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If say the creator, or God, manifested/imagines this Universe with ease (all the atoms, hairs, bodily cells, galaxies and so) - Does that suggest God created the speed of light? Is God beyond light, especially the speed of light? I will say yes, because not all animals on Earth, I don't think, necessarily require light to survive, hence some alien species may not depend on light like us humans in particular do,

Yes i agree. I have to managed to reach a point where i can confidently escalate and go for a make out with a girl on a first date, something that seemed alien to me 6 months ago. However, i am really off-putted by the harshness i get from girls regarding every mistake i make. You think if i go out on other dates they will be less harsh as long as my performance is around this level?

Jinn = alien Jinn on average live 5000 years.to talk to jinn u need to channel them .ordinary humans have a viel in our eyes so we cannot see them.but sufi saints have their veil removed and can see them.they can travel into another galaxy .the father of modern rocket science was an occultist and was in contact with jinn.pineal gland have connection with jinn world. dmt take u to jinn world.satan is a jinn.the various creatures we see in movies are jinn inspired.hollywood desensetize us to jinn .occult is a means by which a jinn will lend u their power.

Got very few results, but did get a result, so I didn't stop doing this Going deep into it, I met one expert pick up guy getting phone numbers left and right, being really really really natural. I never thought one could do this in East Asia (Japan, China, and Korea) with so much poise and naturalness. I thought we had to be more formal, politically correct, don't be too crazy, especially in Seoul. Just yesterday, I met that expert because I know one virgin who was better than me at getting numbers and setting dates because he learnt from that expert. Just a month ago the virgin complained and moaned about his life with me, and now he's better than me in the area. Lol. I just asked the expert how to learn these things and he scolded me for trying to "learn" pick up. He just told me to look for encouragement but not information. Anyway, he just told me, the reason I'm not as adept to pick up is simple. (he's 37 years old, and his grooming, talking.. whatever... etc. is spot on) I don't practice enough, and I don't think enough about the way I practiced. Practice by focusing on one thing. Holding (getting the attention), talking. Like the way he holds attention from girls on the street. The length of his conversation, and way he behaves with the girls on the street, the stuff he says is just much more different than me and normal guys. Funny thing is, he never went to a club, and so I brang him to a club yesterday, and he didn't talk at all there. It was odd. The three of us didn't like drinking, but the two of us except for the expert liked to dance, so maybe he didn't feel at ease there. Anyway, I realized from him, that I needed to hold the attention, then talked my way (with amusement) at the same time. You can't miss one of them during the interaction. Expressing what you want from the girl like bullet points fast, then going for amusement is important I think. Being fun is important. And that is through talking. It don't matter if you're in front of a bathroom, or a bookstore, or a street at night. If your speech is amusing and you can hold, she won't just ignore.... and when she realizes you held her attention while telling her what you want from her, she just gives you the phone number or the date. It was intriguing, and I learnt a lot yesterday. Seeing a virgin do way better than me in pick up, and seeing that expert behave in an alien place, it was amusing. On the train station, I just ordered the virgin to go pick up a girl who was physically fit and had nice legs, just got that number right away, with a solid interaction while I struggle to hold attention from any girl.

An advanced system. I had this in my imagination long ago. A alien race of humanoids..

@Benton Report please!!! The World needs to know Too bad you cannot make a foto of this multi conscious Alien Being. Nevertheless some strange thing will happen anyway, according to sadhguru and people who have been there

