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The misunderstanding is equating the horizontal dimension of spirituality with the vertical. There are ever-present truths, consciousness of existence or pure presence. Somehow you're fixated with that and think spirituality is limited to that. Explore the horizontal dimension and the vertical. Limiting yourself to any of those will suffocate your development, do both and more. In the vertical Awakening you'll discover that consciousness can go on forever, you become so conscious that you can hack yourself out of the Human dream and Universe, till eventually your consciousness breaks free from all limitation and becomes Infinite, total and Sovereign. If you dare to go on, increasing in consciousness shall you realise yourself to be the One, the Only, the Almighty God. This Infinite Universal Mind Field metamorphoses into all possible realities and sensations. Yes this boundless consciousness field always 'is' says the horizontally awakened, independent of the phenomena it always is. Yet you have never broken free of limitations, you're trapped inside a rat movie abiding in the ever-present nature of the screen. Says the vertically awakened. But when you fall from the grace peak as you must, you are a rat like me and even more you get lost deeper in the dream as you cannot hold to the ever-present field when limitation comes. Says the horizontally awakened. Do you grasp this dynamic? This one insight gave me so much clarity in my path. Really grasp it: make the effort to contemplate what is being said, this can save you years of work. This perfectly explains the dynamic happening here. It also explains what meditation is useful for and what psychedelics are useful for

Here is my life story condensed: I have had it, I will tell the Truth After many years of experience, I know the Truth, and it is dark. A dark, dark place. I was bullied throughout my years in school, except at some level in Junior College. Right from kindergarten, Primary School and Secondary School. But I was perfect. I had no real flaws, no real failings or falls. My struggles won me strength, and around an early age that I can't remember, I walked the straight and narrow spiritual path. And from my efforts, I won me Enlightenment. It was perfect, I could strongly declare it perfect then. It was partly because I met a Guru at 17. My friend told me about him, and said very positive things about him, mainly that "you should meet him", and that it will be an "eye-opener". I did, and when he first met me in school, he looked astounded, brought me aside, and asked me to ask him anything about spirituality or religion. I asked him later why he had this look on his face when he met me. He said "sometimes I meet someone that my Lord favours". So we talked, and I finally asked him to teach me the secrets of life. He said he could, but it will cost me. As we talked however, I managed to convince him to teach it to me for free. He brought me to a book store, and showed me a book on Islam to read, saying we need "cannot be building castles in the sky". So I read it, two pages, and failed at fulfilling my promise. At the start of the next year, he came online on MSN again, and told me this "go to army first and learn to be a man boy, then come to me!" This really affected me, because here was someone so keen on helping me, and here I was doing nothing. So it went on, and he messaged me on MSN around the March holidays. He said, "How's things with you?" I said I had a dream where he gained a divine name. "He said, congratulations, you have some levels." Then I asked, "What is God?", for which he replied, "This is not what a true person will say." So he then taught me a meditation, for which I did twice. According to a Spiritualist, when I did that meditation, I attracted blood demons to inject their blood into me, because there was a spiritual clash when I did the meditation at night, which I did with verbalising a lot of vibrations with my mouth, repeating the verse, "Om". Sometime after, he asked me how I felt, if there were any changes. I couldn't really tell, because it was very subtle, for which he said again, "Looks like you still got a long way to go." Within a span of one month though, I came to feel an extremely high energy within me. It was pure, purity, if I was to describe or label it, a very strong surge of pure energy. Then sometime after, after some serious investigation into the nature of Life, I awakened my Kundalini. The singular most powerful moment in my life. At that point, I was happy, supremely happy. I had everything I ever wanted, and was satisfied. My only fear and issue is if I couldn't bring my enlightenment with me to after my exams, for which I was aiming for straight A's. Because I could see my doom coming, because I was getting a bit too complicated. I asked the Guru, is there anything I should know, he said "Nope." I wanted to really ask, if I was to fall, I want to fall after my exams. Also, it was the Guru who told me my Kundalini was awakened. I told him that for some reason, I was feeling very confident. He said "What you are experiencing is Kundalini, when the negative energy channels start to open. Some say it is Enlightenment, but it is nothing, it is just mechanism, what we want is True Lord." Also, the Spiritualist is my cousin's boyfriend's father, and there was once when we were house visiting, she came into my grandma's house and talked about his father, and I was intrigued given my interest at that moment, but I waited 30 minutes before coming out of the room, but she had left already. As you can see, my life is quite unfortunate. So within the months of April, May, June, July, August, September, I was experiencing a tremendous bliss, powerfully transformative. I was very high on life, due to the Kundalini. Nothing could touch me, or at least apparently, for here I now tell my tragic story. I was the class monitor, and was given a task on Monday to make a Teacher's Day Card for Friday. I was thinking as I was enlightened, I could do it on my own pace, and also, if I hurried, I might seem insecure. On the Thursday, I went in front of the class, after our last lesson, and this guy, I admit he has strong leadership skills and willpower, if arrogant, who was a prefect, so knew we had to make the card, went out of the classroom and said, "I got to go, I got stuff to do", and just left me standing there, and then the whole class joined in "Sorry, Calixtus! We got stuff to do as well." In this manner I was destroyed, my first falling. Honestly, at this point, I could still salvage myself. I might have fallen, but it wasn't beyond help. But honestly, it was in Army that shiet happened. I wasn't in the right state of mind to enter army. A tough place. I was diagnosed as "schizophrenia" in army, in 1 minute by the doctor, who was a manipulative person. Then after that, I was designated to the Navy, and everyday as a clerk, I would go insane at them laughing at me. First of all, because my energy meridians were blocked, my true strength as a person did not show. They were laughing at me because they thought I was weak, when I was lost, constricted, and in pain. If I had just gotten out of it, I could easily show my superior spiritual levels. There's a lot more to the story, if anyone is interested. The basis is this, that I struggled, suffered, gained, lost, knew it would be a pity to not salvage, and then even lost at my attempts at salvaging. It is a very sad life. Basically, I got nothing to look forward to, and I see the Reality every damn day, it is complete emptiness. I lost everything, all my efforts, all the time, all the joy that could have been. My higher self doesn't like to waste time, and this was from 2005 onwards, 20 years of wasted time. This is a fking bs story, if this is the best God can do, I am not impressed, this is not the resume of a supreme being. So much more hurt to speak of, tell me if anyone is still interested in hearing. They said "no weapon shall prosper". The problem is this, I was lost, and could not help myself anymore, I tried my best to salvage, but was stopped by various forces, I was deceived by the devil who planned my destruction, and I was all alone, without a guide or guru, which I gravely needed. How now? When everything is lost and gone??

