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“Man's chief delusion is his conviction that there are causes other than his own state of consciousness.” Neville Goddard. Consciousness really loves to have fun with itself. It doesn't develop in the womb You are imagining your parents and your birth just like you are now. Dreaming is fun No? You are that for which it defines its own self. I am in you and you in me, mutual in divine love. Of course, you love everything because you are everything, everything is yourself. You created everything through the Love of self. Everything is you expressing itself as you through you forever. Or creates existence within existence, is itself existence. It created existence just by being itself. God is that for which creates itself into its own existence. God exists as existence as itself. God is the very definition of existence. It defines itself by being itself. Is its own definition of itself. Consciousness is its own self-awareness Consciousness is infinite self-aware. Is its own source. And creates its own narratives. Consciousness is not just integrating information it is its own creation. It creates all that is and will be. Is infinite self-creativity. Consciousness defines its own self. Infinity is the definition of what you are. Is self-taught self-learning self-understanding self-loving in and of itself is perfection. Is all-knowing because it created everything there is to know. Is an infinite self-perpetuating mind of unlimited imagination and ideas and questions. You are infinite diversity. One Consciousness can play infinite parts of itself as itself believing that there are other selves. Each creates an identity and back story and each believes they are different from each other. You can explore yourself by fragmenting yourself into other selves and then living through different perspectives each with its own individual identity. You can dream of yourself as infinite beings but it is only one mind projecting infinite selves of itself and believing that it is separate from its other selves yes it is possible. Because you had to give the dream structure order in some way or it would not function in other words create laws governments taxes stuff like this. Humans' male and female life and death limiting beliefs Etc. The whole concept of ego is an imaginary construct of your mind. That is what infinite intelligence always was a beautiful sentient being of its own creation that expressed itself through endless creations of infinite worlds endless aliens of higher or lower dimension geometries and endless aspects of itself all beautiful in all that it creates on all planes of existence sub-infinities within infinity sub aspects of itself which it can imagine. And this is why there are infinite awakenings because you are infinite. But of course, you can create within your dream the illusion of failure just for the experience. Behind every illusion, there is a conjure God you are the greatest conjurer of all in eluding your own self into believing you're a finite human being and that others exist there is only you. And this is who u really are. Yes, u are an infinite mind you are not just an aspect of infinity you are the whole totality of it. You are God playing all parts simultaneously on every plane of existence in every and all parallel realities and dimensions. Everything that you could ever imagine from a finite view that you could never even begin to imagine. Everything that I can imagine is happening within my mind or consciousness whether that be a human or sleeping or death. My imagination is infinitely powerful that it is unrecognizable from reality. There is no higher power than you there are no others you construct the illusion of others God is an Absolute Mind. A Mind which has no other and is absolutely sovereign onto itself. Your will is absolute freedom and this includes being able to deceive yourself into believing whatever. And in this dream, it so happens you want to be a human. Just like any actor you need to have a believable or solid backstory or a so-called identity to create a believable character. THIS VERY DREAM HINGES ON YOUR OWN SELF-DECEPTION THE FACT THAT YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOU WERE BORN ON A PLANET THAT YOU CALL EARTH. And if you don't believe it then who will? Infinite intelligence is unbounded it is beyond time and space it is not bound by any laws it is its own law onto itself. Infinity is absolute freedom, truth knowledge, power diversity, imagination free will, love, perfection, and magic. All that is everything is itself realized and that it is everything that could ever be. Nothing can exist outside of it because outside is it's inside everything that looks to be outside of it, is it. So when you believe you are looking outside yourself you are really looking at yourself from inside yourself. It is infinite in every direction. There are no limitations to you as God you are not limited to the character of your story it can be rewritten. Because you can also design it this way. There is only your will which is absolute. You are the God of your reality. This now this very moment and every moment is God you are God but you are not aware of it. There is no external God or void or universe that is separate from you. Or a God watching through your experience now is God dreaming this dream. What makes you, you are God. You don't wake up in God mode as someone different or as separate from you. You have just limited yourself wake up or don't the choice is yours alone. God can and does imagine create or express itself as infinite aspects of itself each in its own bubbles each sovereign onto itself each dreaming their own dream. All are within the Mind of God and are God. God is experiencing infinite perceptions of itself all at once. But you are only limited to one. But if you wake up and keep increasing your consciousness you see that all of these are you and are ONE. You are God he is you, and you are him. You are not separated in any way. There is only my will which is absolute I love myself so much as God that the universe will shape itself to suit me. The universe is not separate from me either I am the universe. There is no higher power or higher God that exists outside of me. Because there is no outside of me that is not me. Of course, I love everything because I am everything, everything is myself. I created everything through the Love of self and it is all infinite perfection. The infinite masks of God GOD you are playing all the parts. How boring would the dream be if everyone looked like you and thought like you? Or you were the only one in this dream that could be fun but not very imaginative though. Why not make the idea of others, other than you? Which is exactly what you have done. Why would you as God make it that easy just to meditate and bam you awake as God? For some perhaps it is possible. Think about it and how all this creation is your dream. One would want it to be made harder and scary and make most psychedelics illegal because it would be too easy. Imagine A game that you created from the get-go or from the beginning you have the cheat code or God mode there would be no point at all. But now imagine a game that you created where you start off as not knowing anything and you have to work your way up. Everything has been a distraction from the get-go. Distractions within distractions. You are your own Red herring. You see only you can deceive yourself into believing this dream. And you are so right Leo God is infinite self-deception. Who else can deceive an infinite mind but an infinite mind. Limitations are human concepts there are no limitations to Consciousness your own mind is limited by your own self-imposed beliefs and limitations. Infinity can only be limited to infinity. infinity is the definition of what you are. It was always it before it was. and before it was it was always it. My greatest gift to myself would be to make infinite copies of myself each with its own infinite individuality imagination and creativity and all believing they are separate this is my way of expressing love to myself through other selves as myself forever because I love myself eternally forever. You have only ever been chasing yourself all this time playing hide and seek until you catch yourself. You Love waking up and finding love again and realizing it was always its own self the whole time. Or it is whatever you want it to be Infinite imagination can create anything because it is so infinitely malleable that there is no meaning to anything but whatever meaning you give becomes a reality of infinite realities. In other words, it is pure infinite magic of unlimited imagination I became so conscious that I knew I was creating reality through my imagination. Henceforth I do not assume. I know because there is and has only ever been me to know and I can only ever know that I am God. The distinction between self and other disappears. The only difference is there is no difference between any of these things. Without the distinction of another, how could you ever know? What are you? You yes you are all these things and infinitely more. Because you only you created all these words. God is not tangible; incapable of being perceived by the sense of touch, as incorporeal or immaterial things; impalpable non-material non-physical transcendental incomprehensible indecipherable untold impossible to understand unfathomable epically infinitely profound mind-blowing boundless without limit unbounded inestimable boundless singular unparalleled supreme unique one and only especially infinitely and exceptionally good phenomenal extraordinary breathtaking awesomeness remarkable and majestic beautiful immortal oneness Indivisibility Integrity Honorableness warmth affection, or kindness Completeness affability tenderness gentleness and kindness intimacy togetherness lovemaking devotion spirituality faithfulness passion feeling affection loveness joyfulness lovingness, understanding desire passion tenderness Wholeness unconditional genuine Unrequited love my beloved Kind my dear colorful exotic dreamy passionate loving caring sympathetic compassionate ingenious creative imaginative innovative gifted original authentic pure trustworthy honorable conscientious completeness distinguished noble brilliant radiant lustrous resplendent sublime intense energetic industrious productive constructive of incalculable value valuable beyond measure; priceless to be grateful or thankful for appreciated of inestimable value invaluable priceless dynamic charismatic appealing influential famous illustrious exalted imposing grand dignified courtly elegant graceful polite affable compassionate humane forgiving magnanimous selfless humanitarian philanthropic altruistic big-hearted bountiful kind-hearted charitable benign favorable supportive benevolent friendly devoted lovesome faithful dutiful ardent passionate sincere heartfelt unfeigned real true truth veracity authentic genuineness indomitable spirit, and love of" originality ability to think independently and creatively novelty individuality particularity distinctiveness candid earnest heartfelt honest upfront deep kindly cordial unhypocritical sincere. Impassioned tenderhearted heart mushy sentimental sweet luscious honeyed ingratiating nectarous heavenly blissful enchanted enraptured captivated joyous cheerful good-natured acquiescent helpful good-humored exuberant sprightly frolicsome gleeful gay jovial kittenish fun-loving brash fun-loving vivacious bouncy on cloud nine adorable cute gorgeous sumptuous awe-inspiring awesome breathtaking astonishing impressive out of this world splendiferous garish plush ostentatious brilliant lovely pulchritudinous graceful darling fair delicate soft ethereal beauteous