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@Someone here I used to vape till I gagged and threw up , I probably threw up a dozen times, one time I threw up in my car , many times was out of breath driving on the interstate worried I would lose consciousness and crash my car . The book Self Compassion by Kristin Neff led to spontaneous quitting of nicotine and weed . Love 🙏

I want to warn you though, Most days kind of suck until I have my first kratom . I can't imagine how bad it would be if you got dependent on 7 oh. One day soon I'll get off it.

@Someone here porn addiction is almost as destructive as hard drug addiction . On the addiction tier list , porn is between alcohol and meth

I use kratom daily , not happy about it, but it takes the edge off. 7oh meh doesn't last long enough and not that much stronger imo, especially with tolerance .

Is pickup like gettting a shaktipat transmission from a guru for enlightenment. In person you receive the pickup transmission and now you have the power to approach . I passed up on the oppurtunity to go on a free tour bc I was in a relationship , thought I was being noble, she hurt me and now I feel foolish, but I don't want to turn to the dark side either . It's a fine line between contempt and corruption.

I've really been internally bitching about being too shy to cold approach (something that can easily be fixed by finding a decent wing) , and meanwhile people can't walk. Fuck. Would it be worth going into serious debt for prosthetics ?

My friend told me "everyone who is alive wants to die" and I said "everyone who is dead wants to be alive"

I'm not @Jowblob but many of us on the forum have had astral projections . Some have learned remote viewing. I'm not sure if anyone here claims telekinesis but I'm gonna post a YouTube video from someone who teaches it. There's even one person on the forum who claims to be a breatharian (not needing to eat). I pressed him heavily on it and he never wavered.

Yeah the first time I went out of body was shortly after my first NN dmt trip. It wasn't very long but I floated above my body , felt this alien presence like I was being stalked by something . Then it started happening a bunch fairly recently . I get sleep paralysis, my whole body starts to buzz like electricity , I roll out , my astral body hits the floor. I was staying at my parents one of these ,they life in a two story and I float through the ceiling (I'm sleeping in the basement), and I can see my mom watching tv upstrairs. My dog is sitting with her, even though she's been deceased a year at this point , sitting on the couch next to my mom like she used to. I float out of the house and get a Birds Eye view of my neighborhood. Once again got the strange impression that there was another alien presence pursuing me. I don't know how to reliably cause it to happen , it's always been spontaneous , also I haven't gone to any other dimensions (without psychedelics). But this video I'm pinning below shows how deep astral projections can get .

I felt the love on retreat in the zen monastery then again just over a month ago on 5 and now I'm thinking I should take a year off work to pursue LOVE full time in the same monastery I had my retreat, taking 5 occasionally in my apartment on days off .

They're real. I haven't had one but I've had out of body experiences spontaneously , and through psychedelics . But don't forget that most NDErs don't experience the clear light , hence why it's a "near" death experience, as opposed to a 5 meo dmt or cessation full death experience. Near death = leaving the body Death = dissolving into light

@Leo Gura interesting for awhile I've been saying 5 meo DMT is a death experience, opposed to the near death experiences people have when they flatline and come back. I had my first experience with it a month and a half ago, maybe soon ill write up a trip report . After having it , I'm seriously considering living in a monastery and pursuing enlightenment as a full time job for a year .

Do you think that really happens to everyone or just people who've awakened while alive? what's the relationship between becoming God at death and reincarnating?

In a sense I was heavily addicted to weed and for all the hell it caused me it permanently etched solipsism into my being to the point I take it for granted on an existential level. But I'm not awakened , at least, not fully awakened, because it's not overwhelming beauty . For me solipsism isn't a belief it's a mode of being. I don't walk around thinking to myself "these people aren't real, this is all my imagination." It's deeper and more subtle than that.

@Hojo the unknown substance seems was very likely pcp or an analogue to it