Introduction Most people do not look deep into what thinking is. Also, many people especially of the """spiritual""" sort dismiss thinking to a large extent - AND they usually DON'T understand its workings. Which is utterly idiotic, if you think about it. The main points I will try to make is that 1) thinking has a profound, easily overlooked purpose and meaning and that 2) thinking is completely intertwined with the ENERGETIC REALITY that you are, and are experiencing always. And that reality matters to you a great deal, no matter who you are or what you value. Basics of Energetic Reality I am biased, in that I greatly focus on understanding the energetic reality of me, and the world. What are energies, and why do they matter? Every course of action is determined by an energy. And without energy, there is no action. SOMETHING must motivate you for an action to be actualized "by you" in your reality. It's not even that "you" particularly are acting on an energy - more so, there arises an understanding that "you" don't really have control over these energies... But it IS still true that these energies ARE, that there is acting upon them, that sometimes there are "below or above the surface", that they vary in intensity, and that YOU vary in consciousness of them. In general, the energy with the most intensity is what is acted upon in reality. The rule is that "the winner takes it all" - for the moment. However, change is the case at all times, and the intensities of energies change. Usually, the energy that is being acted upon lowers in intensity until a point when focus on that energy is depleted. Then, another energy is most intense, and that energy is acted upon. And so on. The topic is complex, and of enormous interest to me. The mechanics of energy are fascinating. For example, sometimes you might feel quite intensely you want to do something, but something deeper from "inside / below the surface" is stopping you, and so even though you feel like you want to act on something, you are "blocked". Point being, the most intense energy is not always the one that you FEEL most intensely - sometimes there are deeper things that you don't really see clearly. And so there is a distinction between conscious-by-you greatest intensity vs ACTUAL greatest intensity. I am investigating the mechanics of energy steadily, and having great fun while doing so. To add upon this "elementary understanding of energy" section, I will perhaps mention examples of energies, in case it isn't clear. Again, these are all your motivations, urges, emotions - conscious or not. These can include (but are not limited to): Fear, worry Love Desire for greatness, power, influence, strength, looking good, improvement of one's conditions Hatred, deep pain, desire for revenge, jealousy, to bring someone down Disrespect of oneself and others, cynicism, insecurity Desire for pleasure, comfort, emotional satiation, status quo, acceptance An intuitive steerage, flow towards a particular direction Desire for God, Awakening, Purity, Self-destruction, humility before God, Truth, surrender Desire to say something to the world, express one's truth, make something conscious to others Shame, guilt, grief Etc. And to conclude this section, I'll say that your life's quality depends on the energies in your reality, no matter who you are or whether you're conscious of them. That is why it's important. The energetic reality is with you ALWAYS. And, from one perspective, this energetic reality is what YOU ARE*. That is YOU - and you don't have much control over it, you can't change it in the snap of a finger, you don't really direct it, It is what it is, and it changes with varying frequency. *I'm saying "from one perspective" because "you" can also be thought of in different ways. For example, since you can observe this energetic reality, you can also consider yourself the observer of it and not it itself (even though it is still utterly intertwined with you). Connection of Energy and Thought So let's get to the thinking now. Basically, a thought is made of energy. It's as if a thought is a voice or vision of the energy that is currently flowing. An energy is "primal" and you cannot notice it the very moment it arises - it is immediate, in the now, faster than you can consciously spot it. What you do notice with a delay is the thought of that energy. We're dealing with energies then. Thoughts are basically energies. Simple as that. And energies ARE important, because they make what YOU are and determine what will be happening in your reality. And presumably you care about the way your life unfolds, your character, particular outcomes you'd like to see, closeness to God, etc. So now, what is thinking? Let's consider different modes of thinking and how they could be understood: Unconscious thinking, daydreaming --> basically just the flow of energies, usually dimly observed. Conscious thinking --> you are more consciously observing the flow of energies. But there is also something more to thinking consciously, because the decision itself to think CONSCIOUSLY is stemming from a particular energy. So it's not just the "chaos" of the energy flow - there is also a dominant energy that is setting that action of being mindful in motion! Conscious thinking can be done in different ways. You can be focused on a particular energy, contemplating it. So, the intent to contemplate/understand or to dive into a particular energy deep and immerse yourself in it would be one thing. Then, you can also focus on being in a state of openness and relaxation and allowing, inviting and embracing different thoughts/energies that are progressively arising. Let's make the distinction then between: Focused conscious thinking AND Surrendered conscious thinking The more you think consciously, the more your energetic reality is developing. Because you are letting energies arise and you are becoming more conscious of them! And when allowed to rise and/or inquired into, the intensities of energies change - and so your energetic landscape changes! And that, to me, is AWESOME. Because that means growth and more experience. (Hooray!) For me, the best combination and a good practice is a blend of surrendered and focused conscious thinking. What I do is: I go into a surrendered state. For example, I go for a slow walk in the forest, or I just sit on my balcony without any distractions, or sit on a bench in the park. And I observe the things that arise, smiling at them, being relaxed. Then, once I observe something interesting, something that resonates which I'd love to dive into deeper, I put focus on that. I can pull up my notebook and write down that interesting thought - the act of writing it down is the energy of focusing on that particular thing, feeling into it and going into it more. Then, more thoughts arise relevant to that thing I wrote - all of similar energy. I contemplate more - all until it is "resolved" for me, I find no interest in it and it no longer resonates to focus at all. After that, I need to relax and "open up" my mind again, and so I go into the surrendered state once more. I slow down. I breathe. I allow to arise whatever wants to arise. And then, once the beautiful flow is flowing again, I can pick some new interesting thing to look into. I can repeat this a few times until eventually I'm tired and the energy for conscious thinking is all depleted for the moment. Then, the time is to find something different and act on it. A rather good practice is also to go from surrendered conscious thinking to focused thinking to ACTION on the particular thing focused on. Energies are best internalized through ACTION. There are some resolutions purely through the act of thinking for sure, but also: energies are best nurtured, built up, remembered and repeated through taking a specific step of action towards them. It can be a ritualistic action for the energies that are more abstract, or a pragmatic one for the more down-to-earth ones. For example: let's say I want to integrate the God-realizations from my psychedelic trip, the energies that were arising then. You're going to contemplate them of course after the come-down, but then it'd be good to take an action step for them, and in this case it'd probably be one of the more ritualistic sort. I don't know what it could be for you, but it should have meaning and an understood-by-you connection to the thing that you are integrating. Eg. a ritual of staring into your eyes in the mirror for an hour, naked or in some shaman costume. Or establishing a habit for writing Awakened Pointers on sticky notes for yourself every day and appreciating them, whatever they are to you. Or another energy example: let's say you were thinking about your death and a great deal of love suddenly sprung from you. You're now realizing what you REALLY care about in life, or what you should say to the people closest to you, out of that profound love. The next action to integrate that love into your life more would be to eg. plan a conversation with your loved one and act on it, or do that thing that is most important to you which you'd regret if you didn't do it. Feeling the energy is good, but also what matters is ACTUALIZING IT! Intense spikes of energy are the best times to bring an energy into reality if that energy is not very much developed yet! Once that usually-faint-but-currently-intense energy is actualized, it is nurtured and then more often repeated in the future. That is real change in the energetic reality right there. Not easily done, usually not comfortable. All this conscious thinking is nurturing very beautiful energies in itself. Don't you want to be that? Surrendered, flowing with interesting energies, going deep into the most interesting ones, tasting the reality of them and then really CHANGING YOUR LIFE, especially through focused action? Conscious thinking is necessary for all that. It's a blessing. ❤️ If you want growth, think consciously more. For me at least, the point is primarily to DEVELOP MYSELF ENERGETICALLY. I want these energies to be diverse, flowing, colorful, beautiful. I want change, development, movement. I don't want to stay in one place due to unconsciousness. I want to converse the shadows to the lights. I want to understand this energetic reality, as it is SO interesting. I want freedom from ignorance and unconscious patterns. I want discovery. Free-flow. Surrender. God! And maybe you do too. So THINK (and ACT). Conclusion My hope is that I somewhat convinced you of the beauty of conscious thinking, but even more so that I infected you with genuine interest in the workings of energies. After all, it's all mechanics of you we're talking about. Nothing "other". All fascinating! Your comments are greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading! Peace <3

