Loving Radiance

My decision: I visualize my psyche structure to be healed and anker that state in me. I inhabit that healed state of consciousness throughout when I do the 45 comparisons and reprioritize my values.

High-quality: Broadly educated mind Based on true facts Epistemologically grounded Intellectual responsibility: critical thought, aware of echo chambers and corrupting digital knowledge & discourse landscape, historical awareness Independence and sovereignty of mind Politically unpartisan Systemic understanding of society & economy Working to address root causes World-centric

Here are my notes: General List of psychological, epistemic and meta-features of lower perspectives and higher perspectives (POVs) part 1 is characteristics of pre-rational and rational POV part 2 is list of post-rational POV part 3 is list of trans-rational POV Low POV = being lost in survival mechanisms of the self Contemplate why this structure is the way it is. Check the whys and root causes of these characteristics. Come up with more points and add them to the list. E.g. contemplation: "Demonization is lower because nothing in reality is demonic or evil. It seems only so because it is projected outward and believed 100%. The selfishness in you makes you create evil and separation in the world. It serves your needs because you have a self which needs to survive. High consciousness recognizes that nothing is inherently bad." Notice biases and ideologies that let you side with perspectives Question and validate this list for yourself Make distinctions: Notice the degrees & nuances of low POVs Characteristics of low perspectives starts at 12:00 Lack of basic education, e.g. not knowing other countries, one-sided view of history, fundamentally misunderstanding science Education helps you with making sense of reality and sets standards for what you take as valid and not valid Misinformation, false facts from low quality sources which distort their worldview and don't allow sense making Lack of direct experience, or speaking outside of one's expertise Based on belief and ideology and the need to defend it. It mistakes belief for insight Backward reasoning and rationalization to validate and support the belief, to survive open inquiry is discouraged, self-reflection is seen as a threat Bad/no epistemology and taking knowledge for granted: Are you meta-aware of how epistemology works? Close-mindedness Not caring about truth fundamentally, posturing about having the truth but not being willing to go through the epistemic evaluation of their beliefs, no history of epistemic work, no self-awareness & honesty to admit that Having any other agenda (which serves survival) than truth Low intellectual curiosity: no learning unless for agenda e.g. to disproof opponents and cherry-pick & reinforce your belief Lack of intellectual integrity: Truth serves emotional need or survival need. E.g. neo-nazi investigating race Lack of intellectual responsibility of taking care of the epistemology of your mind and world view, no cleaning up and looking for internal contradictions and wanting to falsify it Absolutism/black-white-thinking and resistance to new, empirical information which broadens it up: rejection, denial, ignorance, dismissal, dodging, rationalization Inability to admit mistakes, needing the POV to be perfect and not unravel inability to change POV in light of new evidence Incapability to consider different POVs being true or working out, being stuck on the same perspective Inability to see partial truth in POVs Overconfidence Low cognitive development and low level of rationality Built on groundless, unquestioned assumptions Prone to fantasy, magical thinking and superstition, being built purely on faith & intuition, intuition is not tested on reality, e.g. Marxism being idealistic and having never worked out Not being able to handle not knowing and building beliefs to avoid not knowing Monopolistic POV: e.g. science is the best truest way to understanding reality, non-duality is the end and there is nothing beyond Lack of nuance, e.g. "All of Christianity is BS.", "Money-hungry Jews run the world." Conformity: taking on an ideology from culture without rigorous epistemic inquiry, e.g. establishment and anti-establishment, blind-faith science or blind-faith anti-science Adoption of, accepting and mimicking pop-culture opinions and trends without critical thinking or personal reflection Low mental autonomy: reliance on external authority, consensus and approval Blabber-mouthing: reactive, reflexive speaking without reflecting first Ethnocentrism, tribalism, extreme in-group-bias, black-and-white thinking, win-lose, survival over truth: Narrow and self-centered ethical frameworks, low scope of consideration, maximizing