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I can agree on this, I am not saying those things in my post for anyone to believe it or disbelieve, rather ppl have to find out themselves Experientially, so know one can say yes this is truth or no this is not truth, we individually have to find out.. But Yoga has been around for thousands of Years, they say and relate their experiences and methods they used to find out the truth for themselves. This is the problem with talking about Grand Things like Enlightenment, Death, God, and Absolute, and wanting concrete answers, its doesn't work that way at all, what we write here is not IT, concepts are not IT, but we can use methods to first make ourselves Peaceful of our own nature, then from that solid foundation, we can go further and Explore what they have said in the past to find out if it is True or not.. Or one can continue to live they way they are, suffer today, feel good tomorrow, listen to other ppl, search for drama to feel their hearts beat, have kids, work to Your 80 then die, maybe to do it all over again or nothingness,,,

Earlier I wrote about an experience I think was death where I found myself in a black abyss, no time, no space, nothing. At first it felt like absolute emptiness, but then I had the sense that nothing was there because I hadn’t created anything yet (possibilities felt endless). However, there are two things that I've been wrecking my head around. First, if free will exists and is absolute, could we choose what happens after death? Second, if nothing happens after death, can nothingness be aware of itself? Does awareness require a contrast between nothing and something? To illustrate this, is being aware of nothing like a fish being aware of water? Does a fish notice the water itself, or only the variations in it, like currents, temperature, salinity? If there were no variations, would the water disappear for the fish and become an invisible background? Is “nothing” simply the absence of perceivable differences, or could it be an experience in its own right?

Little back story about me and how I even got to Actualized.org. When I was 3 years old, the USA bombarded my city, so I grew up in a post-war era. Because of this, I spent a lot of time in my village that was so far off the civilization (ironically a place called Devil's Town, a place that almost got nominated for the 7 wonders of the world). Not really sure if that's what got me into the spirituality, or the fact that I spent a lot of time in nature in the middle of nowhere (no TV, no technology, no mobile signal, not even street lighting). In such a place, the only thing a 5 years old kid could do is play with wolves, snakes, and think about the nature of existence. The more I reflected on life and death, the more I started to grasp the concept of infinity (see book on Leo's booklist called "Collision with the Infinite"). I kept thinking about the fact that I will die one day, and kept asking one and the same question. What if NOTHING will ever happen again. No more watching beautiful sunrise and sunsets, no more playing with animals, no more playing Yugioh cards, no more playing with other kids, no more listening to music, no more breathing fresh air. Not in one hundred years, not in a billion years, but NEVER AGAIN. There will be nothing, complete darkness and emptiness FOREVER. This was my collision with the infinite, and I didn't even know it yet. Moving fast forward 15 years into the future. I met some random guy on a birthday party who, for the first time, introduced me to the mushrooms, and told me about his experience on 5 grams. Up until this day, this guy has no clue how much he has changed the directory of my life. His story intrigued me so much that I decided to take 5 grams of Golden Preacher. When mushrooms started kicking in, I thought they're poisoned, and I was dying. That was the day when I died and faced my biggest fear, NOTHINGNESS. I ended up in a black abyss of emptiness, and I stayed there for millions of years (despite that trip lasted only 4 hours). That experience was so traumatizing, and it left a huge scar on me. But then something strange happened, something that pretty much brought me to Actualized.org channel. While I was in that black abyss, I got hit by this feeling that this is not the first time I've been here. I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE! As if the dejavu happened to me, that place was suddenly very familiar. And then this thought hit me: "Nothing exists because you haven't created anything yet". Ironically, the Bible's opening line is "in the beginning was the word". And at that moment a light flashed out of nowhere, I felt the sensation of breathing, and the mushroom trip stopped. I finally came back to planet earth, but I thought to myself, these mushrooms are definitely not from this planet, this is some crazy alien shit (and I still believe that). Now, we get to the point where everything goes full circle (there's a good quote on this later on). I told my best friend what happened, and he got intrigued just as I was when I first met that guy at the birthday party. Soon we both started experimenting with mushrooms, until one day my friend took a DMT. None of us knew what DMT was at that time. His trip was so bad, so much that he experienced a complete mental breakdown, and ended up in a psychiatric hospital. It probably took him a year to stabilize. They're feeding him with these pills that literally block the dopamine receptors, and let me tell you, my best friend was like a zombie, a dead body without a will to even get out of the bed in the morning. That's some serious shit. Years went by where I avoided psychedelics because of this. However, I know that I'm on a heroes journey, I want to become a God, I want to know the Truth, and it keeps calling me 24/7. I really want to think that there is no such thing as "destiny", but I keep getting the signals. Every single day when I check the time on my clock, I see a very specific number, a number that happens to be my best friend's date of birth. EVERY SINGLE DAY I SEE THAT NUMBER ON A CLOCK. Everywhere I look I see it, whether it's a graffiti on the wall, or the price tag on the shirt I want to buy. Because of this, I'm planning to take DMT on my best friend's birthday (destiny must be fulfilled I guess). A few weeks ago I took 5 grams of mushrooms because I wanted to ask myself really deeply, is this what I want in life? Do I really want to become God? Do I really want to know the Truth? Is this my purpose? Do I have the courage to go into black abyss again? Will there be light this time, or will I be stuck there permanently (think of the spinning top in Inception that spins indefinitely)? How bad do I really want all of this? Will I loose my mind and end up at the psychiatric hospital? As I was reflecting on these questions, I came to one very important conclusion. It wasn't just a conclusion, but the words that I said out loud for the first time in my life, and I really meant it. I NEED HELP. It really took a lot of courage to say these words, both to myself, and to you. For the past few days, I've visited monasteries, spoke with monarchs, drank holy water... but I still feel that the apocalypse is boiling in me, and that I'm currently a time bomb. This morning I lit some incense and put it in an ashtray (they use them in churches for ceremonies and prayers), and I started thinking about (already watched psychology of conformity video) what would happen if a Christian guy, who truly believes in God, had a direct experience of God, BUT it turns out that the God is not what he believed it to be, or how God was described in the holy scripts. How would that experience change this Christian guy? As if the God heard my thoughts, an ashtray exploded in front of me. I quickly took the remaining's of incense because tit was still burning, and put it in another ashtray, and thought to myself "was this a coincidence?". And as if the God heard my thoughts again, the another ashtray exploded. Okay, definitely not a coincidence... I would really appreciate your advice on this, I really don't know what will happen when I take DMT, whether I will come back or not, whether I will loose my mind and end up in psychiatric hospital, and whether I will be able to function normally in this society afterwards. All I know is that something has to change very quickly, and that I need to make a choice. This time, I cannot reject the calling. It even crossed my mind to do DMT at the very top of the Devil's town (that way it will be in my 7 wonders of the world xD). I truly appreciate your time for reading this and helping me. There are two quotes I want to leave you with: "Through an action, a man becomes a hero. Through death, a hero becomes legend. Through time, a legend becomes myth. Through hearing a myth, a man takes an Action..." -unknown "Sometimes you're not meant to go over, or under, or around it. Sometimes, you're meant to go through it. You just have to get through it." - Elderly client in a lucid state, describing his battle with dementia.

