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@Leo Gura Please make a video on Alien awakening as you're the only person with its experience

@Leo Gura Does "alien" spirituality feels like a more synthetic or sci-fi in comparison to the organic ordinary nonduality?

Why have you decided to call it "Alien Awakening"? Will the rare psychonaut who manages to reach this profound level of awakening resonate with this term? @Leo Gura

It's not so much levels as degrees and kinds. There are not only many degrees of consciousness but an endless variety of qualitatively different kinds of awakening. For example, Alien Awakening is not merely a higher degree, it is also a qualitatively different kind. How many kinds are there? I don't know. My guess would be it's endless.

It just can't be possible. That we are the only ones in an infinite soup. I'm not talking from the Absolute, but in this human game. Will we ever encounter alien life, or will we forever be the little blue planet that went crazy. Just imagine what we would have learned by encountering it...

Well, that's not entirely true - there could be all awakened people. Wouldn't such a society be glorious? it would be far different from what we have now. Just nothing but mystics. Now that is like something out of a science fiction book, like an advanced, awakened, alien race.

I have seen an angel but never an alien. What do they look like?

Ok, I try. But be aware this is extremely difficult to do it in a monological form via text, and hardly complete. Good news is: At that stage the path shows itself to itself if one just continues with the right meditation/awareness techniques. The illusion-mechanisms pop up one by one. If applying a good understanding of what will show up, the process can be fastened. It is like adding a blow-torch to the burning down of the illusion-building. So, here we go: Any thought implying I/me. "I-feeling" any understanding you have ("I" understand) any doubt ("I" doubt) all of it very subtle and fast forms of feeling separate. Or thinking that. Very fast & very subtle. Way faster than a thought elaborated over several second. Tenths/fractions of a second... Speed of awareness is crucial, that is being trained here And strength of awareness, to be able to also cut off core separate-self identities and suffering/resistance. Reckognizing that, not getting hypnotized by that, cutting it off by looking into its nature (empty consciousness). and since its very hard to tell the difference if a thought-arising is laced with individuality/separation/identity: Cutting off all of them, just for training. Yet, one can at other times also maintain ones awareness during practical daily life/thoughts. And memory of the past: It is being imagined right now, appears as complete "chunk" out of Infinite Consciousness/Being, and then gets elaborated in thought (which is very slow compared to how it emerges "fully" formed. That is truly a mindf*** when your awareness gets fast enough to spot for the first time how the complete past emerges immediately as "whole block" and then is slowly elaborated, fooling one to believe one is that "I" having this memory and thoughts. You see then how each any anything is just emerging to fool oneself. That is an aspect that Leo emphasizes with his concept of God-Realization. The past is radically imagined right now, there is no past. There is only an Infinite Formless eternal "Field" modulating itself to give the appearance of a past. Same for the "future". You don't have a past, You are an Infinite Vastness that is able to make up the past on the fly, and then have thoughts/feelings-arisings that "believe" that. Yet, that Infinite Vastness/Being CAN UNDERSTAND, and so it can understand that the past is imagined on the fly here and now. That is a major understanding/building block of Enlightenment, or seeing that separation from it all (separate self) is just an imagined arising within oneself. One is not a human, but the Infinite Vastness/Being (which is luckily also always here, aka immortal/eternal, can't go anywhere infinite Nothingness with nothing outside of it) imagining a human and all its elements moving/appearing within itself. So it is Duality gone (visual field nondual) -> Nondual boundless infinite (boundary of the field is gone) -> Infinite solidity of "external" visual field is gone, replacing solidity with mere groundless lucid appearance -> imagined illusion/lucidity/non-material, mere imagined empty hologram like appearance. time is gone (as described above, past imagined right now) -> always here, never not here Infinite Mind/Being. Eternal, immortal, absolutely fundamental, all is appearing and arising in it, always. space is gone (imagined IN the infinte vastness of True Being) -> space doesnt exist outside, space is imagined in oneself, the vastness of Infinity (which is not 3d space), and there is no 3D-space (or any space at all, non-euclidian, 4D, whatever) possibly existing outside of your Infinite Being. No outside. Infinite. All there is. Space is not self-existing outside of ones own nondual infinite being. It is imagined by it. What is behind your face? "beyond" the visual field. Not (3d-)space, but the Infinite (Being). -> spaceless, dimensionless, infinite. Containing all possible dimensions and realms, high and low. all of that is imagined/constructed/manifested right here right now in ones nondual True eternal Being, Infinite Consciousness/Being. -> A mirage/illusion appearing in ones Infinite Being, giving rise to the illusion of a human life within it. Another way to say that is: In Pointing out the Great Way, Brown is one statement: If everything (1) all appearance of the world/visual field is seen as mere appearance (empty) hovering lucid and hologram like in Infinite Vastness (that can still be stage 3&4 Thisdell with separate-self well and alive, and that is why that is accesible via psychedelics) AND (2) each and any thought/feeling arising/"internal" mindstream event (including everything one believed oneself to be, I-feeling, I-thoughts, the whole history, the whole asking what is Reality/True Being, ALL of it) is seen as empty arising in Infinite Being/Nothingness/Consciousness. which means that ones mindstream is then conforming to the enlighened mindstream, or close to how Infinite Reality really is. Then Enlightenment can happen. But it can't be forced, since that would be thoughts with a thinker identified with them, with I-feelings, wanting something. Infinite Being/Consciousness has to understand itself, with no artifical activity/separate self trying to force it. At that point, the properties of the mindstream above can be automized, and this automatic meditation/mindfulness can be protected ("mindfulness without [artificial activity]"), element (1) of Nonmeditation Yoga, see Pointing out the Great Way, Brown). One doesnt't focus on anything (which Daniel Brown calls particularizing). This picking out something specific with attention (particularizing, the fastest process of the mind, way faster than thinking) is what creates Duality, or better disrupts the original nonduality. Instead, one watches how particularization happens, and transcends that in a way that the boundless nondual unity with/of the visual field is not interrupted. Element (2) of Nonmeditation Yoga, "do not take to mind". and then maintains and waits in that state. Meditation and Mindfulness in these awakened nondual states does itself. Enlightenment can't be forced, because who would do the forcing? Instead, the Infinite Vastness/Being can understand/realize itself (or its True Nature) when conditions are exactly right. That is then Enlightenment. Bye bye illusion-human, hello Infinite Being/Reality "having" a human,. Making the mindstream conform to the enlightened mindstream so that Enlightenment can happen is very important, because that part