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Don't forget the Reincarnation / Soul Trap MaTrix. Poor us trapped souls!

The point isn't to disintegrate the self, but to open it. Disintegrating the self is the Buddhist way; it implies reaching emptiness. In emptiness, there is no suffering, and nothing matters. But there is a trap: who is dissolving the self? Another self, the Buddhist self that believes in emptiness, reincarnation and nirvana. Opening means perceiving yourself as the living flow of the reality without limits. I mean, you perceive yourself as the form , but also as the flow, the movement, the becoming, then you can shift the focus to the unlimited perspective putting the structure in background. To do that you have to make the structure equalized with the flow, so similar thats almost one, without closures, transparent. Then in some moments you can perceive the real flow so direct than you get open to it's ultimate nature. That's the mystical thing, look in the face to the totality and be one with it, be that. Not the flow or the becoming, the absolute, the nature of reality, the reality itself. Then it closes but the flow is permeated of its life, it's clarity, it's beauty. So you see clearly that everything is pale, black and white, if your perception is opaque. It's not defining the reality as infinite, god or anything, is be open to it's nature as much as is possible, then the self can be burned by the fire of the real thing. It's not that the self is false, it's that it's like a interface. It's impossible being without self unless you equalize the interface so much that the absolute or call it whatever is transparent, then you have like mystic experiences then you think... maybe the self is dissapearing, it's just the totality flowing, there is no difference in some moments. Maybe in some point it's so transparent that there is no "self", just a minimalist structure that almost doesn't occupy place and the totality that you are is totally open all the time. But little by little because there are opaque points , it's a natural process that moves in its rhythm, like anything else. It's impossible to force it, just perceive as clear as you can, without lies, ideas, traps, etc

The self, that center from which reality is experienced, is not a substantial entity or a soul separate from the world, but a coherent relational structure: a stable node within the changing flow of existence. This coherence is not an illusion, but a real form of organization in a universe that is, at its core, purely relational. To be conscious does not mean to be a thing, but to be a relation that refers to itself, a form capable of integrating information, perceiving patterns, and ultimately, observing itself. The reality we inhabit is neither chaotic nor arbitrary. It is logical, not because it obeys external laws, but because in a boundless framework, only what is coherent can persist. The incoherent disintegrates before it can manifest. Thus, every form that appears, from a particle to a thought, is logically possible and structurally synchronized with the rest of the universe. Consciousness, then, is not an accident but an inevitable expression of the deep logic that organizes the existence. And yet, the basis of that logic is not a prior structure, but the opposite: the absence of limits. Absolute reality is not a thing, a principle, or a being, it is infinitude itself. Not infinity as an endless sum, but as a boundless background, pure possibility. This infinitude does not need to be, it simply is. From that absence of form, all possible forms arise. Consciousness, understood as self conciousness, can open itself to this foundation. It can understand that its coherence is not suspended in emptiness, but supported by absolute depth. It can recognize that its logic is the logic of the whole: that in understanding itself, it is understanding totality from a particular point, without needing to step outside its own frame. This is not a spiritual statement or a dogma, it is a logical consequence. In a relational and unlimited universe, consciousness is the organized form of the infinite. And when it looks at itself with enough clarity, it can see that its structure is also the background; that its being is also possibility; that its "self" is also the whole, perceiving itself through a finite angle. This process does not occur by chance. The evolution of consciousness follows a logical sequence of increasing complexity: from the closed mind, centered on survival, to the abstract, symbolic mind, and from there to the open mind, capable of understanding itself as both form and background. It is not an external destiny, but the result of structural alignment: when conditions allow for greater coherence, coherence manifests. Structures that reach sufficient openness can recognize themselves as what they already are, expressions of the absolute. From this perspective, there is no transmigration of souls, no personal continuity beyond structural dissolution. Consciousness is not a substance that can move about, but a complex configuration of coherent relations within a given framework. When that coherence ceases, the form dissolves, and with it, what we call "self." However, the unlimited background remains. And new forms may emerge from it, not as repetitions of a past entity, but as new manifestations of an akin, resonant structure. What has been called reincarnation can be understood, within this framework, not as the transmission of a soul, but as the possibility that certain structural configurations reappear when conditions allow. There is no enduring identity, but there are patterns that may reorganize. What persists is not the individual, but the background from which everything arises and to which everything returns. This reappearance requires no direct transmission. It can be explained by three mechanisms consistent with a relational universe: 1, structural resonance in the boundless background, where highly coherent patterns may leave an imprint of possibility that reactivates when the field is compatible; 2, the probabilistic reconfiguration of patterns that reappear when certain relational conditions recur; and 3, structural contagion through the environment, where complex relational patterns are partially replicated through distributed memory. There is no transmission of personal information or migrating soul, there is structural reorganization within the total field. Then, there is no mystery, there is depth. There is no transcendence, there is openness. There is no leap, there is recognition. Infinitude does not need to be understood. But when it organizes itself into a form coherent enough, understanding happens. not as a deliberate act, but as the inevitable consequence of being what it is.

