselves, I am just interested in ascending my consciousness. I'm not at all a player and would never become one however I (1) love genuinely talking to, connecting with and understanding people when things feel right and it feels like there's good vibration there and (2) love as I said exploring energy, energetic possibilities and explorations and that would just come off on me I'm guessing. This isn't all the time though, right now I'm pretty introverted as I like to spend my time integrating my past experiences, however if you subtract either 1 or 2, now all of a sudden I need to learn 'game' in an artificial way simply because I have a sex drive and I'm looking to get a high off of it rather than it just being a natural part of genuinely wanting to learn, understand and grow from human interactions. 'Game' is just a business model that takes advantage of the memetic stupidity that's surfaced in the last few decades (sometimes to good end, and sometimes its purposefully used to rope in the brainwashed so you can feed them wholesome stuff), you've gotta escape the matrix and just be an f'ing human and remember the other person is an f'ing human as well and not be so f'ing self-absorbed so you can empathise and if the other person doesn't get that either well the vibe shouldn't be there and from that point on you should be asking your intelligence why the f you haven't moved on yet to continue growing from life as you're wasting your time now. And I totally know what that's like by the way, I'm not some supreme super intelligence here, its taken me time to see through all the noise and establish that signal as a life path to move continuously forward with as a foundation for developing and being grounded by the maturity that comes from that ongoing feedback loop of experiencing, integrating, growing and doing the whole thing all over again until I'm ready to say my last words on my tombstone, "We did it, so did trillions of others. Do it better."

INTRODUCTION: Let’s move on from the previous page, it needs zero attention. Remember, people get hurt every day in almost every moment, I am just one person. Take this moment to have a thought for all those on this planet that are genuinely in deep pain and are struggling to find the strength to push on, let’s have them in our prayers for this brief moment. We’re now moving into incredibly deep territory now that I have a bit of “leg room” and greater “foresight”, pun intended of course 🤣, up my sleeve. Unless it becomes inorganic to do so, like I’ll probably be pulled away for social stuff sometimes, we’re now driving our motorcycle of truth deep into 20+ hour sessions of my own personalized meditations. We’re diving deep into the ocean of the soul like I’ve never dove deep before for the achievement of what we all know I’m after. The first new paradigm I’m going to bring to you is, “Magnitude Learning”.It’ll blow your eye socket out I tell you what! These will now be shared as “creative works”. After-all given I’ll be meditating for so long it would defy physics if “focused intelligence” didn’t get a boost. Magntitude Learning sounds very buzz wordy and it is, but without the fluff. Yal know outside of humor I’m anti-fluff, so if you can be patient enough to learn what I’ve uncovered this morning as a consequence of my reflections on yesterdays events and this whole trip since Vietnam 🇻🇳 , it’ll change your life forever I promise you. A sincere thank you ❤️ again to all of the staff at the hospital who are diligently working to serve the patients here, may your own travels stay true, safe and fortuitous. Best Light, stay strong.

So I ended up deleting my earlier post to the ADF marketing ad on Facebook that was a follow up to the parody shared here. I’m honestly a bit disappointed in my behavior and if I never made that post this wouldn’t have happened even though I’m lucky enough to say that this has been an extremely valuable lesson for me to learn from where I’m glad that I had for the reasons shared in the previous post. It’s behaviour I wouldn’t want my future children to exhibit unless under certain conditions which I don’t in this case fall under. Humor is humor granted, then there’s contextual delivery and for me at this time of my life my mind should have been preoccupied with other things as per my above recent declaration following the event that’s just transpired with the motorbike accident. I won’t of course delete the post here because it’s a log of my behavior and therefore a continual feedback loop in translating experience to wisdom to greater intelligence, however uniquely and creatively we sometimes need to be open minded to finding that. Otherwise another shout-out to Mei-lan Maurits & Ali Pervez Mehdi that I mentioned above, I’d prefer they take the spotlight over my injury noted in the previous post. Beautiful music to listen to and inspire towards being able to emulate in my own way ❤️😎. As always, Best Light.