I hear the logic, but it doesn't apply to enlightenment. I suspect it's impossible for us to hear that it is not an experience, because we have no contrast for us to understand that. All we have is our experience - this is where we'll look. We tend to think it requires a method, or that it is a process - that it will change something or improve our experience - that being in a Zen monastery is more likely to "cause" it than being in a library or on a beach - or that it couldn't occur while we're depressed, miserable, distracted, or even taking a shower. Bring up what you think enlightenment is, and then consider that it isn't any of that. This is the point that is very easily overlooked. Experiencing this impossibility for oneself is more powerful than just believing it. It’s an analogy: obviously, waking up is what we're calling enlightenment. The idea is that action occurs within the dream, and so it is different from the realization itself. Hence the impossibility argument. It's impossible to get "from here to there." It isn't an experience. It is sudden and direct. And yet, it is possible for you to "get" it now - go figure. That's the gist of it. One enlightenment doesn't make you all-knowing overnight; ignorance remains. It usually takes several breakthroughs before one would be considered awakened. Yet this "over time" process doesn't change what you are, nor does it change the fact that each breakthrough is sudden. You may know your nature, but not what an emotion is, for example. At some point the attempt to fabricate a worldview out of this will crumble because it isn't mappable or able to be fit into an mentally graspable form. Something like that. You are already you. (!) The best one can do within the dream seems to be to remain open and genuinely want to know what's true - yet even this is just the action you take while "waiting" for enlightenment. What I said doesn't invalidate that certain experiences can help focus the mind, for example - which may put you in a better state to question, among other things. The Zen master is simply telling the monks to pay attention - or helping them stay awake. From the perspective of the dream, direct consciousness generally has to be "worked on," as it's unlikely to just "fall on your ass," as it seemingly did with Maharshi. But in actuality there's no real requirement other than to get it now. And you can do since it isn't something different from you, nor a grandiose state, spiritual fantasy, or achievement - it's what you are. I don't know why or how, but it turns out we are ignorant of our nature. Maybe because we're so distracted by or involved with our perceptive-experience. It's a bit ironic that the truth of ourselves seems so elusive while untruth is so easy to come by. And I'm not against conceptualization - conceptualize all you want; we already do it anyway. The suggestion is simply that you won't arrive at enlightenemnt by a process of figuring things out. It transcends the mind and perception. Nor am I against psychedelics as a stance, by the way. I'm just saying they don't increase consciousness. They may assist in transformation, healing, opening your mind, learning, or generating insights - but they don't lead to enlightenment. There. Now throw this out and get enlightened.