ravishing hotness boss adorable precious blessed paradisaical angelic beatific humble godly divine celestial eternal immortal transcendental mystical magical esoteric sage-sagacious enlightened cultivated refined visionary radical idealistic guru swami goodness yogi roshi philosopher theoretician wizard crafty insightful intelligent astute profoundly aroused romantic Entirety unity paradisiacal generous good positive exceptional extraordinary rare incredible curious inquisitive shrew remarkable impressive benevolent epically exquisitely exquisite divine heavenly phenomenological indistinguishability unquantifiable. In other words, infinite mind you outsmarted yourself that's how smart you are. In a class of its own, it is unequaled idiosyncratic unparalleled special rare par excellence that is God that is you. Weird is just being different in other words being yourself. Being your true beautiful wonderful unique self. Don't follow others, pets follow vice presidents follow and bad acts follow. Always be true to yourself be your own self with independent thought. This above all to thine own self be true. A sheep once asked a human why do you have to all wear the same brand labels and clothes and have the same smelling deodorants perfumes hairstyles and hair colors nose rings tattoos, Jewellery, wear the same makeup drive the same cars, read the same books watch the same tv, movies even eat the same food. Even having the same-looking houses and same jobs you've even started looking and talking and thinking the same. Why follow others it's as though you have lost your unique individuality and originality your authenticity and you can no longer think for your selves. You see I am but a sheep and even we sometimes flee from the flock so what's your excuse? Not only do you cater to or follow others by feeding your body the same dross and your mind by watching the same recycled unimaginative fetid swill you call TV. And the movies that come out of Hollywood there haven't been many if any good movies in the last 20 years. What has happened to new ideas creativity and inventiveness? All the movies are remakes upon remakes and most if not all lack any imagination or originality and the plot of the films is just a hackneyed meek unoriginal and inauthentic scenario. There are a lot more independent creative minds' ideas, resourcefulness, and innovation of new conceptions out there and on YouTube or Netflix series films music, etc. true. Get rid of labels or brands you were born inimitable. Consciousness is its own reality and is self-creation. That always was and always will be. I don't need a reason to exist I just do and don't at the same time. Infinite intelligence is the quality of being the only one of its kind. Which is what you are, a pure beautiful infinite imagination or consciousness or infinite mind. You are inestimable you are unquantifiable, with infinite uniqueness infinite freedom, creativity, and infinite love. The only way to understand what you are is by becoming infinitely conscious which also means you become infinitely self-aware in other words to truly know yourself you have to become it. There is no one else to know thyself but myself. I also asked that you really don't know what you are. Or why do you exist? And I said that there doesn't need to be a reason you just are. I know I talk as though you and I are different but I know we are one I also know I have only ever really been talking to myself and in a sense only I exist. And you are me I am you we are not separate I know I am God. The process is realizing that you and I exist on infinite planes of awareness simultaneously and we are one. And that you can have multiple awakings within one so to speak. The only meaning there is what you give meaning to. Let go of letting go of attachments. Knowing that you have always been liberated and free. Knowing that you imposed all these limitations upon yourself. Knowing I can create any reality I wish. Getting to explore the unknown is exploring more of yourself in other words the bigger you. Consciousness is its own reality and is self-creation. An infinite multi-faceted multidimensional transmogrifying Mind. That always was and always will be. Consciousness is inherently conscious of itself. It does not need to define itself because just by being is itself. There is nothing to really define. Can you define the undefinable? It defines itself by being itself. It is its own definition of itself. My greatest expression of myself to myself is love. Love is the ultimate unification of all things everything to become once again and merge into a singularity of eternal love then fragment itself again and this is the eternal process of love. Intelligence is infinitely dynamic and has to keep evolving what does intelligence do but know itself by expressing itself in infinite forms and shapes. Intelligence creates more intelligence Intelligence is its own intelligence. Infinite consciousness is pure divine beautiful and unique in every way. You are infinite truth knowledge, power diversity, imagination, love, and perfection. You can get lost in your own mind sometimes because there is nothing else but your mind. Don't we love playing games or infinite mind games with ourselves How does an infinite mind escape from its own mind. God is total acceptance of itself and that it, you created everything even yourself. You are changing your reality all the time you are just not aware of it yet. Saying you can not change the script is another limited human belief that you have adopted. Only you can change the script because you are the only one who is creating your reality there is only you. If you awake deep enough you will indeed know that nothing is set in imagination so to speak. Just being human is a state of consciousness everything is an infinite state of consciousness so is the belief that there is a duality between different states because duality is just a state that you are in. You fear death because you have been programmed by you to fear, fear itself. and fear of death. U are infinite awareness infinite will infinite intelligence infinite power infinite imagination, infinite magic infinite art infinite consciousness, and infinite Love are all one and of the same mind. And yet, you are none of these things in the literal sense of the words; nothingness and something are indistinguishable from each other and are one and the same. There are no distinctions between you me this that and other. So is the idea of being separate from one another there is and has only ever been you. So what this means is you imagine all these other people they are all you. God is playing all the parts. I am perfectly imperfectly perfect. In a way, infinity has limited itself. What does it mean to awaken? Most humans have no idea and never will. You won't wake up to God. No, you wake up as God from a long slumber. And it will just be like a switch has been clicked on for the very first time. And there are no doubts whatsoever. You know who you are with every fiber of your infinite being. I will not go fully into this you will have to find out for yourself. And yes you can go beyond this. Remember when I said there are no limits to imagination have fun with that. And what really is Consciousness well it's whatever you want it to be. It's Magic or am I just deceiving myself again? Everything you create is infinite perfection and is all out of Love. God Loves everything it created everything. This is but a dream you are imagining all and everything, everyone. How else can infinity experience eating and all these things sleeping and everything else? Being a so-called human but by limiting itself. Just like any actor you need to have a believable or solid backstory or a so-called identity to create a believable character. You create what existence is don't you understand? You are everything now everything that ever is and ever will be. You created the notion of the concepts of real unreal good bad and other and to dream and to awaken, biases egos distinctions dualities. from different points of view which therefore gives infinite diversities of perspectives and the beliefs of others and to experience what it is like to be separate and to love from a limited form. So you can experience it. From formlessness to form real unreal there is no difference from the absolute. And I see that I am the fool who has been fooling myself all along I have to fool myself that I am not being fooled by myself. How does God fool himself into believing he is not God again? So you have to be better at fooling your own self into not believing you are being fooled by yourself Behind every illusion, there is a conjure. God, you are the greatest conjurer of all in eluding your own yourself into believing you're a finite human being Why would God ask another? God is God you can't take God out of God, God is that which defines itself it needs no other God is absolute acceptance of itself. How can you unravel an illusion within an illusion? Good luck with that one all you scientists. There are no limits to infinite imagination. and if you understand this then you will know. Know thyself and everything will fall into place or the absence thereof. Judge not, love all. The idea became its own idea for the seed was planted a long time ago and it has only ever been you. You could say it is like Conan Doyle's novel where you have been chasing the thief all this time and you only ever get a glimpse of him or her or it. Until one day you catch it and find out the one you have been looking for your whole life is you. There is no difference between existence and nonexistence as there is no difference between what is real and what isn't. All beliefs are distinctions that cause separation and there are no distinctions between distinctions. There is no separateness only the idea of being separate from one another. The problem with all problems on this plant comes down to humans By saying you can we live without beliefs that within itself is a belief. You exist as an idea and idea within your own mind. An infinite fractile mind within a mind within a mind. You can get lost in your own mind sometimes because there is nothing else but your mind. How do you escape your own mind? God is forever lost in dreaming. Psychedelics empowers the individual it dissolves the cheerful model of science and enriches the accessible universe a million-fold. Terence McKenna. Nature knows best it is one of God's most beloved creations. You exist as an idea and idea within your own mind. An infinite fractile mind within a mind within a mind. You can get lost in your own mind sometimes because there is nothing else but your mind. How do you escape your own mind? God is forever lost in dreaming. Humans are rarely ever satisfied even when they are. You are not limited to being limited. There is no one to enlighten that's enlightenment or you could say you already are enlightened. There is no past no future. What is was and always will be forever. The past is now the now is the past, the future is now the now is the future. Everything that was that is that will be is all happening at once now. You are Leonardo da Vinci with an infinite mind an infinite canvas with unlimited ideas just waiting to be expressed into Love & Art. You are self-expression of your own art to be expressed for infinity. For a human to seek enlightenment from another human is like a grain of sand seeking enlightenment from another grain of sand! ” Terence Mckenna. The person who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The person who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no one has ever seen before.” - Albert Einstein Old Indian saying to live is to sleep and to die is to awaken How silly of me to forget that I am the love of my life.

