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I just want to know that my ultimate destination in existence is gonna be perfection..goodness..bliss . Not necessarily in a form of heaven.. eternal sleep or nothingness doesn't scare me .in fact its better than your wildest dreams of heaven . Leo says when you die you become infinite love. I hope so .and fuck all else.✋️

the ego is a reflection of what is there, that is what god is. When you die, you won't change. All the experiences/emotions/duality is awareness or consciousness itself, which is god. It will be all within you, but you aren't able to express everything fully because you're just an awareness/consciousness in nothingness Infinity/God/nothingness

Because when you're there you want. 1. to share your love/awareness/being/consciousness with everybody and not just yourself. 2. Even eating shit or being eventually slaughtered is better then being there, there is nothingness/potential/eternal being that's all. There , you will understand that you will never know yourself and some questions will never be answered, so gods focus is mainly on life.

Let's say that there can be a total awakening or openenss to the living void, to the ultimate essence of reality, to the infinite well of nothingness. This is enlightenment, although it sounds empty and Buddhist. is that it is empty and Buddhist and can't be transmitted by words because it can't be thought. But from the Buddhist emptiness there is another awakening equally absolute and completely opposite. the openness to what the dance of the cosmos is. You can say that this is form and therefore secondary, but it is absolute, eternal and total, just like emptiness. It is a mirror in which on one side is emptiness and the other is life, and on the side of life you cannot open yourself completely because you would burn. the life side is absolute power, the eternal cycles in which the infinite synchronizes perfectly and flows, the unimaginable total glory of existence in its perpetual motion. the game we're playing now.

Cosmos is a word that I use to describe the realization of what reality is. When your being opens completely to the absolute void and you become that, you realize the non-causal nature of reality, the only cause is the absence of limits, that is not a thing, and from that inevitable circumstance total reality manifests. You become aware of the nature of the living infinite and you open yourself to it partially, since totally would be like looking at the core of a star. As I said in the post, it is a two-sided mirror, on one side it reflects total emptiness, on the other, total plenitude. both are reality and both are absence of limits, and both are absolute .there is no logic here, there is existence. The interesting thing comes in the exploration of what lives. Opening to emptiness is total liberation, and it is not that difficult, you just have to let the self fall completely. It is the obligatory step to openness to the full, to the dance of the cosmos. I guess you would have noticed that the trees grow, the galaxies are there and all that. It is not an idea of the mind, you make an idea in the mind from a reality, but you are not the creator of the cosmos with your mind, that is a fallacy. No one is the creator, the only creator is the non-impediment to the existence of everything. Infinity is cyclical and synchronic, its what I can see, and I can also open myself partially to its absolute power. That is true spirituality, it is more than you think, infinitely more. break the final barrier, which is nothingness, and you will open yourself to everything. it is not so difficult

Most Important Notes are Coloured! 🍄 Mushroom Trip 025 - A Whiff of The Ox's Solipsistic Farts 🍄 In this trip report I got a small taste of The Cost of Awakening Mainly with the Solipsistic True Nature Reality. Guiding Questions: - What is Actuality? - What is Direct Experience? - What is Perception? - What is Consciousness? Consciousness IS nothing. Pure existence without content. - What is God? - What is Self? - What if I'm Not The Body? - What am I? (Existentially) - What is Direct Experience? October 25th 2023 Dose: 6.5g Golden Teachers Lemon Tek Tea Ground into a fine powder. I let it brew for 1h50 minutes. Just had A LITTLE BIT of procrastination to take this high of a dose. As you can imagine, I am experiencing fear in that dose. But that's where the gold is, so here I am. I really want to Focus my awareness on looking for the perceiver until I realize there is no perceiver. I am definitely experiencing a massive procrastination and hesitation to take the dose. I haven't had THIS MUCH fear in a while. So that's a good indicator that it's going to be a very deep trip. This kind of dose and this kind of fear warrants a very high amount of seriousness with my intention. The more fear I have, the more serious I have to become about the trip. Otherwise it will spiral out of control into an undesirable experience. I said to myself: “I want to awaken!” What is REALITY? Taken at 1:35pm I should strain it going forward. Literally drinking a cup of dirt at this point. It is gross. I'm 15 minutes in, about to get MEGA stoned. I guess I'm a bit impatient, even now, as I should have done 6 grams 6 more times to the point where I'm ready. But, here we are. So yeah there was a little bit of panic that I could have escalated into, but this is my 25th trip with mushrooms, so I'm okay. If this was an LSD trip, that would have spiraled massively down into whatever uncomfortable state of mind. Upping the dose and acclimatizing to a higher dose of LSD is ITS OWN TRIP. Until I acclimatize, it can be easy to be distracted by the idea of "What the hell am I in for at THIS dose?". 6.5 grams is getting to be up there with monetary cost. I may consider purchasing synthetic Mushrooms to save money. (4-AcO-DMT) On the come up and during the trip I am Watching Leo's video on his guided exercise to realizing you're God. I’ve been listening to this one during several of my trips. Usually I can get so distracted with mushrooms so it's a challenge for myself to actually work through the entire video. I HAVE TO be very intentional to focus on the video. What is God? I notice that I should be meditating again because it's hard to sit there and focus: To sit there and be bored. I need to meditate a minimum of 10 minutes a day for the rest of my life. I noticed that I'm actually impatient and I don't want to get bored with this inquiry process. I'm unconsciously avoiding boredom. That is a very valuable insight, so here we are, we're going to be bored. 29 minutes in Noticing visuals. Had 'em earlier too. You have a lack of awareness of the programming that you're in. That's how reality controls you. You become an individual that thrives/matches the environment that you find yourself in. And you've mistaken your identity based on what is consistently present in your direct experience. Including your identity of you being a human. But also, you can mistake your identity of being not good enough by growing up in a school where the entire attitude of reality says "You're not good enough. You're different, and that's a bad thing. You're an outcast. Etc" Have you ever met someone that is clearly an individual that is clearly in an echelon above you? I met this one guy that clearly gave a bright white and green aura. When you become the WHO that you're after, it seems that your presence sends out constant signals to attract and repel different parts of reality. When you become exactly WHO you desire, you ARE IT. You IS it. You BECOME it. By BEING it, you will naturally blast away all that is not meant for you. You will blast away all that isn't you. When you're a being of exactly what you need to be, you blast away everything else! That's why you will lose your friends, addictions, beliefs and mindsets that are impure to begin with. This is par for the course in creating the momentum built up for a natural purification process. I have to speak three times a week - BECAUSE it's hard - BECAUSE I don't have time - BECAUSE I'm not inspired. That's Religion. You need to read your last trip report. Do your homework! (Will do) You have to get ripped out of your love for your people. Only listen to teachings grounded in direct experience. If you're not operating at a TEN, there's still problems! (A 10/10) I am starting to believe that we naturally love to perform at our optimum 10/10 Self, but we don't know how and we don't know how to overcome our challenges. All my direct experience is actually distraction. Fuck everything! Holy fuck! God! God will create distractions in such intelligent manners to hide himself from your conscious awareness, it's incredible how subtle it is. He will do this by creating distraction. These distractions are MASTERFUL. It feels like Reality is intelligently learning how to do this as an ongoing process of designing reality in a way to make the dream so Dreamy that you'll never wake up. Reality is a system designed to not discover itself. Reality will create a way to kill you so you don't realize that you're God. Love is the pattern of God. My "beer" is a highly healthy fruit drink. Instead of having beers and sodas in the fridge like a Fool, I should have really nutritious superfood drinks. You have a lack of awareness of the programming that you're in. Therapy is a process of taking your Authority back. And once you have the authority back then you actually take correct control of your life. People who try to be your teacher typically have their minds closed to the possibility that they could be taught by you. Reality is a system that is designed to distract you away from god-realization. Reality is a construct that is SO ELABORATE that the last thing you would guess is that it was all imagined. The story that I show other people is realizing that you are the swan! I am acutely aware right now that there are no other people. Everyone is just imagined. Absolutely everyone. To open your mind up to this possibility is the real challenge. Opening your mind up to this is not fun at all. Fucking everything that I think that "happened" in the past was just "turtles all the way down" to explain away this present moment. An infinite chain of explanation to create the illusion of a reality that is "real". We wouldn't question an illusion that spans infinitely in all directions and dimensions due to our bias of following things linearly. That is the trick of God. We'd be like "no way, that's way too much work", "There's no way God would go THAT far to create an illusion that's not even real!" But we forget that this is nothing for an infinite mind with unlimited power. So yeah, it WOULD go this far and it WOULD be this elaborate. It would be TOTAL as fuck! Why not? What would stop it? We have a misguided assumption of understanding what REAL is. To my current understanding, what's REAL is just a point where you sit at a "high concentration" point of the infinite fractal of God. “High concentration” meaning that there are too many stories and contexts to keep track of so you get fully lost in the dream of reality. So many stories that it knits a web that cocoons you in illusion. Since you're always in illusion and always have only experienced illusion in this life, you've never had an experience outside of it. There's no duality to create a reference point for your mind to understand. Reality will become "unreal" (as in you become conscious that you're looking at absolute infinity/imagination) when you have a direct experience of what's ACTUALLY real, what's ACTUALLY True. Awakening is the suffering process of emerging from your cocoon of illusions. As shedding illusions is a process of shedding all form and fully loving and accepting the truth of impermanence in all areas. I understand more now when Leo says as ego goes down, consciousness goes up. Psychedelics will wipe away the presence of these stories in your direct experience, allowing you to focus your awareness on what's actually the case. The higher the dose, the more ego dissolution. The more you're able to focus on the substance of God. The void/everything of God. I have accessed a state of consciousness where It is much clearer to me that this field of awareness is going to occur eternally. I'M the one that is going to be living all the lives in all the realities. When this body dies I will imagine a whole new reality. Let's hope the next one is Pandora, and not making bricks with my hands for 20+ years! (But of course, I will imagine both.) I'm talking to my mom while on the trip while she is a great trip sitter! I'm like: "Mom! We will be having conversations like this FOREVER for eternity." Definitely a moment for a cry. It is a very emotionally challenging reality to accept eternity. But here's the kicker: I became conscious that any emotion that is a negative reaction is just something that I'm ALSO imagining as well. So the true nihilism kicks in and it just becomes a moot point. Any emotion that I am experiencing is still things that I'm imagining. - Respect always finds its place where it's due. So the way you act now, people will remember and as they mature they will look upon those memories through that new mature lens. So don't be shy to act in the highest manner aligned with respect. People will recognize eventually. - Tapping into the COMET of GOD's Intelligence Have you ever noticed that these overnight successful people live these incredibly fast paced, high Workload lives? Like it's either insanely high intensity or no success at all? I don't think this is a coincidence. Think about it this way: So you want to live a life aligned with the intelligence of God? If you want to capture the intelligence of God, then you have to speed up yourself to the seriousness of commitment required! This is a process of eliminating all of your distractions and fully committing your heart, mind and soul to your craft. It's a heroic journey of surrendering to what's required of you to become the individual that is a vessel that channels the intelligence of God through you! You have to do everything you can to optimize your brain, body and mind to be able to receive these downloads. Working out multiple times a day. Fasting & Eating the best foods, detoxing heavy metals! Constantly finding ways to stimulate your state of consciousness to be ready to put in the work. Listening to motivational speeches every day. Doing the meditation, saying no to things that lower your state of consciousness and lower your vibration. etc! The Process of tapping into the intelligence of God is a process of surrender into being your best 10.0 self to be able to access and channel the intelligence of God through you. (Ten-Point-O self across the board.) You have to surrender to your body every day. Wake up on time, no distractions. Create VOLUME , VOLUME, VOLUME! I am a channel, a comet! To catch a comet, you have to be ready If you want access to God, you better listen! Do your homework! God MADE your brain so that you could learn that shit! The extraordinariness of God is a scary comet to catch, but you’d be a fool not to fly out to catch it. It's like flying out to mars. It's like flying from earth to live on an advanced civilization that is on a comet. When I reflect back on the moments growing up in elementary school: - The whole attitude of reality manifested itself that you were not important. - Think of how the mind of God physically manifests for you as the attitude that he has created to carve you into who you are today. - The attitude that you are a loser was indoctrinated in the brain's chemistry. It's not in your awareness, it's subconscious! To understand reality as best as possible, we need to be running at peak capacity. (Sleep, nutrition, exercise, heavy metal detox, supplements, etc. ) What is Self? - it's a construct that you create to operate in reality. - You need a physical being to walk. If you are God, you are an open infinite field of awareness, nothingness and infiniteness. You create a body and a reality "separate" from it to BE ABLE to look around. My existence is just a story. On Dying - Dying is a state of consciousness that you go through, and then it's done. Then there is a new chapter. Wayne Dyer talks about dying as taking off one robe and putting another one on. I respect my life so much. You have been gifted with an extraordinary mind. When you get herded with the sheep your whole life, you mistake your identity for a sheep. God will write the story for you to be with the herd until you realize that you are God. Then the story of meaning stops. The hardest insight today is realizing that other people don’t exist. It means that I am alone. Becoming god is a therapy session. You need therapy to catch the comet. I am alone - it just is. You are imagining the emotions of having a hard time to comprehend things. Solipsism is that realization that makes you go "oh shit I'm actually alone in this bitch". Direct experience is God choosing to exist. If God did not want direct experience he could choose not to. Think about this, God has chosen to have reality exist exactly as this! I feel like God has pre-installed this innate curiosity about reality in me that caused me to pursue this process of awakening. God installed the fear of sleep every day to become enlightened. The curiosity that was in Leo was pre-installed. - Your physical manifestation of how you exist every day says everything I need to know about you. - The nervous system tells you everything you need to know about a person. - I come from a lineage of people that chose to not embrace life until it was too late. Not taking responsibility for death. .. What's Terrifying and what I have grazed on before is that I'll live forever. What's even more terrifying is I'M the one that's going to do it. Imagine looking at your mother and realizing IT'S JUST YOU and kind of being mad at the illusion itself and wanting to punch your mom in the head! I assume what is going to happen is that this solipsism will slowly become more and more of my normal baseline direct experience as I trip more and more. Similar to me losing my face and head. After reflection and tons more study. I did not become directly conscious of God. It would've felt more like absolute infinity. I would have KNOWN FOR SURE that it was God. What I experienced at the peak was an absolute Solipsism of sorts. Days after the trip As time passes I fall back asleep. But I do have a faded memory in my mind of that state of consciousness. But yeah when I was completely at the peak when I was talking to my mom it was just fucking surreal. And the most amazing part was that my mom just went with it being like "Yeah, so?" During this trip I became extremely conscious that only my direct experience exists and therefore even other people is just the Mind. Reality is literally JUST MY EXPERIENCES. There's just me looking through this VOID of which I thought there was a face before. There is no other person behind any of the other eyes that I see. I am the only See'er. I'm the only experiencer. The gravity of this insight is incredibly shocking and is definitely an "oh shit" moment. REAL SOLIPSISM. The amount of authority that I now take back for taking control over my entire life is more than ever before. The amount of authority that I take back to solve this puzzle that I call life and reality has become a whole lot more serious because I realize I'm the only mother fucking player. The choice to be good is truly a choice now, of course I should still be mindful of the consequences of my actions as well. Because my direct experience is the only thing that exists, only I can awaken. End of Report.

