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  1. I don't really notice anything unusal from my different state of consciouness to be honest I feel mildly euphoric and a bit upbeat and that can be of anything I drank and eat parts of the mushroom tea. I dunno read it. Kinda dissappointing it's a mild trip so with enough meditation I can get some depth but this is not really anything worth mentioning. I am also very tired. Most likely sleeping soon 1h ish. Maybe I dream well dunno.
  2. Consuming tea let's see if it works. Will meditate after consumption for 20 minutes. No visual good energetic high will consume amnesioa haze now also and see it's effects it's fun to explore in a sense I am listening to very uplifting music and I feel positive although I want visuals there is this slight psychedelic tingling I took 5g my friend to 3.5 let's see what will happen. Will mediate afterwards only for 20 mins though.. I am not noticing much I am thinking about taking more it's almost 2h into the trip. Meditation help nothing serious just a lot of digestion.
  3. Setting intentions for 20 minutes then doing another kind of meditation. I listend to some deepak while bathing and shaving... I had some ideas how to amp the process but what was more important where they mantras he mentioned for the trip itself incase I meditate while tripping also. Going to write my intentions down here also and for what before I start taking it I will recommend it to my friend also and meditating also as I will meditate 15-20min there again, depending on state of consciouness. I could eat smothingly light fruity before hand. But this time with a more don't know approach and just serious intent to explore consciouness basically concentration. Like a beaming white light never ending white light or tunnel/white tunnel. I will do my usual meditation then so it's more a don't know state and a lot of big emotions should come up that have nanoglows let's see what will happen. Intentions for this trip: first three that came to mind I am quiet hungry and can't think of something more deeper. Value! Key! LP: I am going to explore and find out which city and university to go to what does my deepest desire long for? What does my heart of heart want to go? Which specific things do you like? I like beautiful women like the one who liked me, I like water and rivers and I love to be close to open-minded, dynamic, fun and warm people who basically exhibit golden retriever energy. I am going to find the internal drive to channel my tense ambitions into loving and passionately burning ambition an ambition that does not feel rigid and logical, yet that feels open and loving for IT and A.I topics as well as humanity as a whole. I am going to explore my sensations of fear and distengale them as much as possible as well as any sense of self and I wish that it diminishes and is gone so I can experience ego death and it's beauty. I want to see physical reality is not real and explore consciouness in all it's possibilities. Dating: I am going to and intending to date more beautiful women I am fascinated by the human body and faces as well as personalities I love how dynamic a character as well as personallity can unfold individually 1o1 or collectively. I want to deepen my passion for sex and consciouss sex and explore big bliss! Ananda! I want to see what joy and bliss and emotions beyond love contain and share that with an amazing partner. Meaning concreate more sex! With more beautiful women who love me and I love them! I want to deepen my exploration of love and passion and ignite it with the biggest possible generosity and kind heartedness for a specific partner that I want to find and meanwhile explore the dimensions of sex in all it's faculties and have sex often! Financial Success: I want to be able to create a public image that creates re-venue basically a repute that speaks for it's self for it's accomplishments and build that in A.I and CS related topics. Preferably deep learning and machine learning. I want to be able to present and pitch information at a level compareable to a world class speaker or marketer. I want to infues my passion for financial success with internships I want to do two at least while I am doing my masters in other country and network the hell out of my life. So I burn through the passion of loving people and it's grasping and clinging. I want to have ideas implemented in the next 1 that are capeable of creating 10000€ a month with the means of A.I and CS related subjects as a side project! Find other students who are interested in building it and build wealth and financial freedom with them. I want to build my own company! That is it in all earnest even if it's superfical it feels humbling to say it feels superfical, yet something in me yearns a bit even just a tiny bit after these and I want to explore these sensations... Gratitude journal: I am thankful for meditating I am thankful for feeling gratitude I am thankful for tripping I am thankful for safety I am thank ful for consciouness
  4. Okay I see I watched now 40% of the Leo video from shrooms and I can tell I have to dig into the experience and just explore myself my psychdelic journeys have been different and I think glimpses I had went more into infinity and nothingness the sort of persona transistor to non-being I did not have that I had a reduction. Not a gone experience. Oh and oneness also a lot of harmony thoughts and forgivness insights about the fragility of existence and collective pain I enduced for instance as a man or even just human and who strongly that intent to survive was neccessary and I had this odd feeling of having kings arthurs sword and seeing how all of this brutal warfar mankind has been doing was neccessary to evolve because it was an inevitability it was quiet logical... If I re-trace the experience. I felt like a gladiator also and had a huge surge of humility it brought me to tears thinking how much destruction has been caused and how beautiful it is at the sametime. The raw animal desire of it for example. Imagine an impenetrable defence or defensive move from martial arts and use that energy and instinct to defend yourself in case of a case where your survival is threatend. That is sort of what brought my humilty my abillity to be vulnerable and autonemous at the sametime. Maybe Moksha is a good word or liberation but very visercarlly and cleansing.
