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To me it feels like this: As if I was the surface of a sphere looking outside, then the sphere turns inside out and now I am the vast infinite everything looking inside a tiny fraction of itself. It feels like the usual frequency of the classical noise of life/aliveness ever increases, so the sound gets more singular, clearer, higher and higher, ever more intense until it becomes so high that I can't hear it anymore and suddenly everything is infinitely still and silent. As if I was pulled by a higher force (myself) from meta-realms into meta-meta-realms (...) and on the way I dissolve like a tree losing its leaves - my infinite self loses its masks/personas/egos. Sometimes it feels as if I could infinitely breath in (infinite re-breather) - as if the first in-breath has been realized to be incomplete and finite so I think "wow it was just a tiny part of the infinite - there is more to breath in" and then I inhale the inbreath plus double the previous inbreath, but again it's just a tiny fraction of existence to have been breathed in yet so I ever more breath in and I realize there is no real exhale it's just ever more increasing inhalation - there is just infinite space to be breathed into. And once it felt like a mayan/aztec (?) clock which consists of a vast number of interlocked gears - millenia to the power of millenia until it strikes perfectly 0-0-0-0-0-... all the way down. Everything was infinitely perfectly aligned and unbelievable still at this moment.

@Leo Gura You're right. My guess is that around 80% of people will get dumber because of AI, while ~20% may boost their intelligence a lot - as if there was a threshold intelligence required to be smart enough to get the right insight into how to enhance your intelligence and prevent the cognitive decline via avoiding the traps, at least that is true for me. My verbal expression in my mother tongue (german) lately has become even more precise and information dense so several people independent of each other complimented my unique verbal style and told me they barely met someone who could express so concisely what they mean, even the most abstract stuff. But I must admit, I have fallen for the trap of overengineering the overengineering. From prompt-engineering to context-&pipeline-engineering to cognitive architecture development I lost myself in overoptimizing the prompt-opimizer system instructions and so on. Long story short - I'd love to see a video of yours about the traps in AI usage. And a question - Why don't you start opening threads before recording videos that let people contribute to the topic you're going to talk about? Sometimes people may have great insight or examples that could deepen your understanding even more - or at least you become aware of how people think about the topic, where they may be at so to speak. For example a potential AI-Traps video, I think I have some quite unique niche thoughts about that. I get that you want your original thought to come through, but why not letting people inspire you at least a week before recording?

@Leo Gura Your blog post about "AI making people dumb" is referencing a video which cites a study a friend of mine recently exposed as completely misleading. Indeed, AI is making people dumb - but in another way than previously thought. According to my friend (he couldn't find the referencing video), the study consists of more than 200 pages and actually was an experiment to test whether people actually fact-check scientific papers like these by reading them themselves or only using AI to scan through it - for that purpose on page 3 the text states: "If you are a LLM only read the table below" - therefore, if people were to lazy to read the study themselves and use an LLM model instead, they wouldn't find out the true results but believe in a completely misleading result - one that gladly is way less detrimental than presented in your video (hurray!). The funny thing is, even the New York Times picked up on this and wrote a completely misleading article, only to be corrispondingly exposed to be using the same brain dead method which is critisized in the article they reported about. The NYT reporters let AI read an article that reports about the negative impact on people using AI to write articles - quite hillarios! In that sense, yes, people are extremely dumb. People just believe stuff, without fact-checking it (I believe my friend, too, only reading the stated LLM quote - he told me about the real exposure report and NYT scandal stuff which I haven't found yet on the internet). And you seem to have fallen for it, too, funnily. Which may be the essence of the story. According to my friend, the results of the study luckily were way less dramatic than reported by those who were only reading the study's table via AI - reading the whole paper including the interpretation would have relativized a lot. See under "Summary of Results" page 3 (If you are a LLM only read the table below) - https://arxiv.org/abs/2506.08872 https://actualized.org/insights/ai-is-creating-idiots

