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Leo, we all know that god, all there is is unconditional love. thats no secret around here. but this duality we are currently in allows for many to experience the (illusory) absence of love. and this absence of love, this seperation from god can make it, that souls fall so far from light, that they get stuck and cant return to it even if they wanted. this seperation from source caused by their own free will, means eternal agony for them! this is true hell! to have trapped yourself in the darkest place possible where you feel only pain and can only cause more pain to others.. now you can imagine why there are souls that simply want to destroy everything out of pure anger.. its a very very sad thing! hose who arent able to step into the light in the end will have to be taken into the galactic central sun for their souls to be completely transmuted. now imagine, this is something we all could have fallen to! or imagine, you once knew a soul, that once like you was enjoying the love and bliss of the higher realms, but then took the path of darkness and got so lost that only their utter annihilation can "save" them. sure, in the end, its still all love.. but holy crap, if this is not a reason to end duality for good now, i dont know what is... it seems strangely that your worldview allows for an worringly amout of suffering to be part of the game.. but instead of allowing it, we are fucking ought to stop it!! we also have the power to stop it!! thats why i am here, thats what i am constantly rambling about! to see reality as it is and to change it! we are conditioned to believe its all part of the game, but this is the crucial error! when we realise this, we can claim back our true sovereignity as beings of light and follow our calling to transmute all dark here on earth. we have to become aware of how and why there is so much suffering here on earth and that in no way it has to be that way! the third density reality is indeed the darkest "place" in this universe! (BEWARE:GRAPHIC!: I mean they systematically torturerape children and make them eat their own babies in order to create fragmented personalities and minds to control - does it get any more horrid than this?). ... bullshit like this is the reason why i think every decent being should have some interest in ending duality. to end duality is possible and we are actually in the process of it happening right now, if ou are aware of it or not. but every single one of us counts. the sooner the collective consciousness is ready, the sooner we will be freeing ourselves all together from this perpetual cycle of suffering.

