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In my opinion, It might seem like certain conditions has to be met for life to emerge on a planet. But that's only from human's perspective. Because we haven't encountered radical life forms yet. Why cant life develop in -100 Fahrenheit? because it's not a comfortable temperature for any living organism known so far? Even if there were Earth-like conditions on an alien planet. Evolution could have taken aliens on a million different paths of development. Evolution is shaped by luck, unpredictable events (ice ages, meteors etc.), geography and more. They might have completely different biology which means different language and understanding of reality. I think Mathematics is very much dependent on the mind, and it is a modern invention. There are Native tribes that have a very different language structure and cognitive understanding of reality, not like any modern languages. Yet, they can do basic addition and subtraction without any concept of numbers. Interesting perspective about alien perception is depicted in the movie "Arrival" (2016). The aliens there don't even have the concept of Time, let alone mathematics. Here is an example of human silliness. Today, we all image aliens on a sort of flying discs. But before the first human flight was possible (around 1900), when people had no concept of airplanes, everybody imagined aliens using boats for transportation. People thought aliens would come on a vessel from the ocean. This goes to show that we project a lot of our own reality when we conceptualize about aliien species. But I think we can never know for sure.

Chapter 11 Impact of domestic abuse and psychopathy 2 Rev. Dr. James Dobson : Ted it is … about 2:30 in the afternoon. You are scheduled to beexecuted tomorrow morning at 7 o’clock (if you don’t receive another stay). What is goingthrough your mind? What thoughts have you had in these last few days? Ted Bundy : … I won’t kid you to say it’s something I feel I’m in control of or have cometo terms with, ‘cause I haven’t. It’s a moment-by-moment thing. Sometimes … I feel verytranquil, and other times … I don’t feel tranquil at all. What’s going through my mind rightnow is to use the minutes and hours that I have left as fruitfully as possible, and … see whathappens. It helps to live in the moment, in the essence that we use it productively. So rightnow I’m feeling calm … in large part because I’m here with you. For the record, you are guilty of killing … many women … and girls. Yes, yes, that’s true. Ted, how did it happen? Take me back. What are the antecedents of the behavior that we’veseen? So much grief, so much sorrow, so much … pain for so many people! Where did it start,how did this moment come about? …That’s the … question in the hour and one that not only … People more intelligent than Iare working on for years and one that I have been working on for years and trying tounderstand … it … ( laugh ) Is there enough time to explain it all ? … I don’t know … I think Iunderstand what happened to me … To the extent that I … I can see how certain feelings andideas have developed in me to a point that I began to act out on them. Some very violent andvery destructive feelings … Well … Let’s go back then to those roots … First of all, you, as I understand it, were raised inwhat you consider to be a healthy home... …Absolutely… …You were not physically abused, you were not sexually abused, you were not emotionallyabused…. No, in no way. I … and that’s part of the tragedy of this whole situation. Because … I grewup in a wonderful home with two … dedicated and loving parents, as one of five brothers andsisters. A home … where we, as children, were the focus of my parent’s lives. We regularlyattended church… Two Christian parents … they did not drink, they did not smoke, there wasno gambling, there was no physical abuse or fighting in the home. I’m not saying this was …“Leave it to Beaver” [American television situation comedy, from 1957 to 1963] … One perfect home … No, I don’t believe that such a home exists, but it was a fine, solid Christian home. Andnobody, hum … I hope no one will try to take the easy way out, and try to blame or otherwiseaccuse my family of contributing to this … Because, I know, and I’m trying to tell you as 3honestly as I know how, what happened. And I think this is a message that we can get across.But as a young boy (and I mean boy of 12 or 13, certainly), I encountered, outside the homeagain, in …the local grocery store and the local drug stores, the softcore pornography (or whatpeople “softcore”…). … As I think as I’ve explained you last night, that this … anecdote …that as young boys we explore the backdoors and … the sideways and byways of theirneighborhoods, and oftentimes the people would dump … the garbage and whatever they’recleaning out their house and from time to time, we come across pornographic books of aharder nature than … a more graphic, you might say, a more explicit nature of what we wouldencounter, let’s say, in your local grocery store. And this also included such things as, let’ssay … detective magazines… Those included violence. Yes, yes. And this is something that I want to emphasize, this is the … the most damaging …kinds of pornography - and again I’m talking from personal experience … hard, real, personalexperience – so, the most damaging kinds of pornography, are those that involves violenceand sexual violence. Because the wedding of those two forces – as I know only too well –brings about behavior that is just … Hum. …just … too terrible to describe. Walk me through that. What was going on in your mind at that time? Okay , before we go any further, it is important to me that people … believe what I’m saying,and to tell you that I’m not blaming pornography. I’m not saying it caused me to go out anddo certain things. I take full responsibility for whatever I’ve done and all the things that I’vedone. That’s not the question here. The question … and the issue is how this kind of literaturecontributed and helped mold and shape the kinds of violent behavior. It fueled your fantasies .Fueled … Well, in the beginning, it fuels this kind of … thought process. Then, at a certaintime, it is instrumental in crystallizing it, making it into something which is … almost aseparate entity inside. And that points you at the verge, I was at the verge of acting out on thiskind of fantasy. Now, I really want to understand that. You had gone about as far as you could go in your own fantasy life, with printed material, and you may … or printed and, video or films … Films… magazines … whatever. …and then there was the urge to take that little step, a big step over to a physical event. 4It happened in stages, gradually, it doesn’t necessarily – not to me, at least – happened over anight. My experience with, I’d say, pornography, generally, but with pornography that dealson a violent level with sexuality, is that … once you become addicted to it (and I look at thisas a kind of addiction) like other kinds of addiction, you keep … you keep looking for morepotent, more explicit, more graphic kinds of material. Like an addiction, you keep cravingsomething which is harder, harder, something which … which … gives you a greater sense of excitement, until you reach the point where the pornography only goes so far, you reach that jumping off point where you begin to wonder if… if maybe actually doing it will give youthat which is just beyond reading about it and looking at it. How long did you stay at that point before you actually assaulted someone? Well, yeah, you see … hum. That is a very delicate point … in my own development, andwe’re talking about something … we’re talking about how to reach the point or a grey areathat surrounded that point … of, of course … …You don’t remember? How long … I would say … I would say a couple of years. And … What I was dealing there was … withvery