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@Princess Arabia The mind loves to bullshit itself once it has reached a degree of Awakening, it will come up with all sorts of rationalizations and excuse making for not doing the practices and staying disciplined. Once the ego mind gets a little hit on no self or nothingness, it tends to form a spiritual identity and to stop at a certain point of its understanding of reality. No self is good but it's only the tip of an iceberg

@Princess Arabia I understand what you mean. i was honestly questioning what you mean because everyone has a different way of putting appearances, nothingness. But Leo streams his insights in a profound way that is very convincing. That's his life purpose.

Imagine a finite physical universe . It has nothing outside of it. Not empty space, but metaphysical nothingness. How could such a universe exist? Have you ever encountered a physical object with nothing outside of it? For something to be physical it must take up space, and must have other objects outside of it. an infinite physical universe seems like it could resolve the paradox, but it doesn't, physical objects can't be infinite. Because infinity can't be counted, can't be made physical . therefore physical reality is not really physical but an idea of consciousness.

Thanks, i also want to write something important to all man. To progress further spiritually within the creation you have to do this first. Don't do yogic asanas because they can lead to hands free orgasms. 1. Resist the female/attractor outside of you, this means no cumming/sex/sexual thoughts , performing all these acts is you giving your energy away to the feminine/nothingness/attractor that sucks it all away like a demon. Your sperm is not what you think it is. 2. Your subconscious creates reality, do this to progress further: write on youtube : chosen one videos , and subscribe to different channels. Watch a new video that comes out everyday and do what they tell you to do like planting a seed by writing in the comments, also watch the spiritual videos that pop up in your homepage on yt Do this for 2 weeks, no interaction/work with anybody. Just only subconscious reprogramming by watching only 1 type of videos. - your reality will shift - you will understand how ego works - can be very scary , but dont fear.

So after my last awakening, i've found out what a female is. I no longer have human pleasures or sex, all sex happends within. In my present/past experiences, i had the love of the whole universe on my penis that had this feminine black hole vagina energy. And i can do it on command, if i surrender enough or be able to withstand the ecstasy. Female/Woman is the potentiality outside of god you , it's the other and only half that is the opposite of you but also like you because you are something that is born/exist forever in this nothingness/potential (the female aspect) . You as god and all your creativity/creation exist in this nothingness/potential, when you try something new or seek you will interact with this nothingness/potential/attractor to create a new experience within you. This attractor is the female aspect outside of your creation/creativity/stability or who you are as god, that's why life revolves around chasing woman/attractor. Because this attractor is the beginning of al new creation, it's like the start of love. In simple terms, you exist within the female. That's why woman look for 'stability' it's because you as a man/god are a stable infinite creation aspect within the feminine nothingness/potential.

@Princess Arabia What is appearances? What is nothing? What is knowledge? What is energy? How are they related? Are they truth or are they pointers towards that which is? What if our beliefs and definitions of these terms are relative to our interpretation of these terms and what they come to mean for us. Is it possible to go beyond appearances to Absolute Truth? To say that all is appearance seems obvious, but what is the substance of appearance? If ts nothing, then what is nothing? Nothingness is like a womb of pure potentiality and actuality. Nothing is not our ideas of nothing. Anything the mind says that it is, it isn't. But what is this? These are great questions that are serious and profound.

