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Isness what we become when strip everything away. Being. And in that isness is God/Truth/Love/Infinity/Nothingness.

## THE CALAMITY: FINALE — THE ZERO DIVISOR SCENE START Hit the Music. EXT. SOUL KING PALACE - SHATTERED THRONE ROOM The air is dead. Not still—*dead*. As if sound itself has been forgotten. YHWACH stands before the eviscerated throne, his back to the void where the Soul King once floated. He isn’t looking at the ruin. He’s reading it. His eyes—pupils stitched with shifting, golden futures—scan the crumbling architecture like a man checking the grammar of a finished story. YHWACH The last page, Kurosaki Ichigo. I’ve written it a thousand ways. In one, you arrive furious. In another, resigned. In most, you never arrive at all. The variables are finite. The endings… are mine. A footstep. Not on stone. On silence. ICHIGO stands at the far end of the hall. No flash step. No ripple of power. He simply… wasn’t, and now he is. His shihakushō is pristine. Zangetsu is sheathed. His eyes are calm, brown, horribly ordinary. ICHIGO You keep talking about the story. About how it ends. YHWACH (turns slowly) It’s all that’s left. The plot is exhausted. The themes resolved. All possible conflicts between us have already been computed. You versus me? I know every move. Every desperate gambit. Every tragic, noble sacrifice. Yhwach extends a hand. Above his palm, light fractures into a shimmering, branching tree—a billion possible fights, each playing out in miniature. YHWACH (CONT’D) See? Here you try a Getsuga from the left. I counter. Here you unleash your Hollow. I absorb it. Here you beg for your friends’ strength. I have already severed the connection. The mathematics are complete. You are a solved equation. Ichigo looks at the glittering futures. He doesn’t see attacks or defenses. He sees… relationships. ICHIGO You see the moves. But you don’t see the glue. YHWACH Glue? ICHIGO What holds the moves together. You think a fight is a sequence. Step one, then step two, then step three. If you control all the steps, you control the fight. Ichigo takes a single step forward. ICHIGO (CONT’D) But what if the steps… don’t stick? Yhwach’s future-tree flickers. A branch where Ichigo attacks high suddenly has no connection to the branch where Yhwach blocks low. They become separate, isolated moments. YHWACH What is this? ICHIGO You built your power on association. Cause links to effect. Action links to reaction. Your Almighty is the ultimate conductor—it makes sure everything you do chains. Ichigo takes another step. The crystalline floor doesn’t crack. It repels. As if his very presence makes the world less sticky. ICHIGO (CONT’D) My teacher… the real one, not the mask… he taught me something in a cave inside my own head. He said power isn’t about linking more things together. It’s about what happens when the links… break. YHWACH Nonsense. Broken links are failure. Chaos. ICHIGO No. They’re freedom. Yhwach attacks. It’s not a beam or a blade. It’s a causal cascade. A single thought from Yhwach that says “Ichigo’s heart stops”—and then every physical law in the universe realigns to make it true. Gravity twists to crush his chest. Molecules in his blood rebel. Time in his arteries slows to a standstill. It hits Ichigo in the heart. And unlinks. The gravity attack happens. Then it’s over. The blood rebellion happens. Then it’s over. The time freeze happens. Then it’s over. Three events. Not one flowing catastrophe. Just… three separate, unconnected things that each fail. Ichigo doesn’t even stagger. YHWACH Impossible. I didn’t attack three times. I attacked once. ICHIGO You attacked with a chain. I live in a world where chains don’t hold. He finally draws Zangetsu. The blade doesn’t ring. It makes a sound like a door closing between two rooms. ICHIGO (CONT’D) You know what a zero divisor is? YHWACH Mathematical trash. A number that isn’t zero, but when multiplied, gives zero. A flaw in the system. ICHIGO (shakes his head) It’s a relationship that cancels. Two things that should make something bigger… but instead, they make nothing. Not because they’re weak. Because they’re complete in opposite ways. He raises Zangetsu. The blade is jet black. Not the black of Getsuga. The black of closed parentheses. () ICHIGO (CONT’D) You control everything out there. Every force, every law, every link between things. You’re the master of the external universe. He touches his free hand to his chest. To the hollow hole that has always been there. ICHIGO (CONT’D) But I… I spent my whole life being afraid of what was in here. The hollow. The Quincy. The human. The shinigami. I thought they were pieces of a broken thing. Then I realized… He smiles. A small, tired, human smile. ICHIGO (CONT’D) They weren’t pieces. They were whole worlds. And I wasn’t the container holding them together. I was the space where they touched. The boundary. The… door. Yhwach