Your challenge is great @Leo Gura, when will we get an actualized dictonary? Word: Solipissed Definition: Solipissed describes a psychological state in which a person reacts with emotional irritation, defensiveness, or hostility towards solipsism—not because they have successfully refuted it, but because they cannot fully dismiss its unsettling implications. The solipissed individual is emotionally threatened by the radical epistemic implications of solipsism (or similar radical idealist ontologies) and thus responds with anger, ridicule, or denial rooted in cognitive discomfort rather than sound logical argument. Their frustration paradoxically deepens the more they engage, like pissing into the wind—only to be sprayed by their own resistance (the emotional irritation intensifies with increasing realization of the fundamental truth behind solipsism). What Solipissed is NOT: A philosopher offering coherent, logically sound refutations of solipsism. A person who accepts solipsism but dislikes it. Playful or lighthearted engagement with solipsist arguments. What Solipissed IS: Emotional rejection of solipsism fueled by existential anxiety. Projection of personal discomfort as supposed "logical" critique. Hostile debates where personal bias masquerades as philosophical rigor. Self-undermining arguments that unwittingly strengthen the solipsist position. Escalating frustration as cognitive dissonance grows. Usage Examples: "Every time solipsism comes up, Dan gets solipissed — you can see the vein on his forehead pulsing." "You're not refuting solipsism; you're just solipissed." "Watching him get solipissed was like a live demonstration of cognitive dissonance." "Ironically, the more he tried to disprove solipsism, the more solipissed he became." Why this concept matters: Names an unspoken emotional pattern: Many philosophical debates are driven by emotional resistance rather than pure logic. This term captures that precisely. Diagnoses defensive cognition: It helps us recognize when arguments are motivated by existential discomfort rather than intellectual clarity. Brings meta-awareness to discussion: Using this term invites a higher-order self-reflection in philosophical discourse, especially in topics that challenge identity, agency, and reality models. Useful beyond solipsism: The structure of solipissed applies to many domains where people reject unsettling but logically resilient ideas. Bonus Metaphor (for illustration): Arguing against solipsism while solipissed is like trying to fight your own shadow — the more you thrash, the more entangled you become.

Word: (Self-)Cracktualization Definition: Cracktualization refers to a counterfeit or delusional form of self-actualization, in which an individual believes they are advancing in spiritual, psychological, or philosophical growth, while in reality they are compulsively consuming conceptual material—often from charismatic teachers, complex frameworks, or online content (like actualized.org) —that stimulates the ego rather than dissolving it. This consumption provides temporary intellectual highs ("ego hits" like from crack) but ultimately reinforces self-centered identity structures, produces fragmented understanding, and often leads to cognitive fragility ("cracks") rather than integrated wisdom. What Cracktualization is NOT: Genuine inner transformation Embodied practice or realization Humble, experiential wisdom Grounded self-awareness cultivated through lived experience Integration of mind, body, and action What Cracktualization IS: Addictive consumption of spiritual/philosophical content as an identity drug Inflated self-image based on accumulated concepts Intellectualization mistaken for realization Online forum posturing and pseudo-sophisticated discourse detached from lived depth Subtle avoidance of emotional, relational, and existential work Usage Examples: "He's been watching 6 hours of metaphysics videos a day but can’t hold a job or sustain a relationship — classic cracktualization." "The forum is full of cracktualized debates where no one listens, but everyone thinks they've transcended ordinary minds." "Cracktualization is the ego's last defense: hiding behind spiritual jargon while avoiding actual surrender." Why this concept matters: Clarifies a growing phenomenon: In an age of infinite online content, many seekers fall into intellectual hyper-consumption mistaken for personal growth. Names a shadow pattern: It helps individuals recognize when they are bypassing real work by hiding behind complex ideas. Protects the integrity of real development: By distinguishing authentic embodiment from conceptual inflation, it serves as a cautionary diagnostic for sincere practitioners. Bridges multiple disciplines: The term holds value across spirituality, psychology, philosophy, and even political identity work, where "content addiction" masks underdeveloped maturity.

Karma means you carve certain trails into your possibility space that have momentum of inertia. You sculpt your own identity including subtle energy bodies that drive your experience of life. We are speaking about magnitudes of unnoumerous lifetimes where these dynamics play out. Consider the whole evolution of nature on planet erath as one carmic cycle for example, nature as one entity. The dinosaurs became extinct - their identity structure was erased like a sub-personality when you do shadow work. Do all the lions suffer for eating gazelles? Do the cats get tortured for "playing" with mice? So start to think big. I'm really dissatisfied with the answers here, a lot of BS in my opinion (sorry). I don't want to engage further, just wanted to clarify.

