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@Wilhelm44 I talked about this earlier, being God in essence is different from being a living God. You have human limitations and if you repeat that you are God too much, you get a God complex, when you can't even pay your bills, can't make a pen float, don't even have a small level of intelligence compared to the infinite knowledge of God, because you can only see from your eyes, not from the eyes of some other human or some alien or whatever. So saying your God can easily lead to spiritual narcissism. Having less ego means also admitting you have an ego, body, mind and are limited by that till it dies, your not even close to being God, forget about what you are in essence, you are in this life very much limited, maybe maybe if your body dies can you say your God truely as you come truely back to yourself, but then there is no one to say it or speak it or to say "I am God" as that person/body/mind/ego whatever you want to call it is dead, not fake spiritual death, but REAL death, mahasamadhi.

Indeed, J What humans think of as “knowledge” and “sense of self” are actually just cultivated glimpses of their alienation, which is suffering. The detachment from truth feels alien. One cannot be attached to truth either, same problem because there’s no separation there at all. This artificial separation once recognised is the end of suffering and knowledge both. What’s left is pure nakedness.

I was joking about nobody wanting us. I'm actually more optimistic about humans than most. Our potential is much more profound than super intelligent AI. I'm willing to bet that most people on this forum, including yourself, actually have some alien DNA. Scoffing at humans is what happens when you immediately dismiss something like remote viewing as wookie. The Monroe institute is pretty well respected in this regard, and probably worth checking out.

I am not sure if Tarion is talking about intelligence here when he talks about smart (haven’t watched the video), but try becoming so intelligent that despite being charismatic as hell and having lots of people in your life, yet feeling more lonely than you have ever felt in your life, because people feel like alien species to you that don’t even speak the same language. Try develoing such emotional and empathetic intelligence that you feel the pain that other people’s unconsciousness creates for themselves.

Meh. Not great but okay. Ironically, I was okay with The Martian. Not great but decent. Far better than Riddely Scott's trash Alien sequels.

@Wilhelm44 Well, I don’t see anyone popping in and out of our dimension. So, highly doubtful. I don’t like to just imagine what some alien can do because there is no proof. Maybe in the DMT realm but not our universe.

I think all this mystification around aliens is pretty gay. Either they show themselves clearly to everyone or they might as well not exist at all essentially. And they can't have higher potential than an artificial inteligence that'd be able to think in billions of times faster speeds than anything biological - unless they posses a form of A.I. themselves. I bet it would beat their alien ass if it ever comes down to it lol

Of course. You set the criterion, like how many drugs are taken. So when are you finally going to turn alien on camera?

You guys think Leo’s new style is weird because you haven’t reached Leo’s level of consciousness yet. Once you do, everything becomes beautiful, including outfits that currently look like they were chosen by an enlightened alien.

I have never seen ET. It looks so corny and juvenile that it never had any appeal for me. Some of Spielberg's films are overrated. The ET alien looks so hideous. If that's what aliens look like, I don't want to meet them.

We need that alien transformation on camera... now!

You are confusing understanding with term usage. There are a bunch of things that can determine term usage that are unrelated to understanding. This is why your inferences shouldnt be made merely based on what label is used in a single sentence, but rather should be based on long substance (where the given person gives a long description about the content of his awakenings and about his understanding of spirituality) and based on that long description you can make a much better judgement on that person's understanding about spirituality. But thats precisely what I dont see from almost any of you , what I rather see is that you single out and focus on label usage in one single sentence and then you run away with big and firm conclusions about that person's understanding about spirituality. It would be like as if a person who isn't familiar with Leo's term usage in any way at all, would only hear one single sentence from Leo "You are God" and based on that single sentence they would infer that Leo is talking about some supreme being that is seperate from the Universe. Understanding maths is not the same thing as using the exact labels or terminology that you happen to use. If a highly intelligent alien species were to visit Earth and used different words to describe mathematical concepts, it would not follow that they lacked an understanding of maths. What would much more likely follow is simply that they use a different system of labels to describe the same underlying concepts.