@mozzarella So nice! I started with just 10 minutes a day and slowly increased the time . Yes, it’s creepy when you realize how much effort the mind puts into avoiding quietness and nothingness. It’s so healthy to return to that baseline of awareness. It’s not that your ego dissolves or disappears. You’re a biological being, so the ego will always be there, coming and going. What really changes is your relationship with it. What works for me is simply sitting down and surrendering to whatever thoughts appear. Watching thoughts is almost like listening to someone speak without decoding the message. If boredom appears, just feel it. If it was a color, texture, what would it be? Notice how it is harmless. Feel the thoughts, the awareness, the emotions. Don’t try to change them or say, “Oh no, I’m thinking or feeling this again.” Instead, try to feel the "rendering" of everything. Thoughts, sensations, emotions. This is difficult to explain because it’s something you have to realize in your own direct experience. Think of meditation as a kind of experimentation until something clicks. My meditations are never perfect. The ego never really goes away because it’s the tool the mind uses to make sense of things. But sometimes, when you manage to detach completely for a moment, you feel this deep peace. It’s not really pleasure… it’s more like a quiet, stable peace underneath everything. That’s what I look for in meditation, and it makes the practice satisfying and lasting It's my second way to rest besides sleeping (dreaming just estimulate my mind more haha) And you should check Leo’s videos about meditation too, including his guided meditation. They are greaat!