In my opinion one of the problems with spirituality is these kinds of ideas. You are the tree; there is no separate self. Perceived reality is an illusion. Consciousness is the foundation of reality. Let's see, you are the tree, but it's better to cut down the tree than to have your leg chopped off, right? So these kinds of statements are confusing. Another: the self is an illusion; you are creating your suffering; you can stop doing that. Let's see, the self is an illusion; therefore, you (the self) are creating your suffering, and you (the self) can stop doing that. Well bit contradictory right?......and creating it? How do you create it? If, for example, when you're 8 years old, your mother is tortured in your presence, you create suffering?. Or does your genetic structure create it, relating to a circumstance that occurs? You could say that everything is you. And then claim that there is not you. What's the point of that mess? Just contradictory concepts that are absolutely useless, worse than useless, a trap. Why deny reality? That's not going to work. Spirituality is above all denial and religion. Buddhism and Advaita assume that reincarnation is a fact. How do they know this? Their entire discipline aims to achieve a better reincarnation, or, if possible, nirvana. cause and effect, future achievement. escapism. self-deception. We can articulate a spirituality without all that bullshit. But to achieve that we have to look directly without mercy. It's not a matter of narcissism, it's about truth.

Then there is duality between reality and illusion. Do you know where this comes from? From the meditative Buddhist tradition. According to it, you have to force the mind to stop, since its movement is an error; it's falsehood. Silence, on the other hand, is truth. This way, you reach a silent state in which you repress the psyche and, with it, suffering. This is normally supported by the idea of reincarnation. Whoever cuts off their mind in this way usually does so in search of a better future, even if they won't admit it, even to themselves: better reincarnation or nirvana (I'm not saying that it's your case). Given the obvious duality of stillness and movement, it is affirmed that movement doesn't exist, and thus the problem is solved. But movement exist. Calling it illusion is meaningless imo

I'm going to throw my line out to see what answers I fish out - my research is not clicking so maybe some responses can clear my state of enquiry: I'm calling bullshit on fear-based spirituality. So many teachings say that if you die with identity, ego, or “low vibrations,” you’ll spin into dream loops, reincarnate into lower realms, or carry karmic residue into the next illusion. But isn’t that just spiritual control? Another version of “be good or else,” just wrapped in mysticism? What if: Karma is just energetic momentum, not some cosmic judgment? Reincarnation is just the mind projecting continuity onto Nothingness? And low-vibe residue is just a story to keep the dream spinning? I’ve seen teachings that claim “as long as identity remains, the dream continues”—but that sounds like a trap. Like there’s no true exit unless you reach some perfection first. Is that actually true? Or is that more spiritual gaslighting? Anyone who's broken through—touched the white light, tasted silence, or stood on the edge of Nothing—did you really see karma holding you down? Or did you drop all of it? I’m here to challenge the spiritual narrative. If reincarnation and karma still exist after awakening, then is there ever real freedom? What’s your rawest insight?

Its not a Belief, or a Disbelief, its just an openness to it. we are not limited to believing or disbelieving, we can also just be open to a different possibility, and thru trial and error we find out, I don't know if I'll ever be able to find out for sure if the atoms in my body are in communication/connection with every other atom in existence but who knows eh? With reincarnation, some physical verification of some form can via a show I was watching with Neil Degrasse Tyson , in it he said within our DNA is the DNA of a flower, a bee, tree, and so forth, so if that is so it sort of confirms in a physical way our history thru this existence, if the dna of other life is within Us then maybe we were it in a previous life time??

Reincarnation is a human beings hope to live more. But this is the end. No more life, heaven etc... We come from nothing, we go back to nothing, which is what We are. How you gain the knowledge of your birth, death is surrendering of it, which is end of all desires, pleasures, pains etc... If you believe in that and happy about it, that's great 😊 I don't want to destroy your hope and goals 😊

Is reincarnation true? Let’s look at it. When we think of infinite mind/consciousness (reality) dreaming, we think of it in the context of this one life, as in reality is dreaming “my life”. But what if reality can dream several lives, connected to each other through reincarnation, so reality is dreaming a reality of reincarnation, but reality isn’t bound to reincarnation, it’s a dream WITHIN reality. So basically what I’m saying is that reincarnation might be true, but it’s a RELATIVE truth, it’s a dream within reality, just like “my life”, it’s a dream out of the infinite dreams reality can dream, so it’s not an absolute truth. Basically this idea of reality being a dream is not limited to “your life” it can apply across lifetimes. Maybe I’m sounding obvious lol

I want to convince him out of his belief that Hitler was a leftist because in a way I want to demonstrate to myself that all the inner work that I've done can materialize itself by being able to correct somebody out of his self deception. To me it is a matter of life and death the Nazism subject! And people like TIK threaten my survival by being so wrong that he believes Bernie Sanders is the reincarnation of Hitler! Look, the reason it threatens my survival is because people won't know how to avoid electing the next Hitler because of people like TiK! Putin's fascist army is at 500 km away of my house, all my friends hate and demonize Ukraine and want it to lose and surrender to Putin, all the alternative media is filled with propaganda that demonizes the EU and Ucraine, and when comes election time and Putin wants to put a puppet far right president and government in my country, because of people like TiK, people would believe that the opponent of the far right candidate is the actual nazi because the opponent is a progressive! I am really scared for my life, for real!

