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Regarding my question, I wasn't thinking that accessing the open states on regular basis would naturally lead to a Buddha-like state with zero desire or aversion, I wondered if the level of intensity of the mental suffering and contraction of ego you described, would naturally soften and become much more mild in general when it does arise. So it was about the degree of it, not downplaying the profoundness of anything you've shared tho. I have my own theories about how different egos are wired differently, also I'm guessing that through frequent openness it allows for more sensitivity so when the ego rebuilds itself, it's felt very clearly, doesn't mean you have more dense than others. I say this related to my own experiences. Regarding reincarnation, I am quite pessimistic there, I think, better prolong this life, as way worse may come after 😂 I have a bit of bias in thinking at times, that meditation seems "weak" in its ability to break down the self (if it's not done a TON like in your example) because it seems to simply just "not engage it", but ok, then what is going to relax that most fundamental structure that can seem to be there even if the mind content is still and one is seemingly as disengaged as one feels one can be in the moment? I don't need answer for that, I can just try more meditation for myself, but I've reflected about it. Yea there is a lot I could say but it's always a good read (your sharings).

You’re making this way more complicated than it needs to be. You’re imagining God as some infinite cosmic storage unit where every possible experience is sitting there simultaneously. Cute idea, but that’s still the finite mind trying to put Infinity into a box. Infinity isn’t a really, really big thing. It’s the absence of limitation. There isn’t some giant God somewhere containing your experience, my experience, and everyone’s experience like files on a hard drive. And here’s where it gets really inconvenient: you’re assuming there’s a separate “you” having an experience in the first place. Look closely. Where exactly is this “you” that owns the experience? You have thoughts, sensations, images, emotions, perceptions. But where is the separate entity experiencing them? That’s the rabbit hole. And no, I wouldn’t say that when I’m reading your message, your consciousness suddenly stops existing and becomes a character inside my imagination. That’s just solipsism turned into another conceptual fantasy. You’re still imagining two separate people and then trying to figure out which one gets to be “real.” From the absolute perspective, there aren’t multiple independent consciousnesses. There is Consciousness. But don’t turn that into another belief system either. If you haven’t directly realized it, you’re just playing metaphysics with words. Same thing with reincarnation. You’re imagining God as a cosmic person who dies, gets bored, and respawns somewhere else. That’s not what Infinity means. God doesn’t travel from one form to another. There aren’t actually separate forms outside of Consciousness in the first place. Could reality manifest in ways your human mind can’t even imagine? Obviously. If Reality is Infinite, your five senses and monkey brain aren’t exactly going to be the final authority on what’s possible. But “maybe there are spiritual dimensions” is still just a thought. Don’t confuse imagination with realization. And the technology stuff is fascinating, but don’t make the classic mistake of thinking more technology automatically means more Truth. Maybe we’ll connect brains. Maybe we’ll merge sensory streams. Maybe we’ll create entirely new senses and interact with aspects of reality humans currently can’t perceive. Great. You could connect a billion brains together and you’d still be modifying the contents of consciousness. You wouldn’t manufacture Consciousness itself. And if one day we build a sensor that detects dark matter directly, congratulations. You’ve expanded the human interface with reality. You haven’t necessarily discovered God. That’s the part I’d keep coming back to. You’re trying to understand Infinity by building a better mental model of Infinity. That’s like trying to swallow the ocean with a teaspoon. So instead of asking what God is going to reincarnate into, or how many dimensions God can fit inside, investigate the one thing that’s actually undeniable right now: You’re conscious. Before you explain it, before you call it “my consciousness,” before you invent a theory about God look at what is actually here.

