Jirh

My life was so hard. So evil. So normal. And so abnormal. But then I experienced love and connection beyond my wildest imagination. Most people dream of it. They yearn for it. They write poems and songs about it. But very few actually live it. It wasn't unconditional love. Just human love, in its most extreme forms, and in its highest levels. True love. It was so pure, so rare. I was so lucky to have it, even if it couldn't last. She had the purest heart. Innocent as a baby. And fierce as a soldier. One taste, and I could never go back. It changed my entire being. It healed me. It awakened me. I could never settle for less. I could never get over it. I could never get over her. 💔

If you truly want something, you will manifest it without any techniques. Desire is the key. It is the fuel for everything. And when you flow into the vortex, techniques become distractions. You just let the flow lead you and take you where you want to go. Just be clear about your desires and you will find a way. Trust your guts.

But many of your blog posts seem somewhat tounge-in-cheek. I can suggest fonts for that genre

@Leo Gura Try Cambria. It's newer, but looks similar, and reads better on small screens.

Thanks! I mean you'd expect that to be the standard on a forum that talks about God. Some people appreciate the breath. I'm generally careless with and unmindful of mine. But it's on my goal list.

General rule of thumb: Whatever body count a guy claims, divide it by 10.

Have you, really? I'm having a hard time digesting this thought. You say "incredible women" and then move on to the next dozen, as if nothing happened. That doesn't add up. Incredible people are rare, and you're claiming to have met like half a dozen already. And you're still looking for more. What are you looking for exactly? If you don't mind me asking. I think you're exaggerating about the quality of the women you've met, or maybe they were truly incredible and way out of your league that you couldn't keep them around, so you accepted the numbers game as a consolation prize.

That's such a low consciousness, materialistic, consumerist take. I can only imagine people who think like this having around 700 demons running around in their heads. Deeply disturbed individuals, lacking every amount of mindfulness. People are not numbers! They are not scores. Another person said here that you're thinking about women like a hamburger. But it's deeper than that. Thinking about hamburger as a casual thing to consume is the real problem. You don't appreciate the burger. You don't even feel it. You just consume it. And then you apply the same lack of mindfulness to sex. And then you claim that weight doesn't matter. And then you claim that health doesn't matter. And the tragedy is that you don't even know that you did any of that. Are you a robot? I hope you take this question seriously.

I have a little fun, yet powerful idea. I'm toying around with AI, trying to create a consciousness-language indicator --a score system for measuring the level of consciousness by language use. Most of the work done by AI. I'm mostly testing and seeing if it feels right. It will specifically target writing, and give penalties and rewards depending on how integrated/disintegrated the text is as a whole. It should be fun and useful. We'll see where it goes.

A dark personality could look exactly like you're describing. That's how they are effective in the first place. They project an image of perfect mirror of what they want you to think. And they get you from there. How could you tell that she's different? Or to be more specific, how do you distinguish between trauma and darkness? They're essentially the same -- a mix of selfishness with low consciousness. Damn! Now I'm feeling challenged. And I'm too confident of myself. I wanna try some Honestly, I think my awakening happened because I was fucked up by a dark tetrad. So it's all good in the end.

Always the first example that comes to your mind

I remember you talked about an ex of yours that would fake suicide threats to manipulate you. Yeah, I can see the extremity of such cases. But most people aren't like that. Most people are on a spectrum. They can behave selfishly sometimes, they can lose their temper, they can spread rumors, etc... That's all normal. We all go through these normal human experiences. Unless it becomes a consistent pattern. Then we are talking about psychopathy.

Oh, so now it's tetrad, not triad anymore. Lol okay. What I know is that these people are poorly understood. Sure, there are rare hardcore cases, hopeless lost causes. But the rest exist on a spectrum. Any of us could be one of them sometimes. Pop psychology makes it seem like anyone that shows one "evil" behaviour has a dark personality. But if you examine the stories thoroughly, the other person is often a participant in the drama, not just a victim of it, and when the drama becomes too much for them, they start pulling away or behaving aggressively, triggering the "dark" person's fears.

@Hojo It's hard to have clarity about biology with humans, but it's clear in cats for example. The cat mother loves and feeds and protects her children, until they can move. Then she abandons them and starts placing boundaries with them. They might even fight or kill one another.

Women understand logic. They just don't take it all too seriously. They're more realist with it. Emotions move them. Men are logical beings. They move with logic. To men, emotions are like old scars that hide painful stories underneath.