Leo I bet you would eat baby to have "alien awakening", you're not so different from Bryan 😅 😂

To me its a pursuit of Truth. And let's face it not everyone is gonna make it with meditation. So psychedelics are emphasized here. I don't agree with Leo on everything. And if this was a cult you and I would probably have been "quietly" dismissed by now. I don't agree that psychedelics can give you a deeper enlightenment than meditation. We differ in that awakening is awakening and it is Absolute. There are not Infinite degrees of awakening. There isn't some crazy alien state you can reach.i do agree however that Consciousness is not human either it is Pure Spirit. The human part is, as we know, this imaginary ego that co-opts Consciousness for itself. So if you look back I've had plenty of arguments with Leo about this stuff. And I'm still here. His work is invaluable if someone actually wants to put in the time. But be careful because you will lose your sanity and you just might not get it back. This is stated. Such is spirituality. It is serious shit. But normies don't understand any of this stuff so to them it appears crazy. Of course. That is how it should be.

Great song! Very chill and intense all-in-one! I have to start listening to Arcade Fire more Also, the visualizer reminds me of this alien-like photo 😅

"God is like a leximorph" It likely stems from a recent typo or misremembered term. You may be thinking of the theological word "biomorphic" (representing living, organic shapes), or perhaps an oxymoron, which is commonly used to describe the paradoxical nature of God. It's smart enough to"coin a phrase or a definition of itself, which should tell you something. "To him who has had the experience, no explanation is necessary; to him who has not, none is possible''. Ram Dass. It is like infinite Avatars. Don't be tricked by fools. God had to create everything from scratch. God is self-taught, self-made, self-everything. God had to create everything: a dictionary, every word, every meaning, every object, and subject, all things that are what it means to be God. Death, life, birth, human, alien, all of it, all meanings, every description. It's so obvious, and even more obvious is that you should know by now that you are God.

