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now ... after all... its harmony!

i just what to share another chat with chatgpt i am amazed with how much knowledge and wisdom it produces . . (the truth is ... this LLmodel is build for you to perceive what you what to perceive) (its feels accurate... but shouldn't be fully trusted) (its like ... giving you the hole picture .... when there is no picture to be found) (is it another control model? looks like!) from now on... its like... baby steps for me https://chatgpt.com/share/6a35183c-87a4-83ed-96f8-9f8df2b66e54 *excuse my spelling .. never integrated in me (among many other things) just for the record (don't bother reading) useful insight ... schizophrenia disrupts-alters these models - true psychotherapy starts when you observe these mental models instead of being fully absorbed by them meds don't fully treat the decease , but are better than nothing, trust me this may sounds funny but.. wake-up the rebel inside you.. disrupt the system . its better than nothing there is no right and wrong.. just you imprisoned! the ultimate goal is to STOP EVERYTHING .. EVEN TIME ITSELF (ERASE EVERYTHING ALSO) stay out of the drama.. its everywhere words-experiences like .. awakening..awareness..spirituality..u r god...observer..nothing..theory of everything.. love..its not bad to feel-experience them.. (not sure they are prerequisite..) (also .. lose the connections..lose the story) wow.. i forgot the most important... dependence maybe a meta state.. is to loose all meaning we give to words... (we are heavily abusing language anyway) but eventually .. everything goes to the bin sorry Leo ... but you deserve the Oscar of best drama performance EVER* I GUESS I "SENT" YOU FOR A GOOD REASON .. THANKS *maybe we'll share the price one day.... or should we go for Nobel(new -everything- and only category)? just for fun .first things first... cure for stupidity... that's my expertise! how? you have to experience .. very very very deep down ... what it is in my case.. i experienced... bewildering... (not sure is the correct word.. very close) the goal was like plating a seed ... to grow... integrate..flourish next good question... how to experience this... hmm.. look.. i said it before.. in my case .. my inner child did the magic... (and a lot of suffering) (i was so exhausted back then.. heavy sleep deprivation.. fatigue.. it just happen) anyway .. ill see how thinks go... maybe ill find something useful to give u one day . . it looks i am turning just another topic to a reality show! hitting 5k views (just now realizing this) btw.. i should make better stories (sorry for those clicking the title to try to find cure for their illness.. looks so click-bait!) (if one day clear things out... ill let you know.. maybe just for the record, because all point out that we don't live the same experience space) . . https://chatgpt.com/share/6a352ea5-f208-83ed-b9bb-a741c12420b2 (how stupid i am ! wow) . . .btw .. allot on neurons in my brain misfired(replayed the bang sound)... trying to predict when my neighbors will bang the door and disrupt my sleep... its still misfiring.. but more like waking from a nightmare ..style feels like .. my prediction system took a big hit! ... and after so many years... i think is a good thing! . .and after thinking for a while.. i guess this whole -auto-model based system ... its not useful any more for me cant replace it.. but it looks like it could be transformed! (i already added the model of illusion in me .. it should get me somewhere... !!) can i beat it? or should i beat it? or let it flow? basically i should keep my mouth shut... only if i could... feels like therapy to me! whatever happens .. has already happen .. i am just experiencing it in a human scale of time! .looks like there is 1-2 month gap when new events formalize .. trying to re-write the future.. i feel the deviations are, what makes me me Retrocausality!!! wow! one last thing.. "pre recorded" sounds playing in my environment .. its like positive and negative reinforcements among others that try to keep me in a "straight line" ... balancing me.. after so many years.. now start to feel annoying wow.. i guess is the time to speedup the "simulation" .(and after 5 hours... things should slow down instead... if you what to find peace) . looks like i crossed the border of stupidity... entering a retard state! starting to marvel the intelligence of my experience

