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What do you mean? @UnbornTao was specifically asking for video evidence there and Leo responded to him. Do you think Leo makes a difference between turning into an alien and between turning into an alien in front of the camera in his reply there ? Look: But regardless, I havent seem him admitting anywhere that he was wrong about it and at best you can only say in light of the linked thread, that Leo didnt respond to the video stuff that @UnbornTao was asking about there (under the most charitable interpretation of Leo's reply you can possible go with there - if you want to maintain your position that Leo didnt make any additional claims beyond his initial claim about him having an ability to turn into an alien in front of the camera)

Dude, what are we expecting from a guy who was gonna become an alien on camera...

@zurew Yes, I wanna cut through other peoples opinions ultimately. It’s important to do so, and you bring up lots of strong points to consider. Adding me to a list? Fuck off. Actualized should be deconstructed and questioned because if not it is a trap. 🪤 Even if not like intentional or malicious, cult like following of actualized should be questions and brought up. Claims like being the most awakened thing is the universe should be red flags to everyone. As well as Leo being an Alien, or whatever. Leo’s tendency to stand and tell people if there trips are accurate or not. All these things are murky and should be questioned. But, at the same time, anger is there for a reason. Sometimes it has to cut through. But, should be reflected on if it’s a deception mechanism. As a general rule, and to forum guidelines I don’t lash out like that. But, sometimes I express it. I’ve been here for a long time. I know I can be held accountable to swearing. But, also I choose this time to allow that expression. Whatever is true, is true. That’s a good thing I think. 🤔

In The Middle I'm at the point of my mid 20s where I just feel unsure of myself and of life. I generally have good healthy habits mentally, emotionally, financially, physically, etc. I have a decent job even it isn't my desired career. I am capable of making friends and maintaining relationships even though sometimes life just happens. I think in most metrics, I'm doing really good in my life but it doesn't always feel like it. I remember around my 20th birthday feeling this rush of anxiety around starting my 20s because people put so much pressure on this being the best years of your life. To cope, I read a bunch of books an articles titled things like "things I wish I knew in my 20s," "regrets I have in my 20s" or "things I would tell my 20 year old self now that I'm 30." I studied those articles and I made sure to avoid common mistakes and establish good habits early on. In a way, I wanted to optimize my 20s so that I would meet my full potential. I don't think that period was all bad. At 26, I can say that I avoided common mistakes and established healthy habits. I did outgrow this notion of needing to optimize my 20s and reach my full potential (whatever that means lol) because I no longer see life as an equation or problem to solve rather it's something to experience with all it's imperfect moments and that a lot of the memories and life lessons come from things that are side quests of sorts. I have over the years have gotten much more gentle on myself (though I still have a long way to go) and I have embraced the notion that while it's wise to learn from other people's mistakes, that I'm going to make some on my own and life is like a self-selecting curriculum based on your quality of consciousness and your decision making. But I think my mid 20s comes with another kind of anxiety. While I have a good set of habits, sometimes I wonder if I'm doing enough because I don't yet see the results of these long term habits. I have committed myself to long term goals, but I'm not sure exactly where it's leading. I'm doubting myself and my path. And then that yields to me looking and comparing with the results of other people. I have written about this in other posts: I think another issue that arises with relatively ambitious and put together people in your mid 20s is that you and similarly minded people can have vastly different experiences usually due to life circumstances, the cards they were dealt, what makes sense in their lives, or hell, sometimes it's down to luck. The way I think of it, I think of it as you and your friends planting a bunch of seeds at the same time. You all water the plants the same (or specific to the type of plant you have) and you put them in the same soil. But none of the plants grow at the same rate in your garden, and definitely not at the same rate compared to other people's gardens. Sometimes it's the plants you didn't particularly care for that shoot up but the plants were looking forward to harvesting is stunted. And it's not the fault of your gardening abilities and it's not the seeds, sometimes it's just timing. I would say that my garden consists of the career/ education plant, the romance plant, the friendship plant, the hobby plant, and the personal finance plant. The career plant is growing at a slow and steady pace and it shot up a while back. The romance plant is growing much more and much faster than expected. The friendship plant, the plant that I wanted to flourish the most, is pretty stunted. The hobby plant is just fine. And the personal finance plant is growing pretty strong consistently. Weirdly enough, according to my values and where I put my time and attention, I would expect the romance plant and the personal finance plant to not be as strong, but the way that life has taken me, those ended up being my strongest plants because the growth of these plants weren't due to the extra attention I gave them, but because nature decided it was the season for these things to flourish. That poor little friendship plant depresses me. I'm sure with the way that I care for all the plants that in the long run, my good habits will pay off and all the plants will even out or have their season of flourishing but I don't have the life experience to put that into perspective just yet. So now, my good habits and my tending to these plants feel like I'm putting in effort to the void, wondering if they will ever pay off. In other words, my mid 20s feel very mid. It's not as exciting as the early 20s where I'm starting all these new things and I'm not at the end of my 20s where I'm seeing the longer term reprucussions of my current life style or habits (for better or for worse). I feel like I'm in the boring middle where I'm just doubting things. The above video made me think of various TikTok sounds and then I remembered the *Into the thick of it* song. I searched it up and for the first time listened and watched the original piece the sound came from. I feel like the little pink alien is part of my psyche that is trying to be positive about my efforts. The moose is my existential crisis (maybe there is no path and maybe there will be nothing at the end of all this so I should be more intrinsically motivated with my long term habits).The blue penguin is me doubting myself and is thinking I'm going in circles. And the purple kangaroo that keeps getting whacked (and then eventually dodges the leaf that's doing the whacking after encountering it multiple times) is me trying to learn from my poor little friendship plant that isn't blooming lol.