@Breakingthewall It sure feels like understanding is the epicenter of a metamorphic universe, as I try to understand, or that understanding bubble expands, so do the boundaries and scale of the universe due to divisions. But I had another large trip today and it had a similar effect to two previous ones where I tried hyper-heroic doses: amnesia, confusion, overwhelmed and scared, unable to move, I've been struggling with immense ego-backlash lately, though it also led to great growth. But I don't hallucinate as I expect of reports, though tree branches merge into a fractal space and it seems like I can somewhat look through objects or at least intuit what's behind them through broad awareness of light reflection. But while I have expanded my understanding of the world greatly and made sense of many things on sub-heroic doses, on post-heroic I am just fatigued and confused, but reality doesn't warp as much as others describe it, nor do I enter DMT-type realms, though I've only tried DPT. It feels like I don't allow myself to hallucinate away even if I want to explore the depths of the formless psyche. My intuition did many times tell me about what you describe, to dissolve into nothingness, at those times I wanted nothing more than to resist it, but my fascination did lead me to repeat these encounters. I can see how there's no room for duality if one is to realize the united nature of reality, it's still difficult for me to get though. Though I do bypass many filters that I previously had, yet I'm inclined to put them on time and time again, like a sine wave, but I feel like I'm becoming more at peace with accepting reality no matter what way it is, though I still have lots of karma to burn.

I would argue it allows you to fully enjoy the game of life and everything about it. Or at least, that's how I approach it. Like when you play a game, you know the score / outcome doesn't really matter, but you immerse yourself in it for the fun of it... the whole nothing matters (while absolutely true as Ajata) crowd, I think just use Bypassing to escape the human experience. You can enjoy 'nothingness' when the body passes, why not enjoy THIS now?

Well I think when u experience your total self and see oh boy...there is no one, what a game it all was.... When the only thing that exists is Yourself....and no one to see,hear, touch ,feel and experience.... As if they never were.... But a way to fill with void within... The void of loneliness of the total self.. To busy itself with imaginary beings ,thankfully it has ability to do so... Imagine if it didn't had imagination, nothing would exist except mind.... But that void of loneliness when u are alone locked within Yourself and this void and nowhere to go... Maybe then u realize...I AM everything... In itself consciousness contains infinite information of infinite realities like codes within and found out a way to manifest his preexisting knowledge into experience based reality.... It found a way in that void ,crazy isn't it... Do u know how one mind alone in nothingness can figure a way out to... Manifest his imagination in form out of nothing..that's crazy... I believe going to total self will awakened that knowledge too... How to make 2d hologram experienced as reality that's how this infinite experience is possible in space/time.... This knowledge of creating bubble of existence isn't in human awareness right now... Do u know then if u close your eyes.. How to consciously manifest infinite universes running on their own and causing Yourself to forget.... Within Yourself consciously.. How to create this setup... This knowledge is in total self... I think when u see u are only one alone being till eternity... U can never be with other, since no other exists till eternity alone... This fact is powerful... Or maybe when u realize life was never that serious... The element of serious makes dream reality strong to believe in... ....so what if life isn't about awakening.. Because whether u are awakened or not... U will still one day become total self it's inevitable outcome....and realize and experience who u truly are,then u don't need to ask from another,u will self realize I AM everything in your absolute state of existence... Nothing changes that fact... But still it's all handy information for understanding... So it's better to be open to any unique new knowledge understanding of reality...

Not really, since reaching the 8th Jhana is a complete dead end and not enlightenment, even though Buddha thought that it is. I've been in the 8th Jhana of neither perception nor non perception, aka the void aka nothingness and it's an error to regard it as the final attainment. David Hawkins also reached it and knew that it wasn't the end since there is no Love there and God is Love. That is the main issue with Buddhism, since Buddha didnt understand God, so the whole path is wrong and all Buddhists are mistaken.

@r0ckyreed didn't read your little story , you're not awake. Death is indeed imaginary. What happends when you die? You will just change your state of consciousness and the "I" will still be present. When you change your state of consciousness, you see reality for what it is and it is constructed by "imagination/illusion" aka consciousness/nothingness the building block of all.

I'm going to explain it to you one more time to see if something penetrates your mind, since we've been talking for years and I consider you a comrade. Let's see, you are not enlightened, not at all, not even a little bit. Why? If you have done many trips with 10 grams of mushrooms, great courage, but what have you found? the emptiness, the nothingness. You were perceiving that reality is nothing, absolute void, before birth as you say. I have told you that I have had that same experience several times with psychedelics, at first it is horrible, after you get used to it... a little. It is death, dead emptiness. There is one last barrier to break there, which is that of you perceiving the void. You have to merge with the void and be the void. This is something that happens if you really give yourself. When it is not you looking at the void but you expand in the void and you are the void, without an observer, the infinite void is revealed as infinite life, the total reality that is, freedom without limit. What you are. Now you will answer something like: brother, that is not like that, I hope that one day you will achieve it blah blah. what do you gain with that? Why don't you listen? drop the self totally, let yourself fall into the void without any reservation. That the action that is necessary to do.

Awakening comes from not knowing, because there is no you to know anything. Your birth, enlightenment, entire duality comes from knowing. But you are nothing, nothing can never be known, can just be. Therefore, anything that you know is something, but nothing can never be learn, can just be. Therefore you are already awake. Only when you not know, you can be. If you know “nothing” (that doesn’t mean you dont know because of ignorance), you are before birth. Fully not knowing is being nothing. And these all words, sounds, visuals, entire duality are nothing. Therefore whatever you do is awakening, because of that you are already awake. Therefore enlightenment is . Therefore enlightenment is ahahdjduaizjncosmajan. Both sentences are identical, because both sentences are nothing, appears within nothingness therefore identical, as your body and chair. Dont forget you learn what is body and chair, which is still comes from knowing. If you not know what is chair and body, they are identical. Whatever happens, it happens within nothingness. Nothing is pure consciousness. Nothing is nothing, therefore absolute. Peace!

Hi! After having powerful experiences on heroic doses of psilocybin mushrooms, weed has gotten seriously psychedelic for me. As long as I take a moderate dose and not a really low one, I can get into fractal energetic yoga, and I realize that everything are just appearances and stories that are timeless and non-existent. It feels like insanity, but it's an insanity that realizes that the sanity it contradicts was just an illusion that never occured in the first place, which led me to start calling it Insanity with a capital I. In my day to day consciousness I don't feel all too enlightened which is why I find it remarkable that a little bit of sativa can get me so far. Is anybody else having seriously spiritual awakenings from moderate doses of marijuana? Some links: This is the thread about my heroic dose that I think opened me up to reach these stages: This is what I mean when I say fractal energetic yoga:

Bro there is certainly a cessation that ejaculates everything out of existence. A full colapse of reality into pure nothingness. This has been talked about for centuries. I haven't experienced it myself but there are too many reports of this. It's the whole aim of buddhism. Although I have to say that the one time I did experience the void it was very similar to your experience. In my case everything was pure void except for little spec of dust, very very far away, which was my body. I still could think and feel, however I honestly was more surprised about my body being a tiny dot in the void, than the void itself. It was a strange thing, I'm used to go arround with this body you know or at least you breakthrough, but having an infinitely small body in a boundless limitless void; that was a bit too much to add into my Salvia trip. Then the trip ends and I settle down. I remember crying while feeding my cat minutes after finishing the trip. So beautiful to see colours and shapes, being able to use my body and to have another sentient being to whom I could feed. This possibility just minutes ago, was gone forever. Then I cried again while I was eating, what a bliss it was to be a human in a rock eating some macaroni! That was enlightening, pure zen appretiation ahahahha This is the closest I have ever been to shit myself in a trip I had to even check...

@Carl-RichardExistence is not possible. Matter is not possible .an objective external world existing behind the scenes is not possible. Only mind-stuff aka consciousness aka hallucination aka imagination in the mind of nothingness is possible. Materialist paradigm is false . Idealism which is really solipsism is true .

@Someone here Lol, I know I am not awake, because the absolute is all there is, whether one is conscious of not or that doesn't matter absolutely speaking. However, the 'purpose' of realization is simply the peace & happiness inherent in the Absolute itself. so you think the teachings of Ramana, Nisgardatta & Robert Wolfe on Ajata is new age lovey dovey stuff? I also literally stated how realization of the absolute humbles you beyond belief. What is arrogant about that? If you stopped mentally fucking yourself, you'd realize I am agreeing with you that Ajata is the final piece of this jigsaw, but IT IS NOT SOLOPSISM because you don't exist independently from the absolute, nothing does. Even saying nothing is too much If you truly understood Ajata, Solipsism would not even make sense to you Ajata is not this BS term you've coined Metaphysical Nihimism either, this is your minds feeble attempt to understand it, the mind cannot understand what causes its own destruction I am being 'arrogant' because I have been where you are. Spinning my wheels endlessly chasing mental concepts, only when they are all dropped (Including Ajata) is the true rest of the Absolute enjoyed. Silence is always the highest teaching / transmission, which is why this Forum is such a danger, because it just adds more concepts to people's minds If you really want to understand Ajata, Robert Wolfe's website he made before he died is the best. Although it comes with heavy trad Buddhist / Advaita language with terms such as Nothingness / Emptiness and is littered with those cultural references. A western / Tantric approach makes MUCH more sense for those of us who wish to live a full human existence, and not a monastic one. This context is key to embodying these teachings, proceed with caution - \ https://ajatasunyata.com/welcome Absolutely, there is no creation, nothing has ever happened & nothing will ever happen. The absolute is absolute in itself. Life is like a dream... So may as well be happy and enjoy every last second....which brings us back too... LOVEEEEE

I guess I wanted to say that if you want to dissolve into the infinite you have to let go of the need to understand, since it is something that binds you, limits you. Imagine that you are looking into infinity. You cannot try to understand it, since you are really within the infinite, and understanding is within you. Understanding must be given to the infinite, the same as everything else. You have to do an act, which is to open yourself to the infinite and surrender yourself, letting your self fall into emptiness. It is an exciting act, a step forward into nothingness. If you manage to do it, it happens, you have broken the barrier, you are, let's say, inside. But this is very fragile, very difficult to maintain purity, the mind needs to create structure and as soon as it starts to develop one, you are out. This is like a sport, you have to master it, understand what blocks it, eliminate it from yourself, encourage openness as much as possible. Only this is real, the rest is living in a silly fantasy. But the truth is that I cannot remain in that limitless state for more than a short time, it is a difficult balance, and in that state there is a kind of understanding at another frequency, and I don't know how far it can go.