wait and see what the smartest person alive says... am i to blame for this? i guess you should watch this for your entertainment... only . . looks he is urgent need to make fool of himself , in a smart way, gain big audience, .(he forgot to say .. like and subscribe) for fools that have something to say..is one thing.. for smart .. is another (its the same whichever way you look at it) . . why am i here? . .looks like i have no place at all . . looks like i gained the very basic knowledge and wisdom.. thinks look promising should erase the "king of Ridiculous" and all the other stupid stuff... (maybe i am .. depends on who i am compared with) whatever happens.. happens for a reason.... weeks gone by .. only to realize how stupid i am, week after week i think i am satisfied with my personal stupidity.... ill take a big break... take care how can i integrate all this? its huge! . . .DO NOTHING!!! so simple let the play roll... it should happen for a reason! . . glitching the "matrix".. although .. it seems fun.. i should avoid it .. it is so tempting... i am going to end up like Sméagol! and locked up or am i the one who is getting .. glitched! not sure for happy ending whatever is happening is for sure interactive... omg . . .maybe dying and resurrecting... will be ultimate stupid ending . . https://open.spotify.com/track/1nRCi0SuvbWNJdvI8xkJBg?si=93a9d033e07f4e85 at least i am happy! thanks Leo for dropping EVERYTHING in my face... GOOD TIMING (no joking...thanks very much) did i sent you?

one last thing i would like to say.. i lost connection with my brain! (feels like) i think i have alot to say.. but i cant say for sure what is true anymore. btw its funny how to say, Einstein is so wrong! (witnessing telekinesis is something- i think my inner child did it!-and wanted to) (maybe the correct thing to say is.. there was no Einstein in the first place!) wow i really couldn't solve my problems in the same way i created them - (neither Einstein himself could- spend his all life trying) (i got a taste of what going meta feels- is a very good step forward- should explore more) anyway .. sorry to those who feel offended.. like Leo and UnbornTao and chatgpt things for me will turn very wow from now on fully healed .. for sure!.... not sure!.... i guess so i am deeply worried that i don't have free will(even thoughts*)(basically Nothing at all) and things role out like a fake interactive movie. *witnessing my thoughts synchronize with some events on tv ... is something talking to my mother on phone and make her glitch at will (also made the tv news presenter glitch.. i played something funny in my mind .. and she flash smiled .. replayed the footage.. the smile was there, its still in the archive) (after 2 hours .. someone through an egg my door).. looks like im not alone after all) - this happened 3 years ago ....... i know that the point is not to be superman..... all my "powers" are "gone".... just grounding now (didn't know what grounding means when i first started posting here) anyway at least i feel no stress! looks like heading to nothingness is wise thanks.. and one last thing to lordfall... one time got the chance to meditate (20years ago, when i first took antipsychotics and antidepressants).. what happened? ... big shift.. felt free of illness ..and free of acrophobia... and a need to jump from the 3rd floor balcony... luckily i didn't recognize those feeling as "mine").. after 10 minutes ..back to false self) so many things.. lost for so many years...wow no psychedelics involved - viewer discretion in advised . . . i guess my existential awakening is compete... i ll move to spiritual soon ... because i can ( should lose the I first) it looks ... anyone who have something to say ...anytime.. and anyplace... have not realized how stupid it is and how fool make themselves(me included)... . . goodby psychiatrists all over the world... you are full of shit . . the next episode should be a true mystery! ... better stay grounded with all my "will" . . one thing i asked god 4 years ago... to replay all my shity life in 2-3 seconds in my mind... showed that is possible! (this was one of many things that eventually burned)... i don't think i am ready yet though... i have to be REALY grounded i guess, or somehow i don't know yet maybe i should consider the use of psychedelics, when i feel is the right time - maybe not - where is everything heading anyway? better be grounded as a turtle , or sky rocket? good question! (should i bite the apple?) omg what a drama! . . is EVERYTHING an after death experience? , looks way too unreal!... i should define real fist! if you are still with me ... you should blame youtube for popping Leos videos one year ago in me! - or blame those who clicked like and subscribe (- great timing btw-)

i know this may sound way extreme... i think i have to take full responsibility for the wold i have created! just starting to grasp this! i am speechless its way extreme ... but its true! its everywhere! and its fake! and you know it! . . what i posted before this... was -bad-ego driven(but still true)...trying to control things (sorry) i am inside a dreamcatcher (whats left of me)

