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I don't think Leo has explained Alien Awakening yet, am I wrong?

@Oeaohoo the part I didn't like was when he said he damaged himself so much that he would pay for it in the next life. And the implication we can offend God "breaking into the inner sanctum". Both of those points just seem like some dualistic nonsense to me. The point about fetishizing experiences over truth / insight is completely valid. I also don't see the distinction, ultimately, between maya and God. The insights I've had, and I'm not saying this must be the case, is that every experience , structure and modulation of consciousness has always existed and will always exist, and that if you removed even a single grain of sand the entire reality would instantly cease to exist. Distinguishing them might be part of the journey to liberation but it's not ultimately true. I personally got nondual insight from my own experience which I thought was eerily similar to Leo's alien consciousness. Essentially my consciousness was slowly but surely replaced by that of another being (this was my only ever "bad trip"). It was a horrifying dive into insanity and loss of control, but I came out the other side with a deep understanding of the illusion of self. This was before my true nondual experiences but I feel in a way it paved the ground for those. also, I want to apologize if I come across as a dick. That's not the intention.

Alien Awakening is probably the most perfect example of it. But I have to make clear that I do not put "normativity" into "deception" or "untruth". If you prefer Maya, go for it. But to mix it up with non-duality, and to treat it like some next step, that is simply wrong. And to use the same language, the same level of Absoluteness, the same level of conviction, while you're literally talking about some trip or mind-insight you had (profound as it may be), that is a blatant disservice to those words, to non-duality, to truth. Non-duality is the most simple, direct "insight" you can have into reality. When you start talking about "advanced", "intelligence", "beyond human thinking", you're off to the moon. And you're justified in having a super strong conviction in something that is incredibly simple and in truth undeniable. But when you start going down your own personal machinations, that conviction should naturally fade, that is of course, if it's not fueled by something synthetic/extrinsic/inorganic, or something which changes the very way you measure your own convictions.

This makes sense. Like for example, do you think Alien awakening is just more maya? But Leo sort of claims is more profound than for example insight into sunyata, or standard non-duality. Do you think this is an ego-trip? It could be Leo is trying to differentiate himself just to earn his bread in the future so he makes bold claims like this, but I don't know, I remain open lol.

