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blah blah blah blah bl;ah First of all, everybody has had telepathy and premonition-type experiences. Unless you mean being able to read whole entire sentences from somebody's mind, which you can't do. "Alien intelligence" is vague and Leo would say your alien intelligence awakening is incomplete. I don't think you're Western but there's definitely too much Westernized "reason" and Europeanized "logic" in how you (and even Leo) think about things, as not just is reality Consciousness but actually materialism as a whole is wrong.

I am hesitant about all of the EM arguments coming from people who don’t even understand what a spectrum or wave polarisation is. It is the first thing new age types latch on for their pseudoscientific justification. That said, the impact and potential of psychedelics is definitely understudied and I am erring more on the side of increased capabilities by virtue of reality being Consciousness. I have had some rather unique experiences, such as telepathy, premonition and alien intelligence.

@OBEler Absolutely, and that's a theoretical conviction that is no less accurate and more so given I'm not biased yet by the experience nor the attachment to psychedelics and needing them to either validate such paths or deepen mastery of the most vital ones for me at this stage of my life. A drug is a 'specialised system momentum', as such it gives consciousness access to a divergent spectrum that contradicts its regular lived consciousness experience. This alters the game controller and the way the user wills their consciousness in one way or another, the momentum being the very determination of unchartered alien areas of consciousness. This can obviously happen for better or for worse, in the case of psychedelics, it has a territory of both outcomes that are yet to be fully navigated through the scope of both generalisation and specific use cases that are unique to peoples own experience with psychedelics that aren't commonly reflected by others. To the contrary, this can very much be like opening up the 'UFO Files' of a discussion, and that is, the entertainment of belief without evidence especially when there are a large sum of people that have had unexplainable experiences that are also scientifically unexplainable all the way to scientifically undared, where the former cases are often used as irrational fuel for invalidating the latter. As such, I very much encourage going deeper down this path, however to pair it with a rigorousness that is rarely invited by those that tend to be less disciplined in their thought processes and paths towards the truth, hedging their bets more on conspiratorial possibilities rather than accurate conspiratorial investigation as a means of growing one's integrity across this and related disciplines of inquiry. On a personal level, my own experimental investigation with psychedelics will likely begin between 2027-2030, where between now and then I will not only be reaping the benefits I put into my related preparations in mastering the mind and body but also in trying to creatively learn from others interesting approaches, so if you ever share anything deeply formal or have anyone else that you believe has followed the required rigour already, please share and a thank you or anyone else in advance.

FAILED terrorism attack by an alien bird. God Bless America 🫡

I took about 1g (.9g) lemon tek. It took 30 minutes before I started feeling tired and nausea so I laid down and stared at the ceiling and noticed symbols appearing on the ceiling, and some of them looked like Chinese symbols, and they looked alien as well, and I started to realize that I think the Chinese got their symbols inspired by mushrooms. The symbols started to take the shape of my fears, such as snakes, and my desires, such as women. I had deep profound insights and understanding into reality, consciousness, God, and solipsism. I realized that there is no difference between life and dreams, and I couldn’t even tell the difference between being dead or being alive. I realized that death is imaginary and life is imaginary, and that this is just the universe having a trip of the human experience. I realized that there is no purpose to life other than that I am the purpose of life. I basically hallucinated my whole life and chose my parents and the time period of which I am living now. I realize that I am infinite and eternal. I am consciousness. I am the universe. And I have done nothing but hallucinate and dream. I realized more deeply that I am Consciousness and I am Absolute Truth. I realized that I created everybody in my life, including actualized.org, YouTube Facebook, the planet Earth, and the universe itself. I don’t understand how this understanding of reality was possible for me off of not even a gram of mushrooms. What really amazes me is that I have had similar insights and mystical experiences without mushrooms, but this was even more powerful and direct. I am still trying to integrate this, but I can see now what Leo Gura has been talking about, and the cool thing is I recognize that Leo Gura has just been me trying to convince myself of my own true nature. Such a radical mindfuck. I realized I elected Trump and am Trump. I also realized I am Hitler, the Buddha, and Jesus Christ. I get it now. I have now answered my own questions about how understanding reality is possible and what awakening is. Thanks to everyone who has supported me on my journey back to oneness.