What is stopping someone from saying they're enlightened, have had God Realization, have awakened, tell stories about that wakening, claim to have had certain experiences.....nothing. What does all that actually mean...exactly as stated nothing more, nothing less, e.g. If I say I've had a God Realization what that means is that I've said I've had a God Realization. If I say I'm enlightened, what that means is the words I'm enlightened were uttered, nothing more nothing less. Anything else attached to those words will be story-telling time and just more words.

I’m an OG Leo fan. Found him after my first LSD trip. And I can’t deny that I’ve been there alongside him through his awakenings. I feel like I’ve gone through the journey with him. Not just Leo, but also Frank Yang, and the whole collective unconscious. Although we’ve never met, there is definitely something transmuted through this magical thing called the internet. Leo doesn’t post much these days on YouTube and I feel like I understand why. I understand it, but in my own way, in my own flavor. Just wanted to share that.

Do you think that really happens to everyone or just people who've awakened while alive? what's the relationship between becoming God at death and reincarnating?

In a sense I was heavily addicted to weed and for all the hell it caused me it permanently etched solipsism into my being to the point I take it for granted on an existential level. But I'm not awakened , at least, not fully awakened, because it's not overwhelming beauty . For me solipsism isn't a belief it's a mode of being. I don't walk around thinking to myself "these people aren't real, this is all my imagination." It's deeper and more subtle than that.

@Eskilon He didn't just sit though. He explored around, observed people, tried different techniques and created a system of understanding suffering which considered both the individual and the collective. The four noble truths and the 8 fold path is really a system of healing and living well. It's really the foundation of a good philosophy of living... Not just transcending suffering. No one had done this before, as I understand and that is why it is such a profound teaching. Leo loves to shit on Buddhism but it's foundational to living a good life. What I personally don't like about Buddhism is when people get stuck on it, become a Buddhist, start dressing like a monk which is so dumb... and take shallow understanding of the teaching without going more meta, and studying other systems too. Being a buddhist is dumb. But, the heart of buddha's teachings are profound. He essentially embarked on a philosophical spiritual and inner scientific endeavor like no one had ever done which required an extreme and rare ambition. To create your own spiritual path is rare that is grounded and as clean as it is... That is why he is still remembered, or believed to has existed today and the idea of his life and teachings touch millions of people. To not only become an "awakened one" within Buddhist idealogy, but to then teach and share that for over 40 years is ambition. I personally think it's wise to take the 8 fold path as a basic skeleton for all of self help.... but that is just me.