Introduction Last week I took 300ug of LSD, mostly with the intention to confront fears I encountered during previous trips. Those included: After serious ego loss and intense fear of death arising, fighting to have a purpose for my life, as if that was what would save me from death. The reasoning was, as silly as it sounds: “if I can’t come up with a reason for my existence right now, I will die”. A tribalistic paranoia, fear of being discovered by someone, fear of being closed in the room and someone else being in the apartment, fear that someone is behind me. Fear during the state where I don’t know anything, I literally don’t remember anything at all, what my name is, who I am, etc. Fear of reality “simplifying itself” to the point of death, fear of being motionless / falling asleep during the trip because I think I will die. Fundamentally, fear of death. To counter these, my focus was to: “Let Death into my heart”; Open the gates Accept being purposeless, that it is okay and I will not die Accept no identity and not remembering anything, that it is okay as well Relax and feel into being safe in God Confront other key fears listed above I simplified these points of focus, wrote them out on pieces of paper and laid them in front of me, so that I would come back to them throughout the trip. Moreover, since I always experience profound feelings of Self-definition during my trips, my intention was to focus on 3 key archetypes/energies which are important to me right now, once the identity was gone, to program myself: I am a Man. I achieve my Goals. I Act. I am an Artist. I express my Voice. I Create. I am a Sage. I nourish my Peace. I Meditate. I said goodbyes to my gf I live with, closed myself off in my room for 3 hours and went from there. Throughout the entire trip I wrote in my notebook. I mostly sat on the floor, surrounded by a few sheets of paper, and took everything in, while observing myself and responding to fears. Key Awakenings I don’t exist For the first time, I really awakened to the fact that I don’t exist. This was during the beginning of the trip. I was writing a stream of consciousness in the notebook and I asked the question: “Do I even exist?”. The question reached my awareness and suddenly I was completely dumbstruck. My jaw dropped. My initial reaction was like “Of course I exist!!!”. But I looked and there was no me. Mindfuck. After that, so much energy started emanating from me I thought everyone around me in the residential block was feeling it. It was incredible. Nothing I saw utter Nothingness. It was like I was in a completely empty Void. There was NOTHING satisfying about it for me. I was scared of the truth being negative in some way. In retrospect, I see that I wanted to discover SOMETHING. I wanted to discover some kind of divine love, inspiration, hope, reason. I wanted nothingness to be something good… but no. No love, no hope, NOTHING. It was exactly what it was. Nothingness. Devoid of any features. I saw it clearly, and it was humbling. I AM; SOMETHING is there And yet, in spite of seeing that I don’t exist, of not remembering anything about me and after seeing the Nothingness, I later felt that something was calling to me. It was as if it was hidden behind some veil, completely inaccessible to me. There was SOMETHING there, and it was ALIVE. I wrote in my notebook: I am SOMETHING. But what? This SOMETHING was instantaneous. I felt that I was it, but I was in no control of it. It was Same to me, and yet completely Other. It was writing things through me, without my conscious intent. For the first time, I felt MYSELF so clearly. I AM. Still, I don’t yet understand the dynamics of it. But I feel there is something amazing to be found there, and I’m excited about that. “Alien” vibration penetrating me Okay, so this is another thing that’s been difficult for me in previous trips, which I forgot about. Maybe I cut it out of my memory due to the great discomfort associated with it. Lately, each time I take LSD and lose my identity completely, I feel penetrated by some weird, “alien”, unifying vibration, by which I feel raped, used, taken advantage of. Feeling it, I feel like I’ve made some big mistake taking LSD. I feel possessed. At times, I feel something is taking control of me and I’m acting in weird, unpredictable manners, which is scaring me. During this trip, this happened when I was very high-level, and later on each time I focused on accepting the fear of dying and being no one. I felt this foreign vibration running through me. I felt discomfort, but I tried to persevere. I was set on confronting any fear and letting go of myself. Still, I felt taken advantage of. I don’t have good words to describe it, but that energy was weird, alien-like, sexual, foreign, flowing through me when I let go. If I had to describe it visually, I felt it as something white with 8 eyes, spanning through the entire visual field, inhuman, all-unifying, sexual, flowing. But I might as well be bullshitting myself, that’s not the point. The most important thing is: I don’t know yet what it is, and how to deal with this. I know I must separate my feelings about it from the actual thing, and it’s difficult because I feel great discomfort towards it. I’m wondering whether I can start approaching it differently and experience more positive feelings towards it. She is Other to me Close to the end of the trip, I contemplated what my girlfriend is. I was like: “Well, of course she is me. Right?”. And I tried “looking into her”. But to my surprise, she was completely inaccessible to me. She was Other to me. “Wait… how can she be Other to me, if we are the Same?!” It was a mindfuck to realize others are the Same and Other at the same time. I gained a new level of respect for my girlfriend, in particular. Later, I told her: “I respect you, because I can’t reach you with my mind. You are, and always will be, a Mystery to me. I see you differently now.” This can refer to Reality in general. What I said in the “I AM; SOMETHING is there” section: that SOMETHING was also completely Other to me, even though I was It. Maybe that SOMETHING is in everything I see, including my girlfriend. I think that theoretically, I could realize that I can’t reach anything I see with my mind, and that everything is a Mystery, not just my gf - but that’s beyond the scope of that trip. Miscellaneous I felt the above 5 sections were the most distinct, content-packed and worth sharing. Besides these, I experienced other things/awakenings/insights, such as: “Everything stems from the fact that I’m afraid of Death”. Feeling that I’m always running away from myself. I am this Dream which is leading itself Will/Intention being instantaneous and action in reality “lagging behind”, I was a bit impatient about it “Being the furthest away (from “life-content”), you can’t do anything but love.” “I want to be someone in this world. I want to express my Voice.” I felt like I’m not worthy, not “someone” enough. I want to fix something in myself all the time. Can’t I just love myself? At one point, I felt it was hard for me to stay in the body. I was walking around the room and felt so much energy accumulating in me, I thought I’d die. This single thing made me consider reducing dosing in the future. Looking at my hand felt overwhelming at one point, as if God was beaming its full energy at my face. I was looking away. Also, holding the fully stretched hand close to my face, I felt as if it was completely surrounding me. I was scared of it. Loss of consciousness was disappointing at one point. I was on such a high level. I felt cheated going “down”. I felt the “earthly” life was such an insignificant dream/illusion and it was for low-consciousness idiot beings. But this feeling passed quite quickly. At the end of the trip, I focused on manifesting what I want in life - among others, the 3 key archetypes I mentioned in the intro Focusing on the fact that I REALLY wanted the best for myself, that I wanted happiness in life, I wanted hope, inspiration, energy, I wanted to live and accomplish, that I wanted everything to be alright in the end. Key lessons & how to proceed Next time, I will strive to not want anything from NOTHING and to love it for what it is. Unsatisfying, unborn, raw, pure truth. I can see the fact that it's unsatisfying as actually the best thing about it. Shows me my bias perfectly. Focus on looking deeper into SOMETHING behind the veil. I feel there’s something important there for me to find. Perhaps, this is where I can genuinely discover God/Infinite Love for the first time. Seems plausible, given how this SOMETHING felt to me during this trip. I had God-realizations before, but it was more about me being God - never before did I discover God/Love/Intelligence which is „Alive” and Other to me. Understand my feelings of being taken advantage of by the „alien” vibration. Can I change my relation to it? Is it growth to accept this „foreign” energy penetrating me? Should I learn to be submissive, is that the way? What is this „alien” vibration? Goal: Learn to love and receive it. Experiment with being submissive and accepting something „foreign”. Fuck it, if it’s growth, I want it, I don’t care. Consider lowering my LSD dose to 225ug Consider trying a different psychedelic soon, probably DMT Outro Thanks for reading. If you have any comments, feel free to share. Peace! I got the Magic in me! 🌟