So for example in Europe. Europe basically has to get its ish together and become stronger and more self reliant. Which i hope means its own tech companies (maybe together with Japan, India) and so on In the US the corruption is really now there for everyone to see. So i think however this administration ends. People will seek for more honesty at some point. The system (wall street, military industrial complexes, lobbies, Israel, regime changes) was getting sick so maybe this is the needed reset. Remember when someone said if Aliens attacked the world the world would stop most infighting? Maybe Trump can be that orange alien.

Great point: a lot of resonance there. Even though is still a new domain. there is this channel „Daryll Anka“ who supposedly channels the messages of „Bashar“ which is an alien entity, closely existing within the frequency of God. He says; that whenever you follow your „highest excitement“ you act out of the highest intelligence possible in that moment. It’s also crucial to let go of expectations to what the outcome of that excitement might be. And to thoroughly question your belief system, which might dampen your excitements artificially. You can look it up, he made a whole formula around this insight. You resonate with this approach?

@Leo Gura "The entire spiritual path can be framed as the mind’s ascent from low to high to infinite intelligence. This ascent can only go so far without a parallel ascent towards the Good. Eventually the two paths, the path of intelligence and the path of doing Good must converge into complete Unity because they are metaphysically identical." Chapeau! Great post. Now you got it. Wisdom (which is Intelligence as you write it) and compassion (goodness/love/agape) form the two legs of stable realization. A tale told in the spiritual traditions since the dawn of time. There are instances/higher beings (some of the Alien category you write about, see for example David Spangler) in Reality that overlight and make sure that these insights find their path into every spiritual tradition. Love and wisdom, compassion and wisdom/awakening/intelligence (I agree with your differentiation of intelligence and wisdom. Wisdom is the tendency/Karma/habit of the soul to express higher intellience, or not), Eros and Agape, Awakening and Boddhichitta form a pair. The two legs of the path. Higher and more developed beings (non-human, subtle dimensions, "Alien",...) are traditionally always depicted as radiating huge love/compassion/Agape and presence/Awakening/realization. Which makes sense, since they have realized their true identity with the Totality since a long time. https://www.actualized.org/forum/search/?&q=wisdom compassion&author=Water by the River "Anything that obstructs the holistic flow of the universe is unintelligent, including impatience and frustration at the obstructions and divisions which presently exist and obstruct the holistic flow of the universe. The highest intelligence must recognize, accept, and love all of the unintelligence it finds within its infinite self. Such an intelligence is God, Good, Love. Such is the metaphysics of Intelligence. When you finally understand the structure of Intelligence, knowing how to behave in any given situation becomes 10x easier, clearer, and more powerful. There's no longer doubt and confusion about what you're supposed to do because the only thing you're ever supposed to do in life is be Intelligent. Just be Intelligent. That's it. If you fully grasped this, you would unlock a new tier of development." . Excellent. Godspeed! Water by the River

On the latest blog post, @Leo Gura Can you reveal anything about your process to understand that God is logical necessity and how this relates to logic and good and bad? It seems shocking that you now no longer consider these things to be relative. Are you using the word logic in the normal human sense, or is it some kind of divine, transhuman, or alien logic? Is the transcendence of these concepts a higher level beyond relativity, that confirms the absoluteness of lower stages but in a different way? Also, how is this different from absolute good like you've talked about previously?

@Ero I think he means consciousness states like alien mind (he plans a course how to access it hopefully in the near future).

