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  2. @Bashar they are talking shit about you on YouTube.
  3. I hope already dying relieves me of this experience. I already know God and ego death. So I hope this time the bandaid just gets ripped off. Otherwise it's the fetal position for me too. And yeah I already know I'm a piece of shit. But God may not 😀
  4. You may need to watch in YouTube. Warning, graphic.
  5. This is cartoonish https://africa.businessinsider.com/local/markets/cargo-ship-carrying-over-2500-containers-sinks-after-reported-naval-mine-explosion/rqfqxtg

  6. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Rafael Thundercat replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Love allows fools to be fools https://www.instagram.com/reel/DejaSJhuogh/?cplk=MTZudXM5MmI1OG4xaw==
  7. That's pretty cool. I just wish Elon had stayed out of politics.
  8. To me @Judy2, personality can never change and there's a larger context behind this. However, there is a strong distinction between developed and underdeveloped personality. Change occurs continuously throughout the life-time, however that change is dependent on the relationship to the personality itself. The relationship the environment has with the personality - unconscious influence: stressors, conditionings, etc. The relationship the individual has with their personality - conscious action: belief changes, activation of hormonal and nervous system patterns. Further, what is actually still not clear are the precise dimensions of what distinguishes personality from non-personality. For example, I actually don't believe that "openness to experience" is inherently a personality dimension even though its assessed on many assessments, like the HEXACO. However because of its impact on the expression and realisation of personality, it arguably has the largest impact out of any other personality dimension measured. It has already been proven that openness experience can easily be shaped by the minds experiences and changed based on environmental exposures and what the brain itself is exposed to say through different drugs like psychedelics. Openness to experience also has many overlaps with cognitive dimensions that upon altering as well, especially in relationship to their respective changes in reward centres I.e. dopamine, openness experience changes along with the indirect influence this has on more stable personality dimensions. To this end, I personally would distinguish intrinsic versus extrinsic personality dimensions. Extrinsic, are those personality dimensions that are more changeable, like openness to experience. Intrinsic, are those personality dimensions less changeable, like the outcomes resulting from say being human. For me, personality has "species allocation" in the same way that DNA organisation does, so I consider that as the fundamental distinction between internal and external personality; where genetics here refer to the individuation of personality across our species in unique ways relative to the ancestral line and individual expression. Epigenetics and the subject of epigenetic changes make that dialogue between exploring the distinction between developed and underdeveloped personality not only open and alive, it extends it into territory we're still a long way from uncovering the full depths to. Agency, which I don't at all believe has the merits to qualify as solidified personality dimension where its relevant to say, more or less is what best predicts the degree to which a personality will be unveiled to the individual beneath the suffering its experienced and beyond its attachments to itself formed from its life experiences. Fantastical notions of the impacts of a neuralink for example, perfectly illustrate the divides I've relayed here. By inputting machinery, you may take away personality from your essence, but you can't add to it. Genetic manipulation reinforce this divide further, where intrinsic not just extrinsic personality can actually likely change when we compare those genetic changes with what human DNA is meant to mirror in intrinsic personality. My views on personality are distinctly my own, with mainstream research yet to further its distinctions from the rudimentary personality tests that are given people. There are still further distinctions worth exploring, like between males and females at the genetic level, twin studies, mother and father influences, one could even venture into the "Personality Type" of a particular ancestral lineage, but I'll leave it there.
  9. Today
  10. Good point
  11. Yesterday
  12. I think its just posturing to try to win some boomers over in reality. I believe Labour is trying to stave off Nigel Farage. Anyone knows that it's largely unenforceable.
  13. Solipsism is just one necessary phase of life that you go through in this realm, nobody is even saying it has to be that way once you see through it. The limits are literally imaginary can be whatever you want. God isn't just some mechanical crystallization of your own mind, there's actually a being on the other side of it. And as they say, if you can make an atom that's no more difficult than making a universe. Even psychedelics and all substances are literally placebo, they show you some truth and allow for a higher bandwidth of communication with God, but that's simply because you allow it to be that way in your mind. There's nothing stopping you from bringing the afterlife to you right now. You can literally rewrite the rules of your life, change history, see the future and fate of everyone around you, and quite literally do whatever you want. God made it so that you have limited knowledge for a reason - you couldn't really have a human life if you knew everything. Whatever humanity thinks it knows about God, is just a blip on a desert island. No matter how crazy of visuals you're seeing on a trip, that's literally always just visual content within your imagination and not actually representative of the actual truth. God made it so that communicating with incarnations in other timelines is impossible - not by some rule written down somewhere, but by absolute tautology. Literally the concept of a biological being is something totally unprecedented and only exists in this dimension. Think about how unbelievably profound that is. Not only that but you can literally raise people from the dead, that never existed, so to speak. This is gonna sound crazy but God literally can make it to where other people literally become conscious through you and experience what it's like to be you through your eyes. That's profound love. But the kicker is they actually have their own sovereign consciousness at the same time. I'm telling you guys. The rules can be rewritten. The philosopher's stone is real. Leo, I will make you conscious one day. Mark my words.
  14. Nothing ever really worked for me apart from ADHD meds. So, my intuition points to ADHD being legit.

