Oppositionless

Yeah I think sticking to one or two is best. Usually to calm the mind I do meta for 10ish minutes , loving kindness, feel it connects me to love which I'm severely lacking , and then I either do vipassana or shiktanza (do-nothing, pretty much similar to vipassana with more open ended field of focus). Like if in vipassana you're picking one sense , maybe sound, with do nothing you're doing vipassana on the whole field. Although for a daily practice I do wonder if I should learn sadhguru's technique, because 20 minutes of daily meditation might not do anything, but 20 minutes of isha kriya might do something. And do vipassana / do nothing on retreat when I have tens of hours to practice

I found an ENTP book , which is pretty rare, and within the second chapter it was saying my dominant function is extroverted thinking 🗿 I think I'm gonna check out that INTP book.... good mbti books are rare and good ENTP books seem nonexistent .

Eh ketamine makes me feel dirty. And I get this weird rebound effect where I'm super chill during the trip and then super anxious when I get off it. Same as dxm, also a dissociative .

I feel like one of the most enlightened theoreticians on the planet but meditating all day for 7 days showed me how much truth, peace and joy I'm missing by being in my head all the time. I think when I'm contemplating I should really start asking myself "but do I KNOW this is true? Or is it just a really compelling intuitive hunch?"

Why you datin someone you don't respect?

Great vow zen monastery if you can afford it. Or any zen center with sesshin. Vipassana is all meditation, no dialogue. But it's the most hardcore.

If you're very disciplined , or very desparate, you can do at home. I'm an extrovert so having a group really helps me. when I'm at home I don't feel like meditating , cause I know it won't do anything, but that's a self fulfilling prophesy

Do you think me , an ENTP, would get value reading the INTP book? We have the same cognitive functions, they're just in a different order.

Technology induced attention disorder (TIAD) , pronounced tee ad

My advice to anyone who hasn't tried drugs yet would be just don't. Take psychedelics occasionally, fuck the rest. Don't end up like me, and I'm not even that bad, but still. It will eat your soul from the inside out. I feel like all the spiritual work I do is compensating for my addiction. Fuck do I need to go to rehab? That to me would be way, way scarier than spending a week meditating 10 hours a day. I genuinely am shocked I ever got to this point. It snuck up on me in the last year . When I relapsed immediately after my retreat, that's how I found out just how hooked I was. The fact that my brain even wants to entertain fantasies of doing harder stuff is a huge red flag, and honestly terrifying.

My kratom use has gotten way out of control, I spend up to $50 a day and now I'm catching myself fantasizing about how aesthetic it would be to nod out on real opioids.... time to stop. Somehow even though the retreat didnt fix my addiction I feel it gave me more power to choose where I direct my energy.

You're joking right ? 🗿

@Deziree Great Vow Zen Monastery outside of Portland, OR, has Sesshin (7 day retreat) every month. When I went they had a teacher named Jogen there, he was super dope. I asked him at one of his talks about something he said earlier. Talking about how loving kindness was powerful enough to change the world. I pressed him on this, asked him for concrete examples of how it could change the world. He said there is no "the world," just "your world." I already knew this , of course. But in that moment I didn't. I actually think the most powerful techniques are 1) just trying to earnestly figure out what's true at all times 2) DMTs 3) retreats

Meditation is harder, psychedelics are scarier. I wonder if you do a lot of meditation retreats you can hone your psychic ability. I want to go to the casino lmao.