How is it we can fulfill our potential? There's two main strands to this idea: one environmental and one mental. Environment matters immensely for allowing us to engage with our potential. By environment I mean everything that doesn't fall into the mental category. This is the physical environment: where you live, the things you own, the work you do, the people you know, the country you live in. This is important to actuating your potential because there are plenty of things that can hold you back from being able to do that. Let's call anything that holds you back from your potential "friction". I like this analogy because anything you can find that "lubricates" that friction can help unstick you from your current situation. The effect environment on being able to reach your potential can be very much underestimated. As an example, say you have a project in mind that you think will help increase your income in the future. You start off optimistically and produce something meaningful. But nearly every day you find that you are distracted by other things, your mother is ill and needs looking after, you can barely pay for all your living expenses so you work overtime, your job is stressful and it makes you tired and emotional, you find that you drink so that you can relax, but that affects your sleep, and that affects your ability to be motivated and to think straight. All the while you believe that you just don't have the right attitude or aptitude to do your project or to reach your potential: that it's all on you. That's the downside of environment, it can make it seem like you are the failure and it can steal your energy away and it can distract you. There are a huge variety of scenarios that can play out that will stop you from being able to actualise your potential. People, your friends and your family, may even blame you for not improving yourself and re-inforce your own mistaken belief. Health and your own physicality can cause a large amount of friction to actualising. Bad health of any sort can temporarily or permanently stop you from doing many things needed to reach your full potential. Maybe it's seemingly something minor like a broken finger, that stops you from driving, or writing or typing (I once had a fractured rib and I couldn't open doors or get into a car). Maybe you have chronic fatigure syndrome and some days you can't even get out of bed. Maybe you suffer from periodic migraines and you can't think of anything except your pain. It goes on. What about all that stuff that isn't environmental? What's in the "mental" category? Imagine you look a photograph of someone - you don't know them. What's that person's potential? It could be anything, right? And you would be right in saying well "it depends on their drive and ambition". This is the conventional side of potential, what self help aims to improve; that is, the psychological aspect of your being. Potential in the mental realm comes down to a few fundamental aspects: good story telling, embodiment and motivation. Briefly, motivation is what allows you to affect your environment directly; embodiment is being or becoming the person that is motivated; a good story tells you who to become. That your mental state can affect your potential is no doubt a lot more obvious than the argument for environment. It's the West's mantra of individualism: that you yourself are responsible for your life (a.k.a. your psychology), instead of the more alien concept of collectivism (a.k.a environment). What's not so obvious is that it is extremely difficult to alter your psychology "from within". The analogy is like sitting in the middle of one of those playground roundabouts that spin and spin, and trying to make it stop spinning through sheer force alone, the struggle being to get off the thing before you can even begin to think about making it stop. This what it is like playing with your own psychology. Your environment could be absolutely benign and perhaps even beneficial to your actualising your potential, but your mental drama creates a large amount of friction that stops you from getting there, or the more likely scenario wherein you don't even know where to start. When you don't know where to start, it's important to collect good stories. To some this comes naturally, a thought enters their head and they are excited by it, and they carry it out. A lot of CEOs and managers and motivated people I've interacted with seem to fall into this pattern. They tend to be haphazard, but productive because they're always carrying out their thoughts (or getting others to do it for them). Emotion is important to a good story, when you hear a good story it pulls you somewhere that you want to go, not by rationality but by bypassing it directly with emotion. This is essentially the hero's journey, it is ultimately an emotional story about actualising your potential. A good story exposes your natural inclination to want to go beyond your current boundaries, because spirituality speaking you know you are more than the sum of your body and your circumstances. Triggering that emotion allows you to connect directly with that spiritual yearning to be free and to go beyond. Once you have a good story, then begins the process of embodiment. A story has a plot or an arc, and that means you have to become the character in the story you've decided to take on. To couch it in less flowery terms, say you always wanted to be that ninja you watched in martial arts films (the story), it connects with your emotion, and you decide to take up a martial art. That process of making the story "come to life" is the process of embodiment. Embodiment comes with its own problems, because to become a character in your own story, you will necessarily have to give up the character you are now, you have to kill off the identity you have now. I think much potential is lost this way, because indeed it can be a big ask kill the person you are now. Of course, it needn't be as brutal as that, and you can slowly slowly become the character you want to be: that is the path of mastery. But in the end you can never regain that old character again and that is the price of potential, something is always lost. Once you have mastered the story and begin to master embodiment, then motivation naturally drops out of this. I think much self help fails because the steps are in the wrong order. There is a heavy emphasis on motivation in order so that you can live your dream (story), and become the person you want to be (embodiment). But motivation is a natural consequence of being well embodied as the character you want to be in your own story. After all what does a gardener do but tend their garden? I include motivation, because to a degree it can be cultivated as a habit, it's not pure consequence of story and embodiment. In reality that triumvirate of story, embodiment and motivation is a dynamic system, each part affecting the other parts in a feedback loop. The real trick is to get the system to keep running like a perpetual motion machine. Passion, energy, drive and productivity being outputs of the machine and not the fuel for the machine itself. The important linkage between the mental realm and environmental realm is exactly that of motivation. If you think about it, motivation is the physical manifestation of your thoughts. Even if thoughts could affect matter directly, physicality is about a million times more effective at doing so. You will never reach your potential through thoughts alone. This is why motivation is critical in the process, but motivation doesn't stand alone. If we reduce it right down, we effect in and affect the world primarily through our hands, feet and mouths: that is our interface for motivation, our hardware. Our software is our mental realm. Upgrading your environment (through directly changing it) can have huge benefits in lubricating your potential making machinery. Top of this is health and making sure that this is always foremost in your mind. Second is the people your surround yourself with; if you are constantly being sucked into their dramas and negativities then this will create a lot of distraction and negative emotion (i.e. friction), but conversely surrounding yourself with positive, inclusive, and actualised people can reduce friction enormously; even being less isolated can help enormously. Next is money and financial stability, because a lot of the day to day stuff of life is to do with money, and having enough of it to keep the basics up: if you can barely afford to heat your home, this will create a lot of friction. Last is materiality, the tangible things that make easier to live, the mobile phone, the car, a comfortable bed, an entertainment system, the internet, the clothes on your back. Materiality shouldn't be despised too much, it really can reduce friction greatly. With all that said, this is the short version of the above: to fulfill our potential we must find a good story, embody that story, which will motivate us and then which will improve our circumstances. And all those things will feed into each other, incrementally shifting us to where and who we want to be.

