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This is the holly grail of corruption in the land of the "heath"care cartel. Scientifically proven to: Full report Brain damage (21% frontal lobe reduction, neurotoxicity mechanisms) Sebaceous gland destruction throughout the body Eye damage (meibomian gland atrophy) Gut mucosa destruction Musculoskeletal damage Sexual dysfunction Psychiatric effects and suicide data Autoimmune triggering PROVEN by science. This comes directly from science yet its still pushed to millions of people every year. The pure corruption keeping this drug in the market is out of this world. Your gut also has sebaceous glands, destroying that is devistating... and they give this to teenagers. Doctors lack basic systemic inteligence.

" Contemplate: "What falsehood have I been defending?" And then visualize yourself letting it die. See! Just right there you can see that truth is death. Note: I am not talking about suicide." So, in this case Truth is the only way to defeat Death?

Suicide Club is surprisingly funny and not at all sad. Being a Japanese film, you can expect a certain level of weirdness from the start. Honestly, it was mostly boring, but it did have its moments.

oOo’s Lyrical Source Material 2026. Part 1 of 3 for the 16th of January: Shared further below is representative of a small ripple in a vast ocean of global noise oOo for oOo to lyrically capitalise on. Before then however, let’s settle the score on some of what’s so far shared in the demo version of “oOo Hello.” oOo’s source of the acronym in latest demo and likely in the Feb 1st release, “UBI - Universal Beaurocratic Insult”, oOo himself. Source of the line “Fuck that bitch I’m almost dead”, every old timer trying to snap they grandson back into reality; sadly I never got to meet my grandfather, but his full name was left to me alone; he was an artist, immaculate visual detail. Source of “Ban your daughter from the internet”, the millions of children’s naivety exploited by parental ignorance on the dark tunnels they explore on the internet; only a dash of the knowledge I need to develop in these areas of exploitation. Source of “Shes using her alimony to get plowed in Maui by Matthew, Mark, Luke and John Maui”, many variations therein represented in Discovery, legislative revelation process for Divorce Courts in America. Source of “The greatest philosopher knew the show was dead before he walked inside.”, anyone thats coming to grips with grandpa’s words applied analogously to the right areas in life where the line of truth becomes obscured by falsity which at present, reflects many societal trends despite many too that we should be grateful for and in many ways, come off the backs of our ancestry. And now as introduced, an Endless Well of Lyrical Material to Synthesise and Artistically Creativise. Motivation for sharing is to encourage the knowledge, understanding and wisdom process for identity reformation, the only process that ever made our or any identity, obscured by the very patterns that make it; and therefore easily unravelled, rechannneled and relearned by turning it into a formalised mastery process. Sample Directional Review of what’s to come for oOo: Here’s an arsenal of verifiable, documented facts drawn from court records, government investigations, leaked internal documents, and declassified files. Th lyrical ammunition for oOo. Verifiable facts, not fringe theories. The following research analysis is for my own reflections, however otherwise, it is generated by AI, a rinse and repeat pattern of AI research followed by my own reflective synthesis. Scrutinise accordingly. The financial system rewards wealth and punishes poverty The 2008 financial crisis exposed a two-tiered justice system that remains intact today. While 6 million American families lost their homes to foreclosure, only one banker went to prison: Kareem Serageldin of Credit Suisse, who served 30 months for mismarking bond prices. At his sentencing, the judge remarked, “It’s hard for me to believe that the only cooking of the books case is involving Mr. Serageldin.” By contrast, more than 1,100 bankers were convicted after the smaller 1980s savings and loan crisis. The Federal Reserve’s response to 2008 tells the story in numbers: 250 billion dollars to banks versus just 46 billion dollars for foreclosure prevention. A New York Federal Reserve staff report from 2024 confirmed what critics suspected: quantitative easing widened the income gap between the top 10 percent and everyone else by raising profits and equity prices. The wealthiest 10 percent now own 89 percent of all stocks. The money printer transferred wealth upward. Today’s concentration of power is staggering. The “Big Three” asset managers BlackRock, Vanguard, and State Street are the largest shareholders in 88 percent of S&P 500 companies. BlackRock alone manages 12.53 trillion dollars, roughly 40 percent of U.S. GDP. Federal Reserve data from 2024 shows the top 0.1 percent holds 13.9 percent of all wealth, or 22.48 trillion dollars, while the bottom 50 percent holds just 2.5 percent, or 4.1 trillion dollars spread across 66 million households. The 19 richest billionaires gained 1 trillion dollars in 2024 alone, the largest single-year wealth concentration increase ever recorded. Student debt has become Wall Street’s latest profit center. Total student loan debt reached 1.814 trillion dollars across 42.5 million borrowers. Private lenders securitize this debt into Student Loan Asset-Backed Securities, effectively betting on borrower distress. A 2024 Senate report documented 3.9 million billing errors during the return to repayment, with only 3.3 percent of Public Service Loan Forgiveness applications approved since the program began. Pharmaceutical profits built on documented deception The Sackler family’s opioid empire represents perhaps the most documented corporate harm in American history. Court records reveal Purdue Pharma learned one doctor was known internally as “the Candyman” for prescribing extreme doses of OxyContin, yet sales representatives visited him more than 300 times. When Purdue pleaded guilty to three federal felonies in 2020, the Department of Justice settlement reached 8.3 billion dollars. Supreme Court Justice Neil Gorsuch’s 2024 opinion described the Sacklers’ “milking program,” withdrawing 11 billion dollars, or 75 percent of company value, before bankruptcy. The final June 2025 settlement confirmed 7.4 billion dollars in payments, with more than 30 million internal documents ordered public. The human cost was over 500,000 Americans dead from opioid overdoses. The accountability was zero Sackler family members facing criminal charges. They are permanently banned from the opioid industry, yet remain billionaires. The FDA’s revolving door ensures industry influence. Scott Gottlieb received 559,000 dollars from drug companies before becoming FDA Commissioner from 2017 to 2019, then joined Pfizer’s board within three months of leaving, earning more than 330,000 dollars annually. Dr. Doran Fink led COVID vaccine review at the FDA, then began working at Moderna just two months after leaving. A British Medical Journal study found 58 percent of FDA hematology-oncology reviewers who left went to work for pharmaceutical companies. Drug pricing tells its own story. Insulin cost 21 dollars per vial in 1996. By 2019, the same Humalog vial cost 332 dollars, a 1,480 percent increase, while production costs remained between 2 and 4 dollars per vial. The Federal Trade Commission sued the three largest pharmacy benefit managers in September 2024 for artificially inflating insulin prices, documenting deaths of young diabetics who rationed medication they could not afford. Clinical trials themselves are compromised. Half of all clinical trials are never published. When pharmaceutical companies sponsor trials, 78 percent show favorable outcomes, compared to 48 percent for independent trials. A Science investigation found sponsors violated reporting laws more than 55 percent of the time, while the FDA has issued zero fines. Social media platforms knowingly harm users for profit Facebook’s internal documents leaked in 2021 are damning. One employee wrote after January 6th, “We’ve been fueling this fire for a long time and we shouldn’t be surprised it’s now out of control.” Facebook’s 2018 algorithm change gave emotional reactions five times