Aztec Nonduality - Profound Life Lessons From Aztec Philosophy https://youtu.be/8GjGMWBWWKM "Brahman is real; the world is not real; Brahman is the world." - Shankara Aztec Non-duality: Leo introduces Aztec non-duality which shares similarities with various major religions, emphasizing the dynamic, self-generating essence of the universe called Teotl. He plans to detail this spiritual outlook by citing an article from the Internet Encyclopedia of Philosophy, offering an overarching view of spirituality and God from an Aztec perspective. Concept of Teotl: Teotl is depicted as an all-encompassing, sacred power that is immanent within and transcendent beyond the universe. It signifies an interconnected cosmos that is ever-generating and regenerating, where every element is both a facet of Teotl and wholly identified with it. Image 1 Image 2 Image 3 Understanding of Immanence and Transcendence: Leo clarifies that Teotl represents both the tangible world (immanence) and the formless, overarching unification of the universe (transcendence), a concept paralleled in Christian theology and other spiritual traditions. Image 4 Process-Oriented View of the Universe: The universe is described not as a static object but as an ongoing process comparable to a constantly changing waterfall. This view contrasts with static perceptions of the material universe, suggesting a more fluid and dynamic reality. Image 5 Dialectical Polar Monism: Introducing the idea of dialectical polar monism, Leo explains the universe as a single entity that expresses itself through an endless interplay of opposites such as life and death, or order and disorder, reflecting a balance inherent to the cosmos. Image 6 Balance and the Cycle of Polarities: The lecture touches on the importance of balance in life, indicating that reality involves navigating between complementary opposites without rigidly clinging to any static point or trying to eliminate one side of a duality. Image 7 Materialist versus Aztec Metaphysics: Leo contrasts the materialist notion of an objective, unchanging universe with the Aztec view, which recognizes no static reality but rather an unceasing transformation and renewal of the cosmos—a principle of impermanence also found in Buddhism. Image 8 Image 9 Impermanence and Clinging: Highlighting the concept of impermanence, Leo warns against clinging to transient aspects of life such as possessions, relationships, and ideologies, advocating for a recognition of constant change as a fundamental quality of existence. Universality of Aztec Non-duality: The overall emphasis is on the universal nature of Teotl as a living, sentient cosmic process that is continuously self-transforming, aligning with the non-dual teachings expressed across multiple spiritual traditions. Dynamic Nature of Reality and Personal Growth: The constant change and development of all phenomena, including personal growth from childhood, illustrate the continuous flow and transformation characteristic of Teotl. This opposes the human tendency to cling to a static identity or state. Image 10 Dialectical Presentation of Teotl: Teotl is described dynamically, transcending the dichotomies of being and non-being, order and disorder, and other polarities. This persuasive non-duality is beyond the predication of any specific qualities and manifests as a 'third kind' that is at once both and neither of the dualistic states. Paradox of Non-duality: Teotl encompasses qualities like male and female, life and death, yet it transcends all such dualities. This presents a paradox for human understanding, which is accustomed to categorizing reality into distinct forms rather than perceiving the non-dual essence. Teotl's Ontological Indeterminacy: Nahua metaphysics points to an anti-realist view that rejects the concept of a static, fixed, objective reality. Teotl resembles Kant's noumenon, being the essence beyond all perceivable phenomena. Image 11 Pantheistic View of Nahua Philosophers: Nahua philosophy embraces pantheism, the view that all existence is a sacred, interrelated unity identical with the sacred totality of Teotl. This challenges orthodox religious views by dismissing the notion of God as a separate, anthropomorphic being. Image 12 Cosmic Artistry and Shamanic Disguise: Teotl is seen as a sacred artist, endlessly creating the cosmos in an artistic presentation. The universe is perceived as an ongoing, metaphorical performance of Teotl. Additionally, the concept of 'nahual' implies that the cosmos and its transformations are manifestations of Teotl's shamanic self-masking, illustrating the elusive and ever-changing nature of the divine. Image 13 Challenges in Recognizing God's Presence: God, the ultimate shapeshifter with no intrinsic form, is compared to a perfectly camouflaged creature in the forest, illustrating the difficulty in recognizing the divine in everyday existence without a cultivated consciousness. Image 14 Metaphor of Chameleon for God: The metaphor highlights God as the ultimate chameleon, perfectly camouflaged within existence. Materialists struggle to find evidence for God because divine presence is intricately integrated into all aspects of reality, requiring conscious recognition rather than empirical proof. Concepts of God in Various Traditions: In different religious traditions, God includes both deceptive (like the Christian devil) and transformative traits (shapeshifter), showing that God has a multifaceted character, including both creative (Maya) and deceptive (devilish) aspects. Nature of Existence According to Nahua Philosophy: Existence is characterized by three specific illusions: the perception of static entities (like humans or trees), the belief in individual, separate existences, and the apparent opposition of dualities. These are considered deceptions of Teotl, masking the true oneness and dynamic movement of all things. Image 15 The Human Mind's Deceptiveness: Leo underlines the idea that the human mind is prone to self-deception, shaping our perceptions and creating illusions that hinder our understanding of the universe. He emphasizes the need for self-inquiry and spiritual practice to transcend these illusions. Wisdom's Role in Realizing Teotl: Wisdom allows humans to discern Teotl's presence beneath its many disguises. Spiritual practices aim to penetrate the illusion and recognize "Teotl as Teotl," the empty, formless truth behind all forms. Image 16 Understanding Teotl's Metaphysical Attributes: Teotl embodies a complex set of attributes, functioning as the source, object, and standard of reality, knowledge, and aesthetic value. A dual nature of Teotl as both male and female energy is presented, balancing and sustaining the cosmic rhythm. Image 17 Image 18 Image 19 Recognizing Earthly Life as a Divine Disguise: Earthly existence is perceived as a dream or illusion, with humans often misled by Teotl's artistic self-disguise. This is not an ontological claim but an epistemic one, emphasizing the deceptive nature of ordinary human perspectives. Image 20 Image 21 Illusion Versus Ultimate Reality: Leo explains that while materialists or dualists may see non-duality as a false distinction between illusion and ultimate truth, Nahua philosophy maintains those are identically aspects of the singular reality. This concept underscores the monistic worldview that aligns with the non-dual understanding of existence. Image 22 Embodiment of Non-duality: Non-duality must integrate the absolute with relative perceptions, similar to viewing a half-full glass as both half-full and half-empty. The challenge lies in recognizing the unity of these opposing perceptions; there's only one reality that can be seen in different ways based on perspective. Perception of Teotl as the Sole Reality: According to Nahua monism, humans can only truly perceive 'Teotl', the ultimate reality. To perceive 'Teotl' directly (De Rey) is to become one with it, rather than seeing it through a veil of perception or as separate from oneself. Image 23 Human Misconception of Teotl: Humans often misperceive Teotl by seeing it under disguise or specific descriptions (De Dicto), such as maleness, death, night, etc. This prevents them from seeing Teotl as it truly is and leads to a misunderstanding of divine reality. Image 24 Direct and Indirect Perception of God: There are two modes of perceiving God: indirectly, through descriptive forms which cause delusion, and directly, through a mystical union with God that transcends language and concepts, leading to true knowledge of Teotl. Metaphysical and Epistemological Unity: To know something fully is to become it, eliminating the subject-object duality. Western philosophy struggles with the hard problem of consciousness because it relies on concepts and categories, while Nahua philosophy suggests direct knowledge through unity. Image 25 Existence on a 'Treacherous Habitat' Earth: Earthly life is viewed as precariously balanced on a 'slippery earth' full of danger. Moral misstep is likened to slipping on slick ground, causing humans to easily lose balance and suffer misfortune, underscoring the need for guidance. Image 26 Philosophy for Maintaining Balance: Nahua philosophy is practical, focused on the essential question of how humans can maintain balance in life. This contrasts with the abstract, detached analytical philosophy of the West, emphasizing the need for a practical approach to philosophical wisdom. Image 27 Applying Philosophy to Real-World Problems: Actualized.org aims to make philosophy practical by addressing real-world problems like depression, addiction, and career dissatisfaction. The goal is to help individuals live more fulfilling lives through authentic philosophical practice. Consequences of Disconnection from True Philosophy: Many societal and personal problems stem from a collective disconnection from true philosophy, leading to dysfunctional, unfulfilling lives. True philosophy, such as the Nahua's, is vital for addressing issues like war, genocide, and environmental destruction. Balancing Human Life According to Nahua Philosophy: Nahua philosophy emphasizes wisdom and balance as crucial for human beings to navigate life. Unlike the pursuit of technology or intelligence, wisdom affords stability amid an impermanent life filled with challenges. Achieving balance is dynamic, like riding a unicycle, and needs to be applied in all facets of life, from business to personal relationships. Image 28 Wisdom as Practical Dynamic Balance: Wisdom is not about holding static, eternal truths but rather about the skillful balancing of consumption, recognizing that lifestyles should be rooted in indigenous shamanism and connected to the concept of Teotl. Wisdom leads to stability and well-being by guiding actions in a balanced way. Image 29 Becoming Wise by Rooting in Teotl: True wisdom and living a good life, according to all religions, involve becoming deeply rooted in Teotl—or divine consciousness. Wisdom is not grasping eternal truths but actively maintaining balance across life's various situations. Image 30 Religion's Role in Connecting with God: Properly practiced religion should quickly connect people with God through various techniques, leading to inherently moral behavior without the need for rules or commandments. Four Aspects of Wisdom for Nahua: Wisdom includes (1) maintaining balance and purity for well-being; (2) adapting and extending the way of life inherited from ancestors; (3) participating in the regeneration and renewal of the cosmos; (4) performing ritual activities that genuinely represent Teotl. Image 31 Image 32 Interdependence and Impact of Human Actions: Nahua philosophy acknowledges a participatory universe where humans and the cosmos are mutually influential. Human actions contribute to either cosmic harmony or disharmony, reinforcing the importance of an integrated approach to existence. Image 33 Earthy Life and Juvenile Moderation: While the Nahua recognize earthly life's potential for well-being, they urge moderation in all aspects to prevent imbalance. This reflects their holistic perspective that balance cannot be found in outdated, rigid rules but requires adaptive wisdom specific to the current societal context. Image 34 Image 35 Rootedness in Teotl for an Authentic Life: Humans have a deep yearning for rootedness, often being misled by appearances of stability in various pursuits. True balance and purity stem from rootedness in Teotl, which contrasts materialistic grounding leading to dissatisfaction and repeat searching. Image 36 Wisdom over Dogmatic Moral Codes: The Nahua philosophy stresses the ability to balance dynamically rather than relying on a fixed set of moral codes, which can be inadequate and lead to imbalance in a rapidly changing world. Wisdom allows for practical flexibility and is necessary for well-being in complex modern societies. Image 37 Rooting in the Absolute Truth: The only unchanging and absolute truth, which represents stability and well-foundedness in the face of change, is equated with nothingness. This contrasts with the impermanence of language, national identities, norms, and even the human body. Consequences of Disconnection from Teotl: A disconnection from Teotl leads to a scattered, unbalanced, and beastly existence. Humans become lost, intemperate, and vicious, lacking humanity and engaging in deceptions and self-deceptions. This is reflected in various sectors of society such as politics, religion, and business, and in personal relationships. Force Cannot Instill Consciousness of Teotl: Coercing or indoctrinating individuals to understand Teotl through dogmatic or ideological means is counterproductive. Genuine consciousness of Teotl cannot be substituted with ideas or beliefs about it; it requires a higher state of consciousness and practice for proper, decent living. Image 38 Importance of Proper Education: Current education systems fail to prepare individuals to be decent human beings. They should instead teach children philosophy, metaphysics, spirituality, and proper scientific thinking within bounds. The lack of such education contributes to societal and environmental pollution. Societal Contagion Methods: The prevalence of materialism and disconnection from Teotl acts like a contagion, spreading through various channels such as the media and influencing different sectors like healthcare and government. Attempts to cure this contagion without proper understanding may exacerbate the problem. Epistemological Cognition and Balance: Nahuas view well-grounded stability in cognition as walking in balance on slippery earth. Their concept of truth is non-semantic, emphasizing stability and well-rootedness rather than correspondence or descriptions. Image 39 Western Intellectual Tradition's Misinterpretation of Truth: Western philosophy and science often misunderstand the essence of truth, treating it as statements or propositions. True understanding is deeper than language and demands direct insight, which most do not seek, leading to a fundamental disconnection from truth. Image 40 Spectrum of Authentic Representations of Teotl: There is a continuum ranging from authentically embodying and representing Teotl to those poorly rooted in it. The effectiveness and truthfulness of everything, from personal actions to commercial products, are evaluated on this continuum. Disclosing and Unconcealing Truth Through Entities: Genuine and authentic entities that are well-rooted in Teotl can reveal the profound truth, providing people with better access to this understanding. Societal institutions need to foster systems that are revealing of Teotl for collective well-being. Heart Over Head in Knowing Teotl: True knowledge of Teotl comes through the heart, characterized by a holistic mindset, rather than the left hemisphere of the brain which is logical and demanding. Living from the heart leads to better health, less selfishness, and fulfillment of life's mission through love and wisdom. Image 41 Image 42 Experiencing Platonic Existential Love: As one recognizes themselves as Teotl and feels intimately connected with the universe, they relinquish judgment and tribalism, leading to the experience of platonic existential metaphysical love that embraces all as facets of Teotl. Ineffability of Teotl: Teotl is ultimately ineffable, a seamless totality unrelated to language, concepts, or categories. True experience of Teotl comes non-rationally and without symbolic or linguistic mediation, as these are merely facets of its disguise. Image 43 Limits of Symbolic Consciousness: Ordinary human consciousness is trapped in a symbolic, conceptual realm, thinking in terms of models and quantifications. One needs non-symbolic consciousness to truly understand Teotl, as it is beyond finite models and symbols. Role of Art in Presenting Teotl: Song poems and artistic creation are the highest forms of human artistry that closely imitate Teotl's cosmic creativity. Great art comes from a Teotlized heart and reveals the beauty and truth of Teotl. Image 44 Artistic Expression and Life Purpose: Developing a "Teotlized" heart and engaging in creative activities can improve one's connection to Teotl. Finding one’s life purpose in artistic expression is crucial, as creation is a core aspect of Teotl and personal fulfillment. Acquiring a Teotlized Heart: To truly know Teotl, one must lead a balanced, pure, moral, and moderate life, showing respect and humility towards Teotl. Without authenticity and moral righteousness, the knowledge of Teotl remains elusive. Image 45 Interdependence of Epistemology, Morality, and Aesthetics: Becoming knowledgeable about Teotl involves not just intellectual understanding but also moral and aesthetic self-improvement, as they are intertwined in living a balanced and beautiful life connected to Teotl. Image 46 Reciprocal Moral Relationship with Teotl: Knowing Teotl is part of a moral exchange; moral conduct leads to the merits of wisdom and beauty. This interaction is essential for understanding Teotl, highlighting the interconnectedness of moral behavior and epistemological enrichment. Image 47 Consequences of Mechanical Morality: People who try to be good through mechanical means without raising their consciousness often feel guilt and shame. Authentic self-improvement comes from becoming more conscious, leading to a natural desire to live a better life. Morality is crucial for creating a conducive environment for spiritual growth among all community members, not just the deeply dedicated individuals. Humaneness and Flourishing through Balance and Purity: Living in balance and purity perfects humanness and leads to flourishing. Conversely, the absence of these qualities degrades humaneness and causes suffering. Teotl, embodying beauty and purity, sets the ultimate standard of value. Virtual connection with Teotl is essential for balance and purity. Image 48 Beauty in Nature as a Reflection of Teotl: Observing the natural world, such as peacock tail feathers or animals, can illustrate the beauty inherent in Teotl's design, contrasting with man-made objects that lack symmetry and order, reflecting a disconnection from Teotl. Evolution drives towards higher beauty, consciousness, and balance, aligning with Teotl's principles. Moral Conduct as Path to Authenticity: Morally appropriate behavior develops one's authentic human nature, enriches life, and cultivates a good heart. In contrast, morally inappropriate actions leave individuals undeveloped and impoverished. Moderation in all pursuits, as advocated in Buddhist and Aristotelian philosophy, is the key to wisdom and balance. Image 49 Image 50 Health Issues as Byproduct of Lifestyle: Conditions such as autoimmune diseases, mental illnesses, and heart disease are not merely accidental but result from how individuals live, including diet and mindset. Societal spoilage stems from a collective disconnect from Teotl, leading to an imbalance between oneself and the environment. Purpose of Education: The true aim of education is to cultivate a wise and robust character, instilling the means to maintain balance in life. Modern education fails to provide this, focusing on academic achievements. Still, one can take individual responsibility for their own furthered education in wisdom and authenticity. Image 51 Role of Educator and Ritual Activities: The educator's task is to shape character and foster a connection to Teotl. Addressing issues like addiction requires rituals and techniques that restore balance and purity. Modern society needs new, relevant methods to realign with the heart and Teotl. Image 52 Interplay of Aesthetics, Morality, and Knowledge: Aesthetic value correlates with moral and epistemological value. Balance, truth, and purity enhance aesthetic appeal, while disorder and impurity reflect ugliness. Appropriate techniques and rituals should be developed to address specific imbalances and reclaim connection with Teotl. Image 53 Image 54 Artistic Integrity and Business Alignment: Genuine artistic creations and business operations should be well-rooted, balanced, true, and pure, reflecting and disclosing Teotl or ultimate reality. Leo critiques businesses that are detached from Teotl, causing ecological and societal damage, and suggests striving to align business practices with Teotl to promote balance and purity in the cosmos. Aesthetic Value and Moral Uprightness: Art and creative endeavors are aesthetically valuable when they present and embody Teotl, contributing positively to cosmic balance and purity. This requires a "Teotlized" heart, implying that the individual must be morally upright and aligned with ultimate truth to produce such work. Image 55 Image 56 Materialism and Environmental Collapse: Leo points to the harmful impacts of businesses operated by people who lack a connection to Teotl, such as environmental destruction and social conflicts. He considers the rational-materialistic focus damaging, leading to widespread suffering and instability. Upright Behavior and Knowledge of Truth: Leo asserts that those who are unaware of Teotl create destructive art and business practices. He underscores the necessity for creators and leaders to be morally upright to contribute positively to society and the environment. Image 57 Life, Suffering, and Transience: Drawing parallels with Buddhist teachings on suffering and impermanence, Leo emphasizes the importance of connecting to Teotl to minimize personal and societal suffering. This connection can transform one's life into a beautiful and noble existence, akin to "flowering and singing." Image 58 Life Blueprint and Self-Connection: Leo reiterates the importance of connecting with one's true nature, Teotl, to lead a fulfilling life. He describes this as the "master blueprint" for an amazing life and warns against the futility of seeking satisfaction in transient worldly pursuits. Religion and Its Essence: Encouraging a deep understanding of religion, Leo asks materialists and atheists to contemplate the significance of religion and find the kernel of truth it holds. He advocates an integral approach to spiritual texts, gleaning from them the high-level concepts and techniques to apply to one's life, transcending dogmatic and orthodox views. Integrative Approach to Wisdom: Leo advises studying a variety of spiritual and philosophical texts to triangulate on wisdom and truth. He emphasizes the value of ancient scriptures while cautioning against becoming overly attached to any single tradition to avoid spiritual traps and broaden one's understanding of truth. Undervaluing Religion's Wisdom: Leo criticizes the materialist view that dismisses religion as outdated superstition. He highlights the importance of recognizing the valuable role religion has played in human societies across history and seeks to uncover the deeper truths contained within spiritual traditions. Expecto Patronum