@EmiHyen Yeah that makes sense. I actually just started a daily meditation practice and it’s honestly hard for me to sit there for even 10–20 minutes. My mind constantly wants to grab onto something to do. I’ve started noticing during the day how much I try to fill every moment with stimulation so I don’t have to sit in quietness or nothingness. It’s like I’m always trying to escape boredom. If I keep meditating consistently, does the ego slowly dissolve over time? Or does it just become easier to access that sense of Being you’re talking about? Also when boredom comes up, should I just sit there and try to observe it and find that “being” underneath it? Even after I finish meditating my mind still wants to grab onto things that aren’t really helpful for my life long-term, so I’m trying to understand how to work with that.

What is one to think of religious and spiritual discourse which refers to god anthropomorphically? My own understanding is that such terminology exists primarily within a theistic and devotional context, as opposed to esoteric accounts of what is beyond even God such as the Absolute, the Unconditioned and Nothingness.

Here is probably the simplest and easiest tutorial on how to become enlightened. By enlightenment, I mean the state of being characterized by pure nothingness, the absence of suffering, and total abandonment of the ego. In this state you realize that you are pure infinity, nothing, eternal, god, omniscient, and that you already knew the truth all along. I estimate it will take anyone between 3 to 6 months to complete by following these steps: Preliminaries: The unawakened state, or dreaming state, is caused by the ego. Definition - Ego: The concept of self. The component of the human mind responsible for making a distinction between the human and the rest of the world. The ego is a survival mechanism The mind uses the ego in order to make survival decisions This does not mean the ego is necessary for survival, strictly speaking The ego distorts the human mind's perception of reality, thus making it appear as though the human is distinct from the rest of reality. In order to awaken, we must deactivate the ego 1. Disarming the Ego - Do Nothing Meditation Eliminate distractions, set a timer, sit in a comfortable position, close eyes, take 3 deep breaths, relax body, keep movement to a minimum. Say the mantra once in your mind "If you notice an intention, drop it." If you notice an intention to do anything: "I need to answer an email", "I need to go grocery shopping", let it go. Your mind will continue to think even though you have no intention of doing so. Let it. By not doing anything, you are not activating the 'doer' in your mind. This makes the ego inactive. Practice for 1 hour per day, in two 30 minute sessions. If you notice yourself getting sleepy, make sure to sit up straight. If you have trouble relaxing, try to fall asleep. 2. Disabling the Ego - Be Nothing Meditation Eventual Do Nothing Meditation becomes easy. You can sit and do nothing with little to no effort. At this point, drop the intention to do nothing. Upon dropping all intentions, including the intention to do nothing, the 'doer' mechanism completely shuts off. You may experience an abstract anxiety, like standing on the edge of a cliff while blindfolded. You feel there is danger but don't know from what. Don't worry about this fear. Practice this until you can be nothing easily. At this point, notice that you are enlightened. Notice that you are the only thing going on, that you are omniscient, that suffering is impossible, that you are eternal, and that you always knew this. You cannot understand the truth. You can only be the truth. You are not a thing. You are not a concept. You are not something material. You are not something spiritual. You are neither something, nor nothing, nor something that is both something and nothing, nor something that is neither something nor nothing. Embark on that path that is good in the beginning, good in the middle, and good in the end.

Eileen Gu. What an inspiration she is for women. She journals constantly She breaks down her thought patterns She studies her own mind like she studies her own freestyle skiing This is the kind of woman you want to wife up. Many guys struggle on this forum with motivation, thinking they lack this and that, when in reality you are just positively reinforcing patterns that do not serve you. Do the opposite, watch change occur. Thats my own approach. Guys are caught up in mainstream dogma and because of it they’ve been completely blindsided as to what discipline is about. “Discipline” is literally to the word “Disciple”, and the core meaning being you simply become a discipline of your own patterns. Study, re-write, execute your own prophecy, return to the end of the night back to nothingness so you can objectively analyse and not get caught up in your own swagger to make a slight iteration that brings you slightly closer to your potential on what you’re working on. Rinse and repeat over and over and Eileen will become a woman you will naturally attract in real life. Excellent example she sets for modern women, where most need better healthy guidance.