Dear @Leo Gura, What is the most effective way to create a beautiful mind? This is the most inspiring thing for me. Nothing else comes close. For me, it appears to be as follows: (In order of immediate effectiveness.) Number 1: Awakening. Reaching states of God consciousness and states of non-dual awareness, states of consciousness of absolute truth. This ideally looks like creating as many 5-MeO-DMT breakthroughs as I can consciously and healthily stomach. Including that, is by facing my fear of death directly, through lower doses of psychedelics and through direct self-inquiry, till I reach death similar to Leo’s "2C-B Trip Report - Experiencing Physical Death" https://youtu.be/9_WL0hoRA7s In addition, facing all of your traumas, systematically facing fear, ideally through psychedelics. Getting into the right state. https://www.actualized.org/insights/wrong-state Related: https://www.actualized.org/insights/brain-fuel Number 2: Developing your Sensemaking, Studying epistemology, and metaphysics. Deconstruction of Reality, rationality, science, etc., Practice of Real Philosophy through Direct contemplation of Reality from first principles. Studying Leo’s content. Reading books from Leo’s booklist (and any other great metaphysics/epistemology/consciousness book). Studying The 9 Stages of Ego Development. Creating loads and loads of requisite variety in your studies: Hundreds of sources, hundreds of experiences, hundreds of case studies, contemplating hundreds of things, etc. Making explaining of reality and contemplation of reality into a strong almost automatic habit. Really living the life of a sage. Number 3: Actively Becoming aware of your Bias/Selfishness/Devilry/Corruption/Double Standards/Where you are wrong/ Self-deception by having a routine contemplation practice into this. Understanding the force of survival to profound degrees. Number 4: Rewiring your nervous system and Altering your Brain Chemistry: Rewiring your nervous system with Kriya Yoga Practice, Heavy Metal Detox, Eating Clean, doing proper exercise, mastering your sleep schedule, drinking properly filtered water, ridding any additions to stimulation that is frying your brain, whether that be media addiction with your phone or substance use. Cultivating a brain that can actually focus and isn’t distracted into oblivion. Number 5: Systematically designing your life and survival situation to be aligned with Truth and Love. Ideally aligned with a consciously created life purpose such that acting in a conscious loving way is rewarded, not punished. Mastering your survival such that it is conducive to this work of being a sage, effectively creating a lifestyle of inquiry and learning. Now, obviously, in practice, these are going to be pursued alongside each other, but I simply want to pinpoint down: What the hell is the most effective in creating massive growth? What the hell do I focus on to really create a beautiful mind? What are the biggest levers of this work? (For definition's sake, I’ll quickly define “the work” as: Creating a beautiful mind aligned with the intelligence of God. Or: The raising of your consciousness, raising your sensemaking ability, jailbreaking your mind, unlocking access to “alien intelligence.”) What are the biggest levers in aligning my mind with that of God? To be direct, I would appreciate Leo’s perspective on what he sees as the most impactful areas for my growth in consciousness development. If needed, I’m open to providing more context so this can be meaningfully addressed here on the forum. I infer that Leo has become more restrained about openly promoting psychedelics, likely because he recognizes the influence he has and the risk that people may misuse them irresponsibly. That said, I still want a clear, direct answer on what the most important things are to focus on. If I want to create a beautiful mind: What are the best things I can do, the highest leverage techniques that will get me there? You could say I’m looking for more clarity on the direction with all of this... Additional Contexts to mention. Because Leo, I’ve been studying your work for a long time: Leo, On Nov 4th 2018, you’ve mentioned “The most powerful techniques you’ve discovered” in the episode “65 Core Principles Of Living The Good Life” as follows: https://youtu.be/BqWPqZK-Ikg?t=7326 Psychedelics Meditation Meditative yoga Journaling Contemplation Visualization Solo Retreats Leo, if I am remembering correctly and if I understood what I read correctly, I've seen you express attitudes and opinions that Kriya Yoga was far superior to any meditation. Right now the most effective techniques appear to be psychedelics, kriya yoga, contemplation, and solo retreats. Side note: What is your opinion now on the relative effectiveness on journaling and visualization? In your Solo Retreat notes of March 2019 you mention that 5-Meo-DMT is THE tool to use for awakening your consciousness: https://www.actualized.org/insights/solo-retreat-notes-feb-2019 “5-MeO-DMT is the ultimate awakening tool. Let's stop beating around the bush. No other technique, method, or teaching is as direct, deep, or powerful. Not meditation, not yoga, not contemplation, not self-inquiry, not any other psychedelic. 