It has been some time since I last did psychedelics, but lately I have watched some YouTube videos and read some books about solipsism. So I have been pondering a bit about what it all means. 1. When it comes to solipsism, do I understand this correctly that In this moment, while I am writing this text and I am conscious and aware of my sensory experience and existence itself, my experience is the only thing that exists? Is my experience the only thing that actually exists in this particular moment? And since God is infinite, is it that the experience that "I" am having right now contains everything that could ever be, even though it seems finite from my perspective? Because if the experience wasnt infinite and didnt contain everything, god would be limited. And because of this, there could not be any other experiences happening at this exact moment when I am having this conscious experience and perspective, because that would imply that there is something beyond God, who is limitless? And the opposite: if we are all the same god, then when you are reading this text inside your subjective awareness, that mean that your experience is now the only experience playing out, while "mine" perspecitve is no longer happening, and I only exist as part of your experience and imagination? 2. If God is unlimited, is it possible for God to reincarnate from nothingness into a separate form in other ways than through a "physical reality" like ours? For example, could God reincarnate as a spiritual being in a "universe" without any physical laws, simply existing in some kind of ether? Could reincarnation happen in places where there arent any physical dimensions, but where there are still phenomena? Could God reincarnate in ways that we are not even capable of imagining from because of our limited form within our reality? 3. What could happen when we begin integrating electronics into our brains and potentially become able to connect ourselves directly to one another? Would it be possible to merge separate conscious experiences into one experience, and in some sense experience God from multiple peoples perspectives at the same time? Could we also create new kinds of new electronic sensors in our bodies, giving us access to forms of sensory input beyond the senses we currently have? Could it be possible to create sensory and in any way make it possible to interact with other and "new" phenomena like maybe dark matter. That we could change the way we interact with the reality we are in right now?

Rely on this: Christ, as a God, saw everything metaphysically: In fractal head, realm of god, there is one life, one heaven, one hell, one god, one decision. This is metaphysics. God lives in singularity of Whole, in fractal topology head. This is Yang. In realm of Buddha: This is material, yin. Everything repeats in fractal. Christs vision can sometimes see it's just one, single, constant thing. Buddha sees this projects to this fractal where we enlighten. Buddha: Heavens, Hells repeat, locas on Earth, it agrees *in lower levels of fractals there are more gods*, which can be viking belief or old shamanism. Essentially, every spirit is god, because they are reflection of God. I am Buddhist: God can speak in singulars very much. Yet it's not single reincarnation: Every Gods reincarnation, Shiva Shakti Vishnu Krishna Chirst or Father God of Bible, so immortal to leave traces all around the world in same series of Bible. Everybody who is against reincarnations after christ, is like who believes in muhammad but states there are no worldwide saints after muhammad: while Muhammad, by my own sight, confirmed *literally every saint and important king around the world which was seen by others*, while *Christ definitely only gave positive accounts to past saints and talked about his Father even in infinite past, not as someone who came once, or who is prisoned inside ancient Egipt, Israel and Rome and lacks mouth outside*. I see God as recurring fractal. Here: I see God's word as no-nonsense. I do not know limit of time, space and possibility: It might be two persons at the same time, playing a presentation for God, they might be both god in various ways. In the end: the message is important for buddhist, to confirm the truth. Imagine a Catholic monk sitting in small room for months, doubting in God, to find the real proof. This is claim that one seeks actual reality, and it comes from it's empathic history. Imagine Mohammad said: every single prophet in my past was true, and every single one after is false. Other nations used to see their prophets, but they will not. It's like stating: I'm Saint for the past. I'm Satan for the future. I cannot describe "religion" if he did not say like others - it's immortal God, not bound in Time and Space, represented for every being in Universe, the One for Who the Earth is Small, and Every Law is Limited - it's not about known, it's rather: if all stories about such immortal being are true, you did not get a glimpse. I am Buddhist and here I ask: Did Sanskrit tell stories which metaphysically represent will of True Higher Being and God: Yes. Did Bible do this: Yes. Does every holy man do this: Yes.

Had you ever talked about reincarnation? Ok after death we go back to what we were before being born, then probably reborn as something we imagined yet again?