strong inhibitions against criminal behavior or violent behavior, that had beenconditioned into me, bred into me in my environment, in my neighborhood, in my church,hum … in my school. Things that said “no, this is wrong”, I mean, even thinking of it iswrong, and certainly, to do it is wrong. And I’m on that edge, and the last … I might say, thevestiges of restraint, the barriers to actually doing something would being tested constantly,and assailed … through the kind of fantasy life that was fueled … largely … by pornography. Do you remember what pushed you over that edge? Well … Do you remember the decision to “go for it”? Do you remember where you decided to throwcaution to the wind? … Again … When you say “pushed”, I don’t want to … I know what you’re saying, and Idon’t want to … Yes, I understand … Again …. that I was some helpless kind of victim, and yet … we’re talking about an influencewhich … (that is the influence of violent … type of media and violent pornography), whichhad a … which was an indispensable link in the chain of behavior, the chain of events that ledto behaviors, to the assaults, to the murders and what … ( laugh )… It’s a very … difficultthing to describe … the … the sensation … of the … of reaching that point where you …where I knew … that … it was something as you would say that snapped, that I knew that Icouldn’t control it anymore. These barriers I’d been … that I had learned as a child, that had 5been instilled in me … were not enough to hold me back with respect to … seeking out andharming somebody. Would it be accurate to call that a frenzy, a sexual frenzy? Well … yes, that’s one way to describe it – a compulsion, a … building up of this destructiveenergy… Again … Another fact here I haven’t mentioned is the use of alcohol. What I thinkis … what alcohol did, in conjunction, let’s say, with my exposure to pornography, alcoholdid reduced my inhibitions, at the same time as … the fantasy life that was fueled withpornography … eroded them further. In your early days, you were nearly always about half drunk as you did these things … is that right? … Yes … yes … Was that always true? … I … I would say that that was generally the case … almost … [inaudible] If I can understand it now, there is this battle going on within. There are the conventions that you’ve been taught, there’s the right and wrong that you learned as a child, and there is this… this … unbridled passion … fueled by … your plunge into hardcore violent pornography. And those things are at war with each other .Yes … And then with the … alcohol diminishing the … the inhibitions … uh, you let go. Well … yes … you can summarize it that way, and that’s accurate, sir. And … it just occurredto me that … some people would say that, “I’ve seen that stuff and it doesn’t do anything tome!”. And I can understand that… I … Virtually, everyone … can be exposed to so-calledpornography, and well they’re aroused and… don’t do anything wrong. Well, addictions are like that: they affect people more than they affect others. But there is a percentage of people affected by hardcore pornography, in a very violent way, and you’reobviously one of them .That was major component, and I don’t know why I was vulnerable to it. All I know is that…that it … it had an impact on me … that was just so … central in the development of theviolent behavior that I engaged in. Ted, after you committed your first murder, what was the emotional effect on you? What happened in the days after that? … ( sigh ) … Again … please understand … that even … all these years later, it is verydifficult to talk about … Reliving it … through talking about it is difficult to say the least but 6I want you to understand what happened. It was like coming out of some kind of horribletrance or … or dream. I can only liken it to … after … (and I don’t want to overdramatize it)… to have been possessed by something so awful and alien, and then the next morning wakeup from it, remember what happened and realize that, basically, in the eyes of the law, andcertainly in the eyes of God, you’re responsible. And … To wake up in the morning andrealize what I had done in … with a clear mind, and all my essential moral and ethical …feelings intact at that moment … hum … absolutely … horrified that I was capable of …doing something like that. You really hadn’t known that before? Ha … ( laugh ) There is … absolutely … no way … to describe… First … the brutal … urge to do that kind of thing … and then … what happens is once it is more or less satisfied, and,receded you might say, or spent, like that sense, that kind of energy … at a level receded…and basically I became myself again. And I want people to understand this too … I’m notsaying this [inaudible], it is important that people understand this: that basically, I was a normal person . Uh … I wasn’t some guy hanging out in bars, or a bum. I wasn’t a pervert inthe sense that, you know, people look at somebody and say, “I know there’s something wrongwith him” and just tell! … I was essentially a normal person. I had good friends, I … led anormal life, except for this … one … small, but very potent and very destructive segment of itthat I kept very secret and very close to myself, and didn’t let anybody know about it. Andpart of the shocking horror for my dear friends and family when, years ago when I was firstarrested was … there was no clue!They looked at me, and they looked at the, you know, the average American boy, and I … Imean, I wasn’t perfect … I was okay , okay? I was … the basic humanity and basic spirit thatGod gave me was intact and … unfortunately became overwhelmed at times … and peopleneed to recognize … that it’s not some kind of … Those of us who are … who have been …so … much influenced by … violence … in the media, in particular, pornographic violence,are not some kinds of inherent monsters. We are your sons and we are your husbands and …we grew up in regular families, and pornography can reach in and snatch a kid out of anyhouse today… it snatched me out of my … it snatched me out of my home twenty-thirty yearsago. And as diligent as my parents were … and they were diligent in protecting their children… and as good a Christian home as we had, and we had a wonderful Christian home …There’s no protection against the kinds of influences that there are loose in the society thattolerates … Hum … … you feel this really deeply don’t you? … Ted, outside these walls, right now, thereare several hundred reporters … that wanted to talk to you … … Yeah … … And you asked me to come here from California because you had something you wanted tosay. This hour that we have together … is not just … an interview with a man who isscheduled to die tomorrow morning. I’m here, and you’re here, because of this message 7 you’re talking about right here. You really feel … that hardcore pornography, and the door toit, softcore pornography, is doing untold damage to other people and causing other women …to be abused and killed the way you did. Listen. I’m no social scientist, and I haven’t done a survey, I mean, I don’t pretend that Iknow what John Q. citizens [i.e. “man on the street”] think about this. But I’ve lived in prisonfor a long time now, and … I’ve met a lot of men who were motivated to commit violence, just like me. And without exception , every one of them was deeply involved in pornography,without question , without exception , deeply influenced and consumed by an addiction topornography. There’s no question about it. The F.B.I.’s own study on serial homicide showsthat the most common interest among serial killers is pornography. That’s’ true. And it’s real! It’s true! Ted, what would your life … have been like … without that influence? … ( sigh ) … You can only speculate. Yeah … Well, I know it would have been far better ( laugh ) not just for me … and … it’s …( laugh ) excuse me for being so self-centered here, it would have been a