[SERIOUS] Suicidal due to academic situation. | I have a note and rope ready.

[vibv]

13 hours ago, Husseinisdoingfine said:

I'm not dropping out of college because I and my family are too invested in me getting a degree.

Stop giving a fuck what your family thinks of you. You are your own human! It will feel so liberating for you to cut that umbilical cord.

Does your family know that you're suicidal? Maybe that would change their mind...

They may not want you to drop out of college —but they DEFINITELY don't want you to kill yourself.

Edited September 9, 2024 by vibv

[Kuba Powiertowski]

@Husseinisdoingfine stop being dramatic, Brother. Listen to the wise advice from people here. Turning off your avatar, called suicide, will not end anything. Quite the opposite. You will experience frustration, anger, irritation on an incomparably larger scale. Here, as a human, you have the opportunity to work through it. And you have no way out. You will not escape from yourself anywhere. Get to work, Brother👊

[Juan]

Even if things went well for you, you succeed at what you wanted if not more, the fact that you have a suicidal tendency is more worrisome. Other stuff in life can happen (like losing your parents, you name the example), you could probably have this tendency so I would suggest to go to a good therapist and do your best in heal. 

[Javfly33]

3 hours ago, vibv said:

@Husseinisdoingfine I get the sense that a lot of your perspective still comes from your parents.

Go live on your own! How's that for a trajectory?

 

3 hours ago, vibv said:

Stop giving a fuck what your family thinks of you. You are your own human! It will feel so liberating for you to cut that umbilical cord.

Does your family know that you're suicidal? Maybe that would change their mind...

They may not want you to drop out of college —but they DEFINITELY don't want you to kill yourself.

this

[Bobby_2021]

The university system suffocated the hell out of me even though my psyche was pretty much cut out for it. I was quite happy the it closed tf down from c19. That's was like God's gift to me and I got to spend time in solitude which I so craved for.

It's not really your fault to be frank that you feel like shit. The system is designed to make you feel that way regardless of whether you wre pursuing your interests or not. 

Giving up means you are letting the corrupt system win. 

Why not live fruitfully and show them that you don't need them? 

[Leo Gura]

@Husseinisdoingfine Go cut up your rope.

Do it.

Your mood will improve as you start taking right action.

Edited September 9, 2024 by Leo Gura

[Husseinisdoingfine]

What should I do with my immediate living situation? Move out of my parents? With what money? Minimum wage money?

Should I drop out of college? If so, what do I do in the meantime? How will I explain this to my parents? They only accept me living with them because "at least I'm not doing nothing (going to college) ".

Edited September 9, 2024 by Husseinisdoingfine

[Leo Gura]

@Husseinisdoingfine You will work on figuring out your life and future.

[CARDOZZO]

51 minutes ago, Husseinisdoingfine said:

What should I do with my immediate living situation? Move out of my parents? With what money? Minimum wage money?

Should I drop out of college? If so, what do I do in the meantime? How will I explain this to my parents? They only accept me living with them because "at least I'm not doing nothing (going to college) ".

Give yourself permission to disappoint your parents. 

You'll feel extreme freedom for hurting your reputation. Break it in pieces. Let it go.

Be honest with your parents, tell them the truth and your whole situation. 

Your root problem is envy and comparison to outside standards of who you should be to survive. Let it go.

 

 

Edited September 9, 2024 by CARDOZZO

[Javfly33]

52 minutes ago, Husseinisdoingfine said:

Move out of my parents? With what money? Minimum wage money?

why not. Find a job and live by your own, in this there can be 300% more growth than going to university. Especially if you are not going to study something you like. 

Edited September 9, 2024 by Javfly33

[Leo Gura]

You can live with your parents for a while, get a job, and even help them pay some bills. Don't move out if you don't have to. You can save good money living at home.

Edited September 9, 2024 by Leo Gura

[Davino]

Maybe you find value in this short film. I feel like they are living in your head, your parents, society, expectations...

That's the crime you have comitted towards yourself. To neglect and deny who you are to please others and fit into expectations that are not your own. You fear that more than death, isn't it crazy how you got into this situation?

[How to be wise]

@Husseinisdoingfine Think about Leo’s reputation as well. There have been too much suicides in this forum, eventually it will get Leo into trouble. 

[Mosby]

3 hours ago, How to be wise said:

Think about Leo’s reputation as well.

bruh seriously? 

