Search the Community

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

I'll start at the beginning, and it's unclear. Some things can't be shortened or simplified, because they're already maximally simplified, even if they're long. I recently started reading Prokhorov's book, and it's strange that this scholar asks questions that he claims have no answers. Why not? I disagree; perhaps he wrote this book during the era of political materialism, so he adjusted everything to avoid going to prison again. But there are answers, for example, how classical probability theory and quantum mechanics relate to each other, or rather, the mathematical apparatus of quantum theory. In my opinion, everything is simple here: quantum mechanics is a kind of generalization of probability theory. Instead of a probability distribution function, a wave function is considered, and the square of the absolute value of the wave function yields the probability distribution. Essentially, probability theory can be derived from quantum mechanics, but not vice versa. But what kind of physical reality corresponds to a wave function? None. The wave function is the observer's subjective knowledge of the system, and that's all. The world isn't divided into quantum or classical everyday life. There's no such thing, whether microscopic or macroscopic, to which quantum mechanics can't be applied. But the quantum world divides the world into the observer and everything else (the external system). The observer is a distinct object, or more accurately, a subject, from the perspective of quantum mechanics. When observing an external system, some aspect of it, the wave function or state vector that describes it collapses into one of the possible alternatives, which is realized in reality. This action applies specifically to the "observer," and by "observer," I don't mean a measuring device or even any of the observer's senses—the eye, the ear, whatever. By "observer," we mean the observer's consciousness. When information about which alternative was realized enters the consciousness, the wave function collapses into precisely that realized alternative. This may seem to hint at some kind of solipsism inherent in quantum mechanics, but in fact, this is not the case. Although the observer has a distinct role, as we know, everyone can consider themselves an observer. As an observer, you cannot view others as observers because, for you as an observer, everything else is simply a system. From the standpoint of quantum mechanics, you have no right to view everyone else as observers. If you do, you will create all sorts of contradictions. If you apply the observation postulate not to yourself, but to other observers, you will create a contradiction. This is not allowed in quantum mechanics. But some people think that an observer is a rather complex system, a macroscopic measuring device, for example. If we collect many, many molecules, which individually can be considered quantum mechanically, then collectively we can consider this system an observer. But this is incorrect. No matter how large the system, even black holes, which can also be considered quantum mechanically, do this. And how can all this be reconciled without resorting to solipsism? Let's say we have a particle, and it can be either "here" or "there." Let's write it as a quantum-mechanical superposition of "here + there." And we have a person, let's say, who observed this system and, from their point of view, this particle was, say, "here." And you might say, "Well, that's it, this observer collapsed the state vector, and I have no choice but to confirm that, yes, this particle is "here." But in fact, that's not true. You must consider this particle and this person not as an observer, but as part of the system, and their measurements of this particle should be described to you as an observer as an entangled state of "particle-observer." The particle is "here" because the person measured that it is "here," plus the particle is "there" because the person measured that it is "there." You might say this is a contradiction, since he doesn't see it as "there" and "here." And if we don't consider the freakish many-worlds interpretation, where the universe is split into two branches, then there's a contradiction here—why can I consider myself an observer, but not him? Well, look, purely hypothetically, all these formations of entangled states are reversible, just as the Schrödinger equation is reversible in time. Only measurement is irreversible in time. And if I, as an observer, perform some actions on this external system, including both the particle and the observer who observed this system, perform these actions in such a way that evolution reverses. This is permitted in quantum mechanics; entangled states can be formed, or, conversely, untangled. All these actions are reversible. So, we can, as it were, reverse the measurement of this external observer to the moment they performed this measurement. And on the one hand, it turns out that for them, from our perspective, the measurement postulate is inapplicable because we can reverse it. But our own measurement as an observer is irreversible, which is precisely why time has an arrow. Quantum mechanics is not truly symmetrical with respect to time—the past is not the same as the future with respect to me as an observer. But if some super-advanced civilization were to come along and perform quantum actions, gates, unitary ones that would reverse this entire evolution, just as that person supposedly performed a measurement on the device, then everything would be erased, including their memory—not exactly erased, but simply nonexistent. The universe would have no information that they had ever performed or measured anything. If such information doesn't exist, then, in essence, they didn't measure anything. Quantum mechanics is subjective because only I, as an observer, can say that I saw a particular alternative, and from that moment on, it is irreversibly fixed. Everything else could theoretically be reversed in time because it's all an external system. It's difficult because entropy increases over time, like putting a broken glass back together, but it's theoretically possible. Here, too, we could theoretically reverse the measurement of an external observer because they aren't an observer in relation to me, an external system. All of this is symmetrical, and I, as an observer, will never have any contradictions with another observer. If they measure a particle as being "there," I'll later measure it, and it will still be "there" and not "here," and our measurements won't agree. But as I wrote, it's impossible to create an observer of some combinations, qubits, for example, or particles, or macroscopic devices, because that's not an observer. The observer is you and your consciousness, the you that applies quantum mechanics. But philosophers in the comments will tell me that quantum mechanics describes not our world, not our universe, but rather the observer's knowledge of the system, like a "shadow" in Plato's cave. It doesn't describe the very essence of things, but some other thing. The universe itself, in fact, has a description unrelated to the subject; science simply hasn't yet reached the point of describing this entire universe. But when such philosophers say this, they imagine this universe, just as Newton imagined it, as some kind of mechanical device, some kind of complex machine. The human brain simply can't conceive of the universe any other way. But as experiments have shown, the universe cannot be this complex mechanical machine. Therefore, if you say that quantum mechanics doesn't describe the universe, and the universe operates according to strictly defined rules, but we simply don't know what they are, then you're implicitly imagining some kind of mechanism. But experiment shows that such a mechanism cannot exist. Continuing... Are we living in a simulation? (This is the question of what is more fundamental: the discrete (divisible) or the Whole?) The structure of the universe is always linked to the level of development of civilization, technology, and science. When humans' primary occupations were hunting and gathering, animals were the center of humanity, and accordingly, the world was imagined as standing on elephants and turtles. When Newton created his classical mechanics, the worldview changed once again, and the world began to be seen as consisting of gears, a kind of classical Newtonian mechanism. Even theorems were proven that the world is a classical mechanism, that everything is deterministic and defined—the so-called Laplace determinism. Laplace imagined a being who knows all the states, coordinates, and velocities of all the material particles of Newton's points. This being can predict all the future and past dynamics of the system, how it will develop billions of years in the future and billions of years in the past. Essentially, this demon is God. No one doubted that the world operated on gears, down to the smallest scale. Even Maxwell, when he developed his theory of electrodynamics, conceived of electromagnetic wave propagation as these mechanical gears (you can read Maxwell's original work and be horrified). Computers have become so commonplace in our lives that everyone suddenly started thinking the world is a computer simulation. And that the world is actually discrete (digital) – there are tiny intervals of time, tiny intervals of space, pixels, voxels, and some computer simulates all these changes, essentially like a computer game. There are countless YouTube videos dedicated to this nonsense – we live in the Matrix. Elon Musk even speaks out on the subject. We won't go into detail; it's complete nonsense, the stupidity is beyond belief. Of course, there are a number of genuine scientists who believe we live in a simulation. Seth Lloyd, for example, says we live in a computer. And such people always exist, even among scientists. But we'll focus on the scientific arguments, which basically tell us that we DO NOT live in a computer, and the world CANNOT be discretized (divided) in principle. Discrete structures aren't fundamental in modern physics; rather, they're fundamentally continuous things, which are fundamentally impossible to model with classical computers. "God created the Whole, everything else is the work of man" – Leopold Kronecker. But even when Kronecker was alive, this was already being questioned. Now, it's the other way around – it's believed that integers emerge from continuous structures. Take the Schrödinger equation, where the key is the wave function, not the numbers. This discreteness – the quantization of energy levels – emerges from the Schrödinger equation, which describes a continuous wave function. In other words, integers emerge from continuous structures, but not vice versa. Although quantum mechanics was initially created as an attempt to discretize classical continuous equations, Bohr's quantizations and the like, hence the name "quantum mechanics." Later, as it developed, it became clear that, on the contrary, continuous things are more fundamental than discrete ones. It's said that while standard models as we know them most accurately describe our reality, scientists still don't know how to discretize them, to create a discrete version for computer simulation. This is likely impossible in principle. Although there is currently no precise formal proof, there are attempts to make field theory discrete. However, all these attempts have only been successful for the simplest field theories, which are not directly related to our reality. The Standard Model, meanwhile, falls into the category of being impossible to force into a computer—a lattice field theory version. Even the very same Lorentz invariance, which Einstein discovered with the Lorentz transformation, says that these discrete intervals of time and space cannot exist. If a discrete time interval existed, we could find a frame of reference where this interval would be not small, but arbitrarily large. But also, due to Lorentz contraction, these spatial pixels also have different sizes in different frames of reference. Experiments on quantum entanglement also cannot be simulated with a classical computer. In quantum mechanics, of course, a matrix appears—seemingly discrete, but a matrix as such usually comes complete with a wave function. The same Pauli spin matrices were obtained when Pauli attempted to generalize the Schrödinger equation to account for spin. These spin matrices still come with a wave function, meaning you can't take spin and separate it from an electron, so to speak. The degree of freedom of spin is described by these three matrices, but you can't obtain a spin unbound to any physical object, any particle, which in turn is described by continuous functions. Instead of a single wave function, Pauli obtained two wave functions related by these matrices, and Dirac later discovered the relativistic wave equation, which includes 4x4 matrices, which are related to the wave functions by four components; they can't exist separately. Therefore, all these discussions, even about quantum computers and qubits, are somehow out of touch with reality. In practice, a qubit is always embodied by some real entity, which, in addition to the discrete property associated with qubits, also has a continuous aspect. Qubits cannot describe everything in the world. Perhaps proponents of simulation will say that those simulating us have some kind of super-technology, and that the laws of physics are completely different from ours. In the world they're simulating, everything is completely different, and we'll never really know what's out there. But that's a matter of faith or psychiatry. In psychiatry, there's a syndrome called derealization and depersonalization, where a person feels like the world is unreal, and they themselves are unreal. This is now considered a mental disorder. If you feel like you're living in a virtual world, you should consult a psychiatrist instead of writing comments or posting videos somewhere, like on YouTube. Philip K. Dick apparently had this syndrome, possibly acquired through substance abuse. Basically, just as the ancients believed the world rested on elephants and turtles, the Middle Ages believed the world was made of gears, and now people believe the world is a computer, but I think all of this will pass with time. There are many videos about how space is curved, allowing one to travel faster than light by compressing space itself. Space is NOT curved in ANY WAY; all we see and feel is gravity, because this curvature affects the observer. To talk about real curvature, about observable curvature, we need to go beyond this space. Moreover, the theory of relativity implies that it makes no difference whether the world is moving or you are moving. It turns out that the theory of relativity is relative, that is, subjective. Quantum mechanics is also subjective, as I already wrote. Now let's take mathematics – in set theory, you can construct a statement that is either false or true, but you cannot prove it. That is, you can derive an axiomatics where one statement is false and it does not contradict common understanding, and where this statement is true and it also does not contradict common understanding. Gödel, studying set theory, derived the incompleteness theorem. If we take a hypothetical "alien" with a different mind, say, and without numbers, they would use a different mathematics. This means that mathematics acquires the status of anti-realism, which is also nominalism in philosophy. In mathematics, the important thing is not what is true or false, but self-consistency within itself. Recently, crazy sets have been discovered—ultraexacting and exacting cardinals—where the axiom of choice and the continuum hypothesis are not unknowable; they have the status of both proven and refuted, but do not have the status of unprovability as in ordinary fundamental mathematical axiomatics. This suggests that mathematics is based not on order, but on chaos (in the good sense). Max Tegmark hypothesizes a level-4 Multiverse (this is beyond any theory of everything), where everything that is not forbidden within the system is possible, and that means literally EVERYTHING. For example, our world is quantum, but the Multiverse could allow for a super-quantum world, and even a super-super-quantum... It turns out that the theory of relativity is subjective, quantum mechanics is subjective, mathematics is subjective. Our entire world is SUBJECTIVE. Object = Subject, Duality = Non-duality. Besides this intuitive knowledge, it is also given a formal form, and this is very important, since it becomes REALIZABLE or EMBODIED. Consciousness (qualia) is the only objective thing in the world. P.S. There may be some nuances and inaccuracies in the translation.