Everyone talks about an Awakening. That's lovely, wonderful, beautiful and magnificent because deep sleep is all there is and cannot be talked about or experienced. You have awakened to nothing because nothing is being an awakening.

Ok… I’m a bit hesitant to write tonight… I got a 507 error and I first thought it was telling me that it’s not the right time but I refreshed it and I got through… so I’m going to go ahead and go for it. First of all I want to say that this coming from the deepest respect, and my intention is not to form any negativity. We are all here essentially to raise our Consciousness levels and this has become my life and I want to address something on here. I’m not even certain on how to bring it up… if I should just come out and say it or beat around the bush like I normally do on these sensitive scenarios. Well… I’ve been thinking about this for a few days and the last hour it has been nonstop and so I’ll just come out and say it but then I’ll explain why I am saying it. I’m not certain or convinced Leo has reached the Awakening state with a capital “A”. So… I continue watching his videos and there has been a line that continues to repeat in my mind and normally it doesn’t trigger anything. But… it triggered a few days ago and I’m in a purging process while I’m converting the van. I first want to mention that one of his other words had been in my mind and that’s where I first started. I don’t know it word for word or anything but from my guidance from it is to take some time to be alone doing nothing to see how well we can handle our self in silence and with our own thoughts. And I had damaged my iPad and I thought this would be a good time to do this. But I also apply this to myself and I get a ton of insights when I’m in a flow state and I’ve been in a flow state working on the van. So this has been purging a lot of layers from my mind. It’s not always comfortable in these purging phases and I’ll say most of it has been detaching from mostly some family and friends. Detaching doesn’t mean that I don’t love and care and respect any, but that I’m understanding that I don’t need to hold on to the hope of one day having an opportunity to be able to share what I hope I’d like to share with them all. It’s surrendering to the Universe completely and understanding that if it’s time to move on from people and places… then it is time to move on and this is all in art of dancing with the dynamic perfection that is playing out. I’ve placed myself in checkmate with Infinite Intelligence and allowing it to guide me in my moves… not that I haven’t been doing this… just in deeper degrees. Anyway his saying that was triggered in this purging phase that I kept thinking about was “no one on his forum is Awakened”…. I remember reading this when I first got onto this forum and how I understood this is…. Oh I just arrived to this space and he doesn’t know who I am yet… so let me try to explain this in my way and give him all the clues that I have indeed Awakened… more like the Awakening State…. It’s not in the past its on going and continues to develop. But I joined at a very critical time in this Awakening State… it was around 15 months after my transition and I was still trying to figure out what had happened to me, and placed myself in a space to figure it out. I thought this would be the prime time to share with a community who is wanting to experience this as well. So I don’t have eloquence in my words at times and I better teach through demonstration. I wanted to demonstrate what it’s like for me to do Spiritual work through a personal Journal. It’s been very beneficial and still find it as a great tool and so I continue. I’ve been on here for a few years now and I still hear this comment from him… and I don’t expect him to be reading my Journal but I do wonder why would he assume this? And then another comment that I hear is “if they were Awakened they wouldn’t be on his Forum” ??? And this really confuses me… why would he assume this? To me… this doesn’t make sense. I mean for me right now… I might be moving past Leo’s teachings… even though I get insights for myself by listening to him… but I get insights from listening to many people hence the tarot readings and diverse conversations with multiple personalities… I want to get as many perspectives introduced to myself so I can get a broader picture of what the Universe wants me to understand… and the many ways of communication and guidance. But I wouldn’t be moving on from this Forum. Why would any in the Awakening State move on from This Forum? I know it’s an outrageous claim that I’m in the Awakening, but I have an understanding that we are all Infinite Universe… we are all One… I’ve listened to his solipsism video and I’ve had it in the back of my mind even when I was in my dieta ceremony where I experienced the transition trigger, but I never had to go through that experience directly… so essentially I’ve never thought that I was the One it was always we are the One. I understand we have our own insights and awakenings which lead us to be who we are… and I guess I just might be skeptical of Leo’s Awakening State because of my experience of my own and how different we are after this. Which definitely could be the case of course. But we both want to help…You, Awaken… we can only teach you at the state we’ve been able to experience and embody for ourselves… and I’m just going to keep on going as far as I’m allowed and capable with this body and “time” that I have. The first video that I ever watched with Leo was how to be a strategic mother fucker… and this Forum is a very strategic community to build a relationship with. People who consciously desire to increase their Conscious levels… why would anyone who is Awakening and have been introduced to this community want to leave it? We have a desire to assist in the process that is ineffable and no rules or instructions and extremely subtle and very personal… it sounds impossible but that’s what and who we are, and we continue regardless of the challenges we face. I’ve been respectful and still will continue; however, there has been one rule on this Forum that I would think that would have changed after the transition trigger and the understanding of where Awakening leads. Why can this condensed community of individuals who are raising our Consciousness levels which also relates to the Collective Consciousness levels not be able to meet in person through this Forum? I can imagine that there is such a diverse mix of intelligence… and Infinite mix of Intelligence in this forum that I wonder what we could build together… I understand liability reasons to keep people safe, but damn I’ll sign a liability waiver that will take on the full responsibility of my actions and any consequences that arise from these interactions. Many people in our society meet up with strangers to go on dates and more and I think it would be nice to meet up with people in this community in person as well and see where the conversation leads… Leo says he’s not interested in starting a community but isn’t it already too late? We are a community even though there is not a physical locations. I guess I’ve said this before but I haven’t been the best at communicating with words as I’d like and I’m getting better but when I’m in person I get far more information than reading or typing. And in my line of work I meet people multiple times in different situations and observe the larger picture of the ones I’m engaging with. Originally I thought that I’ll just wait for the Universe to manifest situations where we attract and place ourselves in random locations to meet… which I feel can and is definitely happening. But maybe we’re All supposed to keep that perceived distance for now? Still? I’m getting tired but there is one more thing that I want to get off my chest… I haven’t heard Leo explain his Awakening in a near similar manner than I do. I mean awakening experiences, yes… but not the Transition Trigger. And this is what got me to start thinking…. Could it be he hasn’t gone through this himself? Am I trying to explain myself to give him clues that I’ve been through the process… but he doens’t recognize it because he hasn’t gone through it yet? It’s possible. He plays a character on the screen and it would be nice to even meet in person so I can get a more authentic evaluation… hehe… I can’t help myself that’s just what I do… and it just takes me awhile for me to digest and receive messages… but eventually I get there. Alright… I think this is good for tonight and I want to get my rest. I am getting really excited even more if that’s possible as the van continues to unfold. I hope to share more about that next time… with a video or pictures or something. Without my iPad I haven’t been able to document it, but I start to today and I’m getting all giddy about it… hehe… Ok until next time, enjoy ourselves!