can be done by intelligent and informed practice. And that is why an efficient system is way faster, more efficient for most than and way more pleasent than a brute force approach like sitting an staring at the wall (brute force method), concentration or Koan-style. more likely to work than betting on just by having the right Karma and enough of the mere-appearance-infinite-character of the visual field and thought/feeling space in place already (Ramana, Anamanda Ma), and then some contemplation based on the already very much conforming mindstream Only those who needed to walked the steps can tell about the steps. Those are on top can mainly tell about how the properties of the roof are/what Truth is, but its more difficult to talk about steps that didn't have to be taken/climbed because they were already in place. The low success rate of the Enlightenment-endeavours in my perspective is due to mostly using brute-force-methods (which need lots and lots of willpower and pushing through negative emotions on the pillow) with no clear map of the steps of the path and the lots of cul-de-sacs of the path, or prodigy-approaches of telling about nature of True Being, but not offering a method path for average-gifted persons (Ramana for example). So, conforming to the enlightened mindstream mainly is: (1) Visual Field nondual, mere appearance, "hovering" in Infinite Vasteness/Infinity, being manifested/imagined right now (2) every thought arising/feeling arising is seen as emerging out of True Being/consciousness, made out of it, moving in it. Especially all thoughts/feelings relating to I/me. Feels impersonal, no separate indiduality found in any of that. And based on that the separate self (what one thought oneself to be) can be realized as mere flow of colours/appearances/feelings/thoughts (which have a very coherent and well made structure/Gestalt, and therefor are extremly hypnotizing and seem believeable) appearing in Oneself (Infinite Being), including the whole past, and that one IS the always here Infinite Eternal Field of Being/Consciousness. And the former separate-self is like the tree-picture in this wikipedia-article (below): A representation for something that appears (the tree), but has no independend existence apart from True Being (which is the nondual infinite eternal vastness of Being right here and now, with the body and mindstream having no different priority or separation from all that is). A well made illusion. The picture of the tree concept doesn't point to a real tree outside of consciousness (an object), but to shapes/colours of an imagined trees within Infinite Consciousness, not to real trees that exist outside of Infinite Being, self-existing/indepdently existing outside of consciousness. There are no trees, just the concept of them, and some imagined colours/forms/sensations giving the Gestalt of an appearance of atree. Same way, there is no human/separate-self beyond the appearance-Gestalt, and the concept pointing to such an imagined self-existing entity. There is only Infinite Being, not the human (which only appears in Infinite Being). https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Concept There always ever was, is and can be the Totality of (true) Being, self-aware, perceptions perceiving themselves. Either with reflective-self-consciousness arising (like normal human mind stream), or just mere awareness of the Totality without the self-consciousness part, perceptions perceiving themselves. Aware, but not separate. The non reflective-pure awareness of this vast field/being is more fundamental than the temporary appearing self-consciousness (with I-feelings I-thoughts). The Awareness is the Sun, the reflective (self-) consciousness (I-feeling, I-thoughts) is the reflected light of the Sun on the planets. Basically, its replacing ones old mistaken identity (imagined false illusion separate-self) with the correct identity, Infinite timeless/eternal (always here) Being. The flow of the human mindstream with its practical thoughts and so on happen within Ones True Being. One has a human, but is not only the human. Thoughts or feelings of separation are known to be illusion. When that shift happen, this realization is always available by just reaching out, or immediately always present. The visual field IS mere appearance and lucid/hologram/groundless, it IS infinite, eternal always here. Thoughts and feelings ARE just floating in it, made out of it, and "it" is onself, nondual. And that can be felt all the time or by just checking/moving attention there. It can never really be unseen. Reality/True Being understands itself. It is beyond doubt, unshakable, deathless/immortal always here. And that is the kicker: One/True Being is literally immortal and infinite. Not the ego, but True Being with its nature of Awareness. One can never die, and nothing outside one self can truly threaten one, because there is no outside of oneself. Seriousness and danger is replaced with laughter and security. Resting in True Being generates bliss, even when approaching it in Thisdells stage 4. Its a self-reinforcing positive feedback loop: Cutting off thoughts, field nondual, bliss flows. Literally. And that reinforces the stability of Nondual mere appearance visual field even more. Awakening enchances awakening. Suffering/resistance to what is no longer grips in any form since a long time. If it moves within ones being, is seen and let go. Would the inherent bliss of True Being ever be exchanged with grasping for being an ET seeing more of manifested reality, but suffers because its not enlightened? (more on that later). That is a "hard" shift, it is not just thinking differently. It is for sure not "I am God and imagine all reality", which is just cosplay. It is Reality understanding itself, Infinite Being waking up to itself. What can do the understanding of that? Reality/Being/Infinite Consciousness. Waking up to its True Nature. That last shift is knowing what one really is, and that understanding/realization runs over a short period of time. Waking up. Happens only once. And is final. Is beyond doubt (since these would only be more thoughts/arisings moving within Reality and subsiding into it). The shifts/Awakenings leading towards it go over a longer time, many years. And then of course there are infinite forms of manifestation, ET n+1, with vastly more understanding of the relative manifestations, basking in their understanding of the imagination process, different dimensions, higher realms, non-euclidian space, completely other alien manifestation realms. Humans look like ants compared to that for sure. These beings have been reported since millenia, in all cultures, all times. Reality-creating and maintaining Gods (Brahman, Shiva, Vishnu and endless other names for them). But it is the same True YOU, the only Being or Awareness in existence. The same being. There is nothing outside of it. No other (being, God, alien). And one can have an unenlightened ET, not having realized what Reality really is. Beings of higher realms are not necessarily enlightened. That tale is as old as the spiritual traditions. Although many of these beings of higher planes are enlightened. An unenlightened ET (which by definition has separate-self-elements not transcended/seen through in real time, which are by definition nothing other than the elements resisting the now, or suffering in other words) is a rather sad and suffering figure compared to a being who has realized its True Infinite Being. Calling the lower higher, and the higher lower. Whose modus operandi is that again? But lets not end too serious: It is all an illusion-game, "nobody" really gets lost forever, and Maya smiles lovingly on all not-really-(self)-existing-but-just-appearing children of Reality, humans and ETs alike. Although it can appear & feel very real & serious. Selling Water by the River