lot far better for meand for a lot of other people, I know that, a lots of innocent other people - victims andfamilies. There would have been a lot better, there’s no question about that … that it wouldhave been a … a fuller life, a life that … would not have involved - I’m absolutely certain -would not have involved this kind of violence that I have been … that I have committed... I’m sure, Ted, if … If I were able to ask you the questions that are being asked out there … Mmmh … …one of the most important, as you come down to perhaps your final hours: “Are youthinking about all those victims out there and their families … … Well … … who are so wounded? You know, years later, their lives have not returned to normal, theywill never return to normal. Absolutely… Are you carrying that [inaudible], that way? Is there remorse there? … … Ha … Again… I know that people will accuse me of being self-serving, but we’rebeyond that now, I mean … I’m just telling you how I feel … but … through God’s help, I've 8been able to come to the point where I … … (much too late! but better late than never) … feel the hurt and the pain that I am responsible for … Yes absolutely! In the past few days, myself and a number of investigators have been … talking about unsolved cases … murders that Iwas involved in … and it’s hard to talk about all these years after because it revives me allthese terrible feelings, and those thoughts that I have … … steadfastly and … … diligentlydealt with, and I think successfully, with the love of God … and yet it’s reopened and I feel… and I felt the horror again and all that … and I can only hope … that … those who I haveharmed … those to whom I have caused so much grief … even if they don’t believe … my …expression of … sorrow, and remorse … will believe … what I’m saying now … that thereare loose in their towns in their communities … people, like me today … whose dangerousimpulses are being fueled, day in and day out … by violence in the media in its various forms- particularly the sexualized violence. And what scares me – and let’s come into the presentnow, because what I’m talking about happened thirty … twenty or thirty years ago, that is, inmy formative stages … And what scares me, Dr Dobson, is when I see what’s on cable T.V.( laugh )… some of the movies … I mean, some of the violence in the movies that come intohomes today, with stuff that they wouldn’t show in X-rated adult theatres 30 years ago. Thisstuff … … Is that slasher movies that you’re talking about? … that stuff is, I’m telling you from personal experience, the most graphic violence on screen,particularly as it gets into the home to children when they’ll be unattended or unaware thatthey may be a Ted Bundy who has that … that vulnerability, that predisposition to beinfluenced by that kind of behavior … by that kind of movie, by that kind of violence. Thereare kids sitting out there, switching the TV, dial around and come upon these movies late atnight … or I don’t know when they’re on, but they’re on! And they keep watching … it’sscary when I think what … would have happened to me if I had seen … that was scaryenough! Well I just ran to stuff outside the home … but … to know that children are watchingthat kind of thing today … or can pick up their phone and … dial a way for it or send a wayfor it … hum … Hum … can you help me understand this desensitization process that took place … What wasgoing on in your mind? Well that desensitization, I’d describe it … in specific terms is that … each time … I’d harmsomeone, each time I… killed someone … there had been an enormous amount… especiallyat first … enormous amount of horror, guilt, remorse afterwards, but … then … that impulseto do it again would come back even stronger … Now, believe me, I didn’t … the uniquething about how this worked, Dr Dobson, is that I still felt, in my regular life, the full range of … guilt and remorse about other things … and regret and … Do you had this compartmentalized … ? 9… This compartmentalized, very well focused … hum … very sharply focused area where I… it was … like a black hole … you know, it was like a crack, and everything that fell on thatcrack just disappeared … Does that make sense? Yeah it does … hum … One of the final murders you that committed in the course …apparently, was the little Kimberly Leach which was 12 years of age … hum ... I think the public outcry is greater there because an innocent child was taken from a playground. What did you feel after that? Was there … Were there the normal emotions three days … Wherewere you, Ted? I … … I can’t really talk about that right now. That’s … That’s too painful. I would like to … be able to convey … to you what that … that … experience is like, but Ican’t, I won’t be able to talk about that. Mmmh okay, okay… I can’t begin to understand … well, I can try … I’m ... aware that I can’t begin to understandthe pain … that … the parents of … these children that I have … and these young women thatI have harmed feel. And I can’t restore … really much to them, if anything. I won’t pretendto, and I don’t even expect them to forgive me. I’m not asking for it. That kind of forgivenessis of God; if they have it, they have it, and if they don’t, maybe they’ll find it someday. Do you deserve the punishment the state has inflicted upon you? ( laugh ) Haha … That’s a very good question. I’ll answer really honestly. I don’t want to die; Iwon’t kid you. I can’t kid you now! Hum … I deserve, certainly… the most extremepunishment … society has, and I deserve … And I think society deserves to be protectedfrom me and from others like me. That’s for sure. … I think … What I hope will come of ourdiscussion is I think society deserves to be protected from itself . Because, as we have beentalking, there are forces at loose in this country, particularly, again, this kind of violentpornography, … where, on the one hand, well-meaning descent people will condemn thebehavior of a Ted Bundy while they’re walking past a magazine rack full of the very kinds of things that send young kids down the road to be Ted Bundys. That’s the irony.We’re talking here, not just about … moral, what I’m talking about is to go beyondretribution, which is what … people want with me. Going beyond retribution and punishment.Because there is no way in the world that killing me is going to restore … those beautifulchildren to their parents and … correct and … soothe the pain. But I’ll tell you: there are lotsof other kids playing in streets around this country today who are going to be dead tomorrow,and the next day, and the next day and the next month, because other young people arereading the kinds of things and seeing the kinds of things that are available in the mediatoday. 10 Ted, as you imagine, there is tremendous cynicism about you on the outside, and I suppose, for good reason… Mmmh. I’m not sure there’s anything that you could say that people would … believe, that some people would believe … Yep! ...And yet you told me last night (and I have heard this through our mutual friend, JohnTanner) that you have … accepted the forgiveness of Jesus Christ and are a follower and believer in Him. Do you draw strength from that, as you approach these final hours? I do. I can’t say that being in the Valley of the Shadow of Death is something I’ve become allthat accustomed to, and that I’m strong and nothing’s bothering me. Listen, it’s no fun. … its… It gets kind of lonely, and yet … I have to remind myself that every one of us will gothrough this someday in one way or another… It’s appointed unto man. … and countless millions who have walked this earth before us have gone through this, sothis is just an experience which we all share Christianity is a joke. Like fiction. All of it. Very manipulative. So many cults and evil sects and denominations. Much destruction caused by the manipulative nature of this big cult. Christ must be evil rather than good.