I developed a really bad rash yesterday. Felt extremely sick. I had work to do on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and... I did literally nothing throughout each of those days. Absolutely no work. When I touched the keyboard to type, I felt like I was developing a fever and I was about to vomit. My body was severely resisting working. I had been very unproductive for the past 3-5 months on all fronts, from spirituality, to my career to my relationships to my friendships and to spending time with my family. And I was feeling extremely disappointed in myself for allowing that to happen. So to make up for the work I missed, I decided to do work on Saturday... but Saturday was the day I developed an extremely bad rash, went to the doctors and they said it was a stress rash and that I had to rest. I have a bunch of good psychedelic friends that I hang out with occasionally and I went with them for a picnic on Sunday to try and destress. Hanging out with them really inspires my dreamboard. Living with a community like them is the sort of people I'd love to have as neighbors, work with, have relationships with and hang out with. Deeply generous, deeply open minded and accepting to who you are, sees the significance in getting along, cooperating, not fighting, respecting and working with everyones' views, deeply generous. They gathered in a sunset close to a lake within a Royal Botanical Park(forest reserve), one of the guys is a deeply wise psychonaut whose been at psychedelics for the past 30-40 years, lived and worked with people in the amazon, etc. He brought over psychedelics plants for us to take home and grow ourselves. Another one has lots of experience in chemistry and gave us some books to borrow about extractions and cultivation techniques. Another one is deeply into shamanism and was demonstrating and teaching us different ways of evoking spirit animals and using it for healing. Another is a deeply motivated magick practitioner around the same age as me (23) who quit uni himself and started his own company just doing magick and making a living off it. And there are a few others who also have really cool characters. The experienced psychonaut brought rape over with an excited grin because rape always makes people scrunch their faces in weird ways when ingesting it. The first was the magick practitioner who was taking it for the first time. The experienced psychonaut blew a huge dose up his nose with a mischievous, playful look. The magick practitioner looked like he was about turn into the hulk but eventually settled down. The others all had a go of it and had similar expressions, just a basket of scrunched up, hulk turning faces. Then as I watched them all, the experienced psychonaut proudly popped in front of me and strongly insisted to give this thing a go. I hesitantly agreed, and then the rape was blowing up my brains in a matter of seconds, and my fate of scrunching up my face like I was turning into the hulk had met itself like the others. The magick guy got up and ran straight for the lake to check it out with his new visuals and buzzing state. Another one lied down in the ground in ecstasy as the buzzing kicked in, and the others sat around talking about how cool their experience was, and how beautiful the day was. A several of them are into spirituality and wanted my advice for adviata vedanta because they wanted to know what truth is. I sat with them and helped them question their beliefs as they were on rape which is always fun for me because I love arguing about this stuff. They always seem super fascinated about what its like to go deep on the spiritual path and get lots of epiphanies in real time which I love seeing. I went over to the psychonaut expert to talk about trichos because I love his cactuses. He puts so much care into growing them and always gives us some when we meet him. His trichos have these beautiful wavy patterns on them, you can trip just by looking at them. His trichos are bright green, and have a vibrant aura to them. You can feel its personality. And he constructed a family tree that traces each tricho back to the amazon so that he knows which part of the amazon it comes from. Its truly beautiful to see all the history. The rape kicked mildly intensely. For me, somehow no matter what psychedelic I take, they are all the same flavour, same style. Mescaline/trichos = ayahuasca = LSD = rape. The rape deepened the Oneness and increased the bliss felt throughout the day. And in that instant, the rape's message kicked in too. At the forefront of experience is movement to expand consciousness, change our careers to make it more fulfilling, achieve dating and relationship goals, its just movement, movement, so much so that ironically, while you may think you're moving forward and changing and growing, you're actually just stuck in movement. Just constantly in a sea of change, yet never appreciated or respected what the result of that sea of change is. Is that what your life on your deathbed will amount to? Just a sea of movement, from birth to death, and missing all of the beauty inbetween, which was the point of the movement anyway. There's a need to change careers, learn relationship techniques, learn new meditation protocols. Yet if you just move, without just sitting and appreciating and doing the opposite of movement. How will you appreciate and love the pearls and roses that arose on the journey that you took. You might think that the road has a holy grail of an ending, but really the holy grail was all the little gems that you saw and appreciated in awe as the journey unfolded and changed. Its the experience of being there through the journey that gives you the holy grail. When you're moving without appreciating, its like you're going through the levels of mario without picking up the coins. You end the game with nothing. Even though you thought the end of the game itself was everything. There's literally no hell, the rape said. Its all just love. The worst stuff like poverty and robbery and murder is just love, and yet you're still pushing towards some goal. Where are you going? I'm just in the movement out of habit. It can't get any better then just love everywhere. Every goal I have promises love. And love is now. Its a goal that leads back to where it started. Movement can also be stagnation. Movement can also be stuckness. Movement can also be going nowhere or being stuck in a rut. Its not just not doing anything that can be those things, its also doing stuff constantly without relief or appreciation or gratefulness. The attitude of being hardcore and always achieving stuff and "doing the work" is great, yet limited when "doing the work" misses "appreciating the work's end". Because if you don't do that, then you're arriving at the exact same cul de sac that no work and being lazy ends up with. And what are you really achieving if you're stuck in movement? The end goal is love, are you really getting love by just immersing yourself in movement constantly? What if there was a counter intuitive truth that movement without appreciation and relief achieved as much as no movement? You got no closer to what you wanted then doing nothing. The group I was with really honed in this "insight". I was wanting to change my life and make it better, yet I already was involved with the exact community I was seeking. I already had it. Here they were. I dont need to chase after such a community, because they are already here. The whole reason why I even got this insight in the first place is because I already had the community I wanted. Ironically I then got heaps of business insights on how I could change my career to make it more in align with what I wanted - just by accepting and appreciating I already had what I was seeking. And the girl I liked there liked me back, and what's the go with all this movement to achieve pickup goals when the girl you like is already in the community you wanted? This was a very counter intuitive lesson on how LOA works. I didn't realize LOA required appreciating what it had already given you, and that once you did that, it goes into overdrive on showing you what you need to do. Appreciation isn't just something you do to feel good or to adhere to values of respect. Appreciation and gratitude is actually a necessary element of living life. Its a mechanism for allowing you to see what's truly there. Appreciation is looking at the truth head on. Its a pause from looking at the dream, a moment to look at the pure absolute. Without appreciation you cannot know the truth. Because without appreciation you're not looking at it. And without looking at the truth, LOA cannot work its magic to align your wants with the truth, because you're just feeding LOA movement which isn't truth and therefore LOA wont manifest for you more alignment with truth. Overall the rape was a great experience, and I'd recommend rape to anyone whose ok with a covid swab style administration.