So I’m at the hospital right now… No biggie, I’ll be alright, just a minor hiccup… Let’s jump to it though. [😎😎See brief YT video at the end of this post showing my battle scars while at the local hospital 😎😎] The other guys hand eye coordination while riding his motorbike towards me while I was tracking down the road, not so great. It was a worthwhile experience, a few millimeters to the left and I would have lost my eyesight, among other possibilities of course. Not losing focus. If I can’t run I can still train my AMCC (see previous pages) via meditation, as that’s where I need to focus anyway to truly take my running progress to the next level. I’m not sure how long my left leg is going to be out, good news on the x-rays but there’s no way I can’t walk on it right now, it looks like an NFL football 🏈 injected itself into the opposite side of where my calf muscles are. I’ve already started learning from the experience, it was good to see how my sympathetic nervous system and the rest of my body and awareness reacted to the situation moments pre-hit all the way to when the doctors were sizing up the final stitches around my eye. It was interesting, as soon as I felt the blow I automatically sensed my being just sizing up everything that happened, determining what it’s next move was going to be. The driver was barely scraped and yet I was the one helping him up off the ground while bleeding profusely. He was in shock, my body went into practical action mode. My brain had already informed my conscious mind that it had released pain numbers and was going to be introducing that punishment hours after the event so that I could act intelligently now, even though I was a bit surprised by the lack of pain and the ease by which I got up given I was just hit by a motorbike clocking in at least 50km an hour. Theres no point asking me how I casually withstood that. Zero. It’s strange. I just simply dusted myself off, made sure he was alright, ensured he was safe with others then just continued tracking onwards until I hit the hospital. I’m grateful that in my genetic lineage we have a survival mode built in as a fail safe for crisis situations so we’re able to act swiftly, effectively and practically. My father, brothers and I could have a bone sticking out of our arm while we’re holstering someone else to safety with the other. I don’t know what it is. It’s weird. But it’s got another side to it I don’t like that I believe is related. When it’s nondiscriminantly activated as is what’s meant to happen in a survival situation, it’s a real threat to those our biology deems a threat. Good for the military, but only when you’re following instructions, and that’s not me as yal know. Per se, there’s some grey areas to that. As per my meditation assignment for project meta-ascendence (not transcendence anymore as I don’t like the name), we want me to achieve a higher level of bioelectrical agency where I’m entirely driven by love. I have a kind of beastly aggression that I worry about sometimes. I have never hurt anyone before outside of protecting another or setting a boundary, though it lives within me and I must mature it to a much higher level. I can get easily manipulated by that energy that comes with it, the ego can leverage it to its own gains in ways that work counter to my long term spiritual goals that I must bring a higher truth to. For whatever strength and power any aspect of my psychology feels it can gain from this aspect of myself, I must teach it that it can go to even higher levels via love alone and a deeper connection with our souls essence. I must now begin to use this time to dominantly assert with hours and hours of training every day while my body recuperates to hone my nervous system to my desired level of bioelectrical agency, awareness must dominate every cell of my being so every cell can communicate with every other cell from and to the highest. How can we turn every moment as a moment to be more grateful, thankful and appreciative of the one that came, the one that is and the one that’s coming? That’s all I am trying to learn here, it’s just another sign for me to dive even deeper, to show me that I’m not trying hard enough. A big thank you to the docs for their warm hospitality and the rest of the staff here at the hospital, they’re all lovely people and I’m sorry they had to feel the smoke of the beast I mentioned above a little bit. There’s a deep love there they have and that I will covet in my moments of reparation as I stay the night for observation in the hospital.