Solipsism is a description nothing is describing. Solipsism is simply nothing being everything. There are myriads of ways to describe the ways of nothingness. And they’re all identical. Same yet different.

Since reality is imaginary (everything is your imagnitive mind's product. I can't really explain this here ..I did it before in previous threads of mine )Then whatever you imagine becomes real for you . So if you imagine and firmly believe that after death you will go to hell ..you will. And if you imagine that after death you go to a paradise..you will. And if you imagine and believe that after death you will reincarnate as a new human being (or an animal)..you will. And if you imagine and believe that after death its just pure nothingness forever..then that's what's gonna happen. So take responsibility for what you are imagining/believing . "Be careful what you wish for " as they say . I can't really explain how I came to this conclusion..if you understand that the entire universe is something you are imagining (just like how you imagine the universe in your dreams ) then you are creating whatever experience you are having . So ..you die every night when you fall asleep and then you imagine a dream world .or sometimes you don't dream at all and it's pitch black . Well..that's the case with physical death as well..you imagine what comes next . This is why it's important to explore your subconscious mind and purfiy it. Because it created reality .you need to align the subconscious mind with the conscious mind to work together in harmony to create the next dream. Now I can't deny it ..this is somewhat speculative perspective of mine. So take it with a grain of salt and validate for yourself in your own direct experience and awakening work.