This issue is part of why I have a strong resistance to spiritual work. I have had my entire sense of reality undermined and it instilled me with a deep sense of fear. The main insight that I have been struggling with most is the deeper truth that reality is a dream, an illusion, or a hallucination. My entire sense of physical reality is a construction, and when I become deeply conscious it starts to have a destabilization effect. Sometimes this message is repeated to me in lucid dreams and when I look around the real physical room I get this sense of "This is a fucking dream! What the fuck!" This seems to be the deep extent of self-deception. It seems impossible because everything seems so real yet it is imaginary. This destabilization trauma can be traced back to childhood trauma. It was a sexual incident that happened when I was six, and it had a whole string of trauma responses which shaped the person I became. Part of the destabilization happened when I started lying to myself saying "it was just a nightmare." It was in this moment that I became conscious of my mind's capacity to deceive itself. It drew into question how deeply self-deceived I could possibly be. I started looking around the room with the fear that everything was a hallucination along with my entire life story being a fabrication and with my very existence being drawn into question. In response to this destabilization trauma, I tried to ground myself through a commitment to "truth." I came to believe that I could not love myself without accepting the truth of who I was. I therefore used relative truth as a smokescreen to hide from absolute truth. One example would be "it was not a dream" to ground myself in the face of the deeper truth that reality is a dream. I would go on to use various intellectualizations around which I formed my identity. I would be using relative truth as a crutch to hold onto my sense of reality. As I continued doing trauma work, I began letting go of various intellectualizations that I no longer need. I discovered time and time again that they were means of masking deeper pain even if they were true from a certain point of view. Maybe I cannot love myself so long as I am not conscious of my true nature as God and Love and clinging to material existence out of fear prevents me from awakening to Love. As I tried to use truth to ground myself, I became deeply philosophical. I would make many different theories about reality thinking I was being smart. I started off holding an absolutistic stance around the nature of reality which served to stabilize my sense of reality. As I continued exploring philosophy and truth, I eventually discovered relativism which reintroduced my destabilization. It seemed to imply that all meaning and purpose was relative and not transcendent, which reopened my struggle with meaninglessness. Moral relativism seems a bit scary at first, but it makes perfect sense. Yes its true that somebody could put a gun to my head and say "morality is relative." At the same time you can look all throughout history at religion being used to abdicate the moral high ground while justifying genocide because of the belief that that is what God wanted. I found this a bit destabilizing, but I eventually accepted it. If good and evil are defined relative to perspective or ideology, then it suggests that if Absolute Goodness existed, then it would need to be more foundational than moral judgement. This would need to start with being conscious enough to recognize that moral judgements are imaginary and that I am creating good and evil through imagining them into existence. The more difficult one was the relativity of truth. This undermined my entire sense of reality because it depended on the existence of absolute truth as a correct view or interpretation. This sounded like insanity at first. I eventually came to accept it through epistemic relativism and relativity in logic. Depending on the basic assumptions of any epistemic framework, it will lead to different conclusions which are then held as true. There are also different types of logic like formal logic instead of fuzzy logic. Depending on the situation or how different types of logic or epistemic frameworks are applied, you can reach different conclusions which are valid relative to the underlying framework of the sense making system. This is how I made sense of relative truth, and it suggests that if Absolute Truth exists, then it is more foundational any belief system or epistemic framework. I was actually wrestling with relativity around the same time I discovered Actualized.org. Part of the reason the mind gets stuck on relativism is because it is creating a false sense of acceptance by trying to ground a new sense of reality in the relative truth of relativity. Relativism as an ideology thus becomes an obstacle to deeper levels of consciousness necessary to see Absolute Truth which is more foundational than any perspective. Perhaps I would need to be conscious of how I am constructing true and false in order to make sense of things which would point me to the more foundational Truth. At the end of the relativity rabbit hole, it comes to the truth that reality is relative. For example, material existence is relative to the normal state of human consciousness, but at deeper levels of consciousness you can recognize the non-dual nature of reality and the deeper truth that reality is a hallucination with consciousness being more foundational than material existence. This is the deeper truth that relativism is pointing to, and I haven't fully integrated it because my body, mind, and being are resisting returning to this level of consciousness. There are also scientific reasons to support this radical degree of relativity such as time being relative. Ultimately my entire worldview and my entire sense of reality is relative to my degree of consciousness. As I looked at various spiritual books and started meditating, I eventually had another destabilizing experience. I was listening to an audiobook, Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now. I listened to various insights and started experimenting with them throughout the book. I listened to it all day, while becoming more and more present. It started becoming a deeply pleasant and happy experience of just being present and existing. As I approached the end of the book, I did a deeper meditation which led to a destabilizing experience. It was like pure nothingness was the foundation of existence. Not only was I nothing, but so was everything else nothing. As pure nothingness, I was one with all of existence, making nothing and everything indistinguishable. As I realized that everything was nothing, I started to realize that reality was an illusion which undermined my entire sense of reality. I had never experienced this kind of consciousness before, and I have become afraid of meditation. According to some of the books I read about this, it takes some getting used to when you first start experiencing absolute nothingness. So these are my examples of destabilization trauma. I have come to realize that I have been using the relative truth of spiritual teachings as a smokescreen to prevent the realization of these deeper truths. I now realize that I don't need these intellectualizations which I commonly use as a defense mechanism in a variety of forms. As I healed various traumas, I let go of various intellectualizations and my mind has become increasingly peaceful and present. It still involves a lot of emotional labor because I am undoing the person I became in response to deep trauma. Currently I feel like I am being left with a sense of not knowing, but at the same time not needing to make intellectual schemes. This mental energy was a previous defense mechanism that I no longer need. They were masking pain. How do you guys suggest going about addressing destabilization trauma? I think this is critical for continuing spiritual work because sometimes it makes you feel like you are going insane.