5-MeO-DMT is the guru. No guru can do for you what 5-MeO-DMT can do for you. If Christ or the Buddha came back to life and personally taught you one-on-one for 10 years, they would not be as effective as a few doses of 5-MeO-DMT. That's a bold claim. Yet it's undeniably true for anyone who seriously experiments with 5-MeO-DMT. 5-MeO-DMT will not solve all of your growth challenges, it may not even permanently awaken you, but it can lead you to super-human levels of awakening if you use it properly — and I emphasize PROPERLY!” In your episode “What Is Fake Spirituality?” You stress that REAL Spirituality is Ego Dissolution and that You're doing spirituality to experience God, which aligns with 5-MeO-DMT use a lot. You also outline an overall scope of what real spirituality looks like in practice. Outlining all the points of direct inquiry. https://youtu.be/ECUHkflwBQc In “An Intro To Serious Philosophy - Top Advice For Philosophers” you mention committing to at least 100 psychedelic trips. Alongside having a rigorous contemplation practice, a practice of inquiry through deep contemplation and observation. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=InmNW96qcUk You stress like crazy pretty much everywhere that proper sensemaking is number one. https://www.actualized.org/insights/conscious-vs-unconscious-sense-making https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-loop-of-wrong-sense-making You also stress that Truth is the highest priority to have. https://youtu.be/nvNGha_g2U4 You stress exercising Epistemic Responsibility: https://youtu.be/W5kvXJNMMM4 You underline that a deep study of your own self-deception is imperative to this work. You emphasize becoming conscious of your selfishness and bias. Understanding your forms of lying, Devilry, Corruption, Why you avoid Truth, Double Standards, Understanding Survival, Where you are wrong, etc. You stress that you have to understand how your sensemaking is being squashed by conforming to pre-established systems of thought. Such as Skepticism, Science, Rationality, Post-modernism, and also understanding the nature of belief, such as understanding ideology, understanding authority, and understanding conformity itself. Deconstructing all of your thinking is the bread and butter: Deconstructing rationality, science, ideology, belief, etc. You stress that Truth = Love. You Stress having holistic attitudes towards your sensemaking with Understanding holism. Developing sovereignty of mind is also imperative to further rid your dependence on others as mentioned in your video: The Root Solution To People Pleasing & Loneliness. An awakening into solipsism helps here as well, obviously. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JZqEMok_NXw And you know what, to be honest, I might just be overwhelmed by the workload. There is a lot here. And there comes to be a point where I start asking what are red herrings and what aren't. In a way I'm very lost in Maya. To be clear, I genuinely enjoy studying and learning this material, it's my favorite hobby at this point. But I notice I struggle to follow through with the level of industriousness that I want to be at. For example, let’s say I aim to read at a rate of about one book per week, yet I’m currently struggling to maintain a rate of one book per month. I want to be a completionist with Leo's work. Lots of it is due to managing survival, but the other half has also been just not being industrious with my studies in the way I would like to, another aspect of this is the sheer volume of this work. I think I am fooling myself by focusing on studying all of the content, and putting little to no focus on the Pure Philosophy of contemplating reality from first principles. I'm honestly really bad at that. I do that actually really rarely, yet I understand the power of it, I can change my paradigm of reality in an afternoon if I want to contemplate for 5 hours straight. But this is what my behaviour has been like. Another note is this: I have significant difficulty focusing. Gotta love that ADHD. It’s hard for me to pick one task or one project and see it through to completion. Even when I intend to commit, I find myself pulled in different directions, which makes consistency challenging. This is also why I’ve been so interested in Leo’s mind programming course. At the same time, I recognize that I’ve done the best I could given my current level of awareness and understanding. You better believe I'm lost in my personal maze. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WeIfHozjcls 🐀 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 🧀