more weight than simple likes. An internal study titled “Does Facebook reward outrage?” confirmed that more negative comments produced more engagement. The “Carol’s Journey to QAnon” study from June 2019 showed that after a fake account followed conservative pages, it took just two days for Facebook’s algorithm to recommend QAnon content. Internal data showed 64 percent of people who joined extremist groups did so because algorithms steered them there. Instagram’s own research on teen mental health was particularly disturbing. Internal slides stated, “We make body image issues worse for one in three teenage girls.” Thirteen percent of UK teens and six percent of US teens said their desire to kill themselves began on Instagram. Forty percent reported Instagram made them feel unattractive. Facebook knew this and buried the findings. The U.S. Surgeon General’s 2023 advisory confirmed that more than three hours per day on social media doubles the risk of depression and anxiety symptoms in teens. The average teenager spends 3.5 hours daily on social media. Ninety-five percent of young people aged 13 to 17 use a social media platform. CDC data shows teens with more than four hours daily screen time report depression symptoms at 25.9 percent, compared to 9.5 percent for those with less. The business model is surveillance capitalism, defined as an economic order that claims human experience as free raw material for extraction, prediction, and sales. The average Facebook user has approximately 2,000 data points collected about them. Former Facebook president Sean Parker admitted, “We knew we were creating something addictive.” Former executive Chamath Palihapitiya said, “The short-term dopamine-driven feedback loops we created are destroying how society works.” Cambridge Analytica harvested 87 million Facebook profiles for political manipulation. Facebook settled for 725 million dollars and lost 134 billion dollars in market value. Leaked TikTok meetings confirmed China-based engineers had access to US user data, with employees stating, “Everything is seen in China.” Political systems corrupted by documented money flows Lobbying spending hit 4.4 billion dollars in 2024, a new record. The pharmaceutical industry alone spent 384.5 million dollars and more than 6.1 billion dollars since 1999. The U.S. Chamber of Commerce has spent 746 million dollars since 2015. Every quarter of 2023 and 2024 surpassed one billion dollars in lobbying. The revolving door turns constantly. Three hundred eighty-eight former members of Congress are registered lobbyists. Billy Tauzin authored the 2003 Medicare drug bill banning price negotiation, then took a two-million-dollar-per-year job as head of PhRMA, eventually earning 11 million dollars in his final year. An American Economic Review study found lobbyists lose 24 percent of revenue when the senator they worked for leaves office. The military-industrial complex operates with stunning opacity. The Pentagon has failed eight consecutive audits and cannot account for 63 percent of its 3.8 trillion dollars in assets. It is the only major federal agency to never pass an audit. A buried 2015 report identified 125 billion dollars in administrative waste. Lockheed Martin lost or destroyed over one million F-35 spare parts worth 85 million dollars, with the government tracking less than two percent of losses. Dark money has exploded since Citizens United. The 2024 election saw 1.9 billion dollars in dark money, double 2020. Since 2010, 4.3 billion dollars has flowed into federal elections. Elon Musk contributed more than 250 million dollars to super PACs in 2024. One group raised 100 million dollars for Trump over four years with donors hidden. Media consolidation limits perspective. In 1983, 50 companies controlled 90 percent of U.S. media. By 2011, just six companies controlled the same share. Forty percent of local TV stations are owned by three companies. Stanford research found Sinclair acquisitions increased national politics coverage by 25 percent at the expense of local news and produced a rightward shift. Proven conspiracies that were once dismissed MKUltra from 1953 to 1973 involved CIA mind-control experiments using LSD on unwitting Americans. Twenty thousand documents survived despite destruction orders. Over 30 institutions participated. Victims were subjected to electroshock at extreme levels. Canada paid settlements, and no perpetrators were criminally prosecuted. The Tuskegee Syphilis Study ran from 1932 to 1972. Six hundred Black men were told they were treated for “bad blood” while syphilis was deliberately left untreated, even after penicillin became standard. Dozens died, families were infected, and children were born with congenital disease. The study lasted 40 years. The Gulf of Tonkin incident in 1964 was fabricated. Declassified NSA documents showed intelligence was skewed to justify war. This led to full U.S. involvement in Vietnam and 58,220 American deaths. COINTELPRO from 1956 to 1971 targeted civil rights groups. The FBI sent Martin Luther King Jr. a letter urging suicide. Fred Hampton was killed using FBI-supplied intelligence. The tobacco industry denied nicotine addiction under oath in 1994 despite internal documents proving knowledge of cancer risks since at least 1961. A 2006 federal ruling confirmed decades of deception. Food and environmental systems designed for profit over health Factory farming uses 66 percent of medically important antibiotics in the U.S. Antibiotic resistance causes three million illnesses and 35,000 deaths annually. Four companies dominate meat processing. Real wages declined 48 percent since 1982. Bill Gates owns roughly a quarter million acres of U.S. farmland. Bayer controls one-third of the global seed market. Monsanto sued farmers for seed saving and won Supreme Court backing. Nestlé paid minimal fees to extract massive water volumes while Flint residents paid high bills for toxic water. Private jets emitted 15.6 million tonnes of CO2 in 2023. Nearly half of flights were under 500 kilometers. Billionaire emissions equal centuries of average human output. Apple secretly throttled iPhones, settling for hundreds of millions. Printer ink costs exceed luxury perfumes. A 2024 listeria outbreak killed ten after regulators documented dozens of violations. Australian audiences recognize these failures Robodebt unlawfully extracted 746 million dollars from Australians. A Royal Commission found systemic failure. No criminal charges followed. Indigenous deaths in custody reached a 45-year high. Hundreds have died since the 1991 Royal Commission, with most recommendations ignored. Australia has the most concentrated media ownership among surveyed democracies. Public broadcasting has been defunded. Housing affordability collapsed. Home ownership among young adults plummeted while prices doubled. Mining companies dominate political donations, including the largest single donation in Australian history. 2024 to 2026 revelations the audience will recognize Sean Combs was convicted and sentenced in 2025 after federal racketeering and trafficking charges. Boeing’s safety failures led to deaths, whistleblower fatalities, and rejected plea deals. Sam Bankman-Fried received a 25-year sentence after billions vanished from FTX. DOGE data scandals exposed massive security breaches and intimidation of whistleblowers. Google was ruled an illegal monopolist in search and advertising. Massive fines followed. AI deepfakes enabled multimillion-dollar fraud. Executives admitted reality itself is now suspect. Conclusion The documented facts here reveal systemic patterns most people would dismiss as conspiracy if they were not proven. One banker jailed while six million lost homes. Half a million dead from opioids with zero Sackler convictions. Algorithms driving extremism. Billions in lobbying. Eight failed Pentagon audits. The through-line is accountability asymmetry. Systems protect concentrated power while extracting from everyone else. The facts are public record. The challenge is not finding the truth but forcing it to be heard. For confrontational lyrics, juxtaposition is enough. Eleven billion milked, five hundred thousand dead. One banker jailed, six million homeless. Three and a half hours online, one in three girls harmed. The facts already speak. The artist makes them unavoidable. oOo’s confrontation then… is already destiny.