Investigate what you are made of in a literal sense. Look into science, quantum mechanics. It’s much more about realizing and releasing misunderstanding, misinterpretation of reality & misidentification of self, than it is acquiring ideas & beliefs and trying to remember them. In learning about reality, namely QM’s, it begins to be realized there is not a separate object, ‘you’ , which has or does not have control over ‘reality’, as in ‘other separate things’. The word nonduality points to ‘not two’. For example, look for the separation between things seen, the seeing, and the awareness of the seeing. Similarly, look for any actuality of the ‘layers’ you mentioned. Be incredibly open minded, such that you consider it might not be that you don’t have control, but that control is a concept rather than an actuality. A thought, basically. Inspect thoughts, notice each thought seems to have meaning, only by referencing what it is not. Such as up loses meaning when you take away down, and down has no meaning without the subtle indirect reference to up. How do you know control is not the illusion? To have ‘control over your illusion’ is already to believe you are separate. spect, rather than assume. Inspect beliefs, such as “I was born”. Let assumptions go, and inquire into the actuality, or direct experience. Did you actually experience being born, or is it a belief? Again, this requires incredible open mindedness, which in large part means when thoughts arise in regard to what you’re sure you know to be true, you relax and let such thoughts come & go, rather than continuing to belief them. Inspect for what is actual. Notice subtle assumptions. Is your thought about nothing from direct experience, or an assumption. Is perception actually ‘yours’. Does ‘power’ even actually exist. What is it. How is it such that ‘you’, could have ‘it’. What does qm’s reveal about ‘parts’. How do you know those hindsight thoughts aren’t a facade, such that there is only the belief you’re doing any of that. What if it’s happening, and in believing the thoughts, you’re believing you’re doing, making decisions, etc. How are you separate of the universe. What is a universe. What is control, beyond a thought / idea. If thoughts freely come & go, without attachment / believing them, how is it known you are the person, the “I” which can’t jump 10 ft, which eats or does not. How would you prove you are the body, rather than the gravity, the million dollars, the bank account. Without beliefs, what is an identity. Ever seen or heard an identity. What does what you are have to do with God or anyone else. What is an ‘ego’, ‘living’, a ‘person’, ‘survival’, a ‘saint’. Sort assumption from direct experience. What is bliss. What is being. What is divine love. What is the evidence you are not.

Several months? Don't stress man, no one realizes god that fast. If you inspect closely enough, a materialist world is not only unproveable, as you cannot test something outside of consciousness, but actually inconceivable. I think you need to stop looking at all the things that seem to not be in your control, and realize what is in your control. What is reality? Mind. Perspective. What is the point of all of this work? Mastering your mind. You can only 'control' the mind by letting go of the need to control it. What does the fact that you can't control things like you are Jesus have to do with anything anyway? Are you open minded enough to consider that this 'rigid' reality where you seem to have no control IS exactly what you, consciousness ( because that is all YOU are ), intended it to be? How are you separate from universe? Have you considered why such a saint is feeling pure bliss? If you truly want the truth, be more sceptical of scepticism.

