Leo featured in suicide cult article

[RMQualtrough]

4 hours ago, mandyjw said:

There was a teacher here who really encouraged psychotherapy for people on the path. He was belittled for it, (that's not how you awaken, etc) and then eventually asked to leave the forum. This was before the suicides.

I think there have been a lot of red flags along the way and a fundamental complete misunderstanding of what mental illness IS in this community. When articles demonize someone for misunderstanding, they just usually cause people to buckle down that THEY KNOW the right way. Unfortunately the tone here perpetuates a lot of shame around psychotherapy, mental illness, expression, and healing in general which is not separate from awakening at all. 

Mentally ill people need medical intervention, it is really that simple.

Talk therapy is just quacks from college with a Cornflakes box "degree". Psychiatry is practiced by doctors who have graduated from medical school, and are legally allowed to prescribe any medicines their client requires.

I have certainly lost my life to AvPD (as in the life I would have had without developing this condition). Western medicine allows me to do normal day to day tasks without having a panic attack, which means I can at least live and exist without panicking every time I pass someone on the street.

Psychedelics do not work for mental illness. I took part in these studies actually. What they do is send you questionnaires with sliding scale answers. Firstly if you take one of these tests 3 times in the very same day, most likely you will get a different result. But removing outliers, it also did not take into account the "afterglow" effect... When I was using psychedelics often, I stopped taking my anti-anxiety medicine (Zoloft). I answered the questionnaire as though I was miraculously cured etc.

Well then 6 months later or something like that, I was randomly becoming suicidal every other week or so. I went back on medication and became well again after ~2 to 4 weeks... It's like when schiz people stop taking meds, you don't always notice as you're slowly slipping back into illness.

[OBEler]

@RMQualtrough so you claim the study just ask you on the day you use psychedelics? No questions how you feel after some weeks? 

Bad study Design, there are lot of other study which consider this

 

How long could you stay off of your Anti depressiva when taking psychedelics? 

[RMQualtrough]

12 minutes ago, OBEler said:

@RMQualtrough so you claim the study just ask you on the day you use psychedelics? No questions how you feel after some weeks? 

Bad study Design, there are lot of other study which consider this

 

How long could you stay off of your Anti depressiva when taking psychedelics? 

They ask at regular intervals. But of course directly before and after are among those intervals.

A problem I found, which I tried to mitigate using the boxes for additional comments, is that it does not take into account general life happenings. IIRC this was during COVID and the lockdown rules were changing frequently. But also for example, when I went back on medication, I had a follow up quiz some time after. There was no place to ask whether I have altered any medication I am taking etc. So improvements I would have to report based on the timescale they ask (usually "in the last two weeks") were actually due to the Zoloft I was now taking again.

I added this information in the boxes but I doubt many bother.

In my own experience, Western medicine is a superior means of treatment. There was nowhere in the questionnaires where this experience would be reflected... If you are using psychedelics very regularly etc, there is an effect similar to when schizophrenics stop taking meds and are convinced they are better. Despite outwardly spiralling... You don't notice the illness creeping back up on you because it is quite slow...

Look at Connor Murphy. He was completely psychotic, convinced that he was completely mentally well doing better than ever. It happens.

There's a lot I could write, but definitely I would recommend Western medicine. I would not recommend psychedelic drugs for mental health issues. No way. It might help with self acceptance WITH having the condition though.

[mandyjw]

2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

That's not why it is expensive.

It's expensive because it requires lots of education and licensing to practice and working with people one on one is time consuming, inefficient, and stressful.

If therapy became more popular it would become even more expensive as law of supply and demand dictates.