Insightful article on Buddhist perspective on nihilism.. https://buddhaweekly.com/buddhism-has-nothing-to-do-with-nihilism-and-everything-to-do-with-experiencing-why-emptiness-and-nothingness-are-poor-translations-of-shunyata/

@OBEler @Leo Gura Thank you very much. I honestly don't know yet. I'm still integrating the experience. But it has made a very positive impact. Here are some notes from today. Post Trip: Seeing reality from this new lens made me cry tears of Joy a couple times. I broke up in tears multiple times today, reminiscing the experience from yesterday. How profound and intimate it was.. My God. Looking at the sky and seeing the beauty of this creation makes me feel ways I can't explain. I may be the only being at the center of reality and existence, but I don't feel alone one bit. Perhaps it's because I have not had experiences of nothingness and the feeling of being all alone (experiences as I've read), but this life is truly a masterpiece and that feeling of aloneness feels like a bastardization of the truth that I experienced. I know my journey has just started. I just got a little glimpse. I have only scratched the surface. But oh boy does it feel significant. I understand that this consciousness is all that exists, but it feels complete. The world around me may just be an illusion, but it's divinely beautiful. :') I sometimes just kiss my hand in awe and out of Love towards reality. I have always done that but now the love has grown significantly more. It makes my heart melt just writing this. I am grateful for this life experience. It sure is a roller coaster. Truly the best gift. Special thanks to Leo. You have played an important part in my journey.

@Butters imo you are neither. You are nothingness. The perception of being the witnesser or the doer are both just sensory experiences imo

He seems to be very wrong. Absolute Infinity could include finitude. It seems to be more fundamental than even nothingness. And you can conceive of a substance you wouldn't be able to pattern-recognize as either nothingness or somethingness, it would be "something else". And you could imagine infinite of these substances and different combinations and interactions or equivalents of interactions. But like, maybe Undefinable Nameless Unnameable is a better term?

It might do you well to try to strawman your awakenings and debunk them and steelman other perspectives. Because I remember in preschool after having seen a galaxy puzzle gazing off into my daydream of a black void, trying to figure out what there is when you go back in time, why that exists, why that exists, why that exists, the insanity that anything exists at all. It turns out the explanation is the existence of the Absolute, and Absolute Infinity, and you can have awakenings of what your consciousness can do, but then trying to strawman them by contextualizing them in the context of scientific materialism or Tom Campbell can have interesting effects. Like the eternity experience is not eternity, it's just a "virtual reality" with a much slower or much faster speed being fed through the computer to create the illusion for the dumb human consciousness that reality has an infinite explanation, when such explanation was never necessary and finite explanation may be all that is necessary. There's the problem with stuff like scientific materialism where it turns reality into parts or a system, and then uses parts or a system to explain the parts or a system without explaining why that stuff exists. Same with Tom Campbell. The absolute nature of reality can appear to fit itself down into the perception of these systems. Reality is able to infinitely run away from itself, and create finitude and debunk the existence of infinity, AND REALLY DO IT, if it's going to properly have the power of infinity. But then the causality or acausality of that can get confusing. From what we've previously known, the moment ten years ago and the moment now should be able to interact or have some connection by infinity or a nothingness that is in both of them, BUT that nothingness may just be another limited thing with Absolutely no relation to the previous moment. Previous understanding is that when you realize nothingness you are just discovering something that was true the whole time, and YET it can be absolutely conceived that ACTUALLY the finite perception was true and required no nothingness. Paradoxes like this. It's not just drugs that cause a temporary infinite increase of consciousness we can't explain though. We can't explain the causality of anything really. After living in the physical world for a long time there's an illusion that you understand why things and objects have motion and color the way they do in the environment the way they do, but this is mostly just pattern recognition of a process we aren't controlling or understanding, since the stream of sensations seems to be fed to us. Like feel like we "know" why we see water when we look at an ocean, but it's just pattern recognition of a complex process of the pixels of color and frames per second of shapes one moment then motioning over to another where we don't directly control or grasp the whole mechanics of this, and why putting your fingers in the water generates a different field of tactile sensations that correlates with a complex nervous system in the fingers is lost on us even as though we may have a scientific understanding of two hydrogen atoms and one oxygen atom forming water, we don't know why that process has an appearance of being water as we know it in our visual field with the quality of "blueness". Or if atoms always existed and were discovered or were "invented" by the universe to explain what happens when you look that small. Are abstractions real and infinitely connected to all parts of reality on a continuum, or are they evolutionarily generated/imagined as subtle structures by the mind disconnected from the past that existed before? If your question of the drug is a relative question, it's difficult like all relative questions of any scale seem to be. If it's an absolute question you're just asking why anything exists at all, which is a question that can merge with the relative of why any relative system exists at all inasmuch as it is part of the absolute. But then water for instance is not merely so much oxygen and hydrogen put together---the combination is simply a backstory for enabling the sight of a new thing called water and what that new thing really is is quite another matter, to what degree that it exists as a single line independent of other relative systems or is infinitely caused by infinite finite systems or finite infinite systems. It's a mystery of perception or a not-mystery if we allow the finite room to exist and just say that's how it is. From a sort of absolute perspective everything will happen and in reality systems far more bizarre than this human pattern one, so yeah, being in a normal ordinary human state, smoking a drug one day, and then having a literally infinite increase in consciousness---it's statistically unlikely to happen, like infinitely unlikely, but this is accounted for by the absolute, by the relative it does suggest some kind of relative intelligent design. Fine tuning argument. But from the perspective of infinite relativity being real there are infinite relative causalities at all levels flowing/streaming into the circumstances of the drug experience, infinite planes of existence. When you see water that's just the infinite water plane connecting to the infinite awareness you are. When you go to the 5-MeO space that's a plane that has a connection to this one. OR, Tom Campbell is right, in which case drug experiences are just a data feed. Like Mario eating a mushroom.