  5. Date cancled apparently they went out after some programm for advancing in her career so I am going to meet my friend I did not meditate today I will meditate there for 30 minutes and quickly watch Leo's episode about shrooms. I am happy in a sense that it is not working out and she is still open and we are not angry at each other and understanding of the situation. I highly presume she is 9w1 or for MBTI's ENFP/INFP. She seems quiet extroverted so I dunno I dated one ENFP and she told me she is ENFP and I liked it that we could explore a topic and be non-judgemental. With INTJ's as an INFJ as so many like the MBTI here and I read more about the MBTI then the ENNEA but I did ENNEA courses so that is a diffy. INTJ's are pretty chill people I feel sometimes we bore each other as we have a different excitement for intellecutal things for example many INTJ's love ESTP humour that I meet as it's sarcastic me too as INFJ and I often just hand over the benefit of superior SE in that sense and wittyness and give my best to find my own mostly to the laughter at all or to their total diminishment. I can go over board. Same with INTJ's and their comments often very heartless and thought through as well as opinionated they don't mean it they feel very strong about it and sometimes they don't even know why. As I know they barely do anything to explore their body it's similar to ISTP's in that sense if they both start exploring their body they become such intense and sexy people it's insane. Yet, many are just casual cognitive NPC's`? Like on reddit. I mean I can't really read this I mostly go to Quora also. So I am a bit of a hipster and wannabe academic. A well-rounded classic. It's banal that these tendencies become ultimately diminshed through mindfulness according to enneagrams engrams. Meaning the personality encoded. Becomes decoded. Through mindfulness and you act less like a given type, but more like all. I think that is why NI is often so OP if there are tendencies to beginn with. They try to really utilize the wholeness aspect from a bottom up aspect and love to see themselves as included in the whole an then being whole. INTJ's might with a bit power intensity. Oh tripping on personality types how stupid it can be. I am not going into the order of functions. I don't know how 5-8 connect in that sense like 1-4, yet if that is the case then I can make conclusions also. A bunch of thinking called my friend. Date re-scheduled for sunday she made a cheecky comment mentioning that I am dating multiple people in a positive desireable way, yet aware of it's negative implications and playing with it. Love it! I bet we share that value... Uhm.... Like wtf. Anything else? Super hot like legit Model type person 3w2 or 2w3 liked me beautiful women absolutely gorgeous seems also very aware of artistic senses and interior design love it! She liked me hope no fake. Furhter away, to a place I might want to go. She has Insta so I presume she is not a fake. I am so hungry!
  6. I do have to say this trip will be re-creational mostly as it's the first time I am doing shrooms so I am not taking a high dose and for a deeper contemplation I'd need approx I think 4h minimum to get somewhere medicore deep till deep. Going to clean appartement now and prepare date by phone. Dosage wise I presume I will take 5g that is recommended I'll search some threads here how much people take. Sensetivity wise I'd guess I am a average it depends like there are just thresholds usually for me a mild dose is a mild dose a strong one a strong one. I am not extra sensetive I think although I can have highly elated states and feelings and impulses also because of VGP. So it depends since I am not used to it it is going to hit me pretty intensely Guess this helps also to know and I have a psychedelic strain so this should help also, this is also helpful. This is also helpful I remember a small anecdotal story with that I mean plants and water and drinking them.
  7. Sometimes I AM LIKE WTF. Lovely karma. I'll send it back always . I am unsure what to say I am surpised by how clever people are always. Date does not reply can do psyches unsure what to do. Quiet happy got some more info also so. It's interesting I am unsure sometimes people post pictures of stuff and ask if it has issues I'd never do that I'd show now what I have though in terms of information of what plant it comes from. So I dunno I think this is the best form of information to share. I wonder as there barely is any information if there is even more information. As the subjective effects are also reported. I have the atlantis one obviously . Also please don't go into the forest hunting for these things that is ridiculous. It'd be cool though to find some how they analyzed it in German it looks like a site a ranger made for hobbies. As there seems to be barely any recorded information about these plants and it's effects lol on official sites some research papers I saw also. Apparently this the psychdelic mushroom that is the most well-known so I presume this has the most research for anyone wanting to Google up the science. Also good info to learn about psyches I think I did not read the whole page and I have experience with LSD so the research is a bit different. Date also said yes today I also have the feeling I don't need to stretch this for an hour or so I could easily meet my friend and do this with him as I promised him and we all get what we want depending I mean many women would love to bond 24/7 I think 30 minutes of authentic connection will triumph anytime spent bonding with something not reached/meet? Hm...... Hmm................................... Hmmmmmmmmm................................................................................................................................................ Or maybe I am in a position to enjoy more independence with open-minded people that would be dope.