[Princess Arabia]

4 hours ago, How to be wise said:

@Husseinisdoingfine Think about Leo’s reputation as well. There have been too much suicides in this forum, eventually it will get Leo into trouble. 

Can you go and look at the stats per/day/yr in the US alone. I've seen 2 here since I've been registered since 2020. More threateners, but only actually 2 commited. 2 in 4 yrs for a public forum. I just checked, 49,000 people died by suicide in the US in 2022 alone. 

Leo could probably sue the state if he got in trouble. People are committing suicide left and right everyday everywhere. South Korea has the most and Norway, Sweden, Denmark and Finland the least.

Your neighbor probably threatened suicide yesterday and your co-worker is probably thinking about it as we speak and another 10 maybe 100 miles proximity from you in the last year. 2 in 4 yrs on a forum of people from across the globe is nothing even though one is one too many. 

Edited September 10, 2024 by Princess Arabia

[Joshe]

Leo's advice is really wise. I think it's the best way to avoid blundering. Be strategic and take your time. 

After you take his advice and the negative emotions mostly dissipate, you can start designing a life you actually want to live. 

The world is your oyster. 

Imagine if you dropped university and got one of those shitty low paying jobs and saved up 10-20k. This could buy you a few years bouncing around eastern-asia while you work on something you're actually interested in. Doesn't that sound much better than clocking in for some suit and tie? 

I know that probably seems out there but this is the degree of freedom you have if you want it. Lifestyle design man! You can do whatever the fuck you want! 

Edited September 10, 2024 by Joshe

[vibv]

In my experience it is way easier to set healthy boundaries as soon as you don't live with your parents anymore — especially if there are unhealthy dynamics at play, which seems to be the case here.

That being said, it may be sensible to take your time while still in this situation where you don't have a lot of responsibilities, especially financial ones. Be strategic.

@Husseinisdoingfine You got your whole life ahead of you and you will laugh about this whole situation in the future and be thankful that you didn't follow through. It would be a terminal measure for a solvable issue. There will be other times, I promise.

Edited September 10, 2024 by vibv

[shree]

6 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

Can you go and look at the stats per/day/yr in the US alone. I've seen 2 here since I've been registered since 2020. More threateners, but only actually 2 commited. 2 in 4 yrs for a public forum. I just checked, 49,000 people died by suicide in the US in 2022 alone. 

Leo could probably sue the state if he got in trouble. People are committing suicide left and right everyday everywhere. South Korea has the most and Norway, Sweden, Denmark and Finland the least.

Your neighbor probably threatened suicide yesterday and your co-worker is probably thinking about it as we speak and another 10 maybe 100 miles proximity from you in the last year. 2 in 4 yrs on a forum of people from across the globe is nothing even though one is one too many. 

Yes, suicide statistics show it's a widespread issue, but the real challenge here goes beyond numbers. If people start leaving suicide notes on a public forum regularly, it would quickly harm the forum’s reputation, regardless of intent. This isn’t just about how common suicide is, but about the responsibility and perception that comes with running such a space.

While the work done here can lead to deep self-reflection, which sometimes triggers suicidal thoughts, simply filtering out certain words won’t solve the issue as i previously though.

I guess we need to recognize that this forum can become a place where people in distress seek help, and that makes it even more crucial to handle these situations with care, offering resources and ensuring there's real support for those in crisis. This way, the forum's purpose remains intact without unintentionally contributing to a negative reputation.

[shree]

@Husseinisdoingfine

I hope you're doing okay and haven't made any rash decisions in the meantime.

I can tell you're still quite young, and while I completely understand that your current situation has left you feeling hopeless, failing these exams might actually be a blessing in disguise. It’s a sign that something better and more fulfilling could be waiting for you, something where you'll truly excel and go beyond your own expectations.

Keep your head up, man. You're just at the beginning of your journey, and one day you'll likely look back at this situation and feel indifferent or even laugh at how much you’ve grown since then.

[Elton]

@Husseinisdoingfine I spent 6 years doing a 4 years engineering degree and that was the worst phase of my life I still got nightmares until last year about exams.. I completed my degree 9 years ago and working as a service engineer. I don't make much money though and I just realised through your post how this belief of education and degrees lead to a great income is deep rooted in my subconscious mind. But just complete graduation for now, spend some time in meditation and contemplation, one of my close friend took 7 years to complete a 3 year graduation and is now earning X5 more salary than me.. 

So obviously a degree is not important in making money, the value you bring to the table matters.

I too compare myself to others a lot and it's a greatest source of my mysery as of how...