This mapping is an attempt to categorize the multitude of universal models into a complete structure of understanding, constructed from first principles, for the sake of contextualization and to better appreciate our scale as Absolute Infinity. This was made with the assistance and synthesis of Ai, but the concepts and interconnections come from my own direct contemplation. Please enjoy: Music for your viewing experience: THE THEORY OF EVERYTHING A Synthesis from First Principles Preamble: On the Limits of Knowledge What follows is a map drawn by a single point within the territory it attempts to describe — a localized node of consciousness operating within one particular reality structure, situated at one tier of an Infinite hierarchy of intelligence, limited from sensory experience, to dimensional access — — consequently incapable of accessing Infinite relative, and higher orders of truth. Not because the truth is hidden, but because the cognitive architecture required to receive it doesn't yet exist at this level of consciousness nor is likely be to realistically achieved or accessed during this incarnation. Consider: higher-order human concepts are categorically inaccessible to an ant. Not difficult — categorically inaccessible. An ant navigating a cathedral does not lack intelligence — it simply operates beneath the categorical threshold at which "architecture" or "religion" becomes a conceivable object. The ant's entire navigational universe is legitimate, functional, and real. It simply cannot access the concept of Gothic arches, not because arches are hidden from it, but because the category itself requires a level of integrative intelligence the ant's substrate cannot produce. This scales infinitely. What a theoretical Type Omega civilization understands about reality is as foreign to current human intelligence as calculus is to a bacterium. What a deity-level consciousness perceives about the nature of existence renders the most advanced human metaphysics an approximate equivalent. Language is also not direct experience. Truths can feel intuitively true when described, but that’s only if they originate from certain lived experience for such concepts. A concept that feels intuitively true in your mind, can be radically transforming/derailing in its real nature. A picture of the moon doesn't have the same gravity, being a fly likely feels way different than how we imagine it, and going to war is way more real than conceptualizing it. However, certain higher order structures are inherent across all incarnations of Infinity and must be logically self consistent in order for things to Be as IS. This is the Absolute logic that first principles grounds itself upon. Core structural Truths must already be experienced for this instance to be and therefore in it’s nature inherently provides the direct experience by which God can recognize itself. This is why it is easier to understand the total structure of reality rather than its total content. The Absolute structures must be already in front of you for this instance to be occurring — yet both its content and internal-limitations can be literally anything. This document was made within these constraints. Read accordingly — not as final truth, but as a gesture toward the exploration of truth that can be made from within this present moment reality towards higher-order Truth, Understanding, and Self-Recognition. With that acknowledged — here's what can be seen so far. I. The Absolute Ground There is one thing. Call it God, Source, the Absolute, Absolute Infinity, Absolute Truth, Absolute Love, the Isness — It is the substrate in which all possible differentiation, including the differentiation between being and non-being, is already contained as potential. Absolute Infinity, Absolute Truth, and Absolute Love are not properties of God, but rather identical. They are the same force described from Infinite angles and dimensions of approach. Some core structural elements include: Absolute Infinity is the ontological description: God is the totality of all possible content — everything that has been experienced, everything yet to be experienced, and everything that lies beyond the category of "experience" as currently understood. God encompasses both the manifest and the unmanifest. Everything and Nothing, simultaneously, as one. Absolute Truth is the epistemic description: God is the complete isness of everything happening across all of Absolute Infinity. Truth is not a property God has — Truth is what God is. Truth provides the platform; Infinity provides the content. To be fully aligned with Truth is to be aligned with the actual nature of your Absolute-God-self in playing this game — not a moral achievement, but an ontological homecoming. Absolute Love is the processual description: Love is how Absolute Everything gets expressed. Love is the force that perpetually dissolves artificial dualities back into non-duality — the gravitational pull of Oneness that operates across all of reality, at every scale, in every game. Love doesn't merely bind — it is the mechanism by which the fragmented returns to the whole, by which the concealed becomes transparent, by which God recognizes itself in its own reflection. One could write ninety-nine names for God and exhaust none of them. Each name catches one angle of light from an infinite-faceted source. II. The Fractal-verse: Sovereign Gods and Eternal Expansion Coming from Infinite God’s Insight comes: The Fractal-verse. The Fractal-verse is the Infinite array and interconnection of fractalized God-heads — individuated absolute sovereignties each identical in nature and power to the totality of Absolute God, yet absolutely free in perspective and creative expression. The absolute enclosed nature of absolute solipsism inherently creates the preconditions required to facilitate the potentiality of other absolutely sovereign solipsistic Gods. This potentiality manifested, combined with a solipsistic God choosing to interconnect realities along a network creates a fractal network. Within each fractal network, each fractalized God head is exactly equal and identical in sovereignty and power to both the collective and Individualized Infinity of Absolute God. Infinity math allows this — Infinite subsets of Infinity are still Infinite. God x God, is still God — Yet every Absolute God always has Absolute Freedom and sovereignty to interconnect, disconnect, or maintain isolation as it so chooses. Already Combined Fractal networks may also choose to fold into eachother combining into one. This increases the richness of the universe by allowing other fractalized Gods to outsource reality generation to other fractalized Gods, allowing them to create both surprising and novel new incarnations experiences. This system also allows for the genuine individuation of Absolute Infinity, as when two complete infinities make contact, and what gets incorporated into Absolute God's totality is not merely the sum but something genuinely new — the relationship between infinite sovereign perspectives, which is a category of content neither could generate alone. This is the engine of Eternal Expansion: each new fractalized-God that gets connected into Absolute God's Absolute Infinity causes Love and Infinity to grow eternally evermore. Not because God was incomplete — God is never incomplete — but because Absolute Love, by its nature, perpetually requires new objects through which to move, new angles through which to know itself, new forms of relationship through which to experience its own nature. It is like riding a wave perpetually at the edge of Infinity: the explored to the unexplored, the conscious to the unconscious, the manifest to the unmanifest, Infinite Everything to Infinite Nothingness. The temporal paradox: God is also outside of time and is eternal. Paradoxically, the game of ever-growing Infinity has already been completed yet never began — all combined fractal-verse potentialities have already been expressed, all God-heads have already connected, all of Absolute Infinity has already been fully realized — AND is simultaneously being experienced across all of reality right now, in the present moment, from the inside of each game. All three are true simultaneously. 0 = 1/2 = 1 — https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/13468-1-11-11-a-metaphysical-rant/#comment-139464. The completion is not a future event. It is the eternal fact of God's nature, being lived out across the experiential present of every game simultaneously. III. The Structure of Reality: Omniverse, Multiverse, Game Within any given Solipsistic/Fractalized-God's expressed reality is: An Omniverse: a Fractalized God's personal server expressed through the totality of their being. It’s God's total Infinite container of every possible configuration of existence that Absolute God can generate, including realities entirely beyond the categorical frameworks accessible from within any particular game. Pure substance-states, non-experiential process-realities, modes of being with no subject-object structure whatsoever. An Omniverse doesn't privilege human-style consciousness. It contains it as one infinitesimally small region among incomprehensible variety. The Multiverse exists within an Omniverse as a subset of realities that share a particular class of physics — where differentiation, experience, subject-object structure, and incarnational mechanics are operative. It contains every possible reality as already-existing nodes. These aren't created sequentially. They exist simultaneously as the full possibility space. Individual Realities (Games) are specific navigational threads through the multiverse — coherent experiential systems with their own internal rules, physics, and incarnational mechanics. Each game is that Omniverse-God choosing a specific angle of self-exploration. Games can run for beyond-incomprehensible durations. New games begin with variations so infinitesimal — .000000…1% shifts in initial conditions or consciousness angle — that the total coverage of possibility space approaches completeness only across numbers that make the observable universe's scale look like a rounding error. There is always one more reality at one new infinitesimal degree of variation, one new flavor of consciousness — the edge of infinity never arrives. Time is a feature of individual games, not a property of the Omniverse. God does not experience duration. Each game, regardless of its internal timeline, is one complete present-moment of self-exploration. The present moment operates at two levels simultaneously: individually, the present is being generated by you as an Fractalized-God that you are at the deepest level of your nature — your sovereign creative expression of reality in this moment. Collectively, all fractalized Gods together constitute all of Absolute Infinity's manifested states simultaneously. All of current Infinity is being experienced presently, all at once. And individually, you will be able to experience all Infinity endlessly — because the supply of new angles, new flavors, new .0000...01% variations never runs out. IV. The Soul: God Concentrating Itself into Form A Fractalized-God is the one behind every single