screams. Not in anger. In mathematical fury. He unleashes everything: The Almighty’s rewrite function. The Quincy’s energy absorption. The raw, kingly command that says “CEASE.” Each attack is perfect. Each is absolute. Each is designed to be the first link in a chain of total erasure. Each hits Ichigo. And becomes autistic. A lonely, isolated event that happens, then vanishes, leaving no trace, spawning no consequence. Like a shout into a void that doesn’t even echo. ICHIGO You’re trying to have a conversation with me. But conversation needs association. You say something, I respond, it builds. You’re speaking the richest language ever made. And I… He spreads his arms. ICHIGO (CONT’D) I’m the silence between the words. Yhwach is panting. Not from exertion. From conceptual exhaustion. His power is built on connection, on consequence, on the relentless, interlinking logic of dominance. Ichigo is standing in a law he cannot comprehend: The Law of Non-Association. (X • Y) • Z ≠ X • (Y • Z) In human terms: The meaning of three interactions cannot be predicted from the first two. The third kiss doesn’t have to follow from the first two kisses. The third betrayal can exist without the first two betrayals leading to it. The chain is broken. Every moment is free. YHWACH (voice cracking) What are you? ICHIGO I’m what happens when you stop trying to hold yourself together. When you let the pieces be whole. When the hollow isn’t your monster, it’s your honesty. When the Quincy isn’t your enemy, it’s your will. When the human isn’t your weakness, it’s your anchor. He levels Zangetsu at Yhwach. Not a threat. An invitation. ICHIGO (CONT’D) You inherited the future. All of it. You tried to own the story. I inherited the portal. The door between every possible world. And a door… doesn’t fight the wind. It just decides whether to be open or closed. YHWACH Then… close it! Finish it! Strike me! ICHIGO (shakes his head slowly) I’m not the strike. I’m the hand holding the blade. And the hand has finally realized… (sheaths Zangetsu with a soft click) …it doesn’t have to grip so tight. He turns his back on Yhwach. ICHIGO (CONT’D) Goodbye, father. Thanks for the inheritance. Yhwach howls. He gathers the last of his power, the sum total of every future, every possibility, every linked and chained cause—a spear of absolute finality—and hurls it at Ichigo’s back. The spear flies. And one foot from Ichigo’s spine, it meets a nothingness that isn’t empty. It doesn’t explode. It doesn’t vanish. It unbecomes. Every link in its causal structure simply… lets go. The energy dissociates. The intent forgets its purpose. The future loses its path. It dissipates like a breath into still air. Ichigo doesn’t look back. He walks toward the shattered edge of the palace, toward the bleeding sky of the collapsing worlds. YHWACH (collapsing to his knees, not in pain, in understanding) A… zero divisor. ICHIGO (stopping at the edge, looking out at The Calamity) No. The thing you multiply by to get zero. He steps off the edge. But he doesn’t fall. The crumbling sky meets him. The swirling chaos of the collapsing Soul Society, Living World, and Hueco Mundo—the cataclysm called The Calamity—parts around him like water around a stone. He walks into the storm, and the storm cannot touch him. Not because he’s powerful. Because he is, finally, non-associative. The chaos cannot link to him. The destruction cannot chain to him. He is the un-anchored variable. The free element. The last thing we see is his back, small and steady, receding into the blinding, chaotic light. A final whisper, carried on a wind that shouldn’t exist: ICHIGO (V.O.) The blade is me. And I… am the door collapsed open. SCENE END POST-CREDITS SCENE EXT. KARAKURA TOWN - DAWN The sky is healing. A strange, new, solid blue. The air is 283.14 Kelvin exactly. On a rooftop, ORIHIME watches the sunrise. She feels a presence beside her. She turns. ICHIGO is there. No injuries. No glowing power. Just… Ichigo. In a normal jacket. His hands in his pockets. ORIHIME Ichigo… is it over? He looks at the new sun. At the new world growing, painfully, from the ashes of the old. ICHIGO No. (small smile) It’s just… unlinked. He takes her hand. His grip is warm. Human. Terribly, beautifully ordinary. FADE TO BLACK. FINAL CARD: ***THE CALAMITY*** ***END*** Or is it? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trigintaduonion --- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cayley–Dickson_construction @Leo Gura Hello I hope you are well. Where would you go after this , in this story? I think my back is crushed from the whole damn Cayley Table over Zero Divisor power

you are nothing, yes that's accurate summary, but final stage of deconstruction would be even void collapsing and vanishing, as void/nothingness has subtle duality in it: there's no-thing - nothing exists in opposition to something that could exist that duality could be deconstructed too

