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I had god realisation without drugs. It wasn’t even in relation to spiritual practice. It just happened one day during a deep dive enquiry into what I was cause I was trying to omit bias from my observation. My entire reality dissapeared including my body and sense of self. I still had the ability to question the singularity I found myself in which was beyond consciousness ( god) it was a singularity of awareness ( source) before god ( consciousness or knowing created itself by awareness turning back on itself making a self reference) it explored this formless and boundless singularity before recognising itself and remembering it was god. The shock shot me back into reality, body, self identity and left me speechless as a debunked atheist sitting in a chair wondering wtf just happened. I’d never heard of a psychedelic. I subsiquently did psychedelics to contrast the experience and with the exception of the buzzing energy, it was the same ( 5MeO) formless infinity before anything at all. I found myself using psychedelics to chase states of ecstacy because I knew how to move the mind to get there. I had already remembered being that which is, so never had a bad trip nor did I ever really have visuals or any of the journeys people describe. It’s mostly all formless in a realm of ideas before they are fractured and built up. But I was not doing it off my own efforts as a fractal of consciousness. It was the substance. I cut it way back and started disciplining my mind instead, right back to the very thought of dissolving the self being an inhibiting factor to dissolution. I did one marijuana ceremony where I dissolved all belief so much I couldn’t get back to reality until I recreated it all from scratch. I gained a more comprehensive understanding as a human of how I as consciousness was imagining everything into existence and was holding it there by believing it was real… self deception. Very tricky. I went off all psychedelics and substance including coffee and alchohol or psychoactive stimulant to try and become more acutely sensitive to mentation. On four occasions at work I lost the belief of reality and it dissolved into the singularity. To others back in the reality, that looked like the body fainting unconscious. The body was taking place in the others perspective. My perspective dissolved and joined back with the totology or source awareness. Black/white nothingness. I don’t have much to learn in that state anymore so I now create relative preferences from which to experience life. I don’t judge others nor do I feel emotional reaction to judgment of opinion from others much anymore. It’s just life living itself. That doesn’t mean that my little personality doesn’t create boundaries. At some point its perception of its own form in relation to another form has a distinction but it’s for the purpose of experiencing reality (relativity), not placing itself in a moral high ground. there are many stories and narratives to be explored here, including the varying states of consciousness itself and the realms one can go into. Removing one’s self from the senses and ceasing all movement of the mind goes back to the singularity but there is always another world and ego that forms. It seems that is what the mind does. Creates worlds to experience. ive woken up in realms I could have mistaken myself for having taken mushrooms or dmt. I’ve had a few 5MeO white light happenings. I’ve had one completely conscious out of body or ‘reality shift’ intentionally from start to finish and it was that experience that proved to me there’s nothing but awareness experiencing consciousness in a dream. I don’t control where I go but I know the frequency at which it happens diminishes when I stop routinely disciplining the mind. This last year I have done nothing at all and even my dreams have diminished. Only recently going back to quiet practice, has it started happening again. it depends how engrossed in the belief of the reality I guess but my being learns these things by contrasting between and making distinctions…

@Leo Gura Here's the problem I'm having. It may very well be the case (according to the problem I'm having) that mechanical intelligence and stuff dealing with thinking of mechanical stuff with a particular concreteness of thought is more accomplishing than, say, something which is infinitely more complex but less dense as a unit (such as Nothingness or other abstract planes). For example I could experience electrical bliss and ecstasy in the body and see into other realms which are very complex and have real overlap with this reality, and there's apparent infinite intelligence there, and I could get everything I've ever wanted. But I still may have issue understanding how bridges are built. On the face of it this could be terrible advice. Most of your fantasies ideally wouldn't be consigned to fantasy, they would be acted on.