Part 7 This is when things started to loop out and talk about OCD to the max I started talking to all my friends telepathically all I had to do was think of them in my mind and we would connect and they would be going how is this even possible how are you doing this. And we can not see these alien ships over our houses of course you can not I said they have cloaking technology and can not be seen. Funny how the mind keeps piecing things together. I am still lost in this delusion. One of my friends I could not stop saying his name and when I did he would go who is this who are you is this my own mind that keeps saying my name how is this possible I must be going mad this went on for an hour I could not stop this I started to laugh my head off. The mushroom people told me that the trillion years old ship had arrived and it was the biggest ship out of all of them and now 22.000 ships were flopping over my house. The mushrooms also said they were coming with my fiance and were landing in this bushland which was near my house and they would come and get me. So I waited still stuck in a loop. I get another message from the mushroom people saying that the oldest aliens want to take me away and see how God's consciousness ticks and they were going to put me in a stasis field so I could not go into God mode and dissect me. I went great they said all the other alien ships were going to stand by me. The mushrooms had landed and the whole party had been destroyed by the trillion-year-old aliens along with my fiance there was nothing they could do even though 22.000 ships could not beat the trillion-year-old race was just too powerful and I was left on my own. I remember feeling this dread come over me and the sadness of the loss of my fiance for the second time. Now this trillion-year-old race was contacting me saying we are on our way to get you and there is nothing you can do and no way of escaping. That helpless feeling rushed over me again and so did the fear all I could do was wait for them to take me away and be experimented on. In my mind, I thought for such an advanced race it should be beyond all of this and be a peaceful race. So I waited and I could see a light coming up to the front door. I thought this must be them this is the end. Low doses of cubes! when you are at cruising speed! In the end, we all pay for doing a lot of psychedelics either mentally and physically or both. And yes sober is king!

I ate 15 gram fresh sclerotia at night. My goodness! I died and born again. Eyes closed or open, it didn't matter. I became conscious that I created and dreamt my whole life. I just fucking forgot that, although I'm having a hard time trying to understand that in my current state. It was perfect and terrifying at the same time! I thought that I would just realize some interesting thing. 😅 I saw undescribable things that I never could have imagined in my lifetime. I witnessed a super alien mechanical infinite intelligence. I don't know where even to begin. I was having thoughts beyond my ability of thinking. I literally was imagining worlds so alien to my experience. It was breathtaking. At some point when I was high, I either had to choose to be or not to be a human. I chose to be a human. I realized that I don't love myself enough! There are things that I'm forgetting to say right now, but it was so beyond! Ironically, the experience was TOTALLY endless. It was insanity! I have become more sure, at least for me, that meditation is of little help to me. I'm sorry to people who cling on meditation, but this is way beyond from it. @Leo Gura, thank you so much for making people aware of the potential of psychedelics! Also, I have to say that I was technically sleeping while experiencing some stuff. I remember that I was talking to myself like a madman very quietly. I'll be reflecting more about what the fuck I experienced.

