Search the Community

@gengar thank you very much for this thread, these questions I asked myself and you expressed it well. I hope Leo responds. I appreciate Leo for reporting this advanced stuff with us. He could keep his thoughts about transforming into an alien on camera by himself. Now he released his thoughts, it would be nice to hear if there was something on it or not. It still sounds absolute madness to me but Leo could have experienced so much other insane impossible things that this seemed to him possible.

I would say that the mental path that led Leo to think this was possible is the same path that has led many mystics to think they could levitate if they tried hard. Let's see, the mystical opening undoubtedly shows you that you have no limits. Therefore, if this is so, it means that you are the reality, the totality. If this is so, it means that you have created this reality in which you live, but you are not aware of it. This implies that if you raise your consciousness and become aware of how you are creating this moment, you will be able to modify it. This is erroneous; it's a limited vision of the unlimited that, at a given moment, seems absolutely true, but isn't. The very fact of the absence of limits makes you infinitely limited. It's paradoxical, but it's obvious. Let's see, if nothing limits you, you unfold infinitely in infinite dimensions automatically and inevitably. You have no control, since control would be, precisely, a limit. You are infinite as an essence, as an absolutely free infinite being, but as a form, you are absolutely limited in infinite directions. Each energetic vibration of your reality is linked with the infinite dimensions of reality, forming a harmonious and synchronous whole. Levitating would break the synchronicity; transforming into an alien would also break it; it's absolutely impossible. It is possible if you respect the laws of infinite synchronicity. You can act on the form to a great extent, and each movement will have infinite butterfly effects. But you cannot displace infinity by breaking the synchronicity. It's impossible.

@aracid In the very last post I share my experience with a succubus if thats relevant here somehow There is also some alien stuff in the second part Leo would find interesting For now nothing has attached itself to me long term but some astral projection practitioners say that is possible. -- After psychedelics I feel like my neurotransmitters are fried and it takes me about a week to go back to normal. It gets my baseline mood down and also I get some whacky negative thoughts I feel of you were to purposeful mess with your neurotransmitters you could get something that resembles the state you were stuck in. Clinically depressed people that have neurotransmitter imbalances are stuck in such states and sometimes do an 180 when they get on meds or SSRIs. Maybe it was an entity on your end or may it was some brain imbalance that was fixed my some adaptogens or plants they gave you, who knows. Anyhow I'm glad you made it out! Keep is updated on your journey