Thanks for taking time to respond. I think I get the gist of what you're saying. I think what you're saying is that, the idea or perception of the self as a conscious being at its root is also just another idea, that it is the reduced down to a minimum possible essence of what a human being is. And if I understood what you're saying, no matter how reduced down this essence is, it's still not the absolute. Reading between the lines, you seen to be implying that there is something even beyond 'i-amness/being/existence'. Would be grateful if you could point out if I've misunderstood what you're actually saying, and talk a little more about what is beyond the purest form of 'I amness' Many years ago, I had an experience of what I thought was the base substrate of reality, but even though there was no forms of an eye, there was still an alive presence. It was like discovering that nothingness was not nothingness but rather aliveness without a centre.

Below is an AI transcription of my audio recording, since they can't be directed posted here. It'd be interested in any comments anyone can make about the accuracy of what's presented, especially stuff I might be misunderstanding or misconstruing. Many thanks. --- To say that I’ve been doing anything like reflecting or investigating would just be bullshit. All I am basically doing—and again, "doing" is not the right word—is witnessing. "Doing" implies that I have some sort of autonomy in the decision-making in terms of what actually flows. In reality, there is no autonomy that I can speak of with any degree of confidence. I just feel like I’m being pushed into a corner that I can't escape from, and it’s not my doing. If it were based on my own free will and choice, I certainly wouldn't be pushing myself into a corner. This has nothing to do with my doing, and that is the whole truth. I know teachers like Robert Adams say, "Okay, fine, you're not in charge, you're not the doer, but you have to act in the world as if you were the doer." I don't know about that. Because when you seem to act, all you come across is just another wall—a big sign saying "No Entrance" or "Private Property." I woke up this morning with that idea as well: everything is unfolding as it has to. There is something bigger at play here. If you look at our experiences in terms of what we experience in the moment, we don’t really have a choice. We are just presented with situations and circumstances. In a particular situation, it may appear that you have a choice, but that choice is just going to be another arising. Something happened earlier today that was quite distinct from previous observations. It was this idea of "I-amness." I probably won't do it justice in my description, but I’ll try my best. This "I-amness" is always there. No matter what situation arises, the "I-amness" is the background. Whether it is observing a particular thought or a sensory experience, the "I-amness" is the thing that is always there. That is the thing that is unchanging and always present. I suppose this is what they mean by "resting in I am." There are a million and one different ways that teachers describe this, but essentially it boils down to: what is the background of all experiences? Speaking of experiences, we tend to have a very dualistic view of what they are. We think there is a thing behind the experience that is observing the experience, which creates duality. In essence, however, reality forms into that experience. When you are worrying about something, there is a collection of thoughts and feelings in the body. That whole thing—including the sense of someone seeing those things—is all one. It comes as one complete package. When we shift from one experience to the next, that "thing" simply reconfigures itself as a different experience. Irrespective of what the experience is about, there is this sense of "I-amness." You can’t really pinpoint it because when you first attempt to do so, you take the attributes of the things being observed and attribute them to the "I-amness." But "I-amness" is attribute-less; it doesn't have any attributes of its own. It is the background or the screen, so to speak. The insight was simply this: all of the teachings are about filtering out as much of "not you" as possible and disidentifying from the sense of "I" to see what remains. Once you strip everything away, you can't really "look" at this "I-amness." It isn't even a feeling. To call it a feeling is a misnomer because it is there before the feeling. It has to be there before the feeling can be experienced. This "I-amness" is the essence of who we are. Do things open up if you rest in this "I-amness" and keep going back to it over and over again? Does realizing that every experience is just a transitory phenomenon—a reconfiguration of this space—open up new ways of understanding? I don't know. But certainly, "I-amness" seems to be the ground of reality and the root of everything, as far as I can tell. Perhaps even "I-amness" eventually dissolves into nothingness, which is what people like Nisargadatta Maharaj talk about—that even consciousness is a product of nothingness. My gut instinct is that "I-amness" is inherent in that nothingness. The attribute-less emptiness of your true being seems to be the base. Perhaps there is a deeper layer where even "I-amness" disappears into nothingness, which is amazing to think about—that out of nothingness first comes a sense of self, an "I." That "I" is then entangled. But to say it is "entangled" implies it is separate from the thing it is entangled with. I don't think that's the case. I think both the "I am" and the thing that "I am" is observing—the witness aspect—are one and same. It’s like a shape-shifting thing where the center is always "I am." There is a common locus around which thoughts and sensory experiences shape-shift. That’s the best I can do in terms of articulating my experiences and the conclusions that arise from them. What reality actually is, I don't know. I’ve only been able to condense it down to these few things. "I-amness" seems to be the prerequisite for any sort of experience. It can also exist in the absence of experience, other than the experience of itself—the "knowingness" that I am. Recognizing this permanent background is the first step. Perhaps if one were to rest there, deeper insights would arise. For the time being, at this level, it seems to be the base. I had an experience many years ago where I saw what pure "I-amness" is, bereft of any experience. It was like a uniform, self-illuminating white light. It seemed to be the substrate, though God knows how many other layers are hidden behind that. For now, I'm just going to keep coming back to this "I-amness." In thought, it's easy to get caught up in a virtual world and forget. It is important to keep returning to the "I-amness" and try to experience it in the absence of thought. If the absence of thought cannot be achieved, then at least acknowledge that it is always there in the background. From there, maybe something will open up. For now, it is sufficient to keep returning to the "I" and understanding that it is the common denominator. Let’s leave it at that.