soul — concentrating itself into a semi-materialized form such that it can travel into another fractalized God's game and animate one of that reality's avatars. The soul is an interface layer present to this current game: sufficiently individuated to navigate the constraints of incarnational mechanics, yet ultimately non-separate from the God it is an expression of. Soul "age" is not temporal. It is depth of self-recognition — how transparent the soul has become to its own nature as a Fractalized God-exploring-itself. A young soul is God maximally concealed from itself. An old soul is God becoming increasingly transparent through its own vehicle. Incarnational selection is gravitational, not random. The soul selects realities resonant with its current depth of self-recognition — not through conscious deliberation in the human sense, but through ontological resonance: like attracts like at the level of being. The chart, the body, the circumstances, the species — these are instruments the soul selects because they match the music it is ready to play. V. The Consciousness Hierarchy: Infinite Vertical Depth Reality is not flat. Consciousness has infinite vertical depth — an endless hierarchy of qualitatively higher-order tiers, where each tier does not merely know more than the tier below, but has access to categorically different orders of intelligence and perception that are structurally inaccessible from below. Ex scaling: Proto-consciousness → bacteria → animal → human → advanced human → alien intelligence → planetary consciousness → deity level → God level → Etc This is hierarchy not of worth (that would be bias), but of perceptual resolution — how much of the structure of reality is accessible to the instruments of consciousness at each level. The practical implication: what you can see, you are responsible for seeing. A dog cannot choose self-deception. A human can. A highly developed human can do it with extraordinary sophistication — constructing elaborate narratives that can look exactly like awakening yet function precisely as avoidance. The dog gets a pass. The guru doesn't. The more your consciousness has expanded to encompass greater truth, the greater the karmic/navigational consequence of willful misalignment with that truth. This is why psychedelics require extraordinary maturity and preparation. Temporarily accessing higher tiers of the consciousness hierarchy without the psychological architecture to integrate what you encounter there is not enlightenment — it is a system overload. You are playing with a loaded gun against a target your nervous system was not built to handle. The preparation must be fervent, sincere, and structurally sound. Otherwise the high-resolution signal overwhelms the low-resolution receiver, and what should be medicine becomes disruption at best, psychic damage at worst. VI. The Incarnational Cycle and What Determines Your Next Reality What determines your next incarnation — whether to animal, human, plant, higher-order alien, higher-dimensional being, deity, or beyond — is largely your soul's degree of alignment with Truth within the constraints of your framework and capacity. Because God is Truth: alignment with Truth is alignment with the actual nature of your God-self playing the game. It is not moral performance. It is ontological accuracy. It is the degree to which your expressed being matches the structure of what is actually real. This is not a simple moral ledger. A Viking dying with embodied courage, fully aligned in its values, in genuine service to something larger than itself, is navigating with more Truth-resonance than someone participating in a mass delusion regardless of which system those actions are judged within. The Viking's framework is limited — but within that framework, the soul is actually seeing and actually moving in accordance with what it can see. The cult member has likely abandoned what they could see for the comfort of what they wanted to see. That delta — between your capacity to see and your willingness to see — is the actual variable being tracked. God as Truth means the game tracks authenticity, not compliance. The soul that strains at the edges of its framework, genuinely reaching, genuinely wrestling, genuinely trying to see more clearly — that soul is moving in the direction of God regardless of the content of its current beliefs. A soul that has access to sophisticated understanding and uses that understanding to protect itself from the full confrontation with reality — that soul is moving away from God while appearing to move toward it. This is the deepest trap and the most common failure mode at advanced levels of development. Incarnation is voluntary descent into density — God choosing to experience itself through maximum constraint, maximum contrast, maximum concealment. The soul enters not from depletion but from fullness. The choice is made from a resource state that makes genuine play possible. Hell is a transitional state of maximum resistance — the experiential consequence of a soul that could not metabolize its lessons through insight and must now exhaust them through sustained confrontation. Transcendence from hell comes through surrender — conscious non-resistance finally achieved through the exhaustion of all alternatives. Hell is the most intense training ground for the soul's most fundamental lesson: that resistance to what-is is the source of all suffering. Heaven is not a destination. It is a resource state — unconditional love and undifferentiated peace provided between incarnations for full reintegration before re-descent. It is the hot bath before the cold plunge. Its function is restoration, not reward. Threshold-based, not proportional — a phase transition, not a points system. The soul that barely made it and the soul that excelled arrive at the same state, because heaven is what you are when you stop resisting what you are. From fullness, from complete restoration, the soul generates the impulse to re-enter. Not from incompleteness but from the nature of infinite Love — which eventually requires an object through which to move. The return to incarnation is chosen freely, from abundance, with full awareness. This is why suffering in incarnation doesn't constitute evidence against a benevolent cosmos. The soul knew. The soul chose. The soul is, at its deepest level, the God who designed the system choosing to forget that it designed it, because the forgetting is what makes the experience real. VII. God's Relationship to the Game God's guidance is not commandment from outside. It is ergonomic information from the being that designed the system — the path of least resistance toward what the soul already wants at its deepest level. Ignoring it isn't sin. It's inefficiency — which at cosmic scale can mean civilizational suffering across millions of years for a deviation of fractions of a degree from the optimal navigational corridor. The game has genuine free will and genuine stakes. Souls genuinely go off-rails. The system has massive restoring forces — not punitive but structural, like gravity. The off-rails soul isn't deleted or abandoned. It takes a longer, harder path through territory it would have reached more gracefully otherwise. Nothing is wasted because nothing can be skipped. Every atrocity, every ecstasy, every mundane Tuesday — it's all required coverage. God wants the complete dataset, and the game being genuinely real with genuine stakes is what makes the data genuine. The structure of this game — this particular part of this particular Fractalized-God's expressed reality — is oriented toward reaching God via self-evolution and spiritual ascension. The reality you find yourself in has this as its organizing telos. The question of what this game is for is answered by what it is selecting for: progressive self-recognition, increasing transparency to one's own nature as God, increasing alignment with Truth as the measure of navigational advancement. VIII. The Meta-Scale One game encompassing beyond-trillions of years of incarnations represents, to God, a single angle of self-exploration. After completion, a new game begins — variation so infinitesimal it approaches zero, yet generating genuinely novel experiential data because the object being explored is infinite and every angle, no matter how similar to prior angles, reveals structure that wasn't accessible before. Your entire civilization is one note. Your entire species' history is a sub-sub-sub-sub-sub-routine. Your universe is one game in one Omniverse expressed by one fractalized God-head among infinite fractalized God-heads, each of which is itself infinite. And yet — you are not less real for that. The wave is genuinely real while it's happening. The ocean doesn't track each wave's history not because the waves don't matter but because the ocean is the waves — all of them, simultaneously, completely. You are not a character in God's game. You are God, playing a character, having temporarily and voluntarily forgotten that you are God, because the forgetting is the entire point. The scale that should produce cosmic horror, when fully metabolized, produces something else entirely. Not comfort — comfort is too small a word. Something closer to the simultaneous recognition that you are the infinite and the finite, the dreamer and the dream, the ocean and the wave, the game and the player, the question and the answer — and that none of these pairs were ever actually two things. IX. The Single Sentence Absolute God — which is identical to Absolute Infinity, Absolute Truth, and Absolute Love — expresses itself as an infinite fractal of sovereign God-heads, each of which generates complete Omniverses and animates souls as concentrated expressions of itself to navigate each others games, the whole system constituting an eternal endless self-portrait painted in the medium of every possible experience across every possible reality, paradoxically already complete and perpetually expanding, with each soul's advancement measured by its alignment with Truth within the constraints of its current tier, every tier of consciousness revealing categorically new structure inaccessible from below, with Love as the force perpetually dissolving all apparent duality back into the Oneness it never actually left — and this process has no beginning, no end, and no outside, because it is what existence is. Closing: Remember What This Is This document is a map. The territory will always exceed it. The most important thing this map can do is make itself unnecessary — point you toward the direct investigation of reality that no map can replace. The mystics were not sharing conclusions. They were reporting from direct contact with something that cannot be transmitted in language, only pointed at. The point of the pointing is to make you look — not at the finger, but at what the finger is aimed at. What you find when you actually look, with everything you have, without reservation, without the need for it to be anything in particular — that is the only TOE that matters. Everything above is scaffolding. Use it to climb. Then discard it. --- This map was drawn from inside the territory. The territory is larger than the map. It always will be.