Why is elementary and high school not expensive for families? Because society values education. Why do people benefit from therapy? Because we spend our lives hiding who we really are, because we thought we were something we actually aren't. We repress the love that we really are, thinking that we are bad, wrong, inept, thinking we have become great to prove our worth, or thinking such things about others, thinking we can't trust others, can't open up to others. We don't understand that we are unconditional love and anything that feels like less than that is a thought that can be let go of. Talk therapy is letting go of thoughts that never "fit" with the love that we really are. When someone holds space for you to be as you are, to speak what you really mean it can be immensely powerful. And we could learn honestly relate with each other and openly accept one another to the point where those special circumstances aren't needed. People often repress things, then shame themselves, which is the repression, and when they stop doing this magic happens. Walls fall. When you see that what is utterly unacceptable about yourself is perfectly accepted, all illusions or borders disappear. 

Instead of this utter liberation and freedom to love and nothing else, enlightenment is often talked about here like a special attainment. It feels like being back in 5th grade where we are building up walls based around out parents and peer's misunderstandings, trying to make them fit, repressing emotions and cutting ourselves off from our own love, creativity and authenticity. If you don't have cool enough shoes (5meo) or speak the way others speak and like what others like you are "out" or unworthy. 

Spiritual cliques are called cults. And if it's centered around one person, that is the definition of a cult. 

People seek awakening in the hopes that they will feel better in the having of it, when they find that is is Love/feeling all along and they were never separate from it, and there is no one even there to awaken to that there is no one there, the entire chase is a funny misunderstanding. A misunderstanding once seen to be a misunderstanding, is Understanding. That's all "you" get. Nothing. You get nothing. When one tries to manipulate enlightenment or "God realization" into being it feels awful. If one is repressing their authentic being as Love by habit since 5th grade and is seeing enlightenment through the lens of special attainment like the shoes, it's gonna be a miserable fucking ride. Why? Cause what they are seeking is the very feeling that is guiding them, that IS the feeling that they are running from. 

Enlightenment is not scary, dangerous, difficult, any of that. It's not only for a select few. It's not for the cool kids. When people believe that it IS that, they repress. 

It's simple. Express, don't repress. You can only let go of all the shit you are NOT to "realize" what you really are. 

It's as simple as what they taught us on Barney as kids. All the dumb cliches are right on. Love, be a fucking dork, be who you are and love yourself anyway. Don't try to secure a false self. It's a THOUGHT, A goddamn thought! Dance like no one is watching. We are here to have a wild, fucking BLAST. Beauty is uncaused. We are beautiful beyond words.

Psychotherapy is a good start on it all, doesn't matter how you do it though. Psychedelics often allow people to do the same. Same idea. Express, let go. 

[Nadosa]

12 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

Why is elementary and high school not expensive for families? Because society values education. Why do people benefit from therapy? Because we spend our lives hiding who we really are, because we thought we were something we actually aren't. We repress the love that we really are, thinking that we are bad, wrong, inept, thinking we have become great to prove our worth, or thinking such things about others, thinking we can't trust others, can't open up to others. We don't understand that we are unconditional love and anything that feels like less than that is a thought that can be let go of. Talk therapy is letting go of thoughts that never "fit" with the love that we really are. When someone holds space for you to be as you are, to speak what you really mean it can be immensely powerful. And we could learn honestly relate with each other and openly accept one another to the point where those special circumstances aren't needed. People often repress things, then shame themselves, which is the repression, and when they stop doing this magic happens. Walls fall. When you see that what is utterly unacceptable about yourself is perfectly accepted, all illusions or borders disappear. 

Instead of this utter liberation and freedom to love and nothing else, enlightenment is often talked about here like a special attainment. It feels like being back in 5th grade where we are building up walls based around out parents and peer's misunderstandings, trying to make them fit, repressing emotions and cutting ourselves off from our own love, creativity and authenticity. If you don't have cool enough shoes (5meo) or speak the way others speak and like what others like you are "out" or unworthy. 

Spiritual cliques are called cults. And if it's centered around one person, that is the definition of a cult. 

People seek awakening in the hopes that they will feel better in the having of it, when they find that is is Love/feeling all along and they were never separate from it, and there is no one even there to awaken to that there is no one there, the entire chase is a funny misunderstanding. A misunderstanding once seen to be a misunderstanding, is Understanding. That's all "you" get. Nothing. You get nothing. When one tries to manipulate enlightenment or "God realization" into being it feels awful. If one is repressing their authentic being as Love by habit since 5th grade and is seeing enlightenment through the lens of special attainment like the shoes, it's gonna be a miserable fucking ride. Why? Cause what they are seeking is the very feeling that is guiding them, that IS the feeling that they are running from. 

Enlightenment is not scary, dangerous, difficult, any of that. It's not only for a select few. It's not for the cool kids. When people believe that it IS that, they repress. 

It's simple. Express, don't repress. You can only let go of all the shit you are NOT to "realize" what you really are. 

It's as simple as what they taught us on Barney as kids. All the dumb cliches are right on. Love, be a fucking dork, be who you are and love yourself anyway. Don't try to secure a false self. It's a THOUGHT, A goddamn thought! Dance like no one is watching. We are here to have a wild, fucking BLAST. Beauty is uncaused. We are beautiful beyond words.

Psychotherapy is a good start on it all, doesn't matter how you do it though. Psychedelics often allow people to do the same. Same idea. Express, let go. 

Mic dropped.?

[Gesundheit2]

5 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

The fundamental dishonesty of many Actualized.org critics is that they simply don't like teachings yet they must engage in mental gymnastics and personal attacks to rationalize it in their minds, rather than just being honest and admitting the truth: They just don't like the teachings.

If you don't like my teachings, no problem. Just be honest about it. Don't make up stories. You don't need to call me a pedophile cult leader. Just say, "I don't like your teachings."

I like many of your "teachings". I just don't think you teach the truth, nor that you could to begin with.

[Gesundheit2]

1 hour ago, RMQualtrough said:

Mentally ill people need medical intervention, it is really that simple.

Talk therapy is just quacks from college with a Cornflakes box "degree". Psychiatry is practiced by doctors who have graduated from medical school, and are legally allowed to prescribe any medicines their client requires.

I have certainly lost my life to AvPD (as in the life I would have had without developing this condition). Western medicine allows me to do normal day to day tasks without having a panic attack, which means I can at least live and exist without panicking every time I pass someone on the street.

Psychedelics do not work for mental illness. I took part in these studies actually. What they do is send you questionnaires with sliding scale answers. Firstly if you take one of these tests 3 times in the very same day, most likely you will get a different result. But removing outliers, it also did not take into account the "afterglow" effect... When I was using psychedelics often, I stopped taking my anti-anxiety medicine (Zoloft). I answered the questionnaire as though I was miraculously cured etc.

Well then 6 months later or something like that, I was randomly becoming suicidal every other week or so. I went back on medication and became well again after ~2 to 4 weeks... It's like when schiz people stop taking meds, you don't always notice as you're slowly slipping back into illness.

This can happen, but doesn't always. Many mental illnesses/cases are terminal even with medical intervention. The medication can actually worsen the illness in many cases.

We don't really understand mental illnesses well yet, or even just the mind alone.

Edited March 6, 2022 by Gesundheit2

[Gesundheit2]

54 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

enlightenment is often talked about here like a special attainment.

Enlightenment is a special attainment.

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It feels like being back in 5th grade where we are building up walls based around out parents and peer's misunderstandings, trying to make them fit, repressing emotions and cutting ourselves off from our own love, creativity and authenticity. If you don't have cool enough shoes (5meo) or speak the way others speak and like what others like you are "out" or unworthy. 

There's no justification for any of this in spirituality. It's just ego. And it's exactly what prevents enlightenment. People need less of that, not more.

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Enlightenment is not scary, dangerous, difficult, any of that.

It is all of those things for many people.

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It's not only for a select few. It's not for the cool kids.

Unfortunately, it seems like it is.

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When people believe that it IS that, they repress.

There's not really a cause and an effect, especially with psychology.

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[Inliytened1]

19 minutes ago, Gesundheit2 said:

This can happen, but doesn't always. Many mental illnesses/cases are terminal even with medical intervention. The medication can actually worsen the illness in many cases.

We don't really understand mental illnesses well yet, or even just the mind alone.

Western medicine really is wonderful for treating mental disorders.  But I believe psychedelics could be even more powerful. 

[OBEler]

@RMQualtrough Interesting points, thanks!

Yeah psychedelics used by toxic minds (brain chemistry out of order) could be difficult. psychedelics used by minds with traumas but not much toxicity could be life changing.

Connor murphy is a good example. However he seems fine now and back to normal. Maybe he healed a trauma with these psychedelics. He seems happy at least

[Inliytened1]

11 minutes ago, OBEler said:

@RMQualtrough Interesting points, thanks!

Yeah psychedelics used by toxic minds (brain chemistry out of order) could be difficult. psychedelics used by minds with traumas but not much toxicity could be life changing.

Connor murphy is a good example. However he seems fine now and back to normal. Maybe he healed a trauma with these psychedelics. He seems happy at least

I also think if you are not ready maturity wise it can screw you up.  It's unearned wisdom 

[RMQualtrough]

@Inliytened1 What psychedelics are good for is to heighten acceptance. They do not lessen the mental illness, but may lessen the suffering resulting from failing to accept yourself. Understanding reality is merely unfolding by itself, I do not feel there is anything to fight or that anything could be different than it was always going to be... I still feel the symptoms, but less so the self judgement that would typically accompany it, where I chastise myself for being so weird etc.

@Loba I think attitudes to mental health are dangerous for reasons you mentioned... If you have heart disease, obviously you pop a pill for it daily. But with mental illness there's this delusion that you can "will it away" by thinking the perfect thought or whatever.

Something that I am realizing is that the more unity is understood, the more the materialist framework makes sense: e.g. matter IS NOT SEPARATE FROM MIND, meaning that you cannot alter one without altering the other. Because they are the same exact thing... I don't think we have control over mind any more than we have control over abilities to fly or levitate objects or bend objects like The Matrix. As material is essentially a perceived representation of the dream. The grey squiggly brain a GUI representing awareness "person-ing".

As such, a lot could be learned from observing the material world, when it is understood that matter IS mind. Not matter doing something then mind following, or vice versa. The material world could tell us a LOT about the workings of "God" and death etc. when this is completely understood and explored.

Altering the brain with medicine IS altering this experience of "person-ing". And all of us are merely riding a wave of unfolding reality anyway...

[Inliytened1]

11 minutes ago, RMQualtrough said:

@Inliytened1 What psychedelics are good for is to heighten acceptance. They do not lessen the mental illness, but may lessen the suffering resulting from failing to accept yourself. Understanding reality is merely unfolding by itself, I do not feel there is anything to fight or that anything could be different than it was always going to be... I still feel the symptoms, but less so the self judgement that would typically accompany it, where I chastise myself for being so weird etc.

 

Actually it is not the psychedelic but what the psychedelic can trigger  - awakening - that can actually alleviate the illness.  I know this because my awakening completely alleviated OCD.    Unfortunately, just like western medicine, it is not a permanent cure.  Because eventually the more you sink back into the dream and your ego, what came with your ego will return.   But it is more powerful than meds if indeed it awakens you.  (I've taken meds so I am speaking from experience) And can alleviate symptoms for years.

[Leo Gura]

3 hours ago, RMQualtrough said:

Talk therapy is just quacks from college with a Cornflakes box "degree". Psychiatry is practiced by doctors who have graduated from medical school, and are legally allowed to prescribe any medicines their client requires.

Talk therapy requires training and licensing.

If anything I would criticize psychiatrists more because mostly what they do is over-prescribe shitty medication which is just a form of bypassing.

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Western medicine allows me to do normal day to day tasks without having a panic attack, which means I can at least live and exist without panicking every time I pass someone on the street.

Some things medication can help with.

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Psychedelics do not work for mental illness.

A lot of medications also don't work for mental illness, they just mask / suppress the symptoms and come with bad side effects and even become addictive.

The bottom line is that mental illness is complicated and there's not going to be a magic pill cure for it in most cases.

2 hours ago, mandyjw said:

Why is elementary and high school not expensive for families? Because society values education.

Because teachers are poorly paid.

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Talk therapy is letting go of thoughts that never "fit" with the love that we really are. When someone holds space for you to be as you are, to speak what you really mean it can be immensely powerful.

Yes, of course. I agree that's good.

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Instead of this utter liberation and freedom to love and nothing else, enlightenment is often talked about here like a special attainment. It feels like being back in 5th grade where we are building up walls based around out parents and peer's misunderstandings, trying to make them fit, repressing emotions and cutting ourselves off from our own love, creativity and authenticity. If you don't have cool enough shoes (5meo) or speak the way others speak and like what others like you are "out" or unworthy. 

Well, awakening is a distinctive attainment.

But of course that should not be turned into some sort of trophy, and nor will it solve basic psychological problems people have.

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Spiritual cliques are called cults. And if it's centered around one person, that is the definition of a cult. 

That's actually not the definition of a cult. Go read the books on my book list about what really defines a cult. Or watch my video: Cult Psychology - Part 1 where I give an exhaustive definition.

A YT channel centered around one person's videos is not a cult.

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All the dumb cliches are right on. Love, be a fucking dork, be who you are and love yourself anyway. Don't try to secure a false self. It's a THOUGHT, A goddamn thought! Dance like no one is watching. We are here to have a wild, fucking BLAST. Beauty is uncaused. We are beautiful beyond words.

You can do all that and still not be anywhere near awake. Teaching people to "just love" can easily becomes a false spiritual act they take on. For love to work it has to be an outgrowth of higher consciousness. You cannot just act your way into love.

[RMQualtrough]

14 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

Talk therapy requires training and licensing.

If anything I would criticize psychiatrists more because mostly what they do is over-prescribe shitty medication which is just a form of bypassing.

Some things medication can help with.

A lot of medications also don't work for mental illness, they just mask / suppress the symptoms and come with bad side effects and even become addictive.

The bottom line is that mental illness is complicated and there's not going to be a magic pill cure for it in most cases.

Talking from the inside of it, the stigma against medication for mental health is insane and needs to stop. I went without medication for about 8 years since it began solely because medication is demonized, and I believed the propaganda against it. I suffered much more through those years than I would have if I had done what a doctor recommended which is medication.

I take my brain medicine every single day just as I would take heart medicine if I was diagnosed with a heart condition.

It is especially bad when it relates to the type of issues I have, as anxiety and depressive type disorders are seen as something you can "just get over". It's not treated seriously at all. Hyperventilating with fear every time I walk into an office, or when I was a student being unable to enter a classroom, seems to fly under the radar of receiving the type of care it ought to.

[Leo Gura]

@RMQualtrough This issue is too complex for there to a one-size-fits-all solution. For some people it can really help, and for other people it ruins their lives.

And Actualized.org teachings are no different. For some people it really helps and for other people it doesn't.

You have to decide what works for you. And if something is not working for you, stop consuming it.

[AdeptusPsychonautica]

23 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Someone like Adeptus simply doesn't like the teachings, therefore his mind will find whatever excuse to demonize the teachings. The fundamental dishonesty of many Actualized.org critics is that they simply don't like teachings yet they must engage in mental gymnastics and personal attacks to rationalize it in their minds, rather than just being honest and admitting the truth: They just don't like the teachings.

@Leo Gura 

Hi Leo, just out of curiosity which of your "teachings" is it you think I don't like?