The U.S. military is overestimated, by design, just how China and Russia like to bluff about theirs. This is why the U.S. won't take military risks and suicide missions, why the largest strike group in the world went to 3rd world Venezuela. Any exposure of weakness or fragility is huge. The houthis, a rag tag paramilitary have recently shot down American fighter jets, the u.s. denies this and says they fell into the ocean. Iran has a military that the u.s. cannot overthrow. U.S. used microwaves and mass fake drone deployment to disable Venezuelan defense, would not work in Iran, would get shot down by fighters. U.S. is not prepared to attack Iran even if 2 strike groups were in the area. The June attack used half of the U.S. stockpile of bunker buster bombs. "Abraham Lincoln" strike group is headed to the middle east. A week out. The West is not invincible. We rely on sophisticated stuff which is impressive and scary but also a dependency and vulnerability. We do not have infinite supplies.

Part 2 of 3 for the 16th of January: These research analyses are for my own reflections, however otherwise, they are generated by AI. Scrutinise accordingly. A rinse and repeat pattern of AI research followed by my own reflective synthesis. Systemic Truths: Research for Confrontational Art Modern life is shaped by systems that demand obedience from ordinary people while insulating power from consequence. Whether bureaucratic, familial, digital, or philosophical, these systems share the same structure: accountability flows downward, protection flows upward. What follows is a compilation of documented facts—court records, government investigations, peer-reviewed research, and declassified material—that expose how this structure actually operates. None of this is speculative. The evidence exists in public record. What’s missing is the willingness to connect it. Across domains, the pattern repeats. Programs designed to help function as instruments of control. Trauma passes through generations more efficiently than wisdom. Children navigate spaces their parents barely understand. Divorce courts drain families while claiming neutrality. Philosophers who point this out are labeled dangerous, dismissed, or punished. The spectacle isn’t hidden. It’s normalized. UBI and the quiet violence of bureaucracy Universal Basic Income trials have already delivered their verdict. Finland’s 2017–2018 randomized control trial gave 2,000 unemployed citizens €560 per month for two years, unconditionally. The results, published in the American Economic Journal, showed no reduction in employment. What changed was mental health: lower stress, higher trust, and improved outlook on the future. Kenya’s GiveDirectly program, designed by MIT economists including Nobel laureate Abhijit Banerjee, tracked over 14,000 households across 295 villages. Cash transfers produced a 57% increase in business assets, a 38% increase in earnings, and a 48% reduction in infant mortality. Stockton, California’s SEED program found full-time employment increased by 12% among recipients—double the control group. The alternative—means-tested welfare—tells a different story. Research by Pamela Herd and Donald Moynihan shows that only 30–80% of eligible people actually receive means-tested benefits, compared to nearly universal uptake in programs like Social Security. The gap isn’t laziness; it’s design. Administrative burden operates through three pressures: learning costs (finding out programs exist), compliance costs (documentation and verification), and psychological costs (stigma, surveillance, loss of autonomy). A 2020 study in the Journal of Affective Disorders found that welfare participation itself correlates with increased depression, driven by social labeling and humiliation. Australia’s Robodebt scheme exposed this logic in its most brutal form. The Royal Commission documented 794,000 unlawful debts raised against 526,000 people, with $746 million wrongfully recovered before the program collapsed. The system relied on income averaging—mathematically indefensible when 93% of affected recipients had variable earnings. The burden of proof was reversed: citizens were forced to prove they didn’t owe money. Parents testified that their children died by suicide after receiving automated debt notices. The Commissioner’s conclusion was blunt: the system was neither fair nor legal, and it traumatized people “on the off-chance they might owe money.” David Graeber’s argument in Bullshit Jobs adds context. A YouGov survey found 37% of UK workers believe their job makes no meaningful contribution to the world. Subsequent academic work confirmed that feeling useless at work correlates strongly with depression and anxiety. Bureaucratic expansion doesn’t exist for efficiency alone. It disciplines time, drains dignity, and normalizes meaninglessness. Trauma passes easily; wisdom does not Intergenerational trauma is no longer theoretical. Rachel Yehuda’s research at Mount Sinai demonstrated that Holocaust exposure altered stress-related gene expression not only in survivors, but in their children—who never experienced the trauma directly. Cortisol patterns linked to PTSD appeared in both generations, particularly when mothers had PTSD during pregnancy. Similar effects were observed in children born to women exposed to the World Trade Center attacks. Genetics load the hardware; epigenetics runs the software. Trauma rewrites stress responses, sometimes before a child is even born. Approaching death clarifies rather than confuses. Terror Management Theory, tested across hundreds of experiments, shows that mortality awareness reshapes behavior. Laura Carstensen’s work on Socioemotional Selectivity Theory explains why: when time feels limited, people stop chasing status and novelty and prioritize emotional truth. Older adults report fewer negative emotions, better emotional regulation, and greater well-being despite declining health. What’s often dismissed as “having no fucks left to give” is actually value clarification under time pressure. Yet the transmission of wisdom is collapsing. Among the Tsimane’ people of the Amazon, researchers documented a 9–26% loss in medicinal plant knowledge over just nine years—roughly 1–3% per year. Similar losses appear across oral cultures when elders die without passing knowledge on. When wisdom disappears, identity goes with it. Grandparent-grandchild bonds matter here. Studies consistently show grandparents provide greater emotional stability and warmth than parents under stress. Strong