  15. Finished the LP course

    Jannes replied to Jannes's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    I have had the thought before that humans may be striving for some sort of chaos because thats what their psyche needs. A super orderly and perfect world isnt acceptable because things like struggle and war are needed elements for the human experience. I recently got that exact same intuition reflected somewhere else. Its just speculation but it originates somewhere. I think this is something that could be discovered in a few centuries and then be common knowledge. But because humanity might have peaked in the 2000s, its time to experience humans fucking up/ manifesting that inner strive for a balance of peace and chaos.
  16. What impact did the course make in your life?

  17. Leo's Blog Discussion Mega-Thread

    Rafael Thundercat replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    This is the sort of Rationality science make people do https://www.instagram.com/reel/DegTMxLzjZV/?exln=c3ZkczZ0N3BmYzg5 Sounds so profound but ..
  18. That was the case on every subsequent trip. Nothing in the way anymore. Ego fucks off early because it learned its lesson. I would trip with the expressed intent of getting there ASAP so I could maximize the amount of time I had in the space. Worked out well enough for the time I indulged in them.
  19. Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily Life is but a dream.
  20. Bro knows ball
  21. Consciousness
  22. lmao
  23. In the UK this doesn't matter anymore because porn is already banned for under 18s
  24. Pornography is a great litmus test for a government's respect for liberty. I get the under 18s banning. But banning on grounds of performed incest and choking is too far.

  25. How to not destroy my house on 5-meo?

    Willy Phallicus replied to Vynce's topic in Psychedelics

    There's no Willy Phallicus. No ego calling the shots. Dad woke up from his sunday morning nap and decided to see what the kid was up too and dominates the room when he enters into it. I can do better than that. I can point to it. Its whatever you are experiencing right now. Thats the miracle. You're that miracle. Reality isn't veiled, its your perception. As William Blake so eloquently put it, "If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is, infinite." Because theres a difference (except there isnt - the paradox that cant be resolved from the human perspective) between Self with a capital S and self with a little one. Its not one or the other its both - you can look through either end of the telescope you choose. When Jesus takes the wheel you have no doubts about what you're experiencing. You're both creator and creation wrapped up in one splendid shiny bow. Then you go back to ego because the game is more interesting to play that way. The stakes become real again. Conversations and sex aren't awkward. Food is something you look forward too, you have people you can love and hate etc etc But conversing, with a loved one, post ego death, reveals unto the observer the mechanics of how everything is working "behind the scenes" so to speak but is really in front of your face every waking moment. The idea of no separation goes from guesswork to lived experience and it all clicks for you.
  26. I think smoking cigarettes and weed and alcohol are a completly different category then masturbation. Like its a pretty basic need of your body. You can cut delicious cheeseburgers, but you cant cut eating at all. I figured out a more boring solution for myself. I learned to notice the difference between masturbation as a physiological need, like when my body just needed to get a load off and masturbation as a way to escape reality, like when I had a though task to do and all of the sudden feel the "need" to masturbate instead. The second one is where you get all the cons of masturbation from in my experience. I just try to be more and more mindful of my masturbation habit.
  27. I think thats actually true. Lust is definitely a deadly sin without wanting to be all christian about it but men (and women) do a lot of shit to get sex. But the thing is, thats nothing new to society and women are somewhat prepared for that and they are also interested in sex. So there is a bit of mutual understanding going on. But most men should probably still be trying to look more for a personality match with a girl then just maximum sexual opportunism.
  28. I've decided that it was time to do it for once. I took three pipes and filled them with bufo alvarius. The first pipe: I started to feel how I was losing my mind, how everything was melting and becoming fractal-like. I was scared as fuck. My hands were shaking while I was still lighting the pipe. I felt like I was dying. Some part of me was still being aware of my room and my body. The second pipe: I started to see the pipe as if it was dimensionless, it was still in my hands but it had no size, it was just being, in that moment I stopped to know that I was mixcoatl, you know, it's like I was still there but I was not Mixcoatl anymore. I felt how everything became an infinite field of consciousness, only experience, with no owner. I couldn't distinguish what what's that object for. The third pipe: My room fully disappeared and a mixture of experiences appeared. It was like I was seeing but there were no eyes to see that, rather, it was like visions and thoughts just appearing... Suddenly I was fully aware of my entire life, I was living every second of my life, everything at once. I was aware of every person in my life, all of them at the same time, but they weren't entities like I perceive them in sober state, they were appearing in myself, I was totally aware how they were mind... I recognized how I was omnipresent, not in space, not in time, but EVERYTHING was occurring in me and I was occurring as these things were happening. There wasn't any kind of judgement or definition of the things that were occurring. I felt the most absolute tranquility and peace ever and there was not worry at all... There was not an agenda to fulfill, no one missing to know, nothing to worry about... I was complete... And it was the most beautiful thing! For the first time ever, I felt the nothingness. How there was nothing behind these experiences happening... How actually those experiences are made of nothing. I was that nothing. No distinction between anything. When it manifests is like it knows thyself... And it's the truest thing that can be. Since then, I'm trying to bring to my life this beauty and tranquility to my life by knowing that no matter what happens, everything will be perfect and complete forever.
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