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How is alien awakening higher than Infinite Love Awakening?

The deepest self-bias many of us hold is the idea that we are humans, biological creatures. This is so normalized because we have no reference point of what it is like to experience Reality as a non-human. Imagine being an ant, a boulder, a four-headed alien or the color magenta. How would that impact your existence? Go deep into meditation and drop the notion that you are a human on a planet. Just be. This is especially important in doing any sort of self-inquiry or philosophy. It's mind-blowing to me that scientists don't grasp this idea. Science is taking Reality and filtering it not only through your immense human bias, but then filtering it once more through your narrow lens of what fits the scientific paradigm. Whatever you have left at this point is just an infinitely small reduction of the very thing you were trying to understand.

Well, takes one to know one, I suppose. Even in childhood, I used to fantasize that I was a supernatural being... as I was always trying to set myself apart from others. Part of that was a reflection of a difficulty with belonging... of being different in a bad way and feeling outcast and disconnected. And the other was this driver to be different and superlative in some way... and to diverge either in quality or in kind from others. And my adolescent identity followed suit with that... as I was always trying to be a special snowflake and avoid common humanity. And that embrace of my inner alien and the pride in my divergence enabled me to develop a lot of special skills and qualities that I otherwise wouldn't have developed. But the re-integration of ordinariness has been at the heart of my inner work since 2021... when Ayahuasca showed me how everything I had ever wanted is on the other end of integrating ordinariness. The medicine kept bringing me back and forth between two states... One state was my usual MO, just exaggerated... which was polarization into extraordinariness to the exclusion of ordinariness. And the sense of disconnection and alienation was very palpable (a feeling I hadn't been cognizant of since childhood). It was like being a puzzle piece that had gotten taken up out of the puzzle and was floating in thin air, with all the weight of existence resting squarely on my head and shoulders. Then, the medicine would bring me back into the integration between both extraordinariness and ordinariness... and I felt connected with humanity, with nature, and one with the universe at large. And the existential weight was lifted from me, and I could relax and exist in this highly connected state. And the plant teacher kept toggling me back and forth between these two states until I understood what it was showing me. Then, it put me in this "scene" that was like I was at the precipice of connection... almost like a line. And I had all these ordinary collective phrases flitting through my my mind like: community, family, church, relationship, etc. And I felt this deep aversion to all of these words, as it was always what I was trying to avoid. But I sat there shaky on the edge of the decision to enter the realm of the collective ordinariness... but fearful to do so. So, I know that one of my biggest growth arcs comes with the integration of ordinariness... as it frees me up from being the nail that sticks out and bears the entire weight of the universe. But it's difficult after 25+ years of consciously trying to be an alien and feeling such a strong aversion to all things ordinary and average.

Yes, I agree with that assessment.... and I think this difficulty respecting people comes from a lack of appreciation for ordinariness. And it's challenging, I think, because she has a lot of great points about how people tend to use humility to avoid their own greatness... and to try to be "good" whilst sacrificing so much potential. And there's a lot that 90% of people could really benefit from hearing, because people's identity of humility can and does hold them back from their full potential. But for someone like Teal Swan who has such a strong polarization into extraordinariness and such an aversion to ordinariness... it creates this difficulty just relating to people on a common, eye-to-eye level. It's like disliking humanity to the degree that you try to become a special and beautiful alien.

@Natasha Tori Maru I can see Ross bring an Australian bloodhound to sniff for alien corpses in the middle of the New Mexico desert. Behind every bush might be an alien corpse.

I've been incepting deep into those instincts reality filters through. It usually just feels like the collective world keeps pulling me back. I've dreamed wanting to disappear but became the world instead. I told an entity I wanted my mind shut off, faded out to reappear. Dissolving away, seeing scaling galactic civilizations flash my eyes, I awoke on the ground as a member of natives doing an initiation, being announced back I immediately replied "I'm another person!". Had placebo peaks overriding reality initiating collective mandellas. Had alien telepathy encounters they tried to erase out of memory. And human telepathy gets overridden and outsourced to oversouls. When reality gets too incoherent, it loops, rewinds, freezes, forces. And the funniest was when I caught the matrix at synchronicity. When another perspective re-simulated my whole environment. And I immediately shifted out of hypnosis into meta-awareness. Seeing it trying to undo and cover its tracks was totally hilarious. Imagine a live other trying to recontextualize itself as a recording.

