@UlaxGod doesn't hold anyone to a specific level of consciousness it's an illusion, god can make anything out of it because 1 day you can operate at this level... The other day at another level... One day you're narcisstic/arrogant, the next day you may be awake or have enlightenment experience. God is in control at all times, the characters that are playing the game on earth and are interacting with each other are doing it in the name of god. For example:
You wanted to speak to a person in the truck, the truck has 3 people inside. You roll down your window and 
Person A says: We have no time
Person B : Random thought popped up and you just repeat it automatically: Just drive , Just drive with a big smile and you wave your hand automatically saying "never mind"
Both actions are interconnected/interplay between god and were done unconsciously. Person A was a narcisstic female sitting next to the driver. Person B was a nurse .  Because person B lives in higher consciousness, person B is also responsible for person A in the teachings. Higher consciousness will always have higher role in the interplay between god which means your thoughts/nature/actions will always be greater.

Original title: 167 Days Before College
Goals:
weekly 30m of  shamanic breathing  to transition from 30m of do nothing meditation to 30m mindfulness meditation to finish the LP course  to spend more time outside  to re-start doing mind powers exercises consistently to read at least 3 books  to continue pushing  myself daily   no tv series or movies eating clean(less sweets,bread,processed meat) daily journaling ( onenote)  to improve my English skills going to sleep at a decent time(23.00/00.00) to make a vision board  no facebook solo meditation retreat to travel alone in my country for at least 3 days  to continue abstaining from alcohol and weed (one year and six months since i drank alcohol or smoked weed) to continue nofap ( i relapsed yesterday after one year and three months)  
Possible goals:
pick up yoga classes swimming martial arts part-time job  to upgrade concentration practice from 10m to 20m to upgrade meditation practice from 30m to 60m stretching routine    
Books i want to read/listen to:
Holotropic Breathwork: A New Approach to Self-Exploration and Therapy by  Stanislav Grof M.D. 
Conquest of Mind By: Eknath Easwaran (audiobook)
“STATUS ANXIETY” BY ALAIN DE BOTTON
Stuff Every College Student Should Know (Stuff You Should Know) by Blair Thornburgh
Daygame by Tom Torero 
Day Bang by Roosh V  (audiobook/pdf)
Getting Things Done by David Allen  (audiobook)
Boundaries by Henry Cloud  (audiobook)
The Like Switch by Jack Schafer
The Rum Diary: A Novel: Hunter S. Thompson
Feel the Fear . . . and Do It Anyway by Susan Jeffers  (audiobook)
Adulting: How to Become a Grown-up in 468 Easy(ish) Steps  by Kelly Williams Brown  (audiobook)
Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz (audiobook/pdf)
The Defining Decade: Why Your Twenties Matter--And How to Make the Most of Them Now  by Meg Jay  (audiobook)
 

To put it simply, a man took photos of his sons genitalia to send to a doctor online and was false-flagged by google, which auto-backs up his photo to the photo cloud service. The Police determined him innocent after a child abuse investigation, but google still asserts the power and authority to permanently shut down all his accounts, including his active phone number service (Google Fi). 
 
Google’s reasoning is that they personally looked at all his photos and found a video he took of his wife sleeping naked in bed with his sleeping son in the morning. So they continue to keep his account banned. 
 

here’s a link to the article.
https://www.nytimes.com/2022/08/21/technology/google-surveillance-toddler-photo.html
 
Google’s ability to defy Police Judgment is scary, and their position to snoop through auto-backed up photos of people even after innocent cases like this one gives them too much power in my opinion. What do you think? 
 
Some people make their money from using google products, so a permanent ban on accounts can be very damaging and disruptive to a persons lively hood, especially when Google is this big and prevalent in people’s lives.

 
 
 


 

there’s a whole category of Youtube videos attempting to simulate the visual effects of various substances, take a look:
LSD
Mushrooms
DMT
Datura/DPH (deliriants, this video is as close as I ever intend to get to experiencing)

It certainly isn't limited to 11 dimensions. That is a very artificial construct.
Salvia is insane. It will deatroy all your ideas of awakening and nonduality. It's way more profound than anything Buddhism teaches.
It's not merely that you see some crazy object like watching it on a screen. In order to see that object requires your whole field of consciousness to undergo a radical transition where you hardly feel human any more. That is the scary part. You lose your humanity and sanity in the process. Then you see some impossible geometry, as you are in the middle of losing your mind.