I am very grateful that I am mostly healthy and able to ejoy life in the present moment. However, sometimes I do get sick or a headache and I wonder, damn, how are the people that feel like this 24/7 able to live? Why wouldn't they just end it and hope for a better reincarnation? Especially if one has already awakened to his true nature that as eternal and infinite.

We say reality is unlimited and we are limited beings, yet we look to limit reality by trying to awaken or get enlightened. That suggests a center. Where is the center in what's unlimited. Where is the position. If I'm awake in the sense of awakening spiritually, then reality is unlimited because there is a point of focus and reference to awaken from. There is no time nor space and it's boundless. That awakened being needs to be at a point, bounded in time and continuity. If the absolute is everything, who is being awakened and to what if its not just a dream.

Hold up… If I’m the only Being in existence, the one infinite I AM, then riddle me this: WHO. TF. BANGED HER BEFORE ME? 🤯💀 Be honest. Was it me? Some past-life version of me? An NPC running on backstory.exe? Did I, the All-Powerful Dreamer, consciously program my girl with a recycled body count just to humble myself? 😭 I mean seriously: What kind of dream writes the Dreamer as the third wheel in his own fantasy? You telling me I manifested her… …pre-looted? If this is my universe, then why am I not first in line for… well, anything?! Why am I still in line?! 😤 Why does her ex still exist in her memories — without my permission?! --- Now I’m spiraling: Did I accidentally dream a reality that gaslights me? Am I into self-inflicted emotional cucking? Or is this a divine kink I haven’t awakened to yet? And if everything is me… …does that mean I’ve been smashing myself in third person this whole time? 😳 --- Y’all don’t see the bug?? Solipsism was sounding cute until my girl said, “Oh yeah, I used to date this guy named Marcus.” …WHO TF IS MARCUS?! I don’t recall coding Marcus. I don’t remember giving him my place in the timeline. So is Marcus real? Or just trauma I scripted to add flavor to the illusion? Either way — I demand a refund from God… …oh wait. That’s me too. 😐 --- Final thought: If Solipsism is true… ...why does it feel like I'm living in someone else's dream? And why does she remember more than I do? Go ahead. Break me. Enlighten me. Or tell me I am Marcus.

The picture of an awakened person is one of a person with opened eyes. I feel like this is a depiction for those who want the gooddies but dont want to do the practice.