Gura's new course revealed : A cutting edge brand-new course on how not to create a course. Possible name for the course: a higher perspective on nothingness of the course

This was the first time I had a direct experience of something - or rather, nothing - as a result of one of Leo's videos (in this case it was 'Why is there something rather than nothing?' if anyone is interested). At least one as potent and instantaneously eye-opening as this one. As I contemplated the concept of 'nothing' and the concept of everything being nothing, something suddenly clicked in my brain and I could see it. It is tricky to explain how it appeared to me but I will make an attempt so that someone else may share my experience, too. Instead of seeing 'nothing' as some separate realm, something completely oppositional and removed from what we are experiencing right now, instead consider it as an element of it. Since nothing is comprised of literally nothing, and since non-existence does not exist, one can see that this nothingness, this non existence, is boundless and is everywhere. Since it doesn't exist, it doesn't have a form or a destination or anything to it whatsoever. It is silky dark matter without a jar to contain it, it is ever-permeating and flows like a snap of the fingers, like water, like a black hole, like none of these things but these are the mental images that the feeling of it conjures up in me so follow this feeling with me if you tend to understand things more intuitively. It is everywhere because it is a complete and total opposite, untouchable and unmovable because to touch or to move it is to change it into a component of something. I hope this has made sense! I do not know if it did, as it is something that makes a lot more sense once you 'see' it for yourself. I am also sharing this because this realization has brought me a lot of peace. Directly before this happened, I was going through what could be referred to as an existential crisis of sorts, a sudden and extreme fear of death that I had not felt since childhood. However, after this realization struck me, although I did not immediately understand why, I immediately knew that my problem had been solved and that there was nothing to worry about. Nothing cannot touch you, it has already touched you, it is already encapsulating you and because of this you will always be safe from it. It isn't scary because I know now what it is. It has been here the whole time.

while i agree that its inherent for the mind to fill in gaps, some stories tend to enforce more imagination than others. if i tell you to imagine infinite goodness, eternal love beauty and bliss, you will have all sorts of ideas of what that would be like. if i tell you to imagine absolute Nothingness on the other hand, well.. i agree

In the end — it’s all about falling so deeply in love with silence that all the noise of the world and of the mind fades away into nothingness from which it came and we re-awaken to our silent glory forever and ever. You are being very patient with the princess expressing her lack of silence, and without silence there is no wisdom. Good job ☺️🙏

So you value more locked states of consciousness more than peak states? Although I don't see how stillness/emptiness/nothingness is always present and not subject to temporality? It's not like consciousness which can be always spotted and present, which is life itself. What is your present experience right now? could you tell me honestly?

I don't. Infinite, consciousness or any experience is the gift of the Truth, however it is temporary. However, Stillness, emptiness and Nothingness is what We really are. Our true nature.

Oh God. Silence is already the case. It's called nothing/nothingness/no-thing/emptiness/stillness/aliveness/boundlessness/fulfillment/freedom/Absolute/God/liberation/unconditional love......you call it what you want. One cannot hear it because everything is it. The silence you speak of arises from it. There is nothing but it. What you are listening to and what you call silence is a replica of it. All you hear and see is silence appearing as noise. Silence cannot be heard or known or listened to because all there is is that.

I'd like to share these two videos with you, both salvia experiences. One is a state of complete love and nothingness and the other of hell. My point is, both could be true in the afterlife. But both are the same since both is consciousness. In the grand scheme, all will be experienced yet nothing eternal, because only consciousness itself is eternal. Is karma real, meaning do your actions have influence on your next life or is it completely random? We can't know. That's my 2 cents on it.

Yo lmfao. What can you realize above the love, forget even Nothingness, lol.

As a deeply intuitive guy, I resonate with this. I had a similar thing happening playing GeoGuessr. Guessing the place up to a few kms from a simple road or random bush. It could be intuition or precognition unless the game is designed to feed you close calls to hook you on it. (No matter where you click, afterwards it tells you you were close. How could you tell anyways?) I commonly experience stuff like guessing how many individual units there are in a bunch of things without counting, beating people in rock paper scissors 12 times in a row, guessing what time it is randomly when waking up or in the middle of the night, guessing people's names, professions, and Zodiac signs. One time I guessed all three from a single person, lol, left his jaw hanging. Little gut feeling warnings of caution in split-second situations. Thinking about someone I haven't seen in years or months and him calling me randomly a few hours later. I learned intuitively how to do astral projection by hearing some instructions for a few seconds, and I also had mystical experiences just starting meditation with no prior experience. It is super easy to get delusional and fall into self-deception in the realm of the paranormal and ESP. But on the other hand, don't let materialism hold you back. Contemplate the mechanics of existence for yourself from absolute scratch with the utmost epistemological rigor. I tried channeling a few times by writing on my laptop's keyboard with my eyes closed, and sometimes my fingers write the words almost before I can think them. It's feels like catching a stream of water while swimming in the ocean, or a warm current of air while sky gliding. Apparently, you can get into some sort of state of consciousness, call it trance or vibration or whatever, that facilitates or increases the likelihood of this happening. Bashar says it's getting in the gamma brain waves. So people who genetically are more prone to gamma waves would have increased and more accurate ESP experiences. Think about it. How are thoughts even possible? Do thoughts belong to you? Are they you? Where do they come from? Where are thoughts located? What are thoughts besides symbols? Thoughts are literally non-physical perception. They are a stream of intelligence (of different degrees) mixed with self-awareness and nothingness. Notice you don't have full control over them, only partial influence. Why do you have a specific thought rather than a different one? You can explain it with the brain and the subconscious mind, but they are just crutches. Sensory organs and the brain are another epistemological crutch. How is experience or perception possible because of a brain or sensory organs? In the end, they don't explain anything. Materialism breaks when you keep asking " but why?" Consciousness can imagine perception into existence without the need for any sensory organs or the brain. Point being, I resonate with this dude whether this is the game trying to hook you on it or actual ESP.

