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I mean that my basic comfort zone is quite empty and passive, "dysthymic"; by extension I have little interest in sexuality unless I deprive myself of orgasm for days or fantasize about paraphilias or almost. Sometimes I can feel myself drawn into a "vibe", but it's episodic and short-lived. I couldn't say exactly where it comes from, the genesis of a belief system is complicated and repressed, but what i can say already is that the secondary benefit seems to be that it avoids suffering. I never suffer greatly; it's almost as if my parents could die and it wouldn't hurt me that much, I would easily find a psychic place to take shelter; if what I'm saying makes sense. Likewise my friends (who are my mirrors! In denial; non-duality all that) are often suffering. They talk about depression, taking antidepressants, drugs, sometimes even suicide; and me as I'm in my dysthymic ivory tower, I can spout long rational sentences with a stoic air, hidden behind my computer and my coconut acai Red Bull.

A bit of background about me: I was born and raised in Somalia. I used to watch Leo since I was 14/15. I moved to the UK about three years ago. I lost my brother due to suicide two years ago. I have left islam and I'm not sure whether I'll be able to stay in the UK or not. I have been doing deep research on how I can take my life painlessly. I have no family around. Everything feels meaningless. I didn't think it’d get to this point three year ago. You'd be surprised how ambitious and hard-working I was. I'm in pain and just want to go. I know it’s a cowardly thing to do, but the world isn't nice and we're all going to die anyways.