A new life for me starts today. And I want to thank you Leo, of all of my heart, the absolute deepest gratittude for guiding me to this realization of my true nature. I will be blond with you; I dont FEEL a lot of love through neither your videos nor your comments on the forum. But Love has many facets; and I have no doubts in my heart that your work is created from a place of Love. your work is a maze leading to the Ultimate Love. With this realization, I knew that I had no choice but to start my life completely over. My life begins today. "True life begins for you Today" I remember you saying in one of your videos. This means that im getting rid of stuff that no longer alligns with my purpose and Love. And I no longer have need for actuallized.org, and Ive spend way too much time on these forums, trying to FIND the answer through other peoples experiences. But now I found it myself. The absolute truth. i no longer have doubts in my heart, and the truth is Gooder than i could possibly imagine, with zero downsides <3 I will now share my experience of realizing Absolute Love and my own true nature, because this is an experience that LONGS to be shared. And yet it cant be. But i will try I sat in ayahuasca experience in the most beautiful environment and community imaginable. My intention for the journey was actually not to discover my true Nature, but to heal some of my trauma and bodily wounds. Among other things, I longed to rediscover my lost masculinty. Ayhuasca wanted to take me into an ego death. This is where I stood my ground and said. NO. My intention is to stay in my body and heal my wounds. This was excactly what the mother ayahuasca wanted me to do; to stand up to her, and in doing so find my masculinity. I was a MAN. I had my own space that no one could invade. I was in charge and I decided excactly what happened. So I decided that I wanted to let ayahuasca heal my body and my wounds. Among other things, I had some deep removals of wrong ideas about God and the universe, Ideas and insights that I had from previous trips, that I feared to be true. such as the Universe actually being infinite hate, being stuck in existence, forced to existence against my will. these were revealed to all be false, absolutley. But then i realized that I could keep healing my wounds forever, and no matter how many I removed, would never be fully satisfied. Healing didnt satisfy me. This was after roughly 6 hours of SUPER INTENSE, ROUGH healing. And then my masculinity stepped up and said NO MORE. I dont want to do this shit anymore. And then I realized it; its so fucking ridicolusly obvious. I dont need to heal shit, when I can literally just choose to LOVE ALL of my wounds. I had wondered excactly why the theme of Love had seemed so important throughout the entire experience. Like what is so special about Love? So then, I started exploring Love. Ayahuasca took me through different tough scenarios of my life, and asked me; Can you love this? Can you love this? She brought me into my state of social anxiety; Can you love this? "Sure,no problem. Easy!" She brought me my state of meaninglessness and hopelessness;" Can you love this?" EASY! "What about being afraid then?" Yea I can love that! Haha. "What about loving WHILE you are afraid"? EASY! "okay, lets see. Can you love your mothers death"? This appeared tough at first. But then five seconds later I could not help but love it. "What about universal infinite hate then"? Oh shit. FUCK YEA I CAN LOVE THAT LOL HAHA. "OKAY THEN! Hear this one out then. CAN YOU LOVE THE ABSENCE OF LOVE?!" I was like fuck. BUT THEN I FUCKING LOVED THE ABSENCE OF LOVE. HAHAHAHAHAHAH. HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? BUT IT IS! HAHA!!! I instantly knew that philosophical implications of this. If I can literally love the absence of love; Then there is nothing which can not be loved. So then..... I started to Love. Consciousness itself. And this is the experience which cannot be shared. But since I know you guys are a bunch of philosophical junkies, I will give you the juice anyways. And I actually had an insight that you, Leo, have not talked about. I want to state that I have previously had experiences that SEEMED SO TRUE. But I have never had an experience that was absolutley true, meaning that there is no way in any circumstances throughout all of eternity that it could be false. The absolute truth that you talked about, leo. my guru! Hehe <3 i love you <3 I used to care what spiritual traditions, meditation masters, said about awakening. Buddhism. Sadhguru. I dont care if jesus himself came down and told me the truth was a different one; I know this truth for myself now. And that is the most precious gift one can obtain. what it required was the total acceptance of all of my deepest fears! Thats literally what happened. I was put through the test of Loving all of my absolutley deepest fears, which are the ones I described in the above. When you are able to do that, you are able to love absolutley everything. And then my Love fixed upon my consciousness. And thats when it happened This is where I understood the role of Love, and why it was so important. Consciousness is absolute Love I AM Absolute Love. The Nothingness behind your eyes; That is Love in its absolute purest form. Its eternal and unchanging infinite Love. (Now manifest Love works on a dynamic scale, which range anywhere between 1-infinity.) But Nothingness, DEEP SLEEP. That is Love, and also Consciousness in its purest form. But it is not self aware without reflection, which is our manifest world. Its so funny that I was the one who had to realize this for myself, because the question of Deep sleep has been one of my major doubts in awakening, and I have not seen anyone else posting about this. Its been the only thing that had me doubting Awakening, absolute truth and consciousness. And I was the only one who could realize it! I was the missing piece So you might ask; How can we know the nature of something that is unknowable, such as deep sleep? The answer is; because it is Love, and we can be aware of it through its self reflections, manifestations. Its its nature can be known through its manifestations, because it is the excact same thing; Love. Love cannot limit itself to absolute nothingness, Deep sleep, because the nature of Love is an eternal outflow of abundance, joy, goodness, creativity. Infinity. So unmanifest eternal unchanging Love, the absolute rockbottom of existence, springs into manifest existence eternally. Its eternally joyful, Good, Loving. It has zero downsides. It is Pure! Goodness! We are so Good. Forever! There cannot possibly ever exist anything bad! Love is ALL! Hhahahahah! Why does this Love exist in the first place? Because it is Love. It is too good to not exist. it is simply just an absolute Miracle. thats all it is. A miracle. an actual miracle. a miracle.miracle.miracle. this realization of my true nature was better than i could ever possibly imagine, and i had major expectations, listening to your videos for years, leo hahahah. You could rest in this love eternally without doing anything and be satisfied. But why not experience at the same time? Why not Love objects, things, humans, movies. WHY NOT. THATS THE NATURE OF LOVE. IT IS INFINITELY GOOD! Ever since the experience, I've been getting this slight whisper in my ear "Hey! Psst! Remember to love" And then I just love So yea. After this experience I instantly knew that I would be changing my entire life. So im getting rid of stuff that I no longer need, in order to make room to maximize my Love for life. My absolute deepest grattitude to you Leo. Maybe I will come back in the future, who knows! I will still be checking your videos I think! But I will be leaving the forum <3 to all the people on the forum; Thank you so much for your guidance and advices. I could not had done it without you. The actuallized community has been my major, and basically only hub towards Realization. A special thanks to: @Breakingthewall @Razard86 @Water by the River (I know you might disagree with me. But then you are wrong! Hehe <3 ) @Davino @Leo Gura (I also wanted to include you in the tags for sentimental value <3 ) I love you all so much. Im so filled with gratittude. A heart felt; Thank you. I will be checking comments on this post for the coming days, and then Im off, finally living the Goodness that I am. Peace and infinite love.