The spiral dynamics didn't break it, in fact I think it has a pretty good understanding of it, however this pickup one is a big challenge for the AI .
 

https://chat.openai.com/chat
Sign up and chat, easy, here is a sample output
"give me ideas on how to make a chess game except the pieces are ideas and the board is a mind"

So I was coming up on a bachelor thesis in psychology, and I figured this was a viable option for a thesis: what is the relationship between mindfulness and physical activity? I looked up the relevant scientific research and was surprised to find a substantial amount of studies on the topic, but the research is still very new, a little more than a decade old. More research is needed, and my thesis will be an original (but small) contribution to that.

I've now come to the point of having to collect data, and this community, among others, is a very good candidate for this type of study (everybody here is, if not directly interested in mindfulness, at least acquainted with the concept, and even if that is not true, you do share similar beliefs, values and interests).

That is why I'm very thankful for the opportunity to share this with you guys, and I hope that you also appreciate the opportunity of contributing to my little contribution to scientific research on a topic that we all value very much and has changed our lives for the better.

The survey is short and simple and only takes about 5 minutes to complete. It's completely anonymous and completely voluntary (nothing bad will happen to you if you choose to not participate), but again, I would highly appreciate your contribution. I would also appreciate if you could share the survey with other people you know who are also interested in mindfulness and self-improvement. The more the better

Here is the link to the survey: https://nettskjema.no/a/311732
Thank you for participating!

(For the people who are unsure if this is against the guidelines, I believe one thread like this is fine, and so did other moderators in the past.)

Will link my old journal and continue here, and slowly integrate my structure let's see how far I can go. I will miss some sleep today, yet I will approach these endeavours with full energy and create my dream life with the value of Consciouness and stop utterly with distractions as far as possible. Implement the plan and use this structure in the morning as this helps tremendously with accountabillity in terms of mental health. I did not meditate today and I will meditate tomorrow and wake up at 5am and start my routine. Basically to write it down once my routine will look like.

Linking old journal to express -> Value of personal growth.

Link To Old Journal

There is more order I need to for re-assesments and planning of structures etc. Talked to a friend etc.
Wake up, make bed Shower and meditate infront of PC Use journal for gratitude journal/success journal and short review Cook food and eat breakfast as reward Punishment when I don't wake up at 5am -> become a Patreon member of Leo Gura and pay 30€ to some samiterian cause etc. All in all I wish there was less fear and me and less issues. I frankly am still highly suicidal as to my upbringing horseshit scientist etc. They are also responsible for creating a ticking time bomb. So thank you for that. 

I like her progressive vision and passion. She also is steeped in non-duality via ACIM, which is an interesting shift.
My main concern is with her lack of political experience. It also doesn’t seem realistic to believe she will actually win the nomination over Biden, assuming he runs. 

@Jowblob
 

Look at this consciousness scale and it connects to what i've said and experienced, we are already in heaven. Coincidence? Not.
Ones you experience that state of consciousness and the reality of the self and others get deconstructed, you can only wish and thank god that you stay here and not there.
 
 

@HolykaelThe others are GOD trying to give themselves and you the best life by saying there is heaven, there are souls, there are virgins waiting for you. God tries to keep you busy and exploring within god and others, if he didn't do that by limiting you it would be like hell.
@Breakingthewall You can agree or not, i've pierced my heart to get to know the truth behind reality with everything being deconstructed to me. There is no absolute perfection in the infinite because there is only you, all is known, all the lies are known, all the lies are known how YOU kept yourself asleep. THE LIE is known about others, and the truth about your existence is known!
If you become infinite your heart doesn't open to total love, that is the illusion that you create for yourself to give yourself a better life. Being infinite GOD in the VOID knowing how you lie to yourself, how you're alone is hell!!!! THE LOVE THERE, isn't LOVE anymore because you understand what you are. THE so called love, is just you being extremely conscious and alive vibrating insanely in insane loving heat/warmth! The reason we view this here as love between each other and feeling warmth/vibration for each other, is because we love the other = loving god in the other. I don't have to break anything anymore, since this was the end. And i also quit with this research about god/consciousness, all i can do is talk to others about this truth.

Basically the same message Andrew Tate gives but obviously without the toxicity. Andrew Tate is basically Prometheus that let the red pill genie out of the bottle. Even highly educated people are basically taking over Andrew's talking points. I think there will be a major switch of momentum against toxic femininity in the octagon of narratives.
 