Each core pillar is huge, but I think shame-avoidance might be the biggest. Just to demonstrate how shame-avoidance works, using conspiracy theories as an example: "The Shame-to-Conspiracy Pipeline Conspiracy theories medicate shame through several mechanisms: 1. Transformation into special knowledge - The shame of being "ignorant," "left behind," or "unsuccessful" transforms into being one of the few who "sees the truth." You're not a failure; you're awakened. The shame of exclusion becomes the pride of insight. 2. Externalizing the cause - If you lost your job, your status, your sense of cultural relevance - that's shameful. But if a cabal of elites deliberately destroyed your industry to control you? Now you're a victim of evil forces, not a personal failure. The shame dissolves into righteous anger. 3. Retroactive meaning-making - Past humiliations and failures get recontextualized. That bankruptcy wasn't poor decisions; it was "them" keeping you down. That divorce wasn't personal inadequacy; it was "their" attack on traditional values. Shame transforms into evidence of persecution. 4. Community of the knowing - Shame isolates, but conspiracy theories create instant belonging with fellow "truth-seekers." You go from shamefully alone to proudly connected. Example: Someone whose small business failed during economic changes could face crushing shame - "I'm a failure, I couldn't adapt, I'm worthless." But if they believe globalist elites deliberately destroyed small businesses? The shame evaporates. They're not a failed businessperson; they're a warrior against the New World Order. Admitting error would re-activate shame, which is why counter-evidence is blocked. The conspiracy theory doesn't just distract from shame - it performs psychological alchemy, converting shame's poison into the medicine of purpose, belonging, and specialness." You can almost view conspiratorial thinking, Tucker Carlson, and many other right-wing figureheads as "shame-regulation technology".

I have wondered in the darkness For a very long time Searching for the Truth My entire life And I found myself deep inside In the darkest forest of my mind.

I would love to get everyone's opinions on the realities of finding a highly conscious partner as a young person. I'm 23 yrs old but I've been doing this work earnestly for many years, and I've gotten decently far for my age. However, of course, it's rare to find anyone in their 20's who takes this stuff seriously. I seem to run into two situations when I'm talking to a girl I'm really interested in: I meet some girls who are into spirituality, but it's more of a new-age pop spirituality. Moreover, I find that most women I meet in this group often have a lot of trouble with really basic maturity, like managing their finances, developing emotional intelligence, and communicating well. I meet some girls who are super mature on a character level and I have great chemistry with, but they have absolutely no interest in spirituality... and my dedication to spirituality is confusing/frightening to them. I know that the deeper I get into this work, the bigger the rift is going to be between me and the people in my age group when it comes to spirituality. I've done the pickup thing and I've also gone to tons of spiritual events in Austin, TX where I live... and the only dates I go on end up in one of those two groups. I generally have no problems attracting a partner, but it would be so much easier to get along in a long-term relationship or marriage if we both have those same values. I really genuinely would like to get married and have kids someday, but this is leaving me wondering - should I just settle for someone who I get along with on a personal level even if they don't care too much about spirituality or just practice new-age pop spirituality? It seems to me that I could spend years pounding nightclubs and hippie events and still never find someone in my age group who is going to take this stuff seriously. Not just as a hobby or a couple of yoga classes - but genuine spirituality and awakening... aka cares about and experiences the shit our boy Leo talks about. I would love to hear everyone's thoughts on this! Super grateful for this community and for Actualized.org!

Awakening to yourself as God is not the same as awakening to perfect self-love. For example you can reach a unitive state where you awaken to everyone being you and can have a temporary awakening into Perfect Self-Love. But to have a permanent awakening you need to do the following thing. 1. You need to clear your Chakras, all the way from the root all the way to the Crown Chakra. 2. After clearing your Chakras you need to be energy sensitive enough to connect to your heart chakra until you find your inner voice. To find your inner voice your throat chakra needs to be clear. Your heart chakra is the key to the kingdom of God. The voice of the God/Absolute within you is found in the heart chakra. This is where Infinite Love/Perfect Self Love rests. 3. Your Crown Chakra is how you connect to the Collective Consciousness where Infinite Intelligence Resides. If you open your crown chakra and are not ready to deal with the infinite voices, visions, etc. that comes from the Collective Consciousness it can drive you mad. So be careful with this one. 4. The key to your journey will be faith, you need to trust your synchronicities, you need to trust your resonance, the purpose of your life is to unite your intelligence with your heart. This is the beginning of inner wisdom, because now your mind can communicate with the source of your authenticity which is your heart. 5. The heart never judges you, the heart always accepts you, the heart does not care about your personal survival, it cares about the collective survival of all. Your mind only cares about your personal survival. If you do not jailbreak your mind (which is how you open your crown chakra) then your ability to expand your perspective to a universal perspective cannot happen. You will have a close/small mind and will be unable to see outside your perspective. This is a terrible state of affairs because you will be short sighted, quick to anger, and unconscious to the truth of what you and life is. You will scheme and manipulate your way and will never reach true happiness which comes from complete SELF ACCEPTANCE. Both the individual and collective self. For me to reach this permanent state, I had to be broken ALL THE WAY DOWN. I am currently from a survival stand point at rock bottom currently. Pretty much everything that can go wrong as gone wrong and yet....THIS HAPPENED. So its paradoxical, I discovered the true meaning of why we are here by having my social dignity stripped of me. Also I cannot stress this again. You will NEVER achieve perfect self-love through demonization of the ego. Demonization of the ego is a trap. I will say it again. IT IS A TRAP. Demonization of the ego= Self-Hatred. YOU CREATED your ego, if you created an ego dedicated towards love over personal gain then you will not fall for this. If you created an ego dedicated to personal gain then you will hate your ego. The key to life is to realize that while personal gain is nice, nothing beats love. When you only seek the personal at the expense of the collective your punishment is self-hatred. Why? Because whatever you do to another, you are doing to yourself. This is an ABSOLUTE. You have never hurt another, only YOURSELF. You have never judged another ONLY YOURSELF. All this is merely words, you will have to walk the path but I will give a couple tips that will blow your mind. 1. If you demonize ANYTHING you are walking counter to the path. With that said discernment is not judgment. Many people get this mixed up. Discernment says that is not for me and here is why it is not for me. Your heart does not engage in discernment only the mind. When they connect an inner conversation takes place. Your mind says what it likes and doesn't like but is taught how to lovingly express its preferences while also being encouraged to consider a much wider perspective. 2. It is impossible to waste your time because once you make a concerted effort to walk the path EVERYTHING is going to serve you and I do mean EVERYTHING. 3. This concerted effort to walk the path must come from an authentic deep seated desire to unlock the kingdom within you. 4. I had no idea what I was doing with my chakra system and did a lot of foolish stuff. But I was protected and ultimately cleared out and connected the whole system. I now understand what each chakra represents intuitively. Here are some traditional Spirituality Traps. 1. Spirituality likes to demonize human expressions of nature i.e. technology as inferior to the forest or the woods. This is a trap. I literally broke through USING technology. For example video games and online Satsangs and Leo's own videos all were important for my work along with psychedelic trance videos as well, and chakra music. 2. Porno was helpful as well, it allowed me to heal sexual trauma that I was unaware that I had. In fact porno actually supercharged my awakening process as I was able to wake up faster using it as a tool. If you use it excessively though it will cause an imbalance in your chakra system. 3. After you break through all you need to do is follow your inner guide your inner Guru and enjoy and share your love. That's it!!! Finally!! I thought sober Unity Consciousness was enough, I didn't know there was a higher level beyond that.