We could link up all the areas and open up more spatial dimension with each SD stage jump to awaken into. Then project it all into each person's aesthetic ego filter (like the Infinite Improbability Drive). Basically perception would snap what's too alien into familiar form until open mindedness increases. And increasing it and opening up new channels would be the main event!

The realization of Absolute Solipsism restores the state of Heaven in your mind. These quotes are for the mature awakened mind. Suggested accompanying music: All quotes are from A Course in Miracles: _________________________________________________________________ Nothing at all has happened but that you have put yourself to sleep, and dreamed a dream in which you were an alien to yourself, and but a part of someone else’s dream. ²The miracle does not awaken you, but merely shows you who the dreamer is. It teaches you there is a choice of dreams while you are still asleep, depending on the purpose of your dreaming. ⁴Do you wish for dreams of healing, or for dreams of death? ⁵A dream is like a memory in that it pictures what you wanted shown to you. _________________________________________________________________ The Garden of Eden, or the pre-separation condition, was a state of mind in which nothing was needed. ²When Adam listened to the “lies of the serpent,” all he heard was untruth. ³You do not have to continue to believe what is not true unless you choose to do so. ⁴All that can literally disappear in the twinkling of an eye because it is merely a misperception. ⁵What is seen in dreams seems to be very real. ⁶Yet the Bible says that a deep sleep fell upon Adam, and nowhere is there reference to his waking up. _________________________________________________________________ You are at home in God, dreaming of exile but perfectly capable of awakening to reality. ²Is it your decision to do so? ³You recognize from your own experience that what you see in dreams you think is real while you are asleep. ⁴Yet the instant you waken you realize that everything that seemed to happen in the dream did not happen at all. ⁵You do not think this strange, even though all the laws of what you awaken to were violated while you slept. ⁶Is it not possible that you merely shifted from one dream to another, without really waking? _________________________________________________________________ Does not a world that seems quite real arise in dreams? ²Yet think what this world is. ³It is clearly not the world you saw before you slept. ⁴Rather it is a distortion of the world, planned solely around what you would have preferred. _________________________________________________________________ Dreams show you that you have the power to make a world as you would have it be, and that because you want it you see it. ²And while you see it you do not doubt that it is real. ³Yet here is a world, clearly within your mind, that seems to be outside. ⁴You do not respond to it as though you made it, nor do you realize that the emotions the dream produces must come from you. ⁵It is the figures in the dream and what they do that seem to make the dream. ⁶You do not realize that you are making them act out for you, for if you did the guilt would not be theirs, and the illusion of satisfaction would be gone. ⁷In dreams these features are not obscure. ⁸You seem to waken, and the dream is gone. ⁹Yet what you fail to recognize is that what caused the dream has not gone with it. ¹⁰Your wish to make another world that is not real remains with you. ¹¹And what you seem to waken to is but another form of this same world you see in dreams. ¹²All your time is spent in dreaming. ¹³Your sleeping and your waking dreams have different forms, and that is all. ¹⁴Their content is the same. ¹⁵They are your protest against reality, and your fixed and insane idea that you can change it. _________________________________________________________________ No one can waken from a dream the world is dreaming for him. ²He becomes a part of someone else’s dream. ³He cannot choose to waken from a dream he did not make. ⁴Helpless he stands, a victim to a dream conceived and cherished by a separate mind. ⁵Careless indeed of him this mind must be, as thoughtless of his peace and happiness as is the weather or the time of day. ⁶It loves him not, but casts him as it will in any role that satisfies its dream. ⁷So little is his worth that he is but a dancing shadow, leaping up and down according to a senseless plot conceived within the idle dreaming of the world. This is the only picture you can see; the one alternative that you can choose, the other possibility of cause, if you be not the dreamer of your dreams. ²And this is what you choose if you deny the cause of suffering is in your mind. ³Be glad indeed it is, for thus are you the one decider of your destiny in time. ⁴The choice is yours to make between a sleeping death and dreams of evil or a happy wakening and joy of life. You are the dreamer of the world of dreams. ²No other cause it has, nor ever will. ³Nothing more fearful than an idle dream has terrified God’s Son, and made him think that he has lost his innocence, denied his Father, and made war upon himself. ⁴So fearful is the dream, so seeming real, he could not waken to reality without the sweat of terror and a scream of mortal fear, unless a gentler dream preceded his awaking, and allowed his calmer mind to welcome, not to fear, the Voice that calls with love to waken him; a gentler dream, in which his suffering was healed and where his brother was his friend. ⁵God willed he waken gently and with joy, and gave him means to waken without fear. Accept the dream He gave instead of yours. ²It is not difficult to change a dream when once the dreamer has been recognized. ³Rest in the Holy Spirit, and allow His gentle dreams to take the place of those you dreamed in terror and in fear of death. ⁴He brings forgiving dreams, in which the choice is not who is the murderer and who shall be the victim. ⁵In the dreams He brings there is no murder and there is no death. ⁶The dream of guilt is fading from your sight, although your eyes are closed. ⁷A smile has come to lighten up your sleeping face. ⁸The sleep is peaceful now, for these are happy dreams. _________________________________________________________________ Let us return the dream he gave away unto the dreamer, who perceives the dream as separate from himself and done to him. ²Into eternity, where all is one, there crept a tiny, mad idea, at which the Son of God remembered not to laugh. ³In his forgetting did the thought become a serious idea, and possible of both accomplishment and real effects. ⁴Together, we can laugh them both away, and understand that time cannot intrude upon eternity. ⁵It is a joke to think that time can come to circumvent eternity, which means there is no time. 7. A timelessness in which is time made real; a part