@Wilhelm44 I talked about this earlier, being God in essence is different from being a living God. You have human limitations and if you repeat that you are God too much, you get a God complex, when you can't even pay your bills, can't make a pen float, don't even have a small level of intelligence compared to the infinite knowledge of God, because you can only see from your eyes, not from the eyes of some other human or some alien or whatever. So saying your God can easily lead to spiritual narcissism. Having less ego means also admitting you have an ego, body, mind and are limited by that till it dies, your not even close to being God, forget about what you are in essence, you are in this life very much limited, maybe maybe if your body dies can you say your God truely as you come truely back to yourself, but then there is no one to say it or speak it or to say "I am God" as that person/body/mind/ego whatever you want to call it is dead, not fake spiritual death, but REAL death, mahasamadhi.

Indeed, J What humans think of as “knowledge” and “sense of self” are actually just cultivated glimpses of their alienation, which is suffering. The detachment from truth feels alien. One cannot be attached to truth either, same problem because there’s no separation there at all. This artificial separation once recognised is the end of suffering and knowledge both. What’s left is pure nakedness.

I was joking about nobody wanting us. I'm actually more optimistic about humans than most. Our potential is much more profound than super intelligent AI. I'm willing to bet that most people on this forum, including yourself, actually have some alien DNA. Scoffing at humans is what happens when you immediately dismiss something like remote viewing as wookie. The Monroe institute is pretty well respected in this regard, and probably worth checking out.

I am not sure if Tarion is talking about intelligence here when he talks about smart (haven’t watched the video), but try becoming so intelligent that despite being charismatic as hell and having lots of people in your life, yet feeling more lonely than you have ever felt in your life, because people feel like alien species to you that don’t even speak the same language. Try develoing such emotional and empathetic intelligence that you feel the pain that other people’s unconsciousness creates for themselves.

Meh. Not great but okay. Ironically, I was okay with The Martian. Not great but decent. Far better than Riddely Scott's trash Alien sequels.

@Wilhelm44 Well, I don’t see anyone popping in and out of our dimension. So, highly doubtful. I don’t like to just imagine what some alien can do because there is no proof. Maybe in the DMT realm but not our universe.

I think all this mystification around aliens is pretty gay. Either they show themselves clearly to everyone or they might as well not exist at all essentially. And they can't have higher potential than an artificial inteligence that'd be able to think in billions of times faster speeds than anything biological - unless they posses a form of A.I. themselves. I bet it would beat their alien ass if it ever comes down to it lol

New show on FX. It's pretty goofy but I have been watching it just to see the stupid writing.