gain for in-group at expense of out-group (polluting & destroying ecological, economic and epistemic environments), high selfishness Based on social survival and social circle (friends, family, forum, community) Usage of perspective and POV as a tool to get money, fame, sex, approval, love, power, success, influence High degree of emotional attachment to their POV, e.g. emotional reactivity, defensiveness and drama Egocentrism, narcissism, taking criticism personally, personalizing disagreements Aggressive arrogance, moral righteousness, crusading, demonizing Highly opinionated, extremely serious with own opinions Eager to argue, win, debate and own others. Feeling comfort when winning, discomfort when loosing. Based on lower emotions: apathy, fear, hatred, bitterness, nihilism, vindictiveness, xenophobia. Negative, angry and toxic inner world. Stealing and extracting value for survival gain: selfish, self-serving, manipulative, exploitative Authoritarian, coercive and dominating. Seeing oneself as better and more worth Violence, domination, cheating, lying, theft Low empathy Prone to conspiratorial thinking to avoid intellectual responsibility and arduous critical thinking Scapegoating & blaming others Misrepresents and strawmans other perspectives, e.g. a fundamentalist Christian says that Muslims are Satan worshippers, demonic, crazy and unreasonable. Lack of understanding, and mental inflexibility Usage of cheap intellectually dishonest tactics: Gaslighting, whataboutism, bullshitting, name calling, lying, cheating, counterattack, false-equivalancy Uses charisma & showing off to substitute truth & inquiry Usage of double standards, e.g. circularity problem: science is built on proof but is itself built on no proof of the basic axioms and the scientific method ("the scientific method is a method for arriving at truth" isn't proven); having high standards for other tribe and relaxed standards for own tribe denial games, intellectual maneuvers & mental gymnastics biased and unaware of (own) biases conflation of facts and interpretations conflation of own survival with truth, goodness, objectivity reification of human constructs: mistaking the human-made map of reality for reality itself, e.g. religions, sciences, economic systems; construct-unaware anthropocentric bias: overemphasis of human-centric style of explanations, making sense of the world from the survival-based, human POV, e.g. fundamentalist Islam saying that animals are made by God for humans to eat; fundamentalist Christianity saying humans have immortal souls and animals don't ("Made in the image of God" argument) Generalizations w/o regard for context, treating fact as independent of context No fact-checking and thus creating an echo chamber Mistakes cherry-picking information as as fact-checking; confirmation bias Inability to distinguish correlation from causation: two things occurring together means that one thing must cause the other Misattribution of causality due to biases: assigning wrong causes for an effect, e.g. because one is biased against a specific environment, believing an emotional state is due to that environment when in fact it's the own behavior Oversimplifying causality: attributing complex events to singular, simple causes inability to understand complexity, e.g. economy is bad because of party X Misattribution of agency: incorrectly assigning an intentionality & maliciousness to natural events, e.g. blaming the fires on a conspiratorial government which used some tech to cause the fires Overreliance on anecdotal evidence and unreliable methods, e.g. a friend being attacked in a city and then thinking that that city as a whole is dangerous Low intolerance towards ambiguity Low capacity for contradiction and paradox Ontological inflexibility: rigid beliefs about nature of reality and resistance to other worldviews, e.g. a Christian having her POV and refusing other alternative POVs Narrow scope: focusing on limited aspects of reality while ignoring broader contexts, specialization in one domain can't be translated to other domains Think of reality as isolated parts and not interdependent holons, reductive and non-holistic Static, non-evolutionary view of systems & ideas, e.g. fundamentalist Christianity isn't seen as a product of epochs, other religions and cultural zeitgeist but taken as original, pure and untouched Committing narrative fallacies: creating fraud stories, imposing false meaning, missing patterns and inventing self-serving patterns which uphold biases, cherry-picking Projections and reality are not differentiated Resistance to metaphorical thinking and abstraction, taking things literally Lack of existential thinking, thinking from scratch Non-relativistic, demonization of relativity