Pamela Zamora

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  5. Posted

    Desire:

    • Desire=Selfish Desire.
    • Neither Natural to Life (as desire for food) nor the desire for God which is accompanied by wisdom and unselfishness
    • Desire and anger = Two sides of same coin
    • Smoke hides Light from Fire. Desire hides divinity and turns into evil
    • As Mirror=Hidden by Dust cannot function
    • Desire=Nullifies wisdom and puts it out of commission. 
    • Even Wise woman under influence of desire is unable to see her own face. 
    • Life full of Regrets and Remorse 

  8. Posted

    @Nahm @Nahm @Solace @isabel @tsuki

     

    This is what ego wrote down, after contemplating:

    As long as I am identifying with this ego, fear=worry dictates my life. It is as if the ego needed to feel afraid of death, and she sees death as the lack of significance in this worldly world. That is all that ego wants: to feel powerful, to feel big, to have the fame, the money, the possessions, and all the worldly world objects that she deludes herself to believe these unreal things are going to help her achieve immortality. The ultimate fear of death drives the worries, and as long as the ego doesn't understand the fact that this whole set up is an illusion, it will keep on desiring immortality. It will keep on being afraid, worrying over nothing

     

  10. Posted

    Gita

    20th of March

    How can I Stop this Chain Reaction Towards Self-Destruction?

    The Cosmic Nature of God in this moment, and in this set worldly-world (dream)  is in tune with my physical body (and mind) there is an automatic and Mechanical Process.

    In here

    the eyes see illuminated objects, the ears hear sounds, the tongue tastes.

    There is a vibratory correlation between senses and objects.

    Self Destruction appears

    when mind through thought registers senses as:

    pleasant or unpleasant.

    She likes it, or dislikes it,

    revives it through memory and desires or not a repetition.

    When Mind comes around with thought patterns, and illusions regarding the sensed objects I must be aware. For the minds Nature will also be to create chains.

    My Higher Self Nature will be to let go of attachment to reaction in the mind. To desires, to wants.

    Understanding the Illusion of Thought.

    Being in a constant Hero's Journey, looking for the Truth, not the Illusion

     

  13. Posted

    Gita Introspection.

    19th of March:

    Feel yourself as the whole creation, understand it. But mostly live through it, this is an Illusory World, and you are in an Infinite Consciousness, you are the infinite Consciousness. Your options are to keep on falling asleep and believing that your ego, made up words, thoughts, conditioning and attitudes are you. Being completely ignorant of The Infinite Consciousness, draining yourself in a petty little life, instead of being in tune with The Higher, bigger and infinite picture of it all. Being too concerned on your dream, on your made up connections between thoughts, your lies. 

    Be aware of the Dream, you are dreaming, all of those connections and stories about "Your Ego" are made up. Nothing is real. From here the only path to take is Lucidness. No more made up stories, no more attachments to the body and to the senses.

    Pure Consciousness. Root yourself in the Beginning of it all, and be Infinite with the Truth. Be one with God. Every moment, every action. There is no reaction, there is balance in success and failure.

    Geometrics Of the Diametrics

  14. Posted

    Here's something I wrote down, from today's contemplation. I hope it makes sense.

    I am following the Gita (March 18) 

    Understand the illusion of Thoughts. Thoughts are giving you a made up story all the time, you make up new Worlds in your mind, you believe in them. The most predominant world is that where you are the center of this life. And when I say YOU, I mean the Ego. Your Self-Image, Your Self-Talk, your most predominant thoughts. You believe you are that, and those are dictating your life. BE VERY Couscous of Made up worlds in your head. They are present all the time. The made up story on how you will attain this or that is the most predominant thought in your head. And that is the root cause of your ignorance. The fact that you hover over the thought of accomplishing C by doing A,B, and the thought of lacking A or B gives you suffering. 

    UNDERSTAND and put into practice the fact that you live within YOU, within GOD. You are infinitely intelligent, and scarcity is not real. Society is diluting you most times, with their made up wants and needs, but your thought patterns. Your conditioning and your habits are making you go in this rabbit hole a lot deeper.     