In Leo’s “Absolute Infinity Demo” (blog Nov. 29, 2017), the white sheet of paper which represents infinity is exactly equivalent to George Spencer-Brown’s “unmarked state,” from his 1969 mathematical text Laws of Form. This is interesting because John C. Lilly, who invented the flotation tank and tripped hard on acid and K in there amongst his dolphins, was using Laws of Form as his “guidebook to other universes” (cf. The Dyadic Cyclone). The key difference is that Spencer-Brown’s “unmarked state” is the context for “the first distinction,” which truly is the one and only distinction and all the “forms” of Laws of Form are exactly forms of the *indication* of the first distinction. Forms are thus the emptiness of the unmarked state, interdependent arising (pratityasamutpada) in the unmarked state. The first distinction is also something profoundly present in the ultimate structure of reality on Leo’s account: the Singularity! The potential connections here are quite rich because Laws of Form was hugely influential upon cybernetics and systems theory, and continues to be influential today in math and interdisciplinary arts and sciences (Distinction: Journal of Form, The Spencer-Brown Society, Laws of Form conferences, etc.). Spencer-Brown was fully enlightened, was the Buddha Tathagata, was on lots of acid (was a hypnotist and psychotherapist, close friend of R. D. Laing) which undoubtedly afforded purification of consciousness and even complete breakthrough to the realization of nothingness. The “unmarked state” is the white light, is Enlightenment, is nothingness, is the Absolute Infinite Ultimate Reality, is God. This is a perfect cross-over with Leo’s vision! The “first distinction “ is not a static entity but the crossing-point of transcendence: it is the absolute cosmological singularity of creation from nothing, from absolutely everything. It is the ever-present origin (Gebser’s, of course, but also the phenomenological-ontological Urbewegung or Urdynamik of the great scientist and theosophical mystic Hedwig Conrad-Martius), and it is the Pure Self-Referebce that is the Spirit, Penultimate Reality. It is also the point at which the pen strikes the page in the book in which all things are written. It is also the magic point of the purple crayon in Harold and the Purple Crayon, or the magic marker of Spencer-Brown’s “marked state.” The unmarked state is the nothing, the Absolute Infinite Ultimate Reality, and it is the “page of assertion” in Peirce’s Existential Graphs (though Peirce’s metaphysics doesn’t have sufficient architectonic analogues, despite being “ceno-Pythagorean”). The point is there are so so many parallels in the convergence upon truth, in the increasingly integrated integral philosophy-as-integration, which is such a powerful resource for the advancement of metaphysical science ascending through infinity! With Leo leading the way of astonishing insights thanks to the power of that glorious divine reference-experience that is pure consciousness, integration with the mathesis universalis et scientia naturalis perennis is an opening aperture of spirit in an world that will profoundly benefit from the ultimate paradigmatic revolution that the Absolute Infinite grants!

