Bernardo Carleial

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  1. Early vMEME Green talking about toxic vMEME Orange behavior. It is quite iluminating to see how the guest is able to go meta in order to evaluate how far his earlier friend has gone off road. (forget the gossip, let's focus on the discussion)
  2. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy Although Tolstoy himself I would consider him at early vMEME Green, the novel, from what I could see, covers a lot of the power dynamics within the vMEME Blue nobility/aristocracy, how people with different ranks in the hierarchy interact with one another, and the gender roles and fixed moral values that they all have to obey... Here is an excerpt from the book, which is an exchange of letters between two countesses, talking about Christian Faith: "Yet since you tell me that among some good things it contains others which our weak human understanding cannot grasp, it seems to me rather useless to spend time in reading what is unintelligible and can therefore bear no fruit. I never could understand the fondness some people have for confusing their minds by dwelling on mystical books that merely awaken their doubts and excite their imagination, giving them a bent for exaggeration quite contrary to Christian simplicity. Let us rather read the Epistles and Gospels. Let us not seek to penetrate what mysteries they contain; for how can we, miserable sinners that we are, know the terrible and holy secrets of Providence while we remain in this f lesh which forms an impenetrable veil between us and the Eternal? Let us rather confine ourselves to studying those sublime rules which our divine Saviour has left for our guidance here below. Let us try to conform to them and follow them, and let us be persuaded that the less we let our feeble human minds roam, the better we shall please God, who rejects all knowledge that does not come from Him; and the less we seek to fathom what He has been pleased to conceal from us, the sooner will He vouchsafe its revelation to us through His divine Spirit."
  3. That's actually early Blue(vMEME RED/Blue) And because of that, you might expect a lot of vMEME RED involved.
  4. "It is difficult for members of a modern individualistic society to imagine the extent to which the Canela(tribe) saw the group as more important than the individual. Generosity and sharing was the ideal, while withholding was a social evil. Sharing possessions brought esteem. Sharing one’s body was a direct corollary. Desiring control over one’s goods and self was a form of stinginess. In this context, it is easy to understand why women chose to please men and why men chose to please women who expressed strong sexual needs. No one was so self-important that satisfying a fellow tribesman was less gratifying than personal gain." Sex At Dawn - Christopher Ryan & Cacilda Jethá
  5. @Leo Gura! DO YOU THINK I'M NOT AWARE OF THIS LEO!!!?? I was a pickup-artist myself!!!! Off course I know that I'm being needy!!! Do you think I'm doing this willingly!?!? I definitely wasn't expecting this!!! For years I thought that I got immune to this, because I haven't experienced that since I started doing pickup... But now it seems to have bitten me in the ass...
  6. I still can't believe this is happening (and I also cannot believe I'm writing this down) the reason why I'm sharing this with you guys it's because I feel myself in a very vulnerable state.... I live in Brazil, and I'm preparing myself for taking an exam called ENEM, which is the equivalent to a SAT test. As I was studying at my school, doing remote studying due to the pandemic, when I've met her(she's a vMEME Yellow Literature teacher), she was substituting another professor, who left the school, the moment I saw her, I immediately started to feel an intense connection, I considered myself in a vMEME ORANGE/Green , but I always had a very deep appreciation towards the vMEME Yellow independence and expertise, also the fact that they are a lone wolf. And she has all that characteristics that were previously mentioned (plus more) I started chatting with her, sharing her some ideas which I thought she might like, and she always replied me with a text expressing her views in a more broader manner, always leaving space for discussion. Until one day I couldn't resist anymore and declared myself to her, that I was in love, and that's when things get weird.... she replied me back, in a very direct and also neutral manner (that's pretty much the moment when I realized how Yellow thinks...) She said that her job is a very important pillar of her life and that she doesn't want to risk losing it , she also said that she could not intervene with my emotions in the sense that she wouldn't say how I should or shouldn't behave, that it is up to me to decide... she also said that if it isn't too much for me that we can continue having the same kind of discussions that we've had before, because she appreciates my point of view on things... I remember I felt devastated, but at the same time she was so honest and neutral that I couldn't blame her even if I wanted to... Until one day, I've had an emotional breakdown (things are getting tough for me these days...) and for some reason I reached out for her once more asking for help, and she was slowly being able to soothe me and to take me out from that terrible state that I was in... She find out I'm an artist... and that immediately sparkled her attention, she wanted to know more about how my creative process actually works. She eventually ended up calling me with a giant list of questions, wanting to know how the world looks like from the perspective of an artist. At that moment I didn't know how to react... but I decided to take her questions, but from time to time, I could resist and started to say how much I'm in love with her and how much joy it would be for me to get to know her better (I felt very vulnerable at that moment...) but again... she remained silent and neutral... and continued asking me questions . The only thing near to what I was hoping for was the moment she said that if it wasn't in that particular context (Professor- Student) she said that there might be a possibility for her to consider because she finds my worldview to be very interesting... and that was it. And every time I try to get her to say something more, she dodges the question, once more, in a very neutral way.... I need some help guys! I'm really desperate . I was always afraid of falling in love precisely because of that. I'm constantly thinking about her, but I don't whether I should talk to her more or try to avoid her for a while... Every answer she does seems more and more ambiguous to me.... and she is very self-sufficient she likes to do things by herself (even travel!) and I can imagine how turn off it might be for her having to deal with a needy guy the way I'm behaving these days... Please guys I need help! If you were able to go that far.... please give me a comment. I appreciate you guys thoughts on things!🙏🙏🙏
  7. "For the primitives, childbirth is surrounded by strict taboos; in particular, the placenta must be carefully burned or thrown into the sea, because whoever might get hold of it would hold the newborn’s fate in his hands; this envelope in which the fetus is formed is the sign of its dependence; in annihilating it, the individual is able to detach himself from the living magma and to realize himself as an autonomous being." An excerpt from the book "The Second Sex" by Simone de Beauvoir
  8. Now THAT is REAL Journalism!!!!
  9. The worldview that this girl has is very vMEME Orange
  10. This is gonna be one of those videos that talks about the notion o NOFAP. I would like to share my opinions towards it because I think not many people talk about that from this perspective. A couple years ago I was into nofap, and I was able to endure one year with very little relapse, until one day I realized that I was very worried about this notion and then I found that I became neurotic about it. Today I'm aware of the benefits of semen retention that he talks about. But I don't consider myself as a "follower " of the NOFAP group. And what ends up happening paradoxically is that it enhances more my sexuality. Because if I wanna watch porn, I watch porn, if I wanna jerk off, I do jerk off. But today I became so conscious of the toxicity and fakeness that porn can bring that I can even stand looking at it. I realized that there are more healthier ways to keep yourself aroused. Just watching a woman enjoying her own body might be sufficient. And if you think you can't do that, so yeah..., try a 6 month nofap and see how it goes, it can give all these benefits that this guys is talking about!🙃😉👍
  11. This video might be hard to watch, viewer discretion is advised
  12. @Hello from RussiaBecause I don't know enough about this particular stage(Turquoise) to make the case.😅 It is more due to my lack of knowledge other than anything I have written before in my last post on this mega-thread: my spiral wizardry goes until vMEME Yellow . However, I know for sure that he is solid vMEME Yellow because of his Integral Theory. P.S: I realized that I have omitted the word "not" in my last post. Making it seem like I understand vMEME Turquoise, which is definitely not the case... 😅I'm sorry for that.😅