bonds improve emotional regulation, reduce behavioral problems, and build resilience. But modern life fractures these ties through geographic mobility, nuclear family isolation, and institutional care. Creative drive shows partial heritability. Twin studies suggest openness and creative motivation are strongly inherited, while actual performance depends heavily on environment. Erik Erikson called this generativity: the drive to guide the next generation. One study found generativity accounted for 78% of whether older adults faced death with wisdom rather than despair. Wisdom doesn’t transmit automatically. It has to be given, and conditions increasingly prevent that. Children walk corridors their parents can’t see Online child exploitation has reached industrial scale. In 2024, the National Center for Missing & Exploited Children received 20.5 million CyberTipline reports containing 62.9 million files of suspected abuse material. Online enticement reports increased 192% in a single year. Reports involving generative AI rose over 1,300%. Child sex trafficking reports climbed 55%. Financial sextortion is now routine. NCMEC processes around 100 sextortion reports per day. The FBI linked at least 20 confirmed suicides to sextortion between 2021 and 2023, mostly involving boys aged 14–17. NCMEC is aware of at least 36 teenage boys who have died by suicide since 2021 due to sextortion. Victims as young as eight have been identified. Parents are largely unprepared. UK and Australian research shows parents consistently overestimate their understanding of children’s online lives. Nearly one-third of Australian children have encountered explicit sexual material online. Two-thirds of teenagers report exposure to seriously harmful content, including self-harm and suicide. Twenty-three percent of UK adults lack basic digital skills. Platforms remain structurally unaccountable. Australia’s eSafety Commissioner found Apple and YouTube do not track abuse reports or response times. Apple does not use known hash-matching tools on iCloud. Discord cited cost as a barrier to deploying livestream harm detection. Internal Meta documents revealed the company calculated a lifetime advertising value of $270 for a 13-year-old user and allowed up to 17 violations before account removal. Independent audits found only 21% of Instagram’s advertised teen safety features worked as described. Algorithms amplify harm. Meta-analysis across 151 audits found 8–10% of recommendations across major platforms were actively harmful. TikTok studies show misogynistic content quadrupling within five days of use. Amnesty International documented algorithmic pathways toward self-harm content. Most CyberTipline reports originate outside the U.S., highlighting how global the problem has become—and how national regulation lags behind. Divorce as extraction, not resolution Divorce is an industry. Estimates place its annual value between $13 and $50 billion in the U.S., with broader estimates reaching $100 billion once all associated costs are included. Contested divorces routinely cost $5,000–$35,000 per party. High-asset cases go far higher. Economist Jay Zagorsky found marriage correlates with a 77% increase in net worth compared to single counterparts, while divorce correlates with a 77% loss. A California study found living standards decline for 40% of men and 75% of women post-divorce. Custody outcomes reveal consistent patterns. In the U.S., 80% of one-parent households are headed by mothers. Nationally, mothers receive about 65% of custody time, though state variation is wide. Surveys show attorneys perceive maternal bias far more often than judges acknowledge it. An Australian study analyzing over 2,500 custody judgments found judicial language reinforced gender expectations, with male judges focusing heavily on procedural compliance. High-conflict divorces cause disproportionate harm. Though they represent a minority, they affect over a million children annually in the U.S. Children from these cases show higher rates of PTSD symptoms, anxiety, depression, and long-term behavioral issues. Research consistently shows it is conflict—not divorce itself—that causes the damage. Divorce ranks second only to death of a spouse on the Holmes-Rahe Stress Scale. Roughly 40% of recently divorced individuals experience clinical anxiety, and the risk of depression more than doubles. Physical health consequences follow. Yet most people cope adequately; the system extracts the most from those already least equipped to endure it. The philosopher knows the show is dead before entry Plato described it first. Prisoners mistake shadows for reality. One escapes, sees the sun, returns to help—and is rejected. Socrates followed the script to execution. Marx diagnosed structural illusion. Lukács formalized false consciousness. Gramsci mapped cultural hegemony. Debord described a world where social life is mediated by images, where being collapses into having, and having into appearing. Baudrillard pushed further, into simulacra without origin—copies of nothing. The data now matches the theory. The 2025 Edelman Trust Barometer found 61% of people globally believe institutions serve narrow interests. Only 36% believe life will be better for the next generation. In France, that number drops to 9%. Asch’s conformity experiments showed 75% of people will deny obvious reality to match a group. Meta-analysis confirms the effect persists. Add one dissenter and conformity collapses to near zero. Echo chambers don’t just exclude information; they poison trust. As C. Thi Nguyen notes, evidence alone can reinforce belief if the system is designed to discredit outsiders. Whistleblowers prove the cost. Ellsberg, Felt, Whitehurst—each punished first, vindicated later. The pattern is stable: exposure is criminalized, reform is delayed, gratitude is rare. What the evidence shows Across every domain, accountability is asymmetric. Welfare recipients must prove innocence; governments face little consequence for harm. Children bear digital risk; platforms profit regardless. Families exhaust themselves in courts that claim neutrality. Whistleblowers are prosecuted; institutions endure. The data isn’t hidden. It’s ignored. Trauma transmits efficiently. Wisdom requires effort, time, and proximity—conditions modern systems disrupt. Confrontational art exists to close the gap between what is documented and what is acknowledged. One voice is enough to fracture conformity. The danger has always been the same: seeing clearly, and saying so.