Hello beautiful people here, I thank you a lot for reading my following 1st post on this forum and perhaps giving me advice on solving the following problem. It would mean the world to me if you could help me with that; Last year I started experimenting with psychedelics, namely the one called LSD. This made me quickly realize that God and truth really exist, something I never thought was possible. It continued with realizing at deeper and deeper levels what the truth really is, and I do not have a single doubt in my mind that the following statements are the best words one could find to state the truth: Truth=God=Love=I=You=Everything=The Here and Now=Pure Goodness=Pure Perfection=Pure Freedom=Heaven=Divinity I am God As God, I am the Creator of the entire reality As God, I manifest out of thin air the entire creation As God, I am all powerful As God, I am all knowing and all understanding As God, I am pure unconditional Love On a frequent basis, I used LSD to realize on deeper and deeper levels what my true nature is, namely God and Love. Love is the most meaningful and most beautiful thing you could ever want and it is the only true thing we all are longing for. Feeling my Love as God is something that is deeply healing. Feeling Gods Love for 1 second is worth being tortured for eternities, it feels so good. Gods Love and Gods wisdom profoundly changed my entire way of looking at life and helped me to see everything in a much more positive light. Now three words about my "normal" experiences with LSD, before I tell you about the psychic attacks. Normally, my experiences are extremely clear. Even at high doses like 300ug I have absolutely no visual hallucinations, I feel completely relaxed and at ease inside of my body, I perceive everything with clarity, calmly, and my experience simply gets recontextualized without my visual field changing in any way. I feel almost no body load, hear no auditory hallucinations, hear no voices inside my head, basically LSD gives me complete clarity and melts my ego and raises my state of consciousness in a beautiful smooth and calm way. Now lets come to my very serious issue and if you have ideas how I could handle the following problem I would owe you the world. If someone could help me to completely solve that problem I would pay you good money for it... At the end of last year it started that in some trips I got psychicly attacked. I tripped for maybe 10 times since then and it happened 4 times that I got attacked. I cannot control the timing of when it happens. It has nothing to do with my personal state of mind or life when it happens. So what do I mean when I say psychicly attacked? Well, it basically feels like a foreign entity is here with me, inside of my Consciousness. I personally believe that it is intelligent life from another place in the universe but I am not sure about that. This entity / or these entities have the technology to completely manipulate my state of consciousness. What do I mean by that? By that I mean, instead of my usually clarity and calmness on LSD, I feel the exact opposite of it. Suddenly I get very weird hallucinations inside my visual field, like seing demons and devilish like templates everywhere. I hear noises and when I turn around I don't see anything. They can induce tiredness into my body, make me yawn, make me perceive my body in very weird unproportional ways, I suddenly hear an "alien language" which I do not understand permamently inside of my head, I suddenly have thoughts that are NOT MINE. They induce thoughts into my head when I am in the peak of my trip, like for example "go outside your appartment NOW." When I don't listen to these thoughts, they make me feel intense pain. They induce states of complete confusion into me where I don't even realize that they are there manipulating me. One time they managed to make me walk out of my appartment and induced a thought into me, that I should go to the train station and jump in front of a train NOW. Or that I should jump from a building. I did NOT listen to these thoughts, thank God because I love my life and I am NOT suicidal in any way. Yesterday I was tripping again and reality was not unravelling as it should and as it usually does... I felt unclear, confused, my visual field was vibrating weirdly my body felt bad, they made me feel so confused that while I was peaking I thought maybe the LSD was not working properly because the dose was too low... Then I glimpsed God and his Love for a second until extreme pain and confusion hit me once again. They induced thoughts like "Love is just a concept, love does not exist" and made me perceive everything in a very strange way. Suddenly I felt an urge to go to the fridge and start eating like a madman. When I started eating I realized "wait a second, I did not want to eat now, right?" I stopped eating and that was the moment I realized that I was being attacked again. I asked for God to help me and I said clearly: "I do not want these beings to manipulate my state of consciousness, this is against my will. The only thing that I want is Love and Light. Please give me clarity and make me see the truth." I only wanted to create Love... For a second I got into a state of clarity, seeing everything as my creation but then they induced intense pain. They got me to a point of my body curling up in pain, it was so intense... Also they made it hard for me to stay connected to my body For example it felt to me like I couldnt "embody" my hand at one point... I managed not to pass out but I think it would have been possible...I just prayed for God to help me stay clear and see love but these beings are too fucking powerful. They can literally manipulate my state of consciousness in deep disturbing ways... What these beings want is they want me to feel small and engage in meaningless activities like watching stupid videos or eating crap until I get fat and numbed out. They want me to perceive myself as a small, unworthy human and they want me to believe that I am unworthy of Love and unworthy of God. They do NOT want me to see the truth, namely that I am an all powerful infinite Consciousness that is creating the entire reality, including them. I do not exactly understand, why they want that. I guess it has to do with power. My theory is, that these beings are disconnected from Love and therefore all they can do is to seek power and control over other beings, which is their twisted way of reaching for the Love they truly long for. As God I am all powerful. Realizing that I am all powerful goes against their agenda. In comparison to Gods power, every limited way of power fails and crumbles. I do not know what to do at this point. These beings are very powerful. I assume that they do not exist in the way humans do (namely as the five senses sound touch feel hear smell). Maybe they exist in other dimensions but they have the technology or the power to manipulate our five senses (or at least mine) in very deep and vicious ways. Gladly they do not seem to be interested in that when I am not tripping so that's something I am happy about. However, when it comes to me wanting to feel my own Source and wanting to feel my own Love as God they seem to be determined to do anything to stop me from doing that. I realize that on the absolute level I as God am even the creator of these entities. I know that. But knowing that is not enough because their actions affect me anyways. Imagine while you where tripping your neighbour came over to your appartment threatening to stab you with his knife. Yes, on the absolute level you are the creator of your neighbour, but I guess when your life is threatened you won't solve this problem by "uncreating" your neighbour as God. Your state of consciousness when in serious danger will be way to low to do that. Instead you will be afraid and run for your life and you won't have any deep metaphysical realizations that day. Please treat this thread with the seriousness it deserves. It is a huge problem for me and I would owe you the world if you could help me solve it. If you have any ideas on what I could do to solve this problem I would be deeply thankful if you could share that with me. Feel free to share it down below or send me a pm. Everything goes. I would even be open to new-agey ideas like wearing crystals or whatever you think might help. If you have an idea, just share it. Thank you so much guys, I love you.

In my opinion Sadhguru formulates his sentences in his Youtube talks in a way that is not completely true to his understanding. This has two reasons, I think. First he has a big audience and out of his big responsibility he sees how mystical talk can lead people to, as he says, "hallucinate" potentially harmful or at least counterproductive things up. Secondly, he sees himself as a device for transforming the world. At this scope you have to be particullary careful about PR. It seemed quite obvious to me in the past, and in the section about alien entities he even mentioned that he doesn't want to talk about such things. It is especially obvious, when he uses contemporary science in his explanations, because he knows that almost everyone is a this stage of seeing the world. He tries to give advice to westerners in his Youtube videos. If you want deeper talks from Sadhguru, I'm sure he offers them in certain books, his exclusive video platform (yeah there is such athing) and at his many yoga centers.