I've heard a cool theory about Jesus lately on his role in saving humanity of its sins like the Catholics claim it. It's by social scientist René Girard. One of his main contributions to sociology is mimetic desire where humans mostly decide on their life goals and objective by looking at what others have and mimicking it. Until Jesus the main tales and heroes of humanity were violent conquerors. He was the only one who stood out as being a blameless victim as opposed to being a powerful ruler. This story outside of anything divine or spiritual has permeated throughout 2000 years of history and inspired civil rights movements across many nations culminating in our future world peace and final unification as a species because he was given a mystical experience and chose to die as a martyr instead of escaping prosecution. All this today even Jesus probably doesn't like death he just got promised reincarnation into our future world of post scarcity and abundance and VR waifus.

Buddhism is very coherent. The problem for me is that it's focused on subtraction, on letting go of attachment and desire in order to reach the emptiness of the mind, which is enlightenment. As I see it, the path is openness, and it is openness that results in detachment, not the other way around. And what Buddhism calls sunyata, or essential emptiness, I see as the total fullness of what is. If you are open to the absolute fact of being, your mind empties of content, and desire ceases, since in absolute being there is everything; there is nothing you can desire that you don't already have. This, of course, lasts for a while, during which you intentionally focus on the absolute. Afterward, you have to continue living, and this requires thousands of desires and actions, and a very deep understanding of all relationships. Another mistake in my opinion is calling the self illusion. This is categorizing something as illusion from what you are calling illusion, because it's the self who affirm that the self is illusory. It's a mental mess that leads to confusion. Another mess is affirming that there is reincarnation, this is a religious belief that is quite contradictory. If the self is illusion, who reincarnates?

Here is the conspiracy theory: It only states that they do not bring us out from darkness, to lives we can live, because we live in matrix. It only states that we stand out for our civilization, our lives, our love and our honour. This is a honour court, not criminal court. You do not need to disprove you did something, but to disprove you didn't do it all - what we were envisioning. We did it all, we won inside, you came to fire and beat us to share this "social position" - but when you came to share our personal, everyday energy and radiation, you told you say your right is to stand here. You said it's scientific discussion, a debate, and we said: Coming against our spiritual talk: This states ideals, therefore this is naïve, because all the cityzens are honour criminals. Honour criminal is the any one who does not have ideals, and is not able to progress towards. Now to prove your responsibility: You did not have to fire those spiritual people in advance. You did not have to call our ideals conspiracy theories as your research about "100%" was open, modified to "99%" - the weak. Known from soviet union, and my theories of illuminati (mostly mine), the 99% and ther 1% - the weak and the strong. Honour is to fail in honour courts, whatever it costs, in excess and in advance. Any attempt against is crack, cracknut head of limited consciousness, limited, binary thinking. Now, to hire us, to fight us more than 20 years - this is legal accusation. To decline giving our highest honour to our future killer, the one who pretends to be a legal man, in our society, standing for honour in honour and kicking us out: this is fighting the spiritual cause, claiming one cannot be solved peacefully, while we can still be sarcastic towards you as our most peaceful statement goes on and demonstrates your moral vulerability. This is sacrifice to suffer. For example to reason against theory of reincarnation, is to bring real, verified sample of society which did not reborn: the scientist arguing this in final opposition must stand high, stand free, talk for him - fact by fact, case by case, with natural proof and free evidence.

It's not spiritual bypassing, not even near. If you had correctly interpreted my post, you would have grasped that it is selfish and pro-life. I considered cosmic exploration, and technological and societal advancement in my analysis. The difference between my philosophy and yours is that mine sprouts from years of pondering and introspection, while yours sprouts from naivety. Tell God to burn the official document to ashes. I'm not signing it. If it reaches my location, I'll burn it myself. It's pathetic to look forward to reincarnation for a better human life. That's not my style. As the old cliche goes: succeed or die trying. I'm making my earthly life a heavenly life. Beauty, spirituality, philosophy, self-empowerment, and others already exist in my internal world and external world. USD, earthly paradise, aesthetical works, exploration & adventure, a dozen wives & a thousand concubines, and a few kids already exist in my internal world every day when I close my eyes. Eventually they will also exist in my external world every day when I open my eyes. Don't underestimate the existence of my internal world. As I explained in the last thread I started, the Universe or Existence would NOT be complete without it.

