Nexeternity

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  1. Existential Lovers How to dissolve that labyrinth of concepts? That trap us, separate us, cause anxiety, cause ambition. If everything we want is right here? Those words that like a house of cards construct desires, Fears, and pains. But even pain is delicious, and marvelous, mysterious. The source, God? Outside and inside is found what is looked for. Feeling the inevitable flow, catching the inescapable moment. Knowing that you are doing good, that there was no way to make a mistake. Without meaning and non meaning, nor purpose or non purpose, Without doing or non doing, no observer, no I. Only Being and non being, together and inseparable. Lovers. Existential lovers.
  2. I wish I could be vegan... but everyone I know eats meat, eggs, and cheese.... and I start getting really weak and skinny and anemic when I try to do it. I get bored too... its like lentils, brown rice, oatmeal, and the same vegetables and fruits every day... Maybe I need to get more creative.
  3. lol I love how Leo used to berate us at the end of his videos about us not really being commited to getting enlightened. Miss those times.
  4. @Sahil Pandit Thanks man!!! Awesome! @Space Thanks!! Awesome... yea just have to keep hitting the retreats! For the well being of all @Leo Gura Haha hey thanks alot! Im so tempted to go serve full time at the different centers. Closest thing to being a monk that I see actually working for me, at least for a few years. But the life purpose would be put on hold dont think that will work. @JustinS Thanks for the video man! Ive been trying the semen retention thing... really hard for me.
  5. @Mighty Mouse @Nahm Hehe yea, sorry so excited from it! Just got home. Thanks!!!
  6. "You want to be fully sober. Lucid. Its like, the world is made out of glass. Not a single thought, not a single theory... just... total quiet" - by Leo from 10 things you want that you dont know that you want By far the most powerful experience Ive had in my whole life. It rivals the 5 meo experiences but also I feel like they make a great combination. One is a powerful blast of consciousness, the other is a a slow revving up that just rewires your mind. The first few days were pretty bad, the last few days were heaven. I got a taste of such silence, I saw it as my identity as all around that nothing/silence changed around me. When I got out I had samadhi experiences with the people i had conversations with. It felt like I was them. Insights: Getting rid of my phone and facebook account. I dont need them, I can use email and skype. Too distracting. Need to meditate more, 2 hours a day minimum, 3 hours on weekends. We are 100% responsible for our own suffering by our aversion and craving. It was really clear. Dont push yourself so hard that you generate negativity. That happened to me in a couple of strong determination sits. Need to always remember I am doing this out of love and compassion for myself and others Slow down. Try to do every single thing every day as mindfully as you can. People do what they do out of ignorance. If they try and hurt you its because they dont know better. Sometimes you have to be firm in your communications but do it out of love and compassion for yourself and the other person. The aggressor always suffers more than the victim believe it or not. Cut down on the theory, amp up the practices. And lastly... the point of this whole post... Do one of these!!! Really! If I just convince one person to do it than this post will be worth it. Sorry to be dramatic and cliche but the experience was just too strong.
  7. @Ilya yea the booklist is sick its like if you keep feeding your mind such good info start just starts transforming for you. yes you have to contemplate and implement but it's hard not to when you start getting such good theory fed to you.
  8. Maybe try more grounding? Breathing exercises, regular exercise, be really choosy about your food. journal a lot, try and keep reminding yourself of your vision for when you get negative. try doing healing/shadow work to integrate all that negative stuff faster so you can stabilize quicker. not sure what else to say. Maybe setup daily routines and stabalize other aspects of your life so that bleeds into your emotional life.
  9. @JustinS is it pure? sometimes they have uppers in them
  10. All at once I found myself wrapped in a flame-colored cloud. For an instant I thought of fire, and immense conflagration somewhere close by in that great city; the next, I knew that the fire was within myself. Directly afterward there came upon me a sense of exultation, of immense joyousness accompanied or immediately followed by an intellectual illumination impossible to describe. Among other things, I did not merely come to believe, but I saw that the universe is not composed of dead matter, but is, on the contrary, a living Presence; I became conscious in myself of eternal life. It was not a conviction that I would have eternal life, but a consciousness that I possessed eternal life then; I saw that all men are immortal; that the cosmic order is such that without any peradventure all things work together for the good of each and all; that the foundation principle of the world, of all the worlds, is what we call love, and the happiness of each and all is in the long run absolutely certain. (R. M. Bucke)
  11. Stop meditating for a while, there's lots of cool stuff to do besides meditating. You can try again in a couple weeks. Dont freak yourself out man. Try not comparing yourself to anyone else, not even your past self. If right now you can't meditate, don't do it.