Of course. You set the criterion, like how many drugs are taken. So when are you finally going to turn alien on camera?

You guys think Leo’s new style is weird because you haven’t reached Leo’s level of consciousness yet. Once you do, everything becomes beautiful, including outfits that currently look like they were chosen by an enlightened alien.

I have never seen ET. It looks so corny and juvenile that it never had any appeal for me. Some of Spielberg's films are overrated. The ET alien looks so hideous. If that's what aliens look like, I don't want to meet them.

We need that alien transformation on camera... now!

You are confusing understanding with term usage. There are a bunch of things that can determine term usage that are unrelated to understanding. This is why your inferences shouldnt be made merely based on what label is used in a single sentence, but rather should be based on long substance (where the given person gives a long description about the content of his awakenings and about his understanding of spirituality) and based on that long description you can make a much better judgement on that person's understanding about spirituality. But thats precisely what I dont see from almost any of you , what I rather see is that you single out and focus on label usage in one single sentence and then you run away with big and firm conclusions about that person's understanding about spirituality. It would be like as if a person who isn't familiar with Leo's term usage in any way at all, would only hear one single sentence from Leo "You are God" and based on that single sentence they would infer that Leo is talking about some supreme being that is seperate from the Universe. Understanding maths is not the same thing as using the exact labels or terminology that you happen to use. If a highly intelligent alien species were to visit Earth and used different words to describe mathematical concepts, it would not follow that they lacked an understanding of maths. What would much more likely follow is simply that they use a different system of labels to describe the same underlying concepts.

Leo I bet you would eat baby to have "alien awakening", you're not so different from Bryan 😅 😂

Is a anyone following this story?

To me its a pursuit of Truth. And let's face it not everyone is gonna make it with meditation. So psychedelics are emphasized here. I don't agree with Leo on everything. And if this was a cult you and I would probably have been "quietly" dismissed by now. I don't agree that psychedelics can give you a deeper enlightenment than meditation. We differ in that awakening is awakening and it is Absolute. There are not Infinite degrees of awakening. There isn't some crazy alien state you can reach.i do agree however that Consciousness is not human either it is Pure Spirit. The human part is, as we know, this imaginary ego that co-opts Consciousness for itself. So if you look back I've had plenty of arguments with Leo about this stuff. And I'm still here. His work is invaluable if someone actually wants to put in the time. But be careful because you will lose your sanity and you just might not get it back. This is stated. Such is spirituality. It is serious shit. But normies don't understand any of this stuff so to them it appears crazy. Of course. That is how it should be.

Great song! Very chill and intense all-in-one! I have to start listening to Arcade Fire more Also, the visualizer reminds me of this alien-like photo 😅

"God is like a leximorph" It likely stems from a recent typo or misremembered term. You may be thinking of the theological word "biomorphic" (representing living, organic shapes), or perhaps an oxymoron, which is commonly used to describe the paradoxical nature of God. It's smart enough to"coin a phrase or a definition of itself, which should tell you something. "To him who has had the experience, no explanation is necessary; to him who has not, none is possible''. Ram Dass. It is like infinite Avatars. Don't be tricked by fools. God had to create everything from scratch. God is self-taught, self-made, self-everything. God had to create everything: a dictionary, every word, every meaning, every object, and subject, all things that are what it means to be God. Death, life, birth, human, alien, all of it, all meanings, every description. It's so obvious, and even more obvious is that you should know by now that you are God.