You gotta talk about the fun experience that you had exploring these topics. Example: Me: Have you heard of temporary reincarnation? Her: No Me: Its when you temporarily become another being. There was one time when I reincarnated as James Charles' anal bead. *this can then segway into many things* You gotta exaggreate it a bit, but you get the point.

I mean, you can dissuade them if you don't want them to commit suicide. But pointing to very general and abstract individual beliefs they hold to explain their proximity to suicide is a game of statistical whack-a-mole. Is the belief in an afterlife causing suicides? What about the belief that nothing happens after you die and it's just a blank nothingness? What about reincarnation? What about "everything is love"?

Nobody knows the structure of reality. Maybe there are other dimensions, conscious reincarnation, maybe no. I have the feeling that what I do in this life have an reverberation, and what I have to do is being absolutely aligned with my nature, totally integral. I feel this game as a serious one, with serious consequences. But maybe I'm absolutely wrong.

@Someone here Thank you for your answer it makes sense to me. I just wonder why Eckhart said that, and I wonder if someone has the answer I deeply admire Ram Dass who has mentioned reincarnation multiple times. In one of his stories he said he had a wonderful connection with a woman in his audience, and then realized that she was his mother in a previous life. I believe Ram Dass, and this makes me even more curious about this. It's such an insane premise, but so is the fact that I am not the body or the mind. The most important thing at the end of the day is that as long as this pulls me into the practice, in a curious non fear/guilt based way, it is probably fine, and I will surrender all conceptualization about it. Who is the one concerned about reincarnation cycles anyway? Ultimately, as you say whether we achieve "the goal of life" is not in our hands either.

