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  1. πŸ˜„ Thanks for the laugh.
  2. You basically tagged me 3 times. πŸ˜„πŸ€” I got confused. You certainly need to be financially self-sustainable to conquer your sin. It's not just for your medication but for you to spend much of your energy and time conquering your sin and to live without any toxic humans bringing you down. You need to surround yourself with people who support and empower you. If that is not possible, it's better to live alone. Have the courage to cut off toxic relationships. It's very difficult but must be done if you want to be "free". Have you ever considered the mental-emotional component of meningitis? My sin was extreme, god-like kind of anxiety, depression, agoraphobia, bdd, ptsd, ocd, and I have conquered them by doing intense research, contemplation, introspection, working on the repressed, extreme emotional wounds and anger and by generating strong self-love. I spent my entire 20s fixing my extremely broken self. Though I succeeded, I must say you can never 100% undo your sin. There will always be traces left. I still have some problems with too much hand washing and anger. But if I compare my current "soul" to my previous "soul", I must say I have conquered my sin. Having much self-love works like magic. And it certainly enables you to properly interact with toxic humans by setting boundaries and by automatically being less affected by their toxic words and actions. It even enables you to cut off toxic relationships. If you love yourself, you don't need to be loved by others. You can receive and enjoy their love, but you won't need it. It makes you self-sufficient in that very big aspect. My intuition says the "soul" and cells of your body can detect self-love (and self-hate). And that either nourishes or destroys them, especially long term. I made a post about my journey. It might give you some useful insights.
  3. It's a good strategy to focus on healing from your meningitis instead of focusing on spirituality and meditation. Overcoming meningitis is very difficult. It deserves all your energy and time. That will be your form of spirituality. And it will make you grounded. You will significantly grow as a human if you overcome your sin or cross which is meningitis. Don't rely too much on doctors. Rely more on yourself. Do a serious research about meningitis and broaden your sources. The goal is to have a deep understanding of your condition so you can find or design a cure. After your sin is conquered, you can then focus on another form of spirituality. The questions What is the deepest I?, What is the deepest existence?, Why is existence structured this way?, Where or what was I before I was born?, Will I go there again after death?, Why do I even die?, What is the point of life if it ends? Why is existence full of suffering and evil? are the guiding light to the deepest spirituality. I hope you succeed.
  4. There is something wrong here. Why didn't you consider that it was Jesus's unconditional love and dying on the cross that made the world better? Matthew 21:12-13 And Jesus entered the temple and drove out all those who were buying and selling in the temple, and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who were selling doves. And He said to them, β€œIt is written, β€˜MY HOUSE SHALL BE CALLED A HOUSE OF PRAYER’; but you are making it a ROBBERS’ DEN.” It just shows that though Jesus was the epitome of a walk-and-talk awakened human and teacher, he was still Limited. Why didn't you mention that Jesus chose to spend time with criminals? And saved the "sinful whore" from being stoned to death? And that he died on the cross but chose to forgive his murderers for they didn't know what they were doing? It is the whole picture which matters, not one or two aspects. Whether Jesus really existed and his documented life in the bible was accurate or not is debatable. I am open to the possibility that it was all a lie. But I'm also open to the possibility that it was all true.
  5. That's bullshitry or the human domain. 😈 πŸ˜„
  6. If the deepest awakening means being able to unconditionally love every thing all or almost all the time, and if it means to be completely unbiased all or almost all the time, then what you are saying are all excuses. @Unwiring An awakened human would never punish for he equally loves everybody and sees no evil in rape, murder, and child abuse. That is what Jesus in the bible demonstrated. I doubt Leo ever would. I would like to see Sadhguru, Tolle, and Mooji be tested and experience these horrors. It's fair and sensible for people who make crazy, mind-fuck claims to demonstrate their teachings. If they can't walk, they shouldn't talk. I doubt I would be able to embody the deepest awakening. But If it is the truth, embodying and demonstrating it is the way to go. But I will be honest about the fact that I might not be able to. I won't give an impression that "I got it." and tell others to do the same. As of now, the short and direct answer to your question is I will make assholes pay and break their faces. Reporting them to the police is ok but it's very impersonal.
  7. πŸ˜„ I can taste the bitterness there. Are you dissatisfied by Leo's lack of embodiment? I honestly am. @Annoynymous But to be fair, I am dissatisfied by all the spiritual teachers. Gathering people for satsangs, preaching to people like priests do, uploading youtube videos about spirituality, etc are good, but not enough. I have already heard enough. Now, I want to see their hands and feet do the talking. I'm happy Jesus's life and teachings were documented. I hope he really existed and his teachings written on the bible were close to what they really were. He was the best teacher because he could do both, walk and talk. Ramana Maharshi might have also been a walk-and-talk teacher. I haven't done much research about him, so I can't make a strong conclusion. But I can confidently say Jesus dwarfs Ramana in terms of "live teaching/philosphy demonstration" and world impact.