And Ali Pervez Mehdi is an amazing unrecognised talent, I really recommend checking out his YouTube channel and just aligning to the depth of truth in his tone. He connects beautifully and is now someone I admire enough to even emulate in some ways with respect to my own singing. I totally get that it may not be something you're familiar with, however if you can be open and aware enough to connect to the deeper depth of your own layers, you'll be able to connect to his and resonate with his personal truth he's trying to convey. Well done Ali, beautiful Mei-Lan. https://www.youtube.com/@alipervezmehdi The two of them together are as reflected in the previous post beautiful role models for what a true monogamous relationship is meant to look like in my opinion. Awareness, love, vulnerability, connection, trust, intelligence; it's clear there's a unity there they both consciously decide to making work. The two are also parents and I have no doubt they're both great in their own sophisticated unique ways of expressing parenthood, something I look forward to being able to honour in the future myself in my own way, already for example mapping out the human psyche to such an extent I have the educational path already laid out for my kids. Formulating a higher environment for their development which at a bare minimum for example would either include raising them external to western society or within an agreed context that allowed them to prosper outside cultural norms in light of the maturation that our 'cultural economy' is way behind on. I'm open to nearly any country for raising kids, however Cyprus has sentimental value for me in light of being the origins of my Greek heritage (and Irish, 23 and me even says I may have Ashkenazi Jewish, and to a very non-insignificant amount however I'll hold my breath on that before it can be verified ha!). I'm a high oxytocin, high protection, high territorial, high sentimental gene carrier heh so yal can probably intuit that if I'm as good as I am with some of the theoretical stuff I focus on here, you can imagine the level of awareness and pride I'd take when it comes to my children.

I love these two they’re such an amazing couple. It’s the perfect reflection of connection that I want to achieve when I’ve settled down with the right woman and we’re both ready to begin a family together in unity, for our unique dynamic. For now, it’s just my “Heavenly Partying” enjoying life and then when we cross paths we cross paths and I can instead prioritise monogamy, and she doesn't necessarily have to be an extravert. I'm connected with gals from a few different countries now and I don't even abide by 'extravert' or 'introvert' for me its more about energy types, and I can align with many different dynamics, it really just depends on our life directions lining up and what we want in the building of our family. For me awareness is the most important relationship quality, anything can grow when there's awareness so when two awarenesses line up, magic is just bound to happen. That's what happens every time as that's what awareness is meant to do, the less ego aware someone is for example, well we don't need an encyclopaedic report on that right. But yeah, you can't discount what's possible to the point where awareness is a 1 + 1 = 2 situation, the calculator is always going to calculate it as additive to multiplicative to squared never divisional or subtractive, its a no brainer, you can make so many combinations work to such incredible levels where there's awareness. Otherwise so many incorrect conclusions follow from “Partying” due to cultural connotations heh. For me I’ve begun building a philosophy as I shared briefly above three posts ago now concerning transcendental partying where it is primarily focused on raising and growing consciousness in genuinely proven sophisticated ways. And not necessarily with psychedelics, although I plan to, I’ve never had any. —————————————————————————————————————————————————————— Concerning previously noted frustration, honestly, deep down to be perfectly blunt I think I’m just so pissed off underneath because I knew I wasn’t going to make my above “Heavenly Party” now three posts ago haha. And that's following the encounter I described I had, which I’ve now deeply learned from and I’m sweet about it now. It makes perfect sense that I would have this backlash when you’re aware that I’m using that to stimulate my motivation to run and ascend to a higher level. You have an RAS flip from the point you realise that you’ve wasted time and now you start questioning absolutely everything around you that could have contributed to the resolve haha. —————————————————————————————————————————————————————— Their latest performance. Mei-lan Maurits & Ali Pervez Mehdi ~ Live At The Gorton Monastery, Manchester, UK ~ 30th August 2024

@Javfly33 really sorry to hear that.