We haven't seen any alien, yet.

An alien is probably doing something for their technological advancements. But it doesn't have to be mathematics. As Leo said you can create a model for the universe in an infinite number of ways. Life is relatively similar on Earth. Makes me wonder just how different an alien species would be.

I am running into a strange problem. Ever since starting personal development and actualizing myself, I have noticed that relationships don't work for me. Is this an actual problem that people can have, when they start growing and evolving as a person? I have been on this journey for about 10 years. In that time I have had 2 relationships. In both of them, I don't know how else to word this but I feel like I am too actualized for them. So I end up feeling like I should just be alone because having a boyfriend makes me feel like they can't relate to me so I end up dragging myself down to their level vibrationally and they start to feel like a toxic anchor to me. They have no knowledge or interest in the things I enjoy, they are stuck in the mode of "sitting around smoking weed watching video games and tv" EVERY weekend. My most recent boyfriend was an extreme example of this. That's all he did on weekends and that's all he wanted to do with me. I took him to a few spiritual music festivals that are life-changing for everyone that attends, but not him...he felt uncomfortable and left early and it caused a major rift between us and we ended up breaking up partly because of that. It really hurt me to end that relationship because he said I made him happier than he's ever been, and he was alone and depressed for 5 years before meeting me, all his other exes left him too so I felt guilty leaving him but I just knew it wasn't going to work with us being so different. Even when we were together, I still made plans for festivals and camping, and most of the time ended up going alone. I did more things alone than with him. When I would tell him about a new book I got, he wouldn't even ask me what it was about. When I would tell him I want to eat healthy, he would buy me pizza just so we could eat together. When he would come over and I'd have an educational documentary on, he would sit down and grab the remote and ask if I wanted to watch wrestling or some fictional tv show with a subject matter I couldn't have cared less about. My relationship before this last one was mostly the same way, he just wanted to sit and watch movies and tv shows, and when I would show him my arts and crafts stuff I was working on, he would laugh and not know what to say and it made me feel judged. He did go to music festivals with me but instead of using it as a spiritual experience, he would go just to do drugs and meet new people to do drugs with. I feel like no matter who i'm with, I am pretty much alone. Can anyone relate to this problem? I do want to be in a relationship but it seems like I am never happy in them because I am too "actualized" and end up feeling like they might as well be an alien because they are so different from me. It seems like most men are like this, not just ones I date but also male friends, my brother, etc. I feel like it's going to be a very lonely life for me if I can't find someone who is actually interested in making themselves a better person and has an interest in me making myself a better person.

@Sven english is not my mother tongue not something i spoke already and i had to learn it does that count but about your question with alien language. nope. haven't had any experience like that... i guess even the word "alien" is relative to the native american - when Chris Columbus and his squad pulled in North America, the natives thought they were some other divine beings or something... spoke a different language, white skin etc to them, they were encountering aliens i know, you mean ET but wanted to say that. forget language, have you yourself encountered any alien or had any experience with a foreign ET entity?

elsewhere: a retrospective. I have finally made it to Elsewhere. Tomorrow, I will move out of my parent's place and into an intentional community focused on personal growth and connecting with nature. What will I discover? Who will I meet? What treasures will I unearth along the way? Tune in next week to find out! Jokes aside, this has been a hell of a year, both literally and figuratively. Let's copy/paste the bullet points from my first post on this topic and see what I have accomplished thus far (comments on each point in red): Issues: Chronically low self-esteem. I spent most of my young adult life being bullied and sucking up to others. Now I subconsciously believe I'm unworthy. I also believe that I don't deserve to get what I want. Hence the spiritual ego, hence the desire for purity in mind, body, and spirit. Spiritual ego is pretty much gone, but the feelings of unworthiness are still sneaking around. Chronic social anxiety. I'm years behind in my social skills. I notice my subtle body contracts whenever I'm around people. I feel like I'm being judged all the time. Much, much better. I'm finally "catching up." Knee-jerk depression. It's 50% gone since I re-introduced meat back into the diet, but I still have some lows here and there. All gone. Being an INFJ and HSP, especially in a society that wants everything opposite to my personality. I judge myself harshly and beat myself up for not being like everyone else. Not anymore. I'm okay with being weird. ADHD. Again, tweaking the diet's helped a ton with this. Almost completely gone. Supporting myself financially. Uhhhh, what's a jorb? Still working on this one. I'm working towards a couple certificates that will potentially help me pay bills in the future. More on that in another post. Body tensions. Improved a lot since starting hatha yoga, but still terrible posture, back pain, and psychosomatic issues. Posture is noticeably better. Back pain is still there, but much more bearable. Foam rolling and massage balls at night are helping, too. I don't know how to be a friend. No, seriously. I have acquaintances, but virtually no friends. I don't reach out to people, not even my brother. I don't know how. I've been reaching out to people over the past few months, although I don't usually notice it when I do it. This will improve in the coming months. Sexual repression. Likely due to past heartbreaks and weird Freudian shit in childhood. Still repressed, but much more acceptance of my sexual quirks. Living in a town surrounded by old retirees as a twenty-something. I've met other twenty-somethings and like-minded people that meet my needs. Desires: I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I want to love myself as I am. Definitely feel more comfortable in my skin. Still working on the self-love thing. I'd say 40% improvement in this realm. I want to be comfortable around everyone. I want to be as open as possible. 30% improvement. I want to serve others. Will soon get a certificate that involves serving others. I want to feel joy again. Done. I want to find my place. I found a place. Just not sure if it's my place. I want to be able to commit to things and focus without abandoning ship at any sign of failure. 15% improvement. Needs work. I want to choose what I watch on Youtube instead of the other way around. 65% improvement. MUCH better. I don't get lost in the youtube clickbait as much as I used to. In the meantime, I'd like to have an enjoyable day job that doesn't sap my energy, so I can support myself. Sort of done. Again, those certificates will help me in the near future. I'd like to feel like I'm actually in my body and not feel like an alien. Nope, still an alien. But definitely more in my body. Having a friend scares me and feels too labor-intensive, but I think it would be nice to try. I have a friend now! I'd like to try dating again at some point. Needs work. I want to live on my own again. Done. Phew. Another chapter of my life - done. I'm really leaving the nest this time. I'm a smorgasbord of excited, terrified, nervous, surrendered, incapable, and capable. On the edge of a diving board, waiting to jump into the chrome ooze from Super Mario 64, totally clueless of the outcome. We'll jump, and we'll see. That's life, right?