I like to think of it as a blank canvas, except in reality the blank canvas is nothingness. No colors no distinctions. Then comes the colors. One color could represent the oneness. The nothingness that permeate everything. With two colours we start to distinguish between this or that. The canvas is divided in two. As we increase the complexity in the canvas by adding more colours. The colours create differences and there by shapes. The mind creates objects out these shapes. The canvas might start to look like a landscape. A sea, a mountain, a tree, the sun, birds in the sky. But it's actually just colors on the blank canvas of nothingness.

The absence of distinctions is the absence of movement, and the absence of movement is the absence or time that is the cessation of experience, nothingness. The nothingness contains the totality of reality, and is equivalent to something, only in a latent state. from nothing always appears something, which means that there is always something since nothing is never, out of the time

I did not write any of this this is all Leo, actually, before I became a member of this forum, I sat back and studied the crap out of it for like 8 months until I joined. Not knowing is knowing Emptiness is formed, form is emptiness" You are both emptiness and form. awareness is just pure nothingness it's a pure void or vacuum God is an Absolute Mind. A Mind which has no other and I, therefore, all-knowing and all-powerful. When you realize that reality is just your own Mind and nothing else, you will become God. That which has no other is absolutely sovereign and self-created. To realize you are God is to realize that you created yourself. If you become infinite consciousness. You will exist as a pure abstraction, as a singularity of undifferentiated Oneness. This is your true nature. If you become fully conscious the entire universe will disappear forever. You will exist as a pure abstraction, as a singularity of undifferentiated Oneness. This is your true nature. There is nothing but infinite states of consciousness. That's all that reality is. There is no such thing as unconsciousness. Unconsciousness is an illusion. The consciousness of pure unlimited imagination is so powerful it can even imagine that it is not imagining reality and that becomes what you consider reality physical reality is a dream it's purely imaginary. The greatest illusion of this world is the illusion of separation. True liberation is actually freedom from the illusion of others. You are creating all sense of other. When you realize this all sense of other completely collapses and all sense of you disappears until all that's left is the truth consciousness is love and consciousness is the only thing that can become conscious of itself. So if you don't realize that you're God and that you're love and that you are infinite nobody else can. Because you are the only thing there is, your it you have to awaken to itself. God has to awaken to itself. Stop thinking of God as someone up there who's better than you or higher than you it's you but you are stuck in your own self you have to get over yourself to actualize yourself as God. And for you to realize that you are the only thing that exists. There is only you and everyone including yourself is a construction of your own mind. The only thing creating the illusion that there is more than one is your imagination and that's why God is an infinite field of consciousness He's not truth-seeking, he's clout-chasing. These are all great insights, but ultimately to awaken you must realize that the self is an illusion. TRUTH is actually very simple to speak: YOU ARE GOD, and reality is your Infinite Dream All were doing is trying to construct hypotheses you know that fit the data that fit what we know so far always with the caveat that we don't know much and the picture is incomplete and so on. Death is an elusion of consciousness Death is a conceptual construction of your own imagination Your critique wasn't wrong but you can literally critique anything from the relative for all of infinity. Reality is absolutely infinitely relative. You can lead a human to knowledge but you can't make him think. To understand the nature of Love and its myriad self-manifestations is to grasp the nature of Being Itself, for the two are in fact one." No difference between subject and object, self and world. The world is the self. the core of ego: your biological back story or your biographical, finite sense of self is a conceptual construction of your own imagination You must realize that you are God because only then will you take full responsibility for your life and only then will you really understand how profound life is and what existence is. What non-duality tells us is that every duality including the duality between god and the devil is ultimately going to collapse into a unity that tells you. Another very important principle is identity is relative and fluid so literally, there is no identity within reality other than oneness so any limited identities that you create like you as a body you as a biological organism you as somebody that was born to certain parents all of these identities you have an all relative there all constructions of your mind there not absolutely true fluid and they can change and in fact, they have been