Federico del pueblo

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  1. @flowboy Thanks a lot for responding!! It means a lot bro! I'm now reading the book of Jean C. Jensen. It's already blowing my mind... Best wishes to you!
  2. Now I'm wondering, wouldn't it be expected that your narcissism score goes up if you do personal development for some years. You overcome insecurities, feel more confident, have more success and more competencies. Wouldn't it be just natural to then score higher in such a test and kind of a good sign?
  3. My score is 14. Seems fair. @UnbornTao You're a very modest narcissist. 😊
  4. @flowboy Thanks a lot for providing some tools to help me with my emotional healing. I'd appreciate it if you could have a look at what happened. No pressure to respond though. I've worked with the questions you gave me in the other thread for three times on the same memory and two times on another less charged situation of about the same age. The memory I worked on was in my 1st school year if I remember correctly, but definitely no more than 2nd year. There were some interns in our class, the people who study to become a teacher themselves. Our regular class teacher was also there. We were drawing pictures and I felt like I had finished mine and showed it to the intern and she informed our teacher. Her: "he says he already finished his drawing" Teacher: "who? Aahh....this one....mhh" with a dismissive tone, as though she was saying "this boy is quite weird actually". At least this is how I interpreted her response. I felt sad when I heard that. I remember that from then on I believed that I wasn't good as a kid, that something must have been wrong with me. But of course I didn't say anything, I just swallowed it down. But I was thinking about it and assuming that her perception of me must be correct. So in the exercise I fully put myself back in this situation. And then said/asked different things that I couldn't say back then like the following: "Why did you say 'aah this one'?" "Why do you not like me?" "I gave my best with this picture. Why do you think it probably isn't good?" "Now I feel like I'm not a good kid" "Now I feel like all the other kids are better than me" It didn't even take half a minute and I was already crying like a child. I kept going for several minutes, repeating the things I couldn't say back then. I've done this 3 times now just for this one memory and cried every time. Even now writing this I was on the brink of crying, my eyes were already watery and I started to shake a bit. So I guess there's still more pain attached to this memory, right? Is it normal like this, taking several times to resolve the pain of the same incident? Do I keep repeating this until I can't feel any more pain and can't cry any more? Anyway it felt good even though it felt sad. I'll do it more times in the upcoming days.
  5. Sure, that makes a lot of sense. Yes, that's a really interesting phenomenon! Dr. Joe Dispenza talks about this in his books and at his workshops they actually measure this field with some russian biophoton detecting device (I don't remember the exact name, but it's some high end device). There you can see that the meditators have a much brighter, bigger and "thicker" electromagnetic field after a breakthrough experience. It's amazing.
  6. @Thought Art Yeah, that's the kind of stuff I was thinking about. Do you know how we can even know that? It seems obvious that stress is regulated by the nervous system (sympathetic and parasympathetic NS), but what does it mean that the stress is held in the nervous system? Or are we again just talking about the neural connections in the brain? Even harder to grasp is how stress is held in an organ or tissues. Unless this merely means that we have chemical reactions like production of neurotransmitters and hormones, but I think you mean something else right? Yeah, that's exactly the stuff I meant. First you have trauma or other conditioning. Then this gets stored in the body as energy, I assume it's some kind of unhelpful energy, but you can transform it into something better I guess. It would be extremely interesting to know what actually happens when we transform this energy (if that's what really happens at all). Like there are these accounts of people who do a chakra meditation and then energy from the lower centers get "liberated" and flow upwards in the brain, which can cause a spiritual experience. So I assume that this "bad", low frequency energy of the trauma that sits in the body must become something else. Thanks for your post!
  7. Nice post. I was aware of these relationships. Of course emotions are felt in the body because the body produces certain chemicals and changes its physiology. The thing you're describing is basically conditioning, like e.g. fear conditioning. That's what we know from Pavlov's dogs; neuroassociations or trigger-reaction-chains. A trauma could therefore be considered a specific type of conditioning. You build many types of associations of certain stimuli - that were present during the traumatic events - with specific emotions/physiology. That what you describe in the last paragraph is called "melting anchors" isn't? It's clear that e.g. if someone has an anxiety disorder, then they have a neural network for that specific anxiety (or rather the specific associations) in their brain. So that's the brain, neural networks that get activated and then in turn activate hormonal glands like the adrenal glands in the body, which then produce stress hormones. Anyway what I meant in my original post was still something different. There are theories in which for example trauma is "stored" in specific organs. It's kind of like if you could have a close look at the organ you'd see certain "traces" of the trauma (don't ask me what that means). Like, as though you have a memory of the trauma "imprinted" in the organ or tissue. I think they say that the body can then respond to a trauma trigger even before the brain does or maybe even that the body simply activates the trauma by itself without any external trigger (and similar stuff). Out of habit so to speak. I don't know a whole lot about this stuff which is why I made the post.
  8. We would worship your big dildo all day long 😉
  9. And what are the spiritual ramifications of this phenomenon? Is it known how and where these emotions get stored? What has this got to do with the chakras? Like, does unprocessed emotion get stored as an energy in the chakras and then it can get liberated and converted into "good" energy? Is this stored emotion what becomes the kundalini energy? Or is this emotion/energy stuck in the nervous system? I'm just trying to see the big picture of the relationship between emotions, the body, energy, spiritual development and so on, so please share what you know. Thanks 🙏
  10. Yeah, I read about it too. Still seems a bit odd to me because from what I understood lizard labs didn't produce these opioids (some other Dutch laboratories did produce them though), but they still got busted in that same operation. I'm still awaiting updates on this issue. American authorities busting laboratories in the middle of Europe, LMAO...
  11. @Bob Seeker I can't really speak about 1P-LSD, because I haven't experienced it. Though I'm using 1V-Lsd, which is another lsd analogue, just like 1P-lsd, but two versions later so to speak. The 1V-lsd works perfectly fine. All these lsd analogues were produced by professional Dutch laboratories (Legally...), so they are precisely dosed, unlike the street lsd (which sometimes isn't even lsd). I don't know if later on also other producers of these lsd analogues emerged, or more underground in someone's basement kind of labs, I've never heard of anything like this though. They would probably rather make the regular lsd. So you'll likely get high quality, professionally produced quasi-lsd There haven't been any stories of these lsd analogues having unusual side effects, it's all pretty much like lsd. But a little risk of long-term side effects always remains with research chemicals that haven't been studied so thoroughly. It's still unlikely though.
  12. @flowboy Ok, very interesting! Thanks so much! Ok, makes sense that you need to keep going. That you can do unguided sessions too is great, because I live on a different continent than the primal institute But apart from that I do believe that I'd have the discipline to repeat the process again and again, every week. I'm already doing almost nothing but my healing stuff, lol. So again, thank you!
  13. @flowboy hello again I just read the ebook from the pujalepp.com website. That sounds like really deep stuff they do there. I'm wondering if you learn things in this workshop that you can later keep doing at home too or whether it's more like you need the group environment to achieve healing? I mean, I would assume that you can achieve a lot in such a workshop, but you also want to continue with it afterwards right? Also, do you still remember roughly the cost of such a workshop? Thanks buddy, you're a hero here in this forum! 💪💪💪👍
  14. @Sincerity Thanks! 🙏🙏🙏 Another general question for everyone: how long before a breathing session should you not eat? And is there a risk of throwing up or even shitting my pants when things get intense? 😊