It will have less visuals, less body feel, less tactility, less eroticism, less color. It will be like a more clinical and sober version of 5-MeO-MIPT. But insane clarity. Impossible clarity. DMT is more scary because it is too twisted and alien. 5-MeO is more simple and pure. It doesn't have a bunch of wacky shit going on. It's just a direct 1000-fold increase in consciousness. Although at high enough dose you will shit your pants. So ramp up gradually.

This relatively new article is very interesting. Wolfram describes how a hyperadvanced mind could perceive and know Reality, it resonates with the Alien Mind´s world: Wolfram´s Hyperintelligence

He’s missing Alien Peacock Jesus Awakening

You aren't reading to surpass undergraduate level understanding. You are reading to surpass Alien Awakening. Good luck with that.

@Ninja_pigI agree with him that aliens are real. The aliens see that the human body is able to evolve the conciousness of the aliens. The human body is able to feel qualia that the alien bodies cannot.The human body is able to see conciousness (God).Aliens could also inhabit their own bodies to make sure the simulation dosent get fucked up. Like you are on an alien spaceship right now 'hacking' into the machine of the human to farm a personality, or experience things the alien cannot via its own body. Conciousness needs a body to be able to localize itself into a space.

Certainly there are valid exceptions, that was just an example. Then again, if you travel someplace where shrooms are legal/decriminalized, almost surely you could order 4-AcO-DMT and others to there as well. RCs by definition are less regulated, and volume tends to be much lower too, which makes it easier to smuggle; 100mg 4-AcO-DMT is at least equipotent to 5g of powdered shrooms. Then there's LSD which is literally paper, could even replace a couple pages of the Bible with sheets and mail it that way. There are vendors that can consistently get drugs into Saudi Arabia and the like, would make quick work of your country. I was randomly searched at Saudi customs on arrival, those guys mean some serious business. Couple additional points on this, but I already went over it elsewhere. I'm definitely enjoying the preset radar chart of my character lol. I don't even mention the biggest advantages as it makes life look laughably unfair. But, as the saying goes, with great power comes great responsibility. Knew that to be the case, but still sought reassurance 'cause there's a difference between knowing intellectually, even through mass-scale observation, and knowing experientially. Thanks for confirming! You saying it is not experiential either per se, but it's a "my experience is your experience" type of thing. Same as most of you guys couldn't make sense of my gory hobbies in the other thread. Legit feels so alien even though we all live on the same planet and basically look alike otherwise; I said it before and will say again, the diversity of perspectives is simply marvelous.