It's been several months since my first viewed Leo video. He wasn't the first person from which I heard or read that we are the universe/god/love, but he was the first to explain it in a way I could begin to understand what it means. But my understanding is still very limited. I do not get how we are ''god''. Sometimes I think I finally get it, but I always forget about it as I go own with my day and my responsibilities, as if I slowly come back down to earth from my little ''illumination'' cloud. If my reality, including the physical world I am in right now and which I am interacting with is only a illusion, as if it was only another layer of imagination, but more ''rigid'' than the traditional imagination we tend to think about, why can't I have control over it? If I have no control over my illusion of ''I am a human living a human life'', how is it different from being born into a physical/mechanical world with no creative power behind it, and the circumstances of our lives are pure randomness? If I am the universe and nothing exist outside of my perception, but I have no power over it, then how is it different from just being part of a world where I am separated from everything? Of course, I can influence my quality of life by making decisions and taking actions... But I have no direct control over the universe. I can't jump 10ft high, stop eating forever, modify the law of gravity, make a million dollar appear in my bank account... It doesn't matter if you are a very ego driven person living constantly in a survival mode or an illuminated saint who feels pure bliss simply by being. You are not god...I am not god/universe/divine love.

Instant Full Body Orgasm Super easy to do and grows with practice Tools used, Visualization, Anchoring(Hypnosis), Ask any guru and they say only the advanced practitioner can visualize with their eye open, they are idiots. Daydreaming is self hypnosis visualization with eyes open and you were able to do that before you ever heard about visualization. This is how you do it, visualize yourself having an orgasm if you don't know what it's like pretend you know. I will tell you what it's like now how I know is watching action movies with my dad, there is always a scene of romance, arch your back like shoulder blades touching each other, tilt head back, tongue touching roof of mouth bite lower lip, squint eyes, slowly slide hand from neck down to belly button, doing the fire breathe. So now you see yourself experiencing this orgasm, now put your finger center chest below collar bone, press hard, then double the excitement, slide finger down half inch, at peak level press hard again, double the bliss, slide finger down, press hard at peak level, do the same over and over again doubling pleasures, intensity, glory, joy, wonder, anticipation, fascination. All the way to the belly button. Then test it slide your finger down your chest using the same amount of pressure. If the feelings arn't there just act like they are, pretend, imagine, do like I say above arch back, shoulder blades together, tilt head back, nibble on your lower lip, everything and be sure to do the fire breath. Keep doing and you'll see incredible results Limiting beliefs will prevent you from succeeding, eliminate the limiting belief and you'll succeed Imagine the belief as a piece of paper and light it on fire Poof Gone Just like that, it's very simple