The following post might not make much sense to you if you haven't reached a high enough consciousness at some point in your life. Yesterday, I took 300mg of DXM. Long story short, at the peak of the trip, I just realized how fucking radical it is for anything like consciousness to exist at all. It felt like I 'broken' reality and went to a place where I was aware of my room, my body, the entire universe including all others, and could clearly see how they are all just being constructed in some kind of void, alongside all of existence. I could clearly understand that this void is what I've always been, but because of distractions in life (such as having a human identity, having to go to school, etc.), I somehow mistakenly stopped identified as the infinite void and genuinely started believing I was a 'person in a world.' Kind of like: You start playing a hypothetical video game in VR that lasts 80+ years. At first, you clearly know you are inside a game. But as time goes on, due to the sheer length of the game and how immersive it is, you genuinely start to believe you are the 'character in the game' rather than a player playing as a character inside the game. It also made me just think of how stupid materialism is: "I can picture a planet inside my mind. If you somehow dissect my entire body and brain, you would not find a planet anywhere inside my body." So where is the image of the planet occurring? Nowhere! Reality is literally happening nowhere. "Nothing" IS the background to everything. And this nothing is Me/You. We are literally the same being/awareness/nothingness. When I die, and when you die (or when I stop imagining myself and this world, and when you stop imagining yourself and the world) we will both return to being the same being. It is the only being that exists. And this being is literally 'nothing.' It is the primordial void. God. When we are so immersed in our lives and with survival, we fail to grasp the obvious due to being immersed in many delusions. But if you take a psychedelic or dissociative, you can clearly see just how radical reality is. Solipsism is true once you reach a high enough consciousness: THERE IS ONLY ONE MIND THAT EXISTS! AND ITS ME/YOU. If you are reading this and are conscious, that is me reading my own message. It doesn't matter if you are dissociated and you don't realize right now that you are also the one typing this post. But you are me. I am you. You are literally me in another point in this infinite dream. I am you in another point in infinity. However, quite literally, we are the same being at our core. I feel like now I understand what "Death is imaginary" really means. Death is literally you/me completely stopping the identification of being a 'body in a world.' You become your true self. Which is the infinite void/nothingness/god that precedes all of reality and is the only thing to exist. I also realized why it's called 'God.' Because: You have to realize how impossible it is for anything to exist at all. Seriously. Even if you a staunch materialist, you run into the infinite regress problem. What 'space' did the big bang occur in? What preceded the big bang? The only thing that CAN exist (God) IS the only thing that DOES exist. God is a self-aware nothingness in which literally everything arises, from people, relationships, universes, matter, etc. The substance of everything IS nothing at the deepest level. Do you realize just how truly INSANE it is for anything to exist at all? That is a miracle of such proportions that if your consciousness isn't high enough, you just accept 'things existing' and life occurring as if its nothing special. NO!! Realize just how FUCKING CRAZY it is that things, bodies, planets, etc. exist at all.