“The evolution of souls involves a transition from imperfection to perfection based upon overcoming many difficult body assignments during their task-oriented lives.” (Newton 2013, 48) “Most errant souls are able to solve their own problems of contamination. The price we pay for our misdeeds and the rewards received for good conduct revolve around the laws of karma. Perpetrators of harm to others will do penance by setting themselves up as future victims in a karmic cycle of justice.” (Newton 2013, 51) “At the end of every life, rather than having a monster waiting to devour our souls, _we_ serve as our most severe critic in front of teacher-guides. This is why karma is both just and merciful. With the help of our spiritual counselors and peers we decide on the proper mode of justice for our conduct.” (Newton 2013, 52) “The test of reincarnation for a soul coming to Earth is the conquering of fear in a human body. A soul grows by trying to overcome all negative emotions connected to fear through perseverance in many lifetimes, often returning to the spirit world bruised or hurt, ….” (Newton 2013, 63) “The only purpose for being in this world is to discover our freedom. The only purpose to come here is to get rid of all the limitations. And where are the limitations? In the mind. I'm afraid I can't. I'm guilty. I don't deserve it. I'm angry. Apathy. The whole purpose of being here is to rid ourselves of all these mentations that are deeply programmed and are the accumulation of many, many millions of years. Millions of lifetimes. And yet when you release at the bottom line you can go free in a matter of months.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 23) “And you can spend far more millenniums in the astral than you do here because it's an easier way of life. […] But if you understand what the ego is you can go all the way from the lowest realm that we are in now back to the highest by eliminating the ego sense [“Saṃsāra ends when a being attains nirvāṇa, which is the extinction of desire and acquisition of true insight into the nature of reality as impermanent and non-self.” https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saṃsāra_(Buddhism); https://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/thanissaro/truth_of_rebirth.html; https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fruits_of_the_noble_path]. When we lose all of our ego sense we are fully realized. We go all the way. We return to being the all. The opportunity the opportunity to do this exists more in this realm than any other realm because it is so difficult that the incentive is greatest in this realm. As life gets easier the incentive to grow gets less.” (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024)”, 427) “I have said souls do have the freedom to choose when, where, and who they want to be in their physical lives.” (Newton 2013, 203) “Souls who become involved in these tragedies are not caught in the wrong place at the wrong time with a capricious God looking the other way. Every soul has a motive for the events in which it chooses to participate.” (Newton 2013, 219) “Of course, but it wasn't an accident-it was supposed to happen [“Karma is the law of compensation. Whatever a man soweth, …” “Karma is destiny as it determines exactly what happens in this life. We can do nothing in regard to all actions happening. Whatever has been destined to be done by us will be done by us.” “If all our action is karmic and predestined, then our will that directs that action must necessarily be predestined. However, we can conquer karma and destiny. There is a free will, — to identify with our body, or to identify with our real Self.” (Lester 1962, 64–65)].” (Newton 2013, 227) “The idea that each of us voluntarily agreed to be the children of a given set of parents before we came into this life is a difficult concept for some people to accept. Although the average person has experienced love from his or her parents, many of us have unresolved, hurtful memories of those near to us who should have offered protection and did not. We grow up thinking of ourselves as victims of biological parents and family members whom we inherited without any choice in the matter. This assumption is wrong.” (Newton 2013, 246) “Q: We have two children and they’re really different. They desired to be our children and we desired them, right? Lester: Yes. We often choose parents who have characteristics similar to ours so that we can have a constant lesson in front of our eyes. This is why we find parents so difficult sometimes. If there’s anything that I see in you that annoys me, it’s because I have it in me. If I didn’t have it in me, I couldn’t even see it in you.” (Levenson 1993, 236) The knowledge of past lives is the first of the Buddha’s three knowledges on the night of his awakening. ““When the mind was thus concentrated, purified, bright, unblemished, rid of defilement, pliant, malleable, steady, & attained to imperturbability, I directed it to the knowledge of recollecting my past lives. I recollected my manifold past lives, i.e., one birth, two… five, ten… fifty, a hundred, a thousand, a hundred thousand, many eons of cosmic contraction, many eons of cosmic expansion, many eons of cosmic contraction & expansion: ‘There I had such a name, belonged to such a clan, had such an appearance. Such was my food, such my experience of pleasure & pain, such the end of my life. Passing away from that state, I re-arose there. There too I had such a name, belonged to such a clan, had such an appearance. Such was my food, such my experience of pleasure & pain, such the end of my life. Passing away from that state, I re-arose here.’ Thus I remembered my manifold past lives in their modes & details. “This was the first knowledge I attained in the first watch of the night. Ignorance was destroyed; knowledge arose; darkness was destroyed; light arose—as happens in one who is heedful, ardent, & resolute. But the pleasant feeling that arose in this way did not invade my mind or remain.” (https://www.dhammatalks.org/books/OnThePath/Section0007.html) “Q: Still, getting rid of your body isn’t going to help much though, is it? Lester: I’m not suggesting you do that. Until you consciously leave your body, if you forcibly got rid of your body, you would just come back again through the womb and wait twenty or so years while growing up, before starting again to learn that you’re not the body. So forcibly dropping the body would be a very wrong thing to do.” (Lester 1993, chap. 36, 364) “Dr. N: When a person kills himself on Earth does this mean they will receive some sort of punishment as a spirit? S: No, no, there is no such thing here as punishment-that's an Earth condition. Clodees will be disappointed that I bailed out early and didn't have the courage to face my difficulties. By choosing to die as I did means I have to come back later and deal with the same thing all over again in a different life. I just wasted a lot of time by checking out early.” (Newton 2013, 58) https://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/thanissaro/truth_of_rebirth.html “Reincarnation doesn't help you if in your next incarnation you still don’t know who you are.” (Tolle 2003, 52) “Physical suicide, killing the body, doesn’t solve the issue, since the body wasn’t you in the first place. You don’t kill your ego just because you stop one particular object from moving. The clear mind sees that even though the body stopped, the mind didn’t, and so there is still work to do, until there isn’t.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, 135–136) “My cousin once called me at two in the morning, very depressed, and said that he was holding a loaded pistol to his head and the hammer was cocked. He said that if I didn’t give him one good reason why he should stay alive, he would blow his head off. I waited for a long time. I really wanted to give him a reason, and no good reason came to me. I waited and waited, with him on the other end of the phone line. Finally, I told him that I couldn’t find one.” (Katie and Mitchell 2021, 345) “Getting back to the quote, Lester told me we set up our next physical life between lives so that we can overcome mistakes we made last time and to satisfy desires.” (Seretan 2008, “Is everything preordained .doc”) “__Astral Plane –__ The place where we all go to after death if not Free. There we are in a “rubber body” as Lester told me, meaning it cannot be hurt like in the physical world. We see long lost friends and family from former lives. If we have any unfulfilled desires remaining, we karmically must return to the physical plane to experience them.” (Seretan 2004, _Lester and Me, My Unforgettable Conversations With American Master, Lester Levenson_, 57) “As long as there's one desire in us for something in this physical world, we'll come back into this physical world to try to fulfill it.” (“Lester Levenson, Hale Dwoskin - Lester Levenson (Sedona Method) Magnum Opus PDF-Lester Levenson _ Sedona Method (2024).pdf”, 60) ““When a being sets this body aside and has not yet attained another body, I say that it is craving-sustained. Craving (= taṇhā; “Craving or excessive or inappropriate desire”), Vaccha, is its sustenance at that time.” — SN 44:9” (Thanissaro Bhikkhu 2024, “The Paradox of Becoming”, 14 June 2026, https://www.dhammatalks.org/books/ParadoxOfBecoming/Section0007.html, 19) See also `The Michael Newton connection` (https://mega.nz/folder/h5pG3Dia#6K7_dyn22-W5dR9C2MauHg), https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/113610-trump-is-god/?page=3#comment-1751305.