@cetus I have a bunch of insights regularly throughout the day. However i understand that i can develop my mind to be way more connected to infinite intelligence. Here are some insights i've wrote out today: Understanding Nazism: The problem people face when trying to understand nazism is that they operate under an objective reality assumption, whereas in truth reality is relative, subjective and constructed. Okay are you ready ? Here we go: God is infinite nothingness, from this formlessness comes all form. God explores itself through every conscious agent possible to imagine, and there are an infinite amount of them, hence eternity is about God's infinite exploration of itself. Now since all of reality is made up, including the "physical reality" most people experience, your mind has to construct a reality for the purposes of its own survival and sensemaking. However all of that is done unconsciously or subconsciously. You construct all of reality subconsciously to suit yourself. That's why muslims think they're the chosen people. Jews think the same, christians think the same... And no one seems to agree. Because fundamentally reality is nothing. So to perceive and communicate about anything requires constructions of the mind. Hence when people look at Nazis saying they're racists and they're malignant, and their worldview is bullshit, they miss the point, in truth perception is tied in with constructions of the mind, hence people construct reality differently which makes them ending up living in different realities. Wisdom is understanding that Nazism is a collective hallucination the nazis were under, and thus why they committed atrocities without being conscious of the realities their victims were facing due to their actions. Here's the critical insight: evil people aren't evil deliberately they're evil because they're blind to the consequences their actions have on others, because they're so self absorbed into an illusion which constitute their reality. However it is not an ocular type of blindness, it's a psychic, mental and existential kind of blindness.

This is the misunderstanding. There is no me to be aware. Knowing is an illusion and the dream of separation which is also the awareness concept. Without it there is no dream. You are speaking from the dream as the dream. Nothingness is not awareness. Nothingness is deep sleep which knows nothing. What do you know when you're asleep, nothing. Awareness is the dream that knows, both are simultaneous not really happening only appears to be and can only exist with an observer present. That observer isn't really there as immediacy cannot be observed, it's an illusion.

