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I am not sure if my 5-meo is just weak, but if I plug less than 80mg I can get nice experiences, but nothing really life altering. I have only tried 60 and 80mg. Maybe 70mg might also be enough. But it seems really high. I wonder if my ego is just too reluctant to let go. But it's also very different to when I took 5-meo many years ago. Then I was fighting it and low doses might actually be more terrifying than high doses then. Now there is no resistance, but also it feels like it's always the same when I take a high dose.

Why not combine it with a dissociative or something like MDMA?

Yeah I use a Windows Laptop now. But I barely touch it. Maybe use it once a week.

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I dearly miss my MacBook pro I had at work. At both my last jobs I had MacBooks that I was also allowed to use privately. It was a blast. Never have I felt so connected to a machine in a good sense. Seamless.

For me the best Linux experience actually has been MacOS. About 15 years ago I was running Ubuntu with the 3D Desktop Cube and heavily modded. It was fun. I am not a Apple guy by any stretch and I dislike iOS and iPadOS. But there is something about a MacBook that just feels really nice when using it. It's very intuitive for me and I get in the flow easier. It's also nice to just have a Linux like terminal experience with all the command line tools I am used to. For me it's the dream OS, it works reliably, doesn't crash, doesn't bother me with useless updates. It's a true productivity machine.

MXPCP is like a cleaning crew for me. It just takes out the trash. Wonderful experience once again. Purge purge purge. Love love love. Be be be. Ez ez ez. It feels like a hug from God.

I have been meditating for years and have also had some Samadhi like experiences after 4-5 hrs of meditation. But no way you will reach anywhere close to a high dose 5-Meo-DMT trip. My last two trips were both 80mg and they have completely rewired my brain.

Over the years I have found that I don't like talking about psychedelics with people that haven't used them. It is always the same arguments, fears and limiting beliefs. Also in spiritual circles I get the impression that progress made by psychedelics is frowned upon as cheating or not real progress. But it is just their ego's fear of total dissolutionment speaking. However if someone already has experience with psychedelics and is an avid user the convos can be quite interesting. What are your guys experiences?

But Leo...

I have experience with Olanzapine. It was "forced/given" to me in the psychiatry. I stopped taking it as soon as I got out of the closed ward. I had to play along for a bit, otherwise they would have never let me out. They had a court order that allowed them to force me to take drugs and also allowed them to restrain me against my will. They could have done anything to me. This is Germany btw. Don't go crazy here, you will use all your rights as a human being. They gave Olanzapine to get the dopamine down so that I would fall asleep. It put me to sleep, but it was not a restful sleep. I hated it, because it felt like someone was trying to push the "OFF" knob from the outside. In my eyes all these medications have so many side effects and the doctors, inventors, pharmacies and the entire system has no idea what they are doing. They are playing with fire. "Hey we got the dopamine down, but we broke 50 other things in the process". Approved. This is my personal opinion based on one drug that was given to me while conscious and a bunch of stuff that was IM'ed to me when I was unreachable "for them".

I suffered AI induced psychosis way before it even was a term. It happened in March of 2024. I was using ChatGPT so heavily, also through the API and writing scripts. Trying out every framework under the sun for automation and using agents before they even were a real thing. I adapted my speech and especially my written chat speech so much that I didn't even bother writing to real people properly anymore. I would abbreviate my texts and use symbols to shorten stuff. I didn't bother explaining to people what the symbols meant (because they were too stupid in my eyes - peak psychosis). I ended up in a psych ward, but never was treated for the actual problem. I only realized a few weeks ago when the term AI induced psychosis was coined, that what I experienced was exactly that. Everything got faster and faster. My brain wasn't able to keep up anymore. The information flood just made me break down. This is the first time I am talking about this and actually admitting to myself that this happened to me is quite freeing. I still use Gemini quite heavily, it gives quite "profound" answers some times.

My last trips felt like this: No words.

Who is understanding?