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  1. @Serotoninluv beautififul explanation๐Ÿ‘Œ I wrote one more elaborate but the forum instantly got a http 500 error for a bit ๐Ÿ˜ž
  2. @possibilities Well you hen you're mapping out a general progress of human growth you are more concerned about the. Global progress than a small percentage of nuances.
  3. Two trips is not enough. You've got much to learn. Try 20-30 then we'll talk.
  4. @Leo Gura this is good advice. I often try to fit people into a the best model I can but it's good Is good to remember life dynamics are more complicated
  5. Appreciate the advice any amount helps ๐Ÿ’œ
  6. Never looked into food banks but with stamps we are over the income limit. We can get it for a few months with some workarounds but in general day to day my gfs family handles bills and I pay for a couple and handle emergency cases and house chores. They plan out dinners based on what they can afford so I'm looking to try and increase their spending limit to go healthier.
  7. @Michael569 Dude! Your responses continue to be invaluable to me. Thank you for your contributions here. ๐Ÿ’œ
  8. Having a bad trip on mdma is something you gotta try to have. It's basically a flood of serotonin and it makes it very hard not to embrace the world in love. I'm not sure about the legalities so I won't give any advice. Perhaps you might still get benefit in a personal setting though. It would be obvious you are on it. You go full talkative extrovert. Even if you are introverted.
  9. @AlldayLoop Therapy with mdma might be a good choice. While it is a substance that must be handled with low frequencies and care, it'll open you up like a book. It's helped me spot traumas I was unaware of. It's being looked into to help those with ptsd.
  10. We both don't. I'm like 95% certain now it's a diet issue. We live with a pretty low income family and consume lots of dairy, mainly cheese. I'm in the process right now of trying to become more independent so we can have more food options though ๐Ÿ˜
  11. Spirituality is best practiced when you have your survival figured out so you can dedicate your life to it. It's part why Leo has so much orange stage stuff in his earlier videos. Managing both can be a puzzle indeed. I'm having to go back through orange myself because I skipped straight to green values.
  12. @Serotoninluv Do you think an awakening could rewire this lack of empathy? Surely merging the divide could transition self care to others?
  13. Intense experiences often shut off a lot of mind function in an attempt to shift awareness to the intensity of the experience. This was actually how I brute forced my first awakening. My friend always offers me weed and even dabs out of hospitality. Rarely do I take up the offer because more than one hit off a joint bakes me. When I do dabs it's straight up just lay on the couch journey time.
  14. +1 it's been a year since I've done psychedelics. If anything I've grown since my last trip. It's only bee recently I've felt the calling to experiment again. When you first do psychs I think there is a big drive to do them a lot due to their whacky and unknown nature. It's an absolute blast to explore. Some may stumble on awakening by accident. But that drive relaxes over time. At least that was my experience.
  15. @SFRL I question whether they are even capable of going past orange. Green largely hinges on empathy.