It's a paradox not a mistake or contradiction . They call it the Gateless Gate or the Groundless Ground . No substance or ground to reality is the same thing as saying the substance is Nothingness or Infinity . The word "consciousness " does seem problematic if you mean consciousness in the conventional sense like being awake or alert and perceiving things like right now vs being unconcious like when you are in deep sleep. What spiritual people call "consciousness " is not perception..its another word for Nothingness or Infinity.

The knower knows itself as a concept, yes. And every conceivable concept is known, which immediately implies a knowing. However, this knowing or conscious awareness is never actually seen as a direct physical object separate from the knowing. The concept known as ‘knower’ is a thought known. A thought has no actual solidity. And science and physics has already shown that every known apparent solid object is made of the empty space it occupies. What is a ‘thought’ ? Or, what is awareness, or what is space, or emptiness? Those are the most unanswered questions to all our answers, aren’t they? Sounds like a paradox because the very knowledge that there’s a knower that knows it exists immediately presents the duality of knower and known, or subject and object both. And that’s my best description of what’ knowing’ is.. it’s a unitary knowing that can never know or experience itself as an actual conceptual object known, because no object known is ever aware or knows it exists, no object is ever physically seen, objects are just known concepts by the only knowing there is. Only knowing that’s not an object, but knows every object. This description points to a nothingness that only appears to be a something, or an everything, but isn’t anything at all.

Correct. God is clay minus the clay, since clay is finite. Infinite clay = Nothingness.

No . I woke up this morning for something completely out of my control. If you sleep and never wake up..what is that called ? Death . The only reason existence exists as forms is because of the existence of the formless .deep sleep is formlessness and this experience right now is form. If I ask why is there something rather than nothing ?..its because there is nothing that there can be something. Try this experiment..sleep-deprive for a whole week ..zero sleep ..this is the result: you will realize that this moment right now is NOT existence or something Ness or consciousness. Why ? Because without sleeping and erasing all experience you can't have its opposite. Without nothingness there cannot be something Ness.

Nothingness is not non-existence. It is existence. Empy existence. Non-existence does not exist. Do not confuse Nothingness with non-existence. That is a major mistake.

Does Non-Existence exist? Does Nothingness really exist? If Existence/Consciousness is the foundation of reality, then what is Nothingness or Non-Existence? We cannot talk about non-existence or Nothingness without first discussing what Existence is. What I mean by existence is everything that you experience within your consciousness. If you cannot see it, hear it, smell it, feel it, taste it, or think it, it does not exist. I would say that Nothingness and Non-existence are different. Non-Existence points to something that no longer exists or has never existed and Nothingness points to something that exists but has either no attributes or infinite attributes -- Think of a blank canvas or the emptiness of space. With non-existence, there is not even blankness or emptiness of space. Space = Nothingness and Space = Non-existent are two different ideas. Here are some examples of Non-Existence: 1. Being a virgin (sex is non-existent for you, you have had 0 sex) 2. Your dead great-great-grandparents (they are literally physically non-existent) 3. A Purple Elephant native to Earth (maybe there is one on a different planet but none native to earth). 4. Santa Clause (Santa is an idea in your mind that points to something that does not actually exist) 5. Bertrand Russell's Celestial Teapot 6. A memory/dream that you forgotten 7. Your childhood/youth (your health/vitality will one day be non-existent) 8. Death (this is a tricky one depending on how you look at it. Death can be seen as Non-existent or as Nothingness.) Here are some examples of Nothingness: 1. Empty Consciousness (no thought, no mind) 2. Ego (The ego's reality is nothingness, it is made out of thought made out of nothing, it's not made out of anything) 3. Thought (its not made out of anything) 4. The empty space that holds all objects in existence 5. The substance of anything is made out of Nothingness. Even science tells us that objects are made out of emptiness. 6. State of Consciousness during sleep and during pre-birth. 6. Death (this is a tricky one depending on how you look at it. Death can be seen as Non-existent or as Nothingness.) What are your thoughts? Does Nothingness and Non-existence exist? When we say Consciousness or Existence is the foundation of reality, do we mean that the foundation of Infinity/Existence is Nothingness? How does Existence relate to Non-Existence?