changing all of your life. are united in an infinite soup of undifferentiation consciousness break through all this bullshit and see how the mind constructs all these categories and distinctions. To see how all the things you were taught as a child all the way up through university have just been categories that were constructed by the human mind by the human race and that many of these distinctions are purely conceptual there not absolute in any sense and they will ultimately all collapse as you keep observing deeper and deeper keep meditating keep contemplating keep having mystical experiences all of this will ultimately collapse into one unity one ultimate absolute truth. This leads to the net core principle which is that absolute truth exists but it can not be thought to believe imagined communicated spoken written proven or agued. The absolute truth is unlimited it's absolute that's what makes it so interesting and special and important. Another core principle is that reality is not a physical object of any kind reality is a giant mind. Human knowledge is relative truth, not an absolute truth The problem with your logic is that all the impermanent stuff (form) is also equally conscious, and is also Absolute. You have denied the absoluteness and truth of form, creating a duality between form and formless. Truth-seeking is the spiritual quest the quest of seeking the truth this is the ultimate hero's journey the holy grail is the truth-finding the truth. Self-deception you have to really appreciate the power of self-deception. So we talk about God being all-powerful that God it turns out is and in a sense that is being all-powerful, well God is so powerful that God it turns out is capable of deceiving itself that it is not God. Now that takes real power to be able to do that but also at the same time God also has enough power to overcome that deception, but of course, that's going to take some work which is why awaking is possible so God has power in both directions God has the power to fully deceive itself and God has the power to awaken itself through all that infinite deception and that's the game we are playing here in life so it's a sort of tug of war this battle between truth and delusion. There cannot be anything outside your own MIND. Because your MIND IS INFINITE. If anything existed outside your own MIND then GOD would not be omnipotent nor omniscient. As soon as you imagine any sense of "other" you lose your omnipotence and omniscience. This is the very mechanism by which GOD becomes not-GOD. It is absolutely true that all humans are a dream. You don't like to accept that because you will feel lonely and very depressed. Therefore you refuse to surrender the imagining of other people and you blame and project onto me as misunderstanding spirituality when of course the one who doesn't understand spirituality is you. You are a perfect case study of how Buddhism and nonduality lead to self-deception and false spirituality. You have been trying too hard to be a good little Buddhist boy, but none of that will ever be enough to AWAKEN. You must destroy all of Buddhism and nonduality if you actually want to AWAKEN. Pretty obvious stuff. The brain cannot hallucinate. The brain is a hallucination More like GOD learns to trust its own sovereignty. Always be kind, always!!!! never be cruel or cowardly. Jehovah increases" is a phrase that refers to the idea that God wants to give people more of his gifts, such as wisdom, strength, and love. It is also the meaning of the names Jessup and Josefine names Jessup and Josefine. Explanation Jessup A boy's name that is a phonetic spelling of the Middle English pronunciation of Joseph. Joseph comes from the Biblical Hebrew name Yehôsêph. Josefine A girl's name that is a respelling of Josephine. It is related to the biblical name Joseph. Jehovah An approximation of the holiest name of God in Hebrew. It was so sacred that it was never written or spoke Jessup is a boy’s name from the Biblical Hebrew Joseph, meaning “Jehovah increases.” Joseph ultimately derives from Yehôsêph, which has contemporary variations like Yossi and Yosef. what is going???? on, God playing games with God? Jehovah (usually rendered “Lord” in the King James Version) appears often in the Scriptures. Jehovah means “the Eternal One, the Unchangeable One, the One Who was, and is, and is to come.” When Moses met God in the burning bush, he asked His name. “And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you” (Exodus 3:14). God spoke as Jehovah, the self-existent God. infinite universal mind When I was growing up, one could say I was an introvert, but you know what I became an extrovert and respected all my friends for who they were I Love you all. Now, I am more like an introvert, And you know what, so what if you are different or weird you are part of my friendship. Jessup is a surname and boy's name that means "Jehovah increases". It comes from the Biblical Hebrew name Joseph, which is derived from Yehôsêph

Never said such a thing. It takes infinite levels of self deception, intelligence and perfection to delude and limir God/yourself/Reality in such a way. Why are you trying so hard to reduce perfection down to nothingness? Each facet of the Absolute is Sovereign in itself and hence I claim that Perfection is such a One.