of God that can attack itself; a separate brother as an enemy; a mind within a body all are forms of circularity whose ending starts at its beginning, ending at its cause. ²The world you see depicts exactly what you thought you did. ³Except that now you think that what you did is being done to you. ⁴The guilt for what you thought is being placed outside yourself, and on a guilty world that dreams your dreams and thinks your thoughts instead of you. ⁵It brings its vengeance, not your own. ⁶It keeps you narrowly confined within a body, which it punishes because of all the sinful things the body does within its dream. ⁷You have no power to make the body stop its evil deeds because you did not make it, and cannot control its actions nor its purpose nor its fate. 8. The world but demonstrates an ancient truth; you will believe that others do to you exactly what you think you did to them. ²But once deluded into blaming them you will not see the cause of what they do, because you want the guilt to rest on them. ³How childish is the petulant device to keep your innocence by pushing guilt outside yourself, but never letting go! ⁴It is not easy to perceive the jest when all around you do your eyes behold its heavy consequences, but without their trifling cause. The secret of salvation is but this: that you are doing this unto yourself. ²No matter what the form of the attack, this still is true. ³Whoever takes the role of enemy and of attacker, still is this the truth. ⁴Whatever seems to be the cause of any pain and suffering you feel, this is still true. ⁵For you would not react at all to figures in a dream you knew that you were dreaming. ⁶Let them be as hateful and as vicious as they may, they could have no effect on you unless you failed to recognize it is your dream. This single lesson learned will set you free from suffering, whatever form it takes. ²The Holy Spirit will repeat this one inclusive lesson of deliverance until it has been learned, regardless of the form of suffering that brings you pain. ³Whatever hurt you bring to Him He will make answer with this very simple truth. ⁴For this one answer takes away the cause of every form of sorrow and of pain. ⁵The form affects His answer not at all, for He would teach you but the single cause of all of them, no matter what their form. ⁶And you will understand that miracles reflect the simple statement, “I have done this thing, and it is this I would undo.” ⁴Salvation is a secret you have kept but from yourself. How differently will you perceive the world when this is recognized! _________________________________________________________________ Could it be some dreams are kept, and others wakened from? ⁵The choice is not between which dreams to keep, but only if you want to live in dreams or to awaken from them. ⁶Thus it is the miracle does not select some dreams to leave untouched by its beneficence. ⁷You cannot dream some dreams and wake from some, for you are either sleeping or awake. ⁸And dreaming goes with only one of these. (ACIM, T-29.IV.1:4-8) _________________________________________________________________ You choose your dreams, for they are what you wish, perceived as if it had been given you. ⁵Your idols do what you would have them do, and have the power you ascribe to them. ⁶And you pursue them vainly in the dream, because you want their power as your own. Yet where are dreams but in a mind asleep? ²And can a dream succeed in making real the picture it projects outside itself? ³Save time, my brother; learn what time is for. ⁴And speed the end of idols in a world made sad and sick by seeing idols there. ⁵Your holy mind is altar unto God, and where He is no idols can abide. ⁶The fear of God is but the fear of loss of idols. ⁷It is not the fear of loss of your reality. ⁸But you have made of your reality an idol, which you must protect against the light of truth. ⁹And all the world becomes the means by which this idol can be saved. ¹⁰Salvation thus appears to threaten life and offer death. It is not so. ²Salvation seeks to prove there is no death, and only life exists. _________________________________________________________________ There can be no salvation in the dream as you are dreaming it. ²For idols must be part of it, to save you from what you believe you have accomplished, and have done to make you sinful and put out the light within you. ³Little child, the light is there. ⁴You do but dream, and idols are the toys you dream you play with. ⁵Who has need of toys but children? ⁶They pretend they rule the world, and give their toys the power to move about, and talk and think and feel and speak for them. ⁷Yet everything their toys appear to do is in the minds of those who play with them. ⁸But they are eager to forget that they made up the dream in which their toys are real, nor recognize their wishes are their own. Nightmares are childish dreams. ²The toys have turned against the child who thought he made them real. ³Yet can a dream attack? ⁴Or can a toy grow large and dangerous and fierce and wild? ⁵This does the child believe, because he fears his thoughts and gives them to the toys instead. ⁶And their reality becomes his own, because they seem to save him from his thoughts. ⁷Yet do they keep his thoughts alive and real, but seen outside himself, where they can turn against him for his treachery to them. ⁸He thinks he needs them that he may escape his thoughts, because he thinks the thoughts are real. ⁹And so he makes of anything a toy, to make his world remain outside himself, and play that he is but a part of it. There is a time when childhood should be passed and gone forever. ²Seek not to retain the toys of children. ³Put them all away, for you have need of them no more. _________________________________________________________________ Forgiving dreams have little need to last. ²They are not made to separate the mind from what it thinks. ³They do not seek to prove the dream is being dreamed by someone else. ⁴And in these dreams a melody is heard that everyone remembers, though he has not heard it since before all time began. ⁵Forgiveness, once complete, brings timelessness so close the song of Heaven can be heard, not with the ears, but with the holiness that never left the altar that abides forever deep within the Son of God. ⁶And when he hears this song again, he knows he never heard it not. ⁷And where is time, when dreams of judgment have been put away? _________________________________________________________________ The happy dreams the Holy Spirit brings are different from the dreaming of the world, where one can merely dream he is awake. ²The dreams forgiveness lets the mind perceive do not induce another form of sleep, so that the dreamer dreams another dream. ³His happy dreams are heralds of the dawn of truth upon the mind. ⁴They lead from sleep to gentle waking, so that dreams are gone. ⁵And thus they cure for all eternity.