LWAM Season 1, episode 8 Hey The Black Eyed Peas! Three words can describe my current existence: Out and about. This summer was the exact opposite of last year's, which I spent mostly inside alone, meditating and contemplating about existence. I based my introversion on my sensitivity to the outside world and general disinterest in humans which, as it turns out, is just an exaggerated half truth based on fear. I had 3 main tasks: 1. Step out of my comfort zone. 2. Do things I haven't done before. 3 Meet new people. The end results were: not sleeping for 30 hours straight, sleeping at random places in public, getting constantly asked for drugs because it's peculiar to be so happy sober, playing at a kids' park, actually opening up to strangers, hooking up with said strangers, getting high with said strangers, getting random insights sporadically, complete loss of anxiety, dancing for 7 hours straight, being outside of my head for once and having constant THIS IS GOD moments. Few specific ones come to mind. I woke up from the world's most uncomfortable nap on a statue in Budapest, would not recommend btw, and saw a guy randomly doing yoga next to me. The timing of him doing the poses was impeccable and in his movements I saw God. I witnessed recovering addict's story and could feel his pain and the struggle he went through while also having the deep realization that all of that was God too, the rock bottom and the hopelessness that accompanied it were absolute perfection in a very brutal sense. I overslept and was running late to a train and had 12 minutes to run through the whole city to make it and while I was running like a maniac I had 2 thoughts. One was naturally:" I'm not going to make it" over and over again and the other was: it's startling I get to experience this, running like all hell, people looking at me like I'm insane whilst melting due to the hot weather. I can't believe this is happening. I know this is God! At a festival a guy stood up in front of the stage and started to cry while having the biggest smile on his face and the sun started to come out and I teared up with him because it was so beautiful. When I was done dad dancing at a club and started to observe people, it felt very strange to watch them. It felt as though I saw humans for the very first time and got this unshakeable feeling like I was on an alien planet. This human mask we wear was seen through as a facade and it was the funniest thing ever. My best friend broke up with me. The pain I felt seemed almost comforting, sadness different. Usually I'd go down a suicidal rabbit hole, reinforcing old beliefs about people, bringing back trust issues, but for the first time that didn't happen. There was a deep knowing that all the memories we shared and the love I had for her and the loss I experienced were the same thing-God. I used to be so afraid of interaction and rejection, but now I see engaging with people worth it, no matter what the outcome ends up being. This has been a shock therapy of sensations, emotions and people and even though I feel tired, I'm very grateful for the glorious lessons I would otherwise miss out on if I hadn't gone outside. End credits: See the lord and all the mouths he feeds Let it roll among the weeds Let it roll Directed by an exhausted ex misanthrope.

@Viking is it possible you are struggling with vocabulary? I know that if I ever read a good book I'm often looking up definitions. I have mild dyslexia and one thing that happens to me when reading a sentence is that I'll read half of the sentence and be very confused, but then after finishing the sentence and paying attention to the position of commas the sentence will make sense. The pauses you take and the specific chunks of words you take in at a given moment in time when reading a sentence can distort meaning, and I've often found myself falling for this trap. It's impossible to avoid this trap completely as it is the case that sentences can have two very slightly different, yet equally valid, meanings depending on your interpretation. However, this difference should be small. Another thing that bear in mind is that complicated words don't make the message of a sentence that much more complex than the type of sentence used in day to day life. I've been reading a maths book "set theory and logic" recently (it has lots of verbal commentary) and I've found that sentences which have a simple meaning can be worded in unfamiliar ways such that they feel alien and unnatural to read at times. All this type of stuff gets better with practice. If dyslexics can find a way to read so can you.

@CreamCat the way I see it all possibilities are true what gives it truth is merely your belief in it there are those who belief humans were placed on earth from a different planet as slaves to cultivate Gold for them and then overtime, we gained knowledge and freedom from our alien masters and now live here on earth as our home another theory is that of the science of evolution with the life evolving on earth then there is the theory from the bible/quran/religions about adam/eve being placed on earth as the 1st pair of humans and life went on from there ALL ARE POSSIBLE IN ABSOLUTE INFINITY and what gives reality to one out of the these 3 or heck, 100s more theories is mere your belief in it! that's just it so what david ick says, sure it's possible, what someone else says, that too is possible it's all pick and choose really Mandela effect a great way to see this happen at one point in time, the earth was believed to be flat (heck, even now in 2018 many of the people online believe in it, comment about it, 1000s of videos about flat earth) those people have their reasons for believiing in it. a flat earth is also possible in aboslute infinnty. they have models explaining how it can work with a flat earth anyhow. yolo.

@Buba Everything you've described so far sounds like Eckhart Tolle's experience with a similar situation. In the introduction of the Power of Now he describes: "Until my thirteith year, I lived in a state of almost continuous anxiety interspersed with periods of suicidal depression. It feels now as if I am talking about me past lifetime or somebody else's life. One night not long after my twenty-ninth birthday, I woke up in the early hours with a feeling of absolute red. I had woken up with such a feeling many times before, but this time it was more intense than it had ever been. The silence of the night, the vague outlines of the furniture in the dark room, the distant noise of a passing train - everything felt so alien, so hostile, and so utterly meaningless that it created in me a deep loathing of the world. The most loathsome thing of all, however, was my own existence. What was the point in continuing to live with this burden of misery? Why carry on with this continuous struggle? I could feel that a deep longing for annihilation, for nonexistence, was now becoming much stronger than the instinctive desire to continue to live. 'I cannot live with myself any longer.' This was the thought that kept repeating itself in my mind. Then suddenly I became aware of what a peculiar thought it was. 'Am I one or two? If I cannot live with myself, there must be two of me: the 'I' and the 'self' that 'I' cannot live with.' ' Maybe, only one of them is real.' I was so stunned by this strange realization that my mind stopped. I was fully conscious but there were no more thoughts. Then I felt drawn into what seemed like a vortex of energy. It was a slow movement at first and then accelerated. I was gripped by an intense fear, and my body started to shake. I heard the words 'resist nothing,' as if spoken inside my chest. I could feel myself being sucked into a void. It felt as if the void was inside myself rather than outside. Suddenly, there was no more fear, and I let myself fall into that void. I have no recollection of what happened after that. I was awakened by the chirping of a bird outside the window. I had never heard such a sound before. My eyes were still closed, and I saw the image of a precious diamond. Yes, if a diamond could make a sound, this is what it would be like. I opened my eyes. The first light of dawn was filtering through the curtains. Without any thought, I felt, I knew, that there is infinitely more to light than we realize. That soft luminosity filtering through the curtains was love itself. Tears came into my eyes. I got up and walked around the room. I recognized the room, and yet i knew that i had never truly seen it before. Everything was fresh and pristine, as if it had just come into existence. Picked up things, a pencil, an empty bottle, marveling at the beauty and aliveness of it all. That day I walked around the city in utter amazement at the miracle of life on Earth, as if i had just been born into this world. For the next five months, I lived in a state of uninterrupted deep peace and bliss. After that, it diminished somewhat in intensity, or perhaps it just seemed to because it became my natural state. I could still function in the world, although I realized that nothing I ever did could possibly add anything to what I already had." It only gets better from here. If you want to hear directly from someone who has gone through literally the exact same thing as you and come out the other side 'as if I had just been born into this world' and 'in a state of uninterrupted deep peace and bliss' then get this book the Power of Now.