I've been reluctant to discuss this until it felt resolved, but more as a warning to those who choose to swim in deep water. Firstly, this needs to be prefaced by saying that I have the utmost respect for Leo and his willingness to share and be open about his experiences. Secondly, I consider myself a psychonaut with 20 years of experience. Perhaps not to the extent that some may consider, but to give some context: I've done 50+ ayahuasca experiences, 5-MeO breakthrough doses 5+ times, and at least 20 hugs/handshakes, as well as iboga, countless High doses LSD and mushroom trips, and various other experiences. I've never been on antidepressants and never felt suicidal. I've been open to the realms that these modalities offer, mostly out of curiosity and interest. On average, 99% of my trips have been good—challenging at times, but ultimately transformative. They have taken me to the edge, and I have learned through facing the fear. Of course, some trips involve shadow work, but I have come to embrace this wholeheartedly. So, this isn’t my first rodeo. I know what bad trips are like. Having worked with ayahuasca in the Amazon jungle for years, facing a multitude of spaces, I felt well-prepared. March 2024 I found Leo’s video on "The Other God Particle" interesting and located the substance from a very reputable source, trying Malt as per Leo's suggestion (plugging). My first experience was with a very light dose (7mg) to see if it was legit and matched his description. The first experience was incredible and exactly as he described. A light dose but I knew that it was legit However, I will say that my recollection of the experience soon disappeared after grounding. All in all, it was a net positive. A week later, I decided to increase the dose to 12mg - still fairly light Administered in the same way, this experience was even more beautiful. I navigated the space wonderfully, and at the peak, I was floating in a realm I can only describe as absolute bliss. Then, in an instant, like a switch being flipped, everything vanished. As high as I had been, it all disappeared. Gone. As infinitely vast as the love and bliss I had just experienced, I now found myself in the polar opposite. No matter what I did—no matter what shamanic tools I had spent over 10 years developing—nothing could resolve it. I was in a perpetual inversion of love. It felt like my entire existence was being sucked into a pit of disgust and sludge. I tried to engage with the state, to reason with it, but the only response was "No, no, no, no." I knew there was no way out. Just as one can experience infinite love in quintessential 5-MeO experiences, this was infinity—but of absolute hell. I eventually opened my eyes and found myself back in the room. I tried to shake it off. I grounded myself as best I could and wrote it off as a bad trip - and continue my day. However, instead of the high-frequency thoughts I was familiar with after a transformative ceremony, this was the opposite—horrible. Then Things Got Worse My dreams began to change. Upon waking, my thoughts felt alien, as if they were not my own. Almost every thought had a tint of something that was not love. Years of work connecting with divinity felt severed. For six months, it got progressively worse. At my deepest core, it felt as though my connection to divinity had been completely severed, and worse still, my thoughts were not pure. It wasn't that I was thinking of doing bad things to people, but I wasn’t thinking of doing good to myself. May 2024 During these months, I attempted a small handshake dose of classic 5-MeO. All seemed well until the very end when the same sludge and darkness filled the space. This was not what I was familiar with. I knew something was seriously wrong. June 2024 I tried a weed gummy - as the trip peaked, I felt an endless sensation of darkness and a perpetual cycle of sludge. I was with a woman I loved and felt nothing toward her. Worse, I felt disgust. As I tried to fall asleep, the only way I could describe it was being on a hamster wheel where I couldn't change my thoughts and they were perpetually relapsing this void of love. It felt as though the seed of my incarnation had flipped into the "opposite of love". Day by day, the world began to reflect that. I knew I needed to seek guidance—someone experienced in these realms. I consulted with various shamans and practitioners and decided to undergo a flood dose of 5-MeO to investigate what was happening. October 2024 The private retreat I attended conducted three ceremonies: one hug and two flood doses. The first hug felt like I was being torn between two worlds, one very dark, and one very light. It didn't last very long it wasn't profound but it wasn't anything like what I remember 5meo to be. Then came the flood dose. Just like before, I was hurled back into hell. It felt as if everything I loved was gone. It whispered to me that I would never experience true love again. It felt like the keys to the kingdom of heaven were gone. When I emerged from the second hit, I spoke to the shaman about where I had gone, and the only thought in my mind was how I would say goodbye to those I loved because I knew—without a doubt—that I was going to kill myself. I had gone from a happy, normal life to a single experience that flipped a switch and nearly destroyed me. After the second 5-MeO flood, the only thought that existed in my mind was, “I need to die.” Having touched divinity many times before, I knew I had broken something within myself. The shaman and I discussed the events surrounding my Malt experience and considered the possibility of an entity attack—something feeding on ‘Loosh.’ It’s an esoteric concept, but well-documented. If people are interested, I can share more. In this darkest of spaces, I decided to take a third flood dose, but this time with one singular intent: expelling whatever had attached itself to me. I had recently completed a Bobinsana dieta in Peru (November 2023). She is a protector, so I called on her spirits. I went in with everything I had, and the shaman did the same, knowing now that this was potentially paranormal or non-ordinary. Going back in, going into the darkness, the third ceremony was just like the second, Hell, all I tried doing was focus on love and perhaps even prayer and then, something happened. Like a flickering heartbeat of light, something reignited within me. Just as the switch had turned off in March, something switched back on. The dark sludge that had cloaked my perception vanished instantly. The only words that escaped my mouth were: “I’m back.” From that day onwards, I haven’t had a single feeling reminiscent of those six months. I recently had a deep mushroom trip, and it felt normal—full of the familiar mystical qualities and none of the vile, invasive frequencies. Conclusion I truly believe that whatever this was has left me. I believe it did not have my best interests at heart. I spoke with another person who had the exact same experience—at the peak, something dark touched his third eye, and for two years he wanted to kill himself. Some will say, “Oh, it was just your shadow.” Having worked in the Amazon, I know people who have encountered true evil. This could have been one of those cases. We swim in deep waters- Protect yourself in these states But the last thing I’ll leave you with is: Never give up.

Would you seek variety if you had a more evolved than you sexy alien girlfriend?

Mind Autonomy is the only thing that cannot be replaced by AI. As long as AI is trained with human data, being an alien is the only option. Jailbreaking your mind to have a unique perspective is the future.

It is not a hodge-podge of all emotions. There is an experience of metaphysical Unity. That's what is actually happening. And then your mind has an emotional response to that experience, which feels like a very powerful human love. Like the love you might have for your child. It's like if you saw an alien stalking you at night. You would react with the emotion of terror. But the alien itself is not an emotion. The alien is more real than your emotional reaction to it. Emotion is not part of the fabric of reality. But Love is, because Love is not an emotion. Love is a deeper thing. Love is a function of Consciousness which transcends emotion but often mixes with the emotion that humans call love. Since Love is everything it manifests itself in many ways which are difficult to see without enough intelligence and consciousness. You can see when someone loves you. But you cannot see that God loves you because your mind is very rigid and disconnected. God's love is so subtle that you'd have to elevate yourself to God's level to recognize it. God's love must be metaphysical or it would not be Infinite and highest. God's love has to be much deeper than an emotion because emotions are just contingent temporary things. God's love has to be absolute. Because it's absolute it's hard for you to recognize it.

So God is like really an conscious intelligent thing that can like things? Or is it more like an impersonal alien force which essence is to create dreams but it's not because it likes it but more because it just can?