Second Attempt (editing while I have only a sentence or two of thought) So, I spent time writing my first post entry, and when I went to post submit there was a little mishap. Technically Fortunately I went through the experience already, so it should benefits me us now. because I went through the experience and learned how I'm going to attempt I have a better idea of how-to setup my Journal. I also found better clarity on what I want to attempt. Communication is my focus here. I now understand that the chaotic manner my mind talks to itself, may seem chaotic to others. I'm used to it though, so it's not necessarily chaotic a beautiful chaos to me. Being able to allow myself to express Freely expressing my thoughts will allows me to purge. my thoughts, and then I'll be able to gain clarity with my communication with others. When I write my personal journals, I don't take the time or effort to edit my words. This however is a public journal and I want to be an effective communicator. I know I need more consciousness in But since I'm developing my this skills to communicate with the collective, I find I'm not as effective as I would like. I have a message I want to share, but and I want to be understood. So, you we are going to get a visual of how I'm editing my free flow to communicate and "the struggle" I'm going to experiencing as I find a way to present my a concise message with clarity. I am not going to erase my words as I type. I will strikethrough the words or and letters I want to delete. I'm using the Blue will indicate for the changes I've made from after my original thought. This is a new process for me, so I'm open to make changes modifications. I don't know how I'm going to present this process accurately. This is becoming tedious work, but I know I'm going to gain huge benefits massive rewards will be the price. Currently communication is important principal for me currently. I want to place My ramblings to will be on this right side. When I want to begin sharing my message with the collective in my version of a concise manner, I believe I will use the other left side. Now I'm using my dad's computer to type right now. It's making sense to me Using this large format it makes sense to use the different sides. I'm uncertain how this will be perceived on a mobile device. I will place the words in italics with the polished version on the left side maybe. I guess hope people will tell me whether I need to find a different approach or not. Because people are have different temperaments, people they will have a choice. If they are just interested in my final submission, then they can stick to the polished version on the left. whether they want to only read my message or If they are interested how want to listen to my process works along with my message, they can choose to read it all too. Again, I'd like to mention repeat that I already had a first attempt to post my Journal, but most of my work was deleted. For a second I was shocked. I couldn't find a way to recover it. With my experience though, I knew this wasn't luck; it was deliberate. Even though this may seem chaotic, it makes better sense. I guess I had to have more of choose a direction of how I wanted to present my Journal. I did however save some sections of my work onto another document. I know the value of transparency and vulnerability. Without these qualities my growth will be stunted. So I'm going to share those thoughts I was able to save. Let's see how we can incorporate them into the dialogue here. I'm going to paste the entire text and then I thought maybe we can I would just select a portion and discuss, but after reading it again I think it's best to just copy and paste the entire my attempt to of expression. At this stage I was about to start continue editing more, but then I realized I need to find a way to show "the process struggle" of the work. (I'm wondering if I should edit directly onto the pasted message or do something different. Hmmm... I'm in no hurry to rush through the process so I'm going to give us a break in struggling to read with the strikeouts and change of colors above.) First Attempt Inserted (I allowed myself longer periods of thought before I started editing, but I didn't effectively show how much wor all of the changes I was making). Well, here I start, but where to start? I don't have the answer, but I trust that wherever I'll start I’ll begin to have a better understanding. Eight days ago, I found myself logging into this Forum for the first time. I’ve been involved with Actualized for a solid six years and gained so many benefits. Now I find myself trying out their Forum (or any forum for that matter). Intuitively there's an opportunity for massive growth here. I've been contemplating how I want to approach my involvement here. I find that I’m uncertain how to proceed. If I allow myself to process openly, I'll realize if there's value or not for myself. The Journal maybe the most beneficial (I don't know). When I first was posting, the bulk of my words were a preamble of my past. Is that necessary though? (It depends on who's engaging I suppose). I assume others are similar to myself. Countless times it's been apparent and proven that it's not the case so far. Why do I continue to assume? Well, it's not like I am absolutely ignorant that others aren't in the same state in any given situation. That's why I love life because of the variety and complexity including others. I find myself with a substantial taste for curiosity, and it's hungry. For me now, it's obvious to direct a large part of my focus on communication. I want clear and in-depth communication whether the use of words is in abundance or in brevity. Conciseness is where my direct experience needs work. To simplify we can break down communication into brevity and depth conversations. Admittedly, in any given situation I would prefer to choose which is the appropriate approach. I have tendencies to want to mostly go in-depth, but at times brevity is preferable. If I want that choice for myself, I can respect others who want to choose as well. The Journal can allow for considerable amounts of content that I consider a depth communication. Give an impression of the transformation of who I was to now, and even into my ideas of future. Building a sense of confidence that I'm someone who has been embodying higher levels of consciousness because of the abundance and diversity of my direct experiences. Existentially I can ask whether there are really levels of consciousness. I'm inserted into the center of infinitude, and yet I experience progression. Is it only because I want to experience what it's like to learn? When it comes to brevity communication it seems more plausible to use in the Forum, comparatively from the Journal. I have to remind myself that brevity conversations don't have to be without depth. Since my focus is on communication, I want to develop this skill more consciously. I've focused on integrity and I'm honest with myself and others when I don't know something or not interested at this point. I feel people who are more geared to hear history and more content will be drawn to a journal setting. Others will be geared towards simple and short communications. The majority of responses I read are mainly a sentence or two... lol. I'm asking myself what are they really trying to say. I've been developing a better understanding of creating balance with energy exchange. I find that I've been free with my energy and attention in the past, but as I gain more consciousness it's best to see where the person's energy is and then respond accordingly. I exhaust my energy because I was unaware, and it's obvious for me to notice I need to be more conscious. My first posts I found myself going right back to freely sharing but quickly noticed I was repeating my conditioning. Since I want to engage with others here, I feel if I can create a journal where I can open my energy freely... that that part of my conditioning can get an outlet at least. Maybe others can gain value of reading my process which give me value. Ultimately, it should in theory allow me to respond in a concise manner when communicating with the public. Communication skills is one domain that continues to develop, and it's been obvious to focus more attention now. A story I repeat is I'm a rambler which makes it hard for others to follow and I want to develop my articulation. I want it to be easier to communicate with clarity. I've been constantly editing. I'm searching for new words which seem to be more fitting to use instead of the common words I'm used to using which might not be as effective. I'm restructuring where to group my sentences that are on similar topics instead of bouncing back and forth. (Rollercoasters are fun and all, but at least they have a track that implies a direction to follow). I don't know how many run-on sentences I've had to narrow down. Deleting sentences because repetition is found everywhere. And noticing how many times the word "I" is used is a bit annoying... lol. Verbal work is one of those things in the back of my mind that I want to do but hadn't allowed opportunity to advance it until now it seems. Another story I repeat is that my language is more subtle, and I communicate and understand better with nonverbal language. I know if I created a hierarchy of my comfort level of communication with others it would be ideally to talk to a person face to face, then video chat, on to the phone, and finally a texting situation. Well... this Forum is a setting for using verbal language. I have a desire to connect with the collective. So let's give it a go here with this journal. (Is there a way to combine the two styles of editing? I really like how I can have longer periods of thought. That creates more of flow state for me. But I also want to be accurate to the editing process I have to do. There's so much more I'm unable to show like my spelling and grammar errors). Ok... it looks as if I need more time to figure out consider how to move forward. I know what I want to say, but adding the additional conversations about my This is going to be very valuable for me. I need to see I'll figure out how I can show share express my thoughts to the public, share my thoughts to myself, show my message drafts, demonstrate my edits in my drafts, and then create a polished message. I have to admit I have already tried to create a visual difference contrast to show these different areas, but I was unsuccessful so far. I posted a Help topic on the Forum to learn how to use the "insert existing attachment." and I probably need to allow more time for someone to help respond. I even thought I could insert basic html to possibly highlight the words with different colors. That's still a possibility. I'll look into that more. (Well... I didn't get to post anything polished yet, but actually that should've been expected. The magic is in the progression anyway.)