Spiritual Resonance As the cosmic energies align, we journey through the luminous veil of awakened consciousness. Embrace the vibrational frequency of universal love, allowing your essence to merge with the boundless flow of divine intention. Within the sacred geometry of the soul, we unlock ancient wisdom, transcending the illusion of separateness. the Clare Graves & Spiral Dynamics theory (which I felt was so accurate in the first tier) from the perspective as a yellow, what is the transitional dilemma and what is aqua like? So, I'm pretty scared of over-raking myself, but I feel like I am a yellow - I have done a lot of self seeking for years now, and when watching Leo's Clare Graves & Spiral Dynamics, I could follow the system right up to yellow, and I could see in my life how I went from blue, orange, green, yellow. I do associate myself with yellow quite a lot when hearing about their qualities, but as to what might be next seems alien to me, and what aqua could be for me. I want to aim to change myself for the better (obviously), but is there any advice for yellow except to be open minded (which is working really well lately)? I have read about aqua but I'm not too sure about what I read - even the other colours seemed off in their descriptions. Here is my theory, Yellow is like enlightenment.1 in which you realize your ego, gain a strong and real sense of losing the self, seeing life as the pure-experience it is just in this moment. But, at this stage, as to what reality actually is, is still a bit of a mystery - and studying about quantim physics and science in general doesn't help that much. This seems to be where I am at I would say, and although I am learning new realizations steeply (as compared to before), I cannot tell where this is leading, and I just feel a bit lost as to what I should be changing into with these new realizations. Aqua is like enlightenment.2, as a common example, what people say Buddha would have reached. This would be complete connection with reality (I have heard that is a theme). The brain should have some physical limit as to its comprehension, there must be a limit somewhere right This was sort of hard to communicate with language but I hope that is clear and all.