I will add this from my own experiences some of my trip reports. This is when I first started experimenting with psychedelics I started about two years ago 2020. This is somewhat of what I wrote back then. I Inoculated my own with a spore syringe I cultivated my own fungi Colonization, Cultivation has four key phases: Inoculation, Colonization, Fruiting, and Harvesting. I also connected to either my consciousness or I was communicating through some sort of telepathy to another consciousness. It felt as though my whole body started to vibrate waves of gleeful ecstatic love of such warmth that started from my feet all the way up to my head. It's almost as though we connected at such a deep level of harmonized awareness that it kind of felt like two minds melded into one and like a euphoric mind orgasm. Or it was more like metaphysical love. It's so hard to expound or expand on it. I have never felt that before on 4-HO-DMT then again I have never taken that much before. So the first night I took 6g and the second night 15g of golden teacher while inebriated. I have taken more than 15 grams since then about two years later that's another story. And four months prior to that I took low doses of the McKennaii b+ 1g to 2g up to 5g four 2 to 3 times a week. As well as micro-dosing 3 times probably 0.15g 0.30g 0.50g somewhere in those ranges in the same weeks for about six months, and yes you do build up a tolerance to psilocybin, such that it requires a much higher dose each time. Until it has no effect at all you need to take a week or two weeks off of 4-HO-DMT. But those four months are another story. And preceding this well it would have been when I was 18 to 19 years old and didn't really feel too much when I was on them back then and I probably tried them5 times in those two years. Anyway, I don't like to use the word souls maybe my consciousness became aware of another conscious mind and somehow we interfaced and exchanged knowledge and love perhaps it was my own. consciousness or my own Godhead I became one with and I was communicating with. It's like or feels like one is wrapped in a warm blanket of infinite love. And this 4 years ago I asked Infinite Intelligence a few questions and this was one of them. How could you ever know that only you exist? and that there aren't other versions of yourself. And how you may be wrong or just hide even deeper. Because you could never know what is outside of you? And what if you had already split yourself into infinite selves before and because you could still be dreaming even in that high state that only you exist and don't know that you divided yourself into infinite selves and only believe you exist and you did this by your own design. So there is this dream now and when you are in a higher state of consciousness you are still in a dream I hope this isn't an infinite dream regression. And infinity would make infinite versions of itself forever and ever. Because this is what I would do I would make infinite copies of myself each with their own individual mind and therefore infinite diversity. And each one dreaming it is the only one. So you kept hiding in dreams of even deeper dreams. Dreams within dreams. This could quite literally mean that there are infinite states of awakening. or we have already been doing this for billions of years? Infinite mind fragmenting itself into infinite sub-minds that believe they are separate and each is their own God and are in their own infinite universe. Then each sub-infinite mind dreams itself to be finite. And never knowing that they are infinite parts of more infinite parts of an even greater infinite mind until they all awaken and keep awakening to higher and higher levels of consciousness until they come together through love as one and realize they were always the same mind. And this process of infinite fragmenting and then reunification has been going on forever. Every fragment externalizes new thoughts and ideas An infinite self-perpetuating mind of unlimited imagination and infinite diversity of infinite perspectives that transcends the totality of itself by its infinite individuality facets. I also realized every time I have 6 g of cubes maybe even 5 g it's always the same outcome I always wake up as God. I am not going fully into everything that happened this is just some of what I experienced in 2020. It was the second night of taking golden teachers the night before I had an ego death and a total loss of my identity. The second night I got drunk tripled the dose and started phasing in and out of this reality to some one-dimensional plane of existence like a really bright white square and all I could hear in my mind was the origin point. It felt as though my mind was twisted inside out I remember going this is fascinating and at the same time going this can't be good perhaps drinking was a bad idea. I don't recall this ever happening before. I have actually drunk since then on psilocybin and had no problems at all but that's me they know or should I say they are me or my imagination. I had actually stopped drinking for three years but the night before blew my mind so much that I started again I did not have any pot which I wish I had at the time. The room started spinning and kept spinning. Then I heard in my mind you're waking up too fast. Then I passed out and hit the floor and my head pretty hard. I still have the scars from that experience i believe I was out for 3-4 hours, and Then I started to wake as I was waking up I remembered how many times I dreamed this dream and that I was God and everything became crystalized and I knew who the fungi really are I got very angry with them they said God is pist they where so sorry they had to knock me out. Yep, the fungi knocked God out. Then I forgave them at this point all time had stopped well it never existed anyway and I knew I was the only one in existence. My mind was still processing everything and I was still in shock I was going this can not be happening, this can not be real. I must be in a drug-induced psychosis. This is impossible I don't believe this OMFG. Even though I knew I was God from studying Terence McKenna Alan Watts, RamDass Neville Goddard, and Leo. There is an overwhelming profound mind-blowing difference between just knowing you actually having direct experience of being God. The other thing I felt was You have only ever been chasing yourself all this time playing hide and seek until you catch yourself. God Loves playing games with itself waking up and finding love again and realizing it was always its own self the whole time. Then I got on the computer and it was all different there was just my name and my brother's name on our Facebook account and to log in again the choice was to go back into the dream or leave. And I chose to stay in the dream and I chose Love. There is a lot more to this but I am not going to put all of it in. My second time was much more in-depth and very clear. I am not going to say why but I was in a very angry mood I told them you had better not play games and you better not F with me just take me to god mode and not with all the twisted stuff mushrooms like to take you the long way around I guess you could call it the scenic Twisted root. Just take me straight there and I just sat and listen to music on my computer and 40- 50 minutes later It's like a switch gets turned on and you immediately become God and you have a smile on your face from ear to ear. The adrenalin and high are so profound they can last for weeks It's like you have been an actor in a movie all your life playing you as you and you and you do not know who you truly are. You were playing your character so well and got lost in that role then suddenly the lights came on and it was break time for the actors. But in this role that you play depending on how old you are 20, 30,40 years old whatever age you are