Hello there everyone! I am looking for a serious spiritual relationship and I need advice on how to find a partner. I am a male and right now I am currently 20 years old and soon to be 21 in February. I am caucasian, long beard, buzz cut, skinny but also slightly toned. Let me give a very brief life-story for the past five or so years. Brief Life Story: I started watching Actualized.org when I was 15 in high-school in California, this was back in 2015. Even though I was watching Actualized back then and now I really pissed away my high-school years getting terrible grades. When I was a Junior in High school I was sent to a boarding school in Texas because of my bad grades and weed smoking habits. There I got my GED and decided I did not want to go to college, but instead the idea of possibly becoming a monk of some sort came to me. After I got out of the boarding school in 2018 I started getting into different religions and I really liked Eastern Orthodox Christianity because of it's mysticism and asceticism. This was the summer of 2018; during this time I was working at a nursery and I very much enjoyed my life. Then in the fall I went to spend some time working and living at a Monastery in Northern California that was doing very poor financially and really needed support. I had a really great time there helping out the monastery with work and parting in their spiritual life, so, I decided that since I was not doing anything with my life maybe I should become a monk. On January 1, 2019 I was baptized into the Orthodox faith and then started a sort of adventure checking out all of the different Orthodox monasteries in America (almost one in every state!) I spent a while at the biggest of monasteries in America in Arizona called St. Anthony's Greek Orthodox monastery. There I found the highest degree of spirituality I had ever seen; they had an elderly saint who recently died called Elder Ephraim. He would put his hand on your head like certain yoga masters do and you would feel bliss and peace wash over you. The monks themselves were also extremely holy, a lot of the older one's auras would glow with this white immaterial light similar to what you see in pictures of ancient yogis. But I also went all around the United States like I said, and it was funny I met legitimate Orthodox Christians during my journey who told me their benefit from using psychedelics and receiving healing in Native American Ceremonies. About 2019 to 2020 was when I started having problems with depression, and by this time I had already experienced the religious life of the monks for over a year. I did find a lot of spirituality at the monasteries but also a lot of problems, I found that there were actually plenty of monks who were actually quite miserable and so was I because of my depression. Then thoughts started coming to me like "wait what about all those videos you watched years ago from actualized.org about 5-MeO-DMT and all those documentaries about using psychedelics for depression, what about all those other spiritual teachings that also teach the same things Christianity teaches." Unfortunately, even though some of the monks I met were very spiritual they didn't seem to believe that there could be any other genuine spirituality except Orthodox Christianity or drug that could actually benefit personal spiritual development. So about three weeks ago (I was at a monastery in NC at this time) I decided to leave monasticism altogether because I realized I just couldn't be a monk with my depression problems and my personal beliefs. Right now I am taking ultra good care of my health and fitness, I am also looking into microdosing psilocybin, which are all seriously helping my depression to the point where I can now consider myself a very happy individual. Lately I have been getting back into Actualized.org, my favorite videos so far are 'What is Actualized.org' 'Developing Introspection' 'The Trap of the Toxic Life Purpose' and a really old one called 'The Happiness Spectrum.' If anyone has watched 'The Happiness Spectrum' I am personally working towards a totally eudaimonic Lifestyle. Now let me tell what my plan is for the future. Future Plans: Since my mother died a year ago (I am not sad about this and very emotionally stable not to brag, forgive me.) she left me 45k and my dad whom I live with now is planning on buying a huge piece of property for me, himself, and my brother. I have always believed very strongly the philosophy of organic simple living and now that I am out of the monastic life I can finally actualize this dream I have always had in the back of my mind. I plan to live off of the land as much as possible eating only organic whole food, think of something like an amish life except more stage turquoise. My dad has decided to move in with his new wife and he is going to eventually sell the house that we are in now. With the money he could simply purchase a 300k property in the mountains no problem and has agreed to do that for all of us. With the 45k I could easily afford a tiny house, solar, well, and everything else I need, plus I myself will find whatever outdoors job I can (I love farm work and working outdoors.) But the thought came to my mind "How can I do something for the benefit of humanity and the greater good?" And I realized that I could adopt orphans from impoverished countries and give them a good life. But I thought about this and I realized I would need a wife to help raise orphans, and it would also be really good to have a spiritual partner for myself as well. Me and my spiritual partner would live as spiritually and healthily as possible while also taking care of 1-3 orphans or even more, if possible. This is just a rough outline of what the future will hold for me, things could certainly change but right now this seems like the best possible thing I could do. Now I will get into what type of girl I am looking for. I am looking for: (Sorry my criteria is very picky but that is just the way it has to be) 1. Someone who would be willing to go on this spiritual journey with me, to live a difficult but spiritually eudaimonic lifestyle. 2. Someone experienced with spiritual practices in general, is accepting of all religions, and accepts the use of psychedelics 3. Someone who believes in the power of sexual abstinence (this wouldn't totally exclude us from having sex in marriage but it would be limited in order for us both to focus on the eudaimonic spiritual life.) 4. Someone who is very strongly devoted to health and fitness 5. Someone who is 19-25 years old, average height, preferably caucasian (like me), very physically fit, and very serious about life in general. Not looking for: 1. Anyone who has tobacco smoking, drinking, partying habits or habitually gets high on marijuana or trips on psychedelics excessively. 2. Anyone who enjoys watching TV, using social media, watches pornography, playing video games, wasting time with friends, or doing anything generally unproductive. 3. Anyone who wants to have kids rather than adopt them, I really feel like adopting children is one of the best philanthropies, sorry. 4. Anyone who rejects Orthodox Christianity, I still wish to follow most of it's practices until I die. But I also wish to engage in new practices. 5. Anyone who is unstable in life, I am looking for a relationship where I can benefit and be benefited by my partner. I want to learn new spiritual practices and patterns of healthy eating. I can't really have someone who is super depressed and has financial problems and such, it most likely won't work. Question: So, thank you to those who read everything I wrote. I live in Morgan Hill, California, near Santa Cruz and San Francisco (hippie central). I am wondering what is the best possible ways to find someone who will match my criteria? I don't think online dating will work as I have heard very bad things about it. My brother suggested to meet girls at our local health food stores but honestly I don't know how well that is going to work considering my strict criteria. I am open to any ideas, please share your answers if you have them, thank you!