Just out of curiosity! Can one access Alien intelligence a with with serious contemplation on Truth and what is consciousness? With 100s of psychedelic trips?

@Leo Gura warning us not to fall into spiritual bypassing while he keeps shoving his highest Alien Consciousness awakenings and insights down our throats 💀💀

That's what Alien Consciousness looks like in the mind's eye.

Why would you assume so? Just think of how weird the life on earth is. For us it seems like 'yeah whatever, that's life' (no pun intended), but imagine an alien arriving not knowing anything about the life on our planet - wtf would it think?? If thinking even exists outside of earth. I'm curious about what other type of structured biology God/I have created while my avatar wasn't consciously aware...

I also like to frame this with basketball. You have streetball, high school, college, WNBA, NBA, etc. It depends on the context… you can be extremely talented in your domain, but not fit in at all or compete in another. For example, you can be the best high school basketball player in the country, but get your butt kicked in the NBA. Stop trying to emulate Michael Jordan when you should really be focusing on being the best middle school basketball player!! Also, imagine an alien who can whoop Michael Jordan’s butt any day of the week.

Lord almighty not Alien stuff again. Also this thread is so full of falsehood it's just painful.

Think he’s referring to Alien Love.

Split myself into a conscious and unconscious, so that I could surprise myself and appreciate reality from different angles of self-discovery towards potentially infinite growth and exploration. The unconscious part would shape my experiences without me knowing, creating highs and lows and guide my overall experience. I would split my psyche and become others, yet another layer inaccessible to even my subconscious, on a physical level, they would be simulated by the same overarching godhead that I am and that is absolute consciousness of which every persona is a self-perpetuating experience, so they'd be as real as I am. There would be both a personal and overarching reality and a consensus space that would allow for vivid and real interpersonal experiences in a physical reality while each person after their death would remember the entirety of their experience and have the power to create new reality bubbles completely of themselves or interact with others if a connection was welcome. The immaterial reality before the absolute God would be equally infinite in potential, though each piece of consciousness on its own could determine how far they wanted to subdivide, expand, interact or merge their experience, even into the absolute. There would be an infinite amount of checks and balances involved that would create a greater harmony, yet give each consciousness its own autonomy. It would be a vivid universe of autonomous beings shaping their experience with infinite potential of overlap, creating finite avatars and overarching realities that would emerge their own spirit, turning it into an infinitely vast interconnected universe allowing for each desire and each possibility to evolve, every link to be established and infinite knowledge to be accessed or reduced to shape any kind of experience imaginable to the extent that one desires it. Maybe that's what I created, maybe that's what I will create, maybe I made it so we're all part of it now, maybe I did it beforehand, maybe in hindsight, maybe on the go, but I desire others to exist, and I desire the ability to share and become anything and I desire to exist and to change and for all my past versions and for all the other people and all potential future selves to exist on their own right, for infinite communication and every possibility to occur and fill the universe with life. And I am conscious, so I am God, but if could chose what God to be, that's the god I would be, which is human and alien and sovereign and equally a part of an infinite amount of other gods. I'd do it out of love for that which I am, as much as that which I am not and the unity of both.