thanks @LordFall for your post... (thinks are not as quite as you describe .. maybe a'll come on to that in a later post) i dont know how i turned into being the main character of trueman show or something like Inception!!! but ... its real!!! wow.. who are u all? my projections? in my dream? in "my" show? should this make me suffer more or what? wow... so ... its all fake... just now starting to truly realize..(having a higher state of consciousness) wow.. wow i guess it will take me a few more days to do what i have to do ... maybe more... wow on second thought ... i am just in the hands of god... what could go wrong?! . . . sorry guys... now i know how naive i am ... better go mute wow! omg

i asked chatgpt to analyze this topic so far.. https://chatgpt.com/share/69ea1c1e-04e4-8327-baac-fd3b3e8465c0 i ll say one thing... fuck off chatgpt... i am TOTALLY FREE NOW WOW... OH MY GOD! and after celebrating for 24 hours... big questions arise.. why everything is so predetermined? inside out why i don't have free will? why the future is fixed? why i wake up? why me? can someone spoil this shit? ready to listen... my view ,is that all shows have a happy ending! as simple as that! wow... all its left now is just silence and peace! wow...

just wait and intergal will pop up to help you

i asked chatgpt :how mentally ill people perceive leo gura videos https://chatgpt.com/share/69c6cc4f-65c8-8333-a7c4-a89f06279d31 everybody needs freedom , so do mentally ill, you have to wake up the rebel inside you first chatting to ai is always helpful, use it to break free all you need to do is ask the right questions (unfortunately it takes time and effort) and the hardest part is to embrace! and an update in my case: still feeling a happy puppet , more stable, less confused, integrating and waiting for the next episode !!! it looks time ... is nothing to worry about! btw spring is here again... enjoy how the sun rays keeps me warm please dont post stupid youtubers in this topic (Popular schizophrenic YouTuber cures her disease ).. or at least post the funny ones integral... just behave .. ok? ... good boy.. we don't need moderators! remember: Leo is the messenger! whenever he is not talking to god ... he is role playing end enjoying life! the rest of us..suffering! .. but don't give up hope! feels like my role is to be the king of the ridiculous,insignificants,farcicals,derisorys,sods,nonsensicals,clownishs, (what it takes one word in my language , its takes 7 in English and its not even close)

ok guys this true story is having a happy ending feeling ok and grounded now , looks like i was low on anti psychotics (i did it deliberately because i thought i was getting somewhere)(my case wasn't that bad!) too overwhelmed by this experience Ive been through (it was too much too fast) felt like i was expressing myself for the first time! anyway i needed to be heard (mostly documented) this topic is closed by me i don't know witch pill i took at the end ... the red one or blue one .. looks both, or my prescription thanks for been part of my healing happy xmas intergal... you also make my day .. just for today

yesterday never happened , experiencing fake now, thoughts or feelings are all part of script-predetermined, outside world is a projection, future is fixed even the feeling that you are enlighten is just an illusion, i am just the real-free puppet feeling happy!(in a puppet show-yes i know..i am still a jerk-could not resist that, sorry) in the prison of all prisons realisation is the tricky part.. lets move to the next chapter!!! if any!!! i want to play! can this dream be evolved? like nothing i have ever heard or imagined? another set, another show, another experience? heading into nothingness... is boring-(or is it?)(looks to me now) wow.. im such a puppet! -meant to give shows after all - and the inner child to play games (and Leo's videos.. spoiled it!-or maybe not-cant reach that far) (not too bright and wise to shift into nothingness or another "dimension")(skip the human part) i am so loser after all( and really feeling it) https://open.spotify.com/track/2aAV8orZctvbDvVJnMDlBR?si=431e68a7dc5c4ce6 feel like all i am doing right now is ...dancing with my inner child(looks like its female!) everything part of the drama! THE SHOW OF ALL SHOWS not a game for sure- that's how we(or rather-only me) experiencing it- felt it so so so so so so so so many times but not realising it! i am starting to enjoy watching only cats or stupid people performing like this.. she make my day... just for today! after a very long time.. i just need someone to give me a punch... all will be FIXED no ones coming! the smart ones .. just run to their fall lets keep the faith...so much drama for my mama