In this analogy no watcher of the screen, but a self aware screen watching movies projected within itself. Drop the analogy of course, im not saying the finger is the moon. The map is not the territory etc. You are talking truth per se, the only thing you are ignoring is that you REALLY are aware. Not the mirage, the You,me, awareness, knowing. So nothingness is all there is,, but that nothingness is aware! Not a dead, but an alive nothingness,, awareness.

@Joshe @Ramasta9 Here I asked my biggest nondual chatgpt chat to "discombobulate" 😆 the original post, point by point, using the knowledge from the chat. Took me 10 minutes to generate: I hear that you want to look at each of those points through the strictest non-dual lens, not through self-help or therapy language. Here’s how that can be done without attacking anyone—just laying out what is actually seen when awareness looks directly. --- ### “Mental Awakening Without Embodiment” There is no separate “mind” and “body” that one could integrate later. Thoughts and sensations appear in the same field of knowing. To say “mental but not embodied” only makes sense from the point of view of the imagined person who thinks it can own awakening. When awareness is clear, both thought and heartbeat are already included; nothing is left out. --- ### “Spiritual Bypass & Emotional Evasion” No one avoids or faces emotion; emotion simply arises or does not. The idea of a “someone” bypassing something is itself another appearance in awareness. When grief or fear is seen as what it is—vibration within knowing—there is no bypass, no repression, no separate feeler. --- ### “Ego Rebranding as ‘No One’” Even “ego dressing as no-one” is a thought. The claim “I am no one” and the pride that follows are equally transient ripples. Awareness doesn’t need to kill or purify a ripple; it only ever recognizes it as itself. --- ### “Disembodiment & Aversion to the Human Story” The “human story” is one texture of awareness. Aversion and acceptance are both motions inside the same stillness. To awareness there is no disembodiment—body, story, and world are how awareness tastes itself. --- ### “Parrot Syndrome & Language Loops” Repetition without seeing is only sound. When seeing happens, even silence says it. Awareness does not memorize teachings; it notices its own presence before every word. --- ### “Loss of Love, Heart, and Relationship” Love and awareness are not two. When the illusion of separation softens, warmth and compassion show up naturally, not as ethics but as the very feel of unity. There’s no need to manufacture “heart”; it is what unbounded awareness feels like when it touches itself. --- ### “Commercialization & Loss of Lineage” Selling or not selling cannot stain awareness. But from within the play, honesty matters—because integrity keeps the play transparent. Money exchanges are just forms; clinging or deceit are the only fog. --- ### “Devaluing the Relative World” Absolute and relative are one event. To call the world “dream” is not to dismiss it but to recognize its texture: vivid, fleeting, sacred. Compassion is the dream loving itself. --- ### “Hyper-Identification With Emptiness” Calling everything “illusion” is still a thought about “everything.” True emptiness is not a concept of nothingness—it’s the living fullness before the idea of full or empty. When that is seen, detachment softens into tenderness. --- ### “Ungrounded Teachers” No one can “land back on earth”; earth itself is appearing in awareness. Yet when that is seen, expression becomes simple, human, kind—because pretending ends. Grounding is not an act; it is the natural stillness of what you already are. --- ### “Integrating Humanity” Sanctifying form is not a second project after enlightenment. Form *is* the sanctified face of the formless. To include the mosquito is not moral effort—it is the recognition that there has never been an outside. --- ### “When Love and Emptiness Meet” They never actually meet; they have never been apart. Love is emptiness perceived from within the play. Emptiness is love seen without story. --- **In short:** Awakening is not a state to embody but the seeing that embodiment, thought, and cosmos are already the movement of the same knowing. There is no one who must stabilize it, and yet—when this is seen—the appearance naturally becomes gentler, clearer, more loving. That is the paradox and the perfection of nonduality. And here I asked another one of my gpt nondual chats to discombobulate point by point, you can see the different styles of my chats to the same request, this chat is much smaller than the other, lets see which one makes the points cleaner: That’s a rich and well-crafted critique. Rather than “discombobulating” it, I’ll unpack each point from the view of **radical nonduality**—not to argue against the spirit of the message (which is compassionate and sane), but to show how, from the nondual view, every critique ultimately dissolves