“PORTALS INTO THE UNMANIFESTED” (Tolle 1999, 107) &&& It is probably best if you read this document (`unmanifested.md`, https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9) using a text editor like Windows Notepad or GNOME Text Editor and not a word processor like Microsoft Word. “Self (God) is Infinite, Limitless; One, Indivisible; Perfect; Changeless, Immutable; Timeless, Without Beginning or End; Whole, The All; Omniscient, Omnipotent, Omnipresent.” (Lester 1962, 65) See `Umbrella terms.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9) for a list of synonyms of God (= the Unmanifested). “God and good are sometimes used synonymously. Because everyone wants good, they make God good. God is above good and bad. However, good leads us to God.” (Lester 1993, 345) In the same way, God and infinite, limitless, etc. are sometimes used ... “The Isness _is_ without extension.” (Weber 1996, 148) God just _is_, as opposed to God is infinite. “The moment you make it into something, you have missed it.” (Tolle 1999, 114) ““I” doesn’t eat. It’s “is-ing.”” (Katie 1998, 3) “Love (= the Unmanifested) is what you are already.” (Katie and Katz 2005, chap. 12, 245) “Love isn’t a portal; it’s what comes _through_ the portal into this world.” (Tolle 1999, 112) (“~~The apparent mind that questions itself begins to understand where it comes from, which is pure~~ love, for lack of a better word.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 6, 67)) “The little self, the ego, is nothing but the innate infinite Self assuming that It is limited. There are no two selves, one higher, the other lower, no two “I’s.” There is only one Self. It is perfect and always will be perfect, even though you make the false assumption that It is imperfect and limited. You are now, always were, and always will be your Self.” (Levenson 1993, 348) &&& - “__GOING DEEPLY INTO THE BODY__” “the inner body” (Tolle 1999, 107) &&& ___(Dreamless (adj.)) sleep (n.)___ - “__DREAMLESS SLEEP__” (Tolle 1999, 110) Dreamless (adj.). “You take a journey into the Unmanifested every night when you enter the phase of deep dreamless sleep. You merge with the Source.” “Can you imagine what it would be like to go into dreamless sleep with full consciousness? It is impossible to imagine it, because that state has no content.” “The Unmanifested does not liberate you until you enter it consciously.” “In the Isness we merge with God.” (Weber 1996, 149) “This again is death. It is a conscious death.” (Weber 1996, 149) “But don’t attempt to stay conscious in dreamless sleep. It is highly unlikely that you will succeed.” (Tolle 1999, 110) &&& ___(Timeless (adj.)) now (n.)___ - “timeless Now” (n.) (Tolle 1999, 111) Timeless (adj.). “Self (God (= the Unmanifested)) is ... Timeless” (Lester 1962, 65) “When you dissolve psychological time through intense present-moment awareness, you become conscious of the Unmanifested both directly and indirectly.” (Tolle 1999, 111) “When did the universe begin? Right now (if at all). A clear mind sees that any past is just a thought.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 52, 151) “..., because the past is just a thought in the present. (So is the present.)” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 10, 90) &&& ___(? (adj.)) silence (n.)___ See “__SILENCE__” (Tolle 1999, 112–113) for instructions. “Silence enables the sound to be.” Truth enables the falseness (= “The quality of being false.”) to be. I am true (adj.), truth (n.), the absence of falseness. Truth is transparent, silent, timeless, etc. I am transparent (adj.), transparency (n.), the absence of ?. Transparency (n.) is silent, timeless, etc. (..., omnipotent, omnipresent, alone, unmanifested, ignorant, desireless, good, peaceful, meaningless, familiar, ...) So you are these nouns and these adjectives right now. And you can use the self-growth yardsticks (Lester 1962, 63–64) to gauge to what degree you feel certain you have any of these godlike qualities. ..., “Why Truth Is The Highest Value”, 8 Sept 2025, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nvNGha_g2U4. &&& ___(Empty (adj.), transparent (adj.)) space (n.)___ “__SPACE__” (Tolle 1999, 113–115) “Just as no sound can exist without silence, nothing can exist without no-thing, without the empty space that enables it to be. Every physical object or body has come out of nothing, is surrounded by nothing, and will eventually return to nothing.” “The Unmanifested is not only present in this world as silence; it also pervades the entire physical universe as space — from within and without. This is just as easy to miss as silence. Everybody pays attention to the things in space, but who pays attention to space itself?” “The moment you make it into something, you have missed it. Nothing — space — is the appearance of the Unmanifested as an externalized phenomenon in a sense-perceived world. That’s about as much as one can say about it, and even that is a kind of paradox.” “Space has no “existence.” “Although in itself it has no existence, it enables everything else to exist. Silence has no existence either, nor does the Unmanifested.” “So what happens if ...” &&& ___The darkness (n.)___ “What is the “darkness within darkness”? It’s the mind that doesn’t know a thing. This don’t-know mind is the center of the universe—it _is_ the universe—there’s nothing outside it. The reason that darkness is the gateway to all understanding is that once the darkness is ___understood___ [emphasis added][“The Unmanifested does not liberate you until you enter it consciously. That’s why Jesus did not say: the truth will make you free, but rather: “You will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.” This is not a conceptual truth. It is the truth of eternal life beyond form, which is known directly or not at all.” (Tolle 1999, 110)], you’re clear that nothing is separate from you. No name, no thought, can possibly be true in an ultimate sense. It’s all provisional; it’s all changing. The dark, the nameless, the unthinkable—that is what you can absolutely trust. It doesn’t change, and it’s benevolent. When you realize this, you just have to laugh. There’s nothing serious about life or death.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 1, 6) “The darkness, the void, the space that the mind is terrified to enter, is the beginning of all life. It’s the womb of being. Fall in love with it, and when you do, it will immediately be taken from you, as you witness the birth of light.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 5, 14) “At some point, I found myself in a place I couldn’t return from. It was so far away that the distance is unimaginable. There was total darkness, with no one and nothing there. It felt as if I were alienated from all beings, forever. I didn’t know how I got there or how to get back. There was no way to die, because being has no opposite there. In that place there’s no death and you live alone forever. There’s no light, no up or down, no possibility of movement, no anything. There’s nothing, forever, with no way out. I felt such terror. And then the questions arose to meet the thought: _Can I really know that this is true? How do I react when I believe that there is something better than this? Who would I be without my story of forever?_ And because of this inquiry, the darkness became friendly. I was totally present and comfortable in it. When that reality became as comfortable as this reality, I found myself again as “woman sitting on chair in house on Fredricks Street in paradise.” I was at home in that darkness, forever, just as much at home as I am here.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 23, 211) %%% ___(Unconditional (adj.)) love (n.)___ Unconditional (adj.)(, unconditioned (adj.)), selfless (adj.), loving (adj.). - “loving” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 25, 235) - “selfless” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg, 1 hr., 1 min., 55 sec.) - “unconditional” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 7, 18) “You are NOT God as long as you oppose what is.” (Katie 1998, 150) “Surrender — the letting go of mental-emotional resistance to what _is_ — also becomes a portal into the Unmanifested.” “In the state of surrender, your form identity softens and becomes somewhat “transparent,” as it were, so the Unmanifested can shine through you.” (Tolle 1999, 112) “When they criticize you and you notice that you love them with all you heart, your work is done.” (https://web.archive.org/web/20250526152359/https://thework.com/2015/09/when-they-criticize-2/) “If you were able to love as much as God what would happen is that this duality would completely merge and you would literally become God so the only thing separating you from God is simply your capacity to love which is just a function of how selfless you are” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, 19 April 2020, 1 hr., 41 min., 10 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg) “The top state is total selflessness. How much are we selfless? If we're at the top, we're totally selfless.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 969) “Loving, in fact, often stems from personal strength—meaning, that loving people do not really care that much whether others love them and are therefore strong enough to be truly interested in others. It is altruistic but not particularly self-sacrificing, since, at bottom, the loving individuals enjoy and like themselves and have no need to sacrifice their own major interests to win the approval of others.” (Ellis 2004, 55) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “How loving am I? Do I love all beings?” “Am I accepting of the world and the people around me?” “Am I accepting of myself?” (Lester 1962, 64) (Am I seeking the approval of others? __YOUR TICKET TO IMPERTURBABILITY__” “Allow the <u>wanting approval</u>, <u>wanting to control</u> and <u>wanting security</u> (= “wanting to survive as a body”) to come into your awareness and immediately let it go.” (gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf, 90)) “___Fast Steps to Freedom___” “Be all giving” (“The abundance course - Crane, Lawrence;Levenson, Lester, 1909-.pdf”, 81) `The giving _is_ the receiving.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9) “All attitude and action should be in the direction of helping yourself and others toward Realization.” (Lester 1993, 191) “If we want to be loved, the way to get it is to love.” (Levenson 1993, 254) If we want to be helped, the way to get it is to help. If we want to be told the truth .... If we want .... “__HELPING OTHERS__” (Levenson 1993, 166–171) “__MORE ON HELPING OTHERS__” (Levenson 1993, 171–177) “Reality is a race, consciousness is a race towards who can love [= “like or enjoy very much”] who more. That's what it is when you're completely selfless.” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg, 1 hr., 1 min., 55 sec.) So I don't have to change things, I just have not to dislike them. “Would you let go of the thought that you dislike the person, thing or situation if you could?” “One does not increase his love. One merely gets rid of one's hate.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 962) “_I can totally reject and even actively oppose what a person is saying and doing._ And at the same time, I can continue to _love that person_ no matter what their behavior is. My ego just has to let me remember that the person is _not_ the mental tapes (conditioning, habits of mind, or _programming_) they have learned.” (Keyes 1992, 5) “So we love everyone, see them as misguided beings, forgive them for they know not what they do. They’re like children, misguided. Attain the highest state of loving everyone equally as Christ did!” (Lester 1993, 124) &&& ___Desireless (adj.)___ - “desireless” (Lester 1993, 264) Desireless (adj.). “There’s an easy way to realization. Just get rid of all desires.” (Levenson 1993, 113) “You must get rid of all desire. You can enjoy without desire. In fact, if you really want to enjoy things, you can enjoy far more without desire.” (Levenson 1993, 114) “Q: You just have to be desireless? Lester: Yes, that’s it! Being desireless, you will see who and what you are;” (Lester 1993, 264) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Am I desireless? Do I have no attachments and no aversions?” (Lester 1962, 63) ““Both formerly & now, it’s only stress that I describe, and the cessation of stress” (SN 22:86; MN 22)” (https://www.dhammatalks.org/books/OnThePath/Section0006.html) ““And this, monks, is the noble truth of the cessation of stress: the remainderless fading & cessation, renunciation, relinquishment, release, & letting go of that very craving (= taṇhā; “Craving or excessive or inappropriate desire”).” (SN 56:11) &&& ___(Changeless (adj.)) screen (n.)___ - “changeless screen” (n.) Changeless (adj.), immutable (adj.). “Self (God (=the Unmanifested)) is” “Changeless, Immutable” (Lester 1962, 65) “God, Truth, the Self is changeless. If God knew change, He wouldn't be changeless.” “God is only the changeless beingness behind the World.” (Levenson 1993, 346) “The unrealized man takes the moving pictures to be real, and if he would investigate by grabbing hold of the moving pictures, he would discover the truth, that it is just a changeless screen. Grab hold of your Self and discover the changeless substratum of the world!” (Levenson 1993, 164) “___Watching the Play___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 174) “Discover this and you discover the absolute Truth.” (Levenson 1993, 89) “The Screen That Lies Behind the Movie” (..., 10 June 2026, https://rupertspira.com/watch-listen/archive/the-screen-that-lies-behind-the-movie/the-screen-that-lies-behind-the-movie/) &&& ___Familiar (adj.)___ - “familiar”, “transparent” (Spira 2022, 21) “there is like a empty white transparent void right where your face you used to imagine was” (…, “Guided Exercise For Realizing You Are God”, 29 November 2020, 57 min., 45 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdWxdhEB19s) Familiar (adj.), ___transparent___ (adj.). “The fact of being aware is the most obvious, intimate and familiar element of experience, and yet it has no objective features. Like space, it cannot be seen, heard, tasted, touched or smelt. It is, so to speak, transparent; it is silent and empty. And yet without it there can be no experience.” (Spira 2022, 21) “The fact of knowing, being aware or awareness itself is closer to us than our breathing, our innermost thoughts or our most cherished feelings. In fact, it is not _close_ to us; it _is_ what we essentially are. It is overlooked precisely because it is so intimate and familiar, not because it is remote, unknown or inaccessible.” (Spira 2022, 22) “It is simply the familiar sense of self that always accompanies us, that _is_ us, but is now relieved of its previous agitation and sense of lack.” (Spira 2022, 31) “The familiar experience of our self to which we refer when we say ‘I am’ becomes the belief and feeling ‘I am this’ or ‘I am that’. Our unlimited, aware being becomes, or seems to become, a temporary, finite self or ego and, as a result, our innate peace and joy is veiled. It is this veiling of our being that is responsible for our suffering. The happiness we _are_ becomes the happiness we _seek_.” (Spira 2022, 44) “Everyone experiences his Self every moment of his life.” (Levenson 1993, 346) “My Self is the nearest of the near and the dearest of the dear.” (Levenson 1993, 346) &&& ___Fearless (adj.)___ - “fearless” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 7, 18) Fearless (adj.). “Love joins everything, without condition. It doesn’t avoid the nightmare; it looks forward to it and then inquires.” (Katie and Katz 2005, chap. 12, 246) “It’s unconditional, unceasing, fearless, tireless, without reservations.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 7, 18) “You've got the method. No more wanting approval or control. Freeze the mind enough so you can dig down into the number one program. Wanting to survive as a body. Fear of dying. You pull that out, you're free.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 837) “If you're committed, as you say you are, to allow the feelings of the fear of dying up, and allow them to go out.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 7) “Once you release the fear of dying, you'll discover the next and last step. And you don't become an idiot, a zombie. You just become the universe. Your beingness, you see, is the total beingness of the universe.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 15) “Bring up the fear of dying. That'll do it for you, if you'll do it. But you're not free now, so you didn't do it.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 1416) “___Making Friends with Death___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 178) &&& ___Omniscient (adj.)___ - “omniscient” Omniscient (adj.). “If you take away your mind what’s left over is Omniscience. You are that omniscient Being that you are seeking, clouded over by mind.” (Levenson 1993, 96) “The mind is simply the sum total composite of all thoughts.” (Levenson 1993, 87) “Every mind uses the very same unlimited intelligence. Everyone uses it as much as he believes he can use it to fulfill his desires. When he learns that his mental limitations are self-imposed, he lets go of them. Then his intelligence (I.Q.) can be raised to the degree of no limitation.” (Levenson 1993, 92) “If you want to be good at anything, the less the ego, the better you are. The ego is a limiting adjunct on the Self. Since the ego is a limiting adjunct of the Self, the less the ego, the more capable you are in everything (except one thing - misery.)” (Levenson 1993, 75) &&& ___Omnipotent (adj.)___ - “omnipotent” (Lester 1962, 65) Omnipotent (adj.), free (adj.). “Let go of your fear of dying you'll see you are eternal you are in total control of your universe” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 115) “Control is not a dirty word. Control is something we must achieve, but it must be total control of everything in our universe.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 102) “There's absolutely nothing wrong with being in control. There's nothing wrong with loving or having approval. The problem is we're always wanting it. And when we're wanting it, we're holding it away.” (“Lester Levenson, … Sedona Method (2024)”, 6–7) __YOUR TICKET TO IMPERTURBABILITY__” “Allow the <u>wanting approval</u>, <u>wanting to control</u> and <u>wanting security</u> (= “wanting to survive as a body”) to come into your awareness and immediately let it go.” (gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf, 90) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Do I accept full responsibility for whatever happens to me?” “Am I free to do or not to do the things I want or don't want to do? (Lester 1962, 63) “To be free is to have a choice to do or not to do a thing. Complete freedom would allow us to walk down a main street nude. However, to do this would be foolish as it would result in arrest and other trouble. What is required for freedom is the <u>ability</u> to do it, but not the doing of it.” (Lester 1962, 51–52) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “We know only that which we can do. What can I <u>do</u>? “__18. Shame-Attacking Exercises__” (Burns 2020, 479–480) “__Classical Exposure Techniques__” (Burns 2020, 488–489) “__Cognitive Exposure Techniques__” (Burns 2020, 489–490) “In fact, the thought of doing imagery exposure to the train trip was so anxiety-provoking that J refused to do the exposure. We took one step further back and asked her to do imagery exposure to the image of doing imagery exposure! Once she got comfortable with the imagery of herself doing imagery exposure to the train trip and becoming highly distraught and tearful in front of her therapist, she was willing to expose herself to the imagery of the train trip.” (Zinbarg et al. 2006, 37) “Exposure therapy” (..., 11 June 2026, https://en.wikipedia.org) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT I You have the right to judge your own behavior, thoughts, and emotions, and to take the responsibility for their initiation and consequences upon yourself__” (Smith 1975, 24–46) “___Fast Steps to Freedom___” “Take responsibility for everything.” “Get everything only by releasing.” (“The abundance course - Crane, Lawrence;Levenson, Lester, 1909-.pdf”, 81) “__The Turnarounds__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “As long as you think that the cause of your problem is “out there”—as long as you think that anyone or anything else is responsible for your suffering—the situation is hopeless.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “___Responsibility Without Blame___” “Please note again that taking responsibility is very different from blaming yourself or others. Don’t get caught in the blaming trap.” (Keyes 1992, 166) “confusion is wanting two things at once and and one thing is not what what's there” (…, “Bridging Heaven & Earth Show # 67 with Byron Katie and Kate Wolf”, 31 August 2025, 21 min., 25 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwUwJgRBMcw) “Everyone is doing exactly what he or she wants to.” (Levenson 1993, 192) “Speaker: I feel a lot of pressure like it's not my responsibility to help care for the family. So I'm angry that I have to bear the burden. “Katie: Yeah. As thought you have to and you didn't. Speaker: But I did. Katie: Because you wanted to. That's the part you miss.” (…, “Byron Katie - Spiritual Teaching - Turn it Around - Documentary Film (Formless Art Production)”, 3 min., 35 sec., 5 April 2025, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-vBAEcjmTI) “If you want one practical key for quickly reaching the Goal, I would recommend that you take full responsibility for everything that happens to you.” (Levenson 1993, 143) “Just say, __“Look what I did.”__ [emphasis added]” (Levenson 1993, 81) “__Lester:__ … You are doing it. It’s important that you take full responsibility because, if you don’t, you will never get out of this trap. __Q:__ I understand that it is something that we have created ourselves, but it has reached such a proportion! __Lester:__ Not it, it is you who have reached such a proportion. So long as you blame something else, you’ll never get out of it. You’re doing it. Can’t you see that you cannot undo your limitation as long as you’ll not take responsibility for it? No matter what you call It, whether you call it mind, or body, you are doing it.” (Levenson 1993, 365) “to awaken is to become fully lucid within your own dream to understand how you're constructing the dream and that it is all your dream and to take 100 absolute responsibility for the dream” (..., “You Are The Only Person In Existence (Actualized.org/Leo Gura)”, 1 hr., 7 min., 44 sec., 15 Mar 2022, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTHef1NvBRw) “The cosmic joke is, it's all a dream. Everything. All of it.”, https://www.instagram.com/p/Bm3o1tBB39T/. &&& ___Happiness (n.)___ Happiness (n.), joy (n.). - “Happiness” (Spira 2022, _You Are the Happiness You Seek: Uncovering the Awareness of Being_.) “___Fast Steps to Freedom___” “Take all your joy from within.” “Be yourself.” (“The abundance course - Crane, Lawrence;Levenson, Lester, 1909-.pdf”, 81) “Isn’t that why you want to save the world in the first place? So that you can be happy? Well, skip the middleman, and be happy from here! You’re it. You’re the one.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 29, 82) “Once you understand yourself, you are the pleasure you were seeking; you are what you always wanted.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 73, 241) “All of my desire for my entire life has just been desire of my own self. …. So in a sense all of your desire is really, is a perversion of the desire for God.” (…, “Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days”, 19 April 2020, 47 min., 20 sec., https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mnn0IU0-atg) “When the object is attained, the mind stills, the joy of your Self shines forth and this joy is attributed to the object, ….” (Levenson 1993, 109) “You can let go of those thoughts without achieving the person or the thing, and immediately you're happy.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 1257) “If we are enjoying anything, we are in duality /djuːˈæləti/. If I enjoy this, there’s “I” and “this.” If there’s God (Self) alone, there can’t be any “I” and “this.” The basic Truth is that you are all joy.” (Levenson 1993, 342) “This thing that everyone is seeking, this thing that everyone calls happiness, is nothing but the infinite Self that we are. Everyone, in his every act, is seeking this infinite Self that he is, calling it by other names: money, happiness, success, love, etc.” (Levenson 1993, 305) “Everyone is seeking the Self, calling It by different names.” (Levenson 1993, 343) “Anyone who’s seeking happiness is seeking the Self. There are two kinds of people in the world: those who are consciously seeking God, happiness, the Self, and those who are unconsciously seeking them.” (Levenson 1993, 343) “Everyone is seeking his Self in his every act.” (Levenson 1993, 347) “The ultimate happiness is the Self. Any other happiness is only a bit of the Self.” Levenson 1993, 347) “__Friend:__ … , but as soon as it’s “I want that corn chip,” it’s time to investigate? __Katie:__ Yes. _But not with the motive of not eating the corn chip._ You investigate for the love of truth because that’s what you want. A corn chip is a metaphor for that that you really want.” (Katie 1998, 3) “If you want more joy, don’t enjoy the thing - enjoy the joy. Be joy! Happiness is our natural inherent state. We are the All. We artificially create a lack and then a desire to relieve that lack, which, when that lack is undone, seems to make us feel better. It’s like sticking a pin into your skin until it hurts and then when you take the pin out, you say, “Gee, that feels good.” This is exactly what enjoying things and people is. We hurt ourselves by creating a lack and then remove the lack and the pain, and say, “Gee, that feels good. That makes me happy.” Every time you feel happiness, you feel only your real Self, more or less. The happier you are, the more you feel your real Self. But you wrongly attribute it to things and people outside of yourself. This is very important so let me restate the mechanism. When you create the lack, you start up thoughts: I need this person or this thing to make me happy. This causes a bit of pain, which you experience as a need, a lack. When you are relieved of that thought of lack, you return back to being your Self, and this is what you call happiness. So that what you have been calling happiness is really only a doing away with a correlation of happiness which is your inherent natural state, restoring it and then wrongly attributing it to external people and things so that we become attached to these external people and things.” (Levenson 1993, 221) “However, when we realize the order of creation—__think, feel, act, have__—then we know how to undo the chaos.” (Katie 1996, 8) Think (that you don't have), feel (bad), act (to get the thing that you don't have), have, (don't feel) bad. __Think__ (that you don't have), __feel__ (bad; in the sense of, experience a negative, stressful feeling), __act__ (to get the thing that you don't have), __have__, (don't) __feel__ (bad). &&& ___Ignorant (adj.)___ Ignorant (adj.; “often disapproving”), unknowing (adj.). “Not knowing; not having knowledge, ignorant, (of). Also foll. by _of_, _that_.” _Shorter Oxford English Dictionary (6 ed.)_, unknowing (adj.), sense A.1, 3446. “Lacking knowledge (general or particular); not versed _in_ a subject, unaware _of_ a fact, _that_.” _Shorter Oxford English Dictionary (6 ed.)_, ignorant (adj.), sense A.1, 1322. “late Middle English: via Old French from Latin _ignorant_- ‘not knowing’, from the verb _ignorare_, from _in_- ‘not’ + _gno_-, a base meaning ‘know’.” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, ignorant (adj.), 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/ignorant. “Awareness knows nothing, and therefore it’s hidden to itself.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, 235) “All you can do is be it.” (Katie and Katz 2005, 246) “You can’t use It, you can’t know It — you can only be It.” (Levenson 1993, 353) “How can one phenomena in the phenomenal field (= perception) be perceiving another?” (Leo Gura, “List Of Enlightenment Exercises”, 2 Jan 2017, https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/7587-list-of-enlightenment-exercises/) “You say, “I want to know myself.” You _are_ the “I.” You _are_ the Knowing. You _are_ the consciousness through which everything is known. And that cannot _know_ itself; it _is_ itself.” (Tolle 2003, 55–56) “When we aren’t attached to our thinking, when all the why’s, when’s, and where’s let go of us, then what really is becomes visible.