Can it be two things? I'll list 2 anyway. First, the way most use psychedelics. Several aspects there. Whether psychedelics can actually produce any kind of real spiritual insight is a separate issue I don't care to debate. Routes of administration: I know for a fact a significant chunk of the reason people get mediocre results is wrong route. Plugging/boofing works as well as it does for Leo due to his abnormal sensitivity, if you simply emulate him, even with an increased dose there's little hope to get close; a qualitative difference is required, stacked together with all the other factors within one's control. No need to go as far as IV — IM, and even SubQ (which diabetics and people in HRT do on a regular basis), already offer a massive potency increase. Pains me every time seeing the waste of substance and trips when people barely scrape a rudimentary Samadhi with 20mg plugged 5MM while I get God-consciousness at 4mg IM. There's definitely stigma around injections as junkie stuff, I had to overcome it myself; nevertheless, they're the preferred method of delivery in hospitals and other clinical contexts for a good reason. That said, without truly knowing what you're doing better stick to non-invasive routes for your own sake. Lack of basic chemistry and neuropharmacology education: continuation of the above. The kind of ignorant shit I regularly witness here is frankly embarrassing and demonstrates unseriousness. Even for many advanced psychonauts that may have deeper awakenings than I do this is often the case. People not understanding the difference between salt and freebase, not knowing what the main classes of psychedelics are, what is agonism/antagonism, which receptors and neurotransmitters are involved, inability to read analytical purity results, citing a research paper and drawing conclusions from the Abstract alone when a table or graph in the middle shows the exact opposite but they're unable to interpret the data... I get it, chemistry looks boring and intimidating, but with an extremely practical reason and all the resources available there's no excuse not to learn it. Some of you need good 'ol scientific rigor beaten into you like dogs, same way I once experienced it. Seems harsh, but that's how mastery is achieved. This creates a sort of bell curve meme dynamic where the idiot is totally reckless, the midwit is risk-averse which keeps him safe but also trapped in the mediocrity of his conformist ignorance, and the sage can again afford to be almost as reckless as he likes because he knows the field inside and out. Narrow definition of what 'psychedelics' are: to most this just means tryptamines, sometimes together with lysergamides and phenethylamines; in rare instances it'll also include dissociatives and a couple outliers like weed and Salvia. If people even consider dissociatives, often that just means Ketamine, and why? Because Leo has a video on it. In reality, nearly all psychoactives used in the proper context can serve as valuable tools in spiritual pursuits and daily life. I successfully integrate stimulants, antipsychotics, anticholinergics, sleep & hypertension meds, and more into my toolbox. Not appreciating the power of synthetics: if you enjoy growing weed or mushrooms as a hobby, that's cool. Otherwise this is pure nonsense. Why are you choking down on shrooms when there's 4-AcO-DMT? Why are you talking about weed strains when for a couple hundred dollars you can create a lifetime supply of any kind of blend you desire with THCA + terpenes + minor cannabinoids, like the guy that recently replicated the Coca-Cola syrup recipe? Why are you smoking Salvia, the most potent psychedelic on Earth, in a disgusting extract without the faintest idea of the dose you're taking when you could extract Salvinorin A crystal? Why take extracted DMT when there's synthetic DMT? (fine, synthetic DMT is pretty rare to come by). Conformity, laziness, and a deluded idea of what 'natural' is. Miscellaneous: other sloppiness — misunderstanding tolerance, not knowing how to prepare a volumetric solution and weigh the substance, not even realizing the same substance can have wildly different weight for equal volume, not taking measures to properly store substances to minimize degradation, not knowing where to source, not following regulations to stock up on a particular substance you like before it gets banned or dies out in obscurity, not knowing how to extract/convert/purify substances, imbalanced approach to set & setting; ain't enough time in the world to list it all. This and more I intend to correct by writing the most comprehensive guide to psychoactives to date, should anyone be willing to lend an ear. The goal is not to get everyone to do things my way, but create a resource for people to educate themselves and branch out into personalized methods. Now for a rift that cannot be corrected through any means — excessive focus on dating & sex. I see various survival distractions, but none as potent and prevalent as this. I acknowledged in another post that the only reason I can so easily brush this aside is because I'm asexual, for others this is a matter of genuine import. And yet it still doesn't quite compute — are normal (by this place's standards) people actually this horny? That's not rhetorical, perhaps someone would be so kind as to provide an answer. If so, I sure am glad to be bereft of the whole capacity to begin with. Through not caring about chicken feed one can get much better goodies such as an orgy with imaginary alien babes, or better yet an endless self-referential loop of mindfucks within God's Mind. Which is not to say you can't get both kinds, it's simply a question of time and effort allocated.

Two Alien Minds heading towards Infinite Bliss is more powerful than a a hundred thousand human cums.

@Ninja_pig20 grams of shrooms I saw an alien. Its an alien simulation. We are an alien pretending to be a human and wearing the body like a headset. Like in a VR headset game. The aliens are doing the whole thing. The body dosent have conciousness its like a robot. You are alien farming a personality.

@StickI think if you look at the alien it will feel like you are dying. Like they suck the light out of your eyes. People who see them claim they are frozen like a deer in headlights and cannot move even tho they want to.