I have been ultra-specific about the things you have said I take issue with, in all cases I have provided quotes straight from the horses mouth of you actually saying them, and none of them was related to any particular teaching. In reality what these criticisms were leveled at was your delusional utterances around abilities you gained from taking 5 MEO DMT, and those criticisms have held up AMAZINGLY well.

Since you bring up the topic of mental gymnastics then I would invite you to look in the mirror. Rather than labeling those you disagree with as trolls, and fantasizing backstories about how they hate the teachings, wouldn't it just be easier and more courageous to simply acknowledge that on occasion you have said some things you shouldn't? That maybe there actually has been some really toxic shitty behaviour on these forums, and that when people bring these issues up then maybe they have a point? Doesn't that sound like a more mature approach than just having a tantrum and calling people trolls?

Sure, I get that its easier to invent some grandiose narrative about someone who "HATES THE TEACHINGS!!!", but I think we both know that's complete bollocks don't we. Its really simple - you said some shit, you got called out on it, and you don't like that. No overarching story line of hate required. 

So yeah - mental gymnastics and personal attacks, that's you in a nutshell mate ?. 

I can, and have, backed up EVERY SINGLE criticism I make, whereas you just pull labels like "troll" and "hate" out of your arse because (when it comes to these criticisms) you do not have a logical or rational leg to stand on. I get that its an easier way of dealing with things, but its really fucking lazy, and certainly not what I would expect from such a well integrated, radically open minded, truth-seeker like you ?

Edited March 6, 2022 by AdeptusPsychonautica

[Husseinisdoingfine]

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[Husseinisdoingfine]

11 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

You have to decide what works for you. And if something is not working for you, stop consuming it.

I’ve had this dilemma personally. You keep hyping Actualized.org to be the best school, but I don’t think the videos are working for me. I want stopped watching the videos and have resorted to literature, but I feel as if I’m missing out.

[Leo Gura]

56 minutes ago, AdeptusPsychonautica said:

In reality what these criticisms were leveled at was your delusional utterances around abilities you gained from taking 5 MEO DMT, and those criticisms have held up AMAZINGLY well.

They seem delusional to you because you fundamentally don't understand how spirituality works. So you lack a larger context for some of the radical things I have said. That which your mind cannot fathom, that which is beyond your direct experience, you call "delusional" because that's the only way your mind knows how to make sense of reality.

You also are not taking into account the raw nature of my awakening reports. Things are reported as they occurred for me without polishing them up for critics and the spiritually clueless. There is a difference between a formal teaching vs a report of profound awakenings happening as I go through the process and describe the process as it feels and occurs for me while in the midst of it. It's the difference between talking about WW2 as a historian in a university vs being in the front lines of WW2 with bombs falling on your head. You have taken some of my most radical awakenings and experiments in consciousness -- which you have no intellectual understanding of -- and made a mockery of them.

I have watched your criticisms of my work, and it is based on some basic misunderstandings of how spirituality works.

Anyways, the sum total body of my work speaks for itself. I feel no need to justify or defend it.

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That maybe there actually has been some really toxic shitty behaviour on these forums

Not really. The behavior on this forum is not out of line for how online forums work, or for how the internet as a whole works.

We do a lot of moderation to stop toxic behavior here.

41 minutes ago, Husseinisdoingfine said:

I’ve had this dilemma personally. You keep hyping Actualized.org to be the best school, but I don’t think the videos are working for me. I want stopped watching the videos and have resorted to literature, but I feel as if I’m missing out.

You have to learn to make your own decisions in life. I am not the CEO of your life, you are. And until you start taking responsibility for being the CEO of your life you will continue to suffer not just at my hands but the hands of many other humans who you give your authority away to.

The thing is, you don't want to take this responsibility. You want someone like me to tell you what to do in life. So you can just paint by numbers. Well... that's not how a good life is created.

I would tell you to go walk off a cliff -- just so you stop following my words blindly -- but I'm afraid you might take me seriously.