I really love her work. I know there's fishy stuff floating around her (her haters are also very hateful, whatever she did) but she does take the time to explain herself in that video. And even if, maybe, some of the stuff she said in the past was actually fake, or she behaved in a toxic way, but then she evolved and is leaving that behind. Is that not a reason to take what is good to take in her teachings? The only thing that still makes me frown is her talks about her being an alien or something. This video will be incriminating for the vast, vast majority of people, yet I still trust her because her other teachings are so good (well, it's been like one year or so that I've been subscribed to her channel, so I've only seen recent stuff I guess, but yeah) I'm very, very open-minded. But of course this alien thing makes me think. Oh well, worst case scenario, take what resonates and leave the rest I guess.

I would love some alien girlfriend

Unless you're an alien, that's not possible. And even then ...

@Devil I am all of them and none of them!!! Dude, you are trapped in a concept. It doesn't matter what the concept is. You could be arguing about how life is explained by the Tao te ching, or Spiral Dynamics, game theory, neuroscience , Winnie the Poo, Jesus, psychedelics, alien races, Yoga or Detroit Becomes Human. There are countless of stories and games about life. They are lots of fun. Yet, at the end of the day - it's just a theory. Don't get trapped in any one game. It's super easy to get trapped in one way of thinking.

Enlightenment is said to be the ultimate Truth, irreducible, self-evident and nothing can be more obvious. That means if Enlightenment somehow falls on someone's lap who never had an idea such a thing existed, it should be crystal clear what is happening and where he is at. But the Enlightenment stories of people like Eckhart Tolle, Ramana Maharshi, Jed Mckenna (just to name a few) kind of say otherwise. These people were generally ignorant about the whole non dual thing. When they got Enlightened either by accident or by the natural introversion of their mind, their initial response was probably not ''YES! I've known the ultimate nature of Reality, there is nothing else to know'' ; but more like '' wtf has happened to me?''. They would later spend years looking for answers to what actually happened to them in various philosophies and when they come across non dual philosophy, then they would confirm that these scriptures are verifying their present experience. So does it mean that this whole Enlightenment business has to be done like Advaita proposes? Namely putting up the hypothesis of Ultimate Truth, followed by honest philosophical inquiry, followed by the direct realization of the hypothesis? It makes me wonder about the very first few people who got Enlightened. Navigating after Awakening must've been so alien to them. I know trying to talk about post-enlightenment is barely possible and waste of time in most cases yet I'd appreciate it if some light is put on this matter from one's own experience. PS: By Enlightenment, I do not mean a glimpse that came and went as if nothing happened but a permanent shift after which there is no going back. I mean the point where the 'victim's' whole life turned upside down in some sense. @Leo Gura @Shanmugam @Saumaya @Azrael @cetus56 and every other Enlightened fella here I forgot to tag

So this is part of something I've been trying to articulate and synthesis for the last 10 years or so. There's been many influencers and life experiences that have gotten this view to this point (Leo being one of them, we seemed to have had very identical awakening experiences). It's not complete and probably will never be, but I wanted to put it up and see what people thought in its current iteration. Isn't it true all current models and opinions of reality (or perhaps anything for that matter) take their position based upon evidence that comes through human experience (since, well there’s only humans having these conversations on this planet). This can include experiences ranging from the subjective experiences of individuality, division, separation, distance, and time, to the mystical classifications of experiences, such as no-time, oneness, being, a sense of god or being god, or non-duality. For example doesn’t science seems to make claims about reality based upon the 5-6 subjective senses of human experience or pose questions on the subject of something called “objective matter” based on such. A simple claimed given (experience) of up, down, left, right seems to require the subjective sense of such to make such a proposition and base further science on. Or doesn’t time require a agreed upon constant or measurement and subjective experience to point to and form a questions about or make a claim about. For example the statement I dropped a ball down the hole at 30 miles per hour seems to be coming from a unquestioned agreement that a “ball” went “down” a hole (subjective seen/felt experience) at “30 mph” (agreed upon seen/felt/labeled subjective experience). From my experiences of “non-duality/oneness” such a statement seems silly because there is nothing moving in any direction at any speed, all is one with no division, there are no moving parts, all is experienced as oneself. AND, the position of non-duality seems to be a experience of its own claim resting on “self/subjective experience” as proof of its own a statements (purists would argue neither subjective or objective, but a merger of the two). And interestingly at the same time, neither is invalidated, since both could hold the position of a possible actual truth. Free will is another that can be looked through this lens. Isn’t free will only proven by the self/subjective experience of such. There doesn’t appear to be objective proof of this accepted notion. And same for determinism, no-free will, the everything is happening out of our control, a result of genes, determined by the brain, effected by the environment. None of these seem to have actual proof that is not arrived at from anything other then the subjective senses/experience or measurements coming from a subjective sense/experiences. And yet again interestingly, none of these can be invalidated. Now I don’t want people to get the idea that there is no experience (because experience seems to be the only constant in this framework of comparison,and no I’m not saying there can’t be something without experience because its very real that the sun could exist without an experiencer, but thats a topic for another day), but the claim that materialism/individuality, free will/determinism, oneness/non-duality seem unprovable and rest upon a particular type of experience to prove their claim about reality and all further expressions from them. Experience seems to be whats most real, profound and an unknowable mystery, encompassing the very ability to feel and see everything so far spoken about as ones life, neither validating or invalidating the materialism or non-duality/oneness views. This claim seems to have implications into the realms of psychology/morals/reasoning as well. A realm in which everything seems self referenced. Is this right or wrong, good or evil, for example, a questions that for a materialist/individual appears to be asked to oneself and an answer appears, generally backed by reasons on a felt/believed sense and backed by life experience/conviction. The same question asked to a “evolving” individual/non-dual/more encompassing “realizer” is again answered from a self referenced experiential sense/experience using the words such as knowning, realizing, seeing, felt in the heart, etc (all subjective/self referenced)(and yes I’ve been here). Again experience seems to be the constant here in both, but the actual of the content remains a profound mysterious happening, that can take the many infinite forms between materialism, and non-duality/oneness, the yet created, the neither of these, and perhaps in alien unthinkable dimensional experiences incomprehensible by humans. Also I’m not saying science is not useful or value judgements should not happen because obviously these have some human benefit, which maybe needs some addressing in this piece (or another piece). But that far to often we find ourselves battling with the opposing camp we find ourselves in (and even within ourselves) on matters if we are honest with, we will find that our basis for being right boils down to the same thing, our "Experience".