Misuse of relativity and skepticism to defend own worldview Quick dismissal of experts and expertise which don't serve their agenda Information warfare: weaponizing and manipulating information to advance personal & collective survival agenda, engaging in propaganda ("spreading the truth") "Truth cannot be disseminated through belief systems, ideology or propaganda. Truth can only be arrived at through a genuine process of inquiry." Misplaced loyalty and political activism to groups which hurts own self-interest, e.g. voting for a party because of platitudes and them making deals to extract value and hurt you. Politically radicalized and partisan Concerned about optics and winning as opposed to truth Being engaged in proselytizing and evangelizing to "spread the truth" and impose "truth" as a belief system Indoctrination is same as education and facilitation Unconcerned about conflicts of interests because its biasing and corruption on POV is not seen Unsustainable, unscalable (and no trouble with that), short-term thinking Low environmental awareness because of personal agenda Create and live in media echo chambers Lack self-reflection Incapability of handling diversity, because the POV is finite & limited No understanding of non-duality No awareness of developmental stages and developmental psychology and no interest in it Trying to impose needs, values, worldview and agenda onto others because of inner insecurity which needs the external world to give it security (or rather reflect to it it's fantasy of security) Belief that everyone should live by my values and morality there is only one right way to live and to view reality no intellectual responsibility Tend to come from mentally ill, mentally unhinged, mentally disturbed and unstable minds: schizophrenia, bipolar, BPD, multiple personality disorder, autism Characteristics of high-quality perspectives Highly and broadly educated Based on true facts - objective research, fact checking, differentiating correlation & causation, using large studies & meta-studies and using less anecdotal evidence & emotional reasoning Based on direct experience Values epistemology (doing or having done the epistemic work), open-inquiry and self-reflection Leads to intense inner work and precise, context-aware speaking Thinking from scratch; existential thinking A fluid, yet grounded mind is needed to do subtle epistemics Intellectual responsibility Questioning, falsifying and disproving oneself to stand on solid ground Reality checking: testing the lived experience, projections, and perspectives on real life Inner jihad, and non-attached sharing of own worldview Eliminating internal double standards & biases Aware of self-deceptions, mind's tricks, conflicts of interest Undoing and stepping out of echo chambers Recognition & acceptance of diverse values & moralities Open-mindedness, intellectual humility Changing POV when introduced to new information Admitting mistakes Low emotional attachment to POV Flexible worldview, holding opinions loosely Handling not knowing and ambiguity (related to emotional maturity) Truth for truth's sake Truth is not serving a survival/ego agenda or belief system, not attached to ulterior motive, or is not corrupted by fulfilled lacking needs (security, belonging, ...) Intellectual integrity Intellectual curiosity Independent of social survival High cognitive development Cognitive flexibility to deal with partial truths, nuances, complexity (and not generalizations), patterns, different lenses, contradictions, paradoxes, abstraction, different developmental stages of consciousness, diversity Steel Manning Construct-awareness, inclusive and holistic Being trans-rational: integration of rationality, intuition, emotion, mysticism Politically unpartisan and yet involved Long-term thinking & execution Embodied understanding of non-duality Independence of mind, sovereignty Political & communal engagement is unpartisan. Thinking critically to associate with groups of shared values & principles, working on addressing root-causes Acceptance & support: Respect other minds and POV, gives space, helps people to explore and arrive at their conclusions, to not dominate and conquer them Cosmo-centric Selflessness Win-Win & value-creation Acting on behalf of all sovereign beings Environmental awareness, sustainable, regenerative, scalable Emotional maturity Handling not knowing and ambiguity (related to open-mindedness and intellectual humility) High empathy Healthy self-control and delayed gratification Based on high emotions: love, joy, peace Curiosity-driven and connection-driven inquiry Emotional responsibility Emotional detachment to personal & collective survival agenda Embodied understanding of impermanence & evolution of reality