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, _Question Your Thinking, Change the World: Quotations from Byron Katie_, 203) “Your ego [“The ego is a thought system ….” (Weber 1996, 150)] has to terrify you all the time or you would go home to God in the body as I have done. This is what I’m here to live. When we are out of thinking, when we let go of having to know all the whys, whens, wheres then everything that Is becomes visible. The consciousness of the Isness, the same as death, comes through. The Isness _is_ without extension. There is no perception, form, thought. This is sometimes scary for humans because they don’t expand their consciousness enough to grasp this, so they stay terrified. The perfection is inconceivable, especially that it could come from being still and quiet and free of useless beliefs; free of beliefs that, of themselves, are useless.” (Weber 1996, 148) “In the Isness we merge with God.” “This again is death. It is a conscious death.” (Weber 1996, 149) “To psychologically control your behavior while you were learning and exploring this fascinating verbal ability, as soon as you could understand what your parents told you, you were trained to feel anxious, ignorant, and guilty. These feelings are simply conditioned or learned variations of our basic survival emotion of fear. Once we have learned to feel anxious, ignorant, or guilty, we will do a lot of things to avoid feeling these ways.” (Smith 1975, 15) “For example, if you are playing with your dog in the living room and Mom wants to take a nap on the couch, she teaches you to respond to manipulative emotional control by saying: “Why are you always playing with Rover.” You then must come up with an answer as to why you are always playing in the living room with Rover. Not knowing any reason why except the fact that you like to and it is fun, you feel ignorant, because if Mom asks for a reason, there must be one. She wouldn’t ask for something that didn't exist, would she? If you honestly but sheepishly reply: “I don’t know,” Mom counters with: “Why don’t you go play in your sister’s room with her?” Lacking a “good” reason why you prefer to play with the dog than with your sister, you are again induced to feel ignorant for not knowing why. Searching awkwardly for a reason, your mumbled reply is cut off by Mom “It seems like you never want to play with your sister. She wants to play with you.” Feeling guilty as hell by now, you remain silent as Mom delivers the coup de grace: “If you never want to play with your sister, she won’t like you and want to play with you.” Now feeling not only ignorant and guilty but also anxious about what your sister might think of your attitude, you depart with Rover on your heels to take up your rightful station in life beside Sis and out of Mom’s hearing.” (Smith 1975, 17–18) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT VI You have the right to say, “I don’t know.”__” (Smith 1975, 57–59) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT II You have the right to offer no reasons or excuses to justify your behavior.__” (Smith 1975, 47–49) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT VIII You have the right to be illogical in making decisions.__” (Smith 1975, 62–65) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT IX You have the right to say, “I don't understand.”__” (Smith 1975, 65–67) “___Moving Beyond Justification___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 166) “Live your truth without explanation or qualification. For example, practice leaving a room honestly without manipulating those you leave behind with polite excuses. “I need to leave now” is enough to begin. Turn, walk, and leave; nothing more.” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 174) “__Relax the Problem Solver__” (Kelly 2019, 24–26) “You also realize that the turnaround for that statement is equally true:” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 8, 80) God is omniscient. &&& ___Alone (adj.)___ - “alone” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 70) Alone (adj.). “As it keeps inquiring, the mind continues to understand that it is its only enemy and that the world is entirely its projection, that it is alone, that there is no other, and that this is absolute.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 70) “There are no humans; there is no mind; it’s all a dream.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 9, 83) “The fact is that you’ve never reacted to someone else. You project meaning onto nothing, and you react to the meaning you yourself have projected. Loneliness comes from an honest place—you’re the only one here. There are no humans. You’re it.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 16, 154) ..., “Aloneness is a Portal to Oneness”, 30 Jan 2025, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8IIsPeUMhk. “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Am I able to be alone and be at peace?” (Lester 1962, 64) See `Solipsism.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9). ..., “Is Solipsism True ? - The Ultimate Guide To Solipsism”, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBSy8fetfDI, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTHef1NvBRw, https://www.bitchute.com/video/1HSdG8vnx6Qu/ %%% ___Indifference (n.)___ - “indifference” Indifferent (adj.), uncaring (adj.), guiltless (adj.). “__Guiltless__ is also not a very common word. It can indicate an absence of actual guilt (_Isabelle was guiltless: I was to blame for everything_) or an absence of any guilty feeling (_lavish menus for those who enjoy guiltless eating_).” _Oxford Thesaurus of English (3 ed.)_, “_Choose the right word_ __innocent, blameless, guiltless__” 468. “God is indifference. Indifference is Love! LOVE IS INDIFFERENCE!” (Leo Gura, _Actualized Quotes #597_, 15 May 2026, https://actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-597) “to feel that something is important and worth worrying about” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, care (v.), sense 1, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/care_2. “__care (about somebody)__ to like or love somebody and worry about what happens to them” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, care (v.), sense 2, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/care_2. “__identification (with somebody/something)__ a strong feeling of sympathy, understanding or support for somebody/something” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, identification (n.), sense 4, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/identification. “Some people think that compassion means feeling another person’s pain. That’s nonsense. It’s not possible to feel another person’s pain. You imagine what ...” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 26, 72) “_You say, “Nothing and something are equal.” Doesn’t that mean that nothing matters? And if nothing matters, isn’t that depressing?_ All somethings are nothing, since they’re all imagined, and “nothing” is equal to “something.” Does anything matter? Yes, to the ego. But the fact that the ego believes it doesn’t make it real. Once you realize that you’re no one, you’re _thrilled_ that nothing matters. There’s so much freedom in that! The whole slate is wiped clean at every moment. It means that every new moment is a new beginning, where anything is possible. You also realize that the turnaround for that statement is equally true: everything matters. That’s just as thrilling as its opposite.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 8, 80) “There aren’t two to take care of, or three, or four, or a billion. There’s only one. The relief of that! It’s enormous! “You mean there’s nothing to do? That if I’m okay, everything is okay?” Yes, that’s exactly it. It’s self-realization.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 32, 92–93) ..., “Be Selfish!!, NDE 5-9-17”, 9 Jun 2017, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5LpeEgDhR-Q. ..., “Who Are The Good Guys and Who Are The Bad Guys, NDE”, 2 Dec 2017, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c_9T6md60Oc. “The world is your perception of it. Inside and outside ...” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, 182–183) “Until there’s peace within you, there is no peace in the world, because you are the world, you are the earth.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, 198) “You are the cause of all the suffering that exists in this world.” (Katie and Wilhelm 2013) “The whole world is projected. When you’re shut down and frightened, the world seems hostile; when you love what is, everything in the world becomes the beloved. Inside and outside always match—they’re reflections of each other. The world is the mirror image of your mind.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 1, 4) “The world you see is a reflection of how you see it. If your world is ugly or unfair, it’s because you haven’t questioned the thoughts that are making it appear that way. As your mind becomes clearer and kinder, your world becomes clearer and kinder. As your mind becomes beautiful, your world becomes beautiful.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 10, 91) “__The Turnarounds__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “As long as you think that the cause of your problem is “out there”—as long as you think that anyone or anything else is responsible for your suffering—the situation is hopeless.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 154) “The power of the turnaround lies in the discovery that everything you think you see on the outside is really a projection of your own mind. Everything is a mirror image of your own thinking.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 156–157) “The greatest gift you can give others is your realization that there is no self and no other.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 24, 214) “But once he realizes the truth of it, all these imagined beings are set free, and in that the bodhisattva is enlightened. Sentient beings are here to serve the enlightenment of the bodhisattva, not the other way around. All beings are within the bodhisattva; it just seems as if they’re outside him. They are consistently and without interruption here to enlighten him.” “All beings are liberated through the enlightenment of the one who created them in the first place.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 3, 24) “How can your suffering ever help anyone? The only thing that can help is for you to end your suffering.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 3) “Whose business is it?” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 145) “You can contribute to your mutual well-being by giving these five freedoms to yourself and your partner. In my brief marriage with Bonita, I made myself upset when she felt angry toward me. I now realize that my separate-self ego was not giving Bonita freedom to feel what she was feeling. I thought he anger meant something about me. I now know it was only her own programming that made her feel angry. I used to feel I should defend myself. I know now that it's OK for my partner to feel upset, critical, or whatever. And I've learned that my partner can get herself through these unpleasant emotions much quicker if I allow her the five freedoms and don't make her wrong for having them. And giving her these freedoms does not necessarily mean I agree with her.” (Keyes 1992, 45–46) “Every time you try to second-guess what someone else is thinking or feeling, every time you believe that you know what’s good or bad for them, you have moved out of your own business and into someone else’s.” (Katie and Katz 2005, 192) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT III You have the right to judge whether you are responsible for finding solutions to other people’s problems.__” (Smith 1975, 49–53) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT IV You have the right to change your mind.__” (Smith 1975, 53–54) “__ASSERTIVE RIGHT X You have the right to say, “I don't care.”__” (Smith 1975, 67–71) “___Responding with an Honest “No” to the Heartfelt Requests of Others___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 167–168) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “ࠪDo I grant others their beingness?” (Lester 1962, 63) &&& &&& ___The undecaying (adj.)___ - “the undecaying” ““Monks, I will also teach you the undecaying and the path leading to the undecaying …” (..., _Unfabricated-Connected Asaṅkhata Saṁyutta (SN 43)_, 10 June 2026, https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/SN/SN43.html) Undecaying (adj.), deathless (adj.). “_You assure people that questioning is safe. But you also say that it’s necessary to lose everything. Isn’t that intimidating for most people?_ I can see how it might be intimidating. But are you really safe identifying as a body? As a body, isn’t it certain that all the people you love will eventually leave you or die, and that you’ll age, get sick, hurt in all kinds of ways, and at last die yourself? Is that “you” safe? So to lose your false identity is to gain everything. In the world of no self and no other, there is no suffering, no decay, no death, no falseness. It’s a world of pure beauty. It’s yours already, and it only waits to be realized.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 9, 87) “As he dissolved the fear of death, he realized one day that his body was sound, healed. The physical impairment was corrected.” (Lloyd 1983, chap. 13, 82) “And in that three-month period of time, all the ailments I had in my physical body corrected.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 33) “I suggest that you not do The Work with the motive of healing your body. Go in for the love of truth.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 20, 190) “Any motive other than the love of truth won’t work. It’s the truth that sets you free.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 40, 121) “BK: The lie is the motive. You are not doing The Work to find Truth.” “The Truth is, “I will do anything to know the Truth and then whatever happens is not my business.”” (Katie 1996, chap. 4, 34) ““I’m going to get better as I do The Work”—if you have that as a motive, you can afford that hope, since it’s true that as you do The Work you do get better, until you catch up to your dear, wonderful self ....” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 9, 86–87) Am I undecaying? &&& ___Peaceful (adj.)___ - “peace” (..., _Unfabricated-Connected Asaṅkhata Saṁyutta (SN 43)_, 10 June 2026, https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/SN/SN43.html) Peaceful (adj.). “Love (= the Unmanifested) itself is not an emotion. It's a very, it's the quietest of all things.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 285) “What was beyond this incredible, joyous state that didn’t stop? He saw that it was peace, imperturbability ... and he realized with certainty that if he accepted it, if he decided to move into that peace, it would never, ever go away ... and he went ... slipped into it so effortlessly ... with just a decision to have it ... he was there. Everything was still. He was in a quietness that he now knew had always been there but drowned out by incessant noise from his accumulated, uncorrected past. In fact, it was more than quiet; it was so far beyond anything imaginable that there were no words to describe the delectable deliciousness of the tranquility. His earlier question about happiness was answered too. There were no limits to happiness, but when you have it all, every minute, it gets tiresome. Then this peace is just beyond ... and all you have to do is step over the line into it. “Is there anything beyond even this?” he wondered. But as he asked, he knew the answer. This peace was eternal and forever, and it was the essence of every living thing. There was only one Beingness and everything was It; every person was It, but they were without awareness of the fact, blinded by the uncorrected past they hold on to.” (Lloyd 1983, chap. 13, 83) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” (Lester 1962, 63) “Am I completely at peace?” Am I (= “The little self, the ego, is nothing but the innate infinite Self assuming that It is limited.”) peaceful (= “quiet and calm; not worried or upset in any way”)? _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, peaceful (adj.), sense 2, SYNONYM __tranquil__, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/peaceful. _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, peace (n.), sense 2, 10 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/peace. _Collins COBUILD Advanced Learner’s Dictionary_, peace (n.), sense 5, 10 June 2026, https://www.collinsdictionary.com/dictionary/english/peace. ^^^ ___Truth (n.)___ - “ultimate Truth” (Levenson 1993, 81) “__Question 1: Is it true?__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 143) “__Question 2: Can you absolutely know that it’s true?__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, chap. 5, 145) “I recommend that people tell the truth because all stress is caused by lying.” (Blanton 1996, 53) “The kind of lying that is most deadly is withholding, or keeping back information from someone we think would be affected by it.” (Blanton 1996, xxv) “The Truth Changes” “Because of being lost in our own minds, we fail to recognize that the truth changes. When the truth changes and we fail to recognize what has _now_ become true, while holding on to the _idea_ of what used to be true, we become liars committing suicide.” (Blanton 1996, xxx) “I differentiate three phases, or levels, of telling the truth. These levels may occur successively, or simultaneously, or a person may master one or two levels and retreat from the next. ~~Often people retreat after encountering the frightening sense of freedom afforded by a breakthrough at a new level. Sometimes they try again later, sometimes not.~~ The three levels are: revealing the facts; honestly expressing current feelings and thoughts; and, finally, exposing the fiction you have devised to represent yourself and your history.” (Blanton 1996, 48–49) “The first level of telling the truth is to reveal the facts. It is a matter of clearing up lies from the past and the false presentation of self being maintained through withholding.” (Blanton 1996, 49) “The first level of this process is revealing deceptions and withholds” (Blanton 1996, 50) “She had [“a whole stack of” (Blanton 2005, 60)] compiled secrets and unfinished business with her father, her first husband, and her current husband.” (Blanton 1996, 51) “The second level of telling the truth is to begin to speak forth the emotional truth and the truth of one's judgments to reveal one's constantly active, secret mind. You begin here the practice of admitting how you feel when you feel it, speaking your secret judgments of others out loud, and constantly revealing your own petty and condescending ways.” (Blanton 1996, 54) (“You must get into the habit of restricting your thoughts to those that are such that if you were suddenly asked, “What are you thinking?” you could answer, frankly and without hesitation, “X” or “Y,” and it would immediately be clear from your reply that all your thoughts are guileless and kindly, the thoughts of a sociable¹¹ creature who disdains pleasurable or any kind of self-indulgent fantasies and is untouched by rivalry, malice, suspicion, or anything else that one would blush to admit one had in mind.” (Aurelius and Waterfield 2021, _Meditations_, chap. 3) “The act originates in the mind. Every negative thought, every bad thought we have creates karma that we don’t like and we call it bad karma. If people only knew this! It doesn’t matter whether we carry out the act or not. The seed is sown in the thought.” (Levenson 1993, 264–265)) “The second level of telling the truth, revealing the emotional and judgmental truth on a moment-by-moment basis, is damned hard work and it never ends. Therapy ends, but this work never ends. Therapy ends when the person takes over the task of telling the truth “steady as she goes,” as her own task and as her own alternative to manipulation.” (Blanton 1996, 55) “___Being Consistently Honest — Now___” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 166) “If you will look at it from your very own center, the words love, acceptance, identification, understanding, communication, truth, God, Self are all the same.” (Levenson 1993, 43, 122-124, 250-258; Keyes 1992, 2-11) “15. Honest Communication Exercises” (Katie and Jensen 2000, 162–169) “THE TWELVE PATHWAYS To the Higher Consciousness Planes” (Keyes 1975, 14–15) “INTERACTING WITH OTHERS” “7. I open myself genuinely to all people by being willing to fully communicate my deepest feeling, since hiding in any degree keeps me stuck in my illusion of separateness from other people.” (Keyes 1975, 15) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “ࠪAm I able to express myself clearly, freely, and truthfully?” (Lester 1962, 64) ““…—it’s a tree, is it true?” (Katie 1998, 158) “What we really believe is what we manifest. What we believe, we see. In other words, we cannot see what we don’t believe (= “to think that something is ___true___, correct, or real:”).” (…, 19 October 2025, https://rayhemachandra.com/2017/01/04/byronkatie/, https://archive.is/Wgbq2) ..., “How Authority Works - Where Does Truth Come From?”, 7 Jul 2019, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xyzYKVL5CB0. https://www.actualized.org/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/leo-quote-why-self-deception-is-so-powerful-01.png “the act of deliberately making somebody believe something that is not true (= of deceiving them)” _Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary_, deception (n.), sense 1, 11 June 2026, https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/deception. &&& ___Quiet (adj.)___ - “_The all-quiet state_” - “stillness” (Tolle 1999, 115) - “imperturbability” (gains_workbook-sedona-method-release-technique-1992.pdf, 90) Quiet (adj.), quietness (n.), stillness (n.), imperturbability (n.). “_“The all-quiet state is such a tremendous state, that it can never be put into words. The words ecstasy, euphoria, bliss, nirvana don’t describe it really - they only allude to it.”_” (Levenson 1993, 279) “When your feelings are up and out, your mind is naturally quiet. And you're self-obvious to yourself as to the fact that you are whole, complete, perfect, eternal.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 394) See `summary.md` (https://pastebin.com/NP3rAur9). “I ought to re-define the word “meditation.” When I say meditation, I mean holding one thought to the exclusion of other thoughts, and that one thought should be a question. As other thoughts drop away the mind gets quiet and concentrated. When the mind is concentrated, you will experience your Self and It will answer any and every question. It will answer the questions that we need to have answered to show us the way out of the bondages. Now, in meditation, the moment you sit down to quiet the mind, it seems to get noisier, which is natural. The thoughts come up for us to drop, to let go of. And each time we let go of one, that’s one less that we have to let go of. And each time we let go of one, that’s one that we have to let go of. As time goes on and we keep dropping these thoughts, we have less and less to drop. Someday the mind becomes quiet enough so that we fully see this infinite Being that we are; and then in one lump sum, we drop all that is left. And when there are no more thoughts, we are free and there is left only our infinite Self.” (Levenson 1993, chap. 29) ““What am I?” is the very top question.” (Lester 1993, 287) “__Question 4: Who or what would you be without the thought?__” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 153) “When the thoughts are quiet, the limitless Being is obvious. It’s Self-effulgent; it’s there all the time; it’s just covered over by thought concepts, every one of which is limited. So, the way is to pose the question “What am I?” and quietly await the answer. Other thoughts will come in, and the biggest difficulty is quieting these thoughts. When other thoughts come in, if we pose the question, “To whom are these thoughts?” the answer naturally is, “To me.” Then, “What am I?” puts us right back on the track again. That way we can continuously keep our attention on “What am I?”” (Levenson 1993, 118) “When you develop the ability to meditate (= jhanas), it leads you into the most beatific, blessed state; into nirvana, tranquility and serenity; into your quiet meditative state of knowing what you are - you, the real Being of the universe, being your infinite, glorious and magnificent Self.” (Levenson 1993, 289) “__Interpretations of the Jhanas__” (..., 10 June 2026, https://www.leighb.com/jhanantp.htm) “In teaching the eightfold path, the Buddha defined right concentration to be the jhānas.” (Brasington 2015, Preface) ““And this, monks, is the noble truth of the way of practice leading to the cessation of stress: precisely this noble eightfold path—right view, right resolve, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, right concentration.4” (..., _Setting the Wheel of Dhamma in Motion Dhammacakkappavattana Sutta (SN 56:11)_, 10 June 2026, https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/SN/SN56_11.html) “SELF-GROWTH YARDSTICKS” “Am I completely free from reacting to people's wishes and thoughts?” “Am I disturbed?” (Lester 1962, 64) “Another portal into the Unmanifested is created through the cessation of thinking.” (Tolle 1999, 111) &&& ___Stillness (n.)___ - “stillness” - “immovable” (Katie and Katz 2005, chap. 12, 245; Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 4, 32) Still (adj.), immovable (adj.). (Carse 2005, _Perfect Brilliant_ ___Stillness___ _: Beyond the Individual Self_.) “The only requisite for the realization of the Self, your Self, is stillness.” (Lester 1993, 352) “The Self is Quiescence, perfect Awareness with perfect Stillness. He who seeks God will not find God in duality. There is no human, God being All. There is no time, no becoming. There is no creating in total perfection. Only God beholds God, there being nothing else. Only God loves God, God being All. Be still and know that you are God!” (Levenson 1993, 353) &&& ___Witness (n.)___ - “witness” (Levenson 1993, 118), “observer” (Levenson 1993, 262) “_witnesses claimed that he started the fight_: observer, onlooker, eyewitness, spectator, viewer, watcher; bystander, passer-by.” (_Oxford Paperback Thesaurus (4 ed.)_, witness (n.), sense 1, 11 June 2026, https://www.oxfordreference.com/view/10.1093/acref/9780199640959.001.0001/t-en_gb-msthes-00019-0015167) Witness (n.), observer (n.). “__BE NOT THE DOER__ In addition to posing this question until we get the answer, it is good practice in our daily life to be not the doer, be not the agent. Just be the witness! Acquire the “It is not I but the Father who worketh through me” attitude (which several in this group already have). This is the main conduct of life that we should strive for. The more we become the witness in life, the more we become non-attached to the body, the more we are our real Self. So, there are two things I’m suggesting, one is the quest “What am I?” and the second is, in life itself, be not the doer; be the witness. Let things happen; allow life to be. That’s the way we are in the top state, and the best behavior in life is that which is characteristic of the top state. There are many other things which I’m sure you are aware of: humbleness, goodness, kindness, honesty, etc. All these things help, but the greatest aid is to be not the doer - but be the witness.” (Levenson 1993, 118–119) “When I say, “Be the witness.” that is still in the realm of duality, witnessing the duality, but it’s a giant step forward. It’s a method of letting go of the ego sense of being the doer.” (Levenson 1993, 262–263) &&& References - Spira 2022, _You Are the Happiness You Seek_. - Zinbarg et al. 2006, _Mastery of Your Anxiety and Worry: Therapist Guide_. - Burns 2020, _Feeling Great: The Revolutionary New Treatment for Depression and Anxiety_. - Katie 1996, _What To Do When Nothing Works: The Manual For The Work_. - Weber 1996, _A Cry in the Desert: The Awakening of Byron Katie_. - Katie 1998, _Losing the Moon: Byron Katie Dialogues on Non-Duality, Truth and Other Illusions_. - Katie and Jensen 2000, _All War Belongs on Paper: The Manual for the Work of Byron Katie_. - Katie and Katz 2005, _I Need Your Love-- Is That True? 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I am so sorry that he is dealing with this. I would recommend making sure that he is protected from online bullying by his classmates via social media. I know it is difficult to do, but I think it is also crucial. Is moving to another school is an option? Maybe a special school for high functioning autistic kids? Also, in the meantime you can take him on dates to various cool places, or as simple as pizza restaurant, buy new clothes, doing a sport activity like running or walking etc. once or twice a week so he has something to look forward to. This can help uplift him, build his confidence and self-esteem, and remind him that he is loved, important and valuable. Notice something positive and special about him and tell him regularly, almost like an affirmation. I am not a professional but you should definitely consider the option of reaching out to a professional. In my country, there has been a phenomenon, especially in recent years, of children and teens dying by suicide, mostly due to bullying, but also because of other mental health issues. Often, others could not predict it. A few months ago, my 15 year old neighbor jumped from a high floor in our building and died because he was bullied. Before he died, he took a month off from school, but the kids kept bullying him online, which was what finally broke him. The next day, I saw in the news that another girl had jumped from a high floor. A week later, another boy did the same during a large event in front of hundreds of people. A month later, two girls who were severely bullied jumped from a high tower, one died, while the other survived with serious injuries. This is very tragic, and what is most frustrating is that it is still not taken seriously enough. Nobody takes responsibility.