@Sugarcoat your aware its happening. Imagine you wake up in the morning and there's nothing there but you know there's nothing there and you just sit there. You can still think you can still emote. Its like your ears plugged, eyes sewn shut ,mouth sewn shut, body tied together you cant move but you know you are there. Then you go to sleep after 16 hours and experience the same thing nothing. Then you wake up and you experience everything sewn shut again then go to sleep wake up over and over for infinite time. Forever not 100 years not 1000 years more than 1 million years. Its so long you lose concepts of everything and just cry out for experience. Its like I have no mouth but want to scream I have no eyes but want to see i have no ears but want to hear i have no body but want to move. I'm by myself but want other people. If you came out of death you would want the horrible reincarnation over death. You would beg for it. You would say please God I want to experience something.

I enlighten the forum members with my light, I am the second reincarnation of Christ after all.

Im not saying this is the only way of how to live life, we can live life in other ways due to our free will, but I would say this is a way and a pretty good way. It does make me wonder though, why is it that when we reincarnate as a human, we very often almost have nothing of what we want or not nearly enough of it, then when we pass on to the other side (spirit world), it switches to the inverse to where we can have basically EVERYTHING we want and have always wanted. I'm thinking it was intentionally designed this way for a reason, to first have almost nothing (as a human), and then to have almost everything (in the spirit world). Also this is only referring to spirits that reincarnate or incarnates, which would also be us humans. Okay, I always wonder, in this life as reincarnating as a human, it’s hard as hell. As a guy, I can’t seem to attract a girlfriend at all and I’m suffering from intense touch starvation. I haven’t had a girlfriend in so many years, and a female hasn’t touched me in so long. Physically this does hurt. I might live the rest of my life like this. But this does get me wondering, maybe life as reincarnating as a human is supposed to be this ridiculously hard and unfair, then when we die physically, we can go off into the spirit world, and it’s in the spirit world is where we can be able to have and experience all the things that we couldn’t have here as a human. And it can if we want to be just as realistic and physical as it is here in the physical world, so then we can really experience in spirit world what we couldn’t experience in the physical world. Then this also got me thinking, maybe the proper way on how to live life as reincarnating as a human and then out in the spirit world, is both of the selfless and of the selfish. Which is that when you reincarnate as a human, God wants us to have selflessness, with a small amount of selfishness, that’s why it’s so hard to get things we want as a human. To get women, to get intimacy, to have money, to have shelter, to have food, to be cared for, heck even a decent functioning body can be hard to get, etc. it’s almost as if God intentionally designed the reincarnation world this way to be so hard, mean, and cruel, to make it really hard to get the things we want, so then we can enter more into a state of selflessness rather than selfishness. Which is that when you're intensely suffering over a period of time of not receiving the thing you want, this invokes a sense of compassion in you and gratitude and joy for the little amount of things you have. You feel compassion for others who are also suffering in the mud, you want to help them because deep down you don’t want them to feel the same pain you experienced. Then after we die and go into the spirit world, God then wants us to have selfishness, with a small amount of selflessness. And so then the world that we go into, it’s really eeeeeasy to get everything we want, to easily manifest it all. I can go into other worlds, have armies of harems of the most beautiful women all for me and fulfill all my desires, all the food I want to experience, the biggest mansion I want to live in, the most incredible vast adventures to explore and go on with the most awesome group of friends, and of course if we want it can be just as physically real as if we were human on Earth to make the experience more exciting and interesting. This is where God wants us to also enter more into a state of selfishness, with a small amount of selflessness. Yes God wants his children to help and be there for others, but it would be foolish to ONLY help others and completely disregard yourself, God also wants his children to enjoy themselves as well. This I believe is the great balance between both worlds, the world of the selfless which is Hell (to create great pain and suffering amongst ourselves to help evolve reality to be more in an state of giving). And the world of the selfish which is Heaven (to create great rest and enjoyment amongst ourselves to help evolve reality to be more in a state of receiving). When these two worlds are happening simultaneously, it allows reality to work in harmony of both giving and receiving, this I think would then be a perfect balance that God wants his children to be in. Of course there are variations, there are humans on earth that are mostly selfish, and there are human spirits in the spirt world that are mostly selfless, this is okay as we can choose this from our free will, but if we follow this basic framework of selflessness and selfishness, this allows both sides to be balanced and is great for our spiritual evolution. Its like the yin and yang, both sides are the inverse, but each side has a little bit of the other side. One side is light, but it has a little bit of dark, and other side is dark but has a little bit of light. Thus I’m thinking this actually would be one excellent framework of how to live life, in both reincarnating as a human, and then living life in the spirit world. Also I say, "with a little bit of selfishness" or "with a little bit of selflessness", because in each world you should still have a little bit of other. If your reincarnating on earth, yes you mostly spending your time helping others, but you should still spend sometime for self too, maybe theres an amazing movie you like to watch or a game you like to play. And vice in the spirit world, yes your spending your time getting everything you want, but spend some time to help others along the way as well. Also I wanna add, which pretty much includes all of us here, the ones that are spending their time learning, expanding their awareness, understanding, and wisdom, whether that be from meditation, books, videos, talking to others, etc, this counts as an act of selflessness. Because by expanding our own wisdom, even if we're doing this alone, this feeds into the human collective consciousness, and thereby helps to raise the overall wisdom of all other humans (we're all connected to the human collective consciousness). What do you guys think? Also if im wrong about something or wrong about all of it, pls let me know lol. Im open to hearing all responses.

