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  2. The websites didn't do anything for me, but the YouTube series is enjoyable.
  3. challenged myself to go out with a friend and her family to a local café/bar where we could play some board games. it was fun and we had a good time. toward the end, they asked what i'm gonna do next (career-wise) and where i'm gonna go. i feel a little stressed out now, but am also considering that i am safe, i'm alive now, nothing's wrong, i have all the time in the world to figure out what's next and none of it can hurt me, because i'm always already here and i'll be okay....something like that. it's hard to see it, but i try to believe it. trust. ...lean back. relax. trust in God, in Life, in the Universe and that things will work out for me. see that i'm safe to embrace whatever is going on for me, and able to open up to the perspective of how divine it all is, even the pain and the drama. i'm lucky to be alive, lucky to feel. i want to feel all my messy "situations", feel them through entirely, (i'm scared, i'm hurting)....and....idk, feel the mess and see how Good it is that it exists? and i wouldn't want it to be any other way, i wouldn't want it to be easier. (i'm scared, i'm hurting.)
  4. hope its far away- still catching up on the homework from part 2 ..
  5. Tried to reduce red to atoms but all i got was red
  6. People can fail to see red. But if they see red, it is the same red. I'm not hinting at it. I'm telling you directly that red is absolutely red. Red IS the noumena. Perception is noumena. Yes, of couse. They can come and go, but red is red, regardless of whether you are seeing it or not. Timeless doesn't mean it is permanent in your awareness. Don't you see that red is the same red throughout your whole life? The red from your childhood is the same red as today, and is the same red you will see when you are 100, if your eyes still work. The red that the ancient Egyptians saw is the same red that you see today. Which is just to say that red is red and not anything else. Everything is exactly itself. Red is red, red is not orange, and red is not cold.
  7. @Leo Gura any eta on part 3 release?
  8. Enjoyed this obvious truth around qualities, in particular that red is of course red.
  9. Yeah you're right. Although I didn't think it through too deeply. But Queen a3 instead is a much safer square, and poses more danger to the white King.
  10. The logic behind my plan is that it's not logical to think that to make money as a rapper you need to blow up and make millions, or you make nothing. There must be some way in between to practice making money and start earning it, first as a part time income, then a full time income, then if you blow up you make millions. This binary black and white thinking or you're either drake or a nobody isn't logical.
  11. Today
  12. I have no reason to believe there's a lobby or a chooser. I don't think death is a state you'll ever be in. All I've ever known is consciousness, so I suspect experience just continues, though not through any soul progression or anything like that.
  13. Guys i have a plan to make a living from rap : -Combining getting hired for gigs and projects as a rapper through freelance work. I will build a portfolio, or a resume, to get hired. -Building a small community on social media, of fans, who are willing to donate on patreon for support and listening to my music relases in advance, or to share exclusive music there.
  14. @Breathe really hard to say, because I wasn't using it for spiritual reasons - just bonding and experimenting. I had it in small crystal greyish form and via caps. So a full cap would be typical for me. I would never have found it useful for consciousness work. Not that sort of substance imo. I had visuals from it also - which I don't think is common. I recall going to see Daft Punk on it. During Aerodynamic got caught on a giant checker board I couldn't get out of. Then I saw gold zippers all over reality and as I unzipped them layers of vision were torn down to reveal new scenes. I recall that being the most intense MDMA trip, but I took a lot. It was tested as pure also (I never take anything I haven't tested with drug kits). I enjoy the 'slide out' part of the come up (if that makes sense) but I hate the surging waves prior to the backside/breaking on the shore. The come up feels too much, then I am gliding on a boogieboard of love, rinse repeat. Had to use a metaphor because I don't know how else to describe it. Had the most fun on it with partners. But yeah, the malaise I felt for a couple of months after mean I wouldn't do it again 😊
  15. Visualization technique. Instead of making yourself the main character in your visualization have two people there doing something you are just following them.
  16. What do you mean by red being absolutely red for everyone? Obviously people experience colors differently, not to mention other species entirely. I’m sure you’ve anticipated that objection, so are you hinting at some kind of absolute noumena that exist outside of perception (at least of an individual organism)? Also, isn’t everything a quality? So everything is absolutely itself. But I don’t see how this makes qualities timeless. I would say that absolute reality is timeless, but individual qualities like the color red can come and go.
  17. Fresh news ♨️🥐📺 Again, I am limiting my messages to 3-4 tweets at a time, to give them more breathing room.
  18. @enchanted You are touching on a profound distinction here, though the different species metaphor is risky because it has been used historically to dehumanize. However, your core intuition; that forcing 'sameness' is a trap, is spot on. Most attempts to solve racism fail because they try to flatten everyone into a homogenous human soup (stage green). They say, 'Don't see color, we are all the same.' But as you noted, cultures don't want to be swept under the rug. People value their unique heritage. The issue isn't that we acknowledge differences; it's that we hierarchize them. I would argue that we don't "solve" racism by fighting it (which often just drives it underground). We outgrow it by expanding our definition of self. Tribal Identity: My safety depends on my specific group. Anyone different is a threat. (This is where racism is a survival technology). Global Identity: My safety depends on the health of the whole system. Difference is no longer a threat; it's essentially just genetic/cultural R&D that benefits the whole species. The yellow solution isn't to pretend we are all the same species of salamander. It is to realize that the health of the ecosystem relies on the distinctness of the salamanders. We don't need to be different species to respect each other. We just need to realize that unity does not mean uniformity. You can have a unified planetary system that is radically diverse. Racism dissolves not when we become colorblind, but when we realize that another race's success is actually our success because we are parts of the same super-organism.
  19. People who have a philosophy of not evaluating their philosophy. But these people can be helped, it just takes relationship, love and time.
  20. @Natasha Tori MaruHow much did you usually take? @Butters I've done MDMA a handful of times and I really only found it useful when I did it with a couple of my girlfriends. It strengthened our bonds which surprisingly lasted for some time. I have yet to find it useful for self-exploration. Nor do I understand how anyone can socialize or party on it. I just want to curl up in a ball and bliss out.
  21. I hope I don't go down the depressed route. So far so good.
  22. That will lose the queen after knight to c7 and rook is coming.
  23. You just need Mooji's spiritual fluids
  24. Crazy how some if not most people can take ungodly amounts of psychedelics yet remain dead asleep
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