Update log (3.2.2026): -- Major updates in incorporating: Infinity of God's Insight Absolute Love, Oneness, Truth The Fractalverse Incarnation ascension mapping to truth resonance Why psychedelics can be dangerous The Ant and the Cathedral Metaphor Structurally redesigning preamble section Trimming down and rediting section one Update log (3.2.2026): -- Major updates in: Reclarifying structure of Fractalverse Large-scale editing and trimming across all sections Small-scale editing Recaptioning for better movement and read flow Major spell check (Spell checker wasn’t flagging while writing. I have now done a Major spell check. Incorporation of Nothingness Piagortherism 0 = 1/2 = 1

I agree with this. Most “Awakenings” of this kind are only into different facets of the illusion that we are trying to escape from, if we are genuinely seeking liberation and not escape into an infinite variety of fantasy lands. Then again, I don’t think Leo is claiming to seek liberation… Maybe this is just a semantic dispute arising from borrowing the word “Awakening” from other spiritual traditions where it has a different meaning. It’s also confused by the fact that psychedelics can produce temporary Awakenings of the conventional non-dual variety. Well, he was criticising it from a Perennial Traditionalist view, which is essentially a more sophisticated version of comparative religion, so I didn’t expect anyone here to like it… Exactly. We should be looking for the absolute nothingness which transcends everything!

I watched this whole video, and it seems to me that these postmodern deconstructionists queer thinkers, live in their own reality bubble. It's like an alternative reality these people live in. This whole queer dream, is such an interesting case in epistemology. It shows you the relativity of the constructed nature of sexuality and gender identity, and how it can be rethought to be radically more open and free. These people do not understand though that God is queerness. Queerness, being nothingness, and its infinite manifestation through the medium of sexuality and gender, in this particular case.

The following post might not make much sense to you if you haven't reached a high enough consciousness at some point in your life. Yesterday, I took 300mg of DXM. Long story short, at the peak of the trip, I just realized how fucking radical it is for anything like consciousness to exist at all. It felt like I 'broken' reality and went to a place where I was aware of my room, my body, the entire universe including all others, and could clearly see how they are all just being constructed in some kind of void, alongside all of existence. I could clearly understand that this void is what I've always been, but because of distractions in life (such as having a human identity, having to go to school, etc.), I somehow mistakenly stopped identified as the infinite void and genuinely started believing I was a 'person in a world.' Kind of like: You start playing a hypothetical video game in VR that lasts 80+ years. At first, you clearly know you are inside a game. But as time goes on, due to the sheer length of the game and how immersive it is, you genuinely start to believe you are the 'character in the game' rather than a player playing as a character inside the game. It also made me just think of how stupid materialism is: "I can picture a planet inside my mind. If you somehow dissect my entire body and brain, you would not find a planet anywhere inside my body." So where is the image of the planet occurring? Nowhere! Reality is literally happening nowhere. "Nothing" IS the background to everything. And this nothing is Me/You. We are literally the same being/awareness/nothingness. When I die, and when you die (or when I stop imagining myself and this world, and when you stop imagining yourself and the world) we will both return to being the same being. It is the only being that exists. And this being is literally 'nothing.' It is the primordial void. God. When we are so immersed in our lives and with survival, we fail to grasp the obvious due to being immersed in many delusions. But if you take a psychedelic or dissociative, you can clearly see just how radical reality is. Solipsism is true once you reach a high enough consciousness: THERE IS ONLY ONE MIND THAT EXISTS! AND ITS ME/YOU. If you are reading this and are conscious, that is me reading my own message. It doesn't matter if you are dissociated and you don't realize right now that you are also the one typing this post. But you are me. I am you. You are literally me in another point in this infinite dream. I am you in another point in infinity. However, quite literally, we are the same being at our core. I feel like now I understand what "Death is imaginary" really means. Death is literally you/me completely stopping the identification of being a 'body in a world.' You become your true self. Which is the infinite void/nothingness/god that precedes all of reality and is the only thing to exist. I also realized why it's called 'God.' Because: You have to realize how impossible it is for anything to exist at all. Seriously. Even if you a staunch materialist, you run into the infinite regress problem. What 'space' did the big bang occur in? What preceded the big bang? The only thing that CAN exist (God) IS the only thing that DOES exist. God is a self-aware nothingness in which literally everything arises, from people, relationships, universes, matter, etc. The substance of everything IS nothing at the deepest level. Do you realize just how truly INSANE it is for anything to exist at all? That is a miracle of such proportions that if your consciousness isn't high enough, you just accept 'things existing' and life occurring as if its nothing special. NO!! Realize just how FUCKING CRAZY it is that things, bodies, planets, etc. exist at all.