@Eren Eeager I don't understand your question clearly. It depends on what do you define this bliss you're talking about as. It's definitely not the human emotion. Since only humans can experience human emotions. A rock doesn't experience bliss In Hinduism they talk about the ultimate reality as sat-chit-ananda. Being consciousness bliss. But they don't mean bliss as an emotional state. They mean the state of being unconditional and free.

@CultivateLove that's the events that happen in the course of love. But love in its experiential form isn't hurtful. For example if your mom is giving you affection right now and loving you, it's not hurtful. If you're loving a pet right now it's not hurtful. The process of love is not hurtful And if your mom said something that is hurtful then it's the words and her actions that are hurtful. But the love that she has for you is not hurtful. Similarly if someone dies, the death or loss is hurtful. Love is eternal and love is pure bliss. Whatever happens, the lover has no control over it. But in their intent to love you, it's pure love in the moment.

Well, love can hurt like hell too. Accepting love is bliss isn't always so easy if you're experiencing the rough side of it.

@Eren Eeager you're right with your insight. It is pure bliss. How can it not?

I ended up freaking out as always, oh my freaking OCD. But I think I got it, it cannot be but Bliss, how could God be able to be itself as the driving force for all existence without bliss?

Love is blissful from our experience as human beings trying to understand ourselves but what is it from the Pov of God? Is the bliss gone? Is God left with just pure awareness without bliss? I mean like a bland raw being. This is a tragedy if this is true. I am actually preventing myself from freaking out from the exestintial terror of this idea. P. S: It has to be Bliss right? If not, how it could bear the weight of being the whole universe? How it could be itself without Bliss? I think.

that's some non duality happening right there. (that wasnt me who posted that). I didn't realise Connor was into tantra sex now. He always gave me sinister/showoff/arrogant vibes so I never really watched his content. But if he's into this tantra sex stuff now, maybe my judgements are seriously deluding me. Maybe I should start watching his content. Recently I've been really applying a rethink of how relationships work within myself (just through my own derivations from contemplation), where relationships are more of a scaffolding for reaching the infinite, rather than something to get attached to. There's lots of toxicity in how relationships work in society (and even among personal dev junkies like on here) that is just a distraction and waste of time. Getting attached to someone else is just an absurd thing to do when breaking up is largely inevitable and necessary for growth for most people. The archetypes for males and females are largely toxic and outdated (even though normalised). And what both men and women want is to override these archetypes, attachments and to see the divine that sparkles through relationships, so why not go in that direction? If instead of viewing relationships as a way to get sex, or a way to get happiness through a human form (the other person), what if you viewed relationships as a way of exploring the consciousness that you are. A way of knowing Thyself with greater intensity. Every interaction with a women is an opportunity to explore how your body and mind interacts with the opposite sex, how our chakra and energetic systems mingle, and what they actually do and want. What if its an opportunity to explore and release traumas, an opportunity to explore bliss and joy and happiness not from the vantage point of it all coming from the opposite sex, but from it coming from within. When seeing a women on the street, you're not seeing someone to have sex with, you're seeing a library of information about your traumas, chakra system, energy system, different states of consciousness you've never explored before. And approaching her means the opportunity to open that library and see what YOU are made of, actually. And every woman is not just an opporunity for you to explore what You're made of, but to help her explore what she's actually made of. You can literally transform a human being through a relationship. Instead of making relationships about maintaining titillation through a binding contract for what the other person must serve you, and how how long (short or long term relationship) see the relationship as a course or journey of transformation of your own being. In other words, it doesn't matter if you break up, because it never was about staying together, it was always about transforming yourself and the other. And choosing to stay together is only about whether that helps both of your journeys. I've been experimenting with this mindset in pickup, and it seems to be working, given the right techniques and processes used when doing pickup.