We could use remote viewing to find alien species at millions of light years of distance

Metalentless: Meaning that it doesn't have metaphysical intelligence, intelligence about abstract concepts from pure philosophy, such as Reality, Love, God, etc. Example: A hyper advanced Alien species has been discovered. We've communicated with them and they think we're Metalentless.

Infinity in all dimensions, Alien intelligence, hyper-dimensional DMT beings, yet also a flat hallucination localized to my physiological point of view. Truly marvelous mental gymnastics. You're assuming such depth of ontology, of things that are implicit and hidden, multiplistic and rich, yet you also collapse it all down to the flattest ontology of them all; only what is most explicit and obvious, limited and constrained. Why? We can have an infinity of universes with an infinite variety of qualities and things, yet only one person on Earth who experiences, only one perspective that exists. Good one. As if multiplying a perspective is not the most obvious thing you can do as a Creator. Just because your eyes are limited to 3D doesn't mean God is. God runs his simulation in 4D, 5D, 6D, playing Chess inside a microbe on your nutsack. Open your god damn mind, or just get it out of your ass.

But that progress is built off gruelling, often risky work. Civil Rights didn’t just happen. The abolition of slavery didn’t just happen. These things had to be fought for, by millions of people, against the powers that be that benefited from the corrupt status quo. Honestly, I’m not even saying become a revolutionary. I think old Marxist ideas are completely out of date. I’m not even sure if violence is necessary. But what is necessary is a degree of courage, selflessness and principled action most of us have just kind of forgotten about. We got to use to our cushy lives that the idea we could have a positive impact became alien to us. Calling out violence, racism and fascism isn’t a huge ask. Calling your local representatives, reaching out to vulnerable people, supporting holistic political causes isn’t a big ask. In fact, for living in some of the most prosperous societies on the planet, it’s probably the least you could do. And of course, if you’re up for it, attend protests. Be disciplined and non-violent, but resist government tyranny all the same. I’d like to point out that literally no one has died in these protests so far (compared to the Jan 6th insurrection, which led to multiple deaths.) Taking direct political action isn’t even some radical political idea - it was how America was founded. I don’t understand how all of this isn’t self-evident. If you’re a conservative for whatever reason this won’t appeal to you, but then I’d say… conservatism has failed in bettering the lives of people. All it provides is defense of greed, hatred and wilful ignorance. There are some good conservative ideas but they died as a legitimate political force in 2016 when Republicans decided Trump would make a good president. Why not be a force for good, in whatever capacity you can? Whether that’s as an activist, a community organiser, a politician, or even just someone who checks in on their neighbours? How tf is that so frightening? Lmao. Talk about a “male loneliness epidemic” 🤣 And always remember, we can and we will win. It’s written in the stars. The question isn’t a matter of if, but how. Will it come after 15 years, with constant relentless bullshit from fascist MAGA in the meantime? Or will it come much sooner than that, if only we work for it?

Haha, yeah, again, not possible. Each type has a dominant function. INFP's dom is Fi, which is a world apart from INTP's Ti. Every function is very distinct. You can hop in and out of functions but you have a few that are your go-to, and those go-to functions determine your type. For me, when I go out in public for like 4 hours to the mall or something, I get absolutely energetically wiped out. Why? It's because I'm being forced to leave my preferred functions. It's harder for me to operate outside them. Miguel is Fe (extraverted feeling) dominant, which is all about catering to external emotional dynamics. Fe is last in my stack. I don't give a shit about social harmony and if I try to, it feels alien to me (I want social harmony but I want others to maintain it 😆). So if you put me in an environment where Fe is strong, I will not be happy because I see such endeavors as a waste of my precious time. Same goes for everyone when they're forced to engage their shadow functions. If you're an INFP, you hate these things: Making quick decisions Too much sensory input or chaotic environments Cold, detached logical criticism (feels like personal attack) Pressure to act against your inner values If those don't have a problem with these, you're not INFP.

