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I would go father than Leo. Disillusionment isn't such a big deal, plenty of young people are listless and disillusioned with this capitalist dystopia, the real kicker is going into the abyss, dying, losing your humanity. Being human is precious, seriously. I wish I understood this before I stayed tripping. Also tripling can and often does awaken kundalini, which is a whole other can of worms . The initial kundalini awakening is associated with the arising and passing, which leads directly into the dark knight of the soul , as per Daniel Ingrams model.

Kundalini yoga is quite violent, it's about awakening kundalini and asking questions later. Kriya yoga is relatively gentle, it's about purifying the chakras which indirectly leads to kundalini rising, on its own.

All I have to do is visualize it and it starts . Or do (partial) kechari mudra. It's an electric current in my spine and brain, very blissful . Haven't had the "full release" experience in a few months , maybe cause I'm not tripping currently, but that's fine, the full release was accompanied by a lot of terror to be honest, when the sober ego deaths started happening I knew it was time to pump the brakes. Kinda seems like Leo's recent blog post was directed at ppl like me. Edit : I remember thinking I needed to stop kriya yoga to get the kundalini symptoms to relax, that wasn't true. I just needed to stop taking psychedelics.

Disillusionment is real . I didn't notice it with other psychedelics but when I started vaping 5 meo . Big "fuck everything" vibes started happening, as in total acceptance of everything, but even more than that the notion of being a human being started to fall away, and that was actually too much- I stopped automatically because it was just way too scary . Dying as a human is a very serious thing , nothing you read from Leo adequately conveys it. If it did I don't think people would be so eager. But it also saved me from mental hell, so I'm not sure I'd change anything . I suppose I knew when to stop. Either way, kriya yoga as a daily practice has been plenty to scratch that spiritual itch going forward.

Watch Leo's videos on dating first . Not so biased.

I chucked a bit when hoe math suggested conservatives are more empathetic than liberals .

Leo you say we should remain optimistic about our ability to succeed despite the brutal truths, but what about simply becoming indifferent? Not pessimistic just... uninterested in the game? I remember reading something from Jed McKenna years ago where he had the insight that no one loves anyone else. I couldn't hear that now, but it seems more and more sensible to me as I age.

Different levels of understanding Consciousness. It's one thing to understand everything is consciousness, and another to see everything has consciousness. This is essentially what panpsychism and Rupert Sheldrake's morphic resonance point out.

They're not shallow at all. To be honest I'm not sure. Jan could awaken people's Shakti by being in the same room. And even over video sometimes it happens. He's not with us on earth anymore but I still feel his presence over recordings. I doubt anyone who freshly awakened their kundalini such as myself would have this effect on people.

5 meo dmt . Maybe a small role for kriya yoga but I think the former was 90% of it. Hell yeah . I do feel like I'm being restructured... it hasn't been easy but old patterns are slowly but surely falling away :). @caspex Im a little confused by your question. Which guru are you referring to? Neither Jan nor Amara is my guru.

It's unmistakable. Like having an orgasm in your spine, and at the peak, ejaculating through the top of your head. But maybe it's not always that dramatic.

I started tripping at 20 but I was irresponsible as hell. It depends on how responsible you are . I would do dumb shit that could have got me killed or arrested. Then I didn't trip at all from like 23 to 26 and when I got back into it , it was first off way deeper, and second I wasn't an idiot.

Awakening occurs, ego dies, then ego comes back and claims it. No judgement; that's just how it goes unless you've reached a permanent no self state.

@cistanche_enjoyer I don't remember the video , but Leo made an offhand comment once "I don't care about pleasure." Seems like the type of person who wouldn't get addicted to stuff😆. Unironically that comment changed my whole perspective, in some ways even more than the God stuff, bc I simply had no idea it was possible for a human to live that way.

@Carl-Richard funny you think Rick is self realized. Not that I doubt it ,it just didn't occur to me, that was only my first batgp interview I've seen. Rick seemed a little manic in the interview, like you could tell Jan's Shakti was affecting him deeply.