You need a very strong alignment with your values to do what you truly value. Silence, pause, void, nothingness; all of these are essential for alignment. External world is a noise, at one point you have to do some serious reflection and be clear about your values. But if you live against your values, or your environment is such that your values have to be hidden from yourself, they never come to the surface. This is why most people try to drown themselves in various things; money, drinks, drugs, sex, social media. And most of these to some extend is encouraged by society because of the majority's tolerance level. Also the human excuse of being social creatures. On enjoying life, do you value it enough? Or is it some second priority? Human body is designed with too many flaws. If you drink tonight, you can't focus tomorrow. Pleasure and work bleed into each other. Work Life balance is a myth. It's all part of the whole. The more you try to seperate it, the more neurotic you become.

I've seen Qi, but I've never seen atoms with the naked eye. Unless the visible Qi is physical atoms. When gazing at the sky you can see white blood cells shooting through the capillaries in the physical eye. It's called the blue light entoptic effect. I've seen particles significantly smaller by a factor of a hundred or something, and the sort of Nothingness is literally infinitely smaller and so as eternity-infinity is "quantum", though I don't think science would recognize that I can literally see atoms and subatoms and whatnot.

Every minute, every moment is an opportunity to experience enlightenment. Blissful awareness. Unfuck-edness. So how did you feel enlightenment today? By giving up some of your stress..... So how did you feel enlightenment today? By not caring at all..... So how did you feel enlightenment today? By surrendering into the stillness of a moment So how did you feel enlightenment today? By being less worried about survival So how did you feel enlightenment today? By being one with the universe So how did you feel enlightenment today? By having more silence in your day Enlightenment is the solitude in solitude, the nothingness of nothing, the absolute splendour, silence and joy of every minute in infinity. That tapestry is enlightenment.

Yesterday, I took 260 micrograms of LSD at around 8:00 in the morning. I began with a 30 minute meditation, focusing deeply on the questions, “What am I?” and “What is existence?” After about 30 minutes, I felt the urge to go for a walk and enjoy the morning sun, so I went to get a decaf coffee. As I was returning home, the effects of the LSD began to intensify. My sense of physicality started to dissolve, and the world around me took on an ethereal, almost divine quality. It felt as though I were walking in the Garden of Eden a place of pristine beauty and interconnectedness. I gradually lost the concept of myself walking on planet Earth in London, and the experience became more direct and immersive. When I got home, I sat on my couch and decided to listen to Leo’s “God Inquiry.” As I followed his guidance, my consciousness began to rise to unprecedented levels. It felt as if I were shedding layers of my ego, and I started to experience a dissolution of self. This was a level of awareness that I don’t believe is attainable through meditation alone. There was resistance a fear of letting go completely but I consciously decided to surrender to the experience and dive deeper. The first thing I noticed was that perception is a fiction. There is no one perceiving anything; there never was a human looking out into the world and perceiving it. Instead, the world is constructing everything and creating the illusion of perception. In lower states of consciousness, you mistake this for you perceiving a world. Here, I reached a profound realization: everything simply is. There are no distinctions, no separations. My body, the room, the world everything is one unified reality, manifesting itself without differentiation. It is self-aware and conscious of itself. The reason there is no perception is because everything is already aware of itself. I like to think of it as an analogy: a picture of a man looking at the world, but underneath, they are actually connected. My hands fascinated me. As I looked at them, I could see how they were materializing out of nothing that nothingness is pure divinity. Everything is absolutely divine; it’s the divine spark that created all of existence. I realized that my hands extended infinitely, and I am inevitable because there is no other way I could be. I am doing this because I can. I broke down in tears, overwhelmed by the realization that I am creating everything. I could see how everything is unified, and I finally understood that this is what love is: total love, God’s love for everything because it is everything. As the peak began to subside, I saw clearly that all the hatred and negativity I had ever harbored were products of my own selfish agenda my ego clinging to separateness and self-preservation, refusing to surrender to the flow of being. I started crying uncontrollably, overwhelmed by a sense of love and forgiveness. I apologized to life, to existence itself, for all the hatred I had held onto. I saw that life is not something to be fought against but something created out of infinite love. Even the separations we perceive between body and mind, self and other are born out of this love. This experience has completely transformed my perspective. It wasn’t just an intellectual understanding; it was visceral and undeniable. Everything is simply being itself, perfectly and exactly as it is meant to be. There is no judgment in reality, no right or wrong just infinite love expressing itself in countless forms. I emerged from this journey deeply humbled and profoundly grateful, with a renewed sense of purpose and connection.

