Does any man here feel like a woman in a man's body?

[Never_give_up]

I am ashamed of writing this but I hope this community won't judge me.

I don't like my role as a man. I don't want to die at wars, protect, provide. I don't want to fight other men for stupid reasons. I want to have fun. I want to be cared and yes even protected. I want to have fun like women do. Even sexually I am very submissive. I don't know what's wrong with me but I feel if I pretend that I don't want all these things I actually am not real to myself and if I try to act as a man I dysfunction.

I am straight and have some masculine traits but not many. I am more of a woman than a man. 

I swear if I could switch my gender I would do it but with current technology we can't do that completely so there is no way I will become a trans (I am not saying trans women aren't women but that's my personal opinion). 

How do I live in this harsh world that doesn't understand men like me. Most people try to shame me for not being a manly man and the rest don't care. I mean it's good they don't care , it's their choice, but what do I do?

Does any other man feel like me or I am an exception? I have never heard of any other man say stuff like this even online, so I don't know how this will be percieved, I am kinda anxious posting this. I am even ashamed to talk like this to my psychologist, but I will probably take the step and do it. 

 

[Natasha Tori Maru]

That would mean you would have to know what it feels like to be in woman's body

No judgement at all.

You do not have to define yourself in any way. You do not have to conform to any external standards set by society. Although, I do understand the difficulty in going against the grain. When you fly in the face of expectations, life can be harder, as you challenge others notions of what it means to be 'such and such' just by existing. 

It's a them thing, not a you thing.

I have met many men who express similar sentiment to yourself. 

What does it mean to you, to have 'fun like a woman?'