Giulio Bevilacqua

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  1. You know what ? It could be too simplistic and foolish, but extremely difficult for our egoic mind to understand. We have just to allow the fucking shaking and nothing else. There is so much resistance and judgment “this is wrong” “this should not be so” “I’m mad” why the fuck is our society so nevrotic. When i shake I just fell much more better and clearer than before but there is always a fear of allowing things to unfold. Most of the umans on earth are schizophrenic, really, and they think they are normal.
  2. @iTommy That’s so nice from you. Thank you so much
  3. @Salvijus Thank you for your loving comment. It can be very scary sometimes.
  4. @GreenLight Yes, i have seen that if you want to release you have just to want it and it collapses immediatelly. Takes courage or a lot of pain ahahaha
  5. Hi all. I'm experiencing a Kundalini awakening symptomes and i would like to know how to handle it the best way possbile. I've have been on seemen retention probably for 5 or 4 months, i did not have the desire for sexual interaction or masturbation, it was quite natural. Along with this i practiced my daily Qi Gong and Tai chi and was getting every day batter at it. Two months ago i started to feel heavy blocks inside my stomach like a big rock. Today if i just relax i go into shakings, my hole body shakes trying to break this passages. My life is very confused like hell. I was practicing music very good for my academia but now it is so meaningless and do not have the desire to go foward with it. Other aspects are that cravings has grown so much things that were never there like food. I could eat the hole day without feeling the sense of fullness, obviously i do not do that, but the amount of food is grown too much. The main problem is the stomach, it is full of micro psychological tensions that create this ball. The digestion is not good, i burp very often amount of air, and my excrement do not flow properly. I found a method to release the tensions but i do not know if it is too safe, i'm scared that it releases too much energy. It consist in willingly contracting the tensions and then suddely relax, i think it's what in Yoga is called Bandha. Along with all this stuff, i feel an empty silence field that is very much often there all the day, it is not blissful or loving or peaceful, it is just what it is , not good or bad. Have some of you gone trough something similar to this ? Thank you. Giulio
  6. And how did you figured it out? Do you still play ?
  7. No, i'm still absorbing what has been written by all of you and trying to understand your words deeper than a first intellectual reading. In my point of view, music during meditation should be avoided for the simple fact that you can be distracted or being too much influenced by the frequencies. I think silence is a must for meditation.
  8. Why does your spiritual growth affect your music tastes ? The more my ego is disappearing and the more I can not stand the "normal " music. I am not more attracted by it. I'm facing a weird situation. Because I was planning to study music this year, and this lack of drawning is causing some worry. I play drums and it is just not more stimulating now. I think that the energies are going a lot inward in this period. Maybe it is just a recharge of energy for then to be expressed. What are your thoughts about it ?
  9. I know what you mean. The more you do not know and the more you do not fit into the "normal" social structures. I have experienced this and it can be very uncomfortable relating to other people especially your parents. But it is a question of gut. Go fully trough it, if you can do it joyfully it's much better. This would not be a great problem if you where living alone on this planet, the root cause are all the dynamics with society and people around you, but it depends on how you are going to respond to this.
  10. What is wrong with not knowing ? Do not make not knowing a form of negativity.
  11. Qi Gong, Kung Fu, Tai Chi, Yoga Hatha/Kriya are perfect for activation of subtle energy points and gates. The rest of activities are good for general basic health.
  12. Can you still enjoying having sex or pursuing a career of art or business ?
  13. Evryone is unconsciously or consciously trying to achieve enlightenment. All the people wants the same thing, but lots of one goes by instalments
  14. Hello everyone. I'm facing an obstacle during my consciousness path, it regards people around me. The more I become conscious the more others are irritated by me. I really feel to be my self, I do not talk to much, only when I feel it is necessary and spontaneous. When I listen to people most of the time I'm empty inside my self and others perceive as if I I'm not listening to them. My mother got very angry and aggressive for my behaviours she says I'm like a ghost. This makes me feel uncomfortable because I do not want to make then feel such feelings or ideas but at the same time I do not want to loose my presence awareness. Most of the people sees my like a weird and strange one. How could I balance such a situation ?