Leo Gura Infinite Consciousness, God Realization [PART 1] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R-w8k4smC74 Leo Gura's introduction: Leo Gura is the founder of Actualized.org, a psychonaut, mystic, and proponent of idealism, believing consciousness is fundamental. He views his audience as aspects of God who have forgotten their true nature, aligning somewhat with Rupert Spira, yet with distinct differences. Curt Jaimungal's introduction: Host of the podcast, Curt, is a filmmaker with a background in mathematical physics, interested in the connection between consciousness and fundamental laws. Need for repeated viewing: The episode encourages viewers to watch more than once for better understanding, especially due to initial skepticism towards Leo's certainty in his views. Humanizing skepticism: Leo displays humanizing skepticism around the four-hour mark, making his propositions more relatable and helping to untangle biases. Part two announcement: A follow-up part focused on Leo Gura's personal experiences is planned due to the extensive discussion only partially covered. Leo Gura's disclaimers: Leo issues disclaimers highlighting the potential psychological impact of exploring deep existential questions, especially for those with mental health concerns. He discourages turning his ideas into ideologies or cults. Alien intelligence analogy: Considering his radically different worldview, Leo asks to be treated as if he were an alien intelligence to bridge communication gaps between his and conventional worldviews. Open-mindedness and truth-seeking: He commends Curt for modeling radical open-mindedness, essential for understanding profound existential questions, showcasing Curt's intellectual approach. Truth's merciless nature and worldview development: Leo states that truth can be merciless, challenging casual speculative pursuits of reality. He contrasts his definitive answers with academic theoretical speculations, advocating for direct experience as the foundation for truth. Embodiment of philosophy: Leo questions whether adopting principles equates to embodying a philosophy. He emphasizes living according to ideals like truthfulness and intellectual honesty but suggests that this is only a surface-level understanding of embodying philosophy. Intellectual beliefs versus living reality: Differentiating between intellectually knowing something and living it, Leo explains minds can hold beliefs, such as atheism, while behaving contradictorily as if higher principles or entities exist. Self-deceptive nature of the mind: The mind is adept at constructing elaborate self-images and identities based on beliefs or perceived worldviews. These can often be misaligned with reality and actions, particularly in terms of professing certain spiritual or moral ideals while behaving contrary to them in practical life. Distinctions between identity and ideals: There's a common disconnect where individuals espouse virtues like selflessness and honesty, but actions reveal inherent selfishness. Leo highlights the importance of introspection and aligning one's behavior with their proclaimed values and beliefs. Hypocrisy in religious and scientific communities: Leo observes hypocrisy both within religious adherents, who may not mirror the selflessness of figures they idolize (e.g., Jesus), and scientists, who claim open-mindedness yet are resistant to non-traditional ideas or concepts they deem "woo-woo." Leo's "non-worldview" and God-realization: He insists that his teachings are not a worldview but a direct path to recognizing absolute truth 듮hat there's only one existent entity, infinite consciousness, which individuals are a part of; everyone is an aspect of God dreaming the entire universe into existence, equating daily life to hallucinations akin to nightly dreams. Technical definition of "hallucination": Leo provides a technical definition, framing it as perception without external input. This aligns with his view that the physical body and experiences are appearances with nothing behind them; reality and hallucination are not distinct, but a matter of persistence and consistency in one's perceptions. Critique of the concept of reality as an intersection of observers: He partly agrees with Chris Langan's ideas but emphasizes the human capacity to erase and redefine perceptual boundaries, asserting that all distinctions are imaginary and can be created or dissolved by the mind. Critique of Chris Langan's model of consciousness: Leo appreciates Langan's intellect but distinguishes between conceptual models and direct realization of God consciousness. He argues that Langan's work, while academically rigorous, is conceptual and cannot substitute for the experiential realization of being God. Reality's lack of constraints: Ultimately, Leo concludes that reality is boundless and unrestricted, leading to mind-shattering paradoxes beyond current conceptual and academic models. Arrogance and assumptions in defining paradoxes: He suggests that while models like Langan's might address the existence of paradoxes in the non-physical realm, there remain deeper layers to be understood, and the ultimate level of consciousness reveals a reality that is truly unconstrained and paradoxical. Dream analogy for awakening: The analogy comparing awakening and dreaming asserts that ordinary reality is akin to a dream, and so-called awakened individuals have realized this, transitioning to a higher state of consciousness. The persistence of people and the world after someone awakens is due to others still dreaming, not the analogy being flawed. Shared Dream Reality: Leo insists that the perception of a shared dream is a personal illusion. Since each person is God, the awakening of any individual causes their unique dream world and its inhabitants to cease within their perspective. Falsifiability of the dream state: The notion that reality is a dream-like experience cannot be falsified, according to Leo. He argues that the concept of falsifiability, a critical principle in scientific methodology, has a fundamental flaw when applied to absolute truth. Skeptical investigation of truth: Leo recounts his shift from extreme skepticism and atheism to deeper inquiry into the nature of knowledge, questioning even his skepticism and realizing that reality is limited to personal experiences. Science within the dream of consciousness: Leo expresses that science and its proofs are confined within the dream of consciousness, cease to exist upon death, and are illusions within the current experience bubble. Falsifiability and absolute reality: Leo critiques the reliance on falsifiability in science by stating that absolute truth encompasses all dreams, self-deception, and potential wrongs, making it unfalsifiable as it includes the concept of falsifiability itself. Infinity and levels of consciousness: Discussing infinite consciousness, Leo claims that there is an ultimate level of consciousness that infinitely expands in all directions, imagining all possibilities, which cannot be surpassed or invalidated by a higher state. Skepticism about skepticism: Leo encourages skeptics to doubt their skepticism, logic, and even the workings of their own minds, advocating for a deeper questioning that includes these meta-criticisms. Tautological nature of reality: The conversation converges on the idea that reality, at its pinnacle, is a tautology, simply existing as it is, similar to the logical truth that one equals one, without additional explanatory power. Introduction of Matthew Phillips and the Transcend app: Matthew Phillips describes Transcend as a mobile app allowing users to capture and preserve their personal stories for posterity, highlighting the importance of one's legacy and providing tools for deeper connections with loved ones. G漆el's influence on truth and provability: G漆el's Incompleteness Theorem demonstrates that truth transcends provability; not all truths can be proven within a formal system, highlighting the limits of proof in understanding absolute reality. Conception of infinite consciousness: Leo clarifies that one's finite conception of infinite consciousness is not truly infinite. True infinite consciousness encompasses all possible existences, leaving nothing external to it. Limitations of language regarding infinity: The discussion acknowledges linguistic shortcomings in conveying the concept of infinity, distinguishing between conceptual orders of infinity and the notion of absolute infinity. Georg Cantor's Absolute Infinity: Cantor's development of set theory and the idea of different orders of infinity lead to the recognition of an "absolute infinity," which he symbolized with omega and equated with God. Leo emphasizes that even this concept is limited compared to the true nature of absolute infinity. Absolute Infinity beyond all imaginations: Leo explains absolute infinity as extending infinitely beyond all human constructs like mathematics, physics, or film, encapsulating literally every possibility. Debating the bounds of consciousness: Leo challenges the idea of anything existing beyond consciousness, arguing for a state where consciousness is all-encompassing, thereby negating any notion of external entities or realms. Transcendence of consciousness: Leo posits that consciousness is transcendental, not limited by physical laws or logical constraints, and underlies the existence of everything. Infinite regress of skepticism: Leo demonstrates that skepticism itself is part of consciousness and cannot escape it, leading to an infinite regress of possible doubt. Recognition and limits of finite consciousness: Leo draws an analogy to a donkey's inability to recognize itself in a mirror to illustrate the difficulty in explaining consciousness to someone not at an infinitely conscious state. He suggests that finite beings invent hypothetical entities beyond consciousness out of scepticism, not realizing everything they imagine is contained within consciousness. Platonic hat argument: Leo uses a playful analogy, equating claims of an even higher state beyond consciousness to a conceptual one-upmanship that doesn't address the inherent nature of consciousness and truth. Infinite Regress of Self-Deception: Infinite regress of self-deception showcases that any claim of truth can be met with an infinite chain of counterclaims, illustrating that truth can't be fully captured by arguments or models. God-realization as Meta Awareness: Being God-realized means being aware of the infinite regress and acknowledging that every description of God is just a finite aspect of an incomprehensibly meta and endless reality. The Tautology of 'One Equals One': The self-evidency of tautologies, like "one equals one," underlines their unfalsifiability and hints at infinite truths that are beyond standard logical proofs like reductio ad absurdum. Relativity of Absurdity: The notion of what is considered absurd is relative and cannot form a stable basis for dismissing claims, as what may be seen as absurd in one context might be accepted in another. Unfalsifiability of Truth: Truth is inherently unfalsifiable; the most difficult propositions to falsify or prove wrong are precisely those that might actually be true, thereby confronting the limits of proof and falsifiability in epistemology. Impact of Social Media on Meaningful Living: Social media breeds disconnection and competition contradicting meaningful living principles such as being present, loving, non-judgmental, and time-conscious. Project Transcend's Approach to Legacy: Project Transcend enables users to document their legacy, emphasizing a private, data-controlled approach for sharing beliefs and life experiences with future generations, unlike standard social media. Endurance of Truth: Once aware of the truth, an individual remains unshakable in that knowledge. Yet, the acknowledgment of potential self-deception is crucial, as one must deeply investigate truth for oneself over years. Skepticism and Nested Self-Deception: The self-deception of skepticism is pivotal, where nested layers of deception obscure the truth even further, making self-awareness a critical part of epistemology. Distinction Between Nescience and Ignorance: Nescience simply means not knowing, devoid of the wilful choice implied by ignorance, but the true problem lies in holding false beliefs, underscoring the importance of properly engaging with epistemology before metaphysics. Imaginary Nature of Hierarchies: At an absolute level, hierarchies are seen to be imaginary, with consciousness realizing its oneness to the extent that all distinctions dissolve, leaving a formless unity. Substance of Reality: The true substance of reality is nothing, as all perceived substances are distinctions within consciousness instead of being something tangible like atoms or energy. Limitations of Language in Grasping Reality: Language, by nature, is dualistic and cannot capture the essence of reality, which requires understanding beyond spoken or conceptual distinction like that between a chicken and a coffee table. Nature of distinctions: Distinctions such as those between a chicken and a coffee table are imaginary constructs of the mind. Without them, all things would merge into a single entity, which would essentially be nothing, and this nothing is what Leo considers infinity. Language and its limitations: Language was not intended for philosophical undertakings and is rooted in practicality, much like classical Newtonian mechanics, which are useful despite their known inaccuracies in representing absolute reality. Length as a relative measure: Leo challenges the concept of length as an absolute measure, highlighting its dependence on relative points of reference and suggesting that, at a fundamental level, distinctions like length are imagined. Ontological relativity: Leo introduces the notion of ontological relativity, suggesting that the distinction between objects like a chicken and a coffee table only exists within our perception and that without this distinction, they would become indistinguishable, merging into a single entity which is effectively nothing. Instrumentalism and science: Differentiating between the notion of science as instrumentalism, which focuses on practical predictions and measurements, and his own view, which is that even the distinctions used in science are not truly conscious understandings but rather conceptual tools that ultimately fail to capture the essence of reality. Existence and consciousness: Discussing the relationship between existence, consciousness, and love, Leo implies that these concepts are entwined at a metaphysical level and are present in all things, overturning materialistic assumptions that limit love to emotional experiences of advanced organisms. Emergence of scientific acceptance: Leo admits that some ideas that once seemed radical, like panpsychism or integrated information theory, are gaining more acceptance within the scientific community, suggesting that truth will eventually become more widely recognized. Concept of love: Leo explores the metaphysical meaning of saying "you love bacon," connecting it to a phenomenological experience of tastes and textures that consciousness biases towards, comparing it to less desirable experiences like eating a cricket. Biased vs unbiased love: He proposes that at the level of God consciousness, all distinctions between experiences collapse, leading to an unbiased love for all experiences. This contrast is made against human consciousness, which has preferences and biases necessary for survival. Definition of metaphysical love: Leo offers a technical definition of metaphysical love as the realization of no difference between anything, equating this realization with falling in love with oneself and all reality infinitely. Symmetry of the universe: He theorizes that the universe is perfectly symmetrical and unbiased, questioning why it would prioritize anything, such as particular human actions, at a universal scale. Problems of discussing existence with language: Both Leo and the interviewer, named Curt, acknowledge the challenge of discussing reality with language, as it can degrade or complicate the understanding, referencing Wittgenstein's philosophy on talking about the ineffable. Role of life experiences in awakening: Leo asserts that every life event, good or bad, is necessary for one's realization as God듮his realization encompasses everything one encounters, including mundane or seemingly negative experiences. Precision in language and public dialogue: The conversation transitions into the limits of language and how precise communication is vital to prevent misconceptions and misinterpretations in discussions about complex concepts like love and consciousness. Child's Concept of Energy: Children can be conditioned to associate specific objects, such as ducks, with concepts such as energy through reinforced learning, similar to how society conditions individuals to have selective biases about what or who is appropriate to love. Challenging Cultural Notions of Love: Leo argues against the culturally ingrained biases that determine acceptable objects of love, advocating for a universal application of the term 'love' to everything, mirroring the interconnectedness found in physics where all phenomena are forms of energy. Language's Limitations and Rehabilitation: The limitation of language in conveying complex ideas is discussed, with suggestions of either dismantling language's structure or refining it for greater precision. Leo insists on rehabilitating corrupted words like 'love', 'truth', and 'God' to their purer, more profound meanings. Resistance to 'God' and 'Love' Labels: Leo observes resistance to using terms like 'God' and 'love' and interprets this as an avoidance of a deeper realization that everything is an embodiment of these concepts. He underscores the need to recognize arbitrary biases in love and stresses the importance of connecting these biases with the concept of absolute love. Finite Nature of Hate: Hate, seen as a reaction to aspects of reality, is argued to be finite in nature, contrasting with the infinitude of love. Leo differentiates between relative love, which can include hate, and absolute love, which fully encompasses hate, likening it to the totality of the yin-yang symbol. Free Will as a Duality: Leo addresses the concept of free will as being perceived in opposition to determinism, highlighting nature's tendency to incorporate both aspects of any duality. He distinguishes different answers to the existence of free will based on one's level of consciousness. Infinite Nature of God's Will: At the highest level of consciousness, God is described as an infinite mind with no external restrictions, implying that any limitations are self-imposed through imagination and self-deception. This leads to the notion that limits are illusory, and omnipotence is God's true state. Self-Deception in Limitation: The paradox of omnipotence is discussed, suggesting that God can only experience limitation through an illusory belief in finitude, such as imagining oneself to be a limited human instead of an unlimited entity. This self-deception is essential for God to experience anything less than omnipotence. Concept of Absolute Good: Everything in the universe, even actions that are typically seen as negative or evil, are manifestations of absolute good because they arise from a state of selflessness inherent in the totality of existence. Potential of Omniscience: Leo Gura opens up the possibility for oneself to attain a state of complete knowledge or omniscience, challenging the idea that it is impossible and encouraging an openness to the potential of becoming all-knowing. God Realization After Death: The concept discussed suggests that upon death, an individual's self dissolves into God, achieving unity with the omniscient being. This realization implies a reunification with the absolute essence of all that is. Theory of Everything (TOE) Definition: Gura contends that a true TOE must satisfactorily address not just physical phenomena but also answer the fundamental question of why anything exists at all, encompassing both the physical universe and existence with a capital "U." Exploring Belief Limitations: Gura indicates that a self-fulfilling belief in the impossibility of achieving omniscience during one's lifetime acts as a barrier to the realization of that potential, similar to how preconceived notions can obstruct the discovery of new knowledge like the existence of a platypus. Investment in Truth: Truth-seeking is presented as requiring active engagement and investment, akin to the dedication exemplified in the construction of the Large Hadron Collider to discover the Higgs boson, suggesting that deep truths and profound TOEs are discovered through committed effort, not passive contemplation. Sharing of God's Creativity: The reason for existence according to Leo is rooted in God's creativity, where God, as an infinitely loving and selfless being, creates all possibilities and shares that infinite beauty with finite forms that can later reunify with the infinite source. God's Nature of Love and Creativity: An intricate link is drawn between love, creativity, omnipotence, intelligence, and consciousness. The essence of God is depicted as endless creativity and the act of creating everything conceivable듯nderstood not as an action of love but as the fundamental state of love itself. Reflection of Love in Creation: Casting God's act of creation as an expression of its very nature, Gura suggests that the manifestation of infinite forms is an ultimate act of sharing and a reflection of love, defying anthropomorphized conceptions of God and embracing creativity as intrinsic to the essence of love. Multiverse and Anthropic Principle Critique: The multiverse theory and anthropic principle are critiqued as insufficient explanations for the fine-tuning of the universe's physical laws, with the assertion that the true explanation for existence lies in the creation of everything simultaneously. Creation and destruction dichotomy: Creation and destruction are intrinsically linked, exemplified in ecosystems where life and death support one another in a continuous cycle, refuting the naive dichotomy that creation is solely good and death is inherently bad. Finite Creation: All human-made creations are finite by necessity, delineated by excluding all other possibilities, forming a reality defined by limitations and distinctions. Memory and Consciousness: Just as working memory limits how many thoughts can be simultaneously held, finite creation and imagination are constrained, unable to encompass infinity without transitioning into nothingness or undefined potential. Superposition and Reality: In imagining all possible animals merged into one, a perfect superposition represents infinity or nothingness듯ndefined until distinctions are made, illustrating the paradoxical nature of creation as both defining and limiting reality. Paradoxes in Universal Concepts: Discussing set paradoxes and properties of imagined universes, highlighting issues of considering individual components versus a collective understanding and the elasticity of the concept of reality. Reality as Singular Existence: The exercise illustrates that reality must be a singular entity, as even the notion of separation among multiple realities would itself be part of one encompassing reality, eliminating the distinction between what's real and unreal. Material and Immaterial Boundaries: Challenges the distinction between reality and unreality, suggesting that boundaries are illusory and recognizing all as part of one reality leads to an infinite understanding of existence. Personal Growth and Variability in Psychedelic Experiences: Leo emphasizes his personal commitment to growth and understanding reality, recognizing individual differences in responses to psychedelic substances and their potential influence on consciousness expansion. Existence beyond concepts: Leo challenges the notion that edges of existence are within our reach, proposing that one could theoretically see everything in the universe simultaneously, thereby negating the possibility of unseen or non-existent aspects. Understanding existence: Leo contends that it's possible to fully understand what it means to exist beyond particular forms and that awakening means realizing non-existence as a concept, not a reality. Absolute existence: In Leo's view, existence is absolute, suggesting that concepts of non-existence and beyond infinity are merely thoughts within the infinite framework of consciousness. Qualia as absolute truth: Leo describes the profound nature of existence, inviting contemplation on the immediate experience of one's hands as an example of undeniable truth, untouched by constructs like time, space, or matter. Meditative exercise for realizing consciousness: Leo guides through an exercise aiming to illustrate the immediacy of consciousness and reality, emphasizing the importance of direct experience over intellectual pondering. Infinite consciousness and imagination: Leo discusses the elasticity of infinity, which by its nature, includes