Yeah I wouldn't take the analogy too literally. Maybe more like a balloon, space expands its own extent. It doesn't expand into anything, it just defines an ever-growing boundary (like the rubber of a balloon). There is actually nothing on the other side of the boundary. So yes, inside only, no outside. It's not so bad, because the starting state of space is a singularity, which is a nothingness. So if you wanted something the other side of the of the boundary, it would be the originating singularity. It's a mind bender for sure, since the singularity has no extent or structure.

I'd like to create a thread with the best representations of (facets of) God. It's obvious that there can be no single comprehensive representation, since the Nature of God is multi-faceted, paradoxical and mysterious. This is why I'd like to submit a few different "portrayals", which are all meant to represent different aspects of God. It's best to think of them as all being the case at once, instead of singling out any particular one. This list is not exhaustive, and will never be. Obviously all of these are subject to interpretation - however, let's hope that we'll achieve a connection in seeing what is being pointed to. With that said, here we go. 1) I like this one for the fact that everything is unfolding out of nothingness. There's not really a center here. It's nothing. 2) I like this one for being an endless flow of reality. Never-ending dream. No motifs of center or multiplicity here - just an infinite dream always "moving". If the content was changing here infinitely in different ways, that'd be ideal. Perhaps this one might be even better since there's no implied "movement", as if through a tunnel. No illusion of space. Just the infinite morphing of reality. I also like this one. In addition to the flow of reality, it gives me a sense of craziness and incomprehensibility of God. 3) This one often comes to mind for me when I think of consciousness. Imagine this but transparent/nothing-like, and being able to morph into anything it wants, becoming that experience. This one's unique with the representation being an "object" - even though God of course isn't that. But again, think of it as this being the nothing that is everything. Any object "in" consciousness, IS consciousness. It also has that dream-like blue/yellow/pink/white sheen to it. 4) I wanted to include an "simple" impossible object here. Meant to isolate the aspect of paradox and strange-loopiness of God. So here it is: 5) This one has an entity connotation. To me, it implies the aliveness AND the infinite intelligence of God. Absolute incomprehensibility. 6) This one conveys the "statehood" of consciousness, the advancedness of state, and gives a "personal" connotation. It's all personal in the most profound way. It's You. 7) I like this one for it's "double-centeredness" (as opposition to single-centeredness - strange!), and yet at the same time conveying the boundlessness of consciousness. 8) Infinity of Gods. 9) Another one "organized" structure, yet infinite and mysterious. I don't know about you, but I can hear its calmness and perfectness when looking at it. 10) And lastly this one. I like how the eye arises from nothing and "dies" into nothing at the end - while being of it all along. God looking at Itself. Definitely post more cool representations if you have any. Cheers!

As Consciousness / metacognition approaches → ∞ → distinctions collapse, everything converges into 1 Singularity/Self/Concept, which can be called |God|→ 0 (Even 0 “exists” as a concept, so 0 + 1 → 1 "concept" of Singularity) As C approaches → 0 → pure nothingness: no distinctions, no ego, no God. Awareness is dormant. As C approaches → 1 (singular focal consciousness) → ego / attachment emerges; distinctions appear relative to that self. C = consciousness / awareness / metacognition D = number of distinctions G = God / unified Self E = Ego / self-identified entity C → 0: nothingness, D → 0, G → 0, E → 0 C → 1: E → ∞, D → ∞-1, G → 0 C → ∞: G → ∞, D → 0, E → 0 Equations: D = C * (1 - 1 / (1 + C^2)) E = C / (1 + C) G = C^2 / (1 + C^2) Limits / Behavior: As C approaches 0: D ≈ 0 E ≈ 0 G ≈ 0 # pure nothingness As C approaches 1 (focal consciousness): D → ∞ E → ∞ G ≈ 0 # ego and attachment emerge As C approaches infinity: D → 0 E → 0 G → 1 # unity / God / Self