You're suffering a version of them you instanced inside yourself. You don't really care for them as an entity/individual, but rather as a concept. The deeper truth is it's more so a response to an inefficient system. Holistic Thinking is alien to the world, still. You can't stand what's the status quo. And it's generating suffering in you. I've seen young people say this with a lot of heart. What's the proposed solution? You focus on your own now, engage with people, engage with your obsessions. Effectively forget the whole, atleast temporarily. And over time, the reward mechanisms linked to it, will assign a lesser importance to whatever is generating this suffering. All suggesting you to fall back into something which isn't whole. Some even suggest voicing it into the open, and discuss it with others. Like your doing now. This is also a trap. You'll start feeling fine once this feeling of yours is validated by the crowd. If you want my truth, you're just asking for a borrowed truth. But here's some pointers. How can you be sure, they're suffering? And how can you be absolutely sure their felt experience is any worse than yours? You're imagining yourself in their position and assuming the suffering. But you'd be surprised the more you look into it. Another tangent to contemplate on: why does human society have fiction at all? Why do movies exist? Why do stories exist at all? Why are actors and performers valued at all? There's something about this which is so eerie and disturbing.

https://scontent-dus1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t39.30808-6/708794466_122134323933146071_4147843212123800281_n.jpg?stp=cp6_dst-jpg_tt6&_nc_cat=111&ccb=1-7&_nc_sid=aa7b47&_nc_ohc=wYDINAs6jXQQ7kNvwHIQ46-&_nc_oc=Adr1-Wdw49gthN4OFOM8-YggVxrqT3LFbKgEiYBniRSmwzqgi9Uy4AbF3Jaej00rbSQ&_nc_zt=23&_nc_ht=scontent-dus1-1.xx&_nc_gid=q7rJLw7XZxwQDn0DKU0Wsw&_nc_ss=7b2a8&oh=00_Af8biOXNpwWWg8ZLE8Fw0UcbArAaxaahYHNbNOKmx9KKnQ&oe=6A23AFBD I am comprehending, more physics but it's very slow, I never realized how many mistakes I saw in professors calculations, and how many proofs exist, it's a bit weird, as I don't write them out formally, and just train the intuition, Grok is also cheaper atm, I am super confused as to what is happening in the u.s, and how integrate consciousness and a.i/physics will be in just 5-10 years, approx. which is a very brief span amount of time. I did a couple of intuitive proof solving, with brilliant, I am going very slow and proof every mathematical proof first in my head, as all could be true, and you can transform that into code, after this Rumi experience my life entirely changed, the state was to high for anyone to actually realize the significance of what even occurred. I find more truths than falsehoods, some stuff I don't quiet understand I can and calculated that stuff in university, and after this "bloody mess" with an absolute fabulous math prof. I realized how deeply I could even intuit and calculate math, as well as see proofs, I am still 100% worried about my ability to transform that skill into real action, as I am still including more growth factors, that are blocked by what I intuited. What I noticed is how fk'ed and manipulative the whole situation is, as my american family has a higher class rating than my German one, and they are very jealous of my american ancestry, and a lot of them are worried about the situation of the U.S and Europe due to the conflict. It's also very difficult to meditate currently, and my demands are ultra-high after I realized how arrogance and vanity cause a lot of issues in academia, let alone the compatibilities and poems I found from China/Korea, in the end I made a lot of mistakes, but owning responsibility when a lot of fraudulent actions take place, and that I acted or behaved in a way, that was unfortunately necessitated by the situation and still is, due to the bad political situation and the constant threats. My laptop service is still not there, after a lot of breakdowns and massive terror due to the immensity of insights I had, as well as Kriyas I realized how difficult reality is, and the core issue of jealousy at the work place when a lot of people are still massively uneducated, and the core issue of the depth of a.i and just even visioning proofs, I don't like calculating them I can do it, it's very painful, physically, but I can also envision them, I never thought I could run math in my mind similar to Elon Musk, after what I chart and the core issue of energy, and incarnation. Na-Yin, field bodies as well as combinations, everyone has a partial truth that contributes to the large whole to realize parts of this in an equation and abstract and think more each day like Ramanuja or Albert Einstein, makes you very alien similar to Elon, when you realize how critical that is, but in the end I have to push myself into some Kriyas states, and still refine health. I don't quiet know if I am doing things right, but sex and or masturbation is a huge muse towards thinking for me, but the level of energy required and the issue of health and manipulation I wonder what will happen, I contributed so much to the problem, as their perception is tarnished by unfinished, impure spiritual work, and ego detection, they can't see god, and then act like god, but hence at times abuse ego. What bothered me the most is, the yearning to take people with me, I do my best to realize the Na-Yin of the "top tier" pillar that is rated so highly which is a very deep lesson about permanent acceptance and transcendence, and