That which appears to awaken: never awakened. Nothing is asleep everything is wide awake aliveness.

I think you can intuit that it’s real. By hearing “awakened people” speak you can pick up on authenticity, sensing that they’re genuinely coming from a place of, let’s say, no self, in contrast to others who speak from a place of self. This intuition can be developed, I think it’s related to your degree of openness, how dense your self is. But ideally you wanna confirm it in your own direct experience Also, what you consider “real” is anything with a limit. So if you adopt the idea that awakening is real, you can’t help but to put it into a category of “something”, “an experience”, like everything else, although an unique one. Awakening might not fit into that definition of “real”, because it transcends limitations.

Is awakening even real. I believe being "Awakened" is a spiritual fantasy. Rather, we are awakening. Because we are all human beings, we make mistakes, make bad decisions, blunder, etc. We all slip up. I believe you have to first define what awakening is for you. Mine is reaching a level where you no longer idenitfy with your thoughts and feelings. You don't carry around that emotional baggage with you. You do this effortlessly throughout the days. But I make no claims that I've completely dissovled my ego. So before you ask, "Is Awakening Even Real?" What does Awakening look like to you? I'm curious.

Many many posts on the forum regarding awakening. Judging those on the path. Judging what we talk about as a 'measure if how awake you are'. 'Awake people wouldn't do this, or that, or whateverthefuck' 'Why ask this' 'Who is asking?' Just stop. You are going the opposite way - union is the goal If you have been doing the work for a time, you know it is a journey. You are the process. This is a hugely underrated video from Leo (get ready for the old-school Zen-stick Leo). I personally revisit this one often. If anyone has glossed over this once or missed it entirely - or resisted it (You should look into that :P) I highly recommend it. Newbies, veterans, awakened... one of the images will resonate. Enjoy:

I'm not saying I go around saying experience is an illusion and therefore this food I'm eating for breakfast before I go visit my family is not happening so I sit there and do nothing since experience is an illusion. This stuff cannot be actualized and practiced and be consciously chosen. It is that very fact why experience seems to exist in the first place. It is it's own 'being' but a person comes in and says they're having an experience. It is not your experience, it is just experience. I'm just pointing that out when I say that. There's an I here so I'm not denying my own experiences. I'm not expecting you to do anything in this regard because you can't because you're not doing or having an experience in the first place to do or not do something about. It's just forum talk that means nothing and denied by a me who seeks meaning and purpose and saying experience is an illusion doesn't add anything to that, it takes away. It's the only reason why it's not attractive to you to hear that. "I have awakened" seems like a more attractive thing to entertain for the me so it comes on a forum and advertise it to the other me's it created and imagined and tell them it awoke to Solipsism while having a never-ending discussion about it to the others that aren't there. You need to awaken to insanity, not solipsism.

He has awakened to feeling inferior and incomplete - so to feel better/bigger/superior/a man WE MUST SQUASH OTHERS