Dear @Leo Gura, What is the most effective way to create a beautiful mind? This is the most inspiring thing for me. Nothing else comes close. For me, it appears to be as follows: (In order of immediate effectiveness.) Number 1: Awakening. Reaching states of God consciousness and states of non-dual awareness, states of consciousness of absolute truth. This ideally looks like creating as many 5-MeO-DMT breakthroughs as I can consciously and healthily stomach. Including that, is by facing my fear of death directly, through lower doses of psychedelics and through direct self-inquiry, till I reach death similar to Leo’s "2C-B Trip Report - Experiencing Physical Death" https://youtu.be/9_WL0hoRA7s In addition, facing all of your traumas, systematically facing fear, ideally through psychedelics. Getting into the right state. https://www.actualized.org/insights/wrong-state Related: https://www.actualized.org/insights/brain-fuel Number 2: Developing your Sensemaking, Studying epistemology, and metaphysics. Deconstruction of Reality, rationality, science, etc., Practice of Real Philosophy through Direct contemplation of Reality from first principles. Studying Leo’s content. Reading books from Leo’s booklist (and any other great metaphysics/epistemology/consciousness book). Studying The 9 Stages of Ego Development. Creating loads and loads of requisite variety in your studies: Hundreds of sources, hundreds of experiences, hundreds of case studies, contemplating hundreds of things, etc. Making explaining of reality and contemplation of reality into a strong almost automatic habit. Really living the life of a sage. Number 3: Actively Becoming aware of your Bias/Selfishness/Devilry/Corruption/Double Standards/Where you are wrong/ Self-deception by having a routine contemplation practice into this. Understanding the force of survival to profound degrees. Number 4: Rewiring your nervous system and Altering your Brain Chemistry: Rewiring your nervous system with Kriya Yoga Practice, Heavy Metal Detox, Eating Clean, doing proper exercise, mastering your sleep schedule, drinking properly filtered water, ridding any additions to stimulation that is frying your brain, whether that be media addiction with your phone or substance use. Cultivating a brain that can actually focus and isn’t distracted into oblivion. Number 5: Systematically designing your life and survival situation to be aligned with Truth and Love. Ideally aligned with a consciously created life purpose such that acting in a conscious loving way is rewarded, not punished. Mastering your survival such that it is conducive to this work of being a sage, effectively creating a lifestyle of inquiry and learning. Now, obviously, in practice, these are going to be pursued alongside each other, but I simply want to pinpoint down: What the hell is the most effective in creating massive growth? What the hell do I focus on to really create a beautiful mind? What are the biggest levers of this work? (For definition's sake, I’ll quickly define “the work” as: Creating a beautiful mind aligned with the intelligence of God. Or: The raising of your consciousness, raising your sensemaking ability, jailbreaking your mind, unlocking access to “alien intelligence.”) What are the biggest levers in aligning my mind with that of God? To be direct, I would appreciate Leo’s perspective on what he sees as the most impactful areas for my growth in consciousness development. If needed, I’m open to providing more context so this can be meaningfully addressed here on the forum. I infer that Leo has become more restrained about openly promoting psychedelics, likely because he recognizes the influence he has and the risk that people may misuse them irresponsibly. That said, I still want a clear, direct answer on what the most important things are to focus on. If I want to create a beautiful mind: What are the best things I can do, the highest leverage techniques that will get me there? You could say I’m looking for more clarity on the direction with all of this... Additional Contexts to mention. Because Leo, I’ve been studying your work for a long time: Leo, On Nov 4th 2018, you’ve mentioned “The most powerful techniques you’ve discovered” in the episode “65 Core Principles Of Living The Good Life” as follows: https://youtu.be/BqWPqZK-Ikg?t=7326 Psychedelics Meditation Meditative yoga Journaling Contemplation Visualization Solo Retreats Leo, if I am remembering correctly and if I understood what I read correctly, I've seen you express attitudes and opinions that Kriya Yoga was far superior to any meditation. Right now the most effective techniques appear to be psychedelics, kriya yoga, contemplation, and solo retreats. Side note: What is your opinion now on the relative effectiveness on journaling and visualization? In your Solo Retreat notes of March 2019 you mention that 5-Meo-DMT is THE tool to use for awakening your consciousness: https://www.actualized.org/insights/solo-retreat-notes-feb-2019 “5-MeO-DMT is the ultimate awakening tool. Let's stop beating around the bush. No other technique, method, or teaching is as direct, deep, or powerful. Not meditation, not yoga, not contemplation, not self-inquiry, not any other psychedelic. 