They don't strike like that without them. "Need" is a very misleading word to use. Any lone bombers could easily be shot down. They usually don't do suicide missions. Shooting a couple missiles and then running doesn't seem very plausible either. A strike on Iran would be crazy without 2 strike groups let alone none.

We show kids graphic stories of torture and crucifixion and call it faith and obedience to God. But teaching them that bodies come in different forms (girls with penises), or that it’s okay to talk about trauma/suicide in a vulnerable way? Suddenly that’s too much. The double standard are unreal. Jesus and I have something in common: We don’t fuck with the system. We will die for the Truth even as the entire World is ignorent.

- Feel free to comment, ask questions, give unasked advice, use this post for resources, etc. ( all under your own risk and judgement ) Basically, the idea is that I'll be documenting and sharing my journey of chelation. I'm a noob for now, but I expect to gather a decent chunk of understanding throughout this year. This has been on my to do list for over a year now, and I've been motivated recently by Leo dropping the long awaited episode on chelation released for my birthday ?. Sadly, the episode is not as detailed as I'd like it to be and I'm afraid he may have forgotten some crucial information. But if there is time to whine, there is time to roll up my digital sleeves and get to work and research. Let's hope my journal doesn't end up being a Brian Bander's Suicide note 2.0 (RIP)

@ElliottMy issue is thats its a 1 percent population thing thats in 40 percent of media. Here are somethings that gemini says effect 1 percent of population. Schizophrenia Vitiligo Synesthesia Panic Disorder Natural immunity to HIV Deaths caused by suicide People who have climbed Mt. Kilimanjaro Now imagine all of a sudden 40 percent of the media being pushed out had schizophrenics in it as characters. You would naturally question why the fuck are there so many schizophrenics in movie and tv shows when it only effects 1 percent of the population. Now they start putting love schizophrenics on childrens toys. Naturally an intelligent person would say why? Substitute schizophrenic with any of the other things that involves 1 percent of the population so you dont say Im being transphobic by comparing it to something deemed negative.