all things든ven concepts of what lies beyond it, and concludes that what seems like physical reality is ultimately based on an act of imagination. Donald Hoffman's Interface Theory: Leo critiques Donald Hoffman's Interface Theory, which suggests that human perception does not depict reality truthfully due to natural selection. He argues that Hoffman's theory is flawed because perception itself is the truest form of reality든verything perceived is absolutely real. Scientific Reductionism Criticized: Leo vehemently opposes scientific reductionism, the view that phenomena can be explained by reducing them to their constituent parts. He posits that being is fundamental and cannot be reduced to concepts, which biases scientific inquiry away from direct contact with reality. Qualia as Reality: Leo asserts that qualia, or personal experiences of phenomena, define reality. He disputes the idea of an independent world beyond experience and challenges scientific paradigms that differentiate between qualia and objective reality. Misconception of Representation: He highlights an epistemological issue in how science relies on symbols, which are not the things they represent. This leads to an endless chain of concepts never grasping the tangible essence they aim to describe. Existence of Concepts: Discussing the nature of concepts, Leo suggests that everything, including abstract notions like Santa Claus or quarks, exists at least as a concept but that doesn't infer their material existence. Substance and Concept: He differentiates between the substance of things (reality) and our concepts of them. He emphasizes that concepts, such as atoms or strings, developed after the tangible reality they attempt to describe, indicating a misinterpretation by science of the order of reality. Fallacy of Discovering Quarks: Leo challenges the notion that scientists discover particles like quarks, stating that they merely invent the concept to represent what they believe to be the foundational elements of reality. Qualia Realness Inquiry: Leo confronts materialistic views by asking for evidence of anything existing outside of qualia, thereby arguing that everyday experiences and sensations are as real as they are perceived. Tautology of Experience: He points out the tautology in questioning the reality of experience, indicating that asking for proof beyond personal experience is like requesting an experience that isn't an experience. Realness and Unreality Buttons: Utilizing an analogy of hypothetical buttons that trigger certain experiences or realizations, Leo illustrates the problem of distinguishing between perceptions of reality and unreality, emphasizing the subjective nature of experience. Neuromodulators and Transcendence: Leo discusses how future brain imaging and neurochemistry might interpret transcendent experiences, like God realization, as biological events, and questions the validity of such materialistic reductions. Confusion between concept and reality: Leo points out that while symbols and words, like 'duck,' help us conceptualize reality, they are not reality itself. He criticizes mathematician Max Tegmark's view that the universe is fundamentally mathematical, arguing that while mathematics can describe reality, it is not synonymous with being. Projection of belief onto reality: Leo suggests that people see reality through the lens of their beliefs, much like how a Christian might perceive Christ in everyday objects. He connects this to the idea that an individual's experience of reality, whether atheist, materialist, or spiritual, is unique and deeply influenced by their belief systems. Existence of God as a matter of perspective: Leo argues that for an atheist, God does not exist; however, this is simply what God듪r infinite consciousness들s imagining for that person. He suggests that one's belief about material reality is a temporary state and that experiences, like those induced by psychedelics, can shift these beliefs. Subjectivity and variety in beliefs: Gura discusses the diversity of sincere beliefs held by people throughout history and questions why intelligent individuals, such as Isaac Newton, believed in God. He attributes this not to a lack of intelligence but to the sincerity and depth of their personal reality. Finite conception of free will: Leo views the ego as a finite state of consciousness that believes it controls reality, a necessary illusion for survival. He differentiates 'will,' which exists in humans in limited form, from 'infinite will,' the latter of which he aligns with God and its materials manifestations. Challenge of future prediction: When discussing consciousness at the highest levels, Leo explains that the concepts of a predictable future and material reality dissolve, complicating notions of prediction and verification of truth. Limitations and possibilities of mystical abilities: Leo acknowledges his ongoing exploration of consciousness and considers the potential future development of abilities like clairvoyance, despite not currently claiming them. Trade-off between absolute consciousness and finite details: Gura describes a trade-off when accessing higher states of consciousness, where one gains a view of totality at the expense of losing sight of detailed aspects of the earthly domain. Acknowledgment of personal self-deception: Despite his insights into infinite consciousness, Leo admits to being susceptible to self-deception in the relative, material world and recognizes the need to update his beliefs when proven otherwise. Leo's skepticism and humility: While having strong convictions, Leo expresses skepticism about his worldview, showing a level of humility that humanizes his assertions about consciousness and God. Experience with Paranormal Healing: Leo sought non-traditional healing for his persistent stomach issues, consulting with healers and fortune tellers from a variety of backgrounds. Skepticism and Desperation: Despite his skepticism, health problems led Leo to consult various paranormal practitioners, revealing the impact of desperation on openness to alternative methods. Testing Paranormal Claims: Leo devised a strategy to test the reliability of different healers' insights by comparing their independent diagnoses of his health issue. Inconclusive Results and Self-deception: The conflicting diagnoses from paranormal healers led Leo to a deeper understanding of self-deception and reinforced his skepticism. Discrepancy in Paranormal Healing Experiences: Leo observed that different healers, despite their sincerity, provided dissimilar explanations for his condition, which did not lead to lasting relief. Personal Bubbles of Reality: Leo's worldviews suggest that individuals live within their own subjective reality bubbles, which may intersect but are not entirely aligned with those of others. Relativity of Delusion: Delusional experiences can be real for the person experiencing them, due to the flexible boundary between dreams and physical reality as seen through psychedelic experiences. Skepticism's Limitations: Leo discusses how excessive skepticism can block the acknowledgement of certain experiences or phenomena, such as the ability to read, and equates ultimate skepticism with the ability to doubt any aspect of reality. Denial of consciousness: Gura argues that atheists may be denying their own consciousness by rejecting or hating existence, equating atheism to a denial of oneself as God. Evil's relationship with existence and consciousness: Leo converses about the idea that evil is tied to acts against existence and consciousness, emphasizing that evil is a form of selfishness arising from a lack of consciousness. Understanding evil through consciousness: He asserts that a lower level of consciousness is associated with deriving pleasure from suffering, and uses examples from cruel behavior and political schadenfreude to illustrate different consciousness levels. Political consciousness and bias: Discussing political bias, Leo shares his observation that both sides of the political spectrum can exhibit tribalism, but notes a specific unwillingness by some to acknowledge any positive actions from opposing figures like Trump. Criticism of Sam Harris's 'Moral Landscape': Leo criticizes Harris's concept of objective morality and suggests that relative human concepts of good are tied to egoistic perspectives and can't define what is good for humanity as a whole. Sam Harris's level of awakening: Gura questions the depth of Sam Harris's understanding of no-self and awakening, indicating Harris lacks realization of higher states of consciousness and God-realization. Sam Harris's limited psychedelic experiences: Leo suggests that Harris has not deeply experimented with psychedelics and is restricted by materialistic and intellectual attachments. Ideological entrenchment limiting psychedelic insights: Gura explains how entrenched worldviews can prevent psychedelics from significantly expanding one's consciousness, requiring an open mind and dealing with psychological baggage for deeper realizations. Individual variability in psychedelic experiences: Psychedelic experiences differ greatly among people due to unique psychological baggage, trauma, and personal openness, which can influence the nature and intensity of their trips. Personal anecdote on psychedelic experience: Matthew shares his own encounter with psychedelics, which challenged his understanding of consciousness but not his atheism, and contrasts this with a friend who had no profound insights even at higher doses, highlighting the role of one's mindset and openness in determining the impact of psychedelics. Impact of philosophical curiosity: Leo emphasizes that an individual's interest in understanding existence profoundly influences their responses to psychedelics; those genuinely curious about metaphysical topics may have more significant revelations than those who are indifferent. Diverse responses to psychedelics: People react differently to the same doses of psychedelics due to varying physiological sensitivities. Leo notes personal sensitivity and how some individuals can handle larger doses without significant effects. Different aims with psychedelics: While some people are mainly interested in visual effects, Leo seeks insights and understanding, explaining that even low doses can lead him to experiences of infinite consciousness, sometimes with overwhelming bliss. Guidance for avoiding negative trip outcomes: Leo advises cautious dosing and respect for psychedelics. He criticizes the notion of "heroic doses," noting that overconfidence can lead to adverse effects, including egotistical rebound post-trip. Mental stability and personal history: Leo attributes his psychological resilience to a relatively positive upbringing, advising those with challenging pasts or mental health issues to be careful with psychedelics and to lay a foundational self-help groundwork first. Nuanced views on God realization and awakening: Leo distinguishes between accessing infinite truth and fully embodying it, admitting his own ongoing work in integrating the absolute with the relative and that spiritual teachers can have personal flaws despite deep insights. Insecurities and authenticity: Despite projecting wisdom, Leo acknowledges his own egoic tendencies and the complexities of living up to spiritual insights, indicating that genuine self-reflection and vulnerability are part of his journey. Self-improvement and accessing truth: Accessing infinite truth doesn't automatically resolve personal issues like addictions or conflicts; the mind's structure with its attachments, biases, and beliefs remains largely intact. Deconstruction of the mind continues even after accessing infinity. Attachment and life goals: Whether to eliminate attachment hinges on individual life goals. Removing attachments can increase one's capacity for love, as love is characterized by a lack of bias and attachment inherently introduces suffering. Impermanence and suffering: All attachments are temporary due to the principle of impermanence, which states that all forms in the universe cannot remain constant. Attachment to any form, tangible or conceptual, guarantees future loss and subsequent suffering. Attachment weighing happiness against suffering: While attachments may bring happiness, they also ensure future suffering when they end. This is likened to taking a loan of happiness that must be paid back with suffering when the attachment is lost. Thomas Campbell's astral perspective: Leo aligns with Campbell on the idea that consciousness and love are fundamental but disputes Campbell's view on the finite nature of reality and the idea that time and units of reality are fundamental. Learning from Campbell's dream analysis: Leo appreciates Campbell's insights on how recurring dreams can reveal unresolved traumas and psychic baggage and can be used for self-therapy to integrate these lessons and cease recurring dreams. Bernardo Kastrup's agreement and critique: Leo concurs with Kastrup's arguments against materialism but contends that Kastrup hasn't fully realized that he is God imagining all existence. Kastrup's rejection of solipsism and his concept of a dissociative boundary between consciousnesses are areas of discord. Understanding Infinity through division: Reality is viewed as capable of infinite division, with no foundational unit. Infinity allows for continuous fractal division, debunking the notion of a limit within reality such as the Planck length. Attachment to ideas and beliefs: Even being attached to seemingly positive ideas, like the concept of God, can lead to suffering due to the impermanent nature of all attachments and forms. Infinite probe of consciousness: Consciousness is not limited by conceptual structures like the Planck length; it has the potential to delve infinitely within or beyond, exploring realms beyond current scientific understanding. Divergence from Frank Yang: Leo is familiar with Frank Yang but has limited knowledge of his worldview. He acknowledges Yang's critique of psychedelics and preference for enlightenment through meditation, notably the Buddhist concept of cessation. Cessation and temporality: The state of cessation is described as the universe ceasing to exist, then rebooting드n atemporal state adjacent to our temporal reality. Leo views this abrupt transition akin to a computer restart, bridging eternity and the observable world. Equality of conscious states: Leo does not single out cessation as a superior state, considering all states of consciousness equal듡orm, formlessness, or cessation. Reintegrating form and formlessness: The spiritual path typically progresses from realizing no-self to formlessness, and eventually to recognizing form as nothingness. True non-duality emerges when all states, including the material, are seen as manifestations of the absolute. Dogmatism in non-dualist communities: Leo observes a tendency among early non-dualist students to recite beliefs about non-duality and infinity as truths, possibly fooling themselves about the extent of their awakening due to the radical nature of initial realizations. Spiritual defensiveness and compassion: Commenting on the spiritual community's defensive stance towards science, Leo admits his own past lack of compassion towards figures like Richard Dawkins, recognizing now that all opposition stems from ignorance. Awakening's selectivity and attachments: Leo stresses that awakening is radical and not suitable for everyone. He suggests not trying to force it upon unwilling individuals and emphasizes managing attachments responsibly rather than completely detaching. Persona adoption in spiritual communities: Leo notes an affected happiness among some followers in the spiritual community, potentially signifying inauthentic behavior. He admits to enhancing excitement in his videos for engagement but questions whether he should credit his audience with greater understanding of complex topics. Cessation visualization: Leo imagines cessation as a nonsequential reemergence of consciousness rather than a gradual return, accentuating the dissonance between atemporal and temporal states and their inexplicable coexistence. Conceptual non-duality vs. actual experiences of awakening: Leo differentiates between intellectually accepted ideas of non-duality and the actual expansive experiences of awakening, noting that each state of consciousness, including cessation, is equally an expression of the absolute. Perceived dogmatism in the pursuit of inner peace: Leo addresses apparent dogmatic repetition within non-dualist communities, recognizing it as potentially misleading and a form of self-deception. Authenticity and truth realizations: Despite noting superficiality in some spiritual practitioners, Leo champions true non-dual teachers for their authenticity, which he attributes to their pursuit of truth. Assumptions about the audience's intelligence: Leo sometimes underestimates his audience's intelligence, assuming they won't grasp complex ideas. He acknowledges this may not give them enough credit for their understanding. Steel manning vs. straw man arguments: While Leo tries to make debates humorous by considering absurd objections, he believes he could benefit from taking a more rigorous steel man approach to strengthen his arguments rather than ridiculing counterpoints. Precision in pursuit of truth: Emphasizes precision and stretching analogies to their limits as means to gain insight and understands truth, suggesting traditional media may underestimate the audience's capacity to grasp complex concepts. Free will and God's identity: Leo engages with a complex dialogue about free will and identity with God, discussing how finite minds grapple with infinite concepts, leading to paradoxes and the eventual realization that one is fully divine. Realization of God's nature: Leo's personal journey reflects a gradual realization from recognizing God as external, to questioning God's nature, to ultimately recognizing oneself as God, which comes with immense humility and selflessness. Understanding God as infinite love: The realization of God's true identity as an act of infinite love is described as transformative and life-changing, leading to the understanding of why everything exists as it does. Acceptance of ultimate reality: Leo shares the view that recognizing oneself as God results in the understanding that the physical universe would cease to exist from his perspective because all perspectives are ultimately imagined within one's own consciousness. Problem of solipsism in understanding unity: Solipsism is critiqued as not being radical enough; the ultimate truth is realizing a unique type of unity where one is not alone because of separateness but because everything merges into a singular consciousness. Finality of realizing ultimate truth: God realization is so intense that if fully accepted, it would mean the dissolution of the universe, highlighting the notion that true awareness can obliterate finite constructs. Discussion on finite perspectives: A conversation unfolds about the seeming paradox of other perspectives ending if one individual reaches the ultimate realization of God, leading to the idea that, at the highest level of understanding, no other separate perspectives actually exist. Convergence of Conscious Perspectives: As consciousness rises, distinctions between selves, objects, and concepts dissolve, leading to a convergence or "coning" effect where all become one. This realization of oneness is likened to the deepest physical and emotional fusion between beings, transcending individuality into eternal, undifferentiated unity. Definition of God Realization: Leo defines God realization as a state beyond simply experiencing nothingness or physical objects; it is conscious self-creation, where individuals are aware they are imaginatively composing all of reality, including their own bodies. This state transcends all limitations, constantly self-creates, and embodies infinite creativity, and is appropriately termed "God." Critique of Spiral Dynamics: Leo critiques the hierarchical nature of spiral dynamics, suggesting it fails to represent the highest states of consciousness where hierarchies become meaningless, and direct experience does not rely on ranked stages or development directions. Impermanence Paradox: Addressing the paradox of permanence in impermanence, Leo states that at basic levels of consciousness, impermanence is evident, but at the highest levels, one might view everything, including love, as eternally existing, eluding the notion of impermanence. Free Will as a Fragment of Divine Will: He argues free will is inherited from God's self-determined nature, allowing humans to create and influence their world in a finite manner, experiencing the divine act of creation to various degrees. God as Creator and Destroyer: Both creation and destruction are integral aspects of God, yet intuitively, God is more akin to a creator, even though destruction is necessary for new creation. Life's intention is framed as facilitating more life rather than death, with life perpetually supported by death in a never-ending cycle. Intentions and Perceived Good: Every action, even seemingly negative ones, is considered good, with figures like Hitler believing they were doing the greatest good from their perspective. Leo elaborates on how lower states of consciousness can corrupt the perception of what is good, while higher states embrace a purer, selfless understanding. Hate as Distorted Love: The concept of hate is discussed as a manifestation of insufficient love, with individuals expressing hate as a means to cope with their own lack of love and striving to eliminate what they perceive as evil, which ironically can create more evil. Audience Participation and App Introduction: Audience questions are anticipated and Matthew introduces the Transcend app, emphasizing the uniqueness in purpose compared to common social platforms, prioritizing privacy and meaningful interaction over superficial connectivity. Twisted nature of hate: Hate is a contorted form of love that stems from loving something else in opposition to the thing one hates, as was the case with Hitler hating Jews due to his intense love for the purity of Germany. Hatred as a response to insufficient love: People become hateful primarily because they were denied proper love, often leading them to reject love towards others out of a sense of deprivation or as a reactionary mechanism. Origins of evil and division: The original act of partitioning infinite love, which could be seen as the first form of evil, occurred when God divided itself to share love with others, making any finite form inherently less than everything. Removal of moral judgment and free will: In Leo's model, moral judgment is removed. Without free will, there's no basis for worst or evil since everything, even divisions, is part of absolute perfection as expressions of infinite love or perfection. Concept of Absolute Good: Gura suggests that everyone acts from a stance of absolute good; when fully awakened, one perceives everything and everyone as fundamentally good, challenging conventional definitions of good and evil. Logic's limitations in reaching the Absolute: Logic, being finite, cannot arrive at an absolute understanding; it's only applicable after directly experiencing the absolute, which is beyond logic's capabilities. Matthew Phillips and the Transcend app: Matthew Phillips introduces the Transcend app, inspired by his life experiences and near-death realization about the importance of legacy. The app is designed to document and pass on one's personal legacy and preserves users' privacy and data ownership with insight prompts to encourage meaningful entries. Origins of Transcend: The idea for the Transcend app was inspired by Leo Gura's approach to sharing wisdom through videos, contemplating how to document important life lessons. Documenting Personal Legacy: Transcend is designed as a private platform for individuals to document and pass on their personal experiences, beliefs, and wisdom, contrasting with the transient and public nature of traditional social media. Privacy and Data Ownership: A key feature of Transcend is its commitment to user privacy. It operates on a subscription model, ensuring users have full ownership of their data, with the app serving as a secure repository for a personal legacy. Transcend's User Experience: Users are guided to annotate their content, explaining its significance and setting permissions for who can access it. The app currently focuses on intuitive use but plans to evolve into immersive and interactive experiences. Intelligence and Personal Relevance of Content: Transcend differentiates itself by prioritizing the quality and personal relevance of content over traditional metadata used by other platforms, aiming to present memories and moments to the right person at the right time. Tools for Connection: The app includes prompts and tools designed to facilitate deeper connections and meaningful interactions between users and their loved ones, adapting to various situations and relationships. Furnunculus