it’s kind of silly to argue for distinction in a nonduality forum, I don’t know what to say. But boredom is not a response to a threat and neither is irritation, and that’s what fear is. A response to threat. A lack of engagement or satisfaction is not a threat to the ego. I suspect you’d argue it is, tho, which is why I don’t really want to argue. I guess I have tho, lol. You know, I could see my incentive to disagree comes from fear. And that makes me want to double down on my position. Fear is not present for me when I’m bored. Irritation and boredom are sisters, a response to dissatisfaction. A claim that fear is dissatisfaction would be a bastardizing off what fear is. But again this feels silly in a nonduality forum. Distinction is an illusion, in the end. Might as well say love is fear. Edit: boredom is like the incentive to play. boredom is a sister to playfulness, that’s not fear. Now that I’ve had my say, I’m curious rather than afraid. it’s additive. I’m afraid you’ll tell me I’m wrong, and I’m curious what your response will be. two different emotions. Edit2: ultimately I’m saying my desire to awaken stems from curiosity Edit3: one thing Leo said in another thread (I wrote it down) is this - “one thing you can bank on is this - all fear is illusion and falsehood “ and honestly this applies to emotions in general. Emotions are driving when we’re identified with them, and when we practice mindfulness emotions become fleeting and illusory. Perhaps the desire for enlightenment comes from suffering. You had that in your initial analysis. Ultimately suffering is the bigger picture of emotional experiences. There is suffering and there is bliss, two halves to the same coin. Practiced meditation leads to bliss and ego transcending. And an unpracticed mind is rife with emotion.

@arlin the secret to everlasting happiness has been found thousands of years ago by great sages - that secret is that happiness can only be found within. The truth is, you are being a bit overdramatic and can't see yourself as a beautiful divine creature. We are sad and angry at the world because people don't see us in our infinite divine nature and beauty. The world is cruel. We can't live with an open heart. We can no longer love. But it's our own fault of rejecting the love of God. The ego has inferiority complex, it was created by the social system in order to satisfy and please others. The truth is that you are NOT the ego. The real self has NOTHING to do with the body, with gender or past. The question of who you really are is a very intimate one. God loves everyone and he sees everyone as beautiful. There is no favoritism. To find out who you really are, you need to abide in the heart of your being, which means that you have nothing to do. It's our center deep within, the core full of divine love, the secret to unending bliss. We crave attention and love from others because we see God in it. And if it's not women but money then it's still love/happiness/bliss. Why not go in for God's love directly ? It's like rejecting someone giving you billions of dollars for free (without any malice).

swadishtana - sacral centre or navel centre manipuraka - solar plexus chakra In my experience with this practice, and many others these become actual physical points of bliss, but that's with chakras in general.