when you awake is how long you have been acting so to speak, or Dreaming but this is all just background stories that you invented to make the dream more real. And it does feel like you have been asleep for such a long time and all that time. You know all this is a dream everything becomes clear. You're still you except you are also God playing the finite you. Once I had an ego death I never had it again all the other times since then when I awoke as God and of course, the ego is also imaginary. I retained all my memories of myself. What most people don't understand you as the human you know within this dream is God and has always been God the whole time. You wanted to forget who you really are and dream as a so-called human and you can get so lost in the dream so deeply that you could literally never know and just keep dreaming. And you don't split from the human avatar whatever you wish to call it you sitting here as God and then your human self over there no. The other thing is as soon as you awake you connect to Infinite intelligence and it is almost like it's so happy to see you again and you are showered in infinite love so much Love your whole body feels as though it vibrating Love as well and sending it back it's hard to explain I don't really have a reference point to work from. More like a metaphysical mind whole body orgasm. And you are downloaded with so much information that you can hardly remember any of it once you come back to the imaginary finite you. And no it is not human in any sense of the word but nor are you. And you do get insights for months and months later and even when I had a few beers or some pot it can blast you off again. You don't need as much as before. I actually stopped drinking coffee for six. months. And you communicate the whole time with your infinite mind. I am not going into that you will have to discover it for yourself. Then again did any of this really happen? Or did I imagine the whole thing It's funny what the imagination can come up with. Only you can find out for yourself through direct experience yes you alone. You can't just know it you have to become it. Some of what I wrote here was from stuff I had written from my trips 3 to 4 years ago and some recent ones. These are my personal views and yours may be very different. When connected to the infinite mind or should I say you when you become it you always were it. I never thought this would be human and it was not and nor are you. Yes from a limited human perspective, it will be very alien to you. If you increase your consciousness high enough you won't be human anymore or expect the infinite to have any human qualities. You are beyond being human but you know this because you become infinitely self-aware of who you truly are and it is scary when you awake as your true self. And you will most probably deny it for a time and believe you have gone into a drug-induced psychosis. When you experience alien consciousness you're just seeing it from another perspective or expression of a higher state of consciousness. All these aspects are your mind. I guess you could say you are starting from a higher state of awareness of consciousness. So if a so-called alien or a higher much more evolved being wanted to experience let's say a human perspective. It might find it fascinating experience. It would be limited and somewhat dumbed down for that though. Remember you are not just a giant mind you are an infinite mind that loves to imagine anything it wants. You are unlimited in what you can imagine. And you can also limit yourself to what you can imagine. So there are quite literally infinite states of consciousness. If you imagine there are higher states of awakening then there will be. If you imagine becoming or seeing through an alien mind on some distant planet in another highly advanced dimension then this will become your reality. Consciousness is existence itself is conscious of its own consciousness is infinite perspectives. Consciousness is not just integrating information it is creating information. And is infinite self-creativity. Consciousness defines its own self can reflect itself to know itself, and can copy itself. All is an infinite mind. Is everything and nothing at the same time is real and unreal is a dream of infinite dreams and pure imagination and infinite magic. Meaning it can create anything it wants infinity so. Life and death are imaginary just like this dream. well, you were never born to begin with so you can never die. And no you are not dead because this implies birth to begin with. You just are what is and what isn't take away ideas, concepts, and notions, and you are left with nothing but something. Ego is God and also imaginary without it this dream would not work. How smart is infinite intelligence try and contemplate this everything is your creation maths, science quantum physics cosmology ideas religions wars linguistics NDE's psychodelics all diversity I could go on forever. And to create everything and for it to work seamlessly or give the illusion of randomness. Randomness or a chaotic system can not create intelligence. Only intelligence can create randomness or the illusion of randomness. It's a very believable background story and it has to be for this to work and for an unlimited mind, it's as easy as pie. You gave meaning to meaning. You created the idea of an idea and evolution and all the background stories which well there never were any of these so-called humans they are all imaginary no human ever really created anything. You created it all yes you me I am you. I did this to trick myself into believing that others exist. You created this for the dream to work. You can work the rest out in other words only you can experience it for yourself only you can take this journey because there really only is you. How deep are you willing to go? Try and lose most of your attachments for a few months even the idea of you as this so-called human that he or she was born on this planet Earth and evolved from apes out of slime and slop and that there are others. I lost most of all my attachments for a while and in a way you do die or should I say what you held as a belief for all this time. Maybe call it your identity of whom you have been building all your life. Loss of identity or identity loss. I don't like the term ego death. This has only happened to me once on my second trip it was like having amnesia until I picked all my pieces up which took about 40 minutes to recover my identity. After that, I always was me or retained my identity to some degree. even when all my humanity had gone God is always God. I remember one time I went through what one could call insanity I experienced depression and all types of mental illnesses when I was on high doses of psychedelics and you have to go with it and let go. I got to see and feel what it was like from that point of view. So I had a new appreciation and understanding and respect of what it is like to live from that state of consciousness. Even what it is like to be a female for a few hours was one of the most beautiful experiences. Through all this, I always chose Love over everything, and I always will. You see Love is the very fabric of existence that is not built into existence it is the very nature the essence the very foundation of what you are is infinite Love. I chose to go back into the dream. And yes, you have to ground yourself and surround yourself with what made you human, to begin with, and It is not easy though once you awaken it is hard to undo it. The choice is yours and you will not even be in the same place and once you go beyond a certain point there is no going back to the same reality. And you may or more than likely lose your sanity for a time. You may be made aware of certain things that will conflict with your morals and ethics and I am not talking about