"When a piece of seemingly solid matter like a human hand is placed under a microscope, we can see that it is made up of molecules. As we move closer, we see atoms, the tiny shadowy balls dancing around their fixed locations. And now we focus on one of the atoms; its interior is lightly veiled by a cloud of electrons. We come closer, increasing the magnification. The shell dissolves and we look on the inside to find… nothing. Somewhere within that emptiness, we know is a nucleus. We scan the space, and there it is, a tiny dot. At last, we have discovered something hard and solid, a reference point. But no! as we move closer to the nucleus, it too begins to dissolve. It too is nothing more than an oscillating field, waves of rhythm. Inside the nucleus are other organized fields: protons, neutrons, even smaller “particles.” Each of these, upon our approach, also dissolve into pure rhythm." - George Leonard, The Silent Pulse

What happens in deep sleep? (26 of 29) https://youtu.be/bt90l6S-xbE?si=S_3iTqTxsEcIbiEl Explanation of deep sleep: Deep sleep involves no dreams or consciousness, and it gives the sensation of non-existence as if one has never been. Clarification about enlightenment vs. deep sleep: Enlightenment is distinct from deep sleep; the latter is a state of ignorance lacking awareness, not representative of one's true enlightened nature. The illusory sensation of non-existence: The feeling of non-existence in deep sleep may be mistaken for 'nothingness', but it is different from the 'nothingness' associated with one's true nature. The role of deep sleep for the body: Deep sleep, where the mind and self cease activity, is biologically essential, demonstrating the necessity for the mind to rest for the body's survival. Relation of deep sleep to true nature: Ramana Maharshi views deep sleep as the closest state to our true nature due to its characteristic 'not knowing', but this is not the same as the awareness in enlightenment. Mistaking ignorance for true nature: Although deep sleep is a state of complete ignorance, this ‘not knowing' aspect resembles the closest approximation to one's true nature if not enlightened. Ascendio