Time to get some Red examples going up in here. Try to find some healthy ones too. Red is all too easy to demonize. List of Stage Red Values: Personal power, strength, might, brute force Displays of toughness Brazen courage, valor, heroism, daring Being the boss, being #1, winning at all costs Conquering one’s enemies, domination The thrill of conquest Warrior mentality, a glorious death, heroic deeds Competitive, crush your opponents Resolving disputes with ruthless force Winning, victory, conquest, triumph against odds Ambition, playing it big Revenge Respect Loyalty Decisiveness, assertiveness Passion, action Pragmatic, direct, no-nonsense Taking initiative & ownership, personal willpower Getting things done, just do it Unilateral control, executive power Glitz, ostentatious displays, grandiosity Wants to be bigger than life Status, recognition of prowess Machismo, pride, bragging Charisma, plain talk Intimidation, manipulation, exploitation Sexual conquest & exploitation Sex as power and vanity, sadistic sex Enjoying life to the fullest Adventure, thrill-seeking, living boldly Power contests, like slapping/arm-wrestling Breaking rules, finding loop holes Breaking with the pack & pushing the envelope Stage Red Examples: Trump, Saddam Hussein, Iraq, Syria, Hitler, Stalin, Liberia, Somalia, North Korea, Myanmar, Turkmenistan, Haiti, Africa, Middle East, Palestine, warlords, mafia, Tony Soprano, Al Capone, pirates, marauders, gangs, Yakuza, violent prisoners, prison culture, freedom fighters, revolutionaries, criminals, rapists, con artists, thieves, terrorists, juvenile delinquents, ancient Rome, gladiator combat, Caligula, Nero, Roman emperors, spartan, Chinese emperors, Japanese emperors, Alexander the Great, Achilies, Klingons, hackers, toxic narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths, lone shooters, Conan the Barbarians, Joe Pesci from Casino, Russian mob, toxic masculinity / Red Pill, vikings, Genghis Khan, Mongol hordes, drug addicts, gamblers, criminal underground, war criminals, massacres, torture, rape gangs, wild rock stars, Jules from Pulp Fiction, Joffery from GoT, Ramsey from GoT, Cersie from GoT, Dothraki from GoT, the Joker, cult leaders like Jim Jones & Charles Manson, David Koresh, Aztec human sacrifice, pimps, hustlers, prostitutes, sex trafficking, brothels, strippers, porn stars, violent porn, snuff films, king’s harems, absolute monarchs, feudalism, heads on pikes, Vlad the Impaler, crucifixion, cutting off body parts, cruel & unusual punishment, villains in movies, bullies, colonial exploitation, sweat shops, slavery, wild west, Terminator, Rambo, throwing objects when angry, cocaine, heroine, crack, meth users, suicide bombers, lesser Jihad, ISIS, domestic violence, MMA / UFC, boxing, Mike Tyson, Don King, Connor McGregor, bank robbers, the tyrannical boss, bribery, bling, gold teeth & chains, the hood, drive-by shootings, bloodsport, cock fighting, dog fighting, animal cruelty, sports fights, pro wrestling, movie Lord of War, Alex Jones, L Ron Hubbard, David Miscavige, 9/11, Oklahoma City bombing, some incels, some pickup, Jeffy rape van, Kanye dragon energy, rap music, heavy metal music, punk music, Mexican drug cartels, El Chapo, Grand Theft Auto game, graffiti, No Country For Old Men, Old Testament, Sith from Star Wars, Fight Club, A Clockwork Orange, Dan Pena, hunting homeless people for sport, Black Panthers, KKK, Machiavelli, women as property