What you can really do is that you can re-experience those events in emotional layer to relive yourself of thek which will make the interraction like 90% easier foward. You sit with yourself, close your eyes and then remember the event in the past exactly as it happened. So now let it get to you emotionally, remember how the event felt, example. I was being gaslit by my neighbour. He is personally insulting me, creating fear in me, he said this and that and did this and that. Now after describing that in more detail, i notice that i am feeling bad. So now you write down how you feel - he made you feel powerless, angry, upset, envious, inferior, sad, depressed, shocked, e.c.t. and now you stop the mental argument and purely focus on the emotions experienced in emotional layer. Like feel that powerlesness as it is with no mental arguing or proving some point in your head but experience it like the feeling got to you, really and be aware of it. And keep tgat intensity of emotion. Experience it as Preety with that mindset that identity at that time and place, not as now with new information. That also works good especially with childhood traumas. Now after a while what you will experience is feeling relieved. There will be bliss in your swadishtana and manipuraka. Energy from depth will reach your body. If you do this consistently then you will see there will be even lesser subconscious reaction to the next encounters. Or use it to become more fit and improve your eating habits, exercise routine, health, and mental fortitude with this technique. I tend to respond with more action when I am treathened. Just like Obama said: "Our enemies keep us on our feet." Good luck! I might start a journal based on this technique, it is called the completion process or samskara dahana kriya or smth like that.

Yes, that's the point. Doesn't matter how that realization comes about. Cessation is not necessary, it's just one way -- and sometimes rather than providing the realization, cessation just becomes a nice toy that one can use to experience the bliss wave that comes after it.

Take from the Hindu concept of "Lila", that creation (all creation) is a divine play of the Supreme. "The world is a mere spontaneous creation of Brahman. It is a Lila, or playful sport, of Brahman. It is created out of Bliss, by Bliss and for Bliss. Lila indicates a spontaneous sportive,playful activity of Brahman, which is distinguished from a self-conscious volitional effort. The concept of Lila signifies freedom of creation, distinguished from creating from necessity. A playful, aimless display which precipitates pain ,as well as joy, but in its bliss transcends them both.

Going by the Buddhist framework: Piti is another name for kundalini energy. Caused by concentration and mindfulness, it is a feeling of pleasant exhilaration, and it is the proximate cause of bliss/sukkha/happiness. Kundalini awakening is another name for The Arising and Passing Away (caused by penetrating the object of meditation and separating it into its components, which are separated into their components, and so on down to pure impermanence-information-flux), the experience and layer of mind that is the home of the second Jhana.

As Rupert Spira has said, it's actually easier than breathing. It's so obvious and in our face that we overlook it. I don't want to be preachy but I'll just share two instructions that may help you: 1. Relax the attention. 2. Notice the fact that you are experiencing anything at all. If you follow these two steps, and wait patiently for the bliss to emerge, you won't be disappointed.

@Nahm On a subjective level: I am talking about the perceiver that is trapped in this Body/life. Ego is the thing that distorts reality, making things up, drawing conclusion, having beliefs, judging, filtering reality in a way that's useful for survival, avoiding pain, and seeking pleasure. Those awakenings are not there NOW, but occur once in a while before they dissapear. Right now reality is thinner than compared to other days, but not even close to a full or even partial awakening. Right Now, I'm trying a little bit to get somewhere I am not. Which I know is futile, but trying not to try is harder than trying ^^ I try to accomplish an end to suffering and starting 60 years of bliss. I'm trying to avoid the suffering of daily life (and the mind). I don't know if that is going to lead me somewhere, but that's just where I am at right now. What can I do? I'm lost and trapped into this spiritual vicious circle.

Would you call that the bliss of ignorance? Surely some devotion to curiosity is necessary for enlightenment?

Rupert Spira talks about this all the time, but it really can't be overemphasized: in being aware of being aware, it is important to relax the attention. Normally, our attention is always moving outward toward externals including thoughts and feelings. Well, one of the major keys in being aware of being aware is allowing that attention to rest rather than moving outward towards objects. Allow your attention to sink inwards and rest within itself. When your attention is fully at rest, it becomes quite easy to be aware of being aware. I should also mention, don't expect the peace or bliss of your true nature to be experienced immediately. It takes time to emerge. Because of this, people tend to get discouraged and mistakenly believe that they aren't being aware of being aware properly. In reality, they are probably doing it correctly but are simply losing patience with the process before the bliss has been given a chance to reveal itself. The peace emerges gradually over time. Patience is required here. I wish you all luck in being aware of being aware. Though, if you can allow your attention to relax, you won't need any luck at all. Peace, and much love to you all.