I have an idea for one: it would be both strategy and RPG. It would be based on the concept of recursion. It means that whenever your hero is agitated/scared/feels bad the outside world would change appropriately: the monster would become more volatile and aggressive, the weather would become stormy, and of course, it could further spoil the mental state of a hero and create the negative self-reinforcing feedback loop. To escape the loop hero would need somehow calm himself: whether it be escaping the monster, or improving emotional mastery. One way to do that would be, for example, exploring the world and finding enlightened masters who would teach him a technique. 

Creation would be an important facet of the game. Something like factorio but more magical. For example, in order to synthesize some insight or elixir on some magical factory, you'd need to cool this factory with holy water. This water should be pumped through copper/glass/silver pipes without sharp bends (Sadhguru said that when water goes through the pipes gets negative energy because pipes have sharp bends). Then the water should stay in the reservoir filled with shungit (special coal) which would clear water from heavy metals, and in this reservoir, there would be a frequency generator that would make water structured. You can also put a copper pyramid roof to increase the potency of structured water

There also would be the plot that the whole world would be infected by some illness. And the character should build a wall that would stop the infection from spreading. And then step by step detoxifying the infected biomes: by, for example, shooting explosive vaccines that would cure territory of some radius. Then you'd need quickly build a new wall to protect the recently cured area. After being cured, the area would be depleted and desertlike - you then need to take care of that and bring prosperity there: renew the soil, and bring some nutrition to animals. You can also make sorties on the infected area, catch infected creatures, bring them in cages to your home, cure them, and have them serve you (in a non-exploitative manner of course).
You see, in such a manner, you can plant a seed of self-care in players, deeply infiltrate by the creative energy.

@Something Funny
 
Read: The God Memorandum by Og Mandino
 

Hey, ya'll, I need your help!
I want to create a comprehensive list of video examples of prototypical stage Turquoise thinking.
This is meant to be an educational tool for people learning about Spiral Dynamics.
So towards that end, scour Youtube and find all the videos you can which exhibit stage Turquoise thinking. Try to find videos which are short and sweet. The more diversity we can display here, the better. Try to find examples from various cultures.
We will create a mega-thread like this for every stage in the Spiral, from Red to Turquoise. But here, let's just focus on Turquoise. Each week I will start a new mega-thread topic for the next stage.
Do not start a political debate in this thread! It is not our goal here to defend our personal political positions or to judge any stage, but simply to compile examples.
Thanks for your help! I'm excited to see what kind of juicy stuff you dig up. Try to be selective with your choices.
This can turn into a really cool list.
Stage Turquoise Values:
Consciousness Elevating mankind’s consciousness Truth Deep metaphysical insight Wisdom, the wisdom of nature Mysticism, spirituality, nonduality God, divinity Holism, integration, synthesis vs analysis Integrating all religions & science Left & right brain synthesis Honesty, transparency, authenticity Being vs knowing, doing, having Simplicity, flowing with nature Minimalist sustainable living Collaborative synergy Human wellness Healing at all levels: physical, emotional, spiritual Exploring altered states of consciousness Intuition Channeling: direct downloads from infinite intelligence Supernatural creativity Spiritual purification Awakening, transcendence, liberation Unconditional love, compassion for all Emotional mastery Presence, mindfulness Paradox Esoteric teachings Gratitude Unity Deeper & deeper levels of interconnectedness Selfless living Sacrifice self for greater consciousness Meditation, yoga, contemplation, self-inquiry Not-knowing Humility Spontaneity, playfulness, self-amusement The really big picture Stage Turquoise Examples:
Sadhguru, Shunyamurti, Thomas Campbell, Yoda, David Hawkins, Ken Wilber, Shinzen Young, Deepak Chopra, Stan Grof, Osho, Mooji, Ramaji, Rupert Spira, Eckhart Tolle’s A New Earth, Yogananda, Martin Ball, Terence McKenna, Carl Jung, Sri Aurobindo, Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, Ervin Laszlo, David Loy, Alan Watts, Wim Hof, Matt Kahn, Dalai Lama, Sasha Shulgin, yoga, holotropic breathwork, The Holographic Universe, Akashic Records, noosphere, opening the 3rd eye, pineal gland, out of body experiences, samadhi experiences, siddhis, paranormal abilities, clairvoyants, channels, mediums, Bashar, Aleister Crowley, Rudolf Steiner, alternative healing systems, Maya, psychedelics, 5-MeO-DMT, StarTrek: The Q, Rupert Sheldrake’s morphogenetic fields, Dean Radin’s paranormal research, Gandhi’s ideas of pluralistic harmony, Gaia, biocentrism, Monroe Institute, Esalen Institute, transpersonal psychology, Jung’s collective unconscious, quantum field theory, sacred geometry, reincarnation, opening chakras, saints, sages, mystics, prophets, etc.