@Carl-Richard Thanks, this is sensible advice. I have been tripping a lot less in the last months sice the attacks started. Also I have lowered my doses so that I can still think somewhat clearly and logically and repress the trip to a certain degree if necessary. @SriSriJustinBieber Thanks for your advice. I tried to love them and I sometimes managed to do so. It is hard though to love someone who tries to hurt you. @GreenWoods This is very interesting since your description of the entities attacking you matches up with the ones who attacked me pretty well. They also mostly move into my stomach region or "through my body", sometimes into my legs. Feels very weird and alien. I will definitely try out all of your advice! Thank you so much! @Adamq8 Thank you for your response. What is that book Philokalia again about? Masters that struggle against "passions"? Also about the "I am God" thing... You said that perhaps I misjudged it and maybe God "truly is other." Being God is a point that I have clearly seen as being absolutely true. It also makes perfect sense: Before our world and our human lifes came into existence, there was only God, unmanifested non-dual love / intelligence / infinity. Now what is our world / our human life / your human body? How did it come here? Simple: God took the form of a Universe, namely ours, he took on the form of all beings in this universe and localised himself in a specific body on a specific planet to look at all the other human beings as though they where real and independent of him. To make himself feel like he really is a human being he had to forget that he is God. So he invented all sorts of stories like human history, past and future, biology, physics, evolution, the idea of having been born, the idea of being a human body, etc. to make himself deluded into actually being a human body. Therefore God is the being that looks through your eyes right now. And he is simalteneously everything you ever saw, your entire 5 senses, every feeling you have, every thought you ever had, etc. When you trace your own awareness back to its origin, this is what you eventually will realize. If you where apart from God or "other" God wouldn't be God. God = You = Everything. There exists not a single speck of dust in this universe which is "other" than God. The speck of dust IS God. If you feel like it we can discuss this point via pm or down below, feel free to respond if you want:) @Carl-Richard exactly. Absolutely speaking there is no difference between anything. Everything in the world is imagination including all human beings. However, there are layers of imagination that have (seemingly) real consequences for me like my neighbour coming over to my appartment to stab me. This is something that people in this thread partially do not seem to understand: These negative entities are as real as my neighbour or the desk standing inside of my room. They are part of my (Gods) imagination and this is a process that I do not have conscious control of. I am not God-Conscious right now so I cannot dematirialise physical objects like desks or physical beings like humans or negative entities. @Aquarius Thanks for your advice. @GreenWoods absolutely speaking everything is internal. This includs the entire universe, physical ilnesses in your body, all other beings, all physical objects, simply everything. You are God, imagining everything. This is something you can become conscious of and something I have become conscious of using Leos methods. When you become conscious of this, you are so powerful that you could literally dematerialize physical objects like desks or imagine new ones by snapping your finger. You could desolve the entire universe in an instant and merge into oneness forever. This is the power that these entities do not want me to realize. I am not saying this to brag. I am saying this to inspire you guys to realize this for yourself. This truth is absolute and when you realize it it will be so good that you won't believe it. Again. 1 second of tasting your own true nature feels so good to me, I'd be willing to die for it or get tortured for long times just for 1 second of feeling it. And it is YOUR true nature as well. However, I am not conscious enough to cure illnesses or disolve beings in my day to day state. Maybe there are or where beings capable of that in human history (like Jesus for example). @Bojan V @Etherial Cat @Mafortu @RMQualtrough Thank you guys for trying to help me, I expected comments like yours to be coming as well. I guess if I wouldn't have experienced negative entities for myself this is what I would have believed as well. If I heard other people talking about "being attacked" I would have also thought their shadow is bubbling up, they are mentally ill, etc. However, this clearly does not apply to myself. I am not mentally ill, not bipolar, not schizophrenic. I have shadows and I am aware of them, and I embrace them with love and openness. I am a happy human being and I am in love with life. I've had a decent childhood, very loving parents and sisters, I have friends, hobbies that I like, do things that I love, it is simply not that. From my POV it is clear that negative entities really do exist. They exist in the same way like your house exists. Absolutely speaking everything is imaginary, I agree on that. But would you tell a physically ill person to unimagine his ilness? No, you would give him medicine. The same way, what I need for my problem of being attacked by dark beings is not advice like "its all in your head." Yeah, it's true, the entire universe happens in my head, since I am God. But that doesn't solve the problem. What I need is a real solution to my problem and I want to thank to all the people here who tried to help me to find a real solution, including the ones suggesting shaddow work / etc. However, shaddow work is simply not what I need, my personal shaddows have nothing to do with what is happening. Nor am I mentally ill, I am a stable, happy and healthy person.

Bald is fine, the height of male insecurity that some can’t cope with being bald. Hair plugs are ultra cringe. No clue why anyone gets them. Granted some people don’t have the head for being bald, that big alien ? head look. It can be compensated for in other ways.

There is a certain truth to this but there is also a certain bias to this. For matured people, relationships are more like contractual agreements rather than falling in love. I have seen such people and they don't fall in love, the whole concept of romantic feeling is kinda alien to them or inconvenient. You can call it high consciousness or whatever but it does not have a natural joy to it, since the people involved are too stoic. People who have a child like quality (that is immature people) tend to fall in love and then fight like kids. Although to an outsider it looks immature, there is a certain joy to it that only a child like person would experience, not the matured person. For the matured person, it would look like a joke. But here is the key. When two very matured persons meet, it's not always the most beautiful thing, it can be very robotic and stoic, it can take the joy out of it, it can get boring pretty soon, it's like eating ice-cream without sugar. On the other hand, a super immature relationship can be very colorful and intoxicating, but both get to play around like kids, however if the immaturity gets out of hand, it can turn into an unhealthy on and off relationship. What is needed in an immature relationship is endurance to carry through all the wars and last till the end and still be able to celebrate the fireworks of that relationship. The couple can actually get old together and then laugh about all the fights they had. But this needs an extremely high level of tolerance and the ability to forgive, forget, and get past one's mistakes, errors and flaws. It means not carrying a grudge forever. It means having that vulnerability and trust and deep intimacy where such fights are either completely ignored or made fun of later. But that would need extreme openness from both sides to be able to take things lightly long term and not make things ultra serious. At the end of the day, everything has its own flavor. How you execute yourself reflects how much joy you wish to create, whether done it in mature or immature ways. Even if we all had to act like kids and super immature, there can be ways to bring our best selves to the table, it doesn't always have to be destructive. Some kids fight, but some other kids act like kids and play like kids yet don't get destructive, they spread joy although in immature or childish ways. Yet joyful. The thing is sometimes it's good to bring out our most wild natural instincts and operate from low consciousness because there is some meaning to it too, I have seen people who act like they are high consciousness in every possible way, they look young yet act like 50 year olds but they are super creepy. I wouldn't want to follow them as inspiration because it's kinda perverted, no matter how matured or high consciousness, there's just something about it that's not very innocent. What you see is not what you think it is. You see a matured person, but you dig deeper and you see that it's just an act, their maturity is a protective cover against showing courage, deep down they are cowards and develop a matured ego to avoid self reflection, you see a person who is acting super immature but during times of crisis they exhibit such empathy and strength and understanding that your mind would be blown away by their courage. I have seen both types. I have seen matured people in my family having a psychopathic detachment to things, to the point you can't create or force an emotion into them, they are also very insensitive because of their maturity. And I have also seen people like my mother who are always super immature, but during bad times have shown exemplary courage through public display of emotion. I don't take anything for granted. To me all traits in human nature (except highly evil destructive traits with criminal bent) are a reflection of karma, they show us something, they point to something, they have their advantages and disadvantages. They are all like weapons, big or small, the big ones are important but so are the small ones. These traits are unique in of themselves, they are simply representations of the inner self, the pure inner self that is like a white chalkboard inside all of us, now whatever color you throw on it, those are colors, yet the whiteness of the chalkboard doesn't change, it is still white. Same way, human traits, inferior or superior are like colors on that chalkboard. The real self is the inner self that is exhibited through these traits. I have come across people who are super immature and low consciousness and have shown tears and empathy for a homeless person and given them food and assistance. I have come across people who are super matured and high consciousness, smart and wise, able to control emotions and very brainy yet they have zero empathy towards that homeless guy and just let him suffer. That time I'm inclined to believe that high consciousness is sometimes a farce, like white collar crime, looks good on the outside but creepy on the inside. And what good do these people bring.. In the Great dictator movie there is a passage that implies that we are greatly annoyed and upset at the actions of the local thug on the street yet the major corporations who create war through their super intellect go unpunished. There is a certain innocence to immaturity and a certain trust that is not found in maturity. Beware of all matured psychopaths, who knows what's lurking behind.