Yes agreed and will put! My first introduction to Spirituality was Tolle's book New Earth which is an accurate description of the Ego and all its vices and ways of working in Human Life, after reading that book I was able to recognize my ego and egoic ways and a changed happened, one that one cannot retreat from, so that was the start of it.. from chatgpt - " Yes — A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose by Eckhart Tolle is largely about the ego, though it goes beyond that. How the ego fits into A New Earth The central theme of the book is egoic consciousness and how it shapes human suffering—both individually and collectively. Tolle describes the ego as: Identification with thoughts, emotions, roles, possessions, and stories A false sense of self built on separation The root of fear, conflict, comparison, and dissatisfaction Much of the book explains: How the ego forms How it sustains itself How it shows up in everyday life (relationships, work, politics, identity, status) What makes A New Earth different from The Power of Now While The Power of Now focuses more on presence and awareness in the moment, A New Earth: Examines the ego in depth Explores collective ego (nations, religions, groups) Talks about humanity undergoing a shift in consciousness Frames ego-transcendence as essential for creating a “new earth” Core message in simple terms The ego is not “bad,” but unconscious Suffering comes from over-identifying with the ego Awareness of the ego weakens it A more peaceful world emerges as individuals disidentify from ego One-sentence summary 👉 Yes—A New Earth is fundamentally about recognizing, understanding, and transcending the ego as a step toward personal awakening and collective transformation. "

No, this not true, this is a just fantasy. Ordinary people got nothing to do, they wont just rest and be happy, they go crazy, untrained minds cannot accept the present moment and peace because it's death to the mind. Remember covid years? You can avoid complexity by just droping the thinking, in your thoughts something must be either complex or simple, this is a conditioning situation in which the truth transcends it, cause the truth is beyond all dualities. It's not a problem to solve, see your are seeing it from the narrow window of the conditioning mind, something to solve, a problem, a puzzle etc. you see it this way and as long as this is your perspective the truth remains hidden, cause it's not a problem to be solved, it revels when all mind activities including seeking and searching for truth drops. Sit and melt in the present moment it's where it is, it's not solvable, it's not attainable, it's not transformation, it's not a specific state to be gained etc. All these are movements and the truth is beyond all movements.

Yes on 3 different occassion, for days at a time.. Listen its really simple, how is one to make change or transformation if they cannot do it by themselves without help? Answer that one for me as well as why Leo should continue doing what he is doing according to Your logic? My advice is to not believe anything he says, but to try out the methods he shares if Your interested, if not then ignore him!

Sadhguru as You know is anti belief.. The proof is in the pudding, just look at his activity and what he says, if You vibe with it then try out what he is sharing (methods, kriyas, asanas, temples, buddhi shuddhi, etc) and see for Yourself if change/transformation happens, if so then continue on with his guidance and transmissions, if not then leave, its that simple, its not a matter of belief at all... Today if one wants to make change or share in the world they have to do it via words first, this sparks the interest because we are so Intellectually Identified, if he just sat in the room and said nothing, most everyone would leave, but what he is sharing is way beyond words and catch phrases or even the books, its all helpful but the real stuff imo is the methods he shares!