You can have Direct Consciousness of the Absolute nature of Self & other.
That's the method: Direct Consciousness.
Not necessarily. God could also be laying a trap for you. Fooling you into thinking you understand solipsism. If you misunderstand it, then you will become trapped, not Awake.
If God didn't play games there would be nothing else to do.
It's like you enter a video game world and then complain why nobody in the world is confessing that it's a video game. And then you complain about it being a game world and not a "real" world.
Because you need CONSCIOUSNESS to have clarity and for things to be obvious.
You lack the consciousness, hence confusion.
It's always YOUR dream.
How else would an "other" be created?
God has to employ trickery to create reality, otherwise there is nothing.
In that case you would never know "other".
To dream!
You call that death. You are scared of it. That's the only reason you're alive.
If you want Truth then you must be prepared to face death.

data has shown a rise in minors reporting mental health problems

https://imgur.com/LQErnFn
https://imgur.com/3lq6BL0
It likely isn’t just being more likely to report it, as the rate of self harm and suicide has also increased

https://imgur.com/QQSSVsU
https://imgur.com/Mngt0SN
https://imgur.com/jfsevzp
https://imgur.com/zzrVE8m
The risk factors seem to be being white, female, and liberal
https://imgur.com/xznQzBM
Interestingly, conservative girls report less depressive symptoms than liberal males
https://imgur.com/xSeagrn
What do you think is causing it, and what are the solutions?

Is God still God if he completely forgets he is God?
Ponder this carefully.   
If God forgets he is God and imagines he is some limited form - like yourself - is he still God?
Remember the groundless nature of reality.   Because reality is Infinite there is nothing outside of it that can reference it.  The Self reference problem.  It cannot point back at itself - so, it just is itself.  Or it can just be itself.
Now - if God then forgets he is Infinite, is his limitation absolutely total?
Or is there some rulebook somewhere "over there" that says he's still God and he's still Infinite?  If that's the case wouldn't that make him limited?  If so wouldn't that also be a ground? 
 
 

Meeting others and move from monological to dialogical to translogical power, in a sense it's inevitable, besides you are at a level of consciouness unfathomable for most, then I can't really tell as it's most translogical power then. The idea is to move from I statements = monological power to we statements = dialogical power to non-judgement and a deep level of mindfulness. That is the principle of it. I made up an example, although it was to positive. Saying, I don't know and we can do this instead etc. Admitting flaws and doubts, generally gives rise to respect, that is a bit counter-intutive. 

(Translogical -> dialogical power) It's mostly a high-form of non-judgement and mindfull awareness a bit of like what open-awareness meditation and zen meditation is, you take in the whole and apply non-judgement. You might already be intuitively good at it, and the other two dialogical power "structures" / ideas, might be good. Monolgoical power in my experience is assertivness, we dialogical power more leadership, and (new concept I learned recently) translogical power is more like englightend leadership, you work as hard as others, apply non-judgement include all, play the whole ladder up and down each rung, and dispell illusion in a sense, by creating clarity, purpose, autonomey and direction for others themselves. Although this mostly plays out in we/i space. Not translogical space. So to speak. 

I am not often in a position currently like this, thick face and black heart is still a core book if it's about deep leadership coming more from an awareness&consciouness perspective and beign acting with integrity and values, as well as qualities of leadership. Although the groundwork has to be done, in the sense of having a position where these principals can be applied. 
This is also subtely pro-active. Personally I get more room, yet this also depends highly on skills and competencies. etc. 

I struggle with anger and impatience at times, and meet others who are similar. The concept is from Ken Wilber, I can't link it I did it in a payed course. 

https://integrallife.com/full-spectrum-power-announcement/

It's a bit overhyped, I did not come back to it, although it has value. I would not recommend buying it if you are not into integral theory and a nerd so to say. This is the idea in it's essence non-judgemental leadership -> dialog in we space and dialog from I space. 