Thinking that concepts can connect you to the beauty of God is a deep trap of the egoic mind. God is beyond all concepts, and that is also where enlightenment is. It's a beauty to behold the lengths to which the ego goes to avoid being in Silence because it knows that if it truly understands its own inadequacy, it will soon disappear into the nothingness from which it came. And Leo does not want to disappear - he still gets a lot of juice from the concept of Leo, the wise one, the conceptual identity of the amazing intellectual teacher of metaphysics. Who is Leo without his pride in his metaphysics? Nothing. Back to God -- when you try to conceptualize God, you are trying to put something abstract, perfect, and infinite into symbols (words and thoughts) that are limited, specific, and just overall imperfect. As a result, you end up with a lot of inaccuracies, as most of Leo's content about God and the metaphysics of life is. But he will never admit that a lot of his teachings are inaccurate because his whole identity is built upon him being right in his metaphysical understanding. If he truly understood - if he clearly saw that he was wrong - that would be a huge hit to his ego, and he would do anything to protect himself against that. If you are truly enlightened and live from Silence, you don't become an anti-vax Trump voter -- you now operate from a place of intuitive knowing -- and from that place, you know that nothing here is real and nothing matters -- why worry who runs the world or what effect vaccines have --- it's all a meaningless dream of your own creation. In fact, being identified with a conceptual identity is what creates physical ailments -- that's why Leo is so ridden with diseases and finds no cure - because the disease is himself as Leo -- Leo has to disappear for the disease to go away. Silence is what heals. Medicine of the dream only provides temporary relief from symptoms, which eventually come back anyway. He is stuck in the dream trying to figure out why the dream characters act the way they do; he judges them and calls them stupid, thus cementing himself as a conceptual entity. Who is the stupid one - Donald Trump or a dreamer of the dream who judges the characters he himself is dreaming? Haha. Leo knows intellectually that this is a dream but makes it real to himself psychologically by judging it, going deep into politics, and so on, as though any of this actually matters. Imagine how foolish it is to be dreaming a dream at night and to be so engrossed in politics and other unreal things created by your dreaming mind that you have no actual connection to your divine nature, which is pure Silence. See how this type of thinking is a level higher than anything Leo ever writes? Not that it matters what a non-existant dream entity called Leo does and thinks, but it's helpful to see the traps the mind gets you into.

My Philosophy Section 1: Cosmology & Ontology Ground of Being (Part 1) Before anything, or anything in particular, rather, such as space and time, there already is a presence. Before everything, before reality, before illusion, or even meaning itself, there is this presence. The presence is irreducible; the presence is unquantifiable. It cannot be divided nor can it be multiplied. Nothing can be added upon it and nothing can be subtracted from it. There is nothing to compare this presence with, and there is almost nothing that can be said about it. Nothing, save for this: the presence is absolute. This presence is not nothingness. This presence is not emptiness. Rather, this presence is wholeness itself. This presence is completeness itself. But what is it that is so whole that it can be described as "wholeness itself"? What can be so complete that it is described as "completeness itself"? The Eternal Primordial Current (Part 2) Beyond the apparent dynamism, beyond the constant change of experiences as well as the experience of change itself — the change of environments, the changing space-time and the bodies occupying the space-time, and the changing states of matter — beyond all this apparent change is an unchanging flow. There is a flow. It is not a flow of any real movement or change, no. It is, rather, a flow of continuity, like a circle — a perfect circle if I may add. This is the presence I mentioned earlier. But what is it? What exactly continues, or flows, unchanging and unstopping ? What is the primordial current, and why is it eternal? It is the flow of awareness — pure awareness. Yes. How is .. or why call it pure? Because on the ground of being, on the absolute level of all of reality, there is only one beingness. Thus, any awareness that can be (and is) present on such a level plane of existence, well, it can only ever be a self-awareness — a total self-awareness — as there is literally nothing else but being itself to be aware of. And so I call this total awareness pure because in truth it is pure. It is pure because it is the only true awareness that there is at the ground of being. It is pure because it is self-awareness or self-referential awareness, if you will. One may even call it, as I personally do, the total awareness of truth. Truth is simply that which is the case, and what could be the case at the ground of being if not the Sein — beingness itself. This is why it is eternal, because there is nothing outside of it that can change it. The flow, not of change or movement, but of continuity, is the truth itself (unopposed and unchallengeable). Knowledge as the Primordial Current (Part 3) In your life, what is it that you've known or otherwise continue to know, that is neither concept (our sole idea of what something is) or percept (how we perceive something is), and is actually based on direct awareness and understanding? I'll make the question even more fair. What is it, in your entire existence, that you've known or still do know, if not your very capacity to know? Think about it. The only true knowledge you have is the knowledge of knowledge itself. This is what you know, that there is a knowing going on. There is no particular knower during this knowing, hence it is a circle, hence it is a flow. Self-awareness is the only true and timeless knowledge that there is. I say self awareness because the awareness itself is self-referential — it knows nothing other than itself, other than it knows. to be continued ...

