PenguinPablo

Schizo-maxxing

Nice I’ve been into gateway and breath work lately. I did Kriya a bit but lacked the discipline to do it. My kechari mudra is still decent. Actually my copy of Kriya Yoga exposed is arriving this afternoon in the mail.

I'll be honest... Thus far I have not been able to do out of body experiences (OBE). But from what I can gather the insights people develop from OBE and God realizations show a lot of similarities. For instance, the idea that the world we live in is a dream / illusion. I'm curious for those that have had better luck having OBEs how it compares to God realization. Is it necessary to be able to do it. I find the idea very interesting and I sometimes get the feeling that God realization might be a conceptual cope at times -- particularly if you are not able to even leave your body OBE style. I know there are people in this community that are able to do it. I myself have never really had hallucinations or altered states that lead to a fundamentally different experience of reality -- not visually anyway. Like yes, there are deep insights but it remains mostly within the realm of my own psychological experience -- I think for 5MeO users it is similar.

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Darius J Wright is very popular on YouTube for OBEs I feel like this is the case for me. My mind is so damn busy, it's never really been something that came easy to me. Never been able to do it.

@Leo Gura How about Mamdani in NYC? Obviously he cannot run for president as he is not born in the US. But I think he is a step in the right direction.

Marriage. Having kids. Heterosexuality. Homophobia. Working a job. Entrepreneurship. Family comes first mentality. Fossil fuels. Tattoos. Working in tech. Being a human in society. Using cross walks. Stop signs. Stop lights. Trash cans. Following directions all the time. Social scripts.

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@Ramasta9 Dem rare stage turquoise humans. How does one even shift into such levels of understanding and personal development. Feels antithetical to anything western society offers — even fringe consciousness writers like Peter Ralston. Not sure when I’ll have a chance to look for someone like that in Bali but hopeful there’s people like that closer to the US in Mexico.

It's the only way forward imo. Anything else and you are short changing yourself. Unless you prefer being a corporate drone. Selling yourself out in a myriad of ways. But its painful... Well, it's honest.

@No1Here2c For me this type of dialogue is partly diagnostic, trying to sort out my life. But it’s also deeply intellectually stimulating. I don’t think there are many places on this planet where you can have this level of dialogue. Just trying to reach a deeper understanding of things/everything and yes that makes dealing with people who lack any philosophical or existential curiosity tiresome — especially if they’re bringing only their BS to the table. Don’t get me wrong, I definitely appreciate other forms of expression — other polarities. Things I “lack” I think ideally, we should be trying to invalidate our understanding. Invalidate Leo. Constantly. Recursively. Throw out the trash. Clear out the cache.

Even within new age circles there are explanations for why we limit ourselves. For “learning” and “growth” purposes supposedly. The idea being that if we remembered and had omniscience, we would not have the opportunity to stumble and learn. The forgetting and amnesia is a feature of the human experience. Whether or not all the weird spiritual metaphysics and so on and so forth, past lives etc… is real or not isn’t very helpful with your life right fucking now. I don’t say that experientially but it’s just rational and obvious. The best way to solve most problems is directly, not with some convoluted abstract metaphysical system — spiritual bypass. Not sure I would wish this flavor of neurodivergence on anybody. Idk if it’s just thought forms or what it is. Maybe I just need to break them more thoroughly. Don’t get me wrong I go through states of infinite potential — where anything feels possible… damn I love caffeine! Whether or not you are “God” doesn’t necessarily change the mechanics of life. Life is humbling in that way so even amidst profound realizations or “delusions” if you’d prefer… you cannot argue with reality. At the end of the day we’re all taking a stance as we move through this world. Some people become religious fanatics. Some guys become Andrew Tate clones and believe all the misogynistic and opportunistic mentality. And it “works” for a lot of those people I suppose. I mean it doesn’t but I haven’t met very many people where I could say that everything they embody, say and do has no faults. I mean it’s not like pantheism is unique to raging narcissists or psychotic people. It’s an old idea in major religions like Hinduism. It’s also an experiential realization I came to soberly and on weed. Didn’t really know what Leo was talking about until I experienced it.

I mean all things considered it could be a million times worse. I’m not necessarily even complaining. But like why have I imagined so many asshats — that basically have infinite resources relative to any other human including myself? and why have I made myself so hyper conscious… always been extremely self reflective… sensitive… existential… and I guess reaching such high degrees of consciousness is a byproduct because “compound interest” in these domains I suppose is the only explanation. You can’t really turn it off. There’s always a degree of it and it gets wider and wider even if incrementally — over the course of years it grows a lot so even if you fall asleep, the opening is kinda loosened permanently so to speak like a woman that’s given childbirth. Childish and sexist joke, I know…. Hopefully we can move past that or perhaps it helps illustrate my point, albeit it was crude and inaccurate. Anyway, it’s interesting to be so hyper conscious and yet not really have any of your ducks in a row in waking life. Money wise. Friendships and relationships. Like am I retarded? To some extent it definitely shows the black pill nature of “money success”. You gotta go all in if your parents aren’t rich and not deviate until you get some runway. Artistic vision and idealistic perspectives crumble under the capitalistic battlefield of survival. Such naivety. Lesson learned I suppose. I’m also kinda absent minded and all over the place so it’s not just being poor that led me here, although it is “a” factor. Relationships, dating, and hell friendships… Truthfully I have no sense on why I struggle with that’s basically nonexistent for me. Anyway, just got a bit introspective and wanted to write out some reflections.

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