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I would imagine the most advanced spiritual techniques are kept hidden . Like kriya yoga is cool but I have to assume there's something more powerful that hasn't seen the light of day. If you can do kriya yoga it's good enough meditation you can grind really hard and get similar results .

I would like to do more than 10-15 minutes of pranyama but here's what happens when I do: 1) splitting headache (like take me out for the day) 2) paranoia , perception of autonomous entities usually negative (mild but still concerning) lately for this reason I've pretty much exclusively been doing regular zen meditation and Maha mudra .

Your sessions seem reallly long, how much of that 80 minutes do you spend doing pranyama ? I only do 20 to 25, it breaks down to about 10 minute of Nadi shodana and mahamudra and 10 minutes of pranyama , followed by meditation . I find if I do much more pranyama than that it gets trippy / challenging .

They were there while you took a psychedelic?

Whenever I watch shows about the past I realize how fucking privileged I am . Great work. Much easier to stay disciplined and make cool art when you realize how lucky you are.

I got addicted to weed because it caused many awakenings. And I was watching my body not in control as it went for more because I was losing the doer, or at least, I thought I was losing the doer, before this I was highly disciplined. Now I'm pretty disciplined again, now that I have sober spiritual practice for 6 months haven't smoked in two months and access the bliss state without drugs.

You can probably get weed mushrooms or cacti anywhere in the world without a ton of effort . Only the cactus would be legal , and is the hardest to prepare. Theres also the grey market if you know what to look for.

Yes deconstructing the doer lead to a bad addiction .

@Leo Gura I'm glad you made that post, the best creatives never specialize. lately I've been shooting videos, writing poems and making beats, I watched some of your earlier videos and suddenly became very creative with big vision, but I also credit that to 6 months of training kriya yoga daily even when I don't want to.

I think studies have shown that , controlling for deteriorating health, people tend to get happier as they age :D.

You would have lost your old self no matter what, thats just life. Even if you never did any spirituality, the person you are now is going to die , soon you won't even remember what it was like to be this person . I think most people feel this way sometimes. But I've learned that nostalgia is tricky and usually not a super trustworthy metric. It's easy to ignore the bad and focus on the good when you're not living through something anymore. Like sometimes I get nostalgic for my early 20s, but I also know that my early 20s was HELL. Lol.

Pretty sure that stuff is a metaphor our consciousness generates to make sense of the awakening.

Did you opinion on 2C-B change drastically for the better in the last few months? What does it do for you? Great work .