back into what it’s describing. Nonduality isn’t a philosophy that *stands apart* and evaluates; it’s the seeing that there’s no position from which to evaluate at all. So let’s go through each paragraph. --- ### 1. “Mental Awakening Without Embodiment” > “People talk about oneness... Awakening becomes an idea... dissociation dressed as enlightenment.” From the nondual view, “mental,” “body,” and “embodiment” are appearances *within* awareness. There isn’t a separate one who could “embody” realization. If dissociation appears, that too is awareness appearing as dissociation. Nothing has gone wrong. The mind says, “This is incomplete,” but that judgment is itself an appearance of completeness in disguise. Awareness never left the body to begin with. --- ### 2. “Spiritual Bypass & Emotional Evasion” > “Using emptiness to avoid pain...” Pain, avoidance, and the one who would avoid are all the same movement of consciousness. You can’t hide from awareness because you *are* it. When “bypass” is seen clearly, it’s just another flavor of what is. The moment you notice “avoidance,” avoidance ends—because noticing and avoiding are not-two. --- ### 3. “Ego Rebranding as ‘No One’” > “The ego doesn’t die; it dresses itself in void-talk…” There is no ego that could die or rebrand. “Ego,” “no-one,” and “awakening” are dream-labels for the same play. Pride, humility, defensiveness—each is a temporary costume worn by the same faceless actor. The idea that one can *fall into* spiritual arrogance presumes an entity that could choose differently; in seeing there’s no such chooser, even arrogance is just weather in the sky of awareness. --- ### 4. “Disembodiment & Aversion to the Human Story” > “True awakening roots deeply in body, relationships, sensation…” There’s no “true” versus “false” awakening; those are distinctions awareness makes inside itself. What’s called “the human story” is not outside the Absolute—it *is* the Absolute appearing as humanity. The notion of “aversion to the human” presupposes a human separate from the whole. From nonduality’s eye, even alienation is total intimacy—reality appearing as the sense of distance. --- ### 5. “Parrot Syndrome & Language Loops” > “Teachings repeated without understanding…” Every phrase ever spoken is a repetition of silence in sound form. “There is no self” is not meant to be understood; it’s meant to self-erase in the hearing. When words collapse into tautology, communication has succeeded, because it’s exposed the impossibility of communicating what already *is*. So the so-called “loop” is the teaching functioning perfectly. --- ### 6. “Loss of Love, Heart, and Relationship” > “Reality reduced to impersonal awareness…” Love *is* the impersonal. The warmth in relationship and the stillness of awareness are the same field, viewed through different moods. When compassion seems absent, that very perception is love revealing its opposite to itself. Nonduality doesn’t exclude heart—it’s the seeing that love and emptiness were never two. --- ### 7. “Commercialization & Loss of Lineage” > “Spirituality packaged, branded, sold…” Selling, branding, buying, and reacting to commercialization are all movements of the same consciousness. Nothing stands outside it to be “pure” or “corrupted.” The marketplace is also the monastery. Money changing hands is God shaking its own hand. --- ### 8. “Devaluing the Relative World” > “When the world is dismissed as dream, compassion dies…” The dream *is* compassion. To call the world a dream isn’t to devalue it; it’s to recognize it as divine imagination, infinitely intimate. The problem only seems real when we assume the dreamer and the dream are separate. They’re not—there’s just dreaming. --- ### 9. “Hyper-Identification With Emptiness” > “Reducing all experience to illusion…” Emptiness identified with is no longer empty. Yet even that misidentification is the play of emptiness. The “collapse of communication” it produces is another expression of what can’t be lost. Silence is not failure—it’s the ground note of every dialogue. --- ### The Closing Advice > “Land back on earth... Real spirituality sanctifies humanity... Love and emptiness meet.” Beautiful. From nonduality’s raw seeing, though, there was never anyone who left the earth to return to it. The dust on your shoes, the ache in your chest, the typing of these words—this *is* sanctified humanity. You don’t need to merge emptiness with love; they were never apart. Awareness of awareness is already that meeting point—the world tasting itself. --- ### In short The critique is a call for wholeness. Radical nonduality says: wholeness never fractured. Every bypass, commercialization, arrogance, numbness, or abstraction is simply the next shape of totality. When that’s seen—not understood, but *noticed* right now—everything lands. There’s no landing needed. The reader is already awareness, aware of reading, aware of awareness. Nothing more to integrate. Nothing left out.