As many of you know, i've had a very rough time with the latest trip/ awakening. I see it as, i've fallen into the "ego-trap" of solipsism, and now i understand "classic solipsism" as " only my ego exists, everything else is imaginary". Which is of course huge misunderstanding. All my suffering in life, was nothing but a joke, compared to what i've been through lately. Seriously. I was a mentally stable person, but i totally underestimated what i was capable of going through. Be careful what you're getting into. I have big compassion for all people out there, who, just like me, fell, or will fall, into this hell abyss. So, here are some quotes, of beautiful souls of this forum, which helped me so much, with going through this. It helped me reframe this topic. I have no idea, what would i do without you guys. i want to sincerely thank you, for all the help, all the support, here on forum, and on the PM's. There was much, much, more than in this topic, but i can't include everything. Those are quotes, i've saved in my notepad, to read in the worst moments. THANK YOU GUYS. I really, really, love you all! Hope, one day, it will help someone else. In enlightenment, you're dead. There's no you left. You have realized that you are nothing, and everything is nothing. And don't let people fool you when they hear someone say "there's no you" and then they immediately reply "yes, you do exist!! you are everything!!" Well I got news for you: yes, you are everything. But in many of these cases, that "everything" can very well be a projection of ego onto a "larger" self, which is the case in normal solipsism. It's a case of "inflation", where the ego simply latches on to the finite mind and then claims it & itself (it projects itself onto the whole of finite experience) to be God as in "finite consciousness is everything there is". No-Self is probably the central insight - and of course, No-self has many "aspects" to it, like Love, Infinity, Everything... If Infinity doesn't mean "No-Self", then it's not Infinity and not enlightenment. Infinity simply means "no boundaries". It doesn't (just) mean "all possible experiences at once" (there are no "all possible experiences", strictly speaking), which is what some poeple believe the word to mean. Consciousness (you) are infinite as in: you have no boundaries and no limits, in no dimension. That's where the whole omnipotence / omnipresence stuff comes from, and of course, it's true. Consciousness is omnipresent (or as Shunyamurti says: "omnicentral"). Same goes for Love; No-Self = Love So yeah. Solipsism is based on a self. And this self can assume vast dimensions and make claims like "I am God" without actually knowing God, but instead just projecting itself onto finite experience and thereby claiming that to be everything there is (I am everything, as this finite "bubble", this is all there is). It's a highly dualistic doctrine. Enlightenment = No-Self, which is the same as God - and if No-Self isn't emphasized by whoever claims to know God, I'd be very suspicious... No-Self = No boundaries (Infinity), no finite "bubble", no "figments of imagination", no "POV", none of that. Also, No-Self = no problem. So there's no "though pill to swallow". So long as there is, you're missing something... Missing something!!, not "got something wrong". You might got things right, but only partially, hence the feeling of "having to face the Truth". Which inevitably will be the case, almost nobody gets all of it in one fell swoop, so keep going until there's neither you nor problems left. You ARE the Truth, there's nothing for you to face. @Tim R guess this whole solipsism issue boils down to what you identify with: A) Relative domain/ego -> This can be a huge trap. Beliving that my separate self or POV is the only thing in existence and other people are just figments of my imagination. Actually a belief which has the power to drive you insane. B) Absolute/God -> Well, this is the truth. Can't really be conceptualized and highly paradoxical. Nahm summarized it perfectly by saying "We're all alone together". @nistake You might not like it, but here we go again, because this is where confusion easily arises... "the only one that can awaken" is misleading... so is "you are God". I mean, who is the "you" that can be God? There isn't one... there is only God/Love/Reality. It's not a someone, a you or a me that it could be. It's not localized anywhere, it's not behind the eyes, it doesn't have a POV, it's nothing. This is the realization that is missing, if not from the direct experience of most who are on this forum, then at least from the communication that takes place here on a daily basis. @Gili Trawangan In fact, let me rant a little bit here. I would bet my left nut that there are more people here on the forum and in Leo's following who think they're awakened, but are actually delusional solipsists who believe their finite mind to be the whole of reality because their un-integrated spiritual ego has totally corrupted the mechanism by which they sought/seek Truth, namely what they perceived to be "direct experience", but which, because of the corruption, is not at all direct experience, but a perception of reality filtered and (mis-)interpreted through the finite ego-mind (I've talked about this extensively yeterday in Someone Here's post) that then proceeded to inflate itself and latch itself onto "experience". @Tim R If I think "I'm alone in the Universe". "My mom/wife/brother/whatever is not real". My emotions are immediately, directly saying "FUCK NO!" and I'm like "NO but I've BEEN TOLD BY THE WISE MASTER that I'm alone in the universe. I'm intelligent! I'm woke! I'm not a normie!" I'm not listening to my emotions. So I suffer. Suffer. Suffer. "I'm gonna get it! I'm gonna push through this wall!" Nope. You aren't. That wall just isn't there @mandyjw This is the numbest, dumbest realization out there. Nothing changes. There already aren't other people. Put your hand on a surface. Without thinking is there two sensations, one of "my" hand and one of "the surface". Or is it in the direct feeling ONE borderless sensation. Likewise Love is just plain borderless. This has always been. Always will be. You don't go around denying the existence or validity of people. Maybe you see them for the first time, your heart bursts open and you can't stop crying about how fucking beautiful the previously fat bitchy post office lady suddenly is seen to be, but other than kinda thing day in day out everyday, no big deal! Jesus people. It's that fucking simple. Everybody love everybody! -Will Ferrell "Love one another" - Jesus There ya go. @mandyjw Part of the problem is that solipsism is already defined. And as its been defined in the past by philosophers, its extremely misleading and NOT absolute truth. “Solipsism” in that way essentially means “my ego is all that exists”. Lol @aurum There is no one to be all alone. The ego co-opts awakening and claims ownership of God. There isn't a 'you', Reality/God is beyond being a self or not a self. It's infinite, it can appear as a self or as many selves whilst never actually being anything. These are thoughts that are being believed, you're too caught up in this forum's narrative. Truth is love, peace and happiness. There isn't 'other', but what's being missed is that there isn't a 'self' either. @Gili Trawangan You have to be careful about how you are using your mind here. Notice that a lot of mental activity is going on -- thinking -- and this thinking is putting you into negative states. This is not awakening nor consciousness, this is the ego-mind at work. Your mind is trying to compensate for lack of consciousness and awakening by coming up with philosophical conclusions and stories about reality. A thought like "I don't exist" is NOT awakening, nor is it high consciousness. I recommend a few things: 1) Stop thinking about this stuff so much and instead do a meditation practice like mindfulness with labeling so that you bust out of your mental masturbation. You have to learn to step outside your thoughts and observe them. Thinking about thinking is not the same thing as stepping outside of thinking and observing it. Taking your thinking too seriously is the fundamental problem here. 2) Make a rule with yourself that no matter how much you suffer or what you think, you will never physically harm yourself. 