Translogical power transforms power dynamics into plain non-judgmental playingfields mostly. Very open and exploratory feelings, when I contemplate how this feels to me mostly. As well as just pure beign etc. It would not feel like a powerbind and a steady struggle for one-upmanship. It's more exploratory and open. 

Brief example: Group Project

Gather ideas -> discuess in we space -> apply non-judgement -> use communication skills in we space -> make I assertion -> continue leadership principles -> non-judgement etc. This is mostly it, I find it dispells power dynamics, does not mean you can control others and get the "perfect group" and team project running. It creates more harmony though 100%.

This also goes for friendships, so you can cut the chase with topics of non-interest to you without beign very rude for example. I hope the idea is somewhat clear! 

I'll make one up as far as I can tell, I am fairly well-read although there is stuff I'd also implement:
Doctor check-ups and dentist Filtered water Conscious relationships to extend possible/community Psychdelics Yoga/Meditation Retreats Life-Long Learning Leadership mastery Creating love and compassion Art and beauty (in immediate environment) Stellar life purpose No addictions nicotine, subtle ones anger, hatred, drama, ignorance, avoidance,  Assertivness facing challenges Open-Minded Direct, calm and friendly/positive Mastery of a subject minimum Financially secure and well-off for spiritual work Adventure! 100% and retreats Integration of western and eastern principles about consciouness work (like Ken Wilber, Yin and Yang etc.) Knowing how to deal with the opposite sex in relationships and sex Healing and trauma work to some extend imo Creating and creativity of something that has value to others and is not oversaturated at best Quality sleep and quantity (might be underrated) Understanding stockmarket and finance Investing  Basline understanding of politics  Mastering inner psychology, suffering, success Beign free of self-image  Acting from insight and consciouness Conscious families (although that is super-rare)  Integrity the best feeling I have acting in the real world is acting from deepseated integrity with unbiased believes and from values I myself came up with and developed (value section of lp) Having a map for others, oterwise they are lost and disorient themselves, that can even include things like MBTI, Mission Statement, Vision etc. Exercise Learning from success instead of only from failure Visualizations for life purpose, goals etc. Following conscious success principles (I don't have them consciously in mind, Deepak Chopra has for example 7laws of spiritual success) Having enough free time to follow passion and acting in wu-wei doing what you love 100% of the time Learning andd taking notes Baseline improvment Loving discipline  No manipulation and control letting go of this Focusing on a few of these principles Look out for the counter-intutive approaches Beign original and creating something unique  Developing divine&healthy masculinity and femininity - challenges for men mostly  Big-picture view instead of technical analysis More action, less theory on a few principles with self-experimentation  Not re-inventing the wheel Going to the original source Sobriety using time well 100% instead of notion of society of sobriety (be clean, show up to work, be sheep like 1984) Mastery principles loving the plateu, getting feedback, touching base with a highly competent teacher Learning from martial arts, and I presume dance?? for the opposite sex and practicing that in real life Understanding strategy and optimization to get more juice out of whatever you are doing Non-judgement Holistic synthesis Knowing how to present yourself and public speaking&"leadership abillity to speak to others" Conscious communication (did a few workshop bouts with Shinzen, very powerful although the topic was not all to relevant, instead the, Yes, but I am better and smarter type of conversations that breed resentments and leaves others feeling unheared, causes drama etc.) Beign social and connecting with others Not over-isolating one self and playing power games with others Understanding and integrating god-realization (still no clue, yet very curious) Again acting from insight! (I re-listned to Ralston audiobook and I find this powerful, while exercising I was giving my best to learn these principles actively) Active learning!!! Participate don't be a passive bystander Embrace diverstiy and create move harmony Balance with the true flavour of balance, not neutrality and or rationality even though they can be part of the balancing process! Priorities and cleanliness, creating order in immediate environment Non-dogmatic Learning from scratch Principles first thinking v.s holistic deductivness (my own words) breaking the whole in parts understanding sub-holons etc. ----

I am unsure what else to include, I listend to the audiobook principles a couple of times (with quick notes...), so it's mostly about counter-intutiveness and following principles doing the stuff most don't want to do. Like meditation and yoga as a baseline practice and retreats with psychdelics. As a stable practice as this is pretty rough to pull off, as well as staying healthy exercising on top of that, most have a lot of commitments, and don't create such things. I'd say what would be the core of the principles.