It's supposed to be so. It's what's called enlightenment, where the person is totally and permanently open to their true, unlimited nature and perceives the becoming of form as simply form, without differentiating one thing from another, completely in the absolute. Completely alien to human impulses, someone who, for example, could spend two years in a cave in silence, doing absolutely nothing, while remaining open to infinity all time without any loneliness. The question is: Does someone like that exist? Has anyone really enlightened ever existed? I would say yes, and sure that's wonderful being in that state, but a lot of barriers, a lot of desire, don't you perceive them?

Interesting scale to understand alien civilizations

07.06.2025. Ego Speaking Im still trying to discover who I truly am, and what my purpose is. I want to know why I was born and why did I have the experiences that I did. What made me do it? Im still thinking if I should burn through my karmic desires? Should I have sex or no? Does it emotionally and spiritually attach me to other person? What is True? What is the goal of life? Why am I here? Where did this Univrerse originate? Who created it and why? Why are we here? I have so many questions about my personal life and about this reality in general, I dont even know where to start. Maybe I should just try to experience more of life and try to live more then I will get the better understainding of the life as a whole and then maybe I will get closer to the truth. If I understand something, how can I know that it is true as well? How can I know? Well I can know if I can confirm it in my direct experience. But how can I know what is the origin of this universe, how? How can I get to the bottom the of the deepest truths about this reality. This reality is so complex, so much more complex than I thought. It may not be even comprehensable in one life. What if I wont be able to know the answers to the questions? Maybe I should start looking again into science and physicis for example and then quantum physics. I need to understand. But why do I crave understanding? What am I searching for? What will I achieve once I understand? What will I gain? What when you get to the truth of this reality? What happens then? Imagine it, imagine you got answers to your most deep questions about this reality How this Universe got created? Who created it? God? ETs? Simulation? Benevolent God? Demiurge? What is my purpose on this Earth? What is the purpose of the collective humanity on Earth? What is the end goal of human life? Why do we exist at all? Is it a God experiencing Infinite Perspectives all at once, is it everyone living their own life and growing as a collective consicosuness in the vastness of Infinite Possilbility. What is the End Goal? Where do we go from here? What happens before Birth? What happens after Death? Is there reincarnation? Is this reality controled by ETs/Demons or is it a Divine Similuation for souls to grow? What is the spiritual/astral dimension? How can I know whats true? Everyone seems to have their own perspecitive, their own version of Truth and understanding of Reality We all live in the one shared Reality but it also seems like there are 8 Billion individual Realities for each human of Earth. So who is wrong, who is right? There are so many cultures, traditions, religions, perspectives on life and in some way they can all be true and false, it only matters through which perspective or paradgim you look at the world with. How can I get to the bottom of this? What if the truth is Infinte? Can it even be grasped? What if Im searching for something that cannot even be understood like an Ant could look at the TV and understand 0. What if a human is that compared to Infinity or even a greater distance. I want to know the answers to the most deep questions, but I dont even know who to trust, where to look or what to think. How can I verify it? And then, there is my soul. The twisted Duality of Light and Darkness. It feels like I have Infinite Light and Infinite Darkness within me. Like Im Infinitly dual, like the Shadow and Light exist within me. This all puzzles me to my core, there is so much mystery and uncertainty regarding my whole life and experiences Ive lived its unreal. But in the end the questions should be answered and I feel like I will know one day why it is like it is and why it happened like it did. I didnt do any unreversable damange to myself or others so I can also say Im blessed, Ive been through the 3 years of mostly darkness and now again Im starting to feel life again like I felt in the 2019 20 21 when I was leveling up every day with so much intensity and love for life. Years 2022 23 24 served as a spiritual lauchpad for my growth, there was so much darkness within those years and now it seems like it starting to get back to the other side as if the pandelum has swang in the opposite direction again. 2018 was my enemy year and a pretty rough year to say the least. But 2019 20 21 were some of the best years of my life in terms of fun, fulfillment, motivation and happiness. 2022, 2023, 2024 were some of the most spiritually dark (with few good days/weeks), but the overall trend was definitely a dark one, so it looks like life goes from ups to downs and you cannot force life to go a certain way, you will experience exactly what you need in order for your soul to grow. So that brings me to my final question and that is - Infinity. Why am I drawn to this so much? Why is Infinity so emotionally charged in my psyche. Why does it matter? It seems as I will uncover the Truth about Infinity during my life and then I will realize something that will make me understand the whole game that is being played on a greater level. 8 Intersting, right as I was looking through the page I accidentally clicked 8 on my keyboard which symbolizes Infinity at 2:48 - 2 times 2 = 4 times 2 = 8 - scaling to Infinity. And my battery was 13% and when you add it up you get 27, my birth date. What matters now for my soul’s progression is to not waste time on unconscious things, if Im doing something I want to do it consciosuly, I dont want to get into trances. - Binge watching yt, wasting time on scrolling, wasting time on X. If I consume Media I want to do it consciosuly, by deciding what to do Also since April 1st, I liked the new improvements Ive made in my life. Daily meditation sessions, workout sesssions, journaling working on myself. It seems that I have a far greater control over my life ever since I started doing all this and it seems as Im steering the ship rather than being steered. Now my question is. What do I want? What do I truly want? Because I thought I knew what I wanted, a big house, car, perfect girlfriend. But after burning through karmic materialistic desires, Ive realized that all this materalistic shit doesnt do anything for you, it gives you an illusion of the great life, but in reality, are you really fulfilled? Now my main perspective on money has shifted from obtaining materalistic things to being able to