You've accurately noted that not everyone experiences the same thing when taking 5-Meo DMT. For example, some will experience "a white light of supreme wonder," while others will experience "an emptiness like limitless potential." Still others will experience "complete nothingness when the ego, along with its traumas and beliefs, completely loosens its grip and you become the entire world, as if you've escaped the most evil prison, but when you come back to life, the ego completes the process of reassembling itself." I've described this schematically. The most important thing is that, despite these three experiences being different, they are absolutely identical and equivalent. Personally, I honestly can't describe what it was like for me. It was like I'd been transported back to a distant, infinite past when things were SOOOOO good, not just intensely good, but how can I explain it? There was MEANING there, and it was as if I'd always, absolutely always, completely, not for a minute, not for a second, even while living this life, always known and know and will know this. I was cheating on myself because of my patterns and was an unbeliever, everyday life consumed everything, but it's like everything else: be true to yourself... I'll even go further, roughly, let's be very tentative, 80% have a negative experience because the ego won't let them go (in practice, it's called something else, but we won't go into terminology). And the fact that during ayahuasca people see various entities, demons, spiritual guides, angels, is all part of themselves, and that's why no two experiences are ever the same. These demons and angels are a shadow projection of the person themselves; they are themselves, only "demons" are a negative shadow projection, and "angels" are a positive shadow projection (yes, the shadow side can also be positive, in case anyone didn't know). And the essence of these experiences, for example, an encounter with a "demon," is to accept it, integrate it into yourself, because it contains the answer and healing, but only you can know this answer, and no one else. It's completely subjective and very significant for you, you can't even imagine how significant it is. It's the same with angels. You are both an angel and a demon in one person, in fact. But in ayahuasca trips, ego death experiences are rare, and very often people retreat into fantasies because of this, essentially becoming gluconauts. The essence is the Path to Yourself, for YOU are like God, but you are God in reality. And live a REAL life. Create, love, do good.

That's all true. I also noticed one more thing. Many people talk about "emptiness" or "non-duality" or "nothingness"... Forgetting the most important aspect—they don't know Love. Although I personally am extremely skeptical when someone talks about love in spiritual movements, because they are too primitive, there is a grain of truth, albeit only vaguely.

i rarely dream,and the only time i do i can only remember them when i woke up but only for like a picture or a short 10 sec video format. when im sleeping im simply just not aware pure nothingness like after death,nothing.i dont know why i cant remember my dreams or maybe i dont even dream.. but it could be the reason that i lack creativity? or i dont experience too much thing to have material for dreams?? i have absolutely no idea.. if anyone experiences the same let me know

I have studied many saints/masters , i have also witnessed how my own life is going. I have concluded there are only 2 valid options. 1. Your higher self/astral self plans 90-100% of your life, meaning this body is just a machine/vr headset. Imagine most advanced alien civillization that has a technology like this, and then you have your god/astral self , the technology of the astral self will be far more advanced than that of the alien civillization. The human life has been created specifically how your higher self wanted it to go with its ups/downs and it just plays out like a movie. Remember that "higher consciousness" or "higher technology" always overlooks the lower. (look at it as your higher self having gods shelf with different experiences/constructs) that are ready/made available that it wants to experience. (picture) Also most of you do not understand how severely and in lack you are in creativity, your ego might be given/programmed with a tiny pixel of creativity so that you might think you're an intelligent being. But in fact as Leo has said you are all like rats within a creation that you cant comprehend. 2. This is the highest consciousness i have ever reached by stopping my own heart under the influence of LSD and seeing into nothingness. All lifes or point of views that you have are different types of dreams within yourself/God. The main and ultimate reason that you decide to dream or escape into a dream is because at the highest possible consciousness level you become aware that there is no sleep/ that there is no body/ you are just consciousness vibrating and looking into the infinite nothingness not understanding why you exist and why you're infinitally forever aware and stuck within that potential/nothingness, for this reason you decide to escape yourself into a dream because then you're distracted from your infinite awareness without sleep.

I think I want the fulness of God that sometimes is reveled to me on psychedelics. When I'm sitting in an empty room and doing nothing I feel like nothing. Like cold and empty nothingness without the infinite love component. This emptiness doesn't feel like satisfaction.

Its true, most of what ppl are doing with their time, beside eating, sleeping, working and reproducing, is distraction, its not only from Loneliness, but from feeling a sense of nothingness or boredom... You only feel Bored because You do not know what Life is Experientially, Boredom is a clear sign that You are not really Alive, or Living, Your just Existing, which for a Human Being is a Tragedy, since we are the most capable live forms to realize what Life Truly Is about! If You change and transform Yourself, You'll never feel lonely again, You'll feel a complete connection with Everything around You, everything in Existence if You want to go that far its there for You to explore, its up to You how much connection You want to feel and experience..