Ever have a dream where you were somebody else? How did you act in that dream? What was your thinking like? Then you awakened and realized it was all a dream...but notice....you were still YOU even when you dreamed you were somebody else. Maybe you were a girl, maybe you were a cat, maybe you were an alien, maybe you were a soldier on a battlefield, whatever you were....you were YOU. This is something you should contemplate about. When I entered the void there was no body, no physical world, there was just nothing, but....I was still ME. That's when I realized what was being said when it said it was all MIND. No matter what I incarnate as, I will ALWAYS be ME. My mind thinks and constructs a particular way regardless of what I am. I had a dream today where I was some African Soldier in a futuristic world and was arguing with another African futuristic soldier about infiltrating high level security and different heroes in our respective Armies and their ability to infiltrate. I argued with him in the same way I would as if I were my current human self even though I lost ALL memory of me ever being my human self. I awoke from the dream telling him that he was wrong. When I awoke I felt the anger of the guy I was talking too and the anger of me and I laughed at the fact I was playing both roles and was fooling myself. Realize....your whole life....is just like this dream. This is what is meant by karma. You retain your habitual thinking and emoting patterns regardless of what form you take. THIS is how you are immortal. Sure your form is temporary, but your MIND is eternal. This is the gift of GOD.

I have had glimpses of Alien Consciousness without 5 MeO. Food for thought.

Compare the difference between human intelligence and the intelligence of a rat. Now you can merely only begin to glimpse the difference between human consciousness and infinite consciousness. It would appear alien to us. And to infinite consciousness we humans would appear less than what an ant's consciousness is to us.

I don't get what Leo talks about with his alien consciousness. 😵‍💫 I'm not putting things in my ass to get this realization. Don't tell me to do 5 MeO. I only have LSD in my house.

I'll have to send you a pic of my Italian bambina to let you know what Alien Cuteness looks like. Yup, she is so damn cute that she's basically not human anymore! ❤️