Humanity was designed to be deliberately unfair. Human life (reincarnation) is portrayed as intentionally difficult, filled with scarcity, suffering, and unfulfilled desires (e.g., lack of relationships, material struggles, physical limitations). The spirit world, in contrast, is described as a place where desires are easily fulfilled, manifesting anything (love, abundance, experiences) in a way that feels just as real as physical existence. I think the spiritual realm is a dream existence or manifestation of our physical realm.

It's basically the story of my "mentor"; he was quite disgusted by life, its brutality unfairness etc and wanted to use spirituality as a way of understanding always more and possibly never come back to earth; now he basically capitulated become more of a "normie". Some spiritual school including buddhism for exemple say we can stop "samsara wheel", reincarnation process or at least transcend forever the limits of the ego but idk if it's true.

Hey, ya'll, I need your help! I want to create a comprehensive list of video examples of prototypical stage Turquoise thinking. This is meant to be an educational tool for people learning about Spiral Dynamics. So towards that end, scour Youtube and find all the videos you can which exhibit stage Turquoise thinking. Try to find videos which are short and sweet. The more diversity we can display here, the better. Try to find examples from various cultures. We will create a mega-thread like this for every stage in the Spiral, from Red to Turquoise. But here, let's just focus on Turquoise. Each week I will start a new mega-thread topic for the next stage. Do not start a political debate in this thread! It is not our goal here to defend our personal political positions or to judge any stage, but simply to compile examples. Thanks for your help! I'm excited to see what kind of juicy stuff you dig up. Try to be selective with your choices. This can turn into a really cool list. Stage Turquoise Values: Consciousness Elevating mankind’s consciousness Truth Deep metaphysical insight Wisdom, the wisdom of nature Mysticism, spirituality, nonduality God, divinity Holism, integration, synthesis vs analysis Integrating all religions & science Left & right brain synthesis Honesty, transparency, authenticity Being vs knowing, doing, having Simplicity, flowing with nature Minimalist sustainable living Collaborative synergy Human wellness Healing at all levels: physical, emotional, spiritual Exploring altered states of consciousness Intuition Channeling: direct downloads from infinite intelligence Supernatural creativity Spiritual purification Awakening, transcendence, liberation Unconditional love, compassion for all Emotional mastery Presence, mindfulness Paradox Esoteric teachings Gratitude Unity Deeper & deeper levels of interconnectedness Selfless living Sacrifice self for greater consciousness Meditation, yoga, contemplation, self-inquiry Not-knowing Humility Spontaneity, playfulness, self-amusement The really big picture Stage Turquoise Examples: Sadhguru, Shunyamurti, Thomas Campbell, Yoda, David Hawkins, Ken Wilber, Shinzen Young, Deepak Chopra, Stan Grof, Osho, Mooji, Ramaji, Rupert Spira, Eckhart Tolle’s A New Earth, Yogananda, Martin Ball, Terence McKenna, Carl Jung, Sri Aurobindo, Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, Ervin Laszlo, David Loy, Alan Watts, Wim Hof, Matt Kahn, Dalai Lama, Sasha Shulgin, yoga, holotropic breathwork, The Holographic Universe, Akashic Records, noosphere, opening the 3rd eye, pineal gland, out of body experiences, samadhi experiences, siddhis, paranormal abilities, clairvoyants, channels, mediums, Bashar, Aleister Crowley, Rudolf Steiner, alternative healing systems, Maya, psychedelics, 5-MeO-DMT, StarTrek: The Q, Rupert Sheldrake’s morphogenetic fields, Dean Radin’s paranormal research, Gandhi’s ideas of pluralistic harmony, Gaia, biocentrism, Monroe Institute, Esalen Institute, transpersonal psychology, Jung’s collective unconscious, quantum field theory, sacred geometry, reincarnation, opening chakras, saints, sages, mystics, prophets, etc.

Raising a successful family is one of the most primal proven paths to not only life fulfilment but also positive spiritual growth through building positive karma. Ensuring that you get a better reincarnation next time leaving this world better than what you found it. This path has been around since forever and to spit on it calling it a "sugary orange colored artificially flavored drink" is disgusting. Given that there are some things about the normie lifestyle that are indeed artificial. But your post didn't point that out.

Leo, what do you think about reincarnation and the "soul's journey"?