I read in The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle that during physical death "A portal opens up only very briefly, and unless you have already encountered the dimension of the Unmanifested (your own true self) in your lifetime, you will likely miss it. Most people carry way too much residual resistance, too much fear, too much attachment to sensory experience, too much identification with the manifested world. So they see the portal, turn away in fear, and then lose consciousness. Most of what happens after that is involuntary and automatic. Eventually, there will be another round of birth and death. Their presence wasn't strong enough yet for conscious immortality." Reading this passage startled me.. Is reincarnation and cycles of birth and death true? How did Eckhart know this? Is this based on beliefs in Hinduism, Budhism, Sikhism etc.. and can one know this for themselves BEFORE physical death? So is this really the goal? To escape the cycle of life and death? Isn't there a point to God experiencing itself through its forms also? I believe we should honor our life, live it, follow goals and desires coming from higher intuition, yet remain detached from outcome, surrender, and keep turning attention inwards. After reading this I feel some pressure, where before I was approaching my self-inquiry practice from curiosity about my true nature, now I feel like I don't want to "miss that window".. Also I didn't understand what was meant by "Most of what happens after that is involuntary and automatic."

Catholic church already castrate enough the individual freedom with their philosophy of absolute terror , nothing happens if some voices of freedom sounds sometimes . Leo maybe should be, let's say ambiguous, but not because the suicidal people, because his interest and possible responsibility. Anyway, for me suicide is absolutely impossible unless being so sick without hope that your life is hell. If your health is ok, just fight, anything else is being an absolute coward imo. I don't know if there is reincarnation or anything similar but intuitively I feel that this life has consequences.

I think I am one of those men, can't learn game for various brain reasons, no humour etc. . I think I will focus on art, languages and becoming 10% body fat (which may never happen) . Do you really think a ''loser'' can find a gf? I don't think so. It wasn't meant to happen to me, determinism is cruel . If things could improve it would be different, but they can't. I wish I could cry to feel better, but it doesn't come out, LOL. Please note, the advice ''learn game'' doesn't work for me cause my brain is wired differently and I have low IQ. People also tell me I have no low IQ just low self confidence. No, I have low IQ, I know it, I can see it, it's so sad that some people have low IQ. That's why I want to know if reincarnation is real, so I go to the next life, but I am so coward I am going to stay and live this life till the end. I am not a pessimist, I am a realist, if I was high IQ I would not have a problem telling it or keeping it to myself. I really needed to vent. Do you think dying a virgin is a big problem? Are any of you in the same position? how do you cope? Thank you for all the support and answers you give me all this time, this forum is amazing and helpful, thank you so much. Just saying.