So I just had a very odd dream where I took 5meo-DMT. It's hard to remember in full but I'll do my best to explain it. So the setting was odd, it sort of reminded me of the videogame known as Resistance, all I remember is it seemed almost war torn and a bit post-apocalyptic/alien. Martin Ball was in it and he was the one administering the drugs, I remember there where many buckets of icecream there as well, like it was comfort food for a bad trip or something, I remember being a little thrown off by that and thinking it was kinda stupid. When it was my turn to take the drugs I was laying down and Martin was kneeling at my feet, I don't know how I took them. Did he inject my feet with 5meo? Did he put it up my ass? Some questions may never be answered, but I just remember being disappointed by the effects. I remember a surge of tingling sensation/energy going from my mid section outwards, so from around my heart and gut chakra to my arms and then my hands, my legs and then my feet, also to my balls which felt very weird and uncomfortable, the whole thing felt slightly uncomfortable, like my body was ready for a death trip but couldn't quite get there, I remember flying up into the air and seeing the landscape stretch like a piece of rubber, buildings being separated further from one and other. I can't remember much else from my "trip" I just remember being disappointed. Another Unrelated Dream I Had In The Same Night: So my best friend recently committed suicide and last night he was in a very odd dream of mine. I think I was in his home town of Winnemucca but I'm not sure, I was with my dad, we were riding a dirt bike, all 3 of us were somehow riding the same dirt bike, it was just me and my dad but then we picked up my friend, we saw a drop off on the side of the intersection, my dad just fucking drove off it, but it's okay because there was a ramp at the bottom so we landed perfectly. I don't remember much else from the dream, later I was left with the dirt bike to myself and I was driving around in the dirt, a voice in my head was making commentary on the indestructibility of dirt tires, I then went to ride the bike on the road but remembered that I don't have a licences and this vehicle isn't street legal so I pulled off to the side and started walking the bike, I saw a very odd looking police car that wasn't really a police car, I think it was an animal patrol van with police sirens and lights on top, it pulled me over, a guy got out and said something like "I'm not here to give you a ticket today, I'm here to give you your package that came in the mail." I woke up before I had time to see what it was, I think I already know what it was.

I've never been interesting in what I view as "supernatural stories", it doesn't matter if it's dualistic religions, if it is UFO's, if it is David Icke's theory on lizards that run the show, or if it is any other spiritual conspiracy. I just view it all as nonsense. But for some reason Enki stands out in this category that i normally view as nonsense, it seem to have some truth to it, not just a stupid made up story or conspiracy like those UFO stories and other crap. According to Enki, the world turns, and the life scenarios of all people eventually turn into scenarios that are undesirable, if not in this lifetime, then in future lifetimes. Enki, the chief scientist of the alien invaders, stated: “for what shall come to pass by what had passed shall be determined; and what was destined shall in a cycle be repeated” (from the Lost Book of Enki, by Zecharia Sitchin). The world, the cosmos, and history turn. There are cycles in nature, on the wheel of life, which repeat through history. It is because of this cyclical turning of the wheel of life that most people, if not all, will eventually get to the position I'm occupying right now and will be able to see, from this vantage point, the truth of what I am saying. I am hoping that the message I’m trying to convey right now will help others gain some clarity in their time of confusion Should we look closer into Enki you think? It might shed some light to the full picture of reality and help us dissolve and get rid of some confusion. What is your opinion on Enki? What do you know of him? And do you believe it all? .