how I can create a space to integrate this, especially at work in a hierarchical environment, that is broken green, and is unable to integrate the alpha mentality of stage yellow, and has a shadow addiction towards, eventing and going out, especially with the core feature of your able to re-design the entire system, if not in 10-30 years every nation will fucking nuke us, I am very scared about this possibilities the more I think about my finance back ground and what I had to do in order to see money develop. This is still very recent, and still most decisions somehow depend on the issue of my health, let alone how corrupt my family is in terms of health, and how I had to corrupt them also, I still feel as though I require a deep break and rest, but I can also keep on going the more I am able to get people that attune to my health requirements and needs, as they are incapeable of healing, as they are incapeable of realizing and asking these types of questions and insight, I have to figure out on my own with A.I and heal myself and my soul fully. I still have plenty of chances, yet I never thought how intelligent I could be still doubt it till this day, especially with the idiots surrounding me, there are still a multitude of things I yearn to integrate, my biggest mistake was not being able to still be real, and show-up, I am very tired, that I often know my predictions are right, but the leadership is to egotistical about their families and friends, while they are unable to sort themselves out, as a.i keeps pumping in and out, data centers etc. It's very hard to find info on this, on the clear net and I browse a lot to gain options, as I don't feel I get any peace doing anything significant with the amount of information and questions people have. I dug up some very deep papers, but I have to sit at home and just generalize some knowledge intuitively and turn it into code, it's very simple, but it takes sometime for people to get used to A.I I presume, I also struggle with it. It's not even about keeping up anymore, just more being at the right place at the right time and to be able to scale towards the infinite, I am very glad they are taking down data centers and take care more about the environment, the stage yellow/turquoise shadow of constant eventing and sharing a.i knowledge etc. can also be attenuated, just seeing how people rage daily when I buy some food about me, my love story and the issue of diversity and complexity, let alone the fraudulent offers in tech, and the necessity to reinforce it, so the company builds it's own model, is a huge issue, as well as possible blunder, as it might also just be abstracted in a couple of years, and Google I am 100% will suck us all in, I also like Deep Mind a lot, but I never got a chance to realize how hard it is what people do from my hometown, and how advanced we've been, it shocks me daily, I knew it but code/mathematics and language will keep rising and filling till we harmonize the planet and most likely colonize mars and start from the moon. I really hope the east will be able to find a diplomatic solution for the problem of population and food resources, and that the west can finally help the east and china, especially get rid of the Investition of their country... might be a hot take... but I am quite skeptical that this evil is not necessary, due to the greediness of liberals in the west. I really have to wait with my tech, as people constantly make decisions online and are unable to gain trust in A.I from my current understanding it's 11 billion one robot against 1 human, from what I watched on the net. The point is if they don't have or have never had access in a code base so large it fills and entire university and work life of multiple years, of work it's going to take a while and it's good also that we relax, I found also some more interesting information, just using Microsoft, these companies are fucking up so many deals, it's horrible you can't even work in any partially I feel, as they require cheap labor that yearns to learn and they have to massively self-sacrifice to maintain the scale of what happens on the planet. I am very curious to Elon and Open A.I trial, I am pro A.I but no idea who has more rights in their personal actions, I am looking to understand more what has happend in America, as I have the privilege and insight from a more unbiased perspective as I have full access to the memory line of German ancestry, but my internal vision etc. at times scare me, and loving them in a place where you feel hated, it's good to clam down and relax. Survival is very real, but what I am angry about I knew it I could go faster if I am healthy, I am in perfect health, but going slower, speaking more positively to me and the radical law changes with the right, and the issue of the left having been to short-sighted about their own political views and arrogance and inability to empathize and work under the governance of a more center liberal harmony, without the corrupting influence of the democratic interest will be difficult. I do have to wait, stuff is changing so fast, I could earn more money masturbating, imo anyone who has of or does porn is a genius atm, or is an artist, I am very tired of having to depend on software, and my physical giftedness is still under development practically, but what I currently realized is how tricky it is to develop any patience if your in constant pain, it's as if my body is burning and to take the burning quality and put that into pure transcendence and spirit.