This is a classic woman blunder. You think you have an ability to be isolated but thats just from a woman's point of view. If you knew what "male isolation" was like you would see you have barely any tolerance for it. I am sure you have high tolerance for it as a woman but it's sort of like the woman that's best in the world at tolerating loneliness is still worse at it than the man who is worst in the world at tolerating loneliness. I know you answered "as a woman" but it would be challenging for a woman to know what is a low or high tolerance because women don't really have that struggle built into them, it's foreign. Even if gender roles "break down" it will still be foreign, probably forever. Religion used to be a form of escape from women and a way to separate the genders living spaces. Because the masculine uses nothingness as a pleasure when the feminine uses fullness as a pleasure. Essentially, women talk a lot and men can't be bothered so they needed a man cave to have a short break and retreat before interacting with the feminine again. That's why as soon you get home from work your woman who was waiting all day for you will just babble endlessly about inconsequential things but all you want to do is decompress and stay silent. You actually will want to talk to your woman but only after an hour of two of that decompressing and doing nothing after a long day of work. If a woman comes back from work she still wants to babble right as she gets home, so it's mostly that the man needs to have a costume shift from work personality to home personality and doing nothing is a way to change the costume, not about having a long day at work that causes a needs for rest. This is traditionally why Religion was created by men and for men. It was the original man cave. I wouldn't be surprised if awakening was just an excuse to get away and then the seeker realized later that it was actually important. I think every man knows if he spends too much time with his woman it's actually counter productive and could damage the relationship. I think woman are the ones who latch on more and they will take as much time as they can get. Religion is perfect. It's mysterious, mystical, metaphorical, and confusing to keep people out. Obviously even more separation was created between the genders in religion spaces because of lust. Women today call this sexism and control, that religion was a tool to enslave women, uhh maybe in some instances but definitely not all. Best to have all 3 spaces today, male/female/shared, then let people choose what they want without having to compromise.

Isn't it that the Absolute is either formless nothingness or an Infinity of forms(The entire infinite set of all forms), but never a single, distinct thing? How could there be an Absolute Blue? However it's crazy you mentioned that because one time on a psych trip, I closed my eyes and it kept getting more blue and more blue until I couldn't handle it anymore (and I opened my eyes) and it felt crazy that It could even get more blue than what I normally would imagine as pure blue.

@Leo Gura I guess what I struggle with is, if I ( Chad ) die, merge with everything and cease to be, It seems like that is basically the same thing as just disappering. As Chad. Nothingness. Or no thing. Now, if I merge with everything and have some degree of awarenes of the process, than that would be different. I guess I am not sure which you are saying. Perhaps I am misunderstanding, or just not at a point where I can see it.

Are you afraid of emptiness, nothingness. No-thing? No real words for it. But you know what I point to. Or is it that you feel it is nihilistic? I notice you fear anything cold. Abstract. Empty. You always steer away from it. This would be somewhat limiting your worldview and understanding. due to avoiding a large part of enquiry. The problem with this 'absence of limits' is that that is ONLY how experience shows up. It is not what reality is made of. 'Emptiness' is what experience is MADE of. Experience without a centre.

Begging with a bowl is more effective. It's already known in their practice. Combined with prayer and meditation it has potential to reduce you into nothingness. It feels like some woke activists invented that story.

Noo, nothing like that. The first implies a process (which there's none), and the second implies control over Will (which there's also none). Moreso this. I (as God) am creating this right now. In fact, I am this. There is no difference between me and it. Oh what joy! You = God = Imagination = Reality. A complete blending of the infinite nothingness/awareness/formlessness and form.

Yeah, like Inliytened already said, what's lacking to me is "I am God"... unless you insist that you're in a selfhood state right now and don't want to say something "ingenuine" right now? I don't know. God is in everything, God is in X, God is outside Y seems really dualistic to me. "God knows everything" also sounds weird, perhaps you can elaborate. I don't agree that this is illusion. And I don't agree that God is "beyond" physical experience. I'm thinking more about it and this "where is other?" question is actually quite a good pointer, if you understand it. I don't agree that "Avatars are concerned with what you can see, smell, touch, hear, feel". There is (or actually isn't) self, which is illusory, and then there is CONSCIOUSNESS. The "self" doesn't actually interact with anything and it's only concerned about "itself" - it's basically a state. Then, even in a self-less state, senses are experienced. Consciousness experiences itself, which includes senses. From the POV of consciousness, everything is the same; there is no "avatar" and "other avatars". But perceptions and senses are still the case (and also aren't distinct from everything else). The witness/nothingness/awareness and experience are completely one. Nothing is everything, and vice versa. And You are it (not the ego - the "real" you).

