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@Hojo material reality is a way for consciousness to invent an explanation for the Absolute

There no reason to only read the books on Leo's list .

This next year I'm going to prioritize my health over all. I've decided to give up the alpha ideal , cancel my gym membership and instead spend my money on physical activity I actually enjoy (yoga classes). Gym is quite boring to me but the alpha programming told me I should try to get bigger.

@Miguel1 Ive deepened my realization of God more this year more then any other but in the human domain I still have so much self hatred . It's a strange place to be.

Lmaooo Okay but still , it's very easy to get 4 subs at smoke shops in the US

It's almost certainly a 4- sub tryptamine. 4 pro dmt is being used in some lately instead of 4 aco, there's also 4 ho met which is quite distinct from mushrooms.

My favorite for researching is grok. Claude still glazes sometimes .

@cetus I think there's an intrinsic difficulty in comparing psychedelic vs meditative experiences that is responsible for our apparent disagreement , because I relate to exactly what you just said now . It's just that in the case of the psychedelic it's accompanied by more "extra" energies, primarily a feeling of intensity leading up to the ego death .

I've experienced emptiness of mind and loss of identification with experience (this might be Turiya depending on your definition) but not the total cessation of experience as in Niroda , or Nirvikalpa samadhi. Im working on my humor so I say things sometimes specifically because they make me laugh , but what I really meant when I said b sleep is from the animal body is sleep is merging with Brahman by decreasing consciousness and awakening is merging with Brahman by increasing consciousness.

I'd reccomend looking into Jean Gebser's stages of consciousness , and the YouTuber Formscapes' videos on them. I find that model more useful than SD.

God is just consciousness... wrong ?

It gave me the impression that death is the end of illusion because it's the end of the ego. And that the only non illusory state is the highest state . I'm not confident what that entails in terms of fine details, like duration or what comes "'next"

Okay, but that's not deep sleep . Deep sleep is from the animal body, it's not ultimate . Buddhism has niroda samapatti which is complete loss of consciousness Whatever the highest state of consciousness is is what happens after death; not the lowest, sleep, looking to the physical world ,

Yes . That's what my 5 meo dmt experiences have indicated. And some, but not all, NDEs culminate in infinite consciousness. But it's not you being conscious of infinity, it's more like infinity's self-recognition. It could be different , obviously I haven't physically died, but that’s how these experiences (5 meo, some NDEs) are often interpreted phenomenologically, and how I interpreted my two breakthroughs on 5 meo.

Not a ghost. God / infinity. Another way of saying it is, yes the ego dissolves in both deep sleep and death , but in sleep that dissolution is accompanied by zero consciousness while at deaths it's accompanied by infinite consciousness.