3) Make sure you create a fulfilling life for yourself before you go deep into spiritual seeking. Ground your life in normal stuff like career, life purpose, fitness, healthy eating, socialization, sex, relationships, friendships, learning, etc. 4) If you're going into spirituality have a rigorous practice that you do, not just thinking about spirituality. Thinking about spirituality is NOT a spiritual practice. @Leo Gura Solipsism is based on a duality, namely that of self (or: "consicous") and other (or "unconscious"). Consciousness is not centralized/localized, it is not inside your head, it is not exclusive to you, it is not exclusive to other people, it is not something on can either have or not have, one can neither "be conscious" or on the other hand, "be unconscious". There is no "your POV". It's an illusion, i.e. it seems like there is one, but there actually isn't. Consciousness is omicentral, it's everywhere. You are not conscious, other people, animals, plants, rocks, mountains, whatever, they are not unconscious either. The universe is consciousness. The whole of it. And everything and everyone in it is consciousness, but it's not what you think it is. You think of consciousness as this bubble of appearances, that's not at all what consciousness in and of itself is. @Tim R I know, I know, it hurts... But it is an illusion, a misunderstanding. She is as much consciousness as you are. The only thing left for you to understand is that you, as an ego, as the centralized consciousness that you currently believe yourself to be, are an illusion - the same of course applies to other human beings. What some people, including me, mean when they say "others don't exist", is exactly that; namely, that people don't exist as these centers of awareness - however, we all do exist as a singular field of consciousness, and it's possible to become aware of this. And then, Solipsism is solved. Beause you finally see that 1) you don't exist as an ego 2) others don't exist as egos 3) we all are one consciousness Even to speak of a "we" is already saying too much, because it implies "many". But that's for another day. If a so called "insight" makes you more miserable than before, that is a very solid indicator for you that you got something wrong, you missed something. That my friend, is good fucking news. @Tim R Ukrainian people, you, us, others, Leo, are creations of consciousness. Consciousness is uncreated or in other words infinity - because its not a thing, just the 'space' and more, for anything to happen. The quality of that 'space' is actually what everything is made of too. So that is what You are. It's asking yourself "Who am I?" and then you answer conventionally "I am Forza21", but then you ask again "Who am I beneath Forza21?" and then your answer is no thought - pure Consciousness - thats what we as living things actually are. When Form/creation appears within consciousness, it becomes distinct from consciousness by other forms/creation. Consciousness doesn't create distinctions that is why there is no you or me. Although I will add, paradoxically, Consciousness does create distinctions through its creation. That is why there is a you and me talking on this forum. In summary, everything is still real + you know the Truth. The One in you, is greater than the out in the world. and that One in us all, is the same. Hopefully that makes sense. @SgtPepper As a matter of direct experience, there are no others. There is only the aggregation of sight, taste, touch, sound, smell, and mind. As a matter of becoming directly conscious of what one is, it is experienced that the consciousness "inside of me" must be the same consciousness "inside of another." Why? Because this consciousness is completely pure, complete without quality or form. When looking into another being's eyes and questioning what they are, we can come to directly realize this consciousness looking out of each other's eyes shares the exact same nature and therefore by necessity, must be the same consciousness. It is paradoxical and a mindfuck. When one directly experiences Absolute Unity, all is seen to be one. It's not that other's don't exist. And it's not that you exist. And it's not that I exist. It's not that you are me, or I am you, nor is it that you are God and I am God. It's that there is a movement of infinite unity, and interdependency. The activity in one's mind is at the end of an infinite, interconnected chain of causes and conditions giving rise to outcomes and effects. All movements of relative reality interpenetrate and connect with all other movements of relative reality, at all levels. The personality cannot be separated from this totality. So when it's seen that there is no such thing as 'the' "personality" or the self, that the self is just a purely spontaneous movement, when we TRULY experience our real nature, what we are on all levels of relativity and absolutely cannot be separate from anything or anyone else. This is Solipsism. But that word and its philosophical implications are a poor conceptual framework for the unity I speak of. When the ego mind intellectualizes this, all kinds of resistances, fears, and twisted interpretations arise. When consciousness awakens to its own nature, a reservoir of endless compassion begins to open. Why? Because the suffering of another is, to some degree, experienced as one's own suffering. The suffering we find within ourselves is the suffering underneath the mind activity of other. There is no separation. There is no duality. When we see the necessity of alleviating our own suffering in order to come into union with truth, we see the necessity in alleviating the suffering of others, and perhaps all beings. For it is impossible to truly end our own suffering and therefore truly awaken to our true nature as long as a single being remains lost in Samsara. At least, this seems to be where my experience is going. @Consilience This is exactly why teachers like Rupert Spira reject solipsism, because people misunderstand it. It's generally a really bad pointer. It's also so ridiculously ironic that people have lately started shitting on the lessons of Neo-Advaita, because it's exactly what is needed to not misunderstand absolute solipsism. You are not your body-mind. You are infinite consciousness imagining body-minds. Infinite consciousness is alone, because there is nothing outside of infinity. @Carl-Richard Realizing how Creation is perfect, how Oneness is perfect, realizing that it is the best way it could be. Because it means that God is Whole, One and not seperated. You are literally all of Infinity, all of God right now, If you realize this on deeper levels you will realize the Perfectness and Love and Bliss and Beauty that Leo mentioned. Also, You are Infinity, so every person that could ever exist within Infinity is right here. Every possible human, animal, alien and universe shapeshifted into your bubble, became the substance of your bubble, become you, is you. You as God will keep dreaming and shapeshifting for ever, so from a relative perspective, all these other dreams, all these other forms exist too, and from that perspective you also aren't alone. @GreenWoods i also want to thank @Kksd74628 for all the love and support on priv and @Inliytened1 for all the love and explantations, even though i'm not ready for it love!! Forza21