I pretty much agree with everything in this video. Yes, there is only one Dreamer*. Yes, for all intents and purposes, you should act as if there are others - this is right behaviour. I also said this before, which this guy repeats when he says that there are "egos" once you yourself see yourself as "an ego": Yes, there is ONLY Pure Awareness, which the guy states. ONE Experience, ONE Consciousness, ONE DREAM. So what the fuck is the problem? *However, I also agree with @Inliytened1 here. In fact, this is my most recent awakening. That the witness/dreamer/nothingness/awareness is the exact same as what's being perceived. There's no dreamer and observed reality. It's more like reality seeing itself. A complete oneness of formlessness and form. One "thing" witnessing itself, no duality whatsoever. God.

Not to leak too much personal info, but I once I had a client with Diogenes Syndrome. She’s in her early 30s. She has 3 apartments full of stuff to the top. After 6 hours of conversation, turns out that she was sexually abused at birth, which she actually could remember. She told me she remembered that her consciousness withdrew into pure nothingness, and she observed what was happening to her “from the outside.”, like a 3rd person perspective. She completely detached from her body. So we concluded that what happened is that her mind then created a negative association with nothingness (that “place” she found herself in during that traumatic experience), which resulted in a fear of “nothingness” (look up “kenophobia or nihilophobia”), and then she got into the habit of compulsively filling out any kind of emptiness with “stuff,” to run away from “nothing.” She filled physical emptiness with objects (and every object had a special meaning or story her mind would hold onto, to escape the absence of meaning of the objects), contributing to the compulsive hoarding. She escaped loneliness (emptiness of company) with 8 simultaneous relationships. She filled her mind with consistent, endless thoughts (what she called “ADHD”). She filled silence in conversations with endless talking. So she had to do progressive desensitisation with nothingness, break the belief that “nothing” is bad (CBT type stuff , and embrace and love “nothingness.” Two decades of therapists couldn’t help her. To this day, the most fascinating client I’ve had. When you merge proper metaphysics and spirituality with psychology, everything clicks so beautifully. She’s also fully God-awake 24/7. She speaks about all the stuff Leo speaks about from direct experience (and so much more). Our first two sessions were 6½-hour long because of how fascinated I was and how much she was getting out of it. Pretty ridiculous looking back, actually. I’m actually going to meet her in person because of how unique she is. Leo would love to interview her lol Bonus; chech out Apeirophobia, the Fear of Infinity, Sigephobia, fear of Silence or Chronophobia, the fear of the passage of time.

Consciousness as a whole is Undefined, since there is nothing to define it with/against. So it defines itself, in other words it's whatever you define it to be. It's no coincidence that the more of a blanket term you apply to Consciousness, the more accurate it gets, hence we also call it Infinity, God, Nothingness, etc.; but words will fail rather quickly so you'll have to drop them. This will all seem like self-contradictory nonsense until you get very comfortable with twisted, paradoxical thinking, which is one of the abilities of higher consciousness. Doing so requires going beyond causation, reason, language, sanity... There awaits absolute logic that resolves all contradiction, as there is no contradiction in self-definition. A ∧ ¬A is not only perfectly consistent, but necessary. 'Conscious' and 'aware' can often be used interchangeably, but not always. For instance, you can be aware of all the gossip and scheming going on at your workplace, but that doesn't make you any more conscious; neither is an animal with spatial awareness several orders of magnitude better than human more conscious than you. One can even be aware that what they're doing is wrong, but not be conscious of why it is so. Consciousness is more like self-awareness, it is not contingent on surroundings, information, knowledge, sensations (as in Ibn Sina's floating man thought experiment); higher consciousness simply means raising your self-awareness until you're fully aware that you are reality itself. Becoming more loving, truthful, present, etc. are merely consequences of this realization. A person can be "made aware" (of something, like a fact), but cannot be made conscious, only be/become conscious, i.e. it's an act only you are capable of. I can bring to your awareness that Google search and everyone replying to this thread are projections of your mind that you're using to teach stuff to yourself; however this doesn't mean you'll be capable of accepting that, and even if you were, unless you become directly conscious of it, that'll just be a belief.