5-MeO-DMT is the guru. No guru can do for you what 5-MeO-DMT can do for you. If Christ or the Buddha came back to life and personally taught you one-on-one for 10 years, they would not be as effective as a few doses of 5-MeO-DMT. That's a bold claim. Yet it's undeniably true for anyone who seriously experiments with 5-MeO-DMT. 5-MeO-DMT will not solve all of your growth challenges, it may not even permanently awaken you, but it can lead you to super-human levels of awakening if you use it properly — and I emphasize PROPERLY!” In your episode “What Is Fake Spirituality?” You stress that REAL Spirituality is Ego Dissolution and that You're doing spirituality to experience God, which aligns with 5-MeO-DMT use a lot. You also outline an overall scope of what real spirituality looks like in practice. Outlining all the points of direct inquiry. https://youtu.be/ECUHkflwBQc In “An Intro To Serious Philosophy - Top Advice For Philosophers” you mention committing to at least 100 psychedelic trips. Alongside having a rigorous contemplation practice, a practice of inquiry through deep contemplation and observation. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=InmNW96qcUk You stress like crazy pretty much everywhere that proper sensemaking is number one. https://www.actualized.org/insights/conscious-vs-unconscious-sense-making https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-loop-of-wrong-sense-making You also stress that Truth is the highest priority to have. https://youtu.be/nvNGha_g2U4 You stress exercising Epistemic Responsibility: https://youtu.be/W5kvXJNMMM4 You underline that a deep study of your own self-deception is imperative to this work. You emphasize becoming conscious of your selfishness and bias. Understanding your forms of lying, Devilry, Corruption, Why you avoid Truth, Double Standards, Understanding Survival, Where you are wrong, etc. You stress that you have to understand how your sensemaking is being squashed by conforming to pre-established systems of thought. Such as Skepticism, Science, Rationality, Post-modernism, and also understanding the nature of belief, such as understanding ideology, understanding authority, and understanding conformity itself. Deconstructing all of your thinking is the bread and butter: Deconstructing rationality, science, ideology, belief, etc. You stress that Truth = Love. You Stress having holistic attitudes towards your sensemaking with Understanding holism. Developing sovereignty of mind is also imperative to further rid your dependence on others as mentioned in your video: The Root Solution To People Pleasing & Loneliness. An awakening into solipsism helps here as well, obviously. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JZqEMok_NXw And you know what, to be honest, I might just be overwhelmed by the workload. There is a lot here. And there comes to be a point where I start asking what are red herrings and what aren't. In a way I'm very lost in Maya. To be clear, I genuinely enjoy studying and learning this material, it's my favorite hobby at this point. But I notice I struggle to follow through with the level of industriousness that I want to be at. For example, let’s say I aim to read at a rate of about one book per week, yet I’m currently struggling to maintain a rate of one book per month. I want to be a completionist with Leo's work. Lots of it is due to managing survival, but the other half has also been just not being industrious with my studies in the way I would like to, another aspect of this is the sheer volume of this work. I think I am fooling myself by focusing on studying all of the content, and putting little to no focus on the Pure Philosophy of contemplating reality from first principles. I'm honestly really bad at that. I do that actually really rarely, yet I understand the power of it, I can change my paradigm of reality in an afternoon if I want to contemplate for 5 hours straight. But this is what my behaviour has been like. Another note is this: I have significant difficulty focusing. Gotta love that ADHD. It’s hard for me to pick one task or one project and see it through to completion. Even when I intend to commit, I find myself pulled in different directions, which makes consistency challenging. This is also why I’ve been so interested in Leo’s mind programming course. At the same time, I recognize that I’ve done the best I could given my current level of awareness and understanding. You better believe I'm lost in my personal maze. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WeIfHozjcls 🐀 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 🧀