provide full freedom for me and my mother, that is actually the only thing that matters. Then from this freedom you got from the money you earned from your business you have time to explore the things which you are passionately interested in. The money is not there so you buy a supercar to impress people and attract gold diggers lol, it is there to give you freedom and stability. What about Dating? What do you want to gain from dating? Do you want to find a long term partner? What do you want? To be honest, Im not even sure I can answer this with certainty as I do not have a ton of dating experince I do not have the experience to get a specific answer. But do I want a wife? Do you want to build a life with a partner or do you want to seek spiritual depth? These are very 2 different paths and both are good. But what do I truly want? I think I want to seek the spiritual depth, however I need to experinece the dating aspect of this reality and romantic relationships to the fullest. I need to find a girl who I like both psysically and spiritually. I want to fall in love with her and possibly live my life with her if she is a really good match. If I realize that dating is not for me and it is not a long term goal of mine, then I wont pursue it to the fullest extent of having a family and kids. But I do need to experience dating in order to make that decision. So if Im ready for dating, then I need to find a right partner that fits what I truly want in a partner. We can make a profile of this girl to see what I can attract. Dating Girl Profile: Personality Type: Extroverted personality that is compatible with my Introvert personality Intuitive mind and spiritually intune. Not too logical, but also not too emotional, but leening towards the emotional side and emotionally mature. More of a spontanious vibe that is compatible with my order side which could create a great synergetic duality. So the personality type would be - ENFP. Other Personality Traits: I dont want her to play games. Feminine qualities. Have an energetic and happy/bublly personality that can lift up my mood. Childlike energy. Smart and could understand some of my ideas. Interested into spirituality and spiritual development. Wants to work on herself. Has passions and interests. Values: More of a traditional values. Doesnt give you sexual intimacy on the first date. Respects herself and has boundaries. Has her own opinion and ideas, is not an NPC. Body count is super low - 0, 1, 2. No hoe phase, doesn't go clubbing. Isnt seeking male attention. Has some class. Isnt into vices like cigarettes or alcohol. Has a healthy lifestyle. Compatibility Between Us Could talk to for hours about anything without drying up. Like to spend time with her, it is not draining. I light up when I want to see her and get excited about it. Have sexual compatibility. She gives me emotional and spiritual support and I can provide her with financial stability in the future if she is the one. Lets me steer the ship of our relationship. Smarter Than Me. Numero/Astro Signs: Lifepath or psycic - 7/9/3. Western Signs: Leo, Aquarius, Saggitarious, Gemini, Libra. Eastern Signs: Monkey, Rat, Rooster or Dragon (2004., 1996., 2005. 1988. or 2000.). Looks: Physically attractive - Good facial features. Shorter - 158-165cm. Brunette/Blone or Red. Size: Not too big, not too small. Weight on the lower end: 45-55kg. If a girl like this exist somewhere in the world and I would be her type and a match, then I would want to meet her one day whenever Im ready, if it is not possible, I will also accept that as well. Whatever happens happens. I would like to experience a deep spiritual and emotional connection with another soul and make it double sided for both of us. But if doesnt serve the higher growth of both souls, then dont send her my way bacuse I dont want to regress another soul in this world. I would only want a girl like this if it is mutually beneficial for both of us. I can try to manifest a girl like this into my life and see where it goes from there. If it happens good, if it doesnt good. Let it be what it needs to be, I wont force it. As Im reading this Ive realized that I let go of the need to control my future timeline, people, realities. Im still trying to create a good future for me that I think would be good, but I wont try to force it. If it happens good, if it goes the other way, its also good since it serves the higher evolution of my soul. With this, I end tonights journal. My Higher Self Who contacted me in 10.17.2021. and is in contact until now? Muscle contractions. My psyche? Soulmate? Guardian Angel? Goddes? God? Spirit Guide? Who? It was my spirit, my higher self. Talking to me. This whole time. My Infinite Self talking to me in Human Ego Form. I want to create an image of my higher self following these specifics: Questions: Answer these (you can be brief or poetic): If your soul had a color or aura, what would it be? Do you feel your Higher Self appears as human, celestial, alien, angelic, animal, or something else entirely? What symbols, elements, or sacred patterns resonate with you? (e.g. infinity, lotus, sacred geometry, serpent, stars, flame, tree of life) What kind of environment do you imagine your Higher Self in? (e.g. star realm, crystal cave, golden temple, forest, cloud sky, void space) Male, female, androgynous, or beyond gender? Any specific details you’d love to see in this vision? Answers: 1. Blueish/Purple aura, with the duality of light and darkness. 2. Celestial humanoid, type wearing a blueish/purple coat 3. Infinity for the Higher Self representing its Infinity Nature, and also Omega symbol representing it is the part of larger Absolute Infinity or Source. It also has the symbol of 0 since the Infinity and 0 are deeply connected and are two sides of the same coin. 4. Peaceful mountain top, or a crystal cave where it has peace of mind while being one with nature. 5. Beyond gender / All Genders. 6. I can imagine it as a ultra wise sage, wearing a blueish mostly (80%) and purple (20%) coat with the black and white features representing the dual nature of this reality - dark and light. It is also an being of Infinite Energy that is in the True Divine form. It is neither male nor female as it can be both aspects of duality. It radiates unconditional love and wisdom for me and others. It is a truly magnificent being in the cosmos. Your Higher Self – Visual Description - Form: Celestial humanoid sage, ultra-wise and radiant - Aura: Blueish/purple, swirling with duality (light and darkness) - Clothing: Elegant coat—80% blue, 20% purple, with black and white accents for duality - Symbols: Infinity symbol and Omega symbol, glowing or integrated into the aura or clothing - Gender: Beyond gender—divine balance - Environment: Peaceful mountaintop or crystal cave—whichever looks more powerful - Vibe: Divine, eternal, loving, a being of infinite energy and unconditional love - Eyes: Reflective of galaxies—deep cosmic knowing - Ive finally found it. It was me this whole time. I just didnt realize it.