It depends on what kind of person you are. For some it's good to take the questioning voice as a cue to pause and consider all the other variables, and then choose the one you are intuitively drawn to. For others it's vital to not be distracted by the skeptic inside and the only thing needed is to get an impression of the school area, websites and (online) lectures/talks to know what the right one is. Focus on the intuitive feeling of it being the right one.

Thank you. How is it when hearing someone through the phonr or seeing someone on a screen?

Can you hear people's energy from distance, say the energy of my best friend?

Leo. It took a lot of videos where he said that one must do the work themselves or else it's just fantasy and armchair philosophy.

@Daniel Balan He gets the hate from MAGA people because he advocates for green values using his money, like for LGBTQ+ rights, refugee aid, criminal justice reform, democratic movement, humane and rational immigration policies and international cooperation. In general, he is also seen as part of conspiracies because he is a Jewish billionaire philanthropist who influences global politics. Notice the bias in the conspiratorial thinking: the Koch brothers are also billionaires who influence global politics but get no hate cause they stand for conservative values. Soros is seen as satanic for the pre-modern worldview cause the pluralistic values he advocates for are seen as alien and as a thread for identity. As I read under a video essay, "conspiracism is pre-modern thought applied to post-modern politics."

Yes, I saw some mistakes GPT made and am grateful that you quoted some parts of your essay.

@Adrian colby Amazing share ✨️ I didn't think I could contribute any criticism so I asked ChatGPT. I agree with points 1, 2, 3, and 5, and it lets me reflect how I am seeing things unholistic: This essay presents a well-structured critique of conspirituality and the so-called “Great Awakening,” but it has several blind spots that weaken its argument. Here are the key areas that need more scrutiny: 1. Oversimplification of the Demographics Involved The essay correctly identifies that marginalised and disillusioned individuals are particularly vulnerable to conspiracy movements, but it implies that their participation is largely due to a lack of education, critical thinking skills, and psychological stability. This overlooks the fact that many educated, middle-class, and even elite individuals have also been drawn into conspirituality. Intellectuals, doctors, and entrepreneurs have embraced these narratives, sometimes due to cognitive biases rather than pure ignorance. A deeper exploration of why educated individuals fall into these traps would strengthen the argument. 2. Reduction of Conspirituality to Psychological Deficiencies The essay heavily focuses on trauma, victim mentality, and a lack of psychological stability as key reasons why people embrace conspiracy-based spirituality. While these are contributing factors, it overlooks the larger existential crisis that modernity has created. The rapid technological, cultural, and economic changes in the world have destabilized traditional meaning structures, leaving people grasping for certainty. Many turn to conspirituality not just because of trauma but because they seek coherence in a chaotic world. This broader sociological perspective is missing. 3. Dismissing Political and Economic Factors Too Quickly Although the essay acknowledges political manipulation, it primarily attributes the rise of conspirituality to psychological and cognitive failings. However, many conspiritualists are responding to real issues—corporate overreach, governmental corruption, media manipulation, and global inequality. While their interpretations may be misguided, their underlying concerns are often valid. By failing to recognize this, the essay risks alienating readers who may resonate with aspects of the Great Awakening movement but disagree with its conclusions. 4. Lack of Self-Reflection on the Writer’s Own Biases The essay presents itself as a neutral, enlightened perspective but does not acknowledge its own position within the spectrum of spiritual discourse. While critiquing dualistic thinking, it subtly engages in it by positioning conspirituality as purely misguided while portraying its own structured awakening model as the correct path. A more balanced approach would acknowledge that all perspectives, including the writer’s own, are filtered through subjective experience. 5. No Concrete Solutions Beyond Individual Awakening The essay’s proposed solution is personal awakening through self-inquiry, mental deconstruction, and dissolving conditioned beliefs. While this is valuable, it does not address the larger systemic forces that contribute to conspirituality—economic instability, media propaganda, the role of social media algorithms, and the decline of traditional community structures. Without addressing these, individual transformation alone is unlikely to dismantle these movements on a large scale. 6. Overemphasis on “Transcending Belief” Without Acknowledging the Role of Belief While the essay emphasizes dissolving belief systems, it does not fully explore the human need for belief and meaning. Even those who claim to transcend belief still operate within mental models and narratives. A more nuanced approach would recognize that belief itself is not the problem—it’s unexamined belief that leads to manipulation. Conclusion The essay provides a strong critique of the Great Awakening movement but falls into the trap of reducing complex phenomena to psychological deficiencies rather than addressing the broader sociopolitical and existential factors at play. A more holistic approach would integrate perspectives from sociology, philosophy, and political theory, rather than relying primarily on spiritual psychology.