I could not find a right title, and there are a billions of issues, due to the nature of what I went through and health, I have not been able to find anyone to help me with the issues since birth, and the ideas and solutions I have are mostly destroyed by the inability for humanity or the others; to be more spiritually insightful to get into the root cause, hence it's my responsibility to find a solution, I have been looking into archetypes based on the fundamental notions of some calculations and time, and time archetypes as I had some "chrone" types of experiences, and integral psychology the book creates, a lot of insight, but I feel and notice the doubt of humanity and the weight of that pain. I have been looking for stability with other, but the hypernarccistic expansion of perception and the in-abillity of the social structure of once here once was empathy has turned into a desire for capital money, gain and the denial the money and value is part of love, and the core issue of love. So many, things happend: I still ruminate suicide a lot, due to issues of thought and the pain I have since birth, but most psychologist are stuck in moder-post-modern levels of thinking from problems that stem from pre-rational to post-rational levels, and the pain of correcting or healing myself is awesome, but it's a lot of racist remnants from WWI and the effects of interacting with people here and their pain-body with Rudolf Steiner and Tesla, and other scientist how racist that era was, and how much violence has occurred, and the issue of the Ideation of race itself, d.n.a., turkey and Iran especially, their ideaology, the issue of color, and just my recent experiences. I got banned as I could not handle anymore my "coping" and the issue of being more social to be and get help, and that dragon swallowing you and devouring you etc. I found out that Leo's first name was part of Greeks Odyssee, with Alexander, Dimitri and Leo and the issue of Christ and religion and the whole issue with nature mystecism, the regress Ken Wilber was talking about and more patterns that I was correct, but could not express due to pain, especially as my first name is Dimitri, and I am using Wu-Xing generally speaking I had so many odd experiences and they all are Kriyas, I made to many excellent choices that turned into pure hell and purgatory, from multiple perspectives, the larger whole of what I yearn to say is: I found some answers if I will ever unify my psychedelic experiences and find possible terms and alternative terms or simply nothing to see and experience the credibility I found out a lot about humans; but I really required a forum or medium, so many things technically broke, as I learned and I found new patterns and ideas, but the core issue is the translation to put it into my understanding of Wilbers framework, and the core issues I had in my family, I yearned also to post this publically, as this was the only thing that gave me safety to the pain of the lies and the education of what I experienced with my mother, and her racist attitudes as well as inabillity to empathize due to them, like white liberals need white liberal training as they are in lie, they only seek lust, but can't find the meridian to turn lust and love into the purity of spirit, soul and evolution... most black men and I am partially black and others do that, and that level of commitment and depth goes to the deepest levels of rumi.... I found some answers in terms of order and vision, but the issue of the scientific paradigm and statistics, especially and worldviews since the 19th hundreds has internally not changed for me in my friendships, especially recently they have all been part of that and I had very deep revelations of the nature of spirit, but to read the symbolic holism and integrative hierachy behind it, as well as mastering integral language, as the more deeper you get I am 100% confinced that Lucifer and Ahriman did incarnate from this Paul Check video, and that fundamentally caused the issue with Iran. It's the deepst archetypal hunch I have due to this IW/IR patterning and the synchronicity of the time and birth of my favorite book integral psychology as many answers are applied, I cry so often, I can't even get to the notes due to the level of insights that pattern alone created the notes and last sections or Ken Wilber himself is a very deep IW/IR integrative patterning from BaZi. Science has to advanced into the true spirit of the causal, Steiner etc. to reinterpret that without their statistical bias, and the lack of scientific rigour ever since latin and greek disappeared bothers me deeply ever since I lived here, the lack of integration in that space, especially to let go and cleanse out pain is incredible. Btw, this is the best channel I found for meditation recently, I am very much done with stuff, but I yearn to understand Gödel, Nikola Tesla, Lada Love Lace, and some secret societies and orders, to take the esoteric and see what was exotertically true, and some mathematical allegories eventually, if I can get into 4d space downloads and insights, and the core issue of being a passionate mathematician, identity, and the current issue of our times. I'd like to report I went through so much, this place has been the only refuge I had, when society is utterly crumbling, but integral is building some human space to heal from that era, tbh. I am personally as a German not over WWII Shinzen and others telling me about the traditions as they are afraid they die, and the anger as well as compassion for and with Iran, and I've been using BaZi and Steiner as a lense, as the Wu-Xing, Goethe etc. are interconnected, but to write with that purity and the issue of IW/IR I saw what happens with Wilber, myself and my aunt, God will bend you, God will break you, and your will is your will. YOU ARE ONE. That is the entire issue I go through let alone with my own real names, how far they echo back into eternity, and the issues of how many traditions have realized GOD, has brought nothing back or stabilizing it. The only thing humanity should to is to stabilize god, and reduce violence and heal. The level of commitment and what I envisioned and if it's true, but most issues I had are more survival especially as a lot of trust in humanity has been broken, and a lot of things deepended on this pattern, but it turned so evil. I want, there are a lot of issues, due to success, and the issue of GOLD as well as the issue of beauty and GOD, Goethe and GOD and the interconnections, but I will make this a brief recollcetion!