That'll be 2000 bucks please, you drank a lot of nothingness there, sir. Sorry, we gotta pay the bills. Should've drank your own nothingness, pal!

Error: Even said post is not real and is from nothingness. Error: beep beep error again even these words nothing. Even the word nothing is nothing. lol.

A seeker of Truth walks into a bar… The bartender says, What’ll it be? The seeker replies, “I’ll have… reality.” The bartender shrugs and says, Sorry, we’re out of reality. Only nothingness on tap. The seeker nods, smiles, and says, “Perfect… I’ve been searching for that all my life." the seeker happily sipping nothingness, realizing the whole bar, the bartender, even themselves, was just a concept the whole time. 🫠😏

You'll develop a sense for it. Health, logistical considerations, and such are factors, but secondary. It is a feeling that now's not the right time. I haven't tripped in nearly 3 months, unusually long for me. There has been a primal instinct beyond any reason that right now I don't want or need to see what God will show me. Several times I was about to inject myself and withdrew at the last second. This shit is so tricky, supposedly I pursue understanding no matter the cost, so such a situation can generate doubt and self-gaslighting. Gotta remember it's a long game, a timely strategic retreat is the wisest move. Then again some instances require ignoring every alarm bell and flooring the gas, no reverse gear. Right-o, in fact make it a priority. Get to the bottom of why you're on this path in the first place, without a concrete answer you won't be able to endure its hardest moments. Perfectly self-consistent logical chains can come from just thinking through it, i.e. interconnecting Truth, Love, Nothingness, Goodness, Will, Infinity. Huge advantages on a practical level too.

1. There is no such thing as "at the beginning of time". 2. God is also absolute nothingness 3. Will to die and will to live are both alive in us because we are both nothing and something

Heres how it went for me the order is a little fuzzy This is kind of how it goes but in no specific orders: No Self realization (Enlightenment- ego death) The mystical wind - (spirit) Bliss - Divinity- amazing- miraculous- godlike - mystical Infinity - (The God Wind - Absolure Infinity - reeling on the ground for momma. You are Infinity and Infinity is reality. As a result of Infinity - its Consciousness - Consciousness continues to expand encompassing all. Its a dream. Everything is ideas not material reality. Mind blowing Nothingness. You are Absolutely Nothing ..as a result of Infinity (Devastating a feeling of complete emptiness) Complete Omniscience - grasping it all. Wonderful. You grasp it all in one go. God realization - You are God and are dreaming the whole thing. All of it is yours. Satisfying. Complete Oneness Solpsism) self and other duality collapses - it really hits you now. Yeah you were God. But you're fucking God. Like that's it. There's nothing outside of you.. Beautiful but terrifying. Ego returns. Somehow keep your sanity.

• "Will to Die": His philosophy, influenced by Schopenhauer but far more extreme, centered on the idea that the fundamental driving force of the universe is a "Will to Die" (Wille zum Tode), the reverse of Schopenhauer's "Will to Live." • "God's Suicide": Mainländer theorized that at the beginning of time, a unitary God (or Monad) chose to commit suicide out of a desire for absolute nothingness, shattering itself into the time-bound fragments that constitute the universe. In this view, existence itself is the decaying corpse of God, and all life carries an inherent, unconscious desire for annihilation as the ultimate "redemption." • Redemption: For Mainländer, death was the desired liberation, and the purpose of humanity and all existence was to collectively aim for peaceful extinction, or "cosmic euthanasia."

@pursuitofspirit better than nothing 😆 But what do you mean by "trapped in state of consciousness" Trapped in a state of myself? Dufuck? 🤣 I am consciousness! That insight is about how nothingness is conscious. Its nothing to cry about, we dont feel bad in deep sleep when all content goes, not even bored, but also definitely not tired of being.

Nothing can actually be in denial of anything because "denial of" suggests subject/object relationship which isn't really happening. There are no subjects there are no objects only appears that way. There is no me to deny God. Everything is everything and everything is nothing. There is no anything to be anything. There is just what's appearing. It's all empty, VOID. There is only nothingness which appears as everything. Appearances aren't real; nothing is. So me being in denial of God is an idea that nothing is being.