You must be an alien! Why are you on earth?

So true, game is basically contextual and cultural. How gaming a sexy alien girl would look like? One thing I found interesting and kinda crazy is their view of cheating -- they don't seem to care as much as westerners do. Like, if the husband/boyfriend is horny and he sees a pretty prostitute somewhere, the wife won't be mad about it -- as long as he doesn't have emotions towards the person. This is insanity to most westerners lmao. Check this video :

@OBEler Thanks I think Alien Mind is for the advanced course. Inspired by your wish list, for years my big wish has been: Creativity !

@Miguel1 I fixed the link. https://www.actualized.org/insights/wrong-state @Leo Gura I am digesting your sweet insights one by one. What else you have you baked in your oven you didn't put on the menu? I like it also bitter sweet. My wish list: Alien mind AI for development Black pill Solipsim for dummies

Maybe! Or not. I’ll be looking into it. Feels different from the SOMETHING I experienced. I sense Love there, and the alien vibration feels like something else. I dunno yet. But I’ll consider it. I’m open to options.

The alien is your fear. If you let the alien be you, that's your Love awakening.

Lol. Initially the title I came up with was „To Be And Not to Be - LSD Trip Report”. But then I thought: who the fuck is going to read that? Ah, yes. „Alien Vibration Is Raping Me”. That’s perfect. There’s truth to it of course. It did feel like being taken advantage of. Highly uncomfortable.