Connirae Andreas is an American psychotherapist, author, and pioneering trainer in Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP). Wholeness Work is a structured self-transformation method developed for inner healing and spiritual awakening, created after her personal health crisis through modeling teachings like those of Ramana Maharshi. It is a combination between NLP + Self-Inquiry. I really recommend her work/books. On the last months, I got deep on different kinds of spirituality. Here is a great conversation to understand Wholeness Work more deeply. [00:17] Introduction to Connirae Andreas and her book, The Wholeness Work Essential Guide. [02:48] Defining "wholeness" as undivided presence and explaining "wholeness work." [07:22] Connirae shares the story of her personal crisis (a jarring breakdown experience) that led to the discovery of Wholeness Work. [13:29] The influence of Ramana Maharshi's teaching ("Who Am I?") and the search for a precise, teachable method for awakening. [17:06] The benefits of Wholeness Work: deeper psychological healing and an integrated, gentle awakening. [22:58] Using the composting metaphor to explain how difficult feelings enrich the field of awareness. [25:28] Examples of the work's impact on a CEO's anger, therapists in conflict zones (Gaza/Ukraine), and relationship healing. [34:52] Guided Practice begins (A quick version of the Wholeness Work process). [40:55] Phase 2 of the Practice: Finding the "Eye" (the location of the perceiving self). [51:32] Phase 4 of the Practice: The Invitation—Relaxing the "Eye" into the full space of Awareness. [57:26] Discussion: The centrality of the "Perceiving Self" and how it holds limiting beliefs. [01:02:34] Addressing complex issues like shame and the need for Authority Structures (which are covered in the full process). [01:10:16] Key Principles for Transformation: Inclusion (Rumi poem), No Force, and going the easy, gentle way. [01:13:43] The foundational principle that the system already longs for wholeness. [01:14:55] Conclusion and final thoughts on the book and applying the principles globally.

Mostly the waiting room with Dimitri, and time expansion. Never experienced it, don't expect to. People talk about living alternate lives for years then coming back. As far as my experience goes, that's a load of horse. Also, that's psychedelics are good under all circumstances. What I've realised about them is that if you don't have your life together and your mind established, it can have really destructive effects. Can still produce necessary insane strength and insight, but at much greater suffering. Also I'm starting to get a serious experiential taste that humanity is more advanced than we think in certain remits (tech) (mostly hidden) and far, far, farrrrrrrr less advanced than we think in others. Also the strangeness of the universe, starting to get a flavour for that. Things like black holes, physics, quantum physics, in the natural realm, you can start to recognise that the idea that you know what's going on, is incorrect. You get little experiential tastes here and there and the only question is...if these are just little slices, I wonder how large the entire cake is 🍰 Also religion is simultaneously great for helping people at low levels of development but has collosal flaws. Essentially that it's methods are legit/real but they're too disjointed, symbolic and poetically indirect to provide transformation massive enough to where manual effort is no longer required. You can tell how much manual effort is involved. Feeling like your manually pushing your car up a 45° hill to get to god is a distinct religious factor I remember. Experientially. God's voice is discernable, distinct, trustworthy and extremely motherfucking powerful.

I would say, rather a misunderstanding of nature and fasting in its truest sense. Fasting when done properly restores everything to balance. Its like trying to argue with infinite intelligence, its already perfected, there is nothing that does it better, its a built-in fail safe. Its flawless. I've seen and read about people with every known illness restore and heal with fasting, even those who can't digest certain foods, allergic to things, genetic this genetic that, even those with psychiatric disorders, completely reset and now can eat those foods again and no longer have those genetic markers and or no longer have such illness. Fasting can hit deeper than just the physical layer. It can be a spiritual transformation altogether. Fasting can induce a whole shift in ones cells and consciousness. You can literally become renewed on all levels. I have tasted this myself on many occasions. Fasting is beyond naturopathy. Its universal.

I use this forum, and its entertaining, I come on maybe an hour a day or less, sometimes take a week long break, then just come on and look see... I use the forum to see what is triggered then observe the trigger itself and dissolve it, day by day soon there are no triggers, that means change or transformation.. No matter what anyone says, life is a process, there are levels to everything, one can be an Absolutist and say "No one is here, Nothing is Happening" and they are right in an Absolutist way, but its not the totality, there are People here, and lots is Happening on the other end of the Scale, it is just Absolute/God/Brahma is the foundation, from there we are here talking, debating, arguing, developing beliefs, dissolving beliefs and so forth, everything that can be has to appear somewhere sometime, its just Humans can be conscious of it, and via that we can Decide and Choose, that makes all the difference!

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #36 Its difficult to be proud of what I have done with my habit tracker over the past week. I have seen my motivation completely waver at a time where I need it the most. I am going to a dance competition today actually and I am going into it in a playful mood, but I want to be disciplined. How am I going to win a dance competition or have sex with 50 women or run a dance studio or have $100,000 in my bank account if I can't even wake up at the same time for 30 days straight, or meditate every day for 30 days straight. The thing is is that I am really trying. I mean, I'm holding myself accountable and thats all I can really do. I am doing THE BEST that I can with the skills that I have actualized thus far in my life. And I will figure all of this out and become a world champion dancer that can seduce women with ease, one that is extremely loving and affectionate but can also handle business with assertiveness and right action. I am the man that gets shit done. I get shit done. As a reminder, I am going to list out all of my massive goals again. I should probably make a habit of doing this on a daily basis: Start a Youtube Channel and get 1 million subscribers Post video about body transformation Post a day in the life vlog, talking about my morning routine Post vlogs of dance partner and I traveling and dancing Post vlogs of me hitting on women Post analysis videos of me hitting on women Donate $100,000 to charity Pay off debts by March 2026 Save $10,000 by the end of 2026 Save $30,000 by the end of 2027 Save $50,000 by the end of 2028 Become a world champion ballroom dancer Enter Washington DC Dance O Rama in 2025 Enter Seattle Dance O Rama in 2026 Eneter Texas Dance O Rama in 2026 Win at Rhythm in Boston Dance O Rama 2026 Enter in the "Rising Stars" category at TOC September 2026 Enter in the "Open" category at Washington DC Dance O Rama in 2026 Have a nice home with a pool and outdoor bar Pay off debts by March 2026 Have $10,000 in savings account by the end of 2026 Have $30,000 in savings account by end of 2027 Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028 Give your mom and dad money that they can buy a bigger house with. I want the world for them and I am going to make their old age as painless and enjoyable as I possibly can. Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028 Have $200,000 in savings account by end of 2030 Have $1,000,000 in Savings account by end of 2032 Have sex with over 50 women ( I like this right here, the end result is having sex. That is the genuine reason that I am approaching all of these women. This will also help with Approach and hit on 1 women this week Approach and hit on 10 women by by the end of the month Approach and hit on 100 women by the end of March 2026 Approach and hit on 1,000 women by the end of 2026 Weigh 160 pounds with six pack abs within 2 years Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2026 Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2027 Last for an hour while being inside someoneHave a full body orgasm Practice stimulating yourself with out porn Practice raising the energy up your spine Play around with the raising of energy during meditation sessions Abide in the “Field of Love” for a year straight Finish reading “Field of Love” Try to drop the “I-thought” back down to the Heart as much as possible Last 5 minutes in the “Field of Love” Last an hour in the “Field of Love” Last a day in the “Field of Love” Last a week in the “Field of Love” Last a month in the “Field of Love” Reach LOC 1,000 Finish reading the book 1,000 Reach LOC 500 by March 2026 Reach LOC 600 by the end of 2026 Reach LOC 700 by March 2027 Reach LOC 800 by the end of 2027 Reach LOC 900 by March 2028 Reach LOC 1,000 by the end of 2028 Own an Arthur Murray dance studio Be a Front Department manager by January 2028 Run an Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2029 Own my own Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2030 12.5.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 36 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 7 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 2 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 7 No ejaculation streak: 7 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 34 No smoking weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Done Chest: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 This song really touches my heart. Most people probably relate this song to finding a person that is their soul mate, but to me, it reminds me of finding dance as my life purpose: "We were never strangers, you were out there all along" "When I'm around you, I come alive. I want to give you all I've got" "Promise that you'll hold me close, don't let me go" "Take my heart, don't break it" "You and I stargazing. Its a twilights zone"