I'm not looking for some hotline number or “hang in there” crap. My life has been non‑stop abuse, poverty, mould, burning plastic, soul‑crushing jobs, no intimacy, nothing to look forward to. I’m broke, exhausted, and angry. Spiritually or ethically — whatever you want to call it — am I actually allowed to end this? Is suicide an actual escape from this nightmare, or is it just more pain somewhere else? I’m asking for honest answers from people who have been through hell or have studied spirituality deeply. Don’t sugarcoat it.

Lilya 4-Ever is the third film I’ve watched where a woman takes her own life, and the fourth suicide-themed movie in a row. It’s not the darkest I’ve seen on the subject—The Seventh Continent definitely holds that title.

Since so much of our life is just maintaining our own survival, it’s a surprise for many that people go 180 degrees in the opposite direction and choose to end it on their terms. In a way, it takes a lot of bravery and courage, but in high pressure survival situations, it looks like the better option. What if suicide is just an attempt at survival in another form? Is suicide truthful? Legit i’m ready to die. It is also said that many had flashes of enlightenment when deep in this mire of suicidality. if the answer isn’t physical death then what is the real answer? Wouldn’t physical death lead to death of ego too? my outer circumstances don’t exactly let me pursue the spiritual path to the max the way I want to. I’d rather be dead then to live as this fuck up also in a fucked up deluded environment around deluded people i’m so sick of the BS in me and around me that i’d rather take a leap into the unknown and kill myself. Dissolving all this BS nauseating noise, shit and impurity

I cannot be as bold in interviews as I am in my normal videos. This would freak normies out. I need to be more chill and gentle, otherwise people will just dismiss me as a crackpot. The tone is crucial. People judge interviews by tone, not logical content. An unhinged tone is suicide. So I worked a lot on softening my tone.

I woke up in the middle of the night to horrible screams and cries of a woman. I looked out from the window, I thought something happened in the building in front of mine (there is always something happening there). It turns out it wasn’t in the other building, but closer. Too close. I saw what appeared to be the crushed body of a young man under my window, his mother beside him sobbing and asking him why he did that. His father was screaming to the sky in despair. I called an ambulance with the hope that he was still alive and could be saved. The ambulance came quickly, and the paramedics tried their best for 20–30 minutes to bring him back to life, but unfortunately, he was dead. Later, I found out that it was my teen neighbor who had committed suicide by jumping from a high floor, his parents’ home, a few floors above mine. He was bullied harshly at school, and the pain apparently was so unbearable. He didn’t have to do that, I thought. He was a beautiful and smart boy, but from the limited perspective of an adolescent, he didn’t realize that although his circumstances seemed to suck right now, this was not permanent and that he had a long life to live in which he would also experience good things. His death, and the brutal and painful way he died, traumatized so many people around him. His nuclear family, the extended family, the neighbors, his classmates (the few who were his friends), many people are grieving. So many people loved him. But it was too late. After that, I was afraid to sleep with the window open or look out of the window. I was afraid to go outside when it was dark. I was afraid of random daily things that reminded me of the tragedy. I was hypervigilant. I had dreams of the tragedy or related themes. In one dream, I was in his position, on the ground, looking from below at the window from which he jumped and feeling his parents’ love. Since the day he committed suicide, his parents, especially his mother, were screaming in cries, from the window, every early morning, desperately calling their son’s name, even after his funeral. The screams were so painful to hear, so piercing. It is so painful to witness grieving people, especially parents who lost their child to suicide. At some point, they stopped screaming in grief from the window and just grieved silently at home. His father started to drink. His mother lost so much weight she almost disappeared. I had hallucinations of them crying later. I had hallucinations of hearing someone’s body hitting the ground after jumping from a high floor. I couldn’t stop thinking about his dead body, with the broken limbs, how such death can happen to such young and living person. Gradually the obsessive thoughts and hallucinations decreased, and I could function more easily. It’s still saddens me so much that he took his life. I saw him around two weeks before he died, he was with a friend (who, as I found out later was toxic to him) and he looked to me like a normal, even popular boy. Though when I noticed his eyes, they appeared empty or sad, I couldn’t articulate it, it was just a feeling. I thought that I may be over-feeling. My dogs barked at them, so I moved quickly in order not to scare them, I didn’t have time to converse with them and see what was happening between them, which I regret. This is my survivor’s guilt talking, deluding me into thinking that I had control over the situation. But maybe if his parents, who knew about the bullying, couldn’t stop him, what could I do? If that wasn’t enough, I felt another guilt inside me, another type of guilt, which is the guilt of slightly understanding him. Because it is not socially acceptable to understand people who commit suicide. We’re supposed to never want it, right? And I really don’t want it. I will never do that. But it made me think about how fucked up society is, like, really fucked up and how vulnerable children are to all of this crap. I read that there has been an increase of 60% in child/teen suicide in recent years. This is crazy, because children are not supposed to die in such horrible ways. It also seems like there is not much talk or awareness about it, as if someone is trying to shift the focus away to keep the social dysfunction that leads to it because it benefits them. But we, the adults who live in this society, are responsible as well, we actively create it. Adults bully each other at workplaces, adults are emotionally absent or immature within their family and friendships units, mostly in ways which are normalized snd socially acceptable. And all this narcissistic cult of individualism, that hurts our lives and the lives of our children but we never question it. And it’s bad because it makes the life so much unbearable, unnecessarily unbearable and more difficult than it should be. Especially for the most vulnerable people in society in their most vulnerable stages of their lives. Me and another neighbor would like to plant a tree in the spot where the boy fell, for his memory and with the intention to inspire people to be better, kinder, more tolerant the loving to each other. Though I personally feel a little bit hopeless about society and humanity right now.