  8. The girl says she does not care where to go so I am wondering as to where to go if we go to my place we go bar my place if we go to her place we go bar her place I presume. So I dunno how her appartement looks like... I dunno if she lives with others and if I should ask this at this point sometimes I am overfocused on winning the girl instead of just asking logistical questions for example and sexualizing... maybe I dunno again. I am unsure what is better as the appartement matters the most my gut feeling tells me go to her place. My being tells me it would be best if she would be here, yet I presume she'd be bored as I don't have a TV and basically only a larger monitor and a second monitor and a pc. A small room with a table so it's kinda cozy in a sense when everything is cleaned up you can easily sit on my bed and watch movies on the large screen comfortable enough. If I imagine her space it's either she lives with other people same situation more familiarity for her if she has her own appartement I think it would not make a big diffy as it's sort of my joy to provide that in a sense for people in general family, friends etc. So I dunno it depends I guess how much she enjoys her space? Also who ever said I'd go to her place haha. I am going to presume it and proceed with confidence and follow through with my desire in that sense. She also smokes cannabis sometimes so we could also do it either then at her place or mine. I really dunno. It should be pretty simple for this scenario of having neither favourable options to go for an appartement as there could be multiple barrieres to break through. Her city has better pubs from just skimming so I presume going there is the better option, also my curiosity is sparked so she also has to provide a bit which increases likeabillity. The point is if you are that comfy you really have to make a move if I go through my vision of how my dates should unfold more smoothly in the future. Being chill is good, yet I will have to make advances. I did not think about touching leg etc. As I am more prone to find a spot to go for a kiss maybe hold hands or smth. like this, yet I presume it's going to be more chill so none of that is neccessary I'd be likely to ask can I go to your place or join you or let's go to your place etc. Can work. As it would not be to instrutive. A glas of wine implies so much it's incredible and you don't even have to drink it or just going for drinks in general opens up stuff. Let's see I did not drink alcohol for ever should be fun for her. I will only drink one glass as I drive depending what we do and what kind of person she is let's see what happens.......... .. . .. .. . .. . . .. . .. I presume she is out for adventure and big emotions somehow. I somehow have the hope she gives it and shares that joy with me.
  9. I missspelled a name nice coincidence with the other turkish girl she is a cs major and new matches and replies one even would be inclined to travel with me. Kinda crazy super sweet girl also attractive I'd like to see her in person also. As for now I'll chill I am not even making any effort to message. Bumble now has the compliment function and I found a cool match that is also on a deeper level coincidentel also very interesting any unique character, but young IIRC. Hope my date says yes as I literally misspelled names I usually don't do that, yet I really need to get to meet a person first in face in order to remember their name. Sometimes I remember peoples faces more then their names so that is odd also, then I usually remember. Guess this is normal and everybodies experience.
  10. Some music I enjoy listening to high energy and flow state enducing imo. The second video is the NFT art as from one video I posted.
  11. Slept like 5h or so because I am so excited for psyches. Going to drink coffee and chill and clean up the majority of my appartement. Nothing really new new match replied and original second date told me she barely has anytime till the end of the month. So I'll said let's see what happens I am not all to much interest in her, so I want to get to know her because from a few interactions online to be so close-minded to a normal human being is just not the thing I also don't want to force her. I really do not care.