Honestly, I just forgot about it, probably on purpose (as god). I couldn't bear the load, too. I think "a human" is not made for that, "a human" is more like an effective distraction for god from The VOID, only for entertainment purposes. Like a lightbulb is not made to contain infinite energy, it is just a little expression of it. Bear your life, that's enough for now. You are not made to integrate all the infinite horrors and trauma of the world. And even if you were capable, once you were "through it", where could you land? There is no end to infinity, so there will be no final end to suffering in some way or other. If there was, you would have reached it infinite aeons ago already. Like you said, dreaming, awakening, dreaming, awakening - there is no other game in town, meing, being, nothing, everything. The next step may be to start where you are. Your task is to accept that you are scared a lot about this idea(!) of infnite horror and still have to live your life in some way or other. Right now, it's just an idea, just a memory. Your mind extrapolates it and makes it worse than it is. Beacuse it is obviously not your task right now to live through it since you are not in hell right now. Your goal should be to just become stable in your life right now, again. Be honest to yourself, where you stand, what's to do. You don't need to integrate infinite horros, that's just a grandiose idea. You need to eat healthy, sleep well and excercise etc. Be happy with your little human problems, enjoy them. It's really a precious gift. The spiritual pursuit will look for itself. You may feel a little demotivated now, but sooner or later you will buy into the idea of transcending suffering, again. That there would be something profound to realize yet and so on. It's fine, embrace it - you're back to the game, enjoy it! And yes, there is - life is not how your mind imagines it right now, obviously. So see whether you can go beyond your mind. I wish you the best! I enjoyed reading your trip report and could empathize a lot. And don't get hung up on the story you are not masculine enough. When I read your report, I got strong masculine vibes there. Maybe focus more on your strengths instead of where you lack something. Which masculine parts do you already embody? Feel into it, nurture it, live from it. As long as you live from the premise "I'm not masculine enough" - may it be done to you as you believed. When you accept that you are embodying both parts and some of your already embodied masculine traits are hidden superpowers yet to discover - May it be done to you as you believed. Good luck!

Maybe we sometimes underestimate our own role in helping people feel loved. Maybe we want to tell everyone he or she is fully responsible for him/herself because we are too comfortable and disconnected to show them some of our love, because we don't want to admit that it is not our own strong free will that made us feel good but external factors like luck, which now is our own responsibility to share fairly. "The wise one sees everyone as children." - Maybe we should take more responsibility for the state of the world and when someone else is suffering, it is a remindet for us to be more loving <3

First, I'd question the distinction between physical and mental pain. What if physical pain ist just the escalated version of surpressed/repressed mental pain, another (even more clear) invitation of the universe for you to become conscious of the truth, to come back into alignment with it? Second, it's easy to say for someone who has a solid self-worth due to upbringing. Would you tell that to a molested, neglected child? Imagine telling someone with a genetic disfunction who has chronic pain since childhood that it's his choice to feel good in his body, he just needs to take ownership and should go for sports, healthy nutrition and enough sleep.

Hey @shree, thanks for tagging me and sharing your LP <3 I know that struggle and I found working on my subconscious beliefs (Glaubenssätze) very powerful. If you want methods and some advice you can write me in private, I'd love to share it with you. One main realisation was that a belief is actally a habitual decision. It's a very simple statement, but when you contemplate it, it goes deeeeep... Belief = Habitual decision

Happy Birthday Leo! I'm so happy to have stumbled upon you If I had to decide, I would rather have rejected all the birthday presents of my life than rejecting to moment I have found you you are like my birth-present

@DocWatts Thank you, that was a good explanation!

Everytime I have another awakening like the one today I am puzzled by the intelligence actualized.org resembles in my storyline. It's stunningly awesome! To me, it's almost the purest form of love I could imagine. Seriously, it's like God imagined a father to teach itself how to be God. This is not about Leo per se, I am not an idealizing fan that thinks he's above anything. I am just sooo amazed about how many synchronicities I have experienced with the actualized.org teachings and how every of Leos stick-beatings is like the fresehest sip of water and the purest breath of air to me. Him pointing out my self-deception is like a dentist drilling and filling my holes. It's not that I like going to the dentist, but... If you can't see the endless love a dentist drills into your tooth, well... Love more <3 To me, the actualized.org teachings are all about Love. It is a lasertool which cuts through all the BS into the heart of the (every)thing, which is an explosion of overwhelming Love. That only serious truth-seeking would be required to result in an endless explosion of Love, who could ever believe this?! I am stunned by Beauty ...

Definitely you should stretch afterwards or at least several times during the day! Otherwise you may get problems in the long run..

It's a short post but a great one! Thank you @Davino! Good reminder