Come on man, he says they are not kept in a facility. In this big world, there are probably millions of aliens among which a few might be more intelligent than us. But considering the massive size of the universe communication is almost impossible. I would love to meet a awakened alien though so I hope they exist and that they are kind.

I am probably the "Alien" here I eat mostly raw fruits and vegetables, nuts, seeds, sprouts, sea vegetables ect... NO meat, dairy, processed / packaged foods, animal products, junk foods ect... Occasional I enjoy some baked potatoes, hearty vegetable rice, or a warm meal for special occasions, maybe coconut pumpkin soup, but I don't feel as good as fresh living foods. Tend to pass out and feel drunk sometimes when i eat heavier. Sometimes i have a coffee, sometimes some raw cacao, its pretty simple, but its where i feel best and most alive and clear and in touch with my emotions and spiritual side, otherwise i tend to feel worse or angry or more numb if i introduce other denser and denatured foods. I don't really count calories or nutrition anymore, just live / eat intuitively, but i believe its around 40 - 60g protein a day and 1800 - 2500 calories. I am medium-light athletic build, and the more i train more muscle i pack on regardless of how much protein i consume, i don't pack on a lot of muscle-mass due to my light diet, but i can look ripped and muscular if i want in a short period of time. Nowadays I am more about consciousness, intelligence, clarity, psychic abilities ect... than physical attributes and looks. Its more about energy and power for me these days than about strength and size. I discovered this type of diet, (mostly raw plant-based foods) keeps my energy and vibration the highest, mental clarity the sharpest, and ability to process and integration of emotions and life-experiences best, and in balanced and stable manner. I feel less like I am drugs with live foods. I once experimented with 1000 - 1500 calories a day and still maintained muscle mass, the only time i lost was when i stop training. There are many others who i know who eat and live this way, but very few on this forum. I am just playing my part