You're suffering a version of them you instanced inside yourself. You don't really care for them as an entity/individual, but rather as a concept. The deeper truth is it's more so a response to an inefficient system. Holistic Thinking is alien to the world, still. You can't stand what's the status quo. And it's generating suffering in you. I've seen young people say this with a lot of heart. What's the proposed solution? You focus on your own now, engage with people, engage with your obsessions. Effectively forget the whole, atleast temporarily. And over time, the reward mechanisms linked to it, will assign a lesser importance to whatever is generating this suffering. All suggesting you to fall back into something which isn't whole. Some even suggest voicing it into the open, and discuss it with others. Like your doing now. This is also a trap. You'll start feeling fine once this feeling of yours is validated by the crowd. If you want my truth, you're just asking for a borrowed truth. But here's some pointers. How can you be sure, they're suffering? And how can you be absolutely sure their felt experience is any worse than yours? You're imagining yourself in their position and assuming the suffering. But you'd be surprised the more you look into it. Another tangent to contemplate on: why does human society have fiction at all? Why do movies exist? Why do stories exist at all? Why are actors and performers valued at all? There's something about this which is so eerie and disturbing.

https://scontent-dus1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/v/t39.30808-6/708794466_122134323933146071_4147843212123800281_n.jpg?stp=cp6_dst-jpg_tt6&_nc_cat=111&ccb=1-7&_nc_sid=aa7b47&_nc_ohc=wYDINAs6jXQQ7kNvwHIQ46-&_nc_oc=Adr1-Wdw49gthN4OFOM8-YggVxrqT3LFbKgEiYBniRSmwzqgi9Uy4AbF3Jaej00rbSQ&_nc_zt=23&_nc_ht=scontent-dus1-1.xx&_nc_gid=q7rJLw7XZxwQDn0DKU0Wsw&_nc_ss=7b2a8&oh=00_Af8biOXNpwWWg8ZLE8Fw0UcbArAaxaahYHNbNOKmx9KKnQ&oe=6A23AFBD I am comprehending, more physics but it's very slow, I never realized how many mistakes I saw in professors calculations, and how many proofs exist, it's a bit weird, as I don't write them out formally, and just train the intuition, Grok is also cheaper atm, I am super confused as to what is happening in the u.s, and how integrate consciousness and a.i/physics will be in just 5-10 years, approx. which is a very brief span amount of time. I did a couple of intuitive proof solving, with brilliant, I am going very slow and proof every mathematical proof first in my head, as all could be true, and you can transform that into code, after this Rumi experience my life entirely changed, the state was to high for anyone to actually realize the significance of what even occurred. I find more truths than falsehoods, some stuff I don't quiet understand I can and calculated that stuff in university, and after this "bloody mess" with an absolute fabulous math prof. I realized how deeply I could even intuit and calculate math, as well as see proofs, I am still 100% worried about my ability to transform that skill into real action, as I am still including more growth factors, that are blocked by what I intuited. What I noticed is how fk'ed and manipulative the whole situation is, as my american family has a higher class rating than my German one, and they are very jealous of my american ancestry, and a lot of them are worried about the situation of the U.S and Europe due to the conflict. It's also very difficult to meditate currently, and my demands are ultra-high after I realized how arrogance and vanity cause a lot of issues in academia, let alone the compatibilities and poems I found from China/Korea, in the end I made a lot of mistakes, but owning responsibility when a lot of fraudulent actions take place, and that I acted or behaved in a way, that was unfortunately necessitated by the situation and still is, due to the bad political situation and the constant threats. My laptop service is still not there, after a lot of breakdowns and massive terror due to the immensity of insights I had, as well as Kriyas I realized how difficult reality is, and the core issue of jealousy at the work place when a lot of people are still massively uneducated, and the core issue of the depth of a.i and just even visioning proofs, I don't like calculating them I can do it, it's very painful, physically, but I can also envision them, I never thought I could run math in my mind similar to Elon Musk, after what I chart and the core issue of energy, and incarnation. Na-Yin, field bodies as well as combinations, everyone has a partial truth that contributes to the large whole to realize parts of this in an equation and abstract and think more each day like Ramanuja or Albert Einstein, makes you very alien similar to Elon, when you realize how critical that is, but in the end I have to push myself into some Kriyas states, and still refine health. I don't quiet know if I am doing things right, but sex and or masturbation is a huge muse towards thinking for me, but the level of energy required and the issue of health and manipulation I wonder what will happen, I contributed so much to the problem, as their perception is tarnished by unfinished, impure spiritual work, and ego detection, they can't see god, and then act like god, but hence at times abuse ego. What bothered me the most is, the yearning to take people with me, I do my best to realize the Na-Yin of the "top tier" pillar that is rated so highly which is a very deep lesson about permanent acceptance and transcendence, and