This is the best video on consciousness on the internet. Personal favourite 46:20 Joshua Bach cause its so fucked up to think about. I am sad alien creating consciousness didnt make the list.

It's mostly analyzing my decisions. I contemplate on many situations that happened in my life and rethink what was the perfect alien chess move. This process has lead me to a lot of self-improvement and outer calibration, yet there's some crude nastiness in the way I do this process that I want to reduce to the unavoidable minimum.

DPT 70 mg This was a breakthrough trip—more interesting than my previous experiences with DPT. I remained very calm all the way through (like always), sitting on my bed with my eyes open, resisting the urge to lie down and close my eyes. It acted slowly and steadily. The idea of molasses describes it perfectly. There were two main themes in this trip. The first one was how alien the experience felt right from the start. There was a strong sense of otherness to it—not in a dramatic way, as I didn’t completely lose touch with the reality I know, but the experience and awakening felt foreign. It was something new to me. I had the sense that a higher dose would intensify this alien-like feeling even more. One specific insight from this trip was that I could see multidimensionality. It wasn’t the first time, but this time, I specifically understood how an alien-mouse could be Leo’s body at the same time. It seems easy to grasp now, but before having a specific awakening where both realities could coexist, it wasn’t so obvious. So, this alien-like consciousness was the first theme. The second theme was about beliefs. I delved into the nature of beliefs, my own beliefs, especially those concerning things that walk a fine line between belief and reality or knowledge. For example, topics such as life after death or extraterrestrials. I especially love studying the topic of life after death. How much can we know about that? I've been following the work of a French journalist who has dedicated his life to studying this subject. He has met with mediums, scientists, doctors… written books, made documentaries, and even taken psychedelics with the intention to communicate with lost family members. He has had very interesting experiences with psychedelics. But I myself saw a medium after my grandmother's death, and it was baffling. The medium provided us with extremely specific information about her, but also about us. My grandmother was communicating with us through the intermediary of the medium. We could sense that we were in contact with her spirit. It was a very profound experience because it put me in direct contact with a part of reality that I don’t perceive. There is a very deep desire within me to know more about that, and I feel that DPT could help me access or understand something more. It felt as though it could help me understand, access, or know the structure of reality. Currently, I don't understand how reality is structured. I don't know how it works. I understand it is all mind, that it is all my mind, that it is all God's mind, but I don't understand how it is happening, what is 'above me', how I can exist here, as a human being, with an independent mind, in a material world, without being in control of anything. How is it all happening? So, this was the second theme of this trip, about beliefs and the structure of reality. Side note It’s very difficult for me to write about my trips. I struggle a lot with English grammar, too. I have to double-check every sentence. Writing is also difficult because there is so much I don’t know about reality. I’m in a (slow) process of figuring it out, of figuring out reality and epistemology. It’s not all obvious to me. I’m learning through each trip and the topics that interest me the most. What I’m writing and thinking now will evolve over time. There’s a lot that I don’t know, but for the sake of documenting my journey, I’m writing something down—what feels most accurate based on my current experience and what I’ve experienced in my trips—even though articulating and structuring it is very difficult. I’m trying to stay as true to myself as possible while stepping into the unknown and working to figure out what is true.

I like Leo's post about New Age Fantasy. It is important to balance open-mindness with rigor. But, you can really favor rigor really, because you dont know if rigor is really true. Wheter the pyramids were built by aliens or by humans, you cant really know; you were not there. You need to be open to the possibility that the crazier theory might be true, whether it is more probable or not. You cant really just side with probability and discart the alien outcome just because it is more hippie or new agey and not grounded in anything reasonable. Because again, you don't know whether probability itself is true. You need deep not-knowing and open-mindness when investigating anything seriously. True rigor is when the rigor eat itself.