I wrote the following on two hours of sleep just now, an echo of the solution screaming from my subconscious based on learning I guess it gave itself on the fly based on patterns its picked up over the last week and a bit. In short, its brought great resolution to my adventure challenge even though that I now need to apply the described dynamics to specific life situations now including both my running and all of my obstacles that we all know about along the achievement of that path haha. There's layers of patterns I still need to abstract further on top of this writing, i.e. boundaries between self and other still need to be differentiated further and in that, the balance between self-originated ego versus the socially reinforced ego, including too the brief overlaps mentioned concerning the historical context of self versus other relative to cultural progressions which was rather sloppily introduced including relations to animals and related analogies there that could have been more deeply integrated with the writing, however its a considerable foundation for me to work with that'll be a complement to how my psyche continues to evolve through this challenge and beyond. Anyhow, may it feed your own creativity. Best Light. Title: The frustration of the ego: paradox and instability versus its opposites. Who am I not, who am I to be, am I to be, am I actualising that which is me and that which is right versus avoiding that which is wrong? And when these realities find their environmental feedback, how are they resolved and by what confusion versus fluidity in understanding versus learning in between and in their balance, are the questions resolved by the unconscious further still? Solution versus the ambiguity of the unknown that still must be acted upon, is the invariable terrain where the muscle that supports this decision network is what resolves this paradox of the ego’s instability via stability functions of either chaotic or more orderly value. The latter concerning becoming of more orderly value contributing to the beings “Reality Esteem” (aka one’s confidence to act in reality and usually matches with one’s competence) which is to me a more accurate term compared to “self-esteem” where behaviours are either of potentialisation or actualisation. potentialisation being the reflection of behaviours that bring safety to present “Reality Esteem” whereas actualisation (calculated risk) is potentialisation (stable risk) into the unknown that usually accompanies some kind of calculated risk. The former however doing its opposite, something which can co-occur, where instead decisions are uncalculated and risky but not evaluated as a part of a truth value where they may even be considered risks (incompetence), or they are however the esteem is not accurate and therefore they act irrationally. It is because of their co-occurrence where the frustration often exists as well given the ego is attempting to find its resolve, experiences incongruence however cannot resolve this because its own inaccurate esteem or inaccurate competence in a certain area has not been brought to light and placed under the light of understanding. It is understanding that shapes accurate competence and therefore resolves the ego’s feeling of self-incongruence, however it is action met with success that best resolves the ego’s sense of competence towards self-congruence in that area. In the pairing of both, the ego experiences a sense of excellence in this area of reality and thus where the experience of becoming a teacher, student and master are the culmination of the ego finding resolve in the related experiences. These new adventures surrounding this deep challenge have allowed me to highlight areas of the ego within the self that have previously eluded me but have needed light shed upon them. The measurement of social connection weighed against achieving a sense of accomplishment for self-individuality versus hidden leverage for social affiliation has been of notable frustration for me in ways I have not noticed before. As a part of the ego’s “Reality Esteem”, in light of our psyche evolutionarily finding balance via social affiliation there is often the replacement of self-evaluation for the evaluation of others, whether that critique is good or bad, and it is often a measurement of an aspect of our maturity to the level we can both make it our own critique and one that is accurate while self-fulfilling. Writing now, I understand within myself that I am yet to reach a sense of mastery in this area of my psyche but that if I do contextualise this categorisation with the breadth of understanding why I haven’t achieved this yet and combine it with the breath of actions that preserve its future development, “Ego-congruence” will be a replacement for “Reality-esteem” until proper “Reality-esteem” is achieved in this area. By taking a focused approach to this particular area, I can withstand the pressure of holding a greater degree of subtlety in the patience I have for its actualisation, allowing me to then spot and avoid previously hidden “chaotic values” because in ways I ways unconscious of I believed them to provide me with “Reality-Esteem” however in actuality, it was just “False Ego-Congruence” as a way of managing hidden “Ego-incongruence” and the frustration that surfaces within this. Something like this can result as a simple consequence of unknowingly following social conditioning that’s usually a combination of three kinds that one has unconsciously adapted to (1) social feedback (positive/negative)(2) environmental feedback (skewed/precise) (3) role model emulation (known/unknown). The ratio (i.e. positive/negative, skewed/precise, known/unknown) of their outcomes is the precise intersection of understanding where the balance of false versus accurate ego incongruence vs congruence in the context of stable vs unstable “Reality Esteem” are going to be understood, we will call this category for this writing a positive or negative ego-triad. From a self-aware point of view, understanding these factors provides the working memory by which the self can move in the balance between providing resolution versus moderation for the ego. The former is where strategic action can be initiated as a grounded solution for the ego in providing it with positive ego-congruence that gives it the tertiary to higher foundation for establishing genuine “Reality-Esteem” for the related area and for its general contributive benefit to one’s overall level here. The latter becomes the space of where the self, especially that which is primary to awareness, will need to continually feedback loop on the known versus unknown spaces of consciousness around this problematic area until a stable potentialisation versus actualisation space is