Intro This is my second trip on N,N DMT fumarate taken orally 150mg with MAOI. TLDR:- scroll down to bottom for the juicy bits (last 2 sections). I reduced the dose this time as I was in way too deep last time. Even though I reduced the dose I felt like I got a deeper trip (probably because was not as powerful). I had this naive mindset of there will be an ‘AHA!’ moment where I suddenly realize oneness (as per my first trip). This came on much slower and gradual, but not in the form of ‘AHA!’ I can’t pinpoint exactly when I got to ‘oneness’, it was a gradual process which occurred naturally as the psychedelics took hold. Note to self to not let any of my friends or relatives take DMT unless they have watched Leo’s videos and done some work. I think it can be quite dangerous (I had quite a few suicidal thoughts on this, which I am still a bit shaken up by - scroll down to collapse of reality below). For this trip I wanted to contemplate on: Is reality infinite? (see collapsing duality section at end) Is reality really imaginary? (see ‘collapse of reality and imagination’ section) I didn’t quite know how to approach this. I read in Conversations From God you assume the state you want to take. So I was thinking, do I need to pretend I already know and then that will influence the trip? In the end somehow I think setting the intention was enough. If anyone has any tips on this be much appreciated. Trip Report 30 mins Visuals start. I actually saw similar visuals to my first trip. Purple fractal patterns overlaid on stuff and crystalline reflective surfaces shimmering through everything. It is only light visuals at this point. Love starts building. Love literally starts coming in on waves, like pulses from within my body. I get tingling sensations in my arms. 60 mins Visuals are light, still feeling good, feeling love, feeling good. I still have good motor control and can go to the toilet and walk about etc. Insight: The voice in your head is like a sports commentator commenting on the match. They don’t actually affect the play but like to pretend they do. The voice in your head is literally just commentary. It claims it does things, but really those things have already been decided prior to it saying so (so it doesn’t actually do anything). After something happens, it tells you how to feel (based on your beliefs). So don’t pay it too much attention, it kind of just entertains itself. The entire play is in God’s hands, but the voice in your head likes to take ownership of stuff and say ‘I did that!’, ‘that was me!’. That voice doesn’t actually have any ‘power’ of its own, it's just commentary on stuff that has already happened or emotions you’ve already felt. This is how it establishes itself. The only ‘power’ or authority it has is the one you give it (using imagination). My breathing feels very powerful and wholesome. With every breath it feels like I’m drawing in life energy and it feels wonderful. I close my eyes to focus on how good it feels just to breathe! I have this imagery that every exhale I am creating artwork. Like a blue saber-tooth tiger painting, or a giraffe, I feel like I am breathing life itself. Insight: I notice logic doesn't ‘feel’ right here. I was asking myself, how can I feel this love, when in my sober state? What thought or takeaway can I use to induce myself to feel this love in my sober state? I would like to live from here. But that's when I realized - love is prior to thinking. Notice you cannot feel love by thinking yourself into it. You cannot love cancer by thinking ‘yes love this cancer yessss send it love’. Rather love just is, it is prior to thought. So focus on being love, not thinking/manipulating yourself into it. Only the mind operates in logic on ‘why’ something is beautiful, or ‘how’ to do something. Love and beauty just is (so just be that). 90 mins I am having visuals but they are not intense or warpy. I am sat upright, looking out my window, playing music, hands behind my head just enjoying it. It’s not like the whole room is bending (like my first trip) but rather I focus on a few objects and they dance around a bit. I start to have thoughts like: ‘I am eternal I am everyone All is well All is beautiful All is good I am God, sat here basking in his own glory Gods exploration of itself is just never ending beauty and majesty Whatever you can imagine it’s all here Ask and it will be shown Nothing is off the table here You are the one making this And you can change it into whatever you want Your fear response, surrender it. If you are to be afraid then be afraid, but remember nothing can really hurt you’ I liked that, just being God, sat there and chilling the fuck out. Admiring the richness and beauty of random objects in my room. Then I feel an urge to close my eyes and let go. Go deeper and deeper. I get visuals as I close my eyes. These visuals are not happening randomly. Actually I seem able to influence them with my mind. I become aware of creating the visuals (to some degree) Insight: When I shut my eyes and saw all the visuals. I realized that actually you don’t need ‘vision’ to ‘see’. It’s all imagination. 