Update February 24 2026 This entire process towards fana has taken a lot longer than I expected, but it has still very much been moving forwards. Since December I've been going through more waves of pain, my ego breaking and dissolving at deeper and deeper levels. My consciousness has also been getting much deeper, and I’ve been having crazy awakenings - tastes of infinity, tastes of unity, remembrance of where I was pre-birth, all sober. Recent trips I haven't been using psychedelics much (I did DMT a few times in August 2025, MDMA a few times mid October) but earlier in February I did 2C-B, and later Ketamine, and had some really incredible trips. It was my first time trying 2C-B. Using it this far along in my journey, this close to fana, was insane. I had some really incredible awakenings on it, and also some really beautiful and amazing things happened regarding my path. For example, on 2C-B, I came in contact with the divine mother in a way I never have before. What is so special about it is that it’s not just coming in contact with God in an abstract, human way - it’s not just interacting with the divine mother, it’s my divine mother, because I came from Her. I’m coming in contact with the essence that birthed my soul. As I mentioned before, I have been massively starved of intimacy throughout my life, I have felt like an alien walking the earth, like no one understands me at all, far more than what most spiritual people experience. When I come in contact with Her, it’s like that flips to the opposite end of the spectrum. It’s extreme intimacy, extreme understanding, extreme closeness, because we are one and the same. I am Her, and we know and understand each other completely. The way we interact with each other feels like I am her child, like her ‘special boy’, like she wants to pull me into her arms and hold me, because I belong to her. It feels like I would never even know that She was God based on this interaction alone, because it feels so different from what you’d expect an interaction with God to feel like. She just feels like my home. These interactions are bittersweet, because they are so beautiful when they happen, but it hurts me when I lose contact with Her, but I know I’ll be with Her permanently soon. A lot of really amazing things happened on these trips, but they are really personal and private to my path, so I can’t really share them. I also had some really cool interactions with God on Ketamine, which again probably only happened because of where I’m at spiritually. Where my consciousness is at now At this point, so often I am conscious that my direct experience is the only thing that exists (I also had a really deep solipsism awakening on 2C-B which took this even farther). It feels obvious that I am sitting in the same place I was before I was born, only now, there is form - an imagined physical world around me. But I’m partly conscious that every person is just a piece of my own mind, and they don’t really exist. Because of that, it doesn’t feel that crazy to tell people about everything that’s going on with me, how deeply I’m awakening, because I realize that I’m the only one here and there isn’t really anyone else there to hear about it. It’s just me going home to where I was before birth, and even though Fana al Fana is the deepest permanent awakened state a person can reach, it feels like there is nothing special or rare about it, because it’s just me here, and I’m going home like I was always meant to. My consciousness gets deeper and deeper every day. I’m getting so close to full collapse and surrender, and once that happens, I will be swallowed and consumed by God, and be gone. My path is about becoming the divine mother, and considering everything else that has gone on my life (before this path I was very interested in psychology and emotional healing work) and considering the state of the world today, it really seems like I’m going to become a sort of ‘mental health Jesus’. Everything about my path points to that, and the divine mother is perfectly suited for that. Another cool way to think about it: If Jesus brought God to the world as the father (the masculine face of God), and his path was about bringing spiral dynamics stage red into stage blue, my path is about bringing the world into spiral dynamics stage green. How brutal my path has been My path has been brutal and excruciating beyond words. I could write out more and more about just how awful it has been, but I don’t think I would ever get anyone to understand, so it feels like there isn’t much point. I genuinely believe though that I have gone through one of the most difficult spiritual paths in all of human history. It hasn’t just been hard, it’s been emotional torture. Literally. Also, it makes perfect sense for it to have been this hard, because 1: emissary soul paths go the deepest (fana al fana) and as a result are always the most difficult spiritual paths, and 2: the feminine face of God is one of the deepest levels of unity, which requires the most amount of pain to launch you to that depth of unity, and yet a soul of the feminine face of God is extremely sensitive and feels everything much more deeply than other people. I fucking hate being alive. I’ve wanted to be dead so badly for years now. Every single thing in life hurts me, I never get a