Gabith

Go to bed, everything's alright Don't know the whole world's changing As you sleep through the night Wake up slowly and it's a different world Hear the news and the floods begin Screams so loud but only felt within Heart is shattered The pieces can't be found I feel your pain I wrote this song for you, for you You will make it, you will make it through I promise you he would want you to Months go by still living in a daze Don't know what you've done With the last seven days Soul is numb and life is like a dream Helping hands but you push them away How could they understand Don't wanna share your pain Afraid to heal 'cause that would mean goodbye I feel your pain I wrote this song for you, for you You will make it, you will make it through I promise you, she would want you to One day sunlight hits a photograph And it makes you smile The memories dance around you now And they make you smile You're not alone, you'll never be Just like the stars they oversee And they whisper to you you're still, you're still You're still, you're still alive I feel your pain I wrote this song for you, for you You will make it, you will make it through I promise you, they would want you to Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there, I do not sleep I am a thousand winds that blow I am the diamond glints on snow I am the sun on ripened grain I am the gentle autumn rain When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight I am the soft stars that shine at night Do not stand at my grave and cry I am not there, I did not die

Thank u. I can't help u with that

What are the solutions ?

Thank u

When I speak with people, sometimes I feel oppressed or anxious, I am too focused on myself. I don't understand because there is some days where I don't really care what others think and I feel more like myself, it's nice because I feel good even if I do "weird" things in front of others. I make jokes, I can stare at people, saying hello to strangers, speaking with a stranger on the bus, not being too self-conscious, smiling at girls etc.... and others day it's like I'm another person, I feel ashamed, too self-conscious, imagining the others judging me and fearing their judgement of me. A practical technique could help I guess if I use it everyday Are there any techniques to use with the body / breathing or psychological tricks to feel more comfortable in the presence of others?

I've been trying to get better for 10 years now and it doesn't work every time I find myself in a bubble of naivety for a few months or even years before it bursts and then I fall back into another one. Now I see the illusory side of it all, I see that using distractions like music, movies, drugs, women, sports are all useless and I'm still as bad as ever. Even spirituality doesn't attract me anymore, the realizations I've had scare me too much and I would have preferred not to know and stay unconscious but it's too late. I thought that doing street interviews and meeting thousands of people would help me to feel good with others and create bonds but no, I always feel paranoid when I do that, the feeling of being judged or not liked, the inability to open up to others and my body freezing up as soon as a girl I like shows interest in me. And anyway even when I'm with a girl I risk attracting a bad one and if I have a good one like my first one, I'll end up being left or cheated on because she'll see that I'm not loving myself and I'll be back to the same starting point. So using a woman as a distraction won't even help me, except to have the illusion of being happy for a few months. I don't know what to do, it's survival, I can't see myself working 8 hours a day and then on the weekends doing my shopping, cleaning and watching a screen. And even suicide is not a way out, if I could be sure that there is no more consciousness after physical death it would be liberating but unfortunately it is not the case. The only time I feel a little better is when I am myself but I can't stay that way because it's dangerous. When I am myself I often have unfiltered behaviors or cynical comments and if I persist towards that, I will not be able to thrive in this society because I will quickly have repercussions on my actions since there are too many rules and almost no freedom of expression. So I have to play the robot like everyone else and even doing that, I feel out of place or perceived as weird by others. I don't understand how we can have children in this human society, we are so backward I feel more and more disconnected from others, part of me sees them as animals, flesh, we are not worth more than an insect, nothing has value. When I see things for what they are, I have violent ideas and I drop the concepts of good and bad with which I was indoctrinated from childhood. All this indoctrination by religions, sciences, philosophies, marketing, hierarchy, politics makes me sick. I feel more and more like I'm stuck in a flesh body of a race I hate. A human race that I would like to see disappear, I don't want to experiment again what it is like to be a human on earth

Give me good reasons to stay alive please

from 26:16 till the end

Great movie by Noe ! Starred Up

In some of his videos Matt Kahn talks about responding to people judgement/rudness or complain with kind words like compliments for example. Do u guys took this habit and is it worth it ? I could take it as a "game" or social experiment but I'm not sure if it will be the best way to deal with this...

What are your thoughts about the spiritual teacher Matt Kahn please ?

What are your experience with LNT ? Would you recommand it ?