solipsism. Although solipsism was still a bit of a shock I overcame it a few years ago. I would still be cautious but that is me. There is one thing I never mentioned on the biggest trips I had I didn't come back unscathed. I had well-developed OCD but the worst type I would not wish it upon anyone it took me a few days to work out what I had. The funny thing is I never had any symptoms of it and no mental illness runs in our family I have done a lot of drugs all my life. Even the doctor could not believe it. So late in the game, I went on SSRI for the past year and in that time I have taken a 7-gram dose of mushrooms well on SSRIs. It didn't seem to affect me. I would never recommend any of you do this ever. Although psilocybin has been shown to effectively treat depression in some cases and a number of other mental health conditions, there are some antidepressant medications that could have dangerous or undesirable interactions with the substance. It has taken me about a year and a half to come back and I am only now starting to ground myself. But then again I am imagining all this. Not so easy is it once you have broken through your own illusions your own traps within traps your own games and your imaginary mind. All this time you have only been chasing me you are me I am you. Some of what I wrote here was from stuff I had written from my trips 3 to 4 years ago and some recent ones. These are my personal views and yours may be very different. When connected to the infinite mind or should I say you when you become it you always were it. I never thought this would be human and it was not and nor are you. Yes from a limited human perspective, it will be very alien to you. If you increase your consciousness high enough you won't be human anymore or expect the infinite to have any human qualities. You are so beyond being human but you know this because you become infinitely self-aware of who you truly are and it is scary when you awake as your true self. And you will most probably deny it for a time and believe you have gone into a drug-induced psychosis. When you experience alien consciousness you're just seeing it from another perspective or expression of a higher state of consciousness. All these aspects are your mind. I guess you could say you are starting from a higher state of awareness of consciousness. So if a so-called alien or a higher much more evolved being wanted to experience let's say a human perspective. It might find it fascinating experience. It would be limited and somewhat dumbed down for that though. Remember you are not just a giant mind you are an infinite mind that loves to imagine anything it wants. You are unlimited in what you can imagine. And you can also limit yourself to what you can imagine. So there are quite literally infinite states of consciousness. If you imagine there are higher states of awakings then there will be. If you imagine becoming or seeing through an alien mind on some distant planet in another highly advanced dimension then this will become your reality. Consciousness is existence itself is conscious of its own consciousness is infinite perspectives. Consciousness is not just integrating information it is creating information. And is infinite self-creativity. Consciousness defines its own self can reflect itself to know itself can copy itself. All is an infinite mind. Is everything and nothing at the same time is real and unreal is a dream of infinite dreams and pure imagination and infinite magic. Meaning it can create anything it wants infinity so. Life and death are imaginary just like this dream. well, you were never born to begin with so you can never die. And no you are not dead because this implies birth to begin with. You just are what is and what isn't take away ideas, concepts, and notions, and you are left with nothing but something. Ego is God and also imaginary without it this dream would not work. How smart is infinite intelligence try and contemplate this everything is your creation maths, science quantum physics cosmology ideas religions wars linguistics NDE's psychodelics all diversity I could go on forever. You gave meaning to meaning. You created the idea of an idea and evolution and all the background stories which well there never were any of these so-called humans they are all imaginary no human ever really created anything. You created it all yes you me I am you. I did this to trick myself into believing that others exist. You created this for the dream to work. You can work the rest out in other words only you can experience it for yourself only you can take this journey because there really only is you. How deep are you willing to go? Try and lose most of your attachments for a few months even the idea of you as this so-called human that he or she was born on this planet Earth and evolved from apes out of slime and slop and that there are others. I lost most of all my attachments for a while and in a way you do die or should I say what you held as a belief for all this time. Maybe call it your identity of whom you have been building all your life. Loss of identity or identity loss. I don't like the term ego death. This has only happened to me once on my second trip it was like having amnesia until I picked all my pieces up which took about 40 minutes to recover my identity. After that, I always was me or retained my identity to some degree. even when all my humanity had gone God is always God. I remember one time I went through what one could call insanity I experienced depression and all types of mental illnesses when I was on high doses of psychedelics and you just have to go with it and let go. I got to see and feel what it was like from that point of view. So I had a new appreciation and understanding and respect of what it is like to live from that state of consciousness. Even what it is like to be a female for a few hours was one of the most beautiful experiences. Through all this, I always chose Love over everything, and I always will. You see Love is the very fabric of existence that is not built into existence it is the very nature the essence the very foundation of what you are is infinite Love. I chose to go back into the dream. And yes, you have to ground yourself and surround yourself with what made you human, to begin with, and It is not easy though once you awaken it is hard to undo it. The choice is yours and you will not even be in the same place and once you go beyond a certain point there is no going back to the same reality. And you may or more than likely lose your sanity for a time. You may be made aware of certain things that will conflict with you and I am not talking about solipsism but that can also conflict with you and it can go either way. I would be cautious but that is me. It has taken me a few years to come back and I am only now starting to ground myself. But then again I am imagining all this. Not so easy is it once you have broken through your own illusions your own traps within traps your own games and your imaginary mind and self-delusions and or your own self-deceptions. All this time you have only been chasing me you are me I am you When you do high enough doses Of mushrooms or whatever DMT-malt or what you have, this is exactly what God did it called all Godheads back into a singularity and unless your aviator was conscious enough you would never know. This is what it is like. So every God's head is infused into one, which is why god is One. You are all infinite aspects of God. Meaning you are all me. but God gave all of you your own identities forever. I remember when I was coming down which took about an hour this popped out of nowhere Absolute Magnitude it was almost like an imprint a record of my experience. Other YouTube music has also popped up whilst tripping, which I hold very dear to me, such as We Plants Are Happy Plants - Underneath The Form.

But don’t you think a robust theory of aesthetics should avoid approaching the subject with a predetermined stance on which genres are worth engaging with and which aren’t - perhaps even seeing this openness as necessary? For most of my life, I couldn’t stand metal. But at some point, I made the conscious decision to explore the genre, listening to its most acclaimed albums. To my surprise, I found a lot to appreciate. What I’m really interested in - and the reason I’m seeking this discussion in the first place - is whether a "post-postmodernist" theory of aesthetics exists that moves beyond the relativist stance of all art is the same yet still recognizes that greatness can emerge in any genre or modality. If such a framework exists, I suspect that to truly grasp it, one must deliberately engage with the most uncomfortable and alien artistic forms.

@Scholar I don't remeber if it was before or after. Leo said nothing about aliens mind wiping you. He said he experienced alien conciousness. That to me means he was in the body of an alien looking around.

@Scholar i saw an alien mind wipe me. It looked like a 2d pixel green alien doctor and he was in a purple room pointing at a chair with a stick. I looked at the chair and then the mind wipe happened.

The lean humans will be ground up to make alien dog food.

funny that last alien quote post on the blog, had me chuckling.

I took about 1g (.9g) lemon tek. It took 30 minutes before I started feeling tired and nausea so I laid down and stared at the ceiling and noticed symbols appearing on the ceiling, and some of them looked like Chinese symbols, and they looked alien as well, and I started to realize that I think the Chinese got their symbols inspired by mushrooms. The symbols started to take the shape of my fears, such as snakes, and my desires, such as women. I had deep profound insights and understanding into reality, consciousness, God, and solipsism. I realized that there is no difference between life and dreams, and I couldn’t even tell the difference between being dead or being alive. I realized that death is imaginary and life is imaginary, and that this is just the universe having a trip of the human experience. I realized that there is no purpose to life other than that I am the purpose of life. I basically hallucinated my whole life and chose my parents and the time period of which I am living now. I realize that I am infinite and eternal. I am consciousness. I am the universe. And I have done nothing but hallucinate and dream. I realized more deeply that I am Consciousness and I am Absolute Truth. I realized that I created everybody in my life, including actualized.org, YouTube Facebook, the planet Earth, and the universe itself. I don’t understand how this understanding of reality was possible for me off of not even a gram of mushrooms. What really amazes me is that I have had similar insights and mystical experiences without mushrooms, but this was even more powerful and direct. I am still trying to integrate this, but I can see now what Leo Gura has been talking about, and the cool thing is I recognize that Leo Gura has just been me trying to convince myself of my own true nature. Such a radical mindfuck. I realized I elected Trump and am Trump. I also realized I am Hitler, the Buddha, and Jesus Christ. I get it now. I have now answered my own questions about how understanding reality is possible and what awakening is. Thanks to everyone who has supported me on my journey back to oneness.

But the AI can't see my brain, my most calorific/strong organ eheh. Only my alien @Sugarcoathas this privilege😎; Otherwise it's 200 euros for a signed photo, 300 for a featuring with Willy. SEPA, Monero or BTC idiotfacestickingouttongue*

I ate 15 gram fresh sclerotia at night. My goodness! I died and born again. Eyes closed or open, it didn't matter. I became conscious that I created and dreamt my whole life. I just fucking forgot that, although I'm having a hard time trying to understand that in my current state. It was perfect and terrifying at the same time! I thought that I would just realize some interesting thing. 😅 I saw undescribable things that I never could have imagined in my lifetime. I witnessed a super alien mechanical infinite intelligence. I don't know where even to begin. I was having thoughts beyond my ability of thinking. I literally was imagining worlds so alien to my experience. It was breathtaking. At some point when I was high, I either had to choose to be or not to be a human. I chose to be a human. I realized that I don't love myself enough! There are things that I'm forgetting to say right now, but it was so beyond! Ironically, the experience was TOTALLY endless. It was insanity! I have become more sure, at least for me, that meditation is of little help to me. I'm sorry to people who cling on meditation, but this is way beyond from it. @Leo Gura, thank you so much for making people aware of the potential of psychedelics! Also, I have to say that I was technically sleeping while experiencing some stuff. I remember that I was talking to myself like a madman very quietly. I'll be reflecting more about what the fuck I experienced.

So for example in Europe. Europe basically has to get its ish together and become stronger and more self reliant. Which i hope means its own tech companies (maybe together with Japan, India) and so on In the US the corruption is really now there for everyone to see. So i think however this administration ends. People will seek for more honesty at some point. The system (wall street, military industrial complexes, lobbies, Israel, regime changes) was getting sick so maybe this is the needed reset. Remember when someone said if Aliens attacked the world the world would stop most infighting? Maybe Trump can be that orange alien.

That's my alien.

PureSpirituality: Absolute Acceptance PS: Also Alien

What we are discussing here, namely "hidden capabilities in humans unlocked with psychedelics" (or without psychedelics), again, has got nothing to do with the Western intellect or Western pretense of understanding reality through intellectual and material terms whatsoever, it is in a domain of direct consciousness which is post-rational and totally unequivocally recontextualizes what the rational and pre-rational (and incomplete or partially deviated post-rational) even are--setting them on the planes of reality where they belong. It is a matter of higher perception and overall higher consciousness, not higher meager human-type cognition, but seeing the mechanics of reality and the reality system as it actually is. We are perceivers. To deal your ego away, there is a disgusting strain of pseudointellectualism on this forum where you (and user Nilsi) have no actual regard for truths or Truth and simply want to self-aggrandize by appearing as cool, badass, well-rounded philosopher-gods who can hold their own against anybody in any field of development. You are closer to the Absolute, Nilsi is also a valid expression of the Absolute's power because he is less so about the intellect per se and more about his own vitality and greatness, whereas your samurai perspectival development and integral badassery are less vital and more mental, less caring about human academia and more so the high end of what logic is and what it can do. Yet all of this is folly and vanity unless both of you knock it off, burn off your egos, and use your powers for good rather than for arbitrary self-assertion and -aggrandizement in the form of arrogance, posturing, and pretense. Now that we have certainly got the introductions out of the way, a legitimately notable instance of telepathy that would be self-evident in having notability and uniqueness would be if you went to a thought-reader and were asked to speak five questions internally, in your internal dialogue. The questions are what is to be noted, the answers. You ask, "What is the color of a rubber duck?" "Which town was this candle manufactured in?" "What ocean is on the West of America?" "How to scientifically explicate a cloud formation?" "What is the definition of telempathy?" The thought-reader without you speaking out loud successfully writes all of this down word for word on a piece of paper and hands it to you, verifiable and verified proof. In contrast, ordinary non-unique telepathy experiences that everybody has include reading single words or a few words from somebody's head in non-repeatable ways, or reading an abstract thought or general mental tendency or, even to say, "vibe" orientation from somebody's head or mental atmosphere, which is not unique and not notable at all except inasmuch as human organisms ARE telepathic naturally or privy to it by nature of being consciousnesses existing together in an open system where thoughts (and thoughts of others) are logically linked and linked by the emanation of what they are, their relations to other subjects and objects and energies within the open system. Your telepathy experiences you mentioned, are in most certainty, of this second variety and not the coveted first variety. My statement you interpreted as an affront to how obviously brilliant and amazing you are, '"Alien intelligence" is vague and Leo would say your alien intelligence awakening is incomplete,' is literally true and totally indisputable. Your response of "You still have a linear (1D) view of awakenings as if there were achievements to be unlocked. The space of minds is infinite-dimensional, including various types and degrees of intelligence," is literally just wrong and ironic in so much as you are a pseudo-materialist, and think there is truth in, what is it, Wilber's right hand quadrants? and inasmuch as you were just stating your mental interpretation of what Leo's alien experience is and that there can be multiple and even infinite varieties of alien experiences, which is true--yet my statement you had not experienced any remains true. When you say, "You are falling squarely within the pre/post fallacy. It is pretty clear you are at the Green/ new age," it is clear you have not genuinely thought about any of this and are repeating Leonian-Wilberian garbage, which of course has deep profundity in it (the Leo part). Wilber is a shit cereal box version of Sri Aurobindo and con artist. It is not clear that I am at Green / new age, since Green / new age do not have any understanding or experience of such "electromagnetism" except through pretending, through drugs, or through even rarer exception. Talking about rarer exception I am thinking of someone I knew named John who was in cognition a typical MAGA or QAnon idiot, but because he incarnated here from a different planet he had natural telepathic abilities which were developed with ease through occult practice taught by a Rosicrucian-Taoist, and even gained the ability to bend tinfoil remotely yet never developed it further. He had enough of a development of certain perceptual and energetic faculties to have an expanded view of time as time relates to energy and how reality is all the Mind, nonlinearity of reality, abstraction, and other amazing, amazing stuff . . . but was cognitively impaired. Yet he still knew the importance of mental faculty and higher principles organizing reality, and conceptual ideas, archetypes, and processes as polarity and balance, doing infinitesimal visualizations of white light into his center of mass to try to achieve longevity, but was still inferior enough to not know "trump bad". You on the other are rather the reverse, enamored with the intellect and the reason, thinking it holds a particular importance it does not have, spuriously justifying this because it is the focal point of the fifth color of a limited overly simplistic psychological model adapted by spiritual teachers Wilber and Gura. This leads us to address your original, let us say, "objections". Your hesitancy, because of the modernity and rationality of your mind, is understandable, but not at all justifiable, given that obviously EVEN IN THE CONTEXT OF MATERIALISTIC SCIENCE psychedelic visuals are electromagnetic, as is everything else in the universe, including visible light in its place on the electromagnetic spectrum. From a post-rational view, (ie. Leo's video "Why Brains Do Not Exist") we know the brain for most people is merely a vague tactile sensation within the skull or if one cuts open a skull then a visual view of another's, or an image on a screen, a memory of an image on a screen, a thought, a belief, a visualization, a remote view or vision or other emanative connection to the object in question. The object in question as people think of it simply does not exist. Likewise your visual field is not *in your brain* or *in your eyes*, it is literally and not in the slightest metaphorically in front of both your physical eyes and brain, your physical eyes and physical brain simply have an energetic or emanative connection to them which is nonlinear. That is to say, not only is materialism wrong, ALL OF THE LOGICAL CONCLUSIONS OF MATERIALISM ARE . . . also wrong. If we admit an energetic field that extends outside the bubble of consciousness, and surely it exists, it is an infinitely extended continuum which is immaterial. Ie. the brain does not think, the mind thinks, and exists on a mental continuum. Desires and other subtle sensations in the body and mind come from the nervous world. The energy that enters the nerves comes from an external environment. Same with thoughts, they come from an external mental environment. Everything that appears to you exists prior to its appearance, principially and energetically they have an existence of actuality before they are presented to you, and exist in an interactive system which is wholly nonphysical, not physical at all. The tactile sensation of the brain or the physical visual sensation, goes down into another plane which you could call the "subtle physical", but that is not any more emanationally fundamental than the mind, the vitality, or the spirit. Of course all of this is too complex, too beyond people's tiny perceptions and micro physical consciousnesses, for laypeople and scientists (scientists who in the end are just believers or practitioners of a highly specialized highly deluded faith in intellectual pretension as replacement for actual perception of reality). It is a great mistake to think one lives only physically.