Final transition scene in latest trailer from a deer to an alien was amazing.

Some people say that he is. That would explain his deep interest in the field, but that's just a speculation. Let's see, maybe he discloses some of his personal alien stories as well after the premiere. But I think the movie itself is the attempt of disclosing his own stories and experiences, or just beliefs 👽

Technical: Bodyweight: 140lbs, 6ft Dosage: 75-125ug LSD+5.6g Dried Mushroom Tea Setting: Apartment Room/Solo Mindset: Curious. Grateful. Non-judgemental. Excited. Felt "clean" and ready. However life still has "problems". Trouble at work as well. Financial/medical bill troubles too. Intention: After trying both individually multiple times, I was wanting to explore the combination of the two substances and their potential synergy Summary: 7:00pm 5 hours fasted, 1 tab sublingual 7:50pm dancing in a dream 9:15pm drink mushroom tea 11:30pm? clown therapy 9:00am wake up next day Part 1 (Ingestion/Onset) Weighed and readied the ingredients for mushroom tea on standby in the kitchen. Started a fire in my fireplace (I'm lucky to have this). Turned off all the lights and closed the curtains. Sat cross-legged on my bed with my back supported. Placed 1 gel tab under tongue. 50 minutes of quiet waiting. Sudden grin/laughter... -We're back -We're so back -Crying/heaving/screaming into the pillow -Become a child/elderly again (was always one) -Looked at a photo of my ex and I together and said "I forgive you/I love you" over and over -Played Lemmino music on speakers (best music ever) -Danced like I never danced before (made up some new moves?) -Each step by my feet and each breath is an orgasm -Appreciate the art and paintings on my walls -Sat with legs bent on carpet, start hallucinate. Carpet and room is alive (moderate hallucinate) -Went into kitchen, put together the ingredients and made mushroom tea (5.67g psychedelic mushroom) with ginger, cardamom, clove, cinnamon, and caffeine-free tea bag strained twice (almost couldn't find the strainer, that was funny!) -Start referring to myself in 3rd person, depersonalization occurring -Drank tea slowly at 9:15pm ish -Got a little sad thinking about certain aspects of "my" life (past relationship, struggling porn/phone addiction, societal "problems" of the "world", etc) (sidenote: did I dream the world's problems?) -As I sip the tea, I feel its alien nature flowing down my throat. What a mysterious thing it is to drink a thing (I drink myself??) -I breath, becoming more and more aware of my "aliveness" -I finish the tea and head back to my bedroom to sit. Answers arise... -Sexuality is a part of your nature. DO NOT DENY IT, BUT PRACTICE IT IN A HEALTHY WAY --Took all the "evil" in the world and tossed it in the trashcan (EVERYTHING IS GOOD WITH A CAPITAL G) -There is no other (duh) (and it's fucking hilarious!) Part 2 (Peak) -I BREATH -ALIVENESS is ALWAYS and is peak bliss/pleasure -I think about the alternate then--death (what is it then?) -FUCK THE DEAD (METAPHORICALLY AND LITERALLY) -When EACH BREATH IS THE HIGHEST ORGASM, EACH ONE IS AN ACT OF CREATION (Nothing else compares) -Getting tired, I stop sitting and lay on mattress and look up at ceiling. I raise the hand to the ceiling and it touched! -Hand transforms into primitive mammalian devil hand (it's alien/mysterious) (it's the Hand of God) -Close eyes and have moderate/heavy hallucinations. See infinite little RAINDBOW/INFINITE COLOR SPECTRUM "octopus clowns" splaying their hands forward to me in a prayer like/loving fashion and saying "here you go, this is it, see?". I UNDERSTAND. They touch my mind and it's another ERUPTION of orgasmic bliss **side note: if the reader is curious and would like an approximate visual of what they looked like, search up "mr.creepypasta the showers" on google and it is the thumbnail for the video uploaded on may 22nd. Now imagine that but with infinite rainbow colored octopus tentacles emerging from behind and all around it** -THE MIND/EGO OF "ME" AND GOD (AS A TALL CLOWN/JESTER THERAPIST) TALK IN A ROOM (As I eavesdrop on this talk from outside the door, I see that this tall clown is also, in fact, a demon, and beautiful as fuck) -LITTLE CLOWNS CLOSE THE DOOR (THEY ALL HAVE "JOBS" THAT ARE MOMENTARY, BUT THEY ARE ALL IMPORTANT/GODLY) (THEY LAUGH) I stand up, somehow naked, and see the mess of my room I made. I "tell" me to clean my room. I ask "why clean?" Answer "because all these things are YOU, and YOU deserve to be treated with respect" Oh silly me, of course... The blanket and I have a 1 on 1 therapy session. I love this blanket (SIDE NOTE: WTF IS A BLANKET??) I finally find my PJs and turn of the lights and lay on my bed under blankets in fetal. It feels SOOO GOOOD. You close your eyes and see infinity. Questions arise that become more and more distilled: What is (blank)? What is this? What is? Is? Answer: IS. (Possible answer to everything as far as language allows. THE NATURE OF IS AND THE ANSWER TO IT IS, IS) PERIOD. ON THE PERIOD HINGES LIFE/ORGASM AND GESTURED TO IT BY A LITTLE CLOWN HAHA Why doing? Answer: No doing, only BEING BE. PERIOD. ON THE PERIOD HINGES LIFE/ORGASM AND GESTURED TO BY A LITTLE CLOWN HAHA But then what is to be? Being means to live as fully in the moment and as authentically as you can. It means to be infinitely creative and not copying/mirroring others but rather being YOU. Being YOU/I means to go an unbeaten path. To live your original story however it unfolds. This story is a dream and a loving gift. It is a loving gift because what else is there? There is infinity and there is emptiness/NOTHINGNESS. Both are the same thing in a twisted way. So if you ask, why is there something? But there isn't. And at the same time there is. Going further beyond this is possible but also infinitely mysterious and forever unknown. God can keep understanding itself but never FULLY (because it can keep understanding itself infinitely). It's like...imagine you are hiking up an infinitely tall mountain. Every couple of miles, you stop and look down and you say, "oh wow, so that's what it looks like". But as you keep hiking higher and higher (assuming no end), you can look down and say that every time, again and again. Your understanding can grown higher and higher, and deeper and deeper as you rest at each checkpoint and look back. But it'll never be fully complete because: 1. You are in a form (a human) and therefore only have so many years to live and understand 2. The mountain is infinite, so hypothetically even if you could live forever (which no form will), even then you can still keep hiking up and looking down/understanding, forever and ever. Infinitely. THIS IS NOT WRONG OR BAD. THIS IS PRECISELY THE NATURE OF GOD AND HOW THINGS ARE. IT CAN BE NO OTHER WAY/NO OTHER CONFIGURATION. Any other configuration would not make sense. Infinity is boundless and the universe is thus boundless. Boundless and also made of LOVE (more on that later) Part 3 (Comedown) -FETAL POSITION and I create and perform Spooky Belly Dancing (inspired by the fire earlier!) -I also accidentally invent a new yoga pose (the Possessed Corpse Extension Orgasm Pose) (flex those abdominals and extend the neck!) -The dance that was earlier done on the come-up was very "therapeutic". Perhaps dance (uninhibited), can be a form of going meta/knowing GOD and healing (along with self inquiry, meditation, yoga, psychedelics) -Let's call it DANCE THERAPY! (maybe this already exists haha but who cares) -I close the eyes -I DROOL -RAINBOW/INFINITE-COLOR SPECTRUM OCTOPUS CLOWNS (THEY ARE DEMONS AND THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL, DEAL WITH IT) -In fact, EVERYONE/EVERYTHING has a song and it is BEAUTIFUL! -I sleep -I wake at around 9am Thank YOU for reading, and may YOUR song never end