120 mins (peak) In my last trip, all I mostly just remember was the awakening experience, but I forgot the part which followed afterwards, which was an intense mindfuck. I thought the above passage was the peak and I would start coming down…. boy was I wrong…. Ok… so this is where the REAL trip begins. From here until the winddown I am not able to write. The visuals become intense so I lie down. Here I am re-calling what I remember during this phase Insight: On the topic of infinity. There are no limits. Only the limits I create and I imagine. I define my own limits. You want to go ‘up’? Sure, we can go up, and keep going up as much as we like - there is no ceiling (unless you want there to be). The Universe is making this up as we are going along. I am having an orgasm with myself. This is a pretty crazy, multi-sensory experience. It’s like the feeling of my breath in my lungs, the soft pillow/blankets around me, the feel of bedsheets under my body, combined with multi-dimensional DMT visuals, being teleported out of this world and ‘I AM’ all mixed together. No words or descriptions can quite describe it. It felt good though. Even as I am writing this, I know I will forget what this part of the experience was like (until I experience it again and will be like oh boy here we go again…). For future reference though for me this is where the ‘real’ trip happens. This experience is pretty alien, it was like becoming a multi-dimensional being, although these words are pretty meaningless compared to what it was actually like. Maybe just remember in future this is an important and significant part of the trip (so don’t go off topping off on more DMT until you reach this point, this is the intense bit!). I was trying my best to ‘control’ the trip by calming myself and focusing on something. But then I realized: Insight: Doing and not doing are the same thing I can try or I can not try, there is no difference Who is there to try anything against, but myself? Who is there to do the doing, but myself? Inside and outside are the same. Inside becomes outside and vice versa. I am inside and outside all at once. Collapse of reality and imagination I became very aware of the temperature of my breath. The feeling was like having a blanket put over my face and was suffocating me. I was like shit, ok let me check reality real quick to make sure I am safe. This is where it gets a bit disturbing though. If I focus, there is an instant where I flash back to my bedroom and I am laying down, perfectly safe, no blanket over my face or anything. But then it hit me - How do I know this is actually reality? At that moment I realized I did not know what reality was. Reality and imagination are the same thing. This is a very serious situation, I open my eyes and focus. I see I am in my room. I close my eyes and I am in hyperspace. So where actually am I? What is reality? Which one is real? I don’t know, one is not more valid than the other. At this moment there was no difference. It was a bit scary because there was no single ‘reality’ I could check to see if I was actually being suffocated or not. Like I can see myself in my bed in my room, but is that reality or imagination? The vision of me being in a bedroom had no more authority than the ‘other reality’ of being in hyperspace. I kept trying to remind myself I am safe in this bed. Yet at the same time, I was aware I am not really in this bed. There is no real ‘safety’ net because I am creating my own safety with my thoughts! I can’t say ‘Don’t worry bro, you’re safe in bed just wait it out’, that's only true because I imagine it to be so! There is no ‘outside’ safe physical reality supporting me as a fall back on this trip. This trip and physical reality are one and the same. This trip IS reality. Insight: There is no difference between reality and imagination, they are the same. Living and dying are also the same (I don’t fully understand this last one but I have it written down, I think it was because I realized if there is no ‘reality’ then there is no such thing as ‘dying in reality’). It is pretty funny (although it did not feel funny at the time) because here I am having a full body multisensory orgasm, whilst at the same time trying to stay alive, whilst at the same time trying to figure out what reality is. I was aware I could choose to bite off my tongue at any moment. I was aware I could choose to clench my jaw and just break all my teeth. I was aware just choose to hold my breath and end it all right here. I was aware I could choose to imagine my death and it would be so. There was no safe physical reality ‘supporting’ this experience, because everything is imagination. Reality is groundless. If I see myself jumping off a building, I can’t tell if that is just me imagining things, or if I am really jumping off a building. Those two things are exactly the same. Trip Sitter? Disclaimer: I am not advocating against trip sitters, just trying to convey perspective from the trip. Same with logic at bottom. I was thinking hmm maybe I should've had a trip sitter? But then I realized the folly in this. A trip sitter could not stop me from killing myself (I am not talking from the physical perspective here). Because who is the trip sitter but me? How can me (trip sitter), stop me (Universe), from killing myself if I choose to do so? The trip sitter is part of this fucking crazy multi-dimensional experience I am having. To fall back on having a trip sitter protect you is to say there is a physical external reality where this experience is taking place. But for me physical reality had collapsed, what I was experiencing was all there is and the trip sitter cannot exist outside or 'step in' to intervene with that. Whether I choose to live or die is up to me (the Universe) not the tripsitter (which is of course still just me). Ie. There is no difference between having a trip sitter and not having a trip sitter (I am not defending this from a physical standpoint, just relaying what I was experiencing). The trip sitter is not separate or distinct from my experience. Ultimately there is only one consciousness which decides whether I live or die and that is me (the Universe). Insight: Even logic