Never make babies. There must be only 500 million people living on Earth otherwise all of you die. Electric is coming from Earths magnetic field. Do not use electric you are consuming Earths magnetic field. We are living in electricity that stacked around Earth. Sunlight can decay and it can become magnetic energy. As Earth consumes sun light it generates magnetism and it gets bigger and stronger. Also Earth can make energy by destroying atoms like nuclear fusion stuff. Basicly humans are stealing energy from Earth. Most of energy is consumed by industry, factories, machines, motors, engines. They say climate change is HOAX, they say rich people are not evil, they say government always here to help you. Do not trust; go insane and save the world from liars. They will say electric is infinite and it is not coming from Earth; who cares; we can kill all life on Earth whenever we want. And if Earths magnetic field shrinks, you will die because of it. Earths magnetic field doesnt effect Earths core. They also told you there is no god, Earth is not alive, science is real, ghosts doesnt exist, aliens are not ruling the Earth. Cant you see, you are a slave and everyone else is lying to you. Basicly USA completely under control of invisible vampire demons that came from Saturn. You are just a slave. Youtube, Facebook, Google, TV all filled with lies. Secret censorship, making your account invisible to people in internet. And if you write something to internet they put you in prison and secretly murder you. Tap water is poisonous, everything filled with chemicals that making you stupid. You are a slave and even food you eat made for making you obeydient. You know what, we dont care. Afterall i am immortal and you are just emotionless animals. Even you die; i am living at the core of Earth; nothing can kill me. Pentagram, satanism, Venus, Saturn, Illuminati, triangle, G. Okey; When Earth revolves around sun 8 times, Venus revolves around sun 13 times and in this time Venus passes Earth 5 times and Venus draws a pentagram around Earth. And this is called Venus Pentagram. Basicly 13 is sacred number of Venus. 8 is sacred number of Earth also Natzis and werewolves used 88. Now did you understand that satanism is a real religion and it is religion of Venus and Nasa knows that. Saturn is 6th planet if you count sun it is 7th planet. Saturn have got blue pentagrams at its south pole and north pole. Saturn ate its own satellite and ancient greeks knew that because they had got super natural powers. Saturn has nearly 62 satellites. So if you see ring, hexagon, 6, 7, 60 stuff, cube (cubes are secretly hexagon) that just means Saturn. And it means they are working for alien entities they are evil; they hate Earth. 65 million years ago Earth stole core of Venus, Mars, Moon and all of this planets lost their magnetic field and because of life is electric all of this planets completely died. Today people of Venus living on Earth and they are blue and low ones greeneyed people. Most of them have got rh negative blood. All green eyed people are very racist and they all member of a secret organisation. They belong to Europe. Arabs, africans came from moon. Allah is actually god of moon. Chinese, turkish people came from Mars. Mars always helped to Earth. Earth mostly ignores the humans because nearly all humans idiot or evil or obeying to aliens. If a planet doesnt have magnetic field that planet is completely lifeless. Life is magnetism or electric they same thing. When Earth became one with Venus, Moon, Mars. Suddenly Earth got bigger and continents started to move and they are cracked so continents formed suddenly. And Earths gravity is increased so big life forms became unable to move; and they died. Only small dinosaurs survived and they became tiny animals. Before union Earths gravity were so weak so nearly everything were able to fly, glide, jump, climb because of that you are seeing very big flying dinosaurs and feathers on land dinosaurs. Basicly even Trex was a bird. Even biggest dinosaurs had feathers. Today this dinosaurs cant even stand because their body are too heavy for their avian light weight bones. Also humans are island chimpanzees. Humans evolved in water and they were eating clams and all other stupid defenseless sea things. Dont you know humans are best swimming chimpanzees. Humans dont have hair so water just slides from your skin also you dont have penis bone so your bodies are lighter. And all structure of female genitals same with Killer Whales. Basicly humans carry Chimpanzee, seal, killer whale, dolphin DNA bcause humans adapted to water. Also some humans lived underground and survived by selling gold for food. In underground you are safe from cold climate. Some people said humans mined gold for alien entities; in ice age humans were starving to death and they gave gold to aliens for food. Humans mostly behave like hamsters; they are greedy, they want more, they rape, they are cannibal, they are lazy, they get fat. Rich people always wanted to rape all women but people were getting married when they are 11 years old and everyone had a husband. So rich people said you cant get married until you are 18 years old and rich people still rape 13 years old girls because laws and rules only for slave humans. So you cant have sex with 13 years old girl but rich people can. Also everyone else is trying to sell their daughters to rich men so people are trying to enslave each other. Everyone want paper money and people are killing each other for getting rich. Rich people have got hundreds of wives and if you have sex with women they say it is rape, it is abuse but when rich people insert needles to your tits it is okey because they pay to you paper money for it. Also rape is illegal and women are asexual, women are lesbian, women are coward; so how will you have sex with women? Because of rape is illegal women are not having sex with us because women only has sex 4 times in a month and they only drop 1 egg and they only have got 80,000 eggs. So if we dont force women to have sex; each men will need 30 women to have enought sex because men masturbate 5 times every day. While men is having sex 5 times in a day women are only having 1 time sex in a week. So you are very stupid and today we have porn we know how rich people are doing with women. So i dont want to watch porn anymore, i want to be rich guy that hired the porn girl and i dont want to be rich; i just want the girl. So game is over; this is end of your happy days. I am a human. I have got human rights. I want to rape everyone else because i have got feelings, i filled with love and i am very healthy. So just like a healthy hamster; i will force everything to have sex with me because this is in my DNA, it is in my nature. Your laws are stupid. You live my life and get satisfied, i will live your life. I will have sex with your sex partners and you will be the guy who is masturbating and getting insane because you are stupid and i am god of the Earth. Science is a lie. If electronsc are revolving around atom than why they dont want to touch to atom; why do they revolve around atom and why they are able to move to a different atom; you know electrons can transfer to another atom this is how electric moves. Also many people talked about aliens, vampires, ghosts, demons but science still saying they do not exist. What about double slit experiment, quantum mechanics, mandela effect? Also scientists are talking about time travel but does time really exist? If time is exist doesnt that mean super natural things are real? What about parallel universes, are they really exist this things are very stupid and scientists really believe to them. They said there is 12 dimensions in universe but this dimension stuff doesnt exist. Science is illogical do not trust to science. Scientists always lie. When they say mystery; it means it is fake and they are lying to you. Medicines are bad for health. They are clonning humans and killing clones for taking their organs so rich people can live 120 years even they drink alcohol and take heroin. Would you kill your clone for taking his organs so you can live longer? Or would you eat your clone? Also they are making boring video games so you get a job and get married instead of playing video games. And intentionally making HD video games so you have to buy an expensive computer for playing that game. They dont want poor people to play video games or get addicted to it. They also made human slaves with blue blood. This slaves have got computer as a brain and their movements under control. They are basicly robots that made of human meat. And they made robot soldiers but this robots killed friendly soldiers so they didnt completed them. Also robots can get hacked and stolen. And what happen if you plant poison bomb in someones brain; he has to obey to you otherwise his brain will melt and he will die. They done all of this. Area 51, secret government places you get shoot if you go. As you can see government dont let you to know some stuff. They all lies. What you believe real becomes real. You can create humans and animals by using quantum mechanics and your observation. If you see ghosts or delusions that means you have got super natural powers. Use them to destroy. Also i have got ability of knowing everything, being smarter than everyone, detect super natural beings, create weak useless magnetic ghosts, bringing bad luck, causing machines to get broken, being stinky and warmer than other humans, blocking super natural abilities of vampires. That was the lore of real universe. Good luck to you in your adventures 1331 88 MEW 44 907 8 8 JUNO

@Outer I heard that as well. But he was in a state of total bliss for that period, and there was no desire to do anything arising in him but to just be. And when desire arose he got up and left. This is surrender. Something almost alien to my own mind.

The Sumerian clay tablets attribute the story to Enki (belonging to a group of alien beings called the Anunnaki who came to Earth from Nibiru, a twelfth planet in our sun system with an elliptical orbit) who genetically modified beings on earth.

@cetus56 question for you please since all of reality, even our current "normal" and "day-to-day" sober states are a hallucination then does it mean that if i get a monster/alien/demon appear infront of me during meditation or something then it will look 100% "real" as the people around me currently do? and if that's the case, then how does one "surrender" to that... ? like just becoming aware that it is nothing but a mind-trick? but since what we experience is what is "real" - how can i negate the experience of a dark entity which i am seeing in-front of my eyes and heck, that thing even touching or harming me ? is that not equal to me denying or accepting a "real-life" happening . let's say if i am being robbed at gun point. ? in writiing this question a thought/potential answer came to mind that it isn't negating the experience - it is accepting that it is happening? dont resist/panic. stay calm and accept? smile in the face of the demon? i suppose that smile can only really do something if it's genuine at that point otherwise fear cannot be hidden from your own mind i guess ...

@Charlie_B I know so little about Ayurveda, but this is not an alien topic ^^ Great link, thanks Edit: I'll research this field, and do my "test and try"

@Soulbass Herbal infusions are very good if you use the right kind of herbs that suit your body . But, before you opt for herbal infusions try to identify your body type. Below link can help you do that with a quiz. This is just a basic guide to identify the doshas of your body. Depending on doshas, you can choose the right herbs for you. Otherwise a wrong herb can aggravate your doshas and create unnecessary problems in the long run. If you are serious about finding the right combination that works then Its better you do some research further, before settling for an infusion as all infusions doesn't work for everyone alike. May be I'm proposing an entirely alien topic for you, but hope that it helps you make the right choices. https://www.banyanbotanicals.com/info/ayurvedic-living/learning-ayurveda/vata-pitta-and-kapha/ Good luck.