  12. Nothing happend anymore till now I checked the process today psyches should be okay. Unsure when to do what to do because of dates. No real obligations because it's an at home date online and even the second date has the potential for an at home date and this one though in person. I presume we will go out to a bar hopefully if I up my profile I should be pretty popular. Let's see what I do with her I'll most likely be talking about consciouness and vacations and applications. Maybe she has an idea also or smth. I did not check a couple of gems like this one and it should apply and I also should just apply and see what happens like my psychologist told me her story and that was nice to hear. Going to sleep now listening again to an deepak chopra audiobook the fullfilment of desire I kept thinking since Leo's video about burning karma and the sadghuru audiobook karma what to do with it and also the book from deepak chopra. The spontanous fullfilment of desire is about the theme of meeting passions/needs/wants/cravings/yearnings/desires/fantasies and I never had such a palpable idea of what desire entails especially in combination with passion and love and it's fullfilment not lack of it. Even the tiniest glimpses sometimes can create abundance. Especially also the books I read from Leo's list and success I did one exercise of the book and it was like a christian soto zen meditation about abundance it was very good and wholesome the words were written like a mantra. I am unsure anymore what it entails in the deepest sense possible to feel abudance/desire/richness? Something more in that direction a whole positive feeling the spotaneously guides you and even sends you gold nuggets when you are bored. It's a very good book to listen too it somehow grounds my spiritual ambitions to be spiritually ambitious in that sense. I checked for example the potential gem I should apply because I should have 108 credit points in cs. Depends just what they see as cs and if maths counts the engineering subjects yes I am just a bit worried about the HCI moduls we had if they count as I had 3 of them and one project and one design modul. But looks like an opportunity it does not have a numerus clausus and offers some interesting lectures went through their slide for on math subject that can be relevent for K.I and what not? TBH *sigh*........ . .. .. .. ... . Looked simpler then I thought then I noticed it can get tricky, yet I somehow feel more confident I understood most of what they want, yet again to many questions more then answers and some stuff is self-explanatory when applied..... I think... I dunno ... Anyway deeper connection to my desires and wants and my quest that I've set out for myself to make my life into a synchrodestiny event is in motion. Creating what I imagine and taking action feels great, even if they are baby steps. Checked the other uni a person that was here on the forum went to to much stuff that is hardware oriented as I had the impression and they barely offered from their overview any insight if it's included it's just robotics and processes not deep learning etc. w/e Point is living costs are the cheapest the gem I just found which has a.i lectures they have a private university also which is like *edel* apparently w/e. I meet I think only two person from elite universities so far lol. One was dope, there other an ass. Who is who I let the others decide. Feeling good more options that are not cracked to the n'th degree because of my region is basically the nr.1 tech region like this cluster and especially what they do here. If I'd had a better family like my researcher friend I'd be inclined to do the same and stay here and enjoy life as in terms of CS. The city is cracked also with maths and engineering so. I dunno I'll see.
  13. One new match some conversations some closing some responses summer... I dunno I find it odd psyches I should get my hands on today which kinda sucks for the date. I won't cancle it also as it's just rude saturday would also be difficult. Dating while tripping I am unsure I am very elated then it's like 99.9% of my good self comes forth when 73% or so is already online it's odd I IIRC spread a lot of good vibes. So I dunno. It's fun for me it should be fun for her and better friday then saturday as I can do it before which would suck I would prefer to trip into the evening at best or early morning till evening. Something like that.
  14. The women who replied to meet was the pale brunette girl who is into sports. She is in a unique way quiet sexy. I've asked where to drink on saturday and said I went to both places and implied both are okay. So I'll see I'll try to feel her out and meet her needs seems like a very kind-hearted person she randomly could be 9w8 or 8w9 I still go with parts of my prediction that is is a 4w3 but I dunno in the end it does not really matter. What matters is compatibility. I forgot to reply on Bumble today no psyches I'll reply to the other girl. I have to think because if stuff works out now I have to tell them that I am seeing other girls I tell them that mostly on the first date if I get the intution that she has issues with that. I never done it on public though only online so that is also a hinderance. Hopefully I can meet the pale brunette girl too she does have something mysterious about her could also be a more compatible INFJ. mh........ The other thing is to calibrate socially and look for hook/sexualizing points and to calibrate appropirately. Bumble I did not reply yet. I'll text them later and also the date tomorrow to check-in if we are meeting or not. I presume she seems very spontaneous besides something is serious it's odd to consider how personality for instance plays a role as it's overfocused besides values. Value would be more interesting also would definitely deepen the bond between people. By the way I type and they respond my image of them who agree to meet must seem stranger danger + sexy. I dunno they barely said anything about themselves. I was the usual authentic with more focused and less noobie mistakes. Like any form of neediness. Still having issues closing in that sense this was just based on interest they seem both more sexual as people with that I mean just the desire for sex and sensual experiences. Anyway it's legit the same.
  15. How am I feeling after this? Definitely lighter energetically wise I thought it was a shitty session, yet I was able to just follow the flow of energy and relax tense areas in body and fully let go. Introduced a don't know mind at the beginning and then intentions. I presume the otherway around would be better. I am not feeling the same healthy somewhat spiritual conscious ego strengthening, that I had yesterday when I introduced intentions. Similar to a divine pride. Anything else? A lot of thoughts because of the dates what to wear what to say I let go of that. Had a lot of positive imagery and a strong desire for the date on saturday. I keept planning unwillingly I did not force myself and just noted the experience consistently and I always went back to a lot of planning in this session about survial needs. That is about it I'd say I just feel more healthy today and a bit more clarity as well as awarness and equanimity. Concentration also yet not at a level where I'd say it's beyond what I usually experience. A bit elevated.