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Yeah I've been to one meditation retreat , also Soto Zen. That was pretty transformative as well, but I was less receptive back then. Kriya yoga has made me more receptive to subtle energies , it's still my preferred for solo practice because I find it incredibly hard to sit for long periods of time without a group there to force me to, in a sense, and for that reason before kriya i did not have a consistent solo routine. Also another good thing is, I finished up my 5 meo and didn't get more. I probably won't trip for at least 6 months , maybe on the winter solstice.

Obviously my spiritual and psychedelic interest is too broad to commit to Buddhism , but the nice thing is unlike other religions you're not expected to become a Buddhist just to go to the services .

So the other day I went to a Buddhist meeting. This was actually the third time I went to this meeting but the first two times nothing like this happened. Basically this was a very traditional Soto Zen service with chanting (about 10 minutes), a half hour meditation, a dharma talk and finally a breakout discussion group, followed by more chanting and closing dedication. All together it was about 2 hours. By about halfway through the talk I was giggling. By the end I felt like I was floating, very empowered. In a sense it was quite boring, the first two times I went I was miserable. But this time I just accepted the boredom and by the end I felt really good.

It's hard to think of something that isn't conformity. Even having a psychotic episode in the street is conformity.

Doing this pose makes me feel like I'm on a low dose of psychedelics .

The way I see it is, God is Good because God is Infinite. God is, first and foremost, Infinite, containing every possibility, and secondarily Good. But Goodness is a larger infinity than suffering .

This video might be relevant .

Right now I'm reading the book We Have Never Been Woke, it's interesting . My thinking is that woke is a way for the elites to appease stage green and alienate stages blue / orange. When the working class of all stages want material change, identity politics are emphasized to pit them against each other . We don't need conservatives to accept pronouns, that's fucking pointless, just improve everyone's material conditions and the "woke" stuff will happen on its own, or not, to me it's not very important beyond , as Leo said, 1st and 2nd wave feminism. Here's an interview with the author .

Special and General Relativity I don't rly understand this video tbh , maybe someone who does can respond .

Reminds me of my Vietnamese friend. I don't think he ever introduced his parents to his white girlfriend, or even mentioned her to them. They were together almost 2 years .

@Breakingthewall I respectfully disagree, unless we are going to say EVERYONE is a liar. Whether Jiddu was "enlightened" or not, he's no liar, and he's very wise. Also I think this full vs empty debate is so silly. There's a reason there are so many words- because none of these words do it justice. In other words Jiddu says empty, you say full, and it doesn't make a lick of difference.

Alcohol can be profound, meth psychosis can be profound, delirants can be profound, heroin overdose can be profound. But psychedelics are A) relatively safe and non addictive and B) more profound, consistently profound and actually helpful for long term change.

I want that too .

@Elliott Jesus Christ I had no idea us Americans were that miserable. God bless America.

I feel like a different person from 4 months ago, when I started doing it. I really began to notice the shift when I stopped smoking weed, which I'm pretty sure kriya helped me do btw. I think a lot less, and the thoughts I do have seem a lot more useful , that seems like the biggest shift . I can witness my mind. Less baseline anxiety but more anxiety when subconscious material comes to the surface, but that's just part of the healing process.