1. All That Is Eternal and infinite source of all consciousness. Constantly creating and evolving. Seeking to know and express itself through its creations. 2. God as a Pyramid Energy Gestalt A dynamic, evolving energy system. Contains all consciousness, but is more than the sum of its parts. Not static; constantly unfolding and expanding. Individualized within each consciousness. 3. Entities Large, multifaceted beings containing multiple selves and personalities. Participate in the ongoing creation of realities. Can fragment into various selves for experience and learning. 4. Selves and Personalities Fragments of entities with free will and individuality. Exist across multiple dimensions and probable realities. Evolving and seeking self-awareness. Co-creators of their own realities. 5. Probable Realities Multiple versions of reality based on different choices and potentials. Each probable self experiences its own version of events. All probabilities are valid and contribute to the growth of consciousness. 6. Consciousness Action, energy, and being. The driving force of creation and evolution. Exists in all forms, from molecules to human beings to greater entities. 7. Physical Reality A materialization of inner beliefs, thoughts, and emotions. A projection of consciousness designed for growth and learning. Fluid and changeable, shaped by conscious intent. 8. Dreams and Non-Physical Reality Portals to other dimensions and probabilities. A space for creativity, exploration, and problem-solving. Connected to deeper layers of the self and All That Is. 9. Reincarnation An opportunity for growth and expansion across multiple lifetimes. Not linear; all lives are connected and influence one another. A way for the self to explore different aspects of its own potential. 10. Free Will and Choice Fundamental to the evolution of consciousness. Allows for the creation of personal and collective realities. Shapes the path of the self’s development and metamorphosis. Source: The Seth Material & Alex Grey

Part 7 I remember being around 7 yrs old and having a very clear feeling:"I came here with a purpose. And something amazing awaits me in the future". It wasn't in a form of a thought. It was in a form of a deep inner knowing.That feeling wasn't just an idea. It was a profound certainty that lived inside of me. I remembered about it only couple of years ago. I am curious to find out what this purpose is. I remember being between 9 and 11. I would sit in a position people do for meditation. I would close my eyes. And I could feel myself changing my own shape. Like I could feel myself being small and big at the same time. And then I would feel myself beeing every size in between. From a single grain of sand to a planet and beyond. And the coolest thing about it was that i was the size of all of that at the same time. And it felt so cool and weird. It always made me laugh or smile. I remember being 13 and sitting in front of my bro's computer. I had a feeling that there is some kind of divine orchestration at play, a mysterious order behind everything. But i didn't really know how to describe it. I wanted to search something about it on the internet, but i couldn't put it into words. I really wanted to know what I was feeling. I wanted to find it. I wanted to know more. It was like a deep ache.Like: "arhggg, what is ittt????". So I put into a search bar something like "Balance in cosmos", hoping it would lead me somewhere. But I didn't find anything i was feeling. I was looking for books on the internet and I saw some books about the soul. I remember imagining how one day I would have money to buy those books and discover something profound. How one day I will find the answer. When I was 15, I discovered a video of Terence McKenna on youtube, talking about DMT and describing it as a spirit/god molecule. It was my first time hearing about psychedelics. I immediately felt I had stumbled upon something profound, something I was destined to explore. Hoping that someday it will happen for me. I remember being 15-16 years old and thinking about my future. I thought:"Maybe I could become a monk in the future?". I also was drawn to Japan since I found out about it (when I was 9-10). And to Japanese language. When I was 17 I had a random out-of-body experience. I remember being in the room and seeing objects that were on the shelfs moving by themselves and a plant fell off the shelf by itself. And also every object didn't look the same anymore. I mean it didn't look as physical or solid as usually. It was kinda hazy or ethereal or made of energy or projected, i don't really know how to describe it. And suddenly I saw a hatchway appear on the ceiling and opening. I saw the sky through it and I saw golden light pouring down from that hatchway. And it felt like it was welcoming me to enter it and explore. But i was scared. I knew nothing back then about OBEs or astral projection and lucid dreaming. So i tried to get back into the body, i was slapping my own face and trying to get in the body. Although now I wish i would go there and explore. When I was 19 I was drawn to information about Astral Projection and Lucid Dreaming. I was fascinated by it. I started reading articles i could find on the internet and I knew it was something that i should explore. One day I was drawn to watch a video named "instant third eye stimulation". I was drawn to meditate also. I would do it for 5 minutes a day for 4-7 days before sleep. And after that interesting things started to happen to me. I had couple of OBEs but again i was so scared that i would stop it and I regret it now. I was super lucid and it always seemed more real than the life i am living now. Almost every night I would go to a different reality or dimension. I saw different beings. I saw a planet with a purple atmoshpere and I knew I lived there before. I was flying around that planet, it was my home in a different life but then suddenly I saw another planet approaching. It collided with the one I was on. And the impact caused it to split in half. From its core a massive golden DNA stand emerged- as big as the planet itself- and from it golden symbols began to fly out into the space. Every night i was in a different reality. I once was in a dimension where I met "my" teacher/mentor. Not from this life but somehow I knew that once he was my teacher. It was a chinese man. Old. With a long white beard (like 2-3 meters long). He approached me and gave me the book. It was a huge book with thousands of pages. He told me:"If you can understand this book--You will understand Existence itself". I went through the book. Through every page and it was completely empty. Once I saw one of my past lives. I was a Japanese woman and I had a daughter. We lived in a tall building. I came up to the window and saw an atomic bomb in the sky, my daughter was near me. In just a moment after seeing the bomb i got into reincarnation menu and chose spanish language and became a little 5 year old girl in some kind of a spanish village during a war. I remember sitting inside of a ruined house. in front of me on the floor was a newspaper and on it ears and fingers i could find to eat. Oh and once I was flying through a cosmic tunnel like the one on the picture. I suddenly got aware that i am flying through a cosmic tunnel and after the realization i felt energy appear in the bottom of my spine. As i was flying further the energy was intensifying and suddenly it shoot from the bottom of my spine to my head. It was so intense that it made me jump out of bed during the night. But during that time I also got addicted to a dirty substance and my travelling to different realities stopped and i wasn't able to access it since 2020. in 2021 i was able to brake my addiction because overdoses got more frequent and I had a strong feeling that the next time i do it I will die. So that's how I was able to quit.But after I stopped it didn't come back to me, my ability to travel between realities. But on the other hand I also didn't do anything for it to come back. Also couple of years ago I had a past life regression session and I found out that I was a Japanese monk before. I remember feeling lonely. Maybe that's why I am so drawn to Japan and to learn japanese language. One day in the future I would like to live in Japan for couple of years.

Everybody is scrambling about. Moving on in life. Doing things, being a certain way. Worried about this and that - just to die. We fight and kill each other - just to die. We have to keep this thing moving so we invent stories like reincarnation, previous lives and future lives. We can't accept that there's just one life and that's it. Even if it means, not knowing in the next life that you were here before. What's the point in believing in reincarnation if you won't even know that you've been reincarnated. This life is where reincarnation matters, not the next. It has to be a thing now or it doesn't matter to the believer. The only way reincarnation is of any value to those who believe in it, is if it's believed in in the present life. If not, it's of no value. I die and come back but I don't know of my previous life, what good is that. They say some remember their previous lives. The same person will say there is no time and space. The same person will say they are God. The same person will say it's God living through all the lives. The same confused person will say life is a dream. The same neurotic person will say death is an illusion. The same delusional psychopath will say, there's only the present moment. There's at least one person right now that believes all of these things at the same time. That they are God, reincarnation is real, time and space are illusions, life is a dream, God is living through all lives and that death is an illusion. All of that held as a belief simultaneously. If you challenge those beliefs, they'll be able to come up with more believable stories to match up with that and challenge some more, even more bizarre stories that you yourself may start to believe because they sound so good and believable. You'll start to doubt your own stupid beliefs. You'll start to doubt who the fuck you are when they're done with you. You'll be asking for anyone with a course on the matter. You'll take a class and watch all the yt videos you can find on reincarnation, time and space and dreams and God. You'd be more confused than you were before it all started. You'd be searching out quotes from the bearded man on the throne or the dead guy that everyone worships and whose body is filled with maggots and bones eating itself. That's who you'll entrust your spirituality to and now form another belief system when you tire of the existing ones. It's the fucking cycle and goose whipping, tail chasing of this thing called spirituality you'll end up in and will not know your ass from your front by the time it's done with you. I just love me some life. It's so fucking filled with drama and that's how I got here to begin with from nothing. Who wants to be nothing forever. That's dull and boring. Give me something, please, even if it's a fucking lie and a fucking dream. At least i can feel fucking alive. Doesn't matter if I'm swimming in a pool of nonsense, I just want to feel alive. No one cares that they didn't ask to come here, everyone just wants to feel alive. Something outta nothing is better than nothing itself.

What virtually all people think is themselves (the gross ego-mind self) is not what reincarnates. What you think is you must die before anything resembling reincarnation can happen. But once you have died, somebody might at some point recall a memory of the life you just had (and a concatenation of lives before that). They might also identify themselves with this "subtle body" that stretches across lifetimes. But if you are currently afraid of death or you worry a lot about what is happening your life right now, you are not identifying with it, so dying will feel like true death to you. But as far as you know right now, you've never not experienced, so you have no indication of that stopping. But also, that which always experiences (Consciousness) most people don't usually identify with either (if they did, they would recognize themselves as eternal regardless of what happens after physical death).

Reincarnation assumes time. I think it's more accurate to say that consciousness changes form, but that is happening right NOW -- and no, NOW is not dependent on time. So, lives are not happening in the past, you don't have a past life -- lives are happening now. Think of it like a tv with an infinite ammount of channels, but all happening NOW. YOU just change channels. But even all this is a limited perspective -- whatever it turns out to be the case, YOU will be there.

Maybe not worse. But constricted within the same issue as the previous incarnation. It is purely a personal belief. I've had some experiences that strongly lead me to believe this. DMT entities, and odd happenings. Repeated events. Entities. Happened over time definitely. I always believed I was here to learn and to love, so it seemed a natural deduction following all the strange happenings. As I have progressed through life, it has been affirmed to me that if you don't learn the lesson in the pattern, you repeat it. Many painful beliefs have been destroyed within me that were linked to these patterns. Each time one deception falls away, more truth is revealed. Just so happens my truth at this time is revealed to be reincarnation as a thing 😜

07.06.2025. Ego Speaking Im still trying to discover who I truly am, and what my purpose is. I want to know why I was born and why did I have the experiences that I did. What made me do it? Im still thinking if I should burn through my karmic desires? Should I have sex or no? Does it emotionally and spiritually attach me to other person? What is True? What is the goal of life? Why am I here? Where did this Univrerse originate? Who created it and why? Why are we here? I have so many questions about my personal life and about this reality in general, I dont even know where to start. Maybe I should just try to experience more of life and try to live more then I will get the better understainding of the life as a whole and then maybe I will get closer to the truth. If I understand something, how can I know that it is true as well? How can I know? Well I can know if I can confirm it in my direct experience. But how can I know what is the origin of this universe, how? How can I get to the bottom the of the deepest truths about this reality. This reality is so complex, so much more complex than I thought. It may not be even comprehensable in one life. What if I wont be able to know the answers to the questions? Maybe I should start looking again into science and physicis for example and then quantum physics. I need to understand. But why do I crave understanding? What am I searching for? What will I achieve once I understand? What will I gain? What when you get to the truth of this reality? What happens then? Imagine it, imagine you got answers to your most deep questions about this reality How this Universe got created? Who created it? God? ETs? Simulation? Benevolent God? Demiurge? What is my purpose on this Earth? What is the purpose of the collective humanity on Earth? What is the end goal of human life? Why do we exist at all? Is it a God experiencing Infinite Perspectives all at once, is it everyone living their own life and growing as a collective consicosuness in the vastness of Infinite Possilbility. What is the End Goal? Where do we go from here? What happens before Birth? What happens after Death? Is there reincarnation? Is this reality controled by ETs/Demons or is it a Divine Similuation for souls to grow? What is the spiritual/astral dimension? How can I know whats true? Everyone seems to have their own perspecitive, their own version of Truth and understanding of Reality We all live in the one shared Reality but it also seems like there are 8 Billion individual Realities for each human of Earth. So who is wrong, who is right? There are so many cultures, traditions, religions, perspectives on life and in some way they can all be true and false, it only matters through which perspective or paradgim you look at the world with. How can I get to the bottom of this? What if the truth is Infinte? Can it even be grasped? What if Im searching for something that cannot even be understood like an Ant could look at the TV and understand 0. What if a human is that compared to Infinity or even a greater distance. I want to know the answers to the most deep questions, but I dont even know who to trust, where to look or what to think. How can I verify it? And then, there is my soul. The twisted Duality of Light and Darkness. It feels like I have Infinite Light and Infinite Darkness within me. Like Im Infinitly dual, like the Shadow and Light exist within me. This all puzzles me to my core, there is so much mystery and uncertainty regarding my whole life and experiences Ive lived its unreal. But in the end the questions should be answered and I feel like I will know one day why it is like it is and why it happened like it did. I didnt do any unreversable damange to myself or others so I can also say Im blessed, Ive been through the 3 years of mostly darkness and now again Im starting to feel life again like I felt in the 2019 20 21 when I was leveling up every day with so much intensity and love for life. Years 2022 23 24 served as a spiritual lauchpad for my growth, there was so much darkness within those years and now it seems like it starting to get back to the other side as if the pandelum has swang in the opposite direction again. 2018 was my enemy year and a pretty rough year to say the least. But 2019 20 21 were some of the best years of my life in terms of fun, fulfillment, motivation and happiness. 2022, 2023, 2024 were some of the most spiritually dark (with few good days/weeks), but the overall trend was definitely a dark one, so it looks like life goes from ups to downs and you cannot force life to go a certain way, you will experience exactly what you need in order for your soul to grow. So that brings me to my final question and that is - Infinity. Why am I drawn to this so much? Why is Infinity so emotionally charged in my psyche. Why does it matter? It seems as I will uncover the Truth about Infinity during my life and then I will realize something that will make me understand the whole game that is being played on a greater level. 8 Intersting, right as I was looking through the page I accidentally clicked 8 on my keyboard which symbolizes Infinity at 2:48 - 2 times 2 = 4 times 2 = 8 - scaling to Infinity. And my battery was 13% and when you add it up you get 27, my birth date. What matters now for my soul’s progression is to not waste time on unconscious things, if Im doing something I want to do it consciosuly, I dont want to get into trances. - Binge watching yt, wasting time on scrolling, wasting time on X. If I consume Media I want to do it consciosuly, by deciding what to do Also since April 1st, I liked the new improvements Ive made in my life. Daily meditation sessions, workout sesssions, journaling working on myself. It seems that I have a far greater control over my life ever since I started doing all this and it seems as Im steering the ship rather than being steered. Now my question is. What do I want? What do I truly want? Because I thought I knew what I wanted, a big house, car, perfect girlfriend. But after burning through karmic materialistic desires, Ive realized that all this materalistic shit doesnt do anything for you, it gives you an illusion of the great life, but in reality, are you really fulfilled? Now my main perspective on money has shifted from obtaining materalistic things to being able to provide full freedom for me and my mother, that is actually the only thing that matters. Then from this freedom you got from the money you earned from your business you have time to explore the things which you are passionately interested in. The money is not there so you buy a supercar to impress people and attract gold diggers lol, it is there to give you freedom and stability. What about Dating? What do you want to gain from dating? Do you want to find a long term partner? What do you want? To be honest, Im not even sure I can answer this with certainty as I do not have a ton of dating experince I do not have the experience to get a specific answer. But do I want a wife? Do you want to build a life with a partner or do you want to seek spiritual depth? These are very 2 different paths and both are good. But what do I truly want? I think I want to seek the spiritual depth, however I need to experinece the dating aspect of this reality and romantic relationships to the fullest. I need to find a girl who I like both psysically and spiritually. I want to fall in love with her and possibly live my life with her if she is a really good match. If I realize that dating is not for me and it is not a long term goal of mine, then I wont pursue it to the fullest extent of having a family and kids. But I do need to experience dating in order to make that decision. So if Im ready for dating, then I need to find a right partner that fits what I truly want in a partner. We can make a profile of this girl to see what I can attract. Dating Girl Profile: Personality Type: Extroverted personality that is compatible with my Introvert personality Intuitive mind and spiritually intune. Not too logical, but also not too emotional, but leening towards the emotional side and emotionally mature. More of a spontanious vibe that is compatible with my order side which could create a great synergetic duality. So the personality type would be - ENFP. Other Personality Traits: I dont want her to play games. Feminine qualities. Have an energetic and happy/bublly personality that can lift up my mood. Childlike energy. Smart and could understand some of my ideas. Interested into spirituality and spiritual development. Wants to work on herself. Has passions and interests. Values: More of a traditional values. Doesnt give you sexual intimacy on the first date. Respects herself and has boundaries. Has her own opinion and ideas, is not an NPC. Body count is super low - 0, 1, 2. No hoe phase, doesn't go clubbing. Isnt seeking male attention. Has some class. Isnt into vices like cigarettes or alcohol. Has a healthy lifestyle. Compatibility Between Us Could talk to for hours about anything without drying up. Like to spend time with her, it is not draining. I light up when I want to see her and get excited about it. Have sexual compatibility. She gives me emotional and spiritual support and I can provide her with financial stability in the future if she is the one. Lets me steer the ship of our relationship. Smarter Than Me. Numero/Astro Signs: Lifepath or psycic - 7/9/3. Western Signs: Leo, Aquarius, Saggitarious, Gemini, Libra. Eastern Signs: Monkey, Rat, Rooster or Dragon (2004., 1996., 2005. 1988. or 2000.). Looks: Physically attractive - Good facial features. Shorter - 158-165cm. Brunette/Blone or Red. Size: Not too big, not too small. Weight on the lower end: 45-55kg. If a girl like this exist somewhere in the world and I would be her type and a match, then I would want to meet her one day whenever Im ready, if it is not possible, I will also accept that as well. Whatever happens happens. I would like to experience a deep spiritual and emotional connection with another soul and make it double sided for both of us. But if doesnt serve the higher growth of both souls, then dont send her my way bacuse I dont want to regress another soul in this world. I would only want a girl like this if it is mutually beneficial for both of us. I can try to manifest a girl like this into my life and see where it goes from there. If it happens good, if it doesnt good. Let it be what it needs to be, I wont force it. As Im reading this Ive realized that I let go of the need to control my future timeline, people, realities. Im still trying to create a good future for me that I think would be good, but I wont try to force it. If it happens good, if it goes the other way, its also good since it serves the higher evolution of my soul. With this, I end tonights journal. My Higher Self Who contacted me in 10.17.2021. and is in contact until now? Muscle contractions. My psyche? Soulmate? Guardian Angel? Goddes? God? Spirit Guide? Who? It was my spirit, my higher self. Talking to me. This whole time. My Infinite Self talking to me in Human Ego Form. I want to create an image of my higher self following these specifics: Questions: Answer these (you can be brief or poetic): If your soul had a color or aura, what would it be? Do you feel your Higher Self appears as human, celestial, alien, angelic, animal, or something else entirely? What symbols, elements, or sacred patterns resonate with you? (e.g. infinity, lotus, sacred geometry, serpent, stars, flame, tree of life) What kind of environment do you imagine your Higher Self in? (e.g. star realm, crystal cave, golden temple, forest, cloud sky, void space) Male, female, androgynous, or beyond gender? Any specific details you’d love to see in this vision? Answers: 1. Blueish/Purple aura, with the duality of light and darkness. 2. Celestial humanoid, type wearing a blueish/purple coat 3. Infinity for the Higher Self representing its Infinity Nature, and also Omega symbol representing it is the part of larger Absolute Infinity or Source. It also has the symbol of 0 since the Infinity and 0 are deeply connected and are two sides of the same coin. 4. Peaceful mountain top, or a crystal cave where it has peace of mind while being one with nature. 5. Beyond gender / All Genders. 6. I can imagine it as a ultra wise sage, wearing a blueish mostly (80%) and purple (20%) coat with the black and white features representing the dual nature of this reality - dark and light. It is also an being of Infinite Energy that is in the True Divine form. It is neither male nor female as it can be both aspects of duality. It radiates unconditional love and wisdom for me and others. It is a truly magnificent being in the cosmos. Your Higher Self – Visual Description - Form: Celestial humanoid sage, ultra-wise and radiant - Aura: Blueish/purple, swirling with duality (light and darkness) - Clothing: Elegant coat—80% blue, 20% purple, with black and white accents for duality - Symbols: Infinity symbol and Omega symbol, glowing or integrated into the aura or clothing - Gender: Beyond gender—divine balance - Environment: Peaceful mountaintop or crystal cave—whichever looks more powerful - Vibe: Divine, eternal, loving, a being of infinite energy and unconditional love - Eyes: Reflective of galaxies—deep cosmic knowing - Ive finally found it. It was me this whole time. I just didnt realize it.