All of that won't help you either . You underestimate how serious death is . This fear of death is the key to all of your deep metaphysical fears you have like fear of annihilation or permanente nothingness ..fear of hell ..fear of non-existence etc. And what's worse is two facts : 1-nobody has ever died and came back to report back to us what comes after death. (I don't care about NDEs .I had one myself . I was about to die drwoning in the sea .) 2-you can only know what death is by actually dying.

Unfathomable. In the face of cosmic emptiness vast, We tremble, our existence unsurpassed By the sheer weight of all unknown, Eternity's silence, cold as stone. Yet in this void, a whisper calls, Echoing through time's endless halls. Surrender, it breathes, let go, release, And find in nothingness, infinite peace. The universe's maw, once terrifying, Now beckons with a love undying. In its depths, beyond mortal fear, Lies bliss so pure, so crystal clear. As we fall into the endless night, We're bathed in strange, ethereal light. Our essence merges with all that is, In cosmic union, eternal bliss. Here, in the heart of oblivion, We find a friendship beyond dominion. The stars, the void, the cosmic sea, All whisper: "You are part of me." Time loses meaning, death its sting, As we become one with everything. Immortality not in flesh, but soul, Merged with the universe, vast and whole. The terror of our insignificance Transforms to joy, to reverence. For in this endless, timeless space, We find love's purest, deepest grace. So let us dive into the unknown, Where seeds of cosmic truth are sown. For in surrender, we shall find The boundless bliss of the infinite mind.

I had god realisation without drugs. It wasn’t even in relation to spiritual practice. It just happened one day during a deep dive enquiry into what I was cause I was trying to omit bias from my observation. My entire reality dissapeared including my body and sense of self. I still had the ability to question the singularity I found myself in which was beyond consciousness ( god) it was a singularity of awareness ( source) before god ( consciousness or knowing created itself by awareness turning back on itself making a self reference) it explored this formless and boundless singularity before recognising itself and remembering it was god. The shock shot me back into reality, body, self identity and left me speechless as a debunked atheist sitting in a chair wondering wtf just happened. I’d never heard of a psychedelic. I subsiquently did psychedelics to contrast the experience and with the exception of the buzzing energy, it was the same ( 5MeO) formless infinity before anything at all. I found myself using psychedelics to chase states of ecstacy because I knew how to move the mind to get there. I had already remembered being that which is, so never had a bad trip nor did I ever really have visuals or any of the journeys people describe. It’s mostly all formless in a realm of ideas before they are fractured and built up. But I was not doing it off my own efforts as a fractal of consciousness. It was the substance. I cut it way back and started disciplining my mind instead, right back to the very thought of dissolving the self being an inhibiting factor to dissolution. I did one marijuana ceremony where I dissolved all belief so much I couldn’t get back to reality until I recreated it all from scratch. I gained a more comprehensive understanding as a human of how I as consciousness was imagining everything into existence and was holding it there by believing it was real… self deception. Very tricky. I went off all psychedelics and substance including coffee and alchohol or psychoactive stimulant to try and become more acutely sensitive to mentation. On four occasions at work I lost the belief of reality and it dissolved into the singularity. To others back in the reality, that looked like the body fainting unconscious. The body was taking place in the others perspective. My perspective dissolved and joined back with the totology or source awareness. Black/white nothingness. I don’t have much to learn in that state anymore so I now create relative preferences from which to experience life. I don’t judge others nor do I feel emotional reaction to judgment of opinion from others much anymore. It’s just life living itself. That doesn’t mean that my little personality doesn’t create boundaries. At some point its perception of its own form in relation to another form has a distinction but it’s for the purpose of experiencing reality (relativity), not placing itself in a moral high ground. there are many stories and narratives to be explored here, including the varying states of consciousness itself and the realms one can go into. Removing one’s self from the senses and ceasing all movement of the mind goes back to the singularity but there is always another world and ego that forms. It seems that is what the mind does. Creates worlds to experience. ive woken up in realms I could have mistaken myself for having taken mushrooms or dmt. I’ve had a few 5MeO white light happenings. I’ve had one completely conscious out of body or ‘reality shift’ intentionally from start to finish and it was that experience that proved to me there’s nothing but awareness experiencing consciousness in a dream. I don’t control where I go but I know the frequency at which it happens diminishes when I stop routinely disciplining the mind. This last year I have done nothing at all and even my dreams have diminished. Only recently going back to quiet practice, has it started happening again. it depends how engrossed in the belief of the reality I guess but my being learns these things by contrasting between and making distinctions…