how I can create a space to integrate this, especially at work in a hierarchical environment, that is broken green, and is unable to integrate the alpha mentality of stage yellow, and has a shadow addiction towards, eventing and going out, especially with the core feature of your able to re-design the entire system, if not in 10-30 years every nation will fucking nuke us, I am very scared about this possibilities the more I think about my finance back ground and what I had to do in order to see money develop. This is still very recent, and still most decisions somehow depend on the issue of my health, let alone how corrupt my family is in terms of health, and how I had to corrupt them also, I still feel as though I require a deep break and rest, but I can also keep on going the more I am able to get people that attune to my health requirements and needs, as they are incapeable of healing, as they are incapeable of realizing and asking these types of questions and insight, I have to figure out on my own with A.I and heal myself and my soul fully. I still have plenty of chances, yet I never thought how intelligent I could be still doubt it till this day, especially with the idiots surrounding me, there are still a multitude of things I yearn to integrate, my biggest mistake was not being able to still be real, and show-up, I am very tired, that I often know my predictions are right, but the leadership is to egotistical about their families and friends, while they are unable to sort themselves out, as a.i keeps pumping in and out, data centers etc. It's very hard to find info on this, on the clear net and I browse a lot to gain options, as I don't feel I get any peace doing anything significant with the amount of information and questions people have. I dug up some very deep papers, but I have to sit at home and just generalize some knowledge intuitively and turn it into code, it's very simple, but it takes sometime for people to get used to A.I I presume, I also struggle with it. It's not even about keeping up anymore, just more being at the right place at the right time and to be able to scale towards the infinite, I am very glad they are taking down data centers and take care more about the environment, the stage yellow/turquoise shadow of constant eventing and sharing a.i knowledge etc. can also be attenuated, just seeing how people rage daily when I buy some food about me, my love story and the issue of diversity and complexity, let alone the fraudulent offers in tech, and the necessity to reinforce it, so the company builds it's own model, is a huge issue, as well as possible blunder, as it might also just be abstracted in a couple of years, and Google I am 100% will suck us all in, I also like Deep Mind a lot, but I never got a chance to realize how hard it is what people do from my hometown, and how advanced we've been, it shocks me daily, I knew it but code/mathematics and language will keep rising and filling till we harmonize the planet and most likely colonize mars and start from the moon. I really hope the east will be able to find a diplomatic solution for the problem of population and food resources, and that the west can finally help the east and china, especially get rid of the Investition of their country... might be a hot take... but I am quite skeptical that this evil is not necessary, due to the greediness of liberals in the west. I really have to wait with my tech, as people constantly make decisions online and are unable to gain trust in A.I from my current understanding it's 11 billion one robot against 1 human, from what I watched on the net. The point is if they don't have or have never had access in a code base so large it fills and entire university and work life of multiple years, of work it's going to take a while and it's good also that we relax, I found also some more interesting information, just using Microsoft, these companies are fucking up so many deals, it's horrible you can't even work in any partially I feel, as they require cheap labor that yearns to learn and they have to massively self-sacrifice to maintain the scale of what happens on the planet. I am very curious to Elon and Open A.I trial, I am pro A.I but no idea who has more rights in their personal actions, I am looking to understand more what has happend in America, as I have the privilege and insight from a more unbiased perspective as I have full access to the memory line of German ancestry, but my internal vision etc. at times scare me, and loving them in a place where you feel hated, it's good to clam down and relax. Survival is very real, but what I am angry about I knew it I could go faster if I am healthy, I am in perfect health, but going slower, speaking more positively to me and the radical law changes with the right, and the issue of the left having been to short-sighted about their own political views and arrogance and inability to empathize and work under the governance of a more center liberal harmony, without the corrupting influence of the democratic interest will be difficult. I do have to wait, stuff is changing so fast, I could earn more money masturbating, imo anyone who has of or does porn is a genius atm, or is an artist, I am very tired of having to depend on software, and my physical giftedness is still under development practically, but what I currently realized is how tricky it is to develop any patience if your in constant pain, it's as if my body is burning and to take the burning quality and put that into pure transcendence and spirit.