Maybe you can't see that what you are is an expression of the reality. You can disappear as this form, but the reality can't disappear. Your memories, your current structure is irrelevant, what you are is the unlimited. Reincarnation isn't needed, there are already infinite incarnations, just break the limits and would be obvious.

After physical death, reality ends. What you learned trough the mind / brain / body, dies with death of the mind / brain /body. İsn't is abvious that all reincarnation stuff is BS? Yo you learn with this mind and body, and when it dies, how these ideas will stay?

No; does he say something like that ? In our next reincarnation we'll just have to "JIJJIJJJJJ%%%%" together 😏

I feel the same, I want to take my life but then again what's the point of taking my life, if reincarnation is true then I am going to be back here again maybe as an ant or something and not a human. Plus it would hurt my family. What keeps me alive is having goals (learning a language, learning to draw), journaling and imagining that I am with the girl i love (she doesn't like me at all which makes me want to take my life even more so I just fantasize about her and me being together). It's the goals for me, some day my life will be better when I will learn a language and know how to draw, when I will become thin. I had a rough childhood and teen years and even later, too. But I try to forget my traumas as suggested in Leo's videos about trauma. I don't know how to help you but maybe if you set goals and try to use your imagination to feel better it will help. To be honest the best thing you can do is talk to a psychologist/psychiatrist. I mentioned I want to take my own life to my psychologist and she tried to help me, also she told me to try being grateful for the things I have cause it helps.

Lol right. A nightmare still seems like something. Whereas what is talked about is nothing. I'm sure it's the "death" and "reincarnation" aspects which were triggered in hindsight.

Here is a message I (a God fearing man) wrote my brother (an atheist) this morning: “I just had the scariest nightmare of my life which I can’t put into words because while the visuals are still in my mind slightly, I forgot almost everything the moment I woke up. This nightmare led me to the following observation. (Disclaimer 1: This may seem like I’ve lost my mind, but I assure you I have not. People are quick to look at someone they don’t understand and call them crazy because it helps them to live in the life they were brought up in which is more comfortable for their ego to survive or feel like they have understanding over others when there is nothing to understand). (Disclaimer 2: if you take what I here say here too seriously it could lead you to insanity trying to wrap your head around it). Observation: Death leading to true pitch blank empty nothingness is hopeful and the closest thing to heaven I can imagine. I am hopeful this is the Truth, but I fear whatever is going on here is eternal. Some call it a single consciousness and others call it god (all of the population including myself are confused about what god really is). We are experiencing something from nothing, whether god exists to you or not, at the bedrock of existentialism you see that we as humans will never truly understand where we came from because who created god (the creator of us)? Some enlightened masters dedicate their life to understanding this and while I’m no master, I do feel I have the potential to be a master one day if I apply myself and work towards it. I’ve half-ass studied enlightenment for over 10 years now and have done many hours of contemplation on the subject and the idea of where we came from (only saying this to qualify my claims here, but I don’t expect anyone to just believe my word on faith without going through an internal investigation of their own). The answer to where we came from is Nothingness. We’ve always been Nothingness. The simulation theory can’t overcome the problem of “who started the simulation?” The only answer is that all that exists is Nothing and Nothingness is different than what you probably think. I’m trying to communicate something which is not thought to be communicable with words. How can a finger point at it self? (I.e. we are god experiencing itself and using words to communicate this is like a finger trying to point at itself, it’s not thought to be possible. I can lead you to the water, it’s up to you to take the steps required to drink the water). Nothingness or consciousness is empty and blank, a substance (if you can call it a substance because it’s truly nothing) which has no color, shape, smell, size, etc. and can shapeshift into anything and create any rules for the way it operates. It is an eternal shapeshifter and there’s so much I still don’t understand. I feel we get a taste of what death is like in our sleep, but life and death are two sides of the same coin I call “Nothingness” which will become anything it wants to (like how we dream of anything). We don’t have control over anything because the idea of our “self” is illusory and doesn’t exist in reality. Everything is made of this empty substance called consciousness and if you ever become enlightened you will see that Nothingness is all there ever was. When I woke up from the dream I was so scared that it made me feel that the best thing to do is to be as good and loving as possible to others and to further seek enlightenment in case the Buddhist idea of reincarnation is correct and through karma and raising our awareness we are able to transcend all forms of suffering in this life and the next. I don’t know, I have no claims to prove that being good/loving/enlightened will lead to anything good. All I know is I know nothing. 😌”