@asha176 1. Trauma: Trauma disconnects us from ourselves, leading to emotional suppression, relationship withdrawal, and ignoring instincts. It also limits key brain functions like emotional regulation and empathy. But the brain can rewire with safety, awareness, and support. Healing is about reconnecting with ourselves, processing emotions, and trusting our instincts. It’s about reclaiming who we truly are. 2. Child Fundamental Needs: Children need both attachment and authenticity. When authenticity threatens attachment, children suppress their true selves to avoid rejection. Healing is about reclaiming our authentic selves by overcoming the fear of rejection and reconnecting with our inner truth. 3. Systemic Change: The system is built on trauma and unconscious needs for temporary relief, leading to harm, including environmental destruction. True change requires a shift in consciousness—facing discomfort, reconnecting with true needs, and building lives rooted in awareness, not trauma. 4. Separation from the Earth: The exploitation of the Earth mirrors our disconnection from our bodies. Healing requires restoring that connection, recognizing that the Earth’s well-being is inseparable from our own. 5. Compassionate Inquiry Therapy: Compassionate Inquiry helps people uncover their truth through questioning, not answers. It guides people to see their conditioning, wounds, and inner wisdom. Healing starts with embracing the truth within. 6. Healing: Healing is empowering. When we realize our triggers come from within, we stop being victims. We reclaim freedom by owning our responses and choosing not to let external factors control us. 7. Vision of Society: A trauma-informed society values connection, emotional intelligence, and vulnerability. It understands that healing is collective. We may not see it in our lifetimes, but we can move toward it by creating spaces for healing. 8. The Healthy Self: Beneath trauma lies the healthy self. Healing isn’t erasing trauma but making space for all emotions to coexist. Integrating pain and joy allows the true self to emerge, fuller and more authentic.

@Tristan12 http://happinessbeyondthought.blogspot.com/2015/09/are-our-mystical-experiences.html "Differences arise in how mystics and psychotics describe their experiences. Mystics describe their experiences as ecstatic and joyful and having serenity, wholeness, transcendence and love. Psychotics are often confused, terrified and highly distressed by their experiences which may incorporate an angry, vengeful, "higher being". Mystics and psychotics experience a break from normal reality differently. Mystics long for it and when they return to "normal reality", they share their experiences coherently and function effectively in "the world". However, for psychotics, this experience is involuntary, usually distressing, and can last for years, moving into progressively deeper states of social isolation. Differences arise in interpreting the meaning of their experiences. Mystics typically experience a loss of pride and ego, a quieting of the mind and emptying of the self. Psychotics often feel they are a special emissary from God, blessed with an important world message and w/ great healing powers."

In my experience the line between genuine awakening and psychosis is small when the only thing you have reference to is yourself. I thought I had awakening experiences when in fact looking back now I had HPPD. Parts of my mind didn't function anymore on a daily basis and I glorified it as "being", "no-self" and "collapsing of distinction". Even if this is awakening, do enough grounding. It's important. Even if this is awakening, do notice the negative motivation which pushes you towards the psychedelic substance to escape from and avoid this reality. It will bite you. Like you I had strong egoic impulses to not be this person anymore. I asked people on this forum and here are some helpful quotes to distinguish what you experience: "Awakening impacts your cognition positively, and it adds more clarity to your life. The opposite with mental illnesses." "The difference is quality of life, if you don't move forward after a period of time and your life gets worse, it is mental illness." "There can be thousands of alien and weird states of consciousness, some of them quasi-mystical, but not really the same as full on God-consciousness." "[Awakening] is not a loss of personal identity but an expansion of your sense of self." "The difference is that [mental illness] doesn't make me go "Holy fuck! Me and the universe are one!" It's more like "wait... this is weird.""

I can recommend looking into IFS, Voice Dialog, and Process Work. You can use every feeling and thought/belief as an opening to dive deep & feel into yourself to notice, embrace and integrate every part of you and gain awareness of your shadow.

Please speak to a friend who can lend an ear and hold space for you.