generated, where if not, this is where unstable functions become unconsciously employed where one becomes on the side of a negative ego-triad, shifting more to a chaotic-value metric, who’s value matrix of orderly versus chaotic is going to be a mechanism that engineers the general unhappiness versus unhappiness of a being. In this case then, “Reality Esteem” where there is a combination of alignment and judgement on the metrics of competence and esteem in the context of chaotic versus orderly values structures that contribute to or take away from actualisation (calculated risk) and potentialisation (stable risk) and therefore create a more/less chaotic/orderly, is a “Happiness and Sanity Calculator” simultaneously. For the more an ego is frustrated and is unable to find resolve, the more unhappiness and insanity will invariably result, however the more solutions to problems which mirror the paired stability of competence and esteem, naturally more balanced happiness and sanity will result. ‘Balance’ here being the key operative word in both separating and uniting “Reality” and “Esteem”, for we have the joining and separation of “Self” in “Esteem” and “Other” in “Reality”, something which is done at varying levels of consciousness thresholds and bandwidths, for example, a typical ape, dolphin or orca whale has the same divide between “Reality” and “Esteem” to resolve, however it is only in their balance relative to those thresholds and bandwidths that have any weight on happiness and sanity, if for example, their bandwidths outweigh their thresholds of consciousness potential, this will for example be met with the outcome of completing the evolutionary heuristic that leads to a subsequent decrease in happiness and sanity to the extent the self in the ego does not have the ability to find at the very least, ego-congruence if not “reality-esteem” and to the extent the related sentience is not impeded by a negative-ego-triad for the leading to “false-ego-congruence”. False-ego-congruence, where its opposite “Truth” is meant to be the building block for “Reality-Esteem”, is like a mouse continually trying the same strategy towards removing cheese from a trap but instead of its success it instead continually receives an electrical shock as a failed form of punishment to deter the behaviour. Unfortunately, we see this markedly play-out in our social dynamics within western society in multiple unhealthy ways (1) where we create psychological illusions to mask failure for people “tomorrow is another day you can try again and everything will be alright” rather than getting to the root of the issue (2) create ego schisms where we install implicit punishments for when we do not perform socially well irrespective as to whether this has any benefit to how we actually respond to reality, thereby leveraging our desire for social connection, affiliations of which we’re evolutionarily designed to have as it aided our survival as only those affiliations that stayed genuinely aided said survival (3) positively reinforce unhealthy escapes via similar to number two, ego closure from dependencies that are demographically supported, “It’s cool to where a ‘G’ chain to look cool. One, two and three along with more that could be mentioned there combined with a negative-ego-triad are of course in large part where most of our issues in the balance between human psychology and human society have become, largely imbalanced, and where we’ve reached such a point of delusion that it becomes too ‘uncool’ to be identifying these psychological traps for the regression of our collective ego into the “Naive-Realism” of false-ego-congruence via the collective support of individuality that equals said ‘G’ chain where anyone with this chain has the implicit authority to manipulate reality to serve the illusion, aka take a Donald Trump and politics for example. “Naive-Realism” is effectively what both modern society and materialism has become simultaneously, built on a foundation of false-ego-congruence that supports instead a narcissistic philosophy predicated on the illusion of “Reality-Esteem” rather than its actuality. The ‘G’ chain is symbolic of both false-ego-congruence, that is, the ego’s attempts to find stability via delusion, an escape from reality aka the opposite of “Reality-Esteem”, and how it is socially supported to do so because it overlaps with a materialistic paradigm, giving the illusion of evolutionary value when in reality, it leads to the degeneration of evolutionary value and especially where it is a part of a hierarchical societal structure based on a materialistic class system, the fundamental core diagrammatic overlap with both unhappiness and insanity in a given society, which in todays modern times, mostly represents western society, with certain constrained outgrowths in the east, in particular China, however to a much lesser extent Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam where these countries find a more even divide in uniting the individual with the tribe/collective, even though they’re indirectly affected. In coming full circle, in todays modern times the ego needs to go through a metamorphic process by which it slowly shifts from a state of partial to entranced “Naive Realism” that serves as the basis of false-ego-congruence to replace the confidence for the achievement and something that is reflective of genuine “Reality Esteem” to a self-awareness that generates the genuine stated “Ego-congruence”, the stated foundation for our goal in resolving the paradoxes and instabilities of the ego’s relationship to the environment. Where further, the divide between those two words of “self-awareness” is inclusive of “Other” in “awareness”. “Other” to ensure the self in “self-awareness” moves naturally into understanding its place in its environment and in doing so, is able to move seamlessly from existential position, i.e. as started with “who am I not, who am I to be” etc to a state of existential direction to finding stability in this temporal picture to the point of achieving existential momentum until said temporal closure is met with the environmental success that stabilises the ego with higher “Reality-esteem”. So remove the mousetrap, sit back and observe the self and become the self in observation. Understand the layers of behaviour in the context of resolving the described “happiness-sanity metric” via the balance of the intersecting truth versus falsehood in how the self establishes its next movement from “Reality Esteem” adjacent to either a positive or negative ego-triad, find and ride the wave of understandings that meet you with orderly reality values versus chaotic ones and live in the space of actualisation and potential rather than frustration and the resulting ego’s regression.