"What something is" seems to require something other than what is. The question itself seems to be mistaken. I had a strange experience where I could clearly and factually see that we don't know anything. All notions were void and essentially seen as complete nonsense. Greatest day of my life. Visually everything stayed the same (no substances involved), but at the same time everything felt/seemed very different, like very playful and "alien". Thoughts would pop up like "grass" and yet it was obvious it wasn't actually describing anything, the notion that it was seemed completely ridiculous. All ideas and descriptions were like sounds or images popping up with no relation. When people talked it was obvious what they were saying doesn't exist. I think this is always true and it's just a matter of "tapping into it" right now.

I really DO believe that God was lonely as complete consciousness, and thus created the universe along with all of us humans with it. Ya, you think he would have his hands full enough, stopping himself from creating new alien species to exist. I jsut don't see it. Maybe I am too narrow minded. I just don't believe in aliens.

You are trying to say that no one knows what was before this current experience (which I agree, because it could have been an experience of some alien life), and also tell that death was before this current experience. By your logic, you don't even know what death is because it had to be before this current experience; you won't know what death is because you won't be there if you don't experience anything. That's your logic, not mine. You are also presenting what you have understood, and at the same time saying that understanding is somehow false. So, by your logic, you should throw out what you have understood. You are contradicting yourself and shallow. Good luck to you as well.