Oppositionless

The woman who loved me passionately and I left in fear didn't cheat on her boyfriend to get back together with me when I tried.

I enjoy the being held in the field of positive attention from multiple women in a group. I don't intend to have sex with them, I intend to be held in the field and let them do the work of finding my soulmate for me.

Yes I was so afraid of intimacy that I paid the ultimate price . I had to experience psychological death after walking away from my love in fear.

I already knew I had an above average sized cock that showed through my gym shorts , but I didn't think women gave a shit. This post puts my experience of intense positive attention at ecstatic dance and yoga into perspective, although I suspect the kriya pranayama and 5 meo awakenings had a deeper impact.

Spend a year pursuing a deeply embodied awakening with psychedelics and hardcore spiritual practice then go to a yoga class, or even better, ecstatic dance if it's available .

I take magnesium NAC and creatine , to me that's the holy trinity.

I think brain.fm is probably more nootropic , the focus signals are more for inducing altered states . @Michal__ really? I want to find out how to have an obe on demand. They're just something that happens to me , it's never worked when I try to do it. also the gateway process itself is one thing, but I was technically just referring to the bare signals on the app . I'm gonna listen to them while doing kriya yoga . And when the electric stimulation device shows up I'll use that while doing kriya . edit: I just saw your reply in the other thread.

Have you tried the Monroe institute's Expand app? Ive been considering getting back into it. I want to find out what would happen if I listen to the signals for an ungodly amount of time , not all at once of course.

Im just going to keep pursing awakening and if/when I permanently stop smoking will be effortless because there won't be a self to be addicted. The more I deepen my awakening the less it effects me.

Me too those 12 step meetings are a cesspool of delusion . If you want to stop a bad habit you give everything to God until the self goes and there is no possibility of addiction.

Maybe if you listen to binaural beats constantly you will start to lucid dream, has anyone tried this?

I like to think my YouTube comments over the years have contributed to Alex's awakening.

I suspect too much AI time is poison for the mind, but so is all of society pretty much so I wouldn't worry more than is reasonable.

ChatGPT seemed like it was somehow more addicting than Grok which is super bizarre but I've just observed that since switching I use less AI.

I have no idea , sometimes I've wondered if I have a mental disorder that hasn't even been invented yet.