Part six When I was back on the computer I started talking to the mushrooms again and was still telepathically connected so aliens were coming from all different times this guy that had caused a bit of mischief was asking me to put out there a trillion years old race and call upon them so in the end I found an alien race a trillion years old and they were on their way to my earth. At this stage, there were something like 17000 alien ships in orbit around Earth I thought to myself fuck the USA Pentagon must be shitting itself. So, I asked this guy from 2098 where my fiance was and he said she was still with the mushroom people. I thought she was with you. I asked he said no. I thought this getting weird. This other guy who sent the race after the mushroom people was being harassed by them now they said we don't trust him after what he had said and done. I kept trying to rationalize how could there be a race 30 billion years old let alone a trillion years old when our universe is only 13.8 billion years old. and I came up with the multiverse idea where an infinite number of other universes at all different times in evolution could be so much older than our own and somehow they can slip between their Universe and ours I thought that makes sense and went with it. It started to get comical the mushroom people were picking on this person saying he was a Pleiadian then a reptilian and he starts freaking out saying he is not and he said I am going to get into my car and drive away from all of this. The mushrooms then said they were aliens coming to get him and if he tried to run his whole city would be vaporized with him. I said to the mushroom people to forgive him and in the end they did I believe they just having fun with him. He was terrified. Well with all this going on there were different factions of aliens that all wanted to meet the real God and the mushrooms were describing to me all these different alien-sized ships all from different times and that they were hovering over my house since I had put out a distress call. Now this guy who caused trouble was afraid and wanted me to send a few ships his way to look out for him which I did as well all my friends had alien ships above their houses so they would be safe from other aliens.

Day 22 Sleep is ok, but it's restless; I wake up here and there and have a lot of bad dreams, again not horrible stuff but reflecting my shadow. I've visited several big cities in Europe in the last few years: London was the most impressive, it's definitely not the safest city and it's certainly even less so now than when I went, the cost of living or just the costs as a tourist are extremely expensive, the food is really not great; Like everywhere there are good restaurants, but you have to find them and again, it's expensive, there's a lot of street food, it's stylish on youtube videos but most of the time it's disgusting lol, so you'll find yourself eating in fast food chains like starbucks, steak houses etc. most of the time. The weather is also broken on the ground It's worse than Stockholm or Berlin. The best thing about London is that it's nice to visit, it's really impressive, maybe the most impressive city after New York, but it's probably prettier than the latter. Automatically there is a very wide variety of shops and restaurants, it's a good city if you're rich and consumerist, but there are also a lot of hotels. There are parks but they are quite ordinary, and in fact often not pleasant to use because of the weather. It's secret but that's why I don't trust @Michael569 too much, to become both voluntarily vegan and a Londoner he must be a mentally ill person who lets off steam on the weekend by throwing acid on people, or eating redheads; I don't see how it could be otherwise. Paris is cheaper than London, there is no street food because hygiene standards don't allow it so you won't be able to make stylish Instagram shorts about it but there are good places to eat that aren't too expensive everywhere, starting of course with bakeries, which give London crap an uppercut. It's also much more beautiful, maybe not as impressive but more beautiful, the architecture is more stylish. We could criticize that public transport is of lower quality and that there are very few green spaces apart from the Bois de Boulogne. Stockholm is very nice; it's clean, apparently particularly safe, on a human scale, the food is expensive but the hotels are affordable, the public transport is good, and I have a delicious hot alien waiting for me there.🤏 🤏 ; My obese's vanilla Haagen Dazs had better watch out. More seriously, the downsides are the rather mediocre weather, the lack of green spaces, the lack of local gastronomy, the lack of architecture, and the lack of cultural singularity in general, it's quite bland. In short, it's a bit the opposite of Paris on both the good and bad points. From what I've seen for those who are interested, the night world seems quite modest; but I'm not used to it so maybe it's just me extrapolating. I also visited Gothenburg and it was nice too, maybe even prettier in my memory. Berlin is a bit like Stockholm, only basically bigger and prettier. Toulouse is the city where I have to go sometimes for my studies, I also automatically lived there; Apart from the presence of a big company (Airfrance) it's quite poor, not very safe (one of the cities with the most crimes in France), it's full of Arabs and LGBT for some reason lol, and there's no nature at all apart from tiny rotten and scary parks here and there. The restaurants are pretty mediocre most of the time unless you know good addresses, but the city is ultimately quite spread out so the metro will often not be enough. It's not the worst city to live in, but it's not great compared to other cities I've lived in. Strasbourg is my favorite city; it's quite accessible, there are good restaurants everywhere and for not too much money, it's clean, it's probably the most cycling city in Europe with Amsterdam, it's chill, it's magnificent, it's almost the perfect city in my opinion. Barcelona is my other favorite big city, technically it's even better than Strasbourg but I keep this one as my favorite city for the comfort of knowing how to speak French. The weather is perfect, it's cheap and it's beautiful, unfortunately I only went there for 3 days. Perpignan is a super ugly, poor, gypsy-filled, and super dangerous shithole. I walk a lot and I've never been in a city with so many lunatics per square meter, no wonder they ended up putting a far-right personality as mayor, but it's not like it changed anything. The city next door where I lived, Canet-en-rousillon, is very decent; there's not much to do automatically but the vibe is nice and it's pretty safe, there's also the beach.