Here is a video where he talks about the 'alien' subject in more depth if anyone interested.

Better term is unmanifest reality, inert reality, undistinguished reality, pure potential. When expressed you get manifest reality, dynamic reality, distinguished reality, the loss of potential. When people say they experienced nothingness it wasn't nothing cuz they were there to experience it. Nothingness and emptiness are just concepts for convenience, so you can just say "theres nothing in this cup" instead of saying this cup lacks everything you can list than can fit in the cup. "This room is empty" instead of saying this room is missing a cat, a dog, a horse, a girl, a rat, a bat, a hat, a fat babe, an alien, a cup of water, on and on.

A lot of the lunacy might come down to the choice of wording? I prefer the term creation over imagination, as imagination carries with it some implied control. People go off the rails thinking if they just smoke some 5-MeO and "become God consciousness" they can perform magic like Harry Potter or some shit. Of course, when there are no boundaries or limits whatsoever, there is nothing to grab. Any border of thingness you may expect to grab in order to manipulate you find is simply not there. You're at the full mercy of unstoppable creation, of Brahman. Experientially it is very frightening and just about the most alien thing anything could ever experience.

Technically you could, but, as I understand it, God sort of put itself inside a humongous Matryoshka doll set in order to limit itself. In a way, if you could blast through all of them you could pretty much do anything. Basically, God put itself in a hole and threw away the hole. He knows how powerful he really is, and the unleashing of that would just destroy the dream, so he hides his own self from itself so you can't do all that your "ego" wants to. Honestly, I don't buy this crap right here. There's no way God actually *wants* to experience intense suffering and suicide. Seek meaning, significance, to survive in an alien world in whatever way possible. I think shit just goes down and maybe we just have to work with what we've got. Also, as I understand it, this existence is highly based on faith and belief. Think about it, you don't actually believe you could create another Universe right now, and so you won't. You TRY to believe, you WANT to believe, but ultimately you don't, and so you won't be creating anything out of nothing any time soon.

@Matt23 no i believe I am insane and dont want to be "cured" of it. (I would like to be functioning, but I embrace the crazy through and through.) My belief is that this world has no place for me. I must of been 'born ahead of my time' or something it seems like, or I am an alien from Mars . I am extremely strange to both, conventional and unconventional people... @BipolarGrowth @Loba okay so ill try working on journaling and doing a checklist for a few daily routines + a bit more ... (Drinking water , take a walk outside, meditate) It is extremely hard because the more I resist giving up and wanting to turn things around, the harder it becomes to do it... I can never seem to meditate especially, its like my Achille's Heel... The more i fight to get myself to meditate, the more my shadow resents it altogether and less I am able to do at all... And it just keeps getting worse and worse ... Its like I have made it into some sort of PTSD like fear of relapsing into trying-to-be-all-I-can mode. Its like I really have a heart longing for going all into self-improvement, but over the years I have grown to rebuke it to where it is an inpenetrable wall now. Like in a fantasy movie where a person has grown exhausted of dreaming and it is all reluctance to answer the calling anymore.