This type of music is very funny to me. I cant help but laugh at a man singing this. But it makes me feel good. There was a man out there who spent months or years playing this and creating this as art. [Verse 1] Satanized, crucified, feel the wrath of suicide Incus fear on the sphere, angel darkness disappears Covenant, blasphemous, open up unholiness Father Satan, let me lust unholy sins [Chorus] Suicide sacrifice Destruction of holy life Blood of unholy knife Satan I sacrifice [Verse 2] Behold the crucifix, symbol of sterility I am crucifix-Satan Suicide sacrifice, profeasting evil night Lust into reality-Satan Angel of the black abyss, Satan lord I hail Insane blasphemous-Satan Sacrificial Suicide, ritual to end my life Behemoth incess my fate-Satan [Bridge] Damned to hell, end my life Wrath of god-Satan Sin my soul, blessed with fire Throne of stone-Satan I must die, in my wake Seventh gate-Satan Suicide, end my life I must die-Satan [Verse 3] Suicide sacrifice, thrust of evil deep inside Lucifer never lies, take away thee mortal life Demigod, Satan son, command the body to the ground Father Satan, I'll find peace when I am god [Chorus] Suicide sacrifice Destruction of holy life Blood of unholy knife Satan I sacrifice [Outro] Take me!

This is a really important point actually. MAPLE is absolutely a cult, by all standards. Is is drinking literal death koolaid mass suicide level cult? No. But is it highly sophisticated elite level forms of mind control, manipulation, indoctrination, emotional/spiritual abuse, and clinically narcissistic charismatic leader trying to create a new world religion to save the world with varying degrees of sexual exploitation levels of cult? Yes. Leo accidentally and unintentionally defending MAPLE has actually worked advantageously for them for them - it was mentioned in one of their recent comments as evidence I'm just being a bully. Quote, "Even the cult callout guy on actualized.org calls out this video: "sounds like a dissatisfied customer." He felt blueballed by this video." So... Yeah. BUT LEO... c'mon man! You're supposed to be "the cult callout guy" More precise details of the abuse present at MAPLE are especially clear from the substack post I linked. I should also mention one of the unfortunate qualities of my video was that yes it was somewhat vague, but I also really had no idea how the organization was going to react or respond. The video's primary purpose has essentially served as a kind of lighthouse warning people not to go, as well as make it safer for others to come forward.