This is a letter to the dreamers of the world, the visionaries, who have suffered through hell and have emerged through the other side to experience the love of god, the luminous Divine. To all the madmans out there who are centered in their will and vision to make a change. What can a person do in one life? What can one person spark in a lifetime? It is not the critic nor the masses which approve or deny the validity of a vision, but are the decades and millenias that follow. The chaotic butterfly effect spreads its fractal wings through the cosmos, awareness to its dangers and the harvest of its power should be weighed on the same scale. The sandbox of reality is much bigger than to be understood, everyone are clueless but are full of 'knowledge', we all stand on the same epistemological grounds, nothing stops you from experiementing where others havent, explore the uncharted territories of reality, creatively combine opposite fields in your work and self, the flower of creation blooms best by integration rather than specification. The next step appears as a single step is taken, it is with humble grace that the gates of heaven open, clarity will never be an option, confusion is not an enemy but clearly shows our inability to comprehend the workings of the abyss, trust builds by the flow which comes with the constitution of the being in Love. God drives the vessel of the being which is surrendered, when you become as clear as water, the wave merges into the ocean, and only selfless power reigns. Transcend your emotions, by dissolving them with acceptance. Transcend your thoughts, by seeing their nature to be a mirage. Be attentive to your intuition, and listen deeply to your heart, for the answers are already known. Learn the mechanics of your mind and spirit, know this machine and its points of leverage, boil down the principles and values in this abstract groundlesness, which only time and experience will distill, this is the beauty of the path. Openmindedness, honesty, truth, curiosity and humility are a good place to start, if you lack any of them, biased houses of cards will build themselves up. do not divert nor delude yourself, dont leave any rock unturned in your inquiry for wholeness. Dont rush for you will fumble, go slow and deep, the order is divine and cant be skipped, time will call for massive action and time will call for patient observation, the one is yin, the other yang, two parts of a full process, do not resist, and welcome both with hands wide open, this is the order of the cosmos, this is the workings of the tao. Transcend the mind, transcend the matter, be as clueless as an infant, clear as a blank slate, with an open heart there is nothing to defend, but strength to defend all, arrives. Mighty is the sword that strikes but even mightier the will, a single point, sharpened. yield to Love just as the grass bends with the wind. Drop the linearity, merge your concepts into nothingness, every paradox is reconcilable, every problem awaits its solution, to every tunnel there is a light, any course is changable, and nothing in this world is rigid. stuff will unfold naturally if you stop holding on so badly. it is trust and faith that guide the way, not the apparent duality that breaks the spirit. Hardships are merely tests of the spirit, do you really want the next step? Are you really centered in your SELF? You will be shivering with fear and doubt, but nothing will extinguish the fire of the heart. To end it all with a few words from William Ernest Henley: "It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul." Be courageous, fearless, for the SELF is Immortal, Infinite, my friend.