@Leo Gura Here's the problem I'm having. It may very well be the case (according to the problem I'm having) that mechanical intelligence and stuff dealing with thinking of mechanical stuff with a particular concreteness of thought is more accomplishing than, say, something which is infinitely more complex but less dense as a unit (such as Nothingness or other abstract planes). For example I could experience electrical bliss and ecstasy in the body and see into other realms which are very complex and have real overlap with this reality, and there's apparent infinite intelligence there, and I could get everything I've ever wanted. But I still may have issue understanding how bridges are built. On the face of it this could be terrible advice. Most of your fantasies ideally wouldn't be consigned to fantasy, they would be acted on.

Gura's new course revealed : A cutting edge brand-new course on how not to create a course. Possible name for the course: a higher perspective on nothingness of the course

This was the first time I had a direct experience of something - or rather, nothing - as a result of one of Leo's videos (in this case it was 'Why is there something rather than nothing?' if anyone is interested). At least one as potent and instantaneously eye-opening as this one. As I contemplated the concept of 'nothing' and the concept of everything being nothing, something suddenly clicked in my brain and I could see it. It is tricky to explain how it appeared to me but I will make an attempt so that someone else may share my experience, too. Instead of seeing 'nothing' as some separate realm, something completely oppositional and removed from what we are experiencing right now, instead consider it as an element of it. Since nothing is comprised of literally nothing, and since non-existence does not exist, one can see that this nothingness, this non existence, is boundless and is everywhere. Since it doesn't exist, it doesn't have a form or a destination or anything to it whatsoever. It is silky dark matter without a jar to contain it, it is ever-permeating and flows like a snap of the fingers, like water, like a black hole, like none of these things but these are the mental images that the feeling of it conjures up in me so follow this feeling with me if you tend to understand things more intuitively. It is everywhere because it is a complete and total opposite, untouchable and unmovable because to touch or to move it is to change it into a component of something. I hope this has made sense! I do not know if it did, as it is something that makes a lot more sense once you 'see' it for yourself. I am also sharing this because this realization has brought me a lot of peace. Directly before this happened, I was going through what could be referred to as an existential crisis of sorts, a sudden and extreme fear of death that I had not felt since childhood. However, after this realization struck me, although I did not immediately understand why, I immediately knew that my problem had been solved and that there was nothing to worry about. Nothing cannot touch you, it has already touched you, it is already encapsulating you and because of this you will always be safe from it. It isn't scary because I know now what it is. It has been here the whole time.

while i agree that its inherent for the mind to fill in gaps, some stories tend to enforce more imagination than others. if i tell you to imagine infinite goodness, eternal love beauty and bliss, you will have all sorts of ideas of what that would be like. if i tell you to imagine absolute Nothingness on the other hand, well.. i agree

In the end — it’s all about falling so deeply in love with silence that all the noise of the world and of the mind fades away into nothingness from which it came and we re-awaken to our silent glory forever and ever. You are being very patient with the princess expressing her lack of silence, and without silence there is no wisdom. Good job ☺️🙏

So you value more locked states of consciousness more than peak states? Although I don't see how stillness/emptiness/nothingness is always present and not subject to temporality? It's not like consciousness which can be always spotted and present, which is life itself. What is your present experience right now? could you tell me honestly?

I don't. Infinite, consciousness or any experience is the gift of the Truth, however it is temporary. However, Stillness, emptiness and Nothingness is what We really are. Our true nature.