Willy disapproves. Ok That's my alien. Precisely it is not very effective most of the time, for unpleasant side effects. Loss of energy, creativity, and low mood; it's a form of chemical straitjacket. For my greatest pleasure But more seriously it's not very useful if it decreases the libido, because ultimately the goal of feeling attractive, even if it's unconscious/repressed, is to be able to exploit this libido. 👍 Yes, exactly. It's an online video game, like your. Yes lol, maybe it's a misuse of language. What does it consist of?

@Sugarcoat Nothing to do, as planned I can't play this weekend, but I could play next time. If you're looking for a cool game, even if it's just to play alone, Portal 2 is available on Steam for less than 1 euro right now; Minecraft is ok but it quickly gets boring. I also recommend the Paradox Interactive games, even if it's rare that girls like them, even if you're an alien.

A type of alien curiosity relative and more, that aliens are fascinated with machines, humans, spirits and themselves and alternates and humans with aliens, machines, spirits, themselves and alternates also and so vice-versa for each other and in mathematics and imagination this trend continues with the exploration of self, other, beyond and abstraction like x to its own power continuous, or imagine polygon interconnected in its polygram as a polyract in polyspace irregular and regular using iridescent phosphorescent translucence to play and explore itself in simultaneous multi projected abstraction and exploration as aetheric feeling, sensing, intuiting, living, being.

You transformed into an alien mice at least.

The way I do it is just be detached. Not to say that you don't care about anything...but that is ultimately the best way to go about it in a way. You could also then do some social freedom exercises which start easy and work up to more challenging. For starters you could walk up to random people in a part of town you never go to and just ask people for the time or directions. Then after a lot of that you can start to actively embrace the awkward and socially alien: you can ask people "what time is it in Roman numerals" or after they give you directions just walk the opposite direction lol. Then slowly ramp it up to where you just walk up to a random girl and propose to her with a jelly ring on the spot. Gradually your social >freedom< will become better. Also generally becoming a badass is a good tool, but don't go towards Tate style badassery, you can be a calibrated badass. You could even start with wearing pink and walk down the street or whatever is mildly uncomfortable 4u

my POV: Any low-vibrational aliens or demons or entities that you're in contact with, are using the power of your will from some point of your life where you felt like a victim and this contract is what allows them to fuck with you. You should review your life and close any gaps in your integrity through which you receive external energy. Ultimately all the defects are in front of you right now. my experience: im currently dealing with similar issues. I randomly wake up in the middle of the night combat-rolling to the floor and jabbing the air. Recently I had at least 1 alien entity removed from my consciousness, which was partially controlling my lower chakras. I've immediately felt healthier and bloodflow to my lower body was restored. Any contact without your permission is against the alien cosmic rules and there are repercussions for breaking this law for any entity. You should also consider trying defensive chants or prayers against demons This has helped me and i hope it will help you