and critical thinking, are figments of this imagination. They are not like a ‘base platform’ from which I can use to analyze this psychedelic experience. Because they are imagined as part of this consciousness. So trying to use logic and critical thinking to analyze psychedelic experiences makes no sense, because these are not independent states that exist objectively outside consciousness. They are part of consciousness itself. So be wary when you’re trying to pass this up as ‘chemicals in the brain’ or some ‘drug induced effect’. This is only true when you treat logic/physical reality as something outside the psychedelic experience (which is not how it actually is, but you may need psychedelics to see that). Collapsing of duality/Infinity is both things at once/paradox This was written by me as I was winding down and able to type again (I have corrected the English to make it more readable). Being self and other simultaneously 'I am coming down now Good I can finally make some fucking sense Infinity can do all things at once It is not this or that, it is everything all at once Do you recognize psychedelics are no trick? I recognize this is an experience brought about by using a drug But also I recognize this goes beyond the drug you see? It’s both things at once Be wary of saying it’s just a drug (you will be missing the other part of it) Because that is a linear type of thinking, that is the human hat on I am human, yet I transcend humanity It is both at once There is no one to argue, no one to convince but myself Yet as I am typing this, I am doing so to share with ‘other’ as a trip report I recognize I am creating others So I am by myself, yet I am not, you see? I imagine others and I imagine myself I imagine typing this up on the actualized forum, yet at the same time I recognize there is no forum I imagine others reading this, yet I recognize I am those others and yet I am ‘not’ at the same time I recognize I am all alone and I am sovereign But at the same time I make an effort to write these notes to share with others It’s everything all at once. I am self and other at the same time There is only one consciousness There is no difference between ‘higher’ and ‘lower’ consciousness. Both of these are just me expressed in different ways. Even as I am typing I am trying to be conscious of What ‘filter’ I am putting on to put this message through Is this message being corrupted by my ego? But at the same time I recognize there is no difference between having a filter and not having a filter, it's both the same fundamentally. You see, is this a filter or not? Is this ego speaking or not? Is this a universal message or not? Realize there is no distinction. There is no difference. The filter speaking is the Universe speaking The ego filter is the Universe All messages are the Universal message Yet at the same time, I acknowledge a healthy respect that one must be careful what they say. I am so unlimited I could tell everyone to go on a murdering spree, yet I do not, why? Because I am both things at once and I respect both When I was writhing in ecstasy back there, I realized I could choose to kill myself at any moment All it would take is a simple decision. Yet I did not, why? Because I respected my own will to live in physical reality I am limitless, beyond death, yet at the same time I respect my own boundaries (even if they are ‘human’) Notice you have an idea of ‘levels’ of consciousness, you would say ‘I AM’ is higher consciousness and human consciousness is ‘lower’ consciousness. But really it's all the same consciousness. Both of these are expressions of me, so in essence they are the same. So while we say ok you’re not as woke as this guy, or there are levels to it… Yes there are levels, but there are no levels at the same time see? There are levels but at the same time it’s all the same….. We demonize human consciousness, but what is human consciousness but me? We imagine there are levels to awakening (which there are) yet at the same time there are none All awakening and non-awakening is all just me (the Universe) Notice if I am writing this from a ‘sober’/logical state you will not take my words as seriously, I need to convince you that you are in touch with some ‘higher power’ for you to label it mystical But you see higher or lower consciousness, is it all the same consciousness These levels are imaginary. Being ‘non-woke’ is not any different from being ‘woke’ it’s just a different expression. It’s always just me expressing myself with complete sovereignty at all times. Even the times when you feel vulnerable, human and weak, this is still me expressing myself with complete sovereignty. You never escape me. It is always an expression of me I am that tiny, limited, fragile human cowering in fear, and I am the unbounded alien multidimensional ‘monster’ which scares you I am both things at once So on some level I am glad of awakening, but on another level I realize I never really needed it. Because there is nothing to escape from, there is nothing to awaken to, it was all just me. But even before awakening it was all just me also… so it’s kind of funny both things at once There is only ever one consciousness, it’s all the same That consciousness can express itself in many ways, sometimes it is correct, sometimes not (who is judging?) but it is always the same consciousness at all times just expressing itself in different forms The thing you call mundane I appreciate really is mundane (I know I am you) but at the same time don’t think that is any less spiritual or different from being in fucking hyperspace. It’s all the same consciousness. End Thanks for reading everyone