Some good news and bad news. starting with the bad: So I’m in a really bad mood. Cambodians have been so great. I had this guy though it was so strange, I kept on saying “no, please move on. I am very grateful for your friendliness but I must conserve my energy.” Over and over and over again, to the point where his friend just literally got off the back of this guys bike and walked off into the night never to be seen again where this guy, I kid you not, just went on and on via Google translator with me trying to converse and he wouldn’t respect my boundaries in any way shape or form. Moreover what made it worse was that it was his idea to use Google translator after I had already made myself clear and his friend made it clear what I said to him as well and he didn’t know how to use it properly. So I would share a long message, it would translate and then he’d press a button that erased the message and I’d have to start all over again. It was a big mistake on my part though and I was very unskillful with respect to enforcing my boundaries. I should have used the minimal of words, with maximum kindness and appropriate body language to demonstrate boundaries. However I was naive to think that he’d just get me, respect what I needed and then move on as that’s what I was used to. Well, at one point I got a little mad as he was by now taking up more than 30 minutes of my time, totally oblivious, totally ignorant almost as if he was pretending to not understand me in light of his friends behavior. To the point where I actually got suspicious of the dynamic, open to the possibility that his friend had gone to hide and his role was to coax me in which subconsciously perhaps made me want to express some level of anger to show that I wasn’t just a blind pushover. But no that didn’t even work really, it still went on for another 15 minutes when I just wanted to get on with my run. In the end I left one last long message to him where still afterwards in spite of having the full translation he still felt more then content to continue to violate what I had requested. I feel like maybe he had some kind of weird issues, I don’t need to speculate into obvious or not so obvious territories there, the whole thing was just so bizarre. Anyhow to make matters worse, as soon as he left my bag broke. However not before I had already found rope along the way by coincidence only 15 minutes before I arrived at this destination in which it took place, yeah big coincidence. As a whole I’m very disappointed in myself regards this social dilemma, I don’t actually much care about the bag I anticipated that of course. I didn’t execute my boundaries intelligently enough and I allowed it to take up far too much of my time while leading to exactly what I told him I didn’t want, in this case, not only as stated to him a misallocation of my energy but to make matters worse I ended up feeling guilty for my behavior even though he was clearly in the wrong, analysing my own behavior for the next few hours trying to energetically cleanse myself from the situation now having it drain even more from me after he just got to be a happy go lucky go home and enjoy his sweet dreams while I was stuck with the guilt towards him and the regret of my own behavior that I’m now only concerned with learning from. So I’ve only ran 23 Km, I’m thinking about hitting the hay. Who knows what’ll happen, however I needed to disclose this situation honestly. It’s a situation I need to reflect more on and as much as possible just have higher level compassion for everything there while learning with as much intelligence what would have been the wisest decision which I already know. I should have pre-emptively decided against being open to conversation unless I initiated it during this particular night so I could focus on my goal. Instead, I allowed my empathy to get the better of me which then backfired in more than one way because the part of me that also had a “gotta get this shit done” mentality, got frustrated, which then made my empathic side reflect the guilt followed by the former leading to the regret. The positive I want to take away from the situation is that at least it gave me a chance to see where I still need to grow in this area so that in a similar situation in the future I will be much more effective as I was with the dogs tonight where already, my amygdala has begun to change the way its affected focusing with much more adaptive responses. Undoubtedly this added to the frustration still, however I was still much better than my first experience there. Because I am so frustrated though, I don’t want to run on this energy and instead focus down on meditation, to align my