What Do You Regret You Didn`t Do In Your Youth?

[SimpleGuy]

4 hours ago, Inliytened1 said:

It should be what you regret doing instead.

Actually that would be useful thread, in case you want to see it)

[Shermaningeorgia]

Certain groups denied me normalcy so I fight back now.

[How to be wise]

11 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

The reason I beat down his door was to develop my backbone.

You mean to develop your ego. Let’s be honest, you were fully inside the dream of Maya when you were banging that door. 

Imagine you instead took a deep breath and became conscious of the illusory nature of the dentist. What would you have done then?

[Leo Gura]

1 hour ago, How to be wise said:

Imagine you instead took a deep breath and became conscious of the illusory nature of the dentist. What would you have done then?

Imagine that's not what I wanted.

[Recursoinominado]

I regret not using my law degree to make some money and have some ROI for all the years i dedicated to getting my degree.

I regret acquiring debt, fucking up my credit, not learning about finances, and organizing finances.

I regret not going all the way in many many oportunities, specially business opportunities that i backed down for a reason or another. 

[How to be wise]

9 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Imagine that's not what I wanted.

I can hardly believe that you wouldn’t want that, Mr. Truth.

[Leo Gura]

17 minutes ago, How to be wise said:

I can hardly believe that you wouldn’t want that, Mr. Truth.

Truth is more complex than your notion of it as peace, love, and rainbows.

Truth is also a fist through your door.

Edited yesterday at 07:31 AM by Leo Gura

[Hojo]

 

[How to be wise]

2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

Truth is more complex than your notion of it as peace, love, and rainbows.

Truth is also a fist through your door.

The truth is that your dentist was a figment of your imagination. If you were conscious of that, what would you have done? That is the question.

[Leo Gura]

14 minutes ago, How to be wise said:

The truth is that your dentist was a figment of your imagination.

By that logic I am a figment of your imagination, so what are you concerned about? Why are you letting my imaginary dentist disturb your mind?

[Natasha Tori Maru]

17 minutes ago, How to be wise said:

The truth is that your dentist was a figment of your imagination. If you were conscious of that, what would you have done? That is the question.

Realizing/seeing through the illusion doesn't make it any less real. The moon shining light is an illusion - it's not radiating light from itself as source like it appears to be. But it still seems as such and we do well to work with it in that manner.

Imagine being in outback Australia under the bright, illuminating moonlight from a full moon, exclaiming 'I cannot see!!'. Refusing to walk in the bushland because you won't see the ground because the 'moonlight is an illusion.' 

This is what you sound like. 

Not that Leo needs defending - but like, why are you following him around trying to poke holes in what you think are issues with his conduct? It reads like you are personally offended at whatever level of integration you deem them to be at. It belies your own incomplete understanding - which is why your questions appear so redundant.

You have the weirdest patterns of posting toward him. Just my perceptions. Feel free to disregard

Edited yesterday at 09:49 AM by Natasha Tori Maru
Leo beat me to it, mind reading scum

[eliasvelez]

26 minutes ago, How to be wise said:

The truth is that your dentist was a figment of your imagination. If you were conscious of that, what would you have done? That is the question.

You are talking about absolute truth. Leo seems to be talking ablout relative truth. If you orient everything in life about absolut truth, why are you even breathing when breath is just an imagination? Why bother ablout argumenting?

Edited yesterday at 09:58 AM by eliasvelez

[ZenSwift]

It's hard for me to say I regret certain things, because I simply wasn't conscious of it, at the time. How could I blame myself? I needed to suffer to finally get the insight. I was given all the ignorance, patterns, coping mechanisms and trauma that I've been given. This is my plate of vegetables to eat. The only thing I can control is how I act in the present. 

 

Here are a list of things I WOULD mentor my younger self on if I could travel back in time and become a father for myself that I  never had... and a role model for myself that I needed. 

Letter to myself: 

I wish you had the awareness to eat healthier. 

I wish you had the concept of boundaries to be able to say no to people treating you disrespectfully. I wish you felt like you could set boundaries with every bully you encountered. 

I wish you worked out every day and developed a healthy relationship with exercise far earlier. Working out every day to get the body moving and do heavy strength training a couple times a week. 

I wish you had the mission within yourself to see the value of developing your socialization confidence to the point of being able to speak to absolutely anyone. I wish you made socializing with new people a manditory habit. 