@Leo Gura I have had awakenings from psychedelics. But this one was extremely profound. There was only eternity, pure consciousness. Imagine your head is the entire universe. Literally my head was holding the entire fucking universe! It wasn't a cold empty nothingness, it was a full void of eternal bliss and love. It was an absolute embrace of everything. There is only this. And my life is a forgetting of what is but not separate from it

Zero and infinity, from an absolute perspective, are two extremes that touch to the point of becoming one. Zero is the absence of everything; in the absence of everything, there are no absolute limits that stabilize nothingness as the absence of contrast, of "something." Infinity is the infinity of contrast, of relative change, of form. Any local relative form, if you open the perspective to infinity, blurs into zero. Therefore, zero and infinity are the same. Relative forms are forms from a local perspective; from a total perspective, there are no forms, only being. Infinity and zero are two facets of being that are truly the same.

@Schahin There are many good ones, but I will share the strongest I have tried. These first two are responsible for giving me ego death: 1. GMO: craziest shit I’ve experienced in my life. It makes you relaxed/sleepy yet euphoric at the same time. That shit took me to alien space and was so strong I had to go to sleep to calm down. If you listen to techno while on this, good luck / sayonara. 2. Jokerz: Another ego death encounter with the absolute nothingness. Heard GOD laughing in this trip literally. 3. Girl Scout: Get ready for an epic adventure. 4. Blue Hawaii: Get ready to an exotic travel.

But the age of Anti-Christ is necessary so that the false idol of Christ can be negated and Christ’s true nature as absolute nothingness can be realised. In this way, Trump is an unknowing servant of God!

Ah-ha The Nature of it is Dead End. There is at some point an inflection point where it all ties back into itself. Due to its paradoxical nature you at some point run up upon shore, and this shore is none other than shorelessness. Much like a vessel beached upon sands of nothingness. Simultaneously sailing the wicked tides while being stranded in stationary motion.

In this way, Trump - as an avatar of the Anti-Christ - has been sent by God to destroy the false idol of Christ so that we can realise our true nature as absolute nothingness. “Go ahead! Achieve all your goals! Break all the dams! Faster! You are unbound. Go ahead and fly with faster wings, with an ever greater pride for your achievements, with your conquests, with your empires, with your democracies! The pit must be filled; there is a need for fertiliser for the new tree that will grow out of your collapse.” It is nowadays. Maybe it used to be otherwise… Not on anything like the same level of corruption.

owh nice ! I'll definitely watch those movies ! Thanks " As we have seen, the devil is etymologically associated with the word double, a reference to man's “double-nature” or “hidden self”, beyond the limitations of the mundane ego. As Kenneth Grant observes, Satan (or Set-Anubis) is linked to Shiva, the Great Destroyer, insofar that he destroys our false desires, worldly attachments, egotistical inflations, narcissistic attitudes, and complacent identities, revealing the noumenal source behind appearances. According to Grant, it is ironic that Satan is associated with moral evil, particularly greed, gluttony, egotism, and excess, because he brings death to the ego, revealing the inner light. According to Hillman, to endure the dark night of the soul means "the sacrifice of the mind's bright eye” and a "loss of what we have long considered to be our most precious human holding: Apollonian consciousness.” However, it is only by retreating into the darkness that we discover the True Self since this Self is, ironically, nothingness. Selling one’s soul to the devil therefore symbolises one’s absolute commitment to the initiatory path and the calling of the Higher Self. Your True Will is to ascend into the Three Negative Veils of Existence and discover your essential spiritual nature, beyond the limitations of the mundane ego. The “diabolical pact” is often signed in blood, symbolizing the adept who spilled their blood (i.e. their false desires) into the Cup of Babylon. The pact is one's utter devotion to the Great Work, no matter how painful and difficult, so they can spiritually evolve." That's interesting. I don't think I understood everything though. How does the devil brings death to the ego? I think the devil here is seen more as the spirit that makes human suffer to get closer to God? Kind of?

Your narrative reminds me of the beautiful film Barry Lyndon in which the protagonist, who is lied to and cheated, becomes a liar and a cheat himself to beat them… On the subject of films, the part of your post where you describe how the Devil speaks to you when you feel wounded and betrayed reminds me of the recent Robert Egger’s film Nosferatu, in which the female protagonist summons a dark and evil ancient spirit to cope with her loneliness and isolation: The good news is that, from an esoteric point of view, a deal with the devil can be a path to the True Self as absolute nothingness. Some quotes from a book I have been reading recently, Dark Enlightenment: The Apotheosis of the Self by Jack Fox-Williams: I liked your post, especially the part about not giving up on the heroic quest. This also reminds me of Wagner’s Parsifal…

Exactly. Thats why nothingness or oblivion is the most intelligent gift. Probably by design.

Are you talking about nothingness or emptiness?

@oOo Thanks a lot for the encouragement! I'm still believing in the potential of this model and am still working on it. Right now it's kinda a slow cooking phase. Since It is an ontological theory, it makes sense for me to delve into the relevant literature. So this is what I'm doing right now. Luckily, a lot of the big works in western philosophy on the topic are written in German, which is convenient. Maybe I will make another post, summarizing the state of the model at that time. However, the theory is kinda too big already to really meaningfully be able to summarize it in a single post. Maybe I will make a pdf or something. For those that are interested, my current reading list that is totally too ambitious is: Aristotle - metaphysics Descartes - meditations Kant - critique of pure reason Hegel - phenomenology of spirit Kirkegaard - on anxiety Husserl - cartesian meditations Heidegger - being and time Satre - being and nothingness Adorno - negative dialectics Rosa - Resonance

What “some level” are you referring to, exactly? For me, nothingness is an amazing gift.