I think he meant a waste of time regarding awakening, my mini meditations help me be more happy, focused and basically more conscious. I suffer less, but maybe won't "awaken" me to alien intelligence

@Breakingthewall What you're telling me is equivalent to: But that's actually pretty charitable since I can use tons of different circles to match an owl if I got that reference but the problem is that I'm at step 1 and there is no reference, I don't know what an owl is, yet I'm supposed to draw one and all I know is that circles will get me there. If you tell me to look at a fractal and tell you what it makes me feel, I'd tell you it reminds more of mirrors, it's infinite, the colors or qualia is mind-blowing, it has interesting properties that I can describe like "as above so below", phenomena repeating but in unique ways, that it can warp and change in fascinating ways I haven't experienced in the reality I'm usually accustomed to, that even the idea of a fractal feels so alien, that it gave me an insight about things existing outside my awareness, or remind me of a black swan event, that I am limited by what I know and unimaginable things exist that I didn't experience that I can only know in retrospect after it enters my experience over which I don't appear to have any control except for receptiveness which really just ups my chances of not missing something and so on and so on. That feelings compared to thoughts are extremely complex, that they are like inverse kinematics that forward kinematics (thoughts, science, ideas, philosophies, behaviors) are modelled after. That on psychedelics I feel like inverse kinematics, I don't move each joint at a time, but all of it together subconsciously, that I was always able to do that, to do without thought, that maybe that's infinity, and thought is narrowing it down and getting tied up in the limitation later believed to be real.

Fantastic diss track by DayLyt towards Eminem, and really good rap technics DayLyt is like a UFO alien at this point: