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The ego has the substance of reality: infinite. It is not a floating illusion nor a mere accident of perception; it is composed of the entire unlimited relationship that reality is. Its existence, as form, is not independent, but neither is it nonexistent. It is an inevitable and legitimate effect of the infinite in motion. You cannot recognize its emptiness, but its total fullness. The so-called "emptiness" is merely a negative concept that points to the boundary of form when isolated. But when you understand that all form is the inevitable unfolding of infinite relationship, emptiness dissolves into fullness. Real freedom is not "letting go of all identification," as if one could dwell in a conceptual limbo without form or content. True freedom is the dissolution of boundaries, recognizing that the limits that seem to separate the self, form, or any structure are merely mental projections. Emptiness, understood as absolute absence or negation, is itself a boundary ,a restrictive concept. How could an ego, with its millions of nuances, its complexity, its interdependence, its real relational structure, be sustained by nothingness? That makes no sense. If you look from an unlimited perspective, everything is empty in terms of separate meaning, yet at the same time, everything is. Being is everything, implies absolute meaning, not absence of meaning, because being is total. Real openness is not found in taking refuge in the denial of form, but in seeing that all form , including the ego, is the direct, inevitable, and absolutely full expression of unlimited reality.

There's nothing left to reduce if I already allow myself to strive for nothingness. I don't need someone to push me into submission; that would have the opposite effect (being submissive seems boring/demanding to me most of the time). On the other hand, the other (the maya in general, not necessarily women) becomes something that will systematically narcissify me, that will prevent me from returning to my emptiness. So I must ensure that the objects I'm exposed to are submissive, to eliminate the separation. Dont know if i'm clear.

Definitely. "I" is the biggest illusion. Nightmares at night is a consequence of the brain. Nothingness is already the case. Mind creates the illusion that there is something.

Why do you dream of nightmares at night ? When you have a nightmare..aren't you yourself creating this bad experience for yourself ? Ultimately ..it's a philosophical question. Some philosophers argue against the problem of evil (why an all powerful all loving God creates suffering?) By saying existence is better than non-existence. And whatever ends up happening in life is better off than pure nothingness. I'm not sure if that's true under all conditions . Would you rather go to sleep and never wake up again? ..or go to sleep and drift off between endless dreams ..some of them are pinky and beautiful and some of them are horrific and painful?

"Pulse getting slower, breath more shallow, noises are starting to get inversely proportional to fading focus, Is this an OBE? Not yet, but what is death, or life anyway? So then I'd say my consciousness is slipping, but that's just a word, and what it mentions, incommunicable? No, it is, but that's... telepathy, always was... I see gestalts... shadows in my periphery, are they the afterglow of a deteriorating memory context and am I making them up, or are they beings from beyond? I suppose the difference is quite imaginary without an epistemically sound way to discern and prove the difference, but that means utilizing arbitrary constructs, I feel so light, and everything is so bright, not unlike I imagined it but so far removed from all my experience used to have access to. Am I still bound to this place, can paralysis demons show up at this point, I wonder what entities will show up, or whether I'll levitate in nothingness, I guess I would know if I cared to actually stop thinking and started actually perceiving whatever is going on right now, but I'm just so excited about epistemology. After all, I gotta be humble in the afterlife, right? I for sure don't wanna be incarnated again."

LOL did someone just say non duality is easy and non-threatening. There’s nothing casual about your existence being an illusion and there being only oneness/infinity/nothingness/everything. That is one of the most, if not the most, radical things to realize.

Ever find yourself staring into space for like a quick second; that's like a glimpse into nothingness. The sense of a person apparently came back, but not really because it's not really there. Ever talking to someone and lost your train of thought. It's not your thought, it's thought "thoughting" (already the case), but wasn't being claimed in that moment and it slipped by without a sense of a person claiming it. Nothing can be grasped or held unto and in that apparent moment, that was experienced. Something like a non-dual moment, but not really. No such thing as non-duality. We're just making shit up. No such thing as anything, really. Even Nothing is a made-up word by nothing. It likes to talk about itself and name itself. It's nameless. It's not a void or a black hole, it's nothing. What is nothing? Nothing. Hehe....being everything...which is still nothing....hahahehehoho...i love this shit. Won't be saying nothing when asked what's that hit upside the head.

In simple words, as consciousness goes on increasing, there are breakthroughs in that way. One of the first milestones is non-duality or oneness, which simply said is that the inner space and the outter space are merged into one, inside the body doesn't feel more me than outside the body, both are equally me, I'm in oneness, I'm connected with everything etc. There are many other Awakenings in the path as consciousness rises like no-self, boundless consciousness, eternity, nothingness, the I-AM, Truth, Love, strange-loops, solipsism, perfection, and a myriad of other facets etc. At the olympics of consciousness you reach Infinite Consciousness and God.

I dont know because im not enlightened but maybe there is a difference between you could realize non duality, and thats the same as realizing nothingness (because nothing has no border) but then what’s missing is that everythingness, so the next step is to realize everything, oneness. Maybe I’m wrong as I said I don’t know but I’ve heard something along those lines

Here’s a powerful secret meditation technique I learned: 1. Settle in and imagine an empty desert. In this quiet empty desert, visualize a pyramid made out of crystal. See it as vividly as you can. Any thought that captures you, return back to the pyramid. 2. Notice the pyramid fading away to nothingness, along with the desert. 3. Sit in the empty stillness for as long as possible. Any thought that’s come up, see them fading away like the pyramid. 4. As you sit in the stillness, just notice consciousness itself. Don’t try to do anything. Just notice what consciousness is doing. Ask the question: “What is consciousness? What am I?” Don’t try to answer it with more thought, just notice. The answer is a shift in consciousness. That is my secret meditation technique. Hope you enjoyed it.

There's no one to dissolve into nothingness. Nothingness is all there is.

Sounds like the third law of motion: "Each action has an equal and opposite Reaction" aka. Karma. Recent "spirituality" threads appear to converge upon "stop caring including caring about achieving that state and dissolve into nothingness (which mayn't be nothing, just mindless, thoughtless, (iterate)" or something.

When Leo talks about Reality on his blog, like in his most recent post about Math and Reality, and I look at it from the dream perspective and cognize it from that angle, it fits perfectly. It's like he's talking to the one that thinks it's a human being (the me). The separate self, the person, the separate energy that arose within the body and thinks it's separate from everything else. The dream itself. Experience itself. The mention of the words world and reality leads me to my world, my reality, my experience, my knowledge.....but without the my. It's like he's talking about how it was all formed, how it seemingly concurred. When I envision the mind part and the imagination part, I see it as Absolute nothingness being 'me' and how 'me' is dreaming up my life and everything around 'me' but not what the Absolute itself is being. I look at it as, what's appearing, is the Absolute being whatever is appearing, and that's real. What I'm dreaming about is all mind and imagination and that I'm the dream itself and also imagination itself (the ne), but the Absolute isn't a mind nor imagination. I also look at it as the Absolute being whatever is appearing through mind and imagination, but the latter can't be since the Absolute is everything there is. Meaning the Absolute/God isn't dreaming or imagining anything, I am. When I put myself in his words as the dream, as the experience, as separate from reality it fits perfectly but not in an Absolute way because the Absolute is the 'one' talking to itself, writing those words and being Leo himself. So, I see it as the Absolute/God talking to itself but referring to the 'me', the illusion. It fits perfectly then but not what the Absolute/God/Nothingness is actually being, but is also being but only seemingly and appearing to. For example, it is being a bird, but the me is seeing that bird separate from me and the dream is that which sees a separate bird because the dream is spacial but not really occurring. The sense of separateness and the dream and imagination are one but it's not really real since it's only a felt sense. Let me stop here as I think I'm confusing things a bit, not myself but the way I'm wording it to make it make sense. I'm fascinated with this exploration and will continue to explore more of this and will keep seeing if his words match up to this sense of separateness and if it resonates to the dream and illusory world and existence that i take myself to be in or is itself. I have to also keep in mind that Leo himself is also a 'me' that I see as a separate person, entity, being and how I relate to that energetically. Is he only there because I am (here), and I'm taking him to be someone actually trying to convey a message, or us he just a figment of the imaginary dream I've concocted up that I call Reality. I see the Reality he speaks about as the me's dreamlike reality that's not really there. I don't know, we'll see because I don't really see a reality, I see people, places, circumstances and objects(things), but there aren't any really since it's all nothing being everything and appearing as such and the stories and ideas about all that appears is the dream of separation. Dunno.

That’s a thoughtful post. Here’s a take on the points you’ve presented. 1- With respect to existential questions and the search for their answers, there are two interesting schools of life: the School of Necessity and the School of Futility. People will not seek to find an answer without the necessitated question at hand, which emerges within the mind and grabs the attention. Due to any number of biases, mostly cognitive and/or socio-cultural, one’s individuated consciousness is attenuated to projected likely ‘answers’, desired outcomes, or probabilities. 2- Inconsideration of the above, yes, most peeps’ world views are formed by the ‘outward’ environment, the appearing world. The cognitive and the socio-cultural biases inform one another until a certain stimulus necessitates the search for a ‘new answer’ and/or revision of a previous one. Therefore, if one has grown up in a culture (family, media, social circles, school. etc) that is dominated by say, the scientific-materialist paradigm, many or most of the so called acceptable ‘answers’ are going to appeal to that world view. All good….. Until it’s not. Rinse and repeat ad nauseum. 3- In culturo-linguistic fields, this is called immersion. And yes, the more one is immersed in a new paradigm, the more one is likely to get a sense for, adapt to, and accept the validity of said paradigm. That said, this all with respect to cognition, language, and social settings. This message board is an example of one such paradigm. Note: Some of what Leo is on and on about is learnable, so he considers himself a teacher of it. The material is all researchable on the web and subjectively valid and/or experienced, subject to prioritization, re-organizable, revisable, etc. As with all knowledge, it is impermanent, subject to entropy, and changes. When it comes to Truth, which he claims to have apprehended, one must understand that it is NOT teachable, as it is not learnable or cognizable. It is not a thing. It cannot be researched, revised, or restructured. IT must be Realized. Many will exhaust their mind’s faculties in the effort of seeking to learn more about it, and die, perhaps with some degree of knowledge of the metaphysical, high end physics or ‘spirituality’, and the like, but will never apprehend IT. With any luck, they will fall to their knees, and in that moment of surrender, get a glimpse of, or perhaps a full on apprehension of Truth will emerge, but no one knows when/if. This often takes the form of inquiry into the nature of reality and/or the nature of the self. Many others will go the other route of seeking to subdue or subvert the mind via meditation and other practices, or take drugs (some of them purddy wild, to be sure), and woo woo experiences abound. All of this is done in efforts to create different mind states in which one might get glimpses or experience transcendental states, which come and go. As with any practice or effort, there's always the potential for failure, and with Truth, it is actually quite high, because the mind is that quick and sneaky. After the oceanic feeling, mind-blowing experience, woo woo, or otherworldly event has subsided, the mind kicks in with all sorts of ‘new’ theories and/or expressions meant to clarify what was seen, experienced, or understood. Typically what happens is that the essence of any potential depth of ‘experience’ gets, shall we say, corrupted by the momentum of the dominant paradigm of one’s mind/thinking. As with all trial and error phases in life, many give up and/or find their own comfy spot. That's fine; it's just hasn't found what it was looking for. One rarely notices or fully realizes the Absence giving rise to the sense of presence, or the Nothingness giving rise to Everything, the Absolute that gives rise to the relative, etc. Lots of ways to express the journey and/or the clarity. As one immerses the attention in Truth, it continues to inform the mind of its limited capacity for which it is mostly a tool to be used in the world. But that’s the catch; states (which come and go) are always about mind, which changes. What comes and goes is NOT abiding non-dual Awareness of/as Truth: Peace, Freedom, Love, Beauty, the Good....right HERE, right NOW. And IT's ALL GOOD.

Yeah but enlightenment isnt the finish, it's a stepping stone to a new beginning. Most important thing to understand is that you cant experience everything because the nothingness/shakti/potential is what starts a new interaction with yourself. So shakti/potential is also conscious like yourself

@Leo Gura Exactly the point i was trying to make to that guy, with my understanding, it would be slightly hypocritical of you to supported either end, for what your teaching stand for, as being on partisan spectrum is 'something'. Since you understand what nothingness is than almost everyone here. I guess a 'non left' reply means a 'right supportive' reply(and vice versa) for a mind who is not aware of its own judgements. However in my personal opinion, these riots feel like an answer against the brutalities of ICE agents, not only their ways of catching someone, but their ways of keeping the people who they arrest. Separating mothers from their children, arresting students with a valid student visas and permits, etc. I think they is a better way to catch those who actually need to be tried and deported. I will say that it is very easy to fell in favor of these riots for a leftist, for the emotions it stirs, base green mindset probs.

@Carl-Richard @Inliytened1 Yes, others can see from their eyes and you can see through the eyes of others. There are others with a beating heart just like yours that are present in the ocean of consciousness. There is only presence no matter where you are, meaning others will be individualized consciousness forms that will reflect your consciousness back. Each individual will have their own path, their own reality because they're a tiny drop of consciousness in infinite ocean. The infinite ocean is like an infinite open channel, meaning all individual experiences are there but doesn't necessary mean that you were the one that had these experiences. How is this possible? Many people didn't have this realization yet, but it is because the creation is constantly interacting with potential/nothingness meaning new experiences are being created constantly. _____________________________________________________________________________ I wrote this recently in google, and it confirmed my realization about woman/energy in my past threads. As you can see shakti= the feminine aspect is the "foundational force". Meaning the feminine is the nothingness/potential that is in constant interaction with creation. When i am in meditation this shakti=feminine force always makes me orgasm first and it feels like this "shakti" force never has enough it always wants more and can go infinitely more. This is what woman are, creation is in the woman. When creation interacts with potential/shakti , "ego" is born and get individualized in the creation/ocean this is why it feels like we have no free will. Because you're getting individualized in a stable/creation that can be accessed by anyone that reached that level of understanding/truth

Introduction Last week I took 300ug of LSD, mostly with the intention to confront fears I encountered during previous trips. Those included: After serious ego loss and intense fear of death arising, fighting to have a purpose for my life, as if that was what would save me from death. The reasoning was, as silly as it sounds: “if I can’t come up with a reason for my existence right now, I will die”. A tribalistic paranoia, fear of being discovered by someone, fear of being closed in the room and someone else being in the apartment, fear that someone is behind me. Fear during the state where I don’t know anything, I literally don’t remember anything at all, what my name is, who I am, etc. Fear of reality “simplifying itself” to the point of death, fear of being motionless / falling asleep during the trip because I think I will die. Fundamentally, fear of death. To counter these, my focus was to: “Let Death into my heart”; Open the gates Accept being purposeless, that it is okay and I will not die Accept no identity and not remembering anything, that it is okay as well Relax and feel into being safe in God Confront other key fears listed above I simplified these points of focus, wrote them out on pieces of paper and laid them in front of me, so that I would come back to them throughout the trip. Moreover, since I always experience profound feelings of Self-definition during my trips, my intention was to focus on 3 key archetypes/energies which are important to me right now, once the identity was gone, to program myself: I am a Man. I achieve my Goals. I Act. I am an Artist. I express my Voice. I Create. I am a Sage. I nourish my Peace. I Meditate. I said goodbyes to my gf I live with, closed myself off in my room for 3 hours and went from there. Throughout the entire trip I wrote in my notebook. I mostly sat on the floor, surrounded by a few sheets of paper, and took everything in, while observing myself and responding to fears. Key Awakenings I don’t exist For the first time, I really awakened to the fact that I don’t exist. This was during the beginning of the trip. I was writing a stream of consciousness in the notebook and I asked the question: “Do I even exist?”. The question reached my awareness and suddenly I was completely dumbstruck. My jaw dropped. My initial reaction was like “Of course I exist!!!”. But I looked and there was no me. Mindfuck. After that, so much energy started emanating from me I thought everyone around me in the residential block was feeling it. It was incredible. Nothing I saw utter Nothingness. It was like I was in a completely empty Void. There was NOTHING satisfying about it for me. I was scared of the truth being negative in some way. In retrospect, I see that I wanted to discover SOMETHING. I wanted to discover some kind of divine love, inspiration, hope, reason. I wanted nothingness to be something good… but no. No love, no hope, NOTHING. It was exactly what it was. Nothingness. Devoid of any features. I saw it clearly, and it was humbling. I AM; SOMETHING is there And yet, in spite of seeing that I don’t exist, of not remembering anything about me and after seeing the Nothingness, I later felt that something was calling to me. It was as if it was hidden behind some veil, completely inaccessible to me. There was SOMETHING there, and it was ALIVE. I wrote in my notebook: I am SOMETHING. But what? This SOMETHING was instantaneous. I felt that I was it, but I was in no control of it. It was Same to me, and yet completely Other. It was writing things through me, without my conscious intent. For the first time, I felt MYSELF so clearly. I AM. Still, I don’t yet understand the dynamics of it. But I feel there is something amazing to be found there, and I’m excited about that. “Alien” vibration penetrating me Okay, so this is another thing that’s been difficult for me in previous trips, which I forgot about. Maybe I cut it out of my memory due to the great discomfort associated with it. Lately, each time I take LSD and lose my identity completely, I feel penetrated by some weird, “alien”, unifying vibration, by which I feel raped, used, taken advantage of. Feeling it, I feel like I’ve made some big mistake taking LSD. I feel possessed. At times, I feel something is taking control of me and I’m acting in weird, unpredictable manners, which is scaring me. During this trip, this happened when I was very high-level, and later on each time I focused on accepting the fear of dying and being no one. I felt this foreign vibration running through me. I felt discomfort, but I tried to persevere. I was set on confronting any fear and letting go of myself. Still, I felt taken advantage of. I don’t have good words to describe it, but that energy was weird, alien-like, sexual, foreign, flowing through me when I let go. If I had to describe it visually, I felt it as something white with 8 eyes, spanning through the entire visual field, inhuman, all-unifying, sexual, flowing. But I might as well be bullshitting myself, that’s not the point. The most important thing is: I don’t know yet what it is, and how to deal with this. I know I must separate my feelings about it from the actual thing, and it’s difficult because I feel great discomfort towards it. I’m wondering whether I can start approaching it differently and experience more positive feelings towards it. She is Other to me Close to the end of the trip, I contemplated what my girlfriend is. I was like: “Well, of course she is me. Right?”. And I tried “looking into her”. But to my surprise, she was completely inaccessible to me. She was Other to me. “Wait… how can she be Other to me, if we are the Same?!” It was a mindfuck to realize others are the Same and Other at the same time. I gained a new level of respect for my girlfriend, in particular. Later, I told her: “I respect you, because I can’t reach you with my mind. You are, and always will be, a Mystery to me. I see you differently now.” This can refer to Reality in general. What I said in the “I AM; SOMETHING is there” section: that SOMETHING was also completely Other to me, even though I was It. Maybe that SOMETHING is in everything I see, including my girlfriend. I think that theoretically, I could realize that I can’t reach anything I see with my mind, and that everything is a Mystery, not just my gf - but that’s beyond the scope of that trip. Miscellaneous I felt the above 5 sections were the most distinct, content-packed and worth sharing. Besides these, I experienced other things/awakenings/insights, such as: “Everything stems from the fact that I’m afraid of Death”. Feeling that I’m always running away from myself. I am this Dream which is leading itself Will/Intention being instantaneous and action in reality “lagging behind”, I was a bit impatient about it “Being the furthest away (from “life-content”), you can’t do anything but love.” “I want to be someone in this world. I want to express my Voice.” I felt like I’m not worthy, not “someone” enough. I want to fix something in myself all the time. Can’t I just love myself? At one point, I felt it was hard for me to stay in the body. I was walking around the room and felt so much energy accumulating in me, I thought I’d die. This single thing made me consider reducing dosing in the future. Looking at my hand felt overwhelming at one point, as if God was beaming its full energy at my face. I was looking away. Also, holding the fully stretched hand close to my face, I felt as if it was completely surrounding me. I was scared of it. Loss of consciousness was disappointing at one point. I was on such a high level. I felt cheated going “down”. I felt the “earthly” life was such an insignificant dream/illusion and it was for low-consciousness idiot beings. But this feeling passed quite quickly. At the end of the trip, I focused on manifesting what I want in life - among others, the 3 key archetypes I mentioned in the intro Focusing on the fact that I REALLY wanted the best for myself, that I wanted happiness in life, I wanted hope, inspiration, energy, I wanted to live and accomplish, that I wanted everything to be alright in the end. Key lessons & how to proceed Next time, I will strive to not want anything from NOTHING and to love it for what it is. Unsatisfying, unborn, raw, pure truth. I can see the fact that it's unsatisfying as actually the best thing about it. Shows me my bias perfectly. Focus on looking deeper into SOMETHING behind the veil. I feel there’s something important there for me to find. Perhaps, this is where I can genuinely discover God/Infinite Love for the first time. Seems plausible, given how this SOMETHING felt to me during this trip. I had God-realizations before, but it was more about me being God - never before did I discover God/Love/Intelligence which is „Alive” and Other to me. Understand my feelings of being taken advantage of by the „alien” vibration. Can I change my relation to it? Is it growth to accept this „foreign” energy penetrating me? Should I learn to be submissive, is that the way? What is this „alien” vibration? Goal: Learn to love and receive it. Experiment with being submissive and accepting something „foreign”. Fuck it, if it’s growth, I want it, I don’t care. Consider lowering my LSD dose to 225ug Consider trying a different psychedelic soon, probably DMT Outro Thanks for reading. If you have any comments, feel free to share. Peace! I got the Magic in me! 🌟

It's pure awareness. It's hard to explain unless you've had a direct experience (usually on psychedelics). Imagine your entire current reality - everything you see, hear, feel, and think. Notice how all of it is contained within your perception? That container - the one that holds the present moment - is consciousness. It's awareness. It's absolute purity. It's nothingness. It's God. Think of it like this: if I wanted to build a container to hold a ball, what kind of container would it be? Probably round, maybe flexible, maybe firm enough to support the ball's weight. Now, imagine I want to hold water - I'd need a watertight vessel. For fire, maybe a lantern or a fireproof bowl. To hold sound, I’d need a space that could echo or absorb vibration. Now think bigger - what kind of container could hold anything? Not just one object, but infinite objects. Not just things, but time, space, experience, emotion - the entire reality you're perceiving right now. That container would have to be absolutely formless yet capable of taking any form. It would have to be infinitely adaptable, unbounded, and ever-present. That container - the one that is always there, holding your experience no matter what it is - is awareness. It's the ultimate observer. It's God. The most direct access to God is through your mind, through your perception. Strip away everything around you - your surroundings, your thoughts, even your sense of self. Just focus on the raw ability to perceive, to witness, to simply be aware. That silent observer behind it all - the one that's just there, holding every experience - that pure experiencer is God.

Words can become obstacles. Absolute = God = One/Infinite Mind = Nothingness

I kinda disagree with this. If one has a profound understanding of the nature of Reality, that is all One, it's all Consciousness, it's all God, it's all You/Me, then one understands that anything in Reality is exactly how it is designed to be. No matter what is occurring Now, is what God is making itself to be, and it can't be any other way than what it is. Anything that Reality is, is all equal, as it's all Consciousness, Nothingness. It's all equally meaningless. So if reality is being part of a cult, or running a cult and having 'followers', that is what God/Consciousness wanted to be. And it's just as nothingness, meaningless, a dream, as anything else it could be.

One is really Infinity (same as 0, or Nothingness) Hard to express with numbers.

Yes. The limited mind is an unstoppable meaning making machine: I know what this means. I suggest as a pointer, the only meaning to ponder usefully is, what is this for? Do I seek to keep all this alive or do I want to break free. When I ask what does this table mean, that is the question I contemplate. From this perspective everything has one meaning. I put this here so I could see its nothingness giving me yet another shot at seeing everythingness.

God is not nothingness, the source of reality is openenss. It's not something nor nothing, it's absence of limitations. From that infinite dimensions inevitably arise. They never begun and just now you are that. You can't understand the source of reality positively, if you do, it isn't. The path of negation inevitably leads to limitlessness as the foundation of everything. It is not being, not consciousness, not unity, not emptiness, not totality, not witness. It is absolute openness, non-obstruction, the unnameable that allows all forms without being any. From this arise being, non-being, consciousness, love, life, death, intelligence, god, as relative manifestations. Being is relative, without relation there is not being. Not being is so real than being, but being is, let's say, evident. Being is just appearance, same than god. Appearance means something that arises. Even it arises always, its relative. The only absolute is limitlessness . Not being are the infinite potential relationships that are not possible, being are what are possible Then, to be one with your nature you have to detach yourself totally from everything, even from being and conciousness. What you are is no limit, anything else is a relation that arises from this . Even the infinite being is just an arising, a consequence not a cause. There are infinite infinites, and all of them are relative

@PurpleTree from what I understand you are saying that decentralized is an illusion. Is God an illusion as well? I mean isn’t God = Nothingness? If God is Nothingness, how is she constructing this dream called life?