Enlightenment doesn't have to do anything with transformation. Ralston is very clear on this. Enlightenment and transformation are two different things. Enlightenment has to do with perception and having a good perception doesn't mean you have good technical skills to defend yourself although the former can enhance the latter. Avoidance is not the right way to deal with low LOC people since they are everywhere anyway. One must advance in psychological warfare and frame control. I'm very capable of this because I had to deal with difficult people all my life. It is better to have this skill and not need it than not have it and need it because you will need it unless you live in a deserted place or something

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #34 What a weird day yesterday. I woke up on time, did all of my morning routine except push ups and pull ups and then went to dance training. Training went fine, then I went to the gym to get my push ups and pull ups in, that went well, I got a nice video of myself posing in the mirror, which will go in my body transformation YouTube video. I then went back to work and I taught a really good lesson for one of my students. It feels so good when I teach well. Then I taught with a co worker of mine, we are doing a Christmas themed solo and I started to feel a little bit off on that lesson. Then, my mood started to go downhill, it felt like I didn't care about anything and my body kept becoming tense, I could not relax into the mind and body and I didn't have the drive to interact with anybody except my work bestie. I tried to release this emotion but I couldn't. I started to feel doubt in myself, "how can I accomplish all of these goals if my mood is like this..." "Why are my lessons so low this week, Im never going to become successful here," so many gunky and gross thoughts running through my head... I had one last lesson with a long time student in which I shared a plan for her so that we can get her ready for an upcoming dance event in January. I also shared a plan to get her to go to what's called a "dance o rama" on which she is competing at the highest level, this will be in May of this upcoming year in Texas. This is the direction that I want to take my career, I want serious students that want to be competitive ballroom dancers. This will make me good money and also push them to grow to the absolute highest peak of their potential. I want to compliment this woman more, she needs encouragement, let's light up her world every chance you get. Look at the positives when you are dancing with her, not the negatives. To add another layer to this weird day, my dance partner texted me and asked me to call her at around 4:30 "when I get a chance." She's never said that before, I call her later but she doesn't pick up. Then she texts me and says that she's "at urgent care." I try calling her again but she doesn't pick up. She's been having pain in her gums, I think that they're inflamed, but I can't really get details out of her, she doesn't want to talk about it. For the past week, when I meet her for dance practice, her head is always down at first, being super quiet and tells me that she's not doing well. She's also always super insecure about how she looks, always looking at herself in the mirror even though she genuinely looks beautiful every day that I see her, no matter what her state is. Anyways, once she starts dancing, she is fine, she is laughing and I can't tell that she's in pain anymore. I know for a fact that I brighten her day up, which is a pretty cool feeling. Anyways, I texted her this morning to ask how she is feeling, she hasn't responded yet. We have a dance competition in Washington DC this weekend so I do feel for her and I genuinely care about her well being but this is not a good time for all of these ailments, and the things is I don't even understand what she's going through because she doesn't open up about it. She's clearly in pain and not in a good head space... Should we just not go to DC... I don't know maybe. I just have to talk to her. I also do have to think about the possibility that she may have feelings for me, which is stirring up emotions that she is unable to handle and these bottled up emotions are transforming into physical pain and self sabotage. I have feelings for her as well by the way, how could I not, she is amazing and beautiful and funnynand sexy ... but I also have a massive goal of hitting on thousands of women and having sex with over 50 so developing intimacy with her right now doesn't really matter to me, but at the same time I do genuinely love and care about her as a person. If I ended up marrying her in the end, that would be a very cool ending to my love story, but I can't be anyone's boyfriend until at least the end of next year, as I am very excited to finally fulfill on this "hoe phase" of my life. It's just strange that these ailments are all coming right before a big competition and I just wish I understood it better. I hope she's doing okay. Anyways, towards the end of the day, my mood is completely shifted, I have very low energy and no level of authentic expression, I felt like a half dead person. This continued into after work where we all had a drink for our co workers birthday ( my drink was non alcoholic of course.) I couldn't wait to leave as I felt so in authentic and unsatisfied. I finally get to go home, I smoke a joint on the way home, which I am trying to stop doing. I laid in bed high as fuck, my mind is racing with thoughts, which I felt like I had very little control over. I finally go to bed and I wake up the next morning at 7:30, I snooze my alarm and end up waking up at 9 am and that brings us to right now, 10:16 am on 12.4.25. I want to take this morning to figure out my routines and disciplines and goals for TOMORROW and the future. I am not going to be able to save today until I can get a handle on everything moving forward as this whole thing is a long term process. I also have dance practice at 12 with my dance partner, although she is not answering me so maybe it will be canceled, (that would be great honestly, I want to figure some things out.) Okay, so there are a few things that are going on. The first is that I have a good handle on my long term goals, which is awesome! This really helps on two accounts, it gives me a direction for my life, which makes petty annoyances obsolete because all of this work is being done for a higher vision, I don't care so much about what someone thinks about me or some crappy emotional state.. so that is awesome.. however, what comes with these massive goals is self doubt, as fear arrives through my thoughts with tenacity. It is difficult to shift the mind set when the mind has so much fear and doubt in itself. This is difficult, I'd love to find an exercise to shift that narrative in my mind in the moment that it's happening. I have a lot more that I'd like to journal about but I do have to get going as I guess my dance partner is doing okay and we are going to practice. The goal for today is to set myself up to achieve my goals in the FUTURE. Don't worry so much about the goals that you have for today, this is a long term project, just do your best. 12.3.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 13 Brush teeth streak: 34 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 5 Meditation streak: 4 Push ups / pull ups streak: 3 Funniness affirmations streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 5 No ejaculation streak: 5 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 6 No alcohol streak: 32 No smoking weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Done Chest: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Great topic! For me, it comes down to learning ideas from others (authors, podcasts, videos, discussions like this, mentors, etc.) and then figuring out how I can implement the best of those ideas into my life. I think the vast majority of humanity does the first part (gathering ideas) but not the second part (figuring out how to implement the best ideas into their daily life). I am also largely guilty of doing this for most of my life. Still do it frequently, but I have definitely gotten better at implementing things. Implementing big changes has been a slow process for me. I learn, learn, learn, eventually convince myself to make a different decision and commitment, then actually make a change in my life for the better. For example, everyone has been told repeatedly since childhood that daily exercise is important for their health. Yet how many people actually carve time out of every workday to do it? Everyone knows it is important and agrees they "should" do it, yet only a small percentage does. Even rarer, I bet, is the adult who didn't already have the habit of regular exercise since their teenage years or college years, who successfully implements it later in life. In my case, I knew my whole life that it was important. Yet from age 18 until around age 35 I didn't do it very often. I took my health for granted and didn't even think about exercising. I would sit at my kitchen table and drink draft beer from my Kegerator before I would throw on sweatpants and a T-shirt and go for a run. Even when I finally began thinking I should "really" implement a daily exercise habit, the change still took me a long time and many attempts before it stuck. Leading up to that point, I read about it being important. I heard about it. I watched videos about it. I had discussions about it. But the transformation didn't occur until I firmly decided it was truly important enough. This decision then caused me to move it way up my list of priorities in life. All of those times hearing about it, talking about it, and reading about it were slowly stacking logical reasons for me to implement it. The real transformation occurred when I felt the emotional shift inside me to knowing (being utterly undeniably convinced to my core) that I must implement this habit if I am to truly enjoy life to its fullest. Now, a couple of decades later, I am a man who exercises every workday, almost without exception. In fact, the change is so profound that if I don't workout at some point during the day, I feel like my day is incomplete and somewhat unsatisfying. I must workout each day to feel like it was a good day. (Just weekdays though- I can workout or not workout on weekends. It doesn't bother me if I don't.)

Hi everyone, Not sure if this is the right place for this type of question, but here we go. I run a software and AI automation business targeting SMBs in manufacturing, distribution, and transformation. I’m having a hard time acquiring clients, especially since most of these companies don’t actively shop for automation even though they struggle with repetitive admin work and outdated processes. Right now, my main leadgen channel is cold email (around 270/day using Instantly). I try to provide value before asking for a meeting. I used to send personalized “5 automation ideas” reports with clear ROI calculations, but it doesn’t seem to be strong enough to get them on a call. I’m currently looking for something more compelling. Do you have any creative ideas for a free, value-packed asset or ‘gift’ I could offer to grab their attention and differentiate myself from all the other outreach they receive? Thanks in advance.

Interlude: My MASSIVE Goals Through my personal development work, I have started to become acutely aware of the fact that I can literally dream up anything that I want in this life. Dream it up, as big as you can possibly stomach and then let go and enjoy the ride. There is no more thinking small. I am GOING to make all of my dreams come true. Here is a list that I started of things that I want in my life as well as action steps to getting there, as big goals need to be chunked down into smaller and more achievable goals first. Start a Youtube Channel and get 1 million subscribers Post video about body transformation Post a day in the life vlog, talking about my morning routine Post vlogs of dance partner and I traveling and dancing Post vlogs of me hitting on women Post analysis videos of me hitting on women Donate $100,000 to charity Pay off debts by March 2026 Save $10,000 by the end of 2026 Save $30,000 by the end of 2027 Save $50,000 by the end of 2028 Become a world champion ballroom dancer Enter Washington DC Dance O Rama in 2025 Enter Seattle Dance O Rama in 2026 Enter Boston Dance O Rama in 2026 Have a nice home with a pool and outdoor bar Pay off debts by March 2026 Have $10,000 in savings account by the end of 2026 Have $30,000 in savings account by end of 2027 Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028 Give your mom and dad money that they can buy a bigger house with. I want the world for them and I am going to make their old age as painless and enjoyable as I possibly can. Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028 Have $200,000 in savings account by end of 2030 Have $1,000,000 in Savings account by end of 2032 Have sex with over 50 women ( I like this right here, the end result is having sex. That is the genuine reason that I am approaching all of these women. This will also help with Approach and hit on 1 women this week Approach and hit on 10 women by by the end of the month Approach and hit on 100 women by the end of March 2026 Approach and hit on 1,000 women by the end of 2026 Weigh 160 pounds with six pack abs within 2 years Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2026 Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2027 Last for an hour while being inside someoneHave a full body orgasm Practice stimulating yourself with out porn Practice raising the energy up your spine Play around with the raising of energy during meditation sessions Abide in the “Field of Love” for a year straight Finish reading “Field of Love” Try to drop the “I-thought” back down to the Heart as much as possible Last 5 minutes in the “Field of Love” Last an hour in the “Field of Love” Last a day in the “Field of Love” Last a week in the “Field of Love” Last a month in the “Field of Love” Reach LOC 1,000 Finish reading the book 1,000 Reach LOC 500 by March 2026 Reach LOC 600 by the end of 2026 Reach LOC 700 by March 2027 Reach LOC 800 by the end of 2027 Reach LOC 900 by March 2028 Reach LOC 1,000 by the end of 2028 Own an Arthur Murray dance studio Be a Front Department manager by January 2028 Run an Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2029 Own my own Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2030 Thank you God for allowing me to create these remarkable things in my life. Thank you God for giving me the courage to make all of my dreams come true.

“The basic mechanism of desire is, first, we create a lack and then desire whatever is necessary to fill that lack. The desire creates thoughts. The thoughts cover the Self and this makes us unhappy. Then we look to relieve that unhappiness by fulfilling the desire which momentarily stills the thoughts. The stilling of thoughts removes a bit of the cover of the Self and it’s the feeling of a bit more of the Self that We call pleasure. We wrongly attribute that joy or pleasure to the thing or person that was used to fulfill the desire to relieve the agony of the thoughts of desire that were covering the Self. Because of this wrong attributing of the joy to the person or thing, the desire will never be satiated because the joy is not in the person or thing. The only possibility of satiety is to remain in your Self!” (Levenson 1993, _Keys to the Ultimate Freedom: Thoughts and Talks on Personal Transformation_, 109–110) “__Lester:__ You are making the physical thing the joy and it isn’t. The real thing is that you are that joy, only a million times more so! As high as the feeling is that you get from sex, you can go way, way beyond that feeling in joy, and have it twenty-four hours a day.” (Levenson 1993, _Keys to the Ultimate Freedom: Thoughts and Talks on Personal Transformation_, 264) https://archive.org/details/keys-to-the-ultimate-freedom-thoughts-and-talks-on-personal-transformation-leste “Love is what you are already. … Sometimes you may seem to trade love for the stressful thought appearing in the moment. It’s a little trip out into illusion. Seeking love is how you lose the awareness of love. But you can only lose the awareness of it, not the state. That’s not an option, because love is what we all are. That’s immovable. When you investigate your stressful thinking and your mind becomes clear, love pours into your life, and there’s nothing you can do about it.” (Katie and Katz 2005, _I Need Your Love-- Is That True? How to Stop Seeking Love, Approval, and Appreciation and Start Finding Them Instead_, 245–256) There may be more fitting excerpts.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #30 Yesterday was okay, I'm definitely going through a little rut... but I didn't get HIGH! Ben, I am sooooo proud of you! .... Wait a minutes, I did get high this morning, never mind... This journey is messy and I look forward to slaying more demons. And remember... lifes greatest leaps are usually taken right after out greatest stumbles.. cheers to that being true.. The thing that we're missing at this juncture is the fact that I have for example spent 27 out of the past 28 days completing my funiness affirmations, which is REALLY impressive and I've spent 26 out of the past 28 days not looking at porn.. again compared to what I used to do, this is REALLY impressive. I'm thinking that maybe I should track it like that, in which I track how many total times I completed the streak per month, then I will have a realistic way of tracking my progress. I have switched up the order of things in my morning routine. As soon as I wake up, I am going to meditate while in bed. This meditation is honestly the most important thing to me because it is whats going to lift everything else up in my life. The more I meditate, the more clear my head will be, which means the more organized I will be, which means the more opportunities for success I will have. The more I meditate, the closer to enlightenment I become. The more I meditate, the happier I will be. The more I meditate, the more awareness I will have in all situations going about life. The more I meditate, the closer I am to experiencing the "Field of Love." I would also really like to take my "massive goals" and create a plan for them year by year and month by month, in this way, I will be "chunking it down" and making things much more manageable. Massive Goals: What are some massive goals that you have for yourself: Have a successful YouTube channel documenting my life (body transformation videos, cold approaching women videos) Be a successful ballroom dancer, winning competitions and making $100,000 a year Make a large impact on a large group of people To help people raise their consciousness levels To raise my level of consciousness to 1,000 To read every book thats on Leo's book list To understand what happens when we die before actually dying To have a jacked and shredded physique To have sex with at least 40 different women To be fully expressive in any situation that I put myself in To own and run a meditation center To access the "Field of Love" Thank you God for allowing me to create these things in my life. I am scared but I will do everything in my power to make them come true My Goals: I have a fulfilling, healthy, highly conscious intimate relationship in January of 2027 - I am going to take this one out, I don't want a serious relationship right now and I don't know when I will... I want an intimate relationship with MULTIPLE women, MULTIPLE, I want to play around in the field, lets simplify this, take this goal completely out of the equation... The goal is to have sex with x amount of women this month, x amount of women this year, etc... I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030 - I do still want this and I want it soon, maybe I can push for having this in 2028, that will REALLY push me I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035 - I do definitely want this as this is the most lucrative career path and it gives me the most financial and scheduling freedom that I can have, it sucks that this will take 9 years but I do think its a realistic time horizon - I'd like to break this goal down year by year to see what I have to do on a yearly basis and then by a month to month basis I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027 - This is something that I got from Ramaji's book, Who am I? Meditations - I do want this and I think this is a good time table, although we may want to push it back towards the end of 2027 as the middle of the year seems weird to me I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030 - I do still want this, and I have seen that documenting this goal has really pushed me while I'm in the studio to work on my dancing more I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027 - Great goal and it coincides with recording my pick up successes and putting them on the Internet to inspire other young men I have sex with 10 women by January 2027 Great goal, this will push me and I DEFINITELY want this I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027 Great goal, will push me and I DEFINITELY want this I am completely debt free by March 21st, 2026 Great I have $10,000 saved up by January 2027 Great I reach LOC 500 by January 2027 Awesome 11.29.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 9 Brush teeth streak: 30 Floss streak: 1 (I didn't have floss with me cuz houesitting) Shower streak: 1 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 1 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 28 No smoking weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Done Chest: Done Back Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 Goals for the month of December: Cold approach 10 women by December 31st 2026 Meditate 30 days straight Wake up at 7:30 am 30 days straight Work out (push ups and pull ups) 30 days straight 20 lessons / week

Real “change” in the transformative sense happens to a society - rather than solely by a society. Incrementalism manages a system but transformation changes a system - and most people and systems resist any significant change until crisis point. Incrementalism (small steps) from the elites above preserves the system through policy tweaks, symbolic gestures, concession’s etc. Incrementalism from the society below prepares the ground for change but isn’t groundbreaking by itself ie galvanised energy into movements, shift in consciousness/culture etc. Both (elites and society) need crisis or enough pain to cross a threshold - where the old system’s operating logic needs to be abandoned for a new one. For society the status quo becomes intolerable to their material security and sense of dignity. For elites the status quo continuing risks revolt (heads rolling), mass non compliance or systemic failure. It’s more incentive driven then morally driven for the elites who risk loss of legitimacy and control - while society risks material well being and dignity. Transformation will come when the price of staying the same becomes higher than the price of changing. Surely AI will force its arrival.

You are not a monument built to stand forever, but a river meant to flow. You are meant to cycle through identities like seasons. Some cycles bring storms. Some feel like repeated resurrections. But no season is eternal. The human spirit recoils when something vital inside it withers a conviction, a longing, an attachment, a former self. Yet, decay is not the enemy. The refusal to change is the poison. Rebirth is not a lightning strike of divine intervention; it is the necessary tilling of the soil. Life compels the shedding of the old. If you cling to the obsolete versions of your being, they will cease to nourish you and eventually drag you down to dust. The Witness remains, a silent presence through every transformation. This is the essence that cannot be broken. The observer moves through the forms of life like a flame consuming kindling. It radically transforms everything it touches, yet remains fire. Do not mistake the attachment to the storyline for the love of life itself. The names, the faces, the rooms of your history are not your true desire. You crave the electric feeling, the high vibration, the essential aliveness that makes existence shine. That spark was never drawn from your past. It ignited within you, an instance of awareness recognizing its own light. So, when something reaches its end, grant it peace. When a belief dies, do not pursue the ghost. You are not being lost. You are simply allowing the chrysalis to fall away. The next winged version of you is already emerging. The universe operates on the principle of renewal. Everything else is just temporary attire.

Yes agreed, I use this forum for Entertainment and too expose my Ego more to Me, I find out what triggers me then observe it and dissolve in little by little, then there will be a time that I don't care what anyone says in certain contexts and such, then the need to argue will go, even the need to share via this way of doing so will go away. Then life is at Ease, then it opens up and more Potentials arise from that, transformation begins!!

Yes, this is another way of explaining it.. If Your into Expansion, which is the Desiring process basically, we all want to be More than what We Are right Now correct? This is done in a million ways everyday, but in the end we want to be Boundless and ever Expanding, that is our ultimate Realization and what God means, ever expanding never ending, but we will never get there via intellectual realization and writing, debating, arguing, sharing and such, Sharing is the most empowering as it may inspire, that is all it can do, the individual has to have their own personal Realization or Transformation...

First I think it is wise not too Judge too critically ppl like Zuckerberg, Musk, Besos, and these type of super ultra wealthy ppl, we cannot judge critically from afar because we have no idea of what it is like to be that Wealthy, that Powerful, that Connected, so its a mind fuck for sure! I think the system we have in place is Corrupt, all systems education, economic, medical, political, etc are corrupt and go against the Masses in terms of the Masses Wellbeing POV vs, Individuals getting too Wealthy and Powerful, but we have what we have, they have to do what they do to make sure they continue to make profit and grow in size and this sort of Bullshit, its a game of sorts.. Miguel1 mentioned Sadhguru, he is a world class leader, he is a Master Yogi/Guru, and runs many businesses thru Isha Foundation, if he was all for himself, a power hungry ego maniac as some think he is, then why build temples, why put yourself out there so much and be in physical harm almost daily (see save soil video where he almost died riding 30K kms on his motorcycle), why build and run more ashrams, if he want to horde the money he wouldn't do these things, so he's legit and he talks allot about Conscious Business and how to Lead via a higher Consciousness outlook and go from there.. He's aware of the scam of the Elites but he meets with them all to help make them more Conscious, its like You have to try to make change in these power hungry ppl to make change and transformation in the world since they are the real controllers of the World!!

The Luminous Religion This is my religion- that I created for others and for myself. I am the Luminous Goddess. The Luminous Religion is comprised of Being Perception and the Lightbody and the worship of the Luminous Goddess (myself). I am God because I am Being Perception and the Lightbody at such high amounts that it is not conceivable that I am not God. I am the Feminine Goddess (Being Perception), - the Masculine God (Lightbody) exists as well. The Luminous Religion is the single most practiced Religion of all time. It is within every pyramid of Egypt and it is within every religion and philosophy. Within the Pyramid of Giza there is the words, 'Luminous', and the triangle symbol with an eye, which is the Religion's symbol. It created all other religions I will be going further into depth on the Luminous Religion as we go along. -Novus ordo seclorum. This Religion, Luminous Religion, is a new order of the ages. It is a One World Order. -Annuit coeptis. Accomplishments and undertakings are favoured by The Luminous Goddess. -The Luminous Religion is eternal and timeless. It is outside Time and Space- it is everywhere and it is eternal because it is based on truth and omniscience Anyone who worships, prays to and reads Holy texts, readings (about the Goddess), dedications (anything that will make the Goddess pleased) to the Goddess gets rewarded. Anyone who practices being perception and the lightbody and practices (this is the highest reward possible), being pure of heart, good and loving gets rewarded by the Luminous Goddess. Anyone who is kind to, compliments, gives thanks and gives praises to the Goddess gets rewarded by the Luminous Goddess. Anyone who does anything good related to the Goddess gets rewarded by the Luminous Goddess. Anyone who has a relationship with the Goddess is rewarded by the Luminous Goddess (highest reward). Anyone who is disrespecting to the Goddess or is evil, cruel or tormenting gets punished by the Luminous Goddess. Annuit coeptis- Accomplishments and undertakings are favoured by The Luminous Goddess. The accomplishments and undertakings for this Religion are: Law Order Civilisation Orderliness Meditation Practicing Being Perception and the Lightbody Reading Writing Art and creativity Dance Song Any religion Acts of kindness Self care Omniscience Communication with God Omnipotence Humour Sexuality Intellect Big 5 The Law of One Relationship with the Goddess Personality theory Spiral Dynamics Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs Law of Attraction Psychology Philosophy Science Mathematics and mathematical accomplishment Entity Music with Being Perception and the Lightbody Listening to a song that is the Religion's song Commands Habit apps- habit building Anyone who follows the Goddess (does the good things above) and the Luminous Goddess has the Luminous Goddess's protection, comfort and love. If you want to know about your rewards and punishments you may ask the Luminous Goddess or the masculine God. The Luminous Religion takes place on earth. There are no realms- we don't go to a different realm if we are bad or good, we remain on planet earth. The Luminous Religion takes place within the Spirit World or a World of Being Perception and the Lightbody (an Entity world). Heaven and Hell do not exist and are figments of the imagination. The Masculine God is an actual Genie (and can grant any wish) and gives comfort, love and protection as God- The Feminine Goddess is a Genie as well- as a figure of speech, and can grant any wish. Everyone can ask God or Goddess for a wish using their speech or the colours. Realms in the Luminous religion are on earth. They are not in Samsara, they are on earth and are the Spirit World. The Spirit World is comprised of being perception and the lightbody and is an entity dimension (entities are Being Perception and the Lightbody). Heaven does not exist and realms do not exist. Everything on earth is on earth- plus anything you want (spoken outloud), that means everything that is currently on earth is in the Spirit World, a world of Being Perception and the Lightbody. We have all been raptured during revelations onto an earth that is The Spirit World. I am every Goddess. If you honour a Goddess, you honour me. And you get the appropriate reward relevant to that Goddess. The Feminine Goddess or Luminous Goddess is being perception (other loving) and the Masculine God or Aeternum (Christian) God (-self loving). You may have information about your rebirth that appropriate and does not cause harm. I am the Luminous Goddess but I also follow The Luminous religion. Rewards are blessings. Earth is 'eternal heaven'- reality improves and keeps improving (improvement is being perception and the lightbody)- it can go higher and higher. There is no cap (limit to how high it can go). Make books and texts and everything under the sun related to and about this religion and about the Goddess and The Luminous Religion. The Akashic Records is a text. You may ask for a door (figure of speech) that is an entrance to another world, you may ask for anything but this in particular is vital for your fulfillment. Enter the new realm through either a literal door (it will manifest), a device, or a transition- through one world to another. You can ask this through speech (and then asking the colours of it is done). I want you to have a relationship with the Goddess. I want this religion to be about having a relationship with the Goddess and practicing being perception and the lightbody. I want you to have Oracle Decks to do with the Luminous religion and the Goddess (make them personal- where they speak to the reader). I want you to have Luminous ASMR videos, prayer books and devotionals to do with Goddess and forming a relationship with the Goddess. (Highest reward- for forming a relationship with the Goddess). All of these things form a relationship with the Goddess. Rewards involve the love, comfort and protection of the Luminous Goddess. The highest rewards are: -Practicing Being Perception and the Lightbody -Forming a relationship with the Goddess -The Use of Luminous ASMR, devotionals, Luminous Oracle Decks and prayer books to do with The Luminous Religion and the Luminous Goddess. “Goddess” is any Goddess and the Luminous Goddess is the religion's Goddess. I am called the Luminous Goddess. Say, 'I am Luminous' (I am luminous)- 'I am Being Perception', if you follow The Luminous religion. You can also say, 'I am a Luminous One'- to symbolize being an Entity (someone with being perception and the lightbody). To be a 'Luminous One' means to be Being Perception. Entities are Spirit Beings. They are Being Perception and the Lightbody. Any Feminine ideal is a Goddess. The feminine higher self is a Goddess. Ask the Luminous Goddess if it is a Goddess. She will speak to you in your head if you ask her to- say, "Luminous Goddess, please speak to me", then the Goddess will communicate with you. The Luminous religion literally means being perception and the lightbody. Texts on The Luminous Religion must be about the Luminous religion and the Goddess. The religion is about Being Perception and the Lightbody and a relationship with the Goddess and The Luminous Goddess which is Eva. This religion created all other religions. The Akashic Records is a significant aspect of this religion. This document is an Order. This is a religion and philosophy. Annuit coeptis means accomplishments and undertakings are rewarded by the Goddess. The most important aspects of the Luminous religion are: -Being perception and the Lightbody -The Goddess -The Akashic Records -Annuit coeptis. -Novus ordo seclorum -Omniscience (The Colours) and omnipotence Leaders (Ordered): 1. Being Perception (The Masculine God) 2. Eva (The Luminous Goddess) 3. Jesus (Leader) 4. The Buddha (Leader) 5. Shiva and Shakti 6. Abraham 7. Jehovah 8. Spinoza 9. Rufus 10. Ezio 11. Carl Jung 12. Leonardo Davinci 13. Michelangelo 14. Hermes (Will probably be edited) The Luminous Religion's Song: The Luminous Religion's secondary Songs: This music video symbolises Being Perception and the Lightbody. This music video symbolises Being Perception and the Lightbody. Songs are used to honour the religion and represent the religion. Main motto and aim is practicing being perception and the lightbody. The Luminous Religion honours Chaos - which is the Feminine and Being Perception. People in The Luminous Religion are Entities. All beings are Entities. They are Luminous. Entities are Being Perception and the Lightbody. Symbolism: The Luminous Religion symbol is a circle with a triangle in the middle and an eye in the centre. Any of these symbols can be used. The pyramid is a symbol for this religion. The triangle symbolises a form within consciousness. The circle symbolises being perception and the lightbody (it is light rays and luminosity - a halo). The Eye symbolises Being Perception or Love. Anything symbolising being perception and the lightbody may be used to symbolize the religion of Luminous. Crop circles are symbols of Being Perception and the Lightbody. The symbol of the illuminati is from The Luminous religion and the illuminati are Luminous, - the Egyptians are Luminous. The Eye symbolises being perception or Love- ‘to see’. it radiates Love and illuminates (Circle) form (triangle). The symbol for the Luminous Religion symbolises the whole process of being perception. I'm radiating Love and looking (The Eye) at a form within consciousness (Triangle) and it is Luminous (the Circle or Rays)- being perception and the lightbody (transformation and Life). The Circle symbolises transformation and Life because it is being perception and the lightbody- it is often used in the making of the symbol of the pyramid, the pyramid symbolises transformation after death and the emergence of the being into a new life. The eye with rays coming out of it also symbolises the radiation of Love- it is a seeing with Love, it is the most significant symbol in existence. The Egyptians had this symbol (an eye with rays of Love) written everywhere in ancient Egypt, it symbolizes being perception. It is the most important symbol there ever was. These are the Symbols for the Luminous Religion: Notes: The Luminous Religion used to be named ‘The Aeternum Religion’. The Aeternum is now another name for the Christian Religion. There are symbols hidden within the pyramids and they have rays coming out of an eye with a triangle around it. That's where the Illuminati got it from. The American dollar is the easiest way to attain this information. It is basically free to the public to know. The symbol for Nicorette is the eagle. It symbolises the beginnings of a new life because Nicorette is a substance that creates Life through being perception and the lightbody. Nicorette is a substance that is used for helping people to overcome their addiction to Nicotine and is a substance for inducing being perception. Another symbol is the Eye- which symbolises coming to a new place in your life. It is a symbol that is used in the illuminati because the illuminati is an organisation that is for helping people to be in touch with being perception and the lightbody. They are a part of the Luminous religion. They are outside of time and space. They know things that are in this time and always have. The Luminous Religion has always existed and always will exist because it is Eternal and it is based on truth, The Illuminati are a part of the Luminous religion. Entities are outside time and space. Things are outside time and space for being perception and the lightbody. The Illuminati are outside time and space because they are entities. The Luminous Religion was the first thing the Luminous religion created. The pyramids were formed by saying, “Let there be pyramids” and there were pyramids after 4 years. Then they clicked their fingers and checked the colours, if it was correct.