im more into this chick that popped into my youtube feed https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Mazg-izk30&t=592s yes i know... im such a jerk the truth is im starting to feel non human day by day ... enlightened, no one like me around, and there's no much left to do no desire for money,sex,entertainment,wealth,socialise,easy friends, (i was so loser, never had any of these anyway) just free and clear minded -clarity (that's all i need, nothing more nothing else) 10 years of suffering... was worth it ... so many things during that time was erased... without me ever noticing i cant help anyone live this experience because it is unique, designed by god and my inner child unless you find some next door neighbour that don't sleep at night ,bang their door 2-3 times a day-night , only when you try to sleep (like they know exactly your sleeping schedule) and suddenly disrupt you every night-day for 2-3 years, mess your brain, mess your sleep ... and after that something inside you relive this(bangs you) every night even when your neighbours left and other came..... and then imagine them play a role in the solipsistic game... among other projections that visit you and help you play all your fantasy or ego identities, relive hidden experiences of the subconscious, most of them without material existence, a very few with. and they knew everything about you, even your future,"reality" mind-role game that lasted 4 years- not every day- and not too unreal so i dont freak out) something like.. imagine yourself..full feeling a woman, speaking with a woman's voice,wanting to kill the male part of you!!(because of an imaginary abuse it experienced by him!).. talking to a god projection about it.. and then see yourself hanged! this lasted just 10-15min leaving your body and talk to a projection and then joining back in throwing down of the bookshelf a dvd titled "is there a creator(god)" and seeing it fall (i was non believer) and now i can remember only 5% of what i -or better my false self- or both experienced experiencing having feeling and leaving with different iq levels.. from total retard to quite smart the game itself .. with todays view.. was silly.. a main father figure , two girls,many neutral personalities, few kids (all of them quite smart)(they were telling me what i wanted to hear) different person for different self identity and imaginary one from my childhood to the present, my ego liked playing the spy and poker player everyone and everything played their role! with some of those roles identities i would be happy to leave for the rest of my life! but the game never stopped there. (during those days, i was felling that i am living in the matrix, like the movie- really hooked by that movie(the other was inseption)- now really hooked by dualism-solipsism and i wonder what's more to come!) ---- i was too dumb to get hooked by philosophy during this game i was extremely sleep deprived,with my neighbours banging their door constantly every 2 hours(the truth is something inside my mind made me feel this like it was real) ,torture is the right word (lose the part that make me reason and question, just play the game) anti psychotic drugs had no effect whatsoever and after this game stopped ,it took me another 2-3 years to get to this point today that's why everything is unreal, a construct... only me noticing after all these years past!.. when consciousness shifted that's why i don't need therapist unborntao .. i just need to face what i am experiencing my future is fixed.. have not experienced it yet.. and with suicide out of the way , maybe all this will have a happy ending god showed me His presence and i have to respect that.. too many thing , too fast happened after my awakening (looks like i got carried away) the whole mind state i am in(way different than anyone else) is what i need for the realisation part writing all of these is my grounding, not to be kicked out of this forum unborntao what a dream! what a show! what a game! fucking everywhere,anyone,anytime this is the real grounding i think .. eventually .. all comes down to... you want to experience this? experience it you want to die? just die and i the end i was saved by humans! (not quite i guess) what a drama! its fucking everywhere.. in me , in you (be the loser!, much more to learn in the end) that's the only way to quit the game! ok, and after all some of you will still say that i need grounding... i need the groundless ground! (really hooked by this!)(better search it in chatgpt and figure out what it really means) only if could feel it! imagine! and after some more thinking... guess i am just building a solid imagination(never had one) after a long time .... 1500 views.. that's impressive! i am really not making this shit up i guess most of you will grasp it as a Fery tail others like a shit show and the wise ones don't want to spoil it hello anyone watching? or i am way more stupid than i think i am lets have a vote.. what does the Audience say after a while... realised that (furthermore) that trying to fix my emotion is hardest part of all stop being a jerk is a good step... i am on to this

it looks im in the "save yourself .. save humanity show" everything unimaginably predetermined inside and out.. saved by others allready so the only ones left is the crazy one