Connor Murphy the fitness influencer, has passed away

[Leo Gura]

But if the original source is fake, all the commentries will be false too.

[AION]

He doesn’t need to depend on sources like the news.  He is a friend so he is an insider of Conner and I’m sure he cross referenced with acquaintances/mutual friends to see if it is true. 

[Hojo]

@pursuitofspirit Could you just go to sleep?

[Space]

A hoax or a genuine death - I will not be surprised either way. A tragic and sad way to go but Conor has been gone for a long time - we all know this.

[pursuitofspirit]

@Hojo No. Not at all. I didn't want to sleep. I refused to sleep. I wanted to keep going. That is what made it so much worse.

When I finally got help I was able to sleep, and that's when I started to improve and stabilize. 

[Yimpa]

My best friend who has bipolar disorder  told me that weed makes them violent ill. I thought they were over-exaggerating at first, but this Connor situation has definitely changed my perspective pretty fast.

[Hojo]

@pursuitofspirit But if it happened again couldnt you just go its happening again im just going to go to sleep.

[pursuitofspirit]

18 minutes ago, Hojo said:

@pursuitofspirit But if it happened again couldnt you just go its happening again im just going to go to sleep.

Ideally. But sleep wouldn't cure it anyways. Lack of sleep just makes the underlying issue worse and more extreme. When you are in that state you need contained, monitored, and fed antipsychotics until you're stable. If it happened again I like to think I would be able to manage it better and get help sooner because I lived through the absolute hell the first episode was, but you never know. 

The thing is that when you're in that psychotic state everything is flipped upside down. Sleep is bad. Help is bad. Work is bad. Medication is bad. Careless behavior is good. Not eating is good. Confrontation is good. Randomly deciding to drive across the country with no money is good. It's a terrifying predicament to be in because you refuse to accept how far gone you are, and nobody can convince you otherwise.

Edited 1 hour ago by pursuitofspirit