I remember you talked about an ex of yours that would fake suicide threats to manipulate you. Yeah, I can see the extremity of such cases. But most people aren't like that. Most people are on a spectrum. They can behave selfishly sometimes, they can lose their temper, they can spread rumors, etc... That's all normal. We all go through these normal human experiences. Unless it becomes a consistent pattern. Then we are talking about psychopathy.

My perosnal take. Love cannot be divided. Human propensity for love can be divided across capacity. Unconditional love then, by that same authorship. If one wishes to know unconditional love, then either they must be a recipient or a giver. Philosophising from or on emotion when for the former condition, it is the blind bias of say the nihilists unrealised depression, and for the latter it is weakened by experienced immensity and or the collective memory of that emotion is fractured, is like looking through the keyhole of truth with your friends colourblind. If you want to know the condition upon which love exists in the authorship of another being, then let that author have the contours of their expression reveal the truth beneath the current of whatever truth they are trying to circulate. However, if you are trying to teach love, do not preach it as if you know it in whole when you can neither divide it in its parts, nor build its whole from those same parts followed by building it back up and down across a range of contexts. The irony of many spiritual discussions i have viewed on the forum is that most talk about things as arising from survival, when they neither know anything or much about biology as compelled by said survival. Nor have enough division to separate themselves from conceptualisation enough that they see the life force of those concepts independent to the puzzle pieces that have thus far been created about them. Causing them to look at the puzzle of life they have created not through fresh eyes that extends their view the next mornings rise, but justify through lived experiences why the puzzle pieces they have unknowingly created about life must stay the same, rather than introspective from the edges of those puzzle pieces and fathom, just what unexplored territory awaits them. From an emotional sense, unconditional love is indeed not only possible, but axiomatic to any proper condition for love and by that metric is a relationship of genuine meaning determined, or by its inverse, its fabrication. This is the same mathematical fabric that tethers the meaning between a human being and life itself, where their mirrored opposites overlap to explain their conditional to unconditional relationship to life. Moreover, in order to understand conditional vs unconditional love, remove the word love and understand these first as spectrums by relative circumstance, inclusive of disposition. Unconditional curiosity, joy, positivity, resilience, all of these are equivalent to then uncompromising states of human character in the same way that steel is to a certain velocity and viscosity. Unconditional love is no different, thus when we speak of the state of this condition, in order to view it accurately, you merely need to understand it as the resilience of a meaning system in maintaining that status, unconditionally, where unconditionally is unused relative to its character. Most peoplles adherence to the truth and seeking the truth including the repair of their own mind in forming the truth, is totally and utterly in a state of conditional meanings born out of material attachments. This is the great irony of ever being able to understand something as deeply human as unconditional love if one has neither felt it or cannot provide it, the latter two conditions being equal to the summation of our growth, not our destiny, something which I can personally attest to. It is not that love cannot be found in biological cells in the same way that its said that "god is in the neurons", it is that most talk between one another very arrogantly as if they understand the concepts they use deeply, from an analogous perspective, how god, neurons and all our biology works, missing entirely for example in this discussion the spectrum of love and the magnitude of that experience across from one human, culture, tribe, race and historical context to the next. Biology plays an absolutely pivotal role in love, both in self-healing and advancing human consciousness to higher frontiers of love, in no less ways then too, in understanding how we can bridge, however far some believe that adjacent to be, with unconditional love, made from a conditional ephemeral existence. On a personal level, unconditional love is undoubtedly a choice, but one thst is a part of a choice matrix that shares governance with multi-cursor structures from the injuries one has experienced to their nervous system to the safety felt in their environment, and how these give birth to attachment styles that lucidly prebias lenses concerning to the untrained philosophical styles that attempt to encapsulate it with the mathematical rigour of a primary schooler that does suicide bomber classroom raids with their native languages alphabet. Turn subjects like these into a deep discussioon, and you will turn minds to the only place that matters in understanding their deeper truth, in this case of unconditional love, as we each know it, from our own relative perspective. Unconditional love has many unique phenomenological properties that cannot simply be pinned down by measuring the x and y axis of certain biological strata, while at the same time, particular strata do allow for some mammals not just humans, to experience love and act on love, in ways that appear more unconditionalmcompared to other mammals. The reasons for this, should be enough justification to widen the horizon line for the puzzle piece that contains everything thought on this subject and deepen the number of dimensions, by which one may believe they could however slightly more deeply experience it, in the next mornings rise.

I think the difference between Joseph and Mellowmarsh is obvious. You teach people how to live, whereas I teach people how to die. And let’s not confuse this with physical literal suicide, it’s not about that, it’s about the dissolution of the illusory separate “ I” There is no “I” here right now. I never existed. There is a body and a brain. That feeling of aliveness is not going to go away. Life will go on as it always has. The belief that there is a “you” that controls life can be seen as just that, it’s a belief. From belief to clarity.

Things can definitely seem to matter! Does the inner drive of a serial killer matter? Is it actually important weather or not the egg gets fertilized? Was it crucial that the Japanese were unsuccessful at attempting to conquer the US during WW2? Is a robot that's programed to avoid destruction, important to keep intact? Does it matter if someone is successful at committing suicide or the so-called inner drive of reality is hurdling an asteroid the size of texas, at planet earth?

Suicide is running away. Real death is surrendering/burning while alive.

No, that just sounds edgy and consistent with the "ego death" truth you've read about, and you want to sound like you know. However, talking on a forum about "Total death" might lead someone into suicide, and that is NOT the death we are talking about. Thank you.

Please tell us more. From what you’ve shared so far..it’s hard to understand what has brought you to the point where you feel there is absolutely no other option except ending your life. And honestly..my answer is a firm and heartfelt NO. please don’t do it. I know you must be carrying an incredible amount of pain to even be thinking about suicide. But pain can convince us that there is no hope when in reality there are still paths that we simply cannot see in our darkest moments. Please don’t isolate yourself. Try not to spend long periods alone .Go outside if you can.. be around kind and caring people even if it’s just for a little while. I also strongly encourage you to seek professional help. Talking to a therapist and if appropriate considering antidepressants can be life changing. You don’t have to carry this burden by yourself. Most importantly.. be gentle with yourself. Love yourself even if it feels impossible right now. Accept yourself with all your scars..blind spots..mistakes..fears..and wounds.Give yourself the love you’ve been longing to receive from others. Nobody can love you more than yourself . And if you feel comfortable please open up a little more about what’s making you feel this way. What is causing so much pain that suicide seems like the only answer? Right now it’s not entirely clear from what you’ve share and understanding your situation better might help others support you more effectively. i wish you happy long life with peace in your heart . If you need someone to listen my inbox is open . You don’t have to go through this alone .

I could not find a right title, and there are a billions of issues, due to the nature of what I went through and health, I have not been able to find anyone to help me with the issues since birth, and the ideas and solutions I have are mostly destroyed by the inability for humanity or the others; to be more spiritually insightful to get into the root cause, hence it's my responsibility to find a solution, I have been looking into archetypes based on the fundamental notions of some calculations and time, and time archetypes as I had some "chrone" types of experiences, and integral psychology the book creates, a lot of insight, but I feel and notice the doubt of humanity and the weight of that pain. I have been looking for stability with other, but the hypernarccistic expansion of perception and the in-abillity of the social structure of once here once was empathy has turned into a desire for capital money, gain and the denial the money and value is part of love, and the core issue of love. So many, things happend: I still ruminate suicide a lot, due to issues of thought and the pain I have since birth, but most psychologist are stuck in moder-post-modern levels of thinking from problems that stem from pre-rational to post-rational levels, and the pain of correcting or healing myself is awesome, but it's a lot of racist remnants from WWI and the effects of interacting with people here and their pain-body with Rudolf Steiner and Tesla, and other scientist how racist that era was, and how much violence has occurred, and the issue of the Ideation of race itself, d.n.a., turkey and Iran especially, their ideaology, the issue of color, and just my recent experiences. I got banned as I could not handle anymore my "coping" and the issue of being more social to be and get help, and that dragon swallowing you and devouring you etc. I found out that Leo's first name was part of Greeks Odyssee, with Alexander, Dimitri and Leo and the issue of Christ and religion and the whole issue with nature mystecism, the regress Ken Wilber was talking about and more patterns that I was correct, but could not express due to pain, especially as my first name is Dimitri, and I am using Wu-Xing generally speaking I had so many odd experiences and they all are Kriyas, I made to many excellent choices that turned into pure hell and purgatory, from multiple perspectives, the larger whole of what I yearn to say is: I found some answers if I will ever unify my psychedelic experiences and find possible terms and alternative terms or simply nothing to see and experience the credibility I found out a lot about humans; but I really required a forum or medium, so many things technically broke, as I learned and I found new patterns and ideas, but the core issue is the translation to put it into my understanding of Wilbers framework, and the core issues I had in my family, I yearned also to post this publically, as this was the only thing that gave me safety to the pain of the lies and the education of what I experienced with my mother, and her racist attitudes as well as inabillity to empathize due to them, like white liberals need white liberal training as they are in lie, they only seek lust, but can't find the meridian to turn lust and love into the purity of spirit, soul and evolution... most black men and I am partially black and others do that, and that level of commitment and depth goes to the deepest levels of rumi.... I found some answers in terms of order and vision, but the issue of the scientific paradigm and statistics, especially and worldviews since the 19th hundreds has internally not changed for me in my friendships, especially recently they have all been part of that and I had very deep revelations of the nature of spirit, but to read the symbolic holism and integrative hierachy behind it, as well as mastering integral language, as the more deeper you get I am 100% confinced that Lucifer and Ahriman did incarnate from this Paul Check video, and that fundamentally caused the issue with Iran. It's the deepst archetypal hunch I have due to this IW/IR patterning and the synchronicity of the time and birth of my favorite book integral psychology as many answers are applied, I cry so often, I can't even get to the notes due to the level of insights that pattern alone created the notes and last sections or Ken Wilber himself is a very deep IW/IR integrative patterning from BaZi. Science has to advanced into the true spirit of the causal, Steiner etc. to reinterpret that without their statistical bias, and the lack of scientific rigour ever since latin and greek disappeared bothers me deeply ever since I lived here, the lack of integration in that space, especially to let go and cleanse out pain is incredible. Btw, this is the best channel I found for meditation recently, I am very much done with stuff, but I yearn to understand Gödel, Nikola Tesla, Lada Love Lace, and some secret societies and orders, to take the esoteric and see what was exotertically true, and some mathematical allegories eventually, if I can get into 4d space downloads and insights, and the core issue of being a passionate mathematician, identity, and the current issue of our times. I'd like to report I went through so much, this place has been the only refuge I had, when society is utterly crumbling, but integral is building some human space to heal from that era, tbh. I am personally as a German not over WWII Shinzen and others telling me about the traditions as they are afraid they die, and the anger as well as compassion for and with Iran, and I've been using BaZi and Steiner as a lense, as the Wu-Xing, Goethe etc. are interconnected, but to write with that purity and the issue of IW/IR I saw what happens with Wilber, myself and my aunt, God will bend you, God will break you, and your will is your will. YOU ARE ONE. That is the entire issue I go through let alone with my own real names, how far they echo back into eternity, and the issues of how many traditions have realized GOD, has brought nothing back or stabilizing it. The only thing humanity should to is to stabilize god, and reduce violence and heal. The level of commitment and what I envisioned and if it's true, but most issues I had are more survival especially as a lot of trust in humanity has been broken, and a lot of things deepended on this pattern, but it turned so evil. I want, there are a lot of issues, due to success, and the issue of GOLD as well as the issue of beauty and GOD, Goethe and GOD and the interconnections, but I will make this a brief recollcetion!