nervous system in all the ways previously shared in learning to master. God obviously put this obstacle in front of this challenge for me to help me remember the broader picture here: (1) hey I fucking ran 23 km that’s badass and I don’t know anyone not even David Goggins that started out doing that when it’s been so long since they’ve done any proper exercise (2) as the trickster he is, to show me that as grateful, thankful, compassionate and appreciative as I want to be, I’m not quite there yet in being able to achieve the nervous system self regulation that I want, and setting that obstacle in front of me is to give me that feedback from reality (3) to show me what I truly want through the guilt and regret but that as much as there’s positive “add 1” there in the personal growth sense, at the same time it’s to show me that my personal boundaries are just as important and that I’m still have some learning to go in terms of employing them to the higher level of sophistication that I’m meant to be reaching. Ending with the good: Always remember that our prioritization of learning and how to learn aka with me mastering the feedback loops of my nervous system to give awareness the highest space for agency as one example is always pivotal, especially our pseudo short lived elation that is weak by comparison to the deeper meaning, life satisfaction and maturity that comes from a life of reflection with a genuine change and improvement in our actions. It’s what emboldens those short lived “pseudo reward loops” with the value hierarchy that gives them the high esteem that turns them from pseudo to a guaranteed net positive for our perception and graduation in our way of experiencing and creating in the universe. Lastly, I just received a message in the last hour or so after a few weeks of absence from a Vietnamese gal that gave me a blowjob in the park in Ho Chi Minh City. I was very thankful and still am, I won’t be able to see her though obviously. She was so nurturing towards me, I was sick at the time and she was trying to nurse me back to health. She says she’s very happy with everything in the sense that she wants to see me. Anyhow, best wishes. I’m going to take a couple to few days away from the forum to reflect on my experiences here more deeply so I can integrate the lessons more, I’m so grateful that my brain learns as fast as it does, I’ve gotta show it more love I feel, that’ll be part of the simple solution here as well that’ll ease said frustrations including accepting where it’s limitations are at this present stage of my development.

TLDR regarding the above for me. When you’re in the ‘thick’ of it which I am now, ran 20km or so from the hotel so far, you just want to taste what’s higher so you can carry the rest of your consciousness in this case my body, higher. Even though it’s humorous, it just feels less than my highest humor, and I can only measure that it’s less because all that passes is all that’s only going to inspire me to a higher standard towards my goal. But guess what that is. Have a guess what inspires me to get to my next checkpoint 50km from here at night (again)? Partying. That’s literally it. Haha. But it’s not just any partying, it’s Heavenly Partying. Imagine the kind of parties they have in Heaven, they’d be the most badass parties you could ever imagine right? As if you could question that. So when I get to my destination, I’ll just be looking forward to partying my party. That’s right, when I go out, I’m not trying to jive with the outer party, it’s where I’m literally using the vibratory energy of the environment symbiotic with raising my own consciousnesses and the consciousnesses I’m fortunate enough to have a positive impact on. So what motivates me is pushing myself so that I experience and create the highest of heavenly highs when I’m there, much more happy with my accomplishment than if I took another day to get where I want to go. Cambodians are so great, reminding myself in this moment to deepen my gratitude, appreciation and thankfulness in my growth forward. Tomorrow night is going to be a fever of testing my consciousness rhythm, melodic harmonising, temporal driving and synchronizing hyper-states. Pushing myself to the max to experience my max when I’m there. If my drive there is my breath in, my night of heavenly parting is my breath out into a beautiful slumber 😍. Thank you God for blessing me with this moment to express myself, take in this breath and give me a chance to learn from my breath our so I can hone the wisdom that teaches me to absorb the life around me to a higher level and in return, be a student and teacher of the higher. Blessed are the heroic of the light ❤️.