I wish you didn't play so many videogames, watch so much porn, and watch so much TV. I wish you picked up a reading and writing habit day 1. I wish you stayed reading self help, philosophy, metaphysics and epistemology day 1.

I wish you let go of the need for your mother, father or friends to be a certain a way of to understand you. I wish you let go of the need to be understood by anyone, day 1. I wish you spoke your truth when it felt right to do so. 

I wish you went to bed on time for years. I wish you solved your anxiety around going to bed. I wish you got EMDR on yourself sooner. I wish you had life coaches and therapists with with you on a weekly basis. 

I wish you had the confidence to tell women you liked how you really felt. I wish you were honest about being attracted to the women you were attracted to. Rather than letting them fall away completely because you were too shy. 

I wish you had the courage to speak up when you were being wronged, even if it was emotionally unsafe, even if it threatened your job. On the principle of self respect. 

I wish you had a industrial reading habit. 

 

[integral]

I wouldnt of smoked weed at 21 causing 12 years of psychosis and schizophrenia.

But because of the popularity of weed, smoking it at least once was inevitable, so there were no scenarios where I could've avoided this outcome. Only a Time Machine can stop me from smoking it. 

Edited 18 hours ago by integral

[Eskilon]

6 minutes ago, integral said:

But because of the popularity of weed, smoking it at least once was inevitable, so there were no scenarios where I could've avoided this outcome.

Bs, there are tons of people who never smoked weed in the world and never will.

[integral]

4 minutes ago, Eskilon said:

Bs, there are tons of people who never smoked weed in the world and never will.

I'm too open-minded for that outcome to have played out.

Everyone in my familiy, friends and city are super pro weed.

Edited 18 hours ago by integral

[Joseph Maynor]

8 minutes ago, integral said:

I wouldnt of smoked weed at 21 causing 12 years of psychosis and schizophrenia.

But because of the popularity of weed, smoking it at least once was inevitable, so there were no scenarios where I could've avoided this outcome. Only a Time Machine can stop me from smoking it. 

I'm interested in the details here.  How do you know it comes from this?

[integral]

26 minutes ago, Joseph Maynor said:

I'm interested in the details here.  How do you know it comes from this?

I had psychosis events as a child for many years, I was prone to it from the beginning "genetically". These were true psychosis events where you are in an insane state with a lack of higher self-awareness and every thought or idea becomes truth.

"A need to jump these flight of stairs to keep the stairs from running away" -> I had the thought, therefore it was truth (psychosis).

I would enter into these states for about 2 hours every couple of months between the ages of 6-14. And they would always happen in the middle of the night during sleep from waking up.

--- Future: The weed ---

I smoked it once, everything went as we would expect, the "ordinary". The next day I felt off, then that night when I went to sleep. I didn't. Right at the point when you lose consciousness and you shift into "sleep", right at that moment I would begin hallucinating intensely with voices in my head. Then I would remain in that trance or limbo state between awake and asleep until I snap out of it, and regained self-awareness.

This happened over and over again that night and I got zero sleep. Then it happened the next night. And then the next night. And it didn't stop for 9 years.

By the 11th day, I began having severe headaches, by the first month, my entire body was in full pain. Every nerve is in pain. By six months, I'm in excruciating pain. And this just got worse for years and years relentlessly until I experienced the pinnacle of human pain and suffering. I call it stage five sleep deprivation (the death stage). In this stage, a single thought causes your entire body excruciating pain and you're under so much physiological stress that you're going to die if you don't transition back to stage 4 or stage 3. 

During those 9 to 10 years of excruciating pain, I became a self-taught soft engineer and worked at a company until I crashed, while constantly experimenting to find solutions. Eventually I narrowed down accidentally to what was causing my hallucinations and it happened to be that I was hyper sensitive to airborne chemicals and air.

I was basically hallucinating because of the air.

And once I broth my air quality up the hallucination/voices stopped and i began sleeping again. I was able to transition from waking to a sleeping state and the hallucinations/voices limbo state stopped happening.

The realization that air quality and airborne toxins were causing my body not to transition into sleep took years of experimentation, observation and self-taught relentless pursuit to solve the problem. 

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I hope that explains how I know it was the weed. lol

[Thought Art]

Weed is a fad