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I would like to do more than 10-15 minutes of pranyama but here's what happens when I do: 1) splitting headache (like take me out for the day) 2) paranoia , perception of autonomous entities usually negative (mild but still concerning) lately for this reason I've pretty much exclusively been doing regular zen meditation and Maha mudra .

Your sessions seem reallly long, how much of that 80 minutes do you spend doing pranyama ? I only do 20 to 25, it breaks down to about 10 minute of Nadi shodana and mahamudra and 10 minutes of pranyama , followed by meditation . I find if I do much more pranyama than that it gets trippy / challenging .

They were there while you took a psychedelic?

Whenever I watch shows about the past I realize how fucking privileged I am . Great work. Much easier to stay disciplined and make cool art when you realize how lucky you are.

I got addicted to weed because it caused many awakenings. And I was watching my body not in control as it went for more because I was losing the doer, or at least, I thought I was losing the doer, before this I was highly disciplined. Now I'm pretty disciplined again, now that I have sober spiritual practice for 6 months haven't smoked in two months and access the bliss state without drugs.

You can probably get weed mushrooms or cacti anywhere in the world without a ton of effort . Only the cactus would be legal , and is the hardest to prepare. Theres also the grey market if you know what to look for.

Yes deconstructing the doer lead to a bad addiction .

@Leo Gura I'm glad you made that post, the best creatives never specialize. lately I've been shooting videos, writing poems and making beats, I watched some of your earlier videos and suddenly became very creative with big vision, but I also credit that to 6 months of training kriya yoga daily even when I don't want to.

I think studies have shown that , controlling for deteriorating health, people tend to get happier as they age :D.

You would have lost your old self no matter what, thats just life. Even if you never did any spirituality, the person you are now is going to die , soon you won't even remember what it was like to be this person . I think most people feel this way sometimes. But I've learned that nostalgia is tricky and usually not a super trustworthy metric. It's easy to ignore the bad and focus on the good when you're not living through something anymore. Like sometimes I get nostalgic for my early 20s, but I also know that my early 20s was HELL. Lol.

Pretty sure that stuff is a metaphor our consciousness generates to make sense of the awakening.

Did you opinion on 2C-B change drastically for the better in the last few months? What does it do for you? Great work .

I heard the most similar is ketamine / dissociatives.

Do you have cool ones? Anything like this? If I could have ones like this I would probably not feel the need to take psychedelics, altho Juliana does take them frequently so maybe that means there's some serious differences, still, this is crazy, I have no reason to believe she's lying , crazy shit I wish I could do it.