Infinite Love Awakening https://www.actualized.org/insights/infinite-love-awakening Continued exploration of consciousness: Leo describes his journey through multiple awakenings, with the latest one being a profound shift that he terms a "white hole of pure consciousness," a state where he ceases to identify as human and perceives existence without any constraints, fully immersed in a realization of infinite love. Understanding of love and creation: He delves into the mechanics of the divine, experiencing a clear understanding that everything in the universe is created from and for the purpose of infinite love. This level of love is so intense that it becomes annihilating and could be perceived as terrifying due to its totality and overwhelming nature. Realization of life's purpose: Leo comes to the conclusion that the highest purpose of life is the expression and experience of infinite love. He emphasizes that God's intent is to share this love by creating a multitude of forms and beings, despite the inherent fear and confusion this profound love may cause in lesser beings. The paradox of finite understanding: He highlights the struggle of lesser beings who are unable to fully grasp infinite love due to their finite nature. This limitation leads to a life filled with suffering, confusion, and the chase for temporal pleasures. He asserts that all negative experiences and actions stem from a misunderstanding or fear of love. Life as perceived from a higher state of consciousness: Leo suggests that, from the perspective of this higher state of consciousness, there is nothing to lose or fear in life. Everything, including what is traditionally considered evil, is actually derived from infinite love and has no negative implications when understood correctly. Role of fear in human actions: Leo points out that fear in life is essentially the fear of love, and that every human action is a quest for love or a response to the lack of it. He exemplifies this through interpersonal relationships and aggressive behaviors, stating that these ultimately reflect the human longing for love in its many forms. Universal motivation for love: Leo reiterates the idea that every being's actions are motivated by love, whether through desire or fear. He challenges the listener to recognize love as the underlying reason for all occurrences, both positive and negative, no matter how convoluted or counterintuitive it may seem. Path of life and awakening: Leo's vision features a giant ball of infinite love from which strands representing individual lives emerge. Humans are born with a desire for love but lack proper guidance to find it, leading them to stray further from the source (Godhead). Ultimately, all return to this source, whether through death or awakening, with no distinction between the two. Perception of humanity's insignificance: Leo gains a perspective whereby humanity, along with all its knowledge, is depicted as infinitesimally small compared to infinite consciousness. Mankind's existential weight is likened to a particle of dust within a vast hurricane, emphasizing the sheer scale of the broader conscious universe. Death as a victory: From his awakened state, Leo contends that death should not be feared but embraced as the ultimate union with infinite love. He describes it as winning the cosmic lottery, where the individual transitions to a state of ultimate positivity, far greater than any human experience. Love as the reason for everything: Leo challenges viewers to reexamine all events and actions through the lens of love, proposing that love is the driving force behind every occurrence, even those perceived as negative or harmful. This view requires a significant shift in perspective and understanding of causation. Conscious awareness mitigating fear: By recognizing the infinite love underpinning existence, one becomes immune to fear and suffering, as fear is rendered nonsensical from a higher standpoint. This realization is described as liberating and transformative, dissolving the dread associated with life's adversities. Integration of consciousness and love: Leo expresses that only by being God can one grasp that everything is love. For lesser beings, the journey of life is an arc that ultimately returns to infinite love-a realization that arrives typically at life's end but could be recognized earlier. Consciousness beyond traditional teachings: He asserts that his consciousness has advanced beyond established spiritual teachings like Zen, Advaita, Yoga, and Buddhism. He emphasizes that fully awakening entails recognizing infinite love in all aspects of life and existence. A call to prioritize infinite consciousness: Leo urges the audience to forget other concepts like no self, nothingness, the void, and self-enquiry, and instead to relentlessly pursue infinite love and consciousness without predefined methods, highlighting the difficulty of this path. Confidence in evolved teachings: He discusses the evolution of his teachings and claims superiority in understanding compared to other spiritual masters. Despite feeling overwhelmed by the responsibility to teach, he is determined to share his insights. Teaching from motivation not method: Leo advises focusing on the ultimate motivation and intention in the spiritual journey rather than being caught up in specific methodologies. He believes this approach will lead to success over time. Critical understanding of actual truth: He underscores the importance of cultivating a profound desire for actual truth and understanding, as opposed to clinging to non-dual states or enlightenment experiences without comprehension. He argues that deep understanding is key to awakening. Understanding as a path to genuine awakening: Emphasizing that one is not truly awake until they can account for every occurrence in reality, Leo calls for understanding the universal causation of love as the fundamental reason behind all events and actions. Future of teachings: Leo looks forward to deepening his teachings, focusing on essential truths, and avoiding wasting time on less important details. He hints at the future content that connects concepts more directly and promises to reveal more profound insights. Amortentia

Hawaii Late Night Insights https://www.actualized.org/insights/hawaii-april-2018-late-night-insights Striving for permanence in awakening: Leo is attempting to make his deep awakening experiences permanent during his solo retreat by focusing highly on the notion of nothingness during meditation. The inverse of self and ego: He has come to understand that what he truly seeks-the nature of his existence-is the inverse of self and ego, essentially nothingness and infinity, suggesting a need for ego surrender for deeper insight. Experience of existential envelopment: During intense meditation, Leo feels engulfed by nothingness, leading to a profound suffering analogous to physical symptoms of death, reinforcing his insight that genuine understanding requires self-surrender. Acceptance of physical death: Leo advocates that true awakening demands not just psychological or ego death, but the acceptance of one's own physical death, encompassing the surrender of life's enjoyments and identity. Criticizing the understatement of awakening's difficulty: He critiques many spiritual teachings for understating the rigors of awakening, clarifying that proper meditation leads to confronting a critical choice between succumbing to fears or surrendering to truth. Buddha's revered image and death: Leo reflects on Buddha's revered status and how his moment of awakening, depicted in statues worldwide, signifies the death of the small self and the continuation of the body as a mere vessel for teaching post-awakening. Materialist paradigm's limitation: The materialist, egoic, and dualistic paradigms struggle to comprehend the continuation of life without the self. This notion challenges the very core of understanding reality, as it does not align with the experience of the self being alive. The Buddha's awakening: Described as a form of actual physical death, the Buddha's awakening is presented as an embodiment of surrender and the ultimate leap of faith. This surrender is revered and symbolized in statues around the world, representing the ultimate cost paid for enlightenment. Fear of actual death during awakening: Leo confronts his fear that the awakening process might lead to his actual physical death. He recognizes this as a possible outcome and prepares to accept it, which represents a significant mental and emotional milestone in his journey towards enlightenment. Understanding the sacrifice for awakening: Most people are unprepared for the level of sacrifice required for true awakening, which is described as the willingness to sacrifice physical life for truth. The process involves intense suffering and a paradox where the pursuit of eternal happiness ultimately requires one to face their physical mortality first. Clarification on real death: Leo emphasizes that awakening does not involve literal physical harm but is about accepting real death in the sense of realizing one's non-existence from the beginning. Illusory nature of self: Despite the fear and sensation of a pounding heart during meditation, he recognized that the self he thought he was surrendering is an illusion, as he was essentially 'nothing' all along. The challenge of conscious surrender: The difficulty lies in consciously deciding to let go and surrender to the process, which is complicated by the fear of death. Leo faced significant resistance from his ego, which caused inner suffering. Love as a means to conquer fear: In the struggle to surrender, Leo discovered that invoking the feeling of infinite love can dissolve the fear, and the intention to act out of love for truth, humanity, and reality became his intended method to transcend fear. Meditation session conclusion: Despite the build-up to a potential awakening and overcoming fear with love, the expected transformation did not occur. Leo's intensive meditation session ended without the anticipated breakthrough. Validity of process insights: Leo explains that his insights are credible, even in the absence of a full awakening during the session, due to his cumulative experiences from smaller awakenings and deepened understanding over time. Psychedelics as a preview to awakening: He argues that psychedelics are powerful tools for understanding the dying process related to ego death and can offer profound, real experiences that demonstrate the process without one's conscious effort to die. Comparison between suicide and ego death: Ego death during meditation is compared to the arduous task of overcoming one's survival instincts-as difficult or even harder than the physical act of suicide due to the ego's deep-rooted resistance. Repeated attempts and psychedelic support: Real awakening requires persistent effort and might involve many attempts. Psychedelic experiences, particularly 5-MeO-DMT, help diminish the fear of ego death by repeatedly crossing the threshold, making the process less intimidating over time. Awakening as permanent death: The pursuit of awakening that the most revered sages have achieved equates to a permanent death of the ego, a key distinction from ordinary self-improvement or consciousness work, which Leo highlights with great emphasis. Insight on the awakening process: Leo identifies his past lack of understanding about facing his own death; he now comprehends that awakening requires an acceptance akin to physically dying and takes a leap of faith inspired by infinite love. The illusion of the little self: The transition from the ego, or little self, to the big self-the true infinite self-is seen as a form of death by the ego, which ultimately is an illusion. Crossing this barrier reveals that the fear and life associated with the ego were never real. The persistent nature of the ego: Leo likens the ego to a relentless antagonist in a horror film or video game that requires continuous confrontations and defeats to fully extinguish, highlighting the non-linear and repetitive path to true awakening for many individuals. Awakening as a multichapter journey: Contrary to many spiritual teachings that oversimplify the process, Leo emphasizes that the journey to awakening may span multiple 'chapters,' with each one requiring renewed effort and different approaches. The gravity and exclusivity of awakening: The process is not for everyone; it is a serious, profound undertaking reserved for those wholly dedicated to discovering truth and undergoing a transformation akin to that experienced by historical spiritual figures like Buddha. Channeling infinite love for transcendence: The key to overcoming the fear experienced at the brink of awakening is channeling infinite love, an emotion so potent that it can overwhelm and extinguish the ego. Leo suggests that psychedelics can facilitate the initial experience of this love, which can then be recalled at the crucial moment of surrender. The hero's paradoxical journey: The journey to awakening is akin to the hero's journey, where the hero's perceived self-sacrifice is paradoxical because the 'hero' never truly existed-it was always an illusion. The recognition and experience of the infinite self is considered the pinnacle of non-duality and the most significant achievement. Colloportus