God and Love was the original teachings for service to self and service to other. It was channeled by entities by the Ancient Egyptians. It is a part of the Luminous religion. Luminous is in the Great Pyramids of Egypt. The Illuminati know about the Luminous religion. The Luminous religion is made up being perception and the lightbody. I am the founder of the Luminous religion. The Illuminati are extremely attractive because of being perception and the lightbody and they are successful for that reason. God and Love in the original teachings is service to self and service to other. It is in the Ra teachings in the Law of One. Ra channels the teachings. Service to self and service to other are in the Luminous religion and are a part of its original teachings and are in the Great Pyramids of Egypt. Original teaching for God (service to self) and Love (service to other): “Your masculine approach is cool but right now it's not going to get through to anyone when they feel devalued and unsafe. The feminine approach exists for a reason as well. The divine masculine naturally embodies the aspect of GOD. The divine feminine the aspect of (feminine) LOVE and HEART. Both need to be honored.” “You have to bring the teaching down to earth. Walk your talk. Identifying the self as God and the other as God shows up differently in reality. 'God and love'.” Service to self is dedication to service to other and service to self is dedication to service to self. Both induce the evolution of the soul. They induce consciousness and enlightenment. Service to self is identifying the self as God and service to other is identifying the other as God. God in this context means sovereignty. In the original teachings service to self and service to other was confused with being perception and the lightbody. I channeled these teachings from higher intelligence. The Densities are the evolution of the soul and involves the reincarnation process of the soul. In the first three densities you are reincarnated as matter, plant form and animals, and then finally a human or 3rd density being with self awareness. They are levels of awareness and consciousness. The fourth density is the polarization of service to self and service to other. You either become the service to self polarity or the service to other polarity. The fifth density is the learning about being perception and the lightbody and the balancing of both. The sixth density is the polarization of being perception (radiation of love, consciousness) and the lightbody. You either become the lightbody polarity or the being perception polarity. The seventh density is the relationship with the opposite polarity and the compatibility with the opposite polarity. The lightbody polarity is compatible with the being perception polarity. The service to self polarity is compatible with the service to other polarity. The feminine are usually the lightbody polarity once fully evolved and the masculine is usually the being perception (radiation of love, consciousness) polarity when fully evolved. The masculine tend to be service to self and the feminine tend to be service to other. We are attracted to our opposite, in terms of polarity. Polarities are masculine and feminine. The seventh density is coming to a final decision as to polarity in terms of service, and being perception and the lightbody. You can swing back and forth between polarites before then.

James123 Topic Starter James123 Member 5,777 posts Posted 14 hours ago · 14 hours ago, Grateful Dead said: So you believe that when the body-mind dies, the game simply comes to an end? And then what? No, I neither believe nor don't believe in anything. Beliefs, knowledges, experiences, feelings, thinking are function of the body. İf you say this is a belief, actually not. I move my hand and drink water. Same as that, I do not evaluate, imagine or assumption meaning of words, they are just what they are, that's all. Even reincarnation is a belief that's created via mind. When one deeply looks, it is inevitable not see nothing has never happened, only attachment to thoughts, that's all. Of course stimulation of body constant therefore, it is very hard to be always, yet in meditation, in bus, sleeping, when situation is not be solved via thinking or feeling (if the body stimulation is not constant) there is no life nor time for me. Do you see similarity? 😂 😂 😂