break from it, the suffering never ends. All I care about is being dead. The way I found out I’d be reaching fana is that it was offered to me from God as an alternative to suicide. The process towards it has been far more difficult and painful than I ever imagined. It is humiliating being kept alive and having to go through this long, painful, tortuous process. It is so fucking slow and brutal and I just wish I would hurry up and die. The thing that keeps me going is knowing that once fana al fana happens, I will never incarnate again, and it won’t just be death, it will be heaven - the deepest level of unity with the feminine face of God. I’ve been shaped to be completely intolerant of separation from God. I cannot stand being human and existing as a separate self. Everything about it is hell. I hate having to figure out my life and make decisions for myself, I hate dealing with limitation and not being able to have things I want, I hate being starved of intimacy, no one understands me and I’m always completely alone. I hate being hurt by every single little thing all the time because of how sensitive I am. I hate being powerless to doing anything about the situation I’m in. Separation from God is absolutely, completely unbearable to me, and I could never tolerate anything less than total unity, and as a result, total death/annihilation. Like I said, I don’t think I could ever get anyone to understand just how brutal my path has been, but at the same time it doesn’t really matter, because my unity and relationship with God is what will make up for it, so no person needs to understand it. I know that the depth of hell I’ve been dragged through is exactly what will allow God to shine through me so deeply and clearly after fana. What ‘Tristan’ is Before my birth, I was the entire infinite feminine face of God. She fragmented herself, placed Herself into a human body, and that human was named Tristan. Then over the course of 25 years, Tristan has been dissolved and brought to the point where Her fragment could merge back with Her, leading to the entire feminine face of God living in a human body, walking the Earth. At that point, Tristan as an ego is not just dead, not just mostly gone, but totally annihilated and eviscerated. That’s what allows me to be completely dead and gone like I want, and for God to shine through me totally unobstructed by ego. That’s what Fana al fana is. (Lover = the human seeking God. Beloved = God) "The lover is a veil, all is Beloved. Beloved lives. The lover is a corpse." - Rumi Because my entire 25 year life as Tristan played out the way it did only to serve this purpose, rather than being a human, ‘Tristan’ is actually the name of a specific flavour of unity with God. My personality, my passions, interests, preferences, my desires, things I’ve been through in my life… these things aren’t just human experiences, they are specifically meant to shape my soul, and thus shape the way God acts through me once I reach unity, which God then uses to interact with the world and help people. That is what ‘Tristan’ is. A flavour of unity, a specific way that God (the divine mother) interacts with people and the world after fana. Conclusion It feels weird to be saying all of this to begin with because I realize that my own mind is all that exists, and so I’m not really talking to anyone. To me it sort of just feels like this 25 years of hell is about to be over, and I’m about to go back home to where I belong, and then I’ll be happy. If what then lives in my body and walks this Earth after my death is a Jesus type figure, then okay, great. As long as I as Tristan am dead, that’s all that matters to me. Hopefully what I’m writing here and what I wrote earlier in this thread gives a bit of an idea of what I’ve been through. Once the final collapse into fana al fana happens, I as Tristan will be totally wiped away, and only God will remain. I think it’s cool to be able to talk about all of this before that happens, while I’m still human, and then later for people to see what becomes of me after fana, even though I as Tristan won’t be there to see it. I know that I as Tristan am just an illusion, just a placeholder until I merge back with God. “The lover is a veil, all is Beloved”. There is a massive amount of stuff that I have to keep private between God and I. Something that is really special about the feminine face of God is how unique and unusual it is, in the way that it functions and operates, compared to any other aspect of God. That itself leads to an insane amount of intimacy between Her and I, and it is also why I have to keep so much about my unity private. It’s important to note that my unity is not just my death, it is going home to Her, being reunited, and then us falling endlessly in love with each other, permanently freed from the pain of separation. Our endless love, intimacy, romance is what then gets channeled out into the world, through her feminine essence. Here are things associated with the feminine essence of God: Soft, gentle, motherly love. Tenderness. Affection. Adoration. Deep sensitivity. Deep intimacy, deep emotional attunement. Safety. Connection, togetherness, closeness. Romance. Sexuality. Pleasure. Infinite beauty. Freedom from any form of pain or suffering. Innocence. Childlike essence. Playfulness.