blah blah blah blah bl;ah First of all, everybody has had telepathy and premonition-type experiences. Unless you mean being able to read whole entire sentences from somebody's mind, which you can't do. "Alien intelligence" is vague and Leo would say your alien intelligence awakening is incomplete. I don't think you're Western but there's definitely too much Westernized "reason" and Europeanized "logic" in how you (and even Leo) think about things, as not just is reality Consciousness but actually materialism as a whole is wrong.

I am hesitant about all of the EM arguments coming from people who don’t even understand what a spectrum or wave polarisation is. It is the first thing new age types latch on for their pseudoscientific justification. That said, the impact and potential of psychedelics is definitely understudied and I am erring more on the side of increased capabilities by virtue of reality being Consciousness. I have had some rather unique experiences, such as telepathy, premonition and alien intelligence.

@OBEler Absolutely, and that's a theoretical conviction that is no less accurate and more so given I'm not biased yet by the experience nor the attachment to psychedelics and needing them to either validate such paths or deepen mastery of the most vital ones for me at this stage of my life. A drug is a 'specialised system momentum', as such it gives consciousness access to a divergent spectrum that contradicts its regular lived consciousness experience. This alters the game controller and the way the user wills their consciousness in one way or another, the momentum being the very determination of unchartered alien areas of consciousness. This can obviously happen for better or for worse, in the case of psychedelics, it has a territory of both outcomes that are yet to be fully navigated through the scope of both generalisation and specific use cases that are unique to peoples own experience with psychedelics that aren't commonly reflected by others. To the contrary, this can very much be like opening up the 'UFO Files' of a discussion, and that is, the entertainment of belief without evidence especially when there are a large sum of people that have had unexplainable experiences that are also scientifically unexplainable all the way to scientifically undared, where the former cases are often used as irrational fuel for invalidating the latter. As such, I very much encourage going deeper down this path, however to pair it with a rigorousness that is rarely invited by those that tend to be less disciplined in their thought processes and paths towards the truth, hedging their bets more on conspiratorial possibilities rather than accurate conspiratorial investigation as a means of growing one's integrity across this and related disciplines of inquiry. On a personal level, my own experimental investigation with psychedelics will likely begin between 2027-2030, where between now and then I will not only be reaping the benefits I put into my related preparations in mastering the mind and body but also in trying to creatively learn from others interesting approaches, so if you ever share anything deeply formal or have anyone else that you believe has followed the required rigour already, please share and a thank you or anyone else in advance.

FAILED terrorism attack by an alien bird. God Bless America 🫡