I am unsure there is one thing I would include for hardcore guys that is lifting, yoga&meditation and or psychdelics and I mean just lifting, as Wilber recommends it, gave him massive growths and a lot of psychdelics depth I've had after an exhaustive training, if you can lifting, go to a sauna and know about physiology I bet you can lift psychdelic growth for state experiences. 

That is mostly it. I struggle implementing this, I give my best. 

We now have robust systems in place to catch duplicate accounts. Anyone caught trying to open a duplicate account will automatically have ALL their accounts banned. No exceptions, no second chances. This forum only allows one account per user.
This forum is cracking down hard on all serial exploiters, manipulators, immature people, and mentally and emotionally unhinged people.
From now on you only have ONE chance at being on this forum, so watch what you do and watch what you post. If I see you posting immature nonsense or misbehaving, I will not hesitate to ban you and you will NEVER get a second chance. All second chances are over! I am cracking down on anyone who wants to be in proximity or communication with me. If you want to have the privilege and luxury to be near me, to associated with me, to receive advice from me, or to communicate with me, you better be on your best behavior around me. That's the new policy. This forum will no longer be a safe haven for immature or emotionally unhinged people. Anyone not mature enough to communicate or socialize in a mentally-stable and integrous manner will simply not get to participate around me. If you cannot control your emotions, you're out. If you behave in an egotistical and dogmatic manner, you're out. If you attack other members of this community, you're out. If you try to manipulate this forum, you're out.
This forum is going to be much more exclusive and elitist going forward. The elitism will be based on maturity and wisdom. I've come to the realization that I need to be much more protective of drains on my time and my mental resources. I will not be dealing with any clown behavior any more from my audience. For too long I have been far too lax and democratic, letting people exploit my time and mental energy without limit. That is now over. I will no longer be helping or associating with anyone who is not mature enough to rise to the level of my teachings and philosophy. My work is very advanced and I want to build a community of people who rise to its level. Immature people have not only been wasting my time and mental energy, the have also been wasting the time and energy of mature and serious self-actualizers. This community must become a place of where serious people want to be, people who are actually doing work on themselves. I realize now that my mistake from the beginning was trying to appeal to everyone with this community when really it should always have been a place only for serious and mature people because they are the ones for whom I do my work. Those are the kind of people I want to associate with. That's what would make this community valuable.
If you want to associate around me, you better be a mature, honest, decent human being who can control him/her self. That's the new standard. Many of you here clear that bar. It's just an immature minority who keeps taking advantage.
The infrastructure of this forum is being upgraded to block anyone who doesn't rise to this new standard. All the loopholes are being closed.
Thank you to those who have stuck around and behaved in a mature manner from the outset. From now on I will be making this space for you -- for us. This will be a rare online space where the wise, mature, and serious hang out.
If you notice any member of this community behaving in a chronically immature way, please report them to me (via PM) for review. I will periodically be reviewing the performance of every member here and making decisions about who to keep around and who to ban. Evaluations will be made holistically, not based on any one post. I will be looking at your overall level of maturity, mental stability, emotional stability, character, and ability to think in an unbiased Tier 2 fashion.
A handful of worst offenders have already been perma-banned.
You should treat this forum as a place where you have an opportunity to make friends with me. And you only get one chance at that. If you screw it up you will not get another. In fact, I will ban all your IPs from ever being able to access Actualized.org and any future courses or teachings that I release. Do not treat this forum as just some disposable, anonymous thing. In fact, in the future we may transition to photo ID verification for all members and remove anonymity. So post as though your first and last legal name is attached to your words. If you wouldn't want your real name attached to your post, then it isn't worthy to be posted here. If my name is attached to this forum, so should yours. You don't get to come here and do anonymous verbal diarrhea with zero repercussions.
Thanks again to those who have been on good behavior from the beginning and never needed such warnings and reminders. I will also be making an effort to improve my communication with you to rise to the level of maturity, wisdom, and respect that you deserve. I want to make myself a resource for serious and mature students. I will be working towards that over the next year and beyond. I want to help fewer people, but more serious people. So ultimately that's all this is about. I have been thinking long and hard about the role I want to play as a teacher. And the more I think about it, the more serious I want to be. The days of clowning around are coming to an end. It was fun while it lasted but I am outgrowing that soon. I definitely have not been as mature as I need to be, but that will be changing in the future.