    Nothing is done by you. You are not meant to suffer from your actions!

    it is relaxed, simple, no mental fever required, just presence. Just willingness to do the right thing.

  15. Posted

    @Just Do Nothing @Moreira  I made a whole 1 hour writing about it. And I did come to the conclusion that since Weed makes my thoughts larger, the negative thoughts were more predominant. I got deeply in a Depression State.

    There is a lot of Guilt with the mere act of smoking weed, (From my dad and brothers experience) and it gets triggered while I smoke it, my thoughts are those of guilt, and Shame. 

    So, it is amazing how my ending results were what you actually are suggesting. I know that this is a matter of loving myself enough to know where my best state of being is. And it is when I have been sober, meditating and reading and learning daily when I have grown the most.

    I have taken weed from the illusions of my mind, beliefs, attitudes and conditioning, but I am willing to let go and to love myself enough to quit weed.

     

    THANK YOU SO MUCH!

  17. Posted

    I loved weed, and I used to smoke it everyday, after seeing that my brother got psychotic due to drugs and he was a chronic weed smoker, I moved to Miami and have been occasionally smoking with a very bitter taste on my lips. Due to my guilt, I have had really bad episodes in which I just quit life, I lay down on bed all day long as I am doing now, I skip work and I eat all the bad food, i have even taken food that’s not mine from my roommates in many occasions 

     

    i did stop smoking and buying weed like 2 months ago from when I moved to Seattle  but the occasional times I’ve smoked it has just been my worst living scenario.

    I am not sure where I want to get here, but I am a lot into spirituality and I’ve been reading the Gita, and I know it is an ego game. My dad and my brother are me, and I should only be taking all of their lessons into my life, I smoke weed and I let the ego out, and it is not pretty.

     

    has anyone lived through this? And do you have any advise? I only feel as if I screwed up my life and I’m gonna get fired from the one job I actually liked, as if I am chastising myself. Pure and good karma from me to me.

  21. Posted

    @Pinocchio  @Leo Gura You're right, all throughout the video I was thinking about that in fact, I started putting down my laptop screen and I was trying to realise that I was seeing Leo as you said it "a pink blob on a black background" and the thought pattern went like:

    1. Look, there is this 2D image from a computer that is telling you you're nothing.
    2. REALISE that!
    3. I can't, it's so HD! he looks so real.
    4. It's because he is real.
    5. He is a person.
    6. Look at all these qualities..
    7. Blah, blah, blah.

    With all these comments I am starting to realise I really need to do a much deeper work within me, because my mental chatter is super strong right now. Thank you so much.

  22. Posted

    I just watched "The enlightened self" video, and I tried to picture Leo as nothing. And it was just too hard, I see people as something different and apart, like they have their own qualities and they do other things.

    The only thing I could do there was picturing him as me, as part of my field of awareness, as if I was the person that was saying those things, I'm not sure if that's the right approach, because I can tell differentiating people gives me sort of the anxiety I've been holding for my whole life. (Funny I wrote "lie" instead of "life" and thought that would be a more appropriate way to say it)

  23. Posted

    @Kelley White Thank you so much!

    What a great response, the fact that you understand me and can connect with me in some level helps me a lot, and well, I think "concern" is just not worth it when nothing is really in our hands, but emotions are really hard to control, specially when there are SO MANY. There is love for your kid, and fear for his future, and maybe disappointment, all at once. And even though sometimes it seems impossible, I guess we have to work harder on ourselves.

    He was in a rehab center, but they gave him permission to go out because he was behaving good, and then he escaped. I understand that I can do that, but right now I have no information about his location he could be anywhere within my country (Colombia) and here authorities really don't work as well as in the U.S. But still, I know I'm giving out excuses, I will do my best within my reach.

    Right now, that's exactly what I need to do, I must just take care of myself as for now, and be the best person I can be for me and for others, but focus on making the right moves to move on and thrive if that's necessary. People sometimes give us so much, and at the same time makes us so unhappy. (Or actually sometimes we just lie to ourselves telling ourselves that's reality, maybe we just need to breath and stop lying)