Spiral Wizard

For context: I once had a flight transfer in Las Vegas, looked down at the city and wondered about you being there somewhere. I couldn’t understand why… As a European it’s absurd to voluntarily live in such a place. It almost looks anti-life even without considering its extremely capitalistic, hedonistic and materialistic culture.

My best guess is: you moved there for pick up and now stayed out of convenience but after watching the video below, I was reminded of the absurdity. THIS MAY BE YOUR VERSION OF THE OSHO SHADOW! Tolerating an environment of obvious corruption. Las Vegas may just be the least conscious and obnoxious place in the western world. If Donald Trump were a city, it would be Las Vegas. They are pushing their homeless population into the underground sewage canal and then flood it with water (end part of the video).

My experaince of Solopsism & God was genuine and overwhelmingly powerful. However, after careful examitation of my own mind and the stakes at hand, I've come to the current view: Psychedelics throw us into territory we cannot handle. It's an overload of information as Martin ball said. Are they valid tools? Sure. However, the potential for delusion is exponentially higher. I'm not saying solipsism is untrue. I'm just saying that I can see how many layers there are to subtle delusions and subtle identifications that are next to impossible to spot when we are tripping hard where there's an onslaught of energy and impressions. So solipsism may be one facet of the diamond, but not the whole. This video summarizes some of the main points I've contemplated with friends and guides after my 'God Solopsism Awakening', highly recommend:

I remembered how I basically tripped myself into this life so taking LSD in this life was less of a trip and more of a becoming sober/conscious and remembering how this entire life was a trip of forgetting myself as God (meaning, the ONLY, ETERNAL, UNLIMITED, CONSCIOUS, BEING in existence). I knew that I've been waking up to this/myself for eternity through countless different forms and will continue to play this game of evolving through countless different forms (matter, plants, animals, humans, aliens, etc.) forever. God has literally evolved through the entire universe to become you and wake up in a new, unique way again as you and through you (if you do wake up! if not in this lifetime, this lifetime is in service of waking up another time in another form eventually). There was a feeling of being able to exit completely and die into the sigularity which seemed like a never ending orgasm of pure white light but after speaking with a wise guide who has walked the path I believe it will just continue forever. Meaning even if I die into the singularity I will eventually just pop out again. This is not a circle but a spiral in which I wake up to the truth at ever higher levels and integrate it into form in ever greater levels of embodied love. Without this experaince I couldn't help myself but see solopsism from the minds perspecitive but as Leo says, solopsism isn't an idea, it's direct consciousnes. And to be honest, even though in a way it is terrifying, it's not as bad as the mind makes it out to be. In fact, all that is bad about it is what the mind makes it out to be. Without the minds resistance to it, the direct conssciousness alone, is just fine. No big deal in fact because you are God and have ALWAYS been God, so it's not like a suprise - even though of course waking up is suprising - you are really just remembing what you have been. However, a few weeks later, it did kind of pulled the rug beneth my feet and zaped my enthusiasm for many things like relationships and my life purpose because what's the point if ultimately they don't really exist. It seemed like all of life is (to variing degrees) dissatsfying and non of it will be as fulfilling as mahasamadhi into the singularity.

@Leo Gura sorry that you are so estranged, separated, and alienated from your inner femininity. As a man, femininity is actually the closest thing to my heart. You cannot truly 'understand' it with the mind, you must surrender to your pain and detach from your mind - just like sinking into a hot bath tub. Except that you will dissolve in that bathtub without control.

@gettoefl I'll feel your resistance to this pain, holding empathetic resonant space, and make fun little light jokes to loosen you up and with that, you may make the choice - out of your free will - to surrender, a little more.

I had an overwhelming solipsistic God experiance. I would like to talk to someone who also had such an experiance, either to see how they integrated, found another truth or if they still believe that no one else has a perspective, let’s talk because I clearly have a perspective so it would be a funny conversation, like a DYAD but on God-level.

Leo said: “The world is not ending and requires no saving. You are not important. You are not needed to save civilization.” Key Question: does this mean we should not strive to contribute to the development of society? Leo said in a recent blog post that the accumulation of power is not spiritual. I agree, it’s an ego mechanism. That being said, I was wondering if you could elaborate on the quoted part above. What are you saying with this? That the trends of evolution like spiral dynamics are so grand that they will happen anyway or more profoundly that it doesn’t matter either way? Please elaborate, I’m curious about the details. Also, Steve Jobs said, the ones crazy enough to think they can change the world do.

"Psychiatric experts are also concerned. A recent paper by Stanford researchers found that leading chatbots being used for therapy, including ChatGPT, are prone to encouraging users' schizophrenic delusions instead of pushing back or trying to ground them in reality ... This is an important event: the first time AI-induced psychosis has affected a well-respected and high achieving individual,.. Over the course of our reporting, we've heard many similar stories to that of Lewis from the friends and family of people who are struggling around the world. They say their loved ones — who in many cases had never suffered psychological issues previously — were doing fine until they started spiraling into all-consuming relationships with ChatGPT or other chatbots, often sharing confusing AI-generated messages, like Lewis has been, that allude to dark conspiracies, claims of incredible scientific breakthroughs, or of mystical secrets somehow unlocked by the chatbot." Read full article here: https://futurism.com/openai-investor-chatgpt-mental-health

I will print this quote and put it on my wall. Thank you

True, gurus especially online or without hands-on 1-1 work won't get you that far BUT I've found teachers I can work with 1-1 daily on a 1-1 retreat or weekly in normal life and it has accelerated my results 10x. The best teachers work 1-1 like mirrors. They explose self deception and keep on course correcting you. This is a dynamic process which is impossible without frequent/constant 1-1 work. That being said, if you can, just do nothing for 3-6 weeks alone, you will see extraordinary results. Most people can't or will get stuck somewhere. If this sounds like too much, build up to it. It's not that big of a deal once you get there. For me the best results come after sitting through the emotional rollercoaster ride that arises in the first 2 weeks. The most potent technique for me is doing nothing, not paying attention to thoughts, and opening awareness to your feelings. Because it is only pain and emotions that can hijack your mind and tell you stories about why you should leave but when you touch the root pain that motivates you to move, you can short-circuit that and deeply surrender into the moment. Only thing that could make you leave is resistance to pain or emotion but when you allow these two things: resistance & pain, they will melt and you will dissolve into wholeness. Of course, I probably would never have been able to do this without learning it from a teacher in 1-1 work because pain is the root of self deception and your mind won't let you discover this

Such low-quality posting deserves a warning point - at least. It doesn't deserve the space it took up on some internet server @Mods I'm voting for a less tollerant policy on trolling and shit posting.

@Leo Gura

In your most recent blog post, you describe God as beautiful and it made me wonder: were all the terror, shit stains and blood on your floor worth it? If I were to follow a more traditional path and attain classical enlightenment, would my day-to-day feel more fulfilling or is the deconstructive path you are paving "better"? If so, in what ways? Better in terms of your daily feeling-tone/baseline awareness or is it more that the everyday might be less happy, but the peak experiences are so profound that they outweigh the rest? Could you share the things in your life that made it all worth it for you? I’m asking because when I look at a path I like to see what the life of the teachers look like. They are the fruit/result of the path. That’s one orientation points that tells me if I want to sign up for it or how deep I want to follow the path.

It'll be like GTA 6