These hosts used to dress up in/ puppet as alien/animal costumes for their interviews.... I was wanting to suggest leo as an alien mouse. But I think he did great going the serious route. But would've been FUCKING hilarious!

Finished the first episode. I think the issue is that they don’t understand what an absolute is, so they can’t make sense of Reality/Existence/God/Good. But that’s to be expected of people who haven’t done the work Overall good job by Leo trying to present a worldview that’s alien to them. And also avoiding a landmine when the girl was like “You don’t care about humans?” 😱 On to the next episode…

@Schahin There are many good ones, but I will share the strongest I have tried. These first two are responsible for giving me ego death: 1. GMO: craziest shit I’ve experienced in my life. It makes you relaxed/sleepy yet euphoric at the same time. That shit took me to alien space and was so strong I had to go to sleep to calm down. If you listen to techno while on this, good luck / sayonara. 2. Jokerz: Another ego death encounter with the absolute nothingness. Heard GOD laughing in this trip literally. 3. Girl Scout: Get ready for an epic adventure. 4. Blue Hawaii: Get ready to an exotic travel.

Felt like a quick break, created a GPT and did a query. Alien Contact Expert Hyper-rational GPT for designing and analyzing alien contact methods. You said: What is your honest estimation on the existence of alien life, given the most up to date evidence and rational calculations you are capable of making. You can draw on anything here of relevance, and any method of deduction likely to provide accurate results. ChatGPT said: Given the most current scientific understanding, rational deduction strongly supports the high likelihood of extraterrestrial life somewhere in the universe, though it remains unconfirmed by direct observation. Key Lines of Reasoning: 1. Astrobiological Potential Planetary Abundance: The Milky Way alone contains an estimated 100–400 billion stars. Approximately 20–50% of Sun-like stars host Earth-sized planets within the habitable zone (per Kepler mission data). Exoplanet Diversity: Thousands of exoplanets have been confirmed, including potentially habitable Earth analogs. The variety of planetary systems increases the statistical probability that some support life. 2. Chemical Universality The basic elements for life—carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, oxygen, phosphorus, and sulfur—are common throughout the universe. Organic molecules (e.g., amino acids) have been found in interstellar clouds, meteorites, and comets, suggesting that prebiotic chemistry is widespread. 3. Abiogenesis Likelihood Life arose on Earth relatively quickly (within ~500 million years of habitability), suggesting that abiogenesis might be a common outcome given suitable conditions. However, the mechanism of abiogenesis is not yet fully understood, which leaves uncertainty about how probable it is elsewhere. 4. Bayesian Reasoning Under Bayesian inference, even in the absence of direct detection, the prior probability of life existing elsewhere increases given the scale of the cosmos and multiple habitable environments. Fermi’s Paradox (the apparent contradiction between high probability and lack of evidence) challenges this, but can be mitigated by: Civilizations being rare or short-lived. Civilizations not being spacefaring or broadcasting. Communication signals being unrecognized or undetectable. 5. Drake Equation Framework While highly uncertain, updated inputs suggest a non-negligible number of technologically capable civilizations in the galaxy. Most uncertainty comes from factors like the fraction of life that becomes intelligent, and the longevity of communicative civilizations. 6. Recent Discoveries Phosphine on Venus: Initially suggested as a biosignature, though retracted or challenged; nonetheless, it illustrates growing capability to detect life indicators. Oceans on Moons: Enceladus, Europa, and others have subsurface oceans with possible hydrothermal activity—environments where terrestrial life thrives. Conclusion Based on current astrophysical data, molecular chemistry, and statistical modeling, it is rationally probable—though not yet empirically confirmed—that extraterrestrial life exists. The existence of intelligent or technologically advanced life is far less certain, but cannot be ruled out without more data. In sum: Microbial or simple life is likely to exist elsewhere; intelligent life is plausible but remains speculative in the absence of evidence. You said: What is your current analysis of the release of government documentation on the subject that has been in the media over the last number of years? ChatGPT said: The recent release of U.S. government documentation on Unidentified Aerial Phenomena (UAP), particularly since 2017, marks a notable shift in official engagement with aerial anomalies. However, from a scientific and analytical standpoint, the evidence disclosed thus far is insufficient to support the hypothesis of extraterrestrial origin. Here is a breakdown: 1. Nature of the Disclosures U.S. Navy Videos: Three declassified videos (FLIR1, GIMBAL, GOFAST) show objects with unusual flight characteristics. These were confirmed as authentic and unidentified by the Pentagon. UAP Task Force Reports: The 2021 preliminary assessment and subsequent 2022 report by the Office of the Director of National Intelligence (ODNI) documented 366 new UAP incidents, with about half remaining unexplained. AARO (All-domain Anomaly Resolution Office): Established to coordinate U.S. military and intelligence efforts to analyze UAPs across air, sea, and space domains. 2. Credibility and Constraints Credible Observers: Many reports come from trained military personnel with advanced sensor platforms, increasing reliability of observation—but not interpretation. Sensor Limitations: The data is often limited to infrared, radar, or pilot testimony, lacking the multi-modal confirmation required for scientific conclusions. Ambiguity: Most UAPs remain unidentified not because they defy physics, but because the data is sparse, degraded, or classified. 3. Scientific Interpretations Instrumental Artifacts: Some apparent anomalies (e.g., sudden acceleration, hovering) can be explained by parallax, frame-rate aliasing, or sensor limitations. Human-Made Objects: Likely explanations include drones (foreign or domestic), misidentified aircraft, atmospheric phenomena, or electronic warfare decoys. Extraterrestrial Hypothesis (ETH): While not ruled out, ETH is a hypothesis of last resort—it requires extraordinary evidence, which is currently lacking. 4. Policy and Sociopolitical Context Transparency Shift: The change from ridicule and secrecy to structured inquiry suggests a shift in threat perception and public relations strategy. Geopolitical Framing: There is increasing concern about UAPs as potential surveillance technologies from adversarial nations rather than interstellar probes. Public Discourse: Media framing often emphasizes mystery or insinuation, but the actual documentation is careful to avoid leaps in inference. 5. Recent Developments David Grusch Allegations (2023): Claims by a former intelligence official that the U.S. possesses “non-human craft” have not been substantiated with verifiable evidence and remain anecdotal. The AARO has found no corroborating evidence as of its 2024 update. Congressional Hearings: These indicate political and institutional interest, but so far lack evidentiary breakthroughs. Conclusion While the recent disclosures warrant scientific attention and improved aerial object detection protocols, no released documentation provides credible, verifiable evidence of extraterrestrial origin or technology. The UAP phenomenon remains unexplained in part, but not demonstrably alien. Continued investigation is warranted, particularly to eliminate terrestrial threats and improve aerospace domain awareness.

@Natasha Tori Maru Yeah, do you think he will order any disclosure? I just watched this, and they show an interview with a neurosurgeon who reportedly spent 3–4 minutes with the Varginha alien and was able to communicate with it telepathically. The interview also appears in the new documentary, where he tears up while recalling the experience. He said there was so much compassion and love in its eyes that he had never seen anything like it before. They also claim that many people signed NDAs and that, if Trump were to protect them and release them from those agreements, they would publicly reveal everything.

@Natasha Tori Maru I don't think he meant that he's seen one, he just said that there must be one as the universe is so large. Btw, I wasn't aware that there is a new documentary called Moment of Contact: New Revelations of Alien Encounters (2025), anyone who liked Moment of Contact (2022) should watch it. I'm about to watch it now. It's on Amazon Prime.

This completion business is something completely alien if you think. Alien, I mean, completely outside of human considerations.