  8. πŸ˜„ But that's a valid perspective. And as you were sitting and typing to start this thread, there were some remaining shit particles around your asshole because you hadn't properly washed it. But your asshole is not alone. Most assholes are not properly washed. God is dirty.
  9. @ivankiss I know Serbia. And I have read an article about "Serbia Strong" so I feel you. And Tijana Boskovic is from Serbia. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tijana_BoΕ‘koviΔ‡#/media/File:2016-12-14_Tijana_Boskovic_by_Sandro_Halank.jpg Don't tell me most Serbian woman are as beautiful as her. πŸ˜„ Anyway, since I was a kid, I have been curios about Serbia. But I guess the name was Serbia and Montenegro. I want to visit the country in the future. I'll be vigilant. Thanks for the information. I don't know the band, A Perfect Circle. To be honest, I don't understand the message of the song. But I see the truth of what you said below.
  10. The coronavirus is not stupid. Its survival strategy is very smart. But yes, there is already a song about it. πŸ˜„
  11. It is. And stage Red is very powerful. If you want great, rapid change, utilize stage Red. Look at what the coronavirus has done to the world. The coronavirus is the epitome of stage Red. It has broken all conventions and rules of commerce, health, business, education, social etiquette, politics, etc. It even caused enormous human suffering and death, all for its own self-interest. It simply wants to eat human meat. The coronavirus dwarfs Trump and Duterte combined, and will eventually dwarf Hitler. A stage Yellow human with strong stage Green and Red aspects is not a devil, but an archangel. That is what humans should aspire to be before becoming Turquoise.
  12. Cool. I noticed around 7 years ago that SOAD embeds political messages to their songs. I was surprised. So now, I'm not surprised you started this thread. About police brutality, I think the George Floyd incident was unjustified because he was handcuffed while lying on his stomach. He was no longer a threat. But the Rayshard Brooks inicdent was justified. The officers did the correct thing. Brooks resisted, stole the taser gun, and pointed it at the officer. That was a stupid, dangerous thing to do. The policeman had the right to protect himself. Some people say it was just a taser gun, not a real gun. But a taser gun is also a dangerous weapon, and the malicious act itself, is criminal and unacceptable. If Brooks had the opportunity to steal a real gun, he would have done so. Some people say Brooks did not feel safe being arrested by the policemen, so he did that. That's not an excuse. The same rule applies, the officers needed to protect themselves from a direct threat. Brooks would have been safer not resisting and taking risks than doing what he did. But he was drunk? That's not an excuse either. But those incidents don't shock me. They are mild compared to police brutality in my home country. It's common for policemen in my home country to arrest a suspected criminal, bring him to the police station, then chop his body into pieces so they can easily throw them into a river. I have also heard a few instances when the police brought businessmen to the police station, extorted money from them, then strangled them to death so the police could hide the crime. When I'm in my home country which is a "3rd world" country, I am always vigilant. I see the police as a threat so I avoid them. Going back to music, if you have an interesting song (any genre) you want to share, send me a message. I'll do the same. πŸ˜‰ Here's another powerful song for you.
  13. Yes, thanks! 😊
  14. @ivankiss You reminded me of the time when I was young, wild, broken, and crazy. πŸ˜„ I loved that song and it still sounds good now. It's amazing. Some things never change. I also love all genre (and multi-language) though I usually listen to mellow songs from 1900s- 1930s, and 1950s-1990s. It's the beautiful melody and tune I enjoy and appreciate, not the genre. I listen to heavy rock songs, especially anger-hate songs from time to time to embrace my built up anger, enjoy feeling it, then release some of it. It has some healing effect, though it's temporary. Those noisy, crazy songs, as perverted as they are, have some important function.
  15. You can never fully heal and find yourself if you don't separate yourself from your parents. You are broken and it is not random. Your parents broke you. Most of it happened when you were a kid. Your goal should be to be independent from your parents. As long as you live with them, they and you, will continue to keep you broken. You need to be in a new environment to see new perspectives and learn new patterns of thinking and behavior. Healing and growth sprouts from there. You should live alone and be financially independent from your parents. From there, you can do serious inner work and transform yourself. It also helps to spend much of your time with people who have the qualities you want to acquire, such as self-love, and mental-emotional stability. This might give you some encouragement.