I’m a little confused sometimes about makes people not end their life. It’s like, I’m not the only one who struggles, yet all people who struggle don’t get suicidal thoughts. There are even people going through worse than me who don’t consider suicide. Sometimes when my suicidal thoughts get stronger I can spend hours researching suicide methods. I even bought some things I could use to kill myself but I haven’t used them yet. Sometimes I feel “I could keep living through this” But then other times I feel, I have no will to keep fighting for life. I should just end it. It would be better So I don’t understand how other people don’t feel like this when they struggle. Am I extra weak? I mean I think I’m like the average person when it comes to how much I can tolerate. Or maybe not. I don’t know. I guess I just lack a strong enough reason to live Like some people have let’s say family they are attached to, and it keeps them wanna live. But I don’t have that, I don’t love anyone at all so I have nobody to live for. It’s like all I have is my own mind. Im stuck inside of this brain 24/7. All I have access to is a comforting thought that can give me some strength. But then my mind gives up and wants to end it all. It oscillates like that Edit: I should probably answer my own question. Why don’t I kill myself? Well mostly because my situation is not like absolutely unbearable yet, so I feel I can stand it for some time ahead. Also I am afraid of a failed attempt and the pain it can cause for example you could get permanent injury. Thats it mostly. Regarding the first point. I hear stories about people going through unbearable things, so they go through it even if it’s absolutely unbearable, I don’t know how they do. Suicide must have crossed their mind at some point

Here is some of his funding. Keep in mind that this is only a short summary of what the Internet managed to record. 1. Bitcoin Donation from Laurent Bachelier (Approximately $250,000 in 2020) In December 2020, Fuentes received about 13.5 Bitcoin (valued at roughly $250,000 at the time) from Laurent Bachelier, a French computer programmer and early Bitcoin investor who died by suicide shortly after. 2. Payments from Kanye West's (Ye's) Presidential Campaign (Over $45,000 Total)Federal Election Commission (FEC) filings show that Fuentes received payments from Ye's 2020 presidential campaign committee (which continued operations into later years). These include:Approximately $14,700 in late 2022 for "travel reimbursement." Over $30,000 in early 2023, including two $10,000 payments for "archival services" and about $10,300 for travel.t 3. Associations and Alleged Attempts with Texas Oil Billionaires (Tim Dunn and Farris Wilks) Fuentes has been linked to West Texas oil billionaires Tim Dunn and Farris Wilks (combined net worth in the billions) through meetings and scandals, but there is no confirmed evidence of direct funding to him personally. These billionaires have poured millions into conservative causes, including the Defend Texas Liberty PAC (which gave nearly $15 million to right-wing candidates since 2021) and groups like the Daily Wire and PragerU.

Timothy Snyder posted these links yesterday. Sheesh The Longest Suicide Note in American History: https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/2025/12/national-security-strategy-democracy/685270/?gift=hVZeG3M9DnxL4CekrWGK35ibcb27LjcQKIf6tB8WqQM Vladimir Solovyov predicts that America and Russia will jointly attack Europe:

Christine (2016) is based on the real story of Christine Chubbuck, who committed suicide on TV.

Ever since, I quit spirituality. I don’t do anything related to it anymore. I don’t watch Leo’s videos, I don’t contemplate, I don’t read spiritual books. I thought I would feel bad but I feel amazing. My psyche finally stabilized and I don’t experience anxiety attacks, negativity, loneliness or depression. I’m hitting the gym, pursuing my hobbies, exploring new dating opportunities and planning on moving to a new country this year. I had been pursuing spiritual development for the last 5 years. I’d been on 100+ trips and I had experienced at least dozens of profound and complete awakenings (although complete awakening is a delusion because it’s infinity withing infinity forever). During my most profound awakenings I would always reach god state and as God I would always choose to come back. It would give me a lot of frustration and it would leave me puzzled because I had been brainwashed by fools convincing me that God wants to wake up and if it doesn’t it’s ego. Which is why I would keep pushing myself over and over again but results were always the same. I was also denying my human needs, thinking that I transcended most of it and I didn’t need anything. It led to my frustration, covered-up loneliness and self deception. It made me depressed, negative and cornered. I was getting very close to committing suicide so I am happy that I stopped. I’m happy to be back and I don’t know if I ever go back to spirituality, I highly doubt it. It's just been 2 months and every day I feel more grounded and stable. The idea of spending infinity in my dreams seems to be very transcendently romantic because that’s what God wants. It wants romance, sex, human connection, friendship, travelling and drama of life. So I’m letting it be.

@Yeah Yeah You might say I have been through hell and I have studied spirituality deeply. If you have seen my posts on this forum, you know my story. Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because of a combination of many problems including trauma, sexual abuse, family estrangement, complex grief, and loss of direction and purpose. I don't see how to make life acceptable to me because all options involve being alone with nobody who loves me while I continue to suffer meaninglessly. By the way, I hate soul-crushing jobs too. They make me feel even worse which is why it is hard to motivate me to get another job after what happened last time. In terms of "am I actually allowed to end this?" According to spirituality there are no shoulds or should nots. The universe is structured such that people are allowed to be rapists, murderers, and terrorists hence they exist. There is such a thing as enlightened rapists such as gurus who might sexually abuse young children. The reason we might say you "should not" kill yourself is not because it is an objective rule as there are no moral absolutes. Instead it might be based on things like what is conducive to higher consciousness, truth, and love. For those reasons it makes sense that we should not run around raping and killing people because in that kind of society it is hard to guide traumatized minds toward truth, love, and consciousness so long as survival requires constant devilry and deception. If there were a spiritual reason to not jump off of a bridge, then maybe it would be for the collective good in that your identity includes more than just this one human being or ego. It is ego and its suffering that makes us want to jump off of bridges, and this is sometimes how I feel as well. In terms of moral arguments, there are conflicting view points. On one hand, there are people who face situations that no human being should have to endure. Humans are resilient, but they are not indestructible given extreme enough circumstances. You might make the case for suicide in situations like euthanasia. Why should we tell a human being that they have to live and they have to endure unbearable suffering because of our beliefs? On the other hand, suicide is not a neutral act and it does cause harm to others even if they are not included in your circle of concern. I don't know what your family or relationships are like at this time, and that would likely be a big factor behind your suicidal thoughts as it is for me. Normally people would be told "think about your family," but it sounds like whatever family you had must have been terrible. In fact there are some parents who disown their children and may even encourage them to commit suicide. Personally, I went to mental health centers admitting that I did not believe suicide was immoral which in turn indicated that I was at a higher risk. The way I have been trying to cope with suffering was by making my suffering meaningful. This is exactly way the soul-crushing jobs are so devastating. If you endured severe abuse and are unable to use your strengths and passions that give you meaning, it makes it feel like all of this trauma was for nothing and you will live in perpetual grief and bitterness. I often ask myself "why should I want to live under these conditions?" To this day I still don't have an answer. Once I lost my sense of direction, I tried turning to spirituality. The reason I looked so much at spirituality is because I was trying to find meaning and purpose for my existence, but ultimately this kind of behavior was a trauma response. People often turn to things like religion because they faced severe trauma and are trying to cope in whatever ways they can. I have been trying to find purpose through systems thinking and chess as well, but I faced other obstacles. Ultimately my problems cannot be overcome through intellectual pursuits and I require stable and healthy relationships. I hope you do get out of this situation somehow, but I must admit that objectively most people never recover from trauma because our current mental health system is inadequate. In my case I am still doing whatever I can through intellectual pursuits, looking for direction through deeper understanding of life and reality. It is hard for me to take the final step and carry out my suicidal plans. Sometimes there are invisible solutions to seemingly insurmountable problems, and I have witnessed this before even when it seems hopeless. The solutions are not obvious and hard to find, but they may actually exist.

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Doing nothing is suicide too, because the west will surely do the same to him if they ever got the chance. So he is a cornered animal. Cornered animals are very lethal. Russia has at least 30 million men that can be mobilised to fight, the war in Ukraine only sacrificed people from Siberia and rapists from prisons, if the Russian propaganda apparatus paints this as the west trying to annihilate the motherland as Hitler did, trust me, the Russians will be in Berlin by the end of the year.

Does Putin really have enough resources left to attack all of Europe, would that not be suicide at this point ?

I struggle with this a lot as well. I used to have a passion for chess I pursued constantly, hoping to become a professional player. However, this was interrupted and I never had a realistic chance to make this happen despite my efforts partially due to structural barriers beyond my control. Once this happened it became obvious to me that the passion story is romanticized and doing what you love is often a fairytale that isn't true for most people. The outcome is that I looked for passion in many different directions and struggled to find anything compelling. I am effectively looking for hard work for the sake of survival when survival itself is not rewarding to me. Therefore, I sometimes wonder if I should choose death instead. There is no reward for hard work without passion other than a meaningless life as a wage slave in which we constantly lie to ourselves about our true feelings. I have a hard time finding motivation to work without answering the question "why shouldn't I kill myself?" Why should I suffer for no conceivable gain whatsoever? So far the closest thing to meaningful work I found would be systems thinking, but the problem is that I'm caught in the system. I don't see any traditional career path that would satisfy me. It's almost like I would have to start my own business or system to find something I can be proud of. Perhaps the problem is that I lack the knowledge of business and I don't know what thought process I'm supposed to use to find openings I could create. I end up just drawing a blank when I try to think of a million dollar idea. This seems to be my experience with hard work and passion because I haven't really worked hard on anything since I studied constantly to become a professional chess player. Once that was revealed to not be a realistic option I just lost motivation to put on any comparable effort toward anything else. Instead I end up in hospitals due to recurring thoughts of suicide.