What's up, y'all. First trip report in years. No, the title is not clickbait, I actually became Trump on today's trip (read on). A little context... From 2019-2023, ALL my LSD/mushroom trips ran exactly the same. Light-hearted "museum" dose trips where I explored my senses and let my consciousness roam around my environment. But 2024-now? Trips literally teleport me between "this" reality and somewhere else. In today's 3.5g mushroom trip, I had the usual come-up symptoms: - tingly feeling along spine - visual enhancements - clear insights I lied down on my hotel room floor, windows shades open, so the sun could shine on my body. The warmth felt amazing. When it felt natural I got up and sat in my bed (like I was on a roller coaster waiting to depart the station). I got really cold so I put on several layers. What happened next I could not have predicted. I felt like I hitched a ride on a rocket ship leaving the planet - no control. I surrendered my entire being. I became the earth. Climate change took over. As the earth, I watched forests get wiped-out by 10,000 mph winds. Earthquakes shaking all civilization down. Then, even more shocking... I BECAME Donald Trump. I merged with his consciousness and experienced billionaire wealth and supreme commander power. It felt great and shockingly I felt no resistance (I'm not a Trump fan by the way). From here I got up and looked out of my 6th floor hotel window. I observed the busy Taco Bell with pure awareness. I felt the struggle of the drive thru patrons as they confusingly navigated the poor set-up. All seen from an eagle-view. What happened next is where it got CRAZY. I slid into my FIRST EVER rodeo with infinite love. I get swept up in a fuckin oceanic hurricane of deep, pure love. I started flipping around my hotel room. I tore my bed apart and summer-salted off of it 2 or 3 times (somehow didn't sustain any injuries). Just when I thought it was over, it was not. The love kept getting more and more infinite. It was so good I couldn't fucking believe it... pure ecstasy. I could literally hear the frequency in my ears getting higher and higher as I soared beyond reality. I thought of Ken Wilber, Peter Ralston, Leo. I realized I'm creating them and I became conscious of how I was doing it. The whole time I felt like I was orgasming HARD from my root through my ribs. Tears slowly and gently leaked out of my eyes and into nothingness. I knew trips could take you places, but this was a totally different level. Who else has had such experiences???

There wasn't anyone there! It was recognized that even the idea of something called "the truth" stemmed from this nothingness or illusion of self! ❤️

God (White) = Oneness Nothingness (Black) = Empty Infinity (Purple) = Everything Devil (Black) = Seperation Love (Yellow) = Union (Cyan) = Objective Personality System Demon (Cyan)= Negligent Savior (Cyan)= Responsible Introfem (Cyan) = Shadow Extramasc (Cyan) = Light Red Arrow = Feminine = Movable Blue Arrow = Masculine = Solid

Soul is nothingness, or god. You can not understand it. You can only Be.

took like 100ug lsd because i had pain 2 years ago, fell asleep and deconstructed reality in nothingness. Woke up, i'm in the same bed/reality but it looked different that i could tell i'm in a different dimension. Went outside to my garden and it was like i was in after death realm, i could make a door look good/bad or ground look good/bad and see it's structure as just digital patterns etc. Noticed i could hear the same sound of pigeon flying around all the time, looked up and the pigeon was stuck in a looped time frame would fly over my head then reset and do it all over again all the time. I thought i broke time/reality and thought i would never get back, so i started walking in loops like a bot. Also was looking out of my window and could imagine people out of existence. Every time i looked at time it would be like 9:37 always, so i also thought i was stuck in eternity.