This is the holly grail of corruption in the land of the "heath"care cartel. Scientifically proven to: Full report Brain damage (21% frontal lobe reduction, neurotoxicity mechanisms) Sebaceous gland destruction throughout the body Eye damage (meibomian gland atrophy) Gut mucosa destruction Musculoskeletal damage Sexual dysfunction Psychiatric effects and suicide data Autoimmune triggering PROVEN by science. This comes directly from science yet its still pushed to millions of people every year. The pure corruption keeping this drug in the market is out of this world. Your gut also has sebaceous glands, destroying that is devistating... and they give this to teenagers. Doctors lack basic systemic inteligence.

Non-duality is a fascinating concept and arguing whether or not witnessing life by definition makes you unmerged from God is beyond the scope of my interest. Throughout this thread you've basically advocated for suicide and seemed to see harm in pursuing more powerful healthcare. That's the concerning part to me. Remember that throughout history most of the scientists that have researched breakthroughs that we now see as regular mundane part of life were seen as bat shit crazy and attacked in their time. This is what you're doing with Bryan Johnson because he stretches the boundaries of our current paradigm. He is helping in popularizing immortality research which is a phenomenal pursuit for mankind.

Male higher suicide rate (which occured even before feminism and women rights, as per the study mentioned in the video), feminicde, rape culture, greedy and selfish billionaires, inequality, environmental crisis, manosphere, they all have one main reason: patriarchy. This is not a gender war. This is a conflict between values. Life and death.

I’ve noticed that a lot of religions seem to say that if someone dies by suicide something worse happens than if they just die normally. Like in Christianity people talk about going to hell, in Buddhism some people say it can lead to a worse rebirth, etc. or just rebirth Do you think there’s actually some truth behind that? Or do you think religions mainly added those ideas to scare people away from doing it? @Leo Gura just curious about what you and everyone here think about that

When you become God, you realize there is no difference between life and death. The only difference is that during life you're constrained to survive your organism, otherwise you die. When you become insane, you can willingly choose to surrender the survival of your oraganism, and choose suicide, which is escaping the hallucination of your own organism, and existing eternally as God.

Why the need to talk about ego dissolution all the time…escapism seems like a coping mechanism designed to cope with the cold hard truth of not knowing death…it’s all escapism for the human… here are some more examples of escapism …from the stresses of being a conscious human being. Usage of psychedelics or weed, or alcohol, or cigarettes, or sexual pleasure, or material shopping addiction. It’s all distractions to soothe the existential pains of being self aware, even the practice of spiritual work is another way to soothe yourself. Through this spiritual work you have discovered that you are able to commit suicide, kill the ego so to speak. All that’s happening is a desire to disappear because it’s just too painful emotionally and physically to cope with being a self aware conscious sentient creature. Then there’s the pretending to know what you cannot possibly know, and that’s another tool you use to justify your desire to lose yourself, the self you think you have, but then also you then deny yourself that thought of having a self by seeking to kill that self you now don’t have. Can’t you see how insane this human life is.

I feel drawn to this because I noticed that the label "rational" is often used to give things more authority and confidence than should be warranted. I noticed this in "rational suicide" but it is a broad phenomenon. In the case of suicide, I believe it is fundamentally an emotional decision linked to a person's capacity to find meaning in suffering rather than at its core a logical consequentialist calculation. Here is an example of "rational suicide" although the problem with self-bias in rationality is much broader. Imagine you were a Japanese soldier during WWII. You are very loyal to your country and will do anything to ensure victory. Your reasoning goes as follows. 1. I want Japan to win the war. 2. A Kamikaze strike would aid in achieving that goal. 3. Therefore I should carry out the strike In this example, suicide is instrumentally rational in a similar manner to the terrorist attacks by ISIS. The problem with calling this rational is that it is extremely biased due to self-interest. Isn't self-interest inherently a deeply emotional bias rather than a rational one? There are people who might self-sacrifice for others or who might sacrifice for the greater good due to having a broader circle of concern. In the case of the Kamikaze fighter, any apparent rationality is based on an emotional desire that got tied up in a nationalist propaganda machine with many layers of untruth. Would it not be deeply irrational to believe in nationalist propaganda and to base one's self-interest off beliefs that were not critically examined? The deeper issue I am sensing is that rationality is selectively applied as a consequence of self-interest which therefore biases the entire string of logic no matter how consistent it appears to be. Rationality in the context of self-interest appears to structurally exclude the bigger picture while mis categorizing emotional biases and agendas as though they were rational. I saw this happening with workplace studies as well. Employers were studying how rudeness and disrespect undermine employee productivity. They focused on employee interactions with customers while completely ignoring the role of the employer in terms of rudeness and disrespect that might undermine productivity due to low morale. From my point of view, the question of rudeness and disrespect should include the power imbalance between employer and employee which leads to dehumanization and a collapse of basic self-respect due to seeing oneself as fundamentally worthless. This is not accounted for in rudeness undermining workers because the agenda is biased toward corporate survival. This in turn obscures the full picture and therefore the reality of why employees become less productive. Nevertheless this kind of study passes as rational. A common problem in how science is structured includes context stripping, possibly because the fundamental agenda in the pharmaceutical industry is profiteering over effective treatment which in turn biases how the studies are conducted and applied. The double blind placebo controlled studies demonstrate that the new pill improved about 90% of those studied, but then this get applied broadly across the entirely population even though the studies are set up with heavy filters to skew the results toward high effectiveness. In practice the outcome is that medicine is typically far less effective than advertised. Nevertheless psychiatrists think they are being rational when they use studies like these to justify a prescription. There seems to be no real interest in this industry in terms of closing the gap between theoretical studies and actual practice, which in turn corrupts the entire epistemic environment. It would be irrational to trust this environment, this context, this apparent authority, and these supposedly rigorous studies due to the heavy bias behind the apparent rationality which is ultimately a deeply emotional fear. In this sense science does not actually value rigor, but rather it values the appearance of rationality and rigor for the sake of aiding in authority, survival, and self-interest. The way science is practiced isn't actually rational in this sense. It seems that rational self-interest is inherently divorced from truth as a consequence of the limited circle of concern. This includes examples such as mafia bosses, drug lords, and corporate criminals as being characterized as acting in rational self-interest despite the extreme harm they cause. It makes me question if they are really being rational or is their entire epistemic framework deeply irrational due to the corrupted relationship with truth? This is an important question because if rationality ultimately operates independently of truth, then why should it be believed? How can judgment be sound if it is fundamentally divorced from truth while using the label rational to obscure the emotional foundation of biased reasoning? If this is the case that rational self-interest includes deep self-deception, then I might be able to construct a position for rational belief in the Bible. For example, I feel happy when I go to church and believe in the Bible. Therefore I should maintain the belief that the Bible is true out of rational self-interest. Self-interest is at it's core rationality that operates independently of truth. If this standard were applied consistently, then worshipping Jesus should be considered rational. If converting people aids in my rational self-interest, then that probably means that it is rational to argue that the Bible is true and that others should believe it. In this sense, does it mean that the fundamentalist Christian is being rational when he argues that Noah's Ark was real? Applying the standards of rational self-interest, maybe it is rational to believe in these things and to teach it to children. Across all of these cases the term "rational" is commonly used to make something seem more certain, authoritative, and truthful than it actually is. The thing that bothers me therefore is what "rational belief" would mean in this context. If rational could be part of the self-deception, then what kind of real relationship does it have with truth? This is the contradiction in rationality in that it wants to claim truth as authoritative while being divorced from it. As we know from various spiritual sources we use on this site such as the book list, you cannot believe your way to truth in the sense that all of that is relative. Is it even possible for a belief to be fundamentally rational? How do you rationally believe a belief? One distinction I came across was a belief versus an alief. The alief is the felt sense that something is true without needing intellectual justification. Given a felt sense that something is true operating independently of truth, this likely serves a mechanism for rationalization to make something appear more reasonable than it actually is. Ultimately, rationality cannot be a label to indicate an ultimate truth. Rationality is more so an instrumental tool given a specific goal or objective while being limited to a specific context. Ultimate truth would require a bigger picture than rationality. Is this a fair critique of self-bias in apparent rationality?

So where are you in body? Move fast, save your scared ass. I will see your beautiful process when death comes 😂 Enlightenment is suicide, but not as a pussy physical suicidal, it is surrendering, dying while alive, burning while alive. Enlightenment is death of you. Absolutely, after enlightenment: God, enlightenment, self, death, life, meaning, meaningless vanishes, including word of vanishing. You realize that You are always what You are, body/mind is just took place now. They come and go, but You are always Now.

@James123 your form of spirituality sounds like suicide. Enlightenment can only be true if you are truly dead, not half alive. If it's so important to be letting go of the body then letting it go completly would be the only real answer, what is death, what is enlightenment, because before that the ego will just hide in the form of some God complex, thinking it has reached the ultimate and its proud of it too.