Friday 04/03/2022 18:55 It's been over 4 weeks since I've started mirtazapine, 15mg dose. Nothing has changed and I'm still confused. Why can't I help but get the feeling I have nothing? It's not even that. I'm just so dissociated I don't know how to feel anymore. I feel emptied out of mental and emotional contents, but I'm still in this hell and I suffer. Before I used to talk about things as if I had been split in two, but now I don't know. I feel like I've really gone mad but no one can get it, and all the psyches can do is give some meds. They don't even think I'm psychotic so what the use. Still in this torture chamber. Normally I can't even cry, only when I feel like I'm on the absolute brink like I am now can I. And I can't think anymore either. Fear upon fear upon fear. I don't journal because I don't think or have a functioning mind anymore. I talk to others online through text but that's different. I need new glasses, these are broken, and I need to spend less time away from my phone and computer. I'm scared of what will be left of me if I drop my computer. I feel like I'll die. And the last time I was outside and exercising, all I could think about was unreality and feeling like I was dying. I'm still split in half and idk what I'm doing. One way up and one way down. I have to be mad, they just couldn't tell or couldn't be bothered to go deeper into it at the time, I have an appointment next week anyway. I think it's possible I went through all this suffering for nothing. I just want to die, and anytime I get in touch with my emotions and feelings again I just want to die. The past 4 weeks have been terrible. Somehow I got even worse. What more will be stolen from me? Language escapes me, to even say Im already dead feels like a stale repeat. I've dissociated my entire life and never knew what was real, so I have no salvation. All I can do apparently is try to relax, enjoy and get comfortable. But is even that true? Can I even do that much? I've lost more and suffered more than I ever thought was possible, so what can I possibly do or say to that? I've never felt normal, and all the dominos culminated to here. And then when you get to here there's no prize. What a bloody joke. And now I'm left here stranded and lonely, hungry yet full, thirsty yet hydrated, mad yet crazy. I have no hope for my existence after this. I keep clinging to this digital entombment in trying to cover my self in sheets and return to the womb. I'm out of the womb and I want back. Quite literally, I don't known who I am anymore. Using what memory I have, at least for the past few weeks this sense of self is completely alien to me [it's been much longer than that]. My thinking AND emotion are both gone yet present, present in whatever schizophrenic (I don't have a better word, urban dictionary 4 chan sense of the word) mess to best torture me. I've hidden from myself even deeper out of the raw fear I get when self awareness hits. I don't have the language anymore to write how I feel when I'm alone, it's in another dimension of dissociation. If we go with this metaphor, "dissociation" is only the key to enter the door to this place, but the actual place is full of so many rooms and furniture. But i cant describe these things, only the word "dissociation" exists as the concept for me that I can use, but I'm so aware now that it doesn't communicate. I use the word fear when not even fear fits (MONSTERS WHO EAT EVEN THOUGH THEY'VE NEVER EXPERIENCED HUNGER, MONSTERS WHO STUDY EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVE NO INTEREST IN ACADEMICS, MONSTERS WHO SEEK FRIENDSHIP EVEN THOUGH THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE) — It's as though I was an android crafted from the foolish experiments of my human self. It's as though I was a self-eating parasite designed to eat itself into oblivion, like some sort of time-travelling computer program terminator, and I'm but a sacrificial lamb on an alter of sacrifice I don't comprehend. Now that would be dark. The artificial creature has already shed its skin and its first limbs have sprung forth. The digital dystopia has begun "Fear", "dissociation". The past month I've literally lost all verbalising or emotive ability and become an animal. Only thing which can happen positively is that I get enough of my mind, emotions and self back to want to kill myself. Because right now, I'm so dissolved in the aether I can't formulate or be aware of a thing. But it's clear as day to me now, I want to die. The "will to live", that blind omnipresent thing is ever present. Like a devil he whispers your ear, to no avail. I thought I understood myself, but I don't. I'm sick and tired of myself all the time. People who are solipsistic will feel that too. When my lucidity scarcely returns to me I'm unhinged. Lucidity escapes me, and when lucid I will go all the way. AM I DEALING WITH A PARASITE OR INFECTION? I DONT KNOW. Why am I asleep? Attempts to recussitate the emotions gone are what you called artificial. The insights I had on lsd in regards to my situation make sense to me now. I used to feel like my mind was a whirling tornado, and what I became now was but one unit-cell in the tornado/crystal which was amplified and zoomed in on for no reason. It existed for no other reason than itself. It exists for no reason other than itself; that is what selfishness means. -- But what's been up with me the past several weeks? The simple description was right. "I have zero mental or emotional contents to work with". First it giveth, then it taketh away. Music used to make me feel something, now it does nothing. Everyone but me isn't amnesiac about the past few months and year.*BULLSHIT*, no one remembers the past that well, more bullshit you try to pull. *See the split?* AFTER THE BRIEFEST OF GLIMPSES OF LUCIDITY, I see its alright. Its alright if I die, it's alright if I live and nothing happens. ARTIFICIAL ARTIFICIAL Artificial Artificial ; what lies here? A fake is always inferior to the real thing, and no smart quotes can fix that. At the deeper level I've just been desperate, hungry, to feel something again and get a story going. But I've been running dry and it makes me so grumpy and moody. Is it possible I'm a defunct sociopath of sorts? But do I want just any story? No. I want the story of my own triumph and victory. Alas, no such story exist. Nothing exists besides appearance, all is empty. Hah. Fuck you, anti-life vermin. If I entertain the hypothetical that I'm an android, maybe real hypothetical, what would you do? Is there a possibility that I'm an android and that human behaviour generally isn't robotic? I couldn't say. My friend asked me why I'm cynical and jaded about human nature, and I said And I think this is the belief. This is my general skepticism, upon seeing that humans and my own nature is layers upon layers. Layers are impersonal and mechanical, sometimes cruel in my case as a sentient-android thing that wants to feel. If disrupting someone's possessions and needs is enough to make people discard morality, then that shows it wasn't real to begin with. Therefore I should limit test people to see if they're truly moral. On the other hand, maybe you should make conditions optimum for people to be moral, by using the fact it's deterministic? See, it's funny you can take those two different angles on the topic of it. What one should make of that fact isn't determined at least, lmao But the general idea is right. Reverse The Hierophant. Whatever cannot be destroyed is the only thing which can be true. Therefore it's alright whatever happens, but it's not alright for me now is it? It's not alright. Still an incel, no life, in mom's basement type of thing ————— Take that inference far enough and it would say my life and experiences "untrue". Hmmm. Nothing lasts and all is in flux, so that would mean nothing is true by that standard? "Destroyed". Hmmm. Truth is that which exists and untruth is that which doesn't. Does truth exist? Yes. How do I know? Because I say so. But does saying so make it true that truth exists? Cue self-references. Ugh. Whenever I answer yes or no questions , "no" to me is the absence of a yes. It isn't a positive quality. Some people see all dualities as the changes in one variable. I don't know why this technicality should help anyone practically, but this small detail could be the tenth of a hair width between heaven and hell to some. That's a tangent from truth, but idc to think about truth that much now. NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER NÎGGER.

They should go more after someone like that Bentinho guy. Who is talking about creating an 'enlightened city', being an alien, creating a social hivemind , targeting young girls with mental health issues so he can sexually abuse them etc.

I actually can’t understand this. It’s totally not a criticism, it just feels so totally alien to how I (and I suspect many men) experience sexuality that I struggle to even empathise with it like I wish I could

A person and an alien walk towards a signpost. To the human it looks like it walked a distance of 100 metres and the signpost itself is like, a pole with a wooden arrow (w.e.). To the alien, it may well look like it walked 5 metres, and the post itself might look like an eagle heiroglyph or some shit (because there's no reason this couldn't happen). But both the human and the alien reach the "signpost". Its actuality can't be anything perceived, so it can't actually be "like" anything. As in, that is not just a theory, it's impossible anything could be "like" something without perception. So wtf is it. It has to be nothing, because things are perceptions. But the nothing has some kind of shape and form to it, so beings with completely alien subjective experiences can agree there is "SOMETHING" there. What is the mechanism for the placement of "unspecified-nothingness-thing"? Are infinite versions of the same thing there at once? What is it though, that places it "there" at a specific spot in the landscape.....

As @Tim R said, nothing really changed. The dream is still the same. If you could enjoy it before, you can enjoy it now. And as others mentioned, when you have a complete and balanced awakening, it's not negative, but perfect and blissful. You woke up from the dream, but maybe you didn't realize the other facets of awakening equally deeply. Every kind of negativity or depression comes from the ego. It wants it one way rather than another way. With a full ego death, there is no depression. But yeah I understand, right now you probably aren't interested in dissolving your ego more, in order to be happy with Truth, but rather to get back some of the illusion to enjoy the dream as before, the way your ego was used to enjoying it. If you want to go back, forget about spirituality and immerse yourself in the dream, after some weeks you will probably have regained a lot of the illusion (unless you went seriously deep). Or you try to deal with it, integrate it. After some time, which can take months, it will be the new normal. You had a deep awakening, but there is more to understand. Realizing how Creation is perfect, how Oneness is perfect, realizing that it is the best way it could be. Because it means that God is Whole, One and not seperated. You are literally all of Infinity, all of God right now, If you realize this on deeper levels you will realize the Perfectness and Love and Bliss and Beauty that Leo mentioned. Also, You are Infinity, so every person that could ever exist within Infinity is right here. Every possible human, animal, alien and universe shapeshifted into your bubble, became the substance of your bubble, become you, is you. You as God will keep dreaming and shapeshifting for ever, so from a relative perspective, all these other dreams, all these other forms exist too, and from that perspective you also aren't alone.

I really dont believe this man channels an alien entity, but I do respect how eloquent and quick he is with his answers

I'm in an altered state. Other people are created unconsciously via perception. What gives another person "thingness" is the same perception that gives dead inert matter its "thingness", in other words it's via sensing that other people are created as "things". A bat may perceive a person with its sonar vision, but of course the "thingness" of the person rendered via the bat would be completely alien, as the person would be made of sonar sight. From a human perspective, the people are created in audio, visual, etc. it's perception that gives them human shape and the sound of their voice. A blind person's creation of a human is alien to a sighted person's representation of the same. There is nothing preventing a human from appearing as tiny symbols or sounding like foghorns, the creation is entirely subjective. Many people can agree on what the symbol represents, but the symbol itself will be subjective to the perceptions of the individual. The fakeness of time allows for backlogging of events. There is no event you are not present for. If you enter a coma, coming out of that coma you will learn of people's prior experiences whilst you were in that coma. The assumption is that your presence was not there while those events happened. In actuality the presence remained. The events took place instantaneously and presently, as do all events. The entire material world is subjective like a dream, in that it is made up of perceptions and something akin to """imagination""". Like the creation of people, the whole material world is created on the fly via perception consisting of whatever sensory input that may be. Something which is not perceived cannot have "thingness" because any "thingness" is reliant on perception. Water boils if you walk out of the room, but it is not in the kitchen LOOKING or SOUNDING like a boiling kettle. Without perception it is not a thing. All things without perception appear like the world when you are in a coma. It doesn't appear at all and there is no passage of time and space. The passage of time and space is something that is perceived. Without perception all events are immediate and without thingness. All events leading up to now were immediate. All living beings reside within you. There is no external material world. All points of view take place within you through different masks which is what the ego is. When another human being experiences reality the "I" which creates reality around them, consisting of their sensory creations, is the same one residing back within you. The entire world from any perspective appears from the same "I" through which the world is subjectively crafted around you. All of reality is subjective as all "thingness" is subjective. Objective facts which make up "consensus reality" are sort of like mass hallucination. It's not the ego self which creates reality, the ego self creates a subjective representation of a reality which is outside the scope of its limited self. The imagination/creation of unperceived elements is outside the scope of the small-s self. Another human being is like a visual avatar representing an element of your own mind. Your OWN self is also a representation of an aspect of your own mind, and is equally as unreal as "others". You don't choose your thoughts, and you don't choose the thoughts of others. It all appears unfolding by itself within the same field. Lucidity will always be lost. That is good. I'm losing lucidity right now and that is good. When lucid you only exit the game like stirring from a nighttime dream. It is fleeting and falling back asleep is inevitable. This process is forever. Any interpretation of goodness or badness is subjective to the ego like any appearance is. Nothing can in actuality be inherently good or bad, as good or bad is reliant upon the interpretation of the individual, which itself will of course always just be an appearance taking place within existence. It crafts its actuality via subjective perception. The sheer awareness of this supercedes all reality, as all reality can only ever be an appearance within it, obviously. I.e., no matter what sensory "things" appear, it will always be reliant upon awareness to give it an actuality. Without awareness, the visual representations along with time and space have no actuality, like being comatose there is no "thing" in absence of awareness. Awareness cannot be destroyed because it is by itself nothingness, and there is nowhere for nothingness to go, and no way to destroy nothingness. This is the meaning of emptiness: Awareness by itself is nothing, and the contents of awareness robbed OF that awareness are also nothing. Nothing can "be" without the presence of awareness as it is all skipped over like a coma. Time and space are a form of substrate through which experience takes place. Without experience there is, obviously, no experience of time and space. Now I have lost lucidity... Oh well...

Matter is a 1:1 representational interface of our dream, that is why mind and matter are completely glued together such that toying with the matter which represents the act of "being human" (your brain) will alter the lived experience of "being human". It can get extremely alien indeed. Especially on Salvinorin A. The Big Bang is the most obvious artifact of our complete unity. Exploring matter IS exploring "mind", like if you fall asleep